i'm not wonder that no one read me

Something I’ve realised working in retail is that………..ppl just don’t fucking read……

the duality of man
  • Me: I love homestuck so much, it is so good, it is a wonderful thing, I'm so glad I decided to read it, I'm so glad it's 4/13, I'm so happy that this beautiful work of art is in my life.
  • Also Me: Ah, yes. One year since Andrew "fucking" Hussie came into my house and personally kicked me in the nads.

Aah you noticed?? I’m wondering if you’re the first one. I understand that Scrooge and Donald are the same height. Actually, I always draw him shorter because of a very personal reason. A long time ago I’d read that when you start to get older, you start to get shorter too. And Scrooge’s a rly old bird. Plus, I like the idea he helped raising Donald somehow and, idk, it sounds cute for me that his lil nephew is taller than him now. So yeah, I headcanon Scrooge shorter than Donald. Call me dumb. Here, have a very quick and very messy doodle:

It explains this better than me.

  • Person who doesn't read comics: Batman is so cool. He's such a loner. He doesn't need anyone to get the job done.
  • Me: You know he has like 9 kids, right?
  • Person who doesn't read comics: ...excuse me what?
  • Me: Yeah! Dick, Jason, Babs, Tim, Steph, Cass, Damian, Duke, and Harper.
  • Person who doesn't read comics: ...excuse me...what?
  • Me: I mean, he adopted Dick, Jason, Tim and Cass. Damian is his biological son. He just mentors the rest but they may as well be his babies. And then he has Alfred, and Leslie Thompkins, and quite a few allies he trusts. Superman, Wonder Woman. Batwoman.
  • Person who doesn't read comics: He hates Superman.
  • Me: Hahaha! Dude, they are like best bros. One time they limped through a sewer together after Metallo shot Clark with a Kryptonite bullet, reminiscing about old enemies. It was adorable!
  • Person who doesn't read comics: but-
  • Me: And then there's the squad of lady friends. Catwoman, Zatanna, Talia, Black Canary. I'm probably missing a bunch.
  • Person who doesn't read comics: I-
  • Me: :) :) :) :) :)
  • Person who doesn't read comics: BUT HE'S A LONER!
  • Me: Tell that to Damian. Bruce let him keep a cow in the batcave.
  • Person who doesn't read comics: *bursts into tears*

anonymous asked:

Hey correct me if I'm wrong bc it's been literal years since reading the PJO books, but didn't Grover fall asleep for like a year before the titan war? And if so, then WHY did no-one write a fic about him and Percy bonding over losing an entire year of their lives? AND their mental bond? And what is Grover even doing these days as Lord of the Wild? I just need more Grover in my life tbh.

he did! everyone was wondering where he was and he was asleep in a tree 

………..what a good question

  • as soon as the titan war is over and percy and annabeth have sorted their feelings out, grover and percy sit out in the strawberry fields and grover makes percy tell him everything
    • “grover you really don’t need to know how many hours of video games i played” 
      “yes i do” 
  • they find that grover is still garbage at panflute, without the monsters percy’s life is relatively boring, and that they really don’t just sit and talk enough 
  • grover also does a serious interrogation about sally and paul 
  • it ends with percy bringing grover back to see sally and she hugs him hard and then proceeds to try to feed him like two dozen batches of cookies
  • grover offers to sever the mental bond a few more times but every time he does, percy pretends not to hear
  • they get a lot better at controlling it because percy still stays away from as much technology as possible
    • sometimes percy will send weird and random thoughts to grover in the middle of class and grover is just like “dude wtf pay attention” 
    • percy once tried to use it to cheat on a test and was like “hey grover ask annabeth something” and annabeth showed up at the apartment to yell at percy and then offer studying tips/advice and a study buddy if he ever needed one
    • things get like super weird when it’s two am and neither of them can sleep and they just send back strange and sometimes deeply philosophical thoughts
      • they wake up the next morning like “all i remember is peanut butter and napoleon what happened” 
    • after tartarus, grover checks in on percy all the time. to make sure he’s eating and sleeping and taking care of himself. and to ask if he’s ok, because percy doesn’t lie as well over the mental bond
  • grover has a lot of duties as lord of the wild that percy doesn’t always understand but he always listens to grover rant about
    • he’ll latch onto the little things he knows and make commentary on that and grover is like “thank you for understanding” 
  • percy once asks grover if being lord of the wild makes him a god or what and grover just lays down on the ground for a little while because thinking about being considered a god stresses him out 
    • percy lays down with him and starts talking about the new book his mom is working on 
  • most of grover’s duties have to do with protecting animals and the environment, so percy helps him set up time with rachel so he can reach out to the mortal world as well
    • percy sits with them and tries to pay attention but sometimes he falls asleep and sometimes he doodles with whatever rachel hands him 
  • it takes a while, but eventually percy knows a lot about what grover does!!! and he’s really proud of his best friend!!!
  • one time, grover is going on and on about this problem he’s having and struggling with, and percy offers up a really informed and good suggestion and grover just stares at him for a moment and was like “how did you remember that?” 
    • percy shrugs and says “i pay attention?” 
    • grover hugs him and almost starts crying and percy is so confused

Hey kids! Quick author announcement: thanks so much for reading! We’ve made it to the end of part i, which is utter madness. My life has changed a bunch since I started working on Mimon and it’s about to start changing a bunch again. (But, with any luck, in a direction that will let me start prioritising the comic more!) The last page of part i has coincided with the same week I finish up the dregs of my studies, and so to celebrate I’m taking a couple of weeks off to drive around Scotland with my roommate. We’ll be up and running again on Monday the 19th of June, but until then, I’ll just say this: thank you so much to everyone who has supported this project, whether you’ve been following it since I first started posting sketches in late 2015, or if you stumbled across it yesterday. This is one of the first independent projects I’ve ever committed to, and it means a lot that anyone would take time out of their day to read it. The support I’ve received has been wonderful and overwhelming, and I only hope I don’t let you all down in future. See you all soon, kiss ur pets for me!

Ask meme- Voltron style

(I just wanted to make one of these ok)

Sacrifice: if u had to die for any given Voltron character, who would it be?

Race: Would u rather be galran or altean?

Painting: Which three Voltron characters sum up your personality best?

Black paladin: Assuming shiro doesn’t return, who do u think should be the black paladin in his place?

Acquaintance: If u could meet any given Voltron character, who would it be?

Lion: If u were a paladin of Voltron, what lion would u pilot?

Body swap: U now switch places with any given Voltron character, so they live ur everyday life, and u live theirs. Who would u choose?

Motherhood: U now have to adopt and raise one of the Paladins as ur own child. Which would it be?

Face: If u could take the appearance of any Voltron character, which would it be?

anonymous asked:

Hiya! I was wondering if you have any recommendations on any Johnlock Fanfics. I know I'll probably get murdered for saying this but I personally am not a big fan of fics that include smut. Plus I'm relatively new to this fandom so I'm not really sure where to start. Anyways I really enjoy your blog and you're really cool! Stay awesome my friend

It’s so hard to find non-explicit fics because I rarely read them. But here are some I could remember. Absolutely zero smut. I hope you enjoy. :D

  • A Quiet Murmuration by cathedral_carver : Just pay me back with one thousand kisses. (Teeth rotting fluff. You may die from fluff. One of my fav fics)
  • Let You Kiss Me (So Sweet and So Soft) by out_there The first time Sherlock kisses him, John keeps his eyes open, and so does Sherlock, and mostly, he wonders what Sherlock could possibly be up to. There’ll be some logic to this. Some ridiculous experiment about body warmth or respiratory rates or testing a new way of picking pockets. Sherlock does the unimaginable for bizarre reasons, but behind it, there’s always logic and curiosity. Sometimes, it just takes him a while to explain it to John. (Sweet af)
  • the lingering taste of orange juice by darcylindbergh Sherlock felt the familiar heat surge in his abdomen again at the touch: hope strung taut between head and heart as in all the quiet moments between them, when Sherlock sometimes got the clues all mixed up and thought maybe John felt something too.For once, Sherlock is the idiot. 
  • and stand there at the edge of my affection by coloredink  “You’ve written love letters,” Sherlock asserted. (Sherlock asks for John’ assistance to write a love letter)
  • Duvet (green) by Mazarin221b :  Sherlock recalibrates and restructures his mind palace so it looks like 221b. What he chooses to put in John’s room is a bit of a surprise, and a revelation. (Just read this )
  • Alone On the Water by Mad_Lori :  Sherlock Holmes never expected to live a long life, but he never imagined that it would end like this. (keep some fluffy fics handy before reading this one because after reading this your life will never be the same. Pure angst. Read the tags)
  • To Sleep Perchance to Smother Your Flatmate by Linpatootie : Sherlock wants to conduct a sleep study of sorts. John contemplates smothering him with a pillow. (1st in  4 part series “Two Coffees One Black One with Sugar Please” universe) 
  • The Love Song of Two Idiots by  SkipandDi (ladyflowdi) : The eighth time Sherlock proposed to John, it was on a Thursday afternoon in the middle of a Tesco. And like the seven times before, he got rejected. 
  • Last Call at the Homesick Pub  by Chryse : A fic taking place in the time of Sherlock’s “death” as he wanders around the world.Bittersweet.
  • For a thousand more by mysleepyhead (Shameless self promo) : This is the ending they deserve. The life they should have. The life we want for them.
  • April Sea  by ladydirewolf1 :  After Mary leaves John, Sherlock takes John to the place he spent his childhood summers. 

Me:*has lots of on going au’s that need updates*
Brain: ok you finished exams time to update everything.
Me:…
Me: but what about a Danny phantom au?
Brain: what no! Don’t start another au! Finish your current ones!
Me: *starts writing new au* sure I’ll get to it… eventually

One sec reads

Just a quick little blurbs that streamed from my head that need to get out, but no request will fill in the blanks.

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Noctis

It had been a little bit of time since you and your sweetheart got to actually hang out and be nerds within your shared apartment. Not with the upcoming meetings, speeches, and your wedding in a few weeks. Life had got pretty crazy fast and you both were one more meeting before being burned out.

 Yet this seemed to be something you both needed.

Noctis laid across your lap, as he played the latest game that he hadn’t had a chance to touch. When you suddenly notice the game paused, and the thousand-eyed stare of your love. 

“Noctis, what’s wrong?”

“I can’t remember what color our dog is.”

You didn’t know how to explain to him, that you both didn’t have a dog.

~~~~

Prompto

You had been in the bathroom getting ready, having the door closed due to if not you would be subject to a lot of embarrassing dancing pictures of your concerts.  Only to hear a knock.

“Sweetie.”

“Yes, Pom?”

“It’s me.”

“I know.”

“Your boyfriend.”

“Knew that too.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

You then heard him walk off, more than likely to get ready too. You really did love him.

~~~~

Gladiolus

You had been moving about the room for a while now, grabbing laundry, as the two of you always put it off until the last moment. When you stopped turning around to the bathroom, you heard a noise but the lights were off. You quirked an eyebrow, before pulling out your phone and texting your boyfriend. 

Are you in the bathroom with the lights off?

‘What do you care
I’m a grown man’
… 

You couldn’t stop the giggles as you picked up a dirty shirt, to be put in the wash, seeing Gladiolus three imposing dots as he followed up with his retort of questioning him. Once making it to the laundry room, you finally heard you phone bing.

‘I’ll do what I want, don’t question me.’

‘I’m not.’

‘Stubborn ass woman
I love your ass btw’

You honestly didn’t understand why you two were texting, but you could understand that you did love this man to hell and back. 

~~~~

Ignis

This was perfection, absolute perfection. No more than 24 hours ago, you were wedded to the man of your dreams. You both knew that with his job, you wouldn’t be able to take a honeymoon of any kind, yet you did not mind. 

Every day was a honeymoon, now that you were Mrs. Ignis Scientia. 

He was given the next day off, with the promise that the others would refrain from setting anything on fire, each other include. 

“Is something on your mind, husband?” You giggled, laying across the bare chest of the man that owned your entire heart. Staring into those green eyes for once without his glasses to block them. 

Ignis smiled, running a hand down your nude back, his other resting behind his head, in a moment of relaxation, “If only I had known what a wonderful piece of my soul was waiting for me, I would have come to you as soon as I learned to walk, my wife.”

You couldn’t stop the coo as your husband moved you forward for a kiss. One of many for years to come. 

~~~~

Lunafreya

You were nervous, absolutely nervous, staring at the Oracle across the table from you. So perfect, so beautiful, you’d give up everything for her in a heartbeat. Nervously you placed down your salad fork, before leaning over to the man next to you.

“Can…can you ask if she likes me?”

The man next to you was none other than Ravus Nox Fluret, he sighed looking to his sister, then to you, “You’re married of course she is rather infatuated with you.”

“Ok, but like can you still ask her?”

Ravus groaned as he turned to his sister who had witnessed the entire situation, “Lunafreya, do you still like your wife?”

“Very much so, Ravus, I’m rather in love with her.” Lunafreya smiled.

Ravus turned to you, “Will that suffice?”

You nodded softly, before leaning back over to the man, “Okay, but like for real, though. I mean like-like?”

It took everything for Ravus not to slam his head into the table, you two were honestly the gross couple he’s ever had to be in the company of. He had much rather take it within the company of Pyrna. No wonder you too often had to be seated away from each other at meals.

2

URL inspired edits [5/?] → @rhysfcyre & @fcyscnd

When she started torturing you, something snapped in a way I couldn’t explain, only that seeing you bleeding and screaming undid me. It broke me at last. And I knew as I picked up that knife to kill her … I knew right then what you were. I knew that you were my mate, and you were in love with another male, and had destroyed yourself to save him, and that … that I didn’t care. If you were going to die, I was going to die with you. I couldn’t stop thinking it over and over as you screamed, as I tried to kill her: you were my mate, my mate, my mate.
“But then she snapped your neck.” Tears rolled down his face.
“And I felt you die,” he whispered. Tears were sliding down my own cheeks.

2

BOOKS READ IN 2017radio silence by alice oseman

I wonder sometimes whether you’ve exploded already, like a star, and what I’m seeing you is three million years into the past, and you’re not here anymore. How can we be together here, now, when you are so far away. When you are so far ago? I’m shouting so loudly, but you never turn around to see me. Perhaps it is I who has already exploded. Either way, we are going to bring beautiful things into the universe.

wanna one as shit i say to my friends
  • yoon jisung: "my mom told me that she wanted me to go to stanford, and i laughed at her so hard. but then i realized she wasn't joking."
  • ha sungwoon: "i'm not short, bitch. i'm just an unlucky vertically challenged asian!"
  • hwang minhyun: "college might not work out, but you can always get a sugar daddy."
  • ong seongwoo: "the most embarrassing moment of my life was when i went to a japanese manga store with my parents and accidentally walked into the hentai section."
  • kim jaehwan: "why do people buy toys for their dogs? didn't their parents teach them not to play with their food?"
  • kang daniel: "so like are we at that point in our friendship where i can comfortably make nazi jokes with you?"
  • park jihoon: "okay so the ap test is next week, and we need someone to volunteer as tribute to fall off the second floor of the gym and critically injure themselves so we all get 5's!"
  • park woojin: "ugh i was wondering why it smelled like slut over here — it's just you."
  • bae jinyoung: "i'm so poor that i sometimes think about jumping in front of sports cars so i can sue and pay for my college tuition."
  • lee daehwi: "one time i was reading about the american revolution and came across the name george washington, and i was like 'oh, he sounds familiar!'. yeah... that's the story of how i forgot who the first president of the united states was."
  • lai guanlin: "sometimes when people talk to me, i pretend i can't speak english. ni hao bitch."

anonymous asked:

Hi, help me I watch Woman Wonder and my friend says that is biphobic (???) w these arguments: "there is no talk of about love w women on the island and everything Diana knows about sex is bc she has read it in a book " "she only beats the bad guy bc she sees the boy dies so she doesn't care about war only about him " "censored her bisexuality w women and racialized women are the ones who take the worst blows" I'm not good w words help me to counterargument bc we have seen two different movies.

Oh boy…. Alright so as requested, I come bearing counter arguments. 

(And by that I mean, mostly the amazing @kara-danvers-lena-luthor comes bearing them. This is mostly her with commentary and backup arguments from me because like 95% of this is her pure genius and I love her). Ahem! So tell your friend to pull up a chair.

1) “There’s no talk about love with women on the island and everything Diana knows about sex is because she has read it in a book.” 

Okay, but there’s no talk about hetero sex either. Even though it’s IMPLIED that Diana slept with Steve, they never EXPLICITLY talk about it. Also, which is more important to the story of Diana becoming the GREATEST WARRIOR of all times? Showing her growing up and training? Or showing her growing up and sleeping with women? I guess the answer is obvious, don’t you think?

Diana’s sexuality was not the focus of the film. Why would it be? Love and sex were not the elements that made these incredible women who they are. And just as it is implied that she slept with Steve, it can be just as easily implied that she and/or the Amazons were sexually involved with women. (More on this in a bit).

2) “She only beats the bad guy because she sees Steve dying.” 

Hon, sweetheart, pal, buddy… If your friend thinks that, they truly don’t know WW. Diana, in the comics, literally blinded herself to defeat Medusa. Do you really think she would have stopped fighting Ares? The entire movie is about Diana completing the Amazon’s mission, which is defeating Ares! Believe me, even if Steve hadn’t died, she would have found a way to defeat him. Losing Steve just gave her an extra push to finish him faster.

I argued in a previous post against the outlandish notion that Steve is the singular hero of this film. He helped save the day, she saved the world. It was Diana’s fight and strong faith in humanity that helped contribute to her victory over Ares. In her fight, she never gave up, she had a moment where some would say that hope seemed lost, but she searched within herself and fought for what she believed in. She didn’t just defeat Ares with her brute strength, just as she didn’t defeat him because the man she loved died. Ares attempted to use that against her – her anger and heartbreak. He almost succeeded but in the end she was superior because of how she was able to rise above that. Defeating him because she was angry (which was not the case) would have served your friend’s argument, but that’s simply not what happened. Next.

3) “Censored her bisexuality.” 

First of all, we need to stop with this notion that in order for us to believe someone is bisexual their dating history has to be 50% women, 50% men! (THIS!!!). Secondly, Diana herself says that men are unnecessary for pleasure! What more does your friend want?? But yes, they had to be careful, because there was a lot riding on this project: the first solo female superhero movie, the first superhero movie directed by a woman, first movie directed by a woman with over $100 million budget… so they needed to make bank!!! They needed to make sure they wouldn’t anger bigoted people, and they did an wonderful job, okay? They made it clear that Diana knows women give each other pleasure, and that she also can fall for men. It’s not erasure, it’s called playing it smart!

I’m just going to throw in the idea of the double standard here, because with arguments that get thrown around on here, we would have seen it. So stay with me. Yes, we would all love to see a wlw Wonder Woman in the movies. And it’s not too late! Who knows, maybe we will! But let’s be real here, if they threw in something really quickly about Diana actually being with a woman, or if she were in a relationship with a woman before leaving Themyscira, that would have received backlash as well. Because it would have been quick and probably only implied in the background of everything else going on. If executed poorly, it could have contributed to the stigma and one of the primary stereotypes against bisexual people! She’s in love with a woman, she meets Steve, has her canon interactions with him, leaves Themyscira (and thus the woman she loves) behind and falls in love with Steve in the short amount of time they have together? Fact: There would have been complaints there too. Sadly, you can’t satisfy all the people, all the time. 

4) “Women of color are the ones who take the worst blows.” 

What???? I’m sorry, but from all your friend’s arguments, this point is the most ridiculous one to me… Seriously, take your friend to the movie again. After the battle at the beach, an Amazon suggests killing Steve to be done with it, but it’s a black Amazon who is the voice of reason and tells the Queen herself that they should listen to what he has to say. 

A black Amazon, Artemis, is portrayed as the strongest among them. She’s the one who hits Diana in the face during Diana’s last training. She’s the one that you see in the first scene of the Amazon’s training shaking off her attackers like they’re nothing. That’s the point! She’s a brick wall! The one to beat. And that isn’t racist. Honey that’s goals. As a black woman I was proud to see that bit! (Not to mention, Artemis was white in her original comic book appearances. She was portrayed as a black woman, I believe in later editions and in a 2009 film. The issue would have been making Artemis the pony-tailed redhead we see originally, but instead we got the amazing Ann Wolfe. So~)

Also after they listen to Steve, and Diana asks her mom to send the Amazons back with him, one of them asks, “What are you talking about, child?” To which Diana replies, “Forgive me, Senator” and guess what? That Amazon is black as well, meaning that they hold high ranks in their society. So I really don’t know what your friend is going on about.

This is a good segue to return to the issue of erasing the Amazon’s sexuality and still tying it in with issues of race. Fun little fact that I learned today:

Why is this important? Who is Phillipus? 

☝☝She is☝☝

Queen Hippolyta and Phillipus are lovers in the comics. Anyone that knew that probably would have been looking for it after finding out Phillipus was in the film. I know I would have been if I knew this sooner. Now it is true, that it is not blatantly obvious that the two are involved in the film. But complete erasure would have been ignoring Phillipus altogether. Instead, they had her, she was STILL a WOC, and in a position that would have more or less kept her at Hippolyta’s side. See where I’m taking this?

So anyway, woc were not just there to take the heavy hits. They show a woman of color with brute strength, they show a woman of color being the voice of reason, they show a woman of color in a high ranking position. It was multifaceted.

So there it is. Anything else? Did we help? 😃

TL;DR: NO. Literally no to everything your friend said. Just… no. kbye

Brain: Don’t get attached to the characters.

Me: I’m not.

Originally posted by hcnnibals

Brain: I’m serious. Don’t do it. 

Me: I won’t. 

Originally posted by nervouspearl

Brain: Enjoy the show for what it is: Fictional entertainment. 

Me: Ok.

Originally posted by nervouspearl

Brain: You always say “Ok” but as soon as you see a strong, attractive and witty female all your senses exit in an orderly manner. 

Me:…

Originally posted by sherlock-holmes-fandom

Brain: One minute you’re happy, reading fanfiction and watching the episodes and then BAM! The writers lose their competence, and you sink into a slump.

Originally posted by un-du-tre-punto

Me: …

Brain: Just promise me you won’t get attached to next formidable woman that comes along.  

Originally posted by entertainmentweekly

Me: …

Originally posted by ithelpstodream

zosonils  asked:

This comic is really nice, I recently started reading it and it's extremely fun to read and well-made, so good job on that! Very few criticisms from me, AFAC is wonderful. I would like to know what the main cast's opinions are on Sonic the Hedgehog (I'm particularly interested in what Sans, Papyrus, Frisk and Flowey might have to say), for I am Sonic trash and curious.

I imagine that most of them are indifferent to the Sonic franchise as most of them weren’t children during the height of it’s popularity. The one exception? Alphys. She found out about it because of the various animated adaptations, and then tried out some of the games. It’s one of her many many many guilty pleasures.

-TQ

Distance

The L.A night sky would have been dark and clear if it wasn’t for the moon being on show at 3AM. The bright night star had shone light through many windows, one of them being Harry’s bedroom window. 

Harry himself laid in bed with just a pair of tracksuits adorned on his legs whilst the duvet cover was placed up to his chest. He glanced at the moon before his eyes darted to the other side of the bed where he grabbed his phone from the pillow next to him.The side of the bed where she was supposed to be but wasn’t. Instead she was in their London home. Harry sighed unhappily at the fact that she was in London because throughout the course of their year long relationship,never had he slept in his L.A home,alone.

Nights alone were something that Harry detested deeply especially since she had come into his life.She brought many things to his life like comfort and feelings that he had never truly felt before.She gave him a sense of belonging; a sense of homeliness and that’s why he couldn’t sleep as well as he usually did when alone.He was both physically and mentally used to having someone to hold on to during the night. 

The IOS object that was held in his hand had lit up once Harry had pressed the home button.The lighted screen caused Harry to blink,eyes now trying to adjust to the light,biting the inside of his cheek as he stared at the photo of her.In the photo,she was trying to cover up her laughing face,but the smile was evident through the picture because she had barely managed to cover up her eyes.

Looking at the image brought all sorts of memories back.So many happy memories,so many enjoyable moments;it was quite sad that the contentment that the couple had,was left in the past.Harry hoped that the distance they both shared would come to an end so they wouldn’t have to go to the extreme of breaking up.

Breaking up.Just the thought of it made Harry’s heart clench.In no way would he himself allow that to happen but he couldn’t speak for her.Maybe she did want to break up.He wouldn’t be surprised if she did, with all the arguments they had within the past few months.The fights were all over the place..They were all over the place.If an object was in its wrong place,then a storm would be created.Harry blamed it on the stress of their daily lives and so did she.However,he didn’t know that she blamed it on the stress and neither did she know that he blamed it on the stress because all they did was let their distance become even bigger. 

If she did want to break up..Fine!But he wasn’t going to give up on her without a fight.She was worth a million fights,worth any abuse;it was if she was his trophy.Harry hated to objectify anyone especially her,however the truth is the truth.She was like one of those trophies that every football team wanted,that every country wanted; the World Cup in this case and as cheesy as it may sound,she was exactly that - his world.

Unlocking his phone, Harry pressed ‘messages’ and began to compose a text to his sister.


Harry  Gemma

I messed up big time and I don’t know what to do.The thing is,I don’t know how I messed up.

I don’t fucking know.

Maybe it’s cos I lied to her and came to L.A but I couldn't help it Gem.I couldn’t.

All we ever do is fight and I fucking hate it.I don’t like fighting with her cos all we ever do is tear each other part.

You know when I'm back in London living in the spare room? I hear her cry,full on crying.Her crying hurts me, makes me feel like I'm being stabbed continuously.

It hurts but then I realise that she’s crying because of me and it makes everything worse.

I'm her bloody boyfriend and by being her boyfriend,I’m not supposed to make her cry.

I'm supposed to make her happy.

That’s the reason why I came here,so I don’t hurt her anymore than I already have.

-

We used to be happy,you know that?So happy and then everything went downhill and here I am wondering if this the end of us.

I don’t want it to be the end,it can’t be.

I can’t imagine a life without her, she’s the one I'm supposed to be marrying.

Talk to her.


After having read Gemmas’ text,Harry couldn’t help but stare at it. 

He did want to talk to his girlfriend but he was nervous at the same time. ‘How will the conversation go?Will it end up with another fight?’ he thought.He considered sending her a text rather than call her but eventually thought better of it.

Harry exited his messages and found himself tapping the phone log.It was now or never because in the later morning, he wouldn’t have the courage to do it.

He tapped her name and then pressed the ‘green call button’ causing the number to dial.The dialling tone continued as Harry bit his lip,staring at the ceiling whilst breathing quite heavily.Boy, he was nervous.

The dialling tone ended, a word leaving his mouth as it did so. 

“Hey.”

I.
I regret giving up ballet
giving up the chance to learn how to dance
now that the music is finally here,
walked in and broke my silence
and my ribs
my ribs, they started playing like a vintage piano
grand but humble
their ivories tickling my side just enough
to remind me I can still feel love
smitten and soft
and gentle
like that sincere hello
I havent spoken in years
taped on the roof of my mouth,
my tongue beginning to learn how to write
the letters that I actually mean to give to you
the truth my chicken scratch penmanship will unveil
behind every ending sentence I held on the side of my cheek

II.
because these days I find myself in search of a better word
a better sound, and my body
all she wants to do is paint the air with gestures,
as if the way our movement fills every empty space, writes our names in cursive on the face of time so much that astronauts call home
Just to say they can see how happy you’ve made me
all the way from Space
And not even space is enough distance to cover how long I promise to
keep you safe in the wells of my collarbones

III.
out of two hundred and six, the bone I am most afraid to break
Lies above my chest
And just beneath my head,
afraid because somedays I find my fingers tracing its curve
and I realize how eager I am to break it for absolutely no reason at all,
Afraid because if I do, I’d know what it’s like to collapse like a marionnette
unable to breathe, to stand,
to bend myself into a shape that looks like me

IV.
I wonder how you see me
I know I dont look much like a dancer,
some days I imagine I resemble flowers more than people,
like Snowdrops swaying in some secret garden,
some unknown patch of good, tucked away only for people like you to find
but I know not everyone choose to step off the trail
and I wonder if I’m any good at all

V.
There is a German legend, about Snowdrops
Where god sent snow to find flowers and ask them to share their colours
One by one they all said no, except for her, little pearlescent thing,
She agreed and in exchange Snow decided only she could bloom
in His prescence, first in every cold spring,
Cheerful and warm
Wrapped in his white blanket

VI.
Sometimes snowdrops and snow reminds me of us
They day you asked me to watch them fall in love
on our lunch break and you held the door for me
and asked if I was cold

VII.
For a moment I felt like the snowdrop,
cared for, loved
in the presences of my snow
smiling next to me,

VIII.
Then I felt like the snow,
Free falling
Relieved to have found someone willing to share with me
their heart, their favorite season
and this moment,
in vivid colours

IX.
I never knew winter could be anything but bleak
but here you are proving to me the colour
white is anything but blank
that it has veins that carries endless hues
I can compare my blushes to

X.
I regret giving up ballet
because here the snow is falling
in sync to the melody the snowdrop is swaying to

X.
If you listen close enough
there is music in the air, a song
Winter is playing just for us

X.
I wonder if I should ask you to dance
If we do, I’d let you lead,
but only if you’ll let me fall in love with you

X.
let me fall in love with you.

—  serenity.06|| untitled, 07.27.2017