i'm probably on a list now

anonymous asked:

I'm probably gonna kill myself. I don't know what else to do.

don’t kill yourself now, tomorrow, tonight, or in anytime because you are worth living with thousands of reasons to be happy, i feel bad for you in what you’ve been through but trust me these thoughts are going to fade away sooner, i love you, people around you loves you and they do appreciate you no matter what. please stay strong because there are plenty reasons to live and i’ll just list you as many as i can okay?

  • you have forever to be dead
  • for that comforting feeling when a cat finally allows you to pick them up and sticks by your side
  • life can be beautiful
  • everything will balance out
  • new music
  • books you can’t put down
  • theres still so much to discover
  • you are needed
  • sleep food
  • a hot cup of tea
  • how awesome it feels when class gets cancelled
  • kittens
  • hearing a song that has been stuck in your head all day
  • the smell of cookies in the oven
  • when your parents are proud of you
  • when your favourite song comes on the radio
  • there are beautiful places to see
  • bucket lists to complete
  • rules to break
  • art to see & create
  • to fade your scars
  • to find something you believe in
  • to help someone
  • falling asleep to rain
  • smiling at strangers
  • 7 billion people you haven’t met yet

I’m a bit blown (DOINKED) by how well timed and amazing this milestone is for me. Thank you so much for following!

I have to mention a few names. There is a multitude of talented FFXIV blogs I follow and reblog from, as well as amazing mutuals that have influenced me with their own final fantasy blogs. I love final fantasy, it’s no secret, so when I joined tumblr and followed these blogs immediately and they’ve given me entertainment ever since. 

I love you @cactuarqueen, @ethernalium, @newty, @steffydoodles, @kukurubean, @themeifantasy, @snurbleberry, @solfreyr , @wyrmforge , @sylvan-rain , @quartercirclejab , @korpokkur-kid , @mcstronghuge , @necrologos@ladyrivienne , @devalentione I know I’m missing names and I hate it, but you account for a good chunk of my content (reblogs) and that’s everything I love. 

I can only do so much content, that’s why I absolutely enjoy showcasing content of interest on my blog. More than that, I’ve reached out and bothered all of you with final fantasy, metal gear, nier, or anything of interest going on with games! And I love it!

I look forward to bothering you guys more about final fantasy/nier/metal gear/whatever else sinks it’s claws into me. 

I know you guys are super excited about stormblood (and so am I) but I wanted to get this out of the way before I get sucked into stormblood so, thank you for following, I hope to continue to give you guys entertaining stuff!

francesofsuburbia  asked:

Hi Hiller- when I was younger I loved to draw. I'm an adult now and for some reason when I sit down in front of a piece of paper I don't know what to do. What advice do you have for a grown up who forgot how to draw?

Oooh that’s a tricky one. Sitting in front of a blank piece of paper is probably the most intimidating thing and has always been kind of scary for me. I’ve come up with a list of things for you to try to make drawing a bit easier.

A. Work on old paper/materials. End papers from discarded books, craft pads from second hand stores, a notepad from grandma’s junk drawer, a cool piece of wood you find in a dumpster, stuff like that. It takes away the pressure of having to create a perfect thing if the material you’re working on is already flawed or smells weird.

B. Draw a lot. It doesn’t matter if it’s good or bad. Only a small fraction of things I draw end up being shared, maybe every one out of twenty things will be decent. What people don’t see is the heap of not-so-great things I create in the process of making that one thing. If you’re drawing different ideas all the time, and thinking of how to make those ideas better when you’re not drawing, eventually you will get better and the good ideas will come more easily and more frequently.

C. It’s incredibly hard to draw when you are overly prepared to draw. Sitting down with the intent to create a perfect drawing adds a terrible amount of pressure and is the thing that trips so many people up and makes it hard to even start creating in the first place. Draw informally, when you’re watching television or listening to music. Watch a movie and draw a picture of something you hear that would be interesting when taken out of context. Try to not think too much about it. Approach drawing from an angle, not head on, if that makes sense.

D. Finding your subject matter can also be difficult and may be what you’re actually talking about here. A few things influence the content of my drawings:

  1. Inspiration from the world around me. Other artists’ work, books I read, music, conversations I have while waiting to buy groceries, things like this.
  2. My feelings and internal dialogue, what I’m thinking about or am moved by or want to express to others. Daydreams, real dreams, imagined conversations are all good sources for drawing material as they are things that no one else would ever know about unless you expressed them.
  3. My ability as an artist. I am less of an M. C. Escher and more of a David Shrigley. You have to find the right spot on the infinitely wide spectrum of art in which you can create work that you like and you think is good. I like drawing amorphous shapes and faces and fun things, so that is where I’m currently situated. Agnes Martin drew lines and dots and is well known because she was super good at it.

Hopefully, at some point, 1, 2, and 3 will come together and allow you to create something that you consider great or good or even okay will do sometimes.

I think those are four good things to think about. The very beginning is the hardest part when it comes to making art, I wish we could all just skip it. Hopefully this will help you, and maybe others, get started again.


Darkiplier getting upset with how none of his attempts to seduce his person of interest (POI) are working, so he decides to speed up the process by leaving his POI in a pocket dimension where only the void and endless nothingness exists. The POI starts to slowly lose their mind as the nothingness seemingly engulfs them entirely. With nothing to process, their brain starts imagining terrors beyond their most horrifying nightmares, and haunting sounds coming from nowhere but their own head. They get so desperate to feel or see something in the endless void that they start clawing at their skin, just so the pain can distract them from the maddening nothingness and they can experience any sort of sensation. Even pain is better than emptiness. When Dark finally goes to retrieve his POI, they’re a blabbering, shaking mess. They hurl themselves into Dark’s arms, begging for forgiveness as they sob loudly. Dark spends the rest of the day with his POI, hugging and kissing them, running his hands through their hair, listening to music with them, sitting in the sun, whispering in their ear. Dark’s favorite thing to do is try to leave the room only to have his emotionally broken POI break down sobbing because they can’t stand to be left alone again. Even if his POI recovers physically from the experience, the threat alone of being sent back is more than enough to warrant their immediate obedience.

Classic Literature Bad Boy Crushes, A Ranking

Level 1: Mr. Darcy. Strictly entry-level. Really just awkward and kinda rude, hasn’t killed anyone.

Level 2: Lord Byron. Significantly edgier, with a laundry list of real and fictional misdeeds. Probably killed someone at some point.

Level 3: Rodion Raskolnikov. Welcome to Russian literature. You’re definitely lusting after a murderer now, but at least he’s repentant.

Level 4: Nikolai Stavrogin. You’ve graduated to Dostoevsky’s Baddest Boy. He kills people and doesn’t even feel bad after. You’re equally repulsed and turned on (as was everyone in the novel, it’s OK) and beyond all help.

Level 5: Satan.

First Lines

Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories. See if there are any patterns. Then tag 10 of your favourite authors!

(Insert) Bossy instructions.  I will do what I want.  *glares*  (…I may be too bored right now.)

Tagged by @jadepresley <33

1. People never stopped watching him --You and Me

2.It’s just…”  Draco sighed, looking down at his rucksack gloomily. “I’m trying. I don’t know why he hates me so much.  It’s not as if I’m not trying.” –The Man In the Scarlet Cloak

3. Draco is elbows-deep in paperwork when the scent of fresh coffee assaults him.  None of that shit from the canteen; real, spiced coffee, the steam of which makes his muscles tense with longing.  He looks up to see Pansy standing there, her slickly red-polished nails a bright splash against the paper cup she’s holding out like an offering. How To Catch A Weasley (And Maybe A Potter, Too)

4. Harry tugged on his tie in the futile attempt to straighten it.   Allowing Hermione to dress him had seemed like a good idea at the time. But he’d rather assumed that, knowing him, she’d pick something more casual, and perhaps with more room–like a comfortable set of semi-formal robes. 100,000 Galleons

5. “Do we always have to fight first?” Harry asks breathlessly, shoving his hips forward in a quick rhythm. The Things They Never Say

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anonymous asked:

hi, so as a writer of both, I was wondering - what do you think is the biggest difference between Destiel and Cockles? I'm okay with whatever angle you choose to take this question from - that's interesting info too. love u (also, EN's not my first language, so if that didn't make sense I'm so sorry)

this makes total sense, dude, your english is perfect.

there are lots of differences between destiel and cockles so how bout i just list them all

  • sam and jared - there’s a big difference between probably suspecting all your life that your brother is not quite straight and just hoping that he comes out to you, and discovering that your best friend who you thought was straight is actually banging another of your best friends. sam’s reaction is more or less like “yeah i know” and jared’s is like “YOU’RE DOING WHAT NOW????????” 
  • polyamory - to me, cockles isn’t really cockles if it’s not jmdv. so, jensen’s relationship with danneel and misha’s relationship with vicki are first and foremost. whereas with dean and cas, it’s like it doesn’t make sense for them to ever be with anyone else ever. it’s a lot less complicated than being married and having a boyfriend on the side.
  • misha’s personality - i will say that misha and cas are both incredibly difficult to write, especially their dialogue. but the way they are difficult is SO different. cas is difficult because the show has not done a super great job of making his characterization consistent over the years, so a lot of his speech patterns, the way he reacts to things and his personality in general are all debatable topics. misha is difficult because,,,,,,he’s weirder and smarter and more awkward than i am. the responses misha comes up with to questions at cons are not anywhere in the vicinity of how i would respond. his humor is almost entirely based on surprising the listener, which is not easy to replicate. he switches from serious to goofy back to serious again with barely enough time to register that he switched. writing people like misha is like an algebra teacher giving u a calculus test and being like “well, u know algebra so u should be fine with calculus, too.” 
  • angst - there is almost no angst whatsoever with cockles. any angst with cockles is totally fabricated by us, the cockles fandom. in reality, cockles is pure and good and silly and funny. destiel is like the titanic of ships. 
  • i headcanon dean as strictly a bottom whereas with jensen and misha i don’t give a fuck who’s getting fucked as long as someone is getting fucked

Card Suits AU - King of Hearts, Ouma Kokichi

Ok so I came up with the idea for this au at like 3 in the morning and it stuck with me for the entire day, so now here I am. 

I’ll probably post something separate explaining a little more about this au, but basically all of the ndrv3 characters represent one of the four card suits and hold a position of either King, Queen, Jack, or Ace.

Reblog if you'd read a story about mythical creatures helping people with disorders and disabilities that doesn't end with them simply being "healed"

I want to see what the demand for this would be if I write this.

future muses to add:
+ kamui from fe15
+ lukas from fe15

future blogs to make:
+ jesse from fe15
+ fernand from fe15


Basically, I’m just making an excuse where people assumed Genji’s a playboy cause it’s like he’s got a date daily, but in reality, he just meets up with his brother somewhere in Japan that’s NOT in Hanamura so they could date in peace.

Their usual routine would be finding the best Ramen and waste their time at the Arcades… Whaaat? Who says Hanzo doesn’t play in Arcades! He’s quite a gamer whenever he wants to beat his brother’s High Scores.ヽ(´▽`)/

anonymous asked:

Yo! I really, really, really love the rec list you did - I'm currently reading through it, and you have great taste, so thank you for that. But I've read almost all of them by now which means I'll be finished in a few days, and I'll probably painfully die when that happens, so what I'm asking is if you could do another rec list soon? (please please please?) x

I don’t have a list planned out, but check out my rec list tag for great rec lists and pairing: drarry tag for fics I’ve rec’d before.

707 Call Times (707 Route Only, Corrected)

I made a post about 707 call times here and there were a few errors here and there that I’ve fixed! I’ve combed through the calls twice over to check it all, but if there’s still any errors, do let me know and I’ll try seeing what’s up! Now that I’ve looked more into it, remember to call after reading these chats! It seems to work that way rather than just being within the time frame.

Also, an observation I’ve made just in case it’ll help anyone is if you miss chats where you can get calls and you’re willing to dish out the hourglasses, you can still get them! Once you purchase at least the chat the call takes place on and the chat directly after, you should be able to after reading it, even if you’ve heard a call that happens later on and all that jazz. 

And now onto the chats!: 

Day 3: After “Stayed Overnight T_T”

Day 4: After “Zen’s Imagination”

Day 5: After “Strange Alarm”, “Every 2.35 Seconds”, “Jumin…!!,” “Seven’s True Feelings” and “I think my head is broken”

Day 6: After “Mysterious Email”, “I’m Recovered!”, “JUMIN!!!!! T_T” and “Family Reunion”

Day 7: After “Seven is Depressed…?”, “Sentimental Morning”, “Do not move”, “Unbelievable” and “The only hope”

Day 8: After “What is V doing?”, “I cannot believe Rika did that”, “What can I do” and “The secrets Seven has”+VNM

Day 9: After “Shaking Faith”+VNM, “It has nothing to do with you”+VNM, “Jaehee’s consolation” and “What a relief”+VNM

Day 10: After “Everything I believed in”, “Betrayal”, “I can’t Get Over This”,    “We are on our way” (it’s actually a phone call to Jumin- Seven briefly participates no matter what you pick in the first set of options and it’s quite entertaining!) and “Goodbye Greetings”

Day 11: Call him back when you finish talking to him when he calls after the 8:00am chat

anonymous asked:

send me i wish you would write a fic where… Kyo and Kaoru are in bed after a concert and Kaoru is sooo sleepy but Kyo is revved up and being all fidgety making it impossible for Kaoru to fall asleep. and just cuteness, fluff and rainbow.

*sighs heavily* Okay! I will. But, knowing me it’s gonna end up nsfw and longer than I would count as a minific, so I will write it and I will post it on my ao3 ehhhhh by the end of the month (I know I’m terrible, but I’m in the middle of a couple of other things rn, but yes okay, I will do it, that sounds cute).

Send me stuff for Sleepover Saturday Friday

aradow  asked:

I've seen a few of your comics, and I see you brainstorming with had cannons, or talking able how you are working on some head cannons. But do you post those in a specific place? Is there somewhere I could see more of this cause I'm really intrigued every time you bring the subject up. Or even other fandom you think about.

I don’t post anything anywhere else besides this blog (headcanon-wise), so whatever’s here is what exists.

I’ve got a lot of stuff that’s “in progress” that hasn’t been posted yet, like the ‘Frisk is younger’ AU. In Google-Drive limbo right now, lol

I think that one will end up being turned into some sort of illustrated fanfic that I’ll post in pieces. It’s gotten way, WAY too long and involved to become an actual comic. Truthfully, I’d love to make something like Storyshift that does fake screenshots and sprite edits, but I don’t know how hard that is to do.

Comics that I might’ve mentioned before that I’m currently working on:

  • Papyrus dealing with separation guilt from Sans (short)
  • The bros go on a road trip (very short)
  • A Post-Pacifist Chara comic (very short)
  • Post-Pacifist Sans walks Frisk home from school and things happen (short)
  • Frisk arrives in the Underground on Christmas Giftmas Day (short-ish) (hopefully I’ll get it done for this holiday, already missed the last two lmao)
  • Post-Pacifist Frisk and Napstablook run away from home (long)

Those are my biggest priorities that I absolutely want to get done. They’re not abandoned in the slightest, I just haven’t had time to finish them yet. It doesn’t help that I keep bouncing between projects.

And as always, I still intend to complete the Archie Sonic Gijinka project 100%. Maybe over the summer I can at least catch up to the rebooted cast.

These are ‘I’d like to, but just maybe’s right now:

  • ‘Papyrus is marginally better at his job’-Tale (long) (Worst comes to worst, I’ll describe it in text and share it that way. The plot’s almost completely written already.)
  • More Post-Pacifist Sans and Papyrus separation shorts, I have a lot to talk about with this.
  • Redo of that ‘Sans nightmare’ fic I mentioned that went with the old black and white comic.
  • A Sonic comic that’s been a WIP for 7 years, but the script and some of the layouts are mostly done for a bunch of issues. (obscenely long)
  • Finishing the Relic/Eclipse crack ship comic I did years ago. (medium length)

But everything else tends to be only partially formed ideas that don’t get made into anything. If it’s not on either of those lists, it’s probably not going anywhere? I’m not great at getting long story ideas hammered into something decent. I really need to find a good beta reader, tbh.

But if there’s ever something you want me to elaborate more and talk about, just ask about it! I’ll do my best to come up with more headcanons and ideas. And maybe it’ll jumpstart me into making something more involved for it.

I mean the funny thing is I don’t remember selling my soul to Marvel? It just sort of happened…
—  Me to a therapist probably in the near future
Kagehina Fic Rec List!!!

Hey guys! Bobbie here, also anonymouschupacabra on AO3. I’ve gotten a lot requests for kagehina fanfic recommendations so I’ve decided to make a masterlist of my favorite fics (all completed fics) that I’ve read (and I have read a lot.) these just go in order of longest to shortest, not in order of how much i like them because let’s be honest, if they are here i love them all.

Being Seventeen Sucks (Words: 125,028) This fic was so good and very angsty (which I love). It’s a third year fic and there’s a lot of “oh fuck I think I’m gay for my best friend???” and angsty drama between them. And it has Kageyama and Tsukki as friends which is my weakness. But I’m not joking about the angst. It’s really really good, but angsty.

I like the way your clothes smell: (Words: 74,953) Ok obviously this fic had to be here, I mean it’s like THE kagehina fic that everyone has to read. I feel like I don’t even need to give a bit of description because I think everyone knows about it and if you don’t then OMG READ IT RIGHT NOW IT’S AWESOME there’s a reason that it’s super well known.

The Kids Aren’t Alright:  (Words: 69,496) lmao i’m just putting this here cause i’m annoying ( it is mad good though) 

Thaw: (Words: 40,149) I really like this one. It’s a college AU which I love (obviously) It’s another one where Kageyama is like “oh my god am I gayyyy???? for hinata??? a boy??? gay????” and gosh darn it if I don’t just love those. the cliche I know, but the cliche for a reason

change in pressure: (Words: 36,516) this is a really good trans!Hinata fic and I just love it. I love trans!Hinata in general and this is in combination with empath!Kageyama. also pretty angsty, not as much as other fics but really good

Lay us Down: (Words: 32,538) Ok i’m pretty sure I’ve talked about this fic here before and that’s because its SO AMAZING. honestly i read this fic all in one sitting, like I woke up, had some time before I needed to get out of bed, downloaded it all and read the whole fucking thing in one shot on the train. I was fucking crying on the train, weeping like a baby at the end but it hurt so good. it’s inspired by the movie Seeking A Friend For The End of The World but only share some similarities with the movie. I wasn’t expecting to love it as much as I do, but I really do. I think this is the Kagehina fic I’ve recommended the most. But be ready to fucking cry.

Saffron and Cayenne Pepper: (Words: 30,772) I really like this fic. Something about a sexy chef Kageyama teaching Hinata how to cook is so appealing to me. and they’re neighbors (which obviously I love). It’s just sweet and cute, but they fight so it’s very in character for the both of them. 

where the night goes: (Words: 20,821) this is another fic (by an incredible writer who I am so jealous of their talent) that everyone either knows or should know about. It’s a future fic that takes place where they are both 24 and they haven’t seen each other since they’ve graduated high school. and it’s a m a z i n g. seriously it’s so good, this is another fic that I read in one go because I couldn’t put it down. please read it, it’s so beautifully written it made me want to never write again out of shame and jealousy. 

Not Alone : (Words:13,093) I love this fic, for so many reasons. I love future fics. I love drunk confessions. I love hopelessly in love Kageyama. I love them vowing to work out a long distance relationship. but probably most importantly I love kageyama covered in tattoos (another obvious thing). this fic is short and I needed like 100k more words, but it’s perfect and i love it so much.

ok so that’s my Kagehina Fic Rec list…for now. I know that it seems short and that’s only because I only read completed fics. so although i know there are amazing fics that aren’t on this list, that’s because they are either incomplete or in the process of being completed. this list can be updated as more fics are completed but for now, this are my kagehina fic recs.