i'm on my day off

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Run. Seriously, just run. Run and do not look back, ever. Get the hell out of there. It’s not sweet, it’s not romantic, and it’s only ever going to get worse. RUN.

I complain bitterly about TMNT 2012. All the time. 

Literally every chance I get, I’ll complain about the character dynamics being shot, the countless wasted and/or dropped plot lines, and the shitty, short-changed character arcs. I am literally that post about loving something and everyone knowing it, except it’s the opposite and I hate my favorite series. Now this wouldn’t be a problem, if say

everyone I complained to already knew and accepted the fact that I’m obsessed with animated turtles.

It is a shame, and a real struggle, that most people do not.

I will be on a rant, about how mad I am about Karai’s/April’s/Shinigami’s treatment as a female character lately, or about the wasted potential of Casey and Donnie’s quite literally explosive friendship, or how Splinter turned into a real deadbeat dad in the end and had the worst case of favoritism for Leo ever-

and then the person I’m ranting at will inevitably ask, “Hey, what series is this again? It sounds pretty cool/detailed/something-or-other-that-everyone-says-when-they’re-politely-interested-in-something.”

And then, I’ll have to rapidly try to find a series name that isn’t about animated turtles, one that also isn’t aimed at much younger audiences than me, and will probably say some shitty English translation of an anime title or an obscure live action series and pray to the furthest ring gods that this person doesn’t watch whatever I’m bullshitting in that moment.

If anyone thinks I’m kidding about this, I’m sorry to tell you, I’m really not. My struggle is real and I need to get a handle on my shitty obsession.

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nine in the afternoon // panic! at the disco

there’s something about even’s little nod in this scene 

because even knows. he’s not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. he’s been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other people 

earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadn’t told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didn’t want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says

do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way he’s been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how they’d been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okay’s (been together since we were 15. okay. can’t dump her. okay). do you think that even who’s been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isak’s face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?

of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, he’s only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, it’s like he’s saying i see you, i see it, i’ve seen you for a while. it’s reassuring. it’s okay. it’s understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too

my least favorite thing is where I don’t intentionally procrastinate and instead just suddenly find out that I totally didn’t do the thing and it is now too late

I hate that thing

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i see the the “draw pearl (with ears??) at 4am when you wanna draw but don’t know what to draw” door is still jammed wide open

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#in which Kara likes to use her secret weapon now and poor Mon-El couldn’t stand a chance

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5x12 || 7x11

This is you breaking up with me. Yeah.

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with every step and jump, with every twist and dip, and with every sway and swirl, you’ve expressed yourself without uttering even a single word and to be honest, i don’t think words are enough for you to let everyone know how much you want it, how no one wants it more than you do and that’s what makes your dance the most beautiful of them all. you’ve waltzed into everyone’s hearts with your powerful moves and graceful twirls but you’ve snugged yourself in when you showed how genuine you are. your laughs that are distinctively louder than everyone else, your smiles that are brighter than the sun, even your tears that tug at every heartstrings and then you turn and spin everyone on their axis by curving your lips into a sinful smirk, moving your body in an almost illegal way, and looking like you know something that nobody else does. but that’s what makes you so endearing and special. you’re always so grateful to every one but the only one you should be the most grateful to is yourself. 

never stop standing on stage like you were meant to be there and continue the dream you have been longing for since the start. it’s only right for you to claim everything you deserve because you’ve earned it and there’s only more for you in this world and nothing less. I love you so much, my two left feet could almost dance. happy birthday to the one and only dancing machine, our precious Kim Jongin. #HappyJonginDay #종인아생일축하해

So I heard you like Shiro? I’m so proud of myself for actually finishing this and not leving it half-done on my desktop for 6 months (like I usually do~~). PS I know his mouth is uneven (he’s biting his lip, you just can’t tell because I HAVE NOT ZE SKILLZ… oh well).

I recorded this, too, so expect a speedpaint soonish. Enjoy~

Closeup below the cut aww yis:

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