if i exercise wearing a binder, it will constrict my lungs and make it nearly impossible for me to breathe during physical activity. if I'm exercising outside and it's hot, the extra layers I have to put on to conceal the binder could cause me to have a heat stroke and pass out. however, if I don't wear a binder, it becomes almost impossible for me to use the local gym. the combination of facial hair and visible breasts puts me at risk of violence or sexual assault no matter which locker room I use. plus, if I don't bind while I exercise, I won't pass. getting misgendered depresses me and triggers a very intense dysphoria that has led me to contemplate suicide in the past.
would anyone be interested in transcriptions of different roster teeth shows like the podcasts? I know I have a lot of trouble because their videos don’t even have proper CC and I’m curious as to whether or not anyone else is interested !
“I think you were always meant to know me a little better than anyone else. And our lives were fated to converge like some cosmic dance. I know there is a terrible distance between us. But our bodies are made of celestial light, and we are hurtling through space and time, toward the most beautiful collision.”
Author’s note: Kuroshitsuji with 15. Let’s make this a competition.”
First Christmas prompt! #fail Oh well, it’s Christmas somewhere, right? Right.
Thanks so much for your lovely compliment! Hope you had a lovely Christmas and
enjoy this little fic!
Summary: When Ciel’s servants fail to make him happy
during everyone’s favorite holiday of the year, Sebastian suggests they turn
this into a small competition. The first one to make Ciel smile or laugh is the
winner and of course, as the perfect butler, Sebastian has a few tricks up his sleeve.
of snow was already penetrating his room and Ciel woke up groggily, already
annoyed at the familiar scent, and saw a blurry Sebastian preparing a cup of
tea at the foot of his bed. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, Ciel sat up
straight and let out a small huff when his butler looked up at him, the usual
smile permanently plastered on his face.
morning, young master. Did you sleep well?”
“As if you
care,” Ciel mumbled and scooted over to the side, letting his feet dangle above
the ground as Sebastian walked over to him with his tray.
the strong aroma of the earl grey tea took his mind off the fact that it was
snowing outside and he purposely held the steaming cup right under his nose,
practically forcing himself to smell nothing but that.
Oh, how he loathed this holiday. The only good
thing was the profit he made with his company because people were dumb enough
to buy presents for their loved ones. It was honestly the most useless day of
the year, along with his birthday. Winter reminded him too much of the loss of
his parents and his childhood, which was why he was giving Sebastian even more
death stares than usual.
focus on the newspaper, his breakfast or his tea for that matter. He couldn’t
even think of any random insults for Sebastian who was graciously ironing his
clothes for today.
“You seem a
bit tense today, my lord,” Sebastian mumbled as he gently dressed Ciel in a
simply, yet fancy suit for the special occasion. “Anything I can do for you to
make you feel better?”
As much as
he wanted to not go downstairs and
celebrate Christmas with the rest of his servants, Ciel didn’t have a choice so
he shook his head, shrugged Sebastian’s hand off after he had tied a red tie
around his neck and left his room, getting tailed by Sebastian’s quiet yet
he got to the main living room, he was met with an explosion of “Merry
Christmas, young master!”s, “Hope you like the presents we got you!” and “I did
all the decoratin’ myself, sir,” and Ciel couldn’t be more annoyed. Even though
they all meant well, he couldn’t help but glare at the gigantic Christmas tree
in the farthest corner of the room, decorated with sparkly baubles, angels and
everything else they could think of.
Finny started arguing with Bard about the
chocolate cake that was in the middle of the large, beautifully decorated
table, which somewhat appealed to Ciel because it was something sweet, but it
still made his eyebrow twitch.
He took a seat at the head of the table and let
Sebastian cut the first slice because it didn’t look like his servants were
going to stop bickering any time soon. Mey-Rin was doing her best to stop them
by flailing around like a butterfly while Tanaka sat in his usual corner,
drinking his tea.
No matter what
they did, they couldn’t get Ciel to be excited about Christmas. Every person
in that room knew why he was not going to put on a fake smile, or at least
pretend he liked the presents they got him, because everything about this
holiday reminded him too much of the fire. So instead of listening to them
constantly trying to cheer him up with silly stories, dance-moves and more
sweet foods, Ciel just sat there, resting his cheek in the palm of his hand,
watching them with a blank expression.
Somewhere in the back of his mind he did
appreciate their efforts, namely Finny’s because he was trying the hardest by
hugging him close and running his rough fingers through his hair while the others
simply ran around in circles like lunatics. Sebastian was watching everything
quietly, his blood colored eyes containing a neutral glitter while he cleaned
“It’s no use,” Mey-Rin said, totally and
utterly defeated as she held her face. “We cannot
make the young master happy. And I thought he’d surely enjoy our presents
“It’s obviously not his favorite day of the
year,” Finny mumbled quietly against the back of his head and pulled away. “Did
you at least enjoy the cake, my lord?”
“I did, it was quite tasty,” Ciel replied
honestly and cleaned his fingers with his handkerchief, feeling undeniably cold
without Finny’s presence. “You did a good job on that.”
They had probably put loads of sugar in it to
hide their mistakes because it was a tad bit too sweet, but since he liked
sweet things, he didn’t have anything to complain about. Plus, it was fun to
see Sebastian’s disapproving look when he said that, obviously not pleased with
the fact they made a cake without his surveillance. The latter was what made
the white lie worth it because Sebastian was looking between him and the cake
with the sourest expression he had ever seen.
However, the irritated expression was soon
replaced with a cool one and Sebastian straightened up. “Let’s make this a
competition, then. See who can cheer the young master up today. The winner can
relax and take it easy for the rest of the day.”
That asshole clearly had a plan and Ciel did not like where this was going. Not one
“Excuse you and your face,” he sneered and dropped his fork.
“But we’ve already tried everything!” Finny
exclaimed, tears apparent in his large eyes. “D’you have any other ideas, then,
“I do,” Sebastian smiled and looked down at
Ciel with a rather mischievous, demonic look. “What kind of butler would I be
if I didn’t even know how to cheer up our beloved young master?”
Okay, Ciel debated with himself for a minute.
He could either give in and put a fake smile right now to get this over with or he could bite and see what kind of
stupid plan this guy had. Seeing as he did
like a challenge, Ciel decided to give them their needed permission with a
mere flick of his wrist and watched everyone run around the house, trying their
best to find something that would a bring a smile to his face.
Sebastian remained by his side during their
frantic search, acting exceedingly patient and content, making Ciel even more
annoyed because what was Sebastian’s
oh so flawless plan?
Everyone else seemed to suck at making him smile,
as usual. Finny had put on this idiotic clown costume and tried to entertain
him by throwing some brightly colored balls in the air, Bard wanted to drag him
to the kitchen to let him blow things up because “That always cheered me up
when I was little!” but Sebastian promptly stopped him from doing so with a
rather forced smile and Mey-Rin tried to show off her skills by balancing a
couple of plates on her hands, shoulders and head. She failed of course and
Sebastian was quick enough to catch all of them before they would hit the
ground and shatter into pieces.
After some more failed tries, Bard tried
telling a few funny stories about his childhood, along with a few very bad
jokes, Finny went to the garden to bring in some flowers and Mey-Rin just kept tripping
over her own feet and dropping furniture whenever she came up with a new plan. Tanaka
remained silent throughout the day, chuckling every now and then while he
watched their pure yet competitive attempts.
At the end of the day, none of them succeeded
and Ciel was left exhausted and bored of their endless, non-entertaining
actions. “I’m gonna go to bed.”
He was about to get up but Sebastian, that
smug-looking bastard, held out an arm and his smile widened. “Excuse me, sir,
but I’m still allowed to give it a try,
am I not?”
Ciel sighed and sat back down, folding his arms
over his chest. “Right, I almost forgot. Go ahead.”
It was undoubtedly the biggest mistake he had
ever made. Sebastian strode over to the back of his chair and placed both of
his hands on his shoulders and Ciel felt himself frowning because he had no idea
what to expect. Everyone watched in anticipation as Sebastian’s hand gently
slipped down his torso, causing Ciel’s body to twitch lightly and right when he
was onto him, it was already too late.
Rating: Well, THIS is…let’s call it an M rating up to this point…
Summary: Set during the summer training camp. Abe wants to get to know Mihashi better, find out about what he likes… Abemiha. Hospital. Sexytimes. You can guess the fourth ingredient at play, here. *waggles eyebrows*
There’s more of this coming, but it’s taking me longer than expected. But I wanted to post something! Even though it’s already so late… T_T
ETA: hey sup if you want the full version of this, it’s here.