i'm not the first person to go there

Sometimes out of the blue the realization hits me, completely uninvited:

How Daryl and Carol went from one stranger handing another stranger a pickaxe in the first season…to holding each other so tightly on a porch, not wanting to let go, because that person is their everything.

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(And that’s when I know I need to go to bed because my feelings about this are too much to handle at midnight.)

okay

Okay first of all you’re probably going to think this is a bad joke but I’M SERIOUS

So, I’m baking cookies and this though comes to me and I just can’t get it out of my head:

Why are they called cookies? They aren’t cooked, they’re baked.  Shouldn’t they be called bakies???

To all the people who keep telling me that Hiccup is not a delicate flower wisp:

Look at that boy, he is airborne.

Behold Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III, my delicate little flower child:

And it’s not just in the first movie.

Granted, 20-year-old Hiccup is stronger than he was five years before, and he’s definitely taller, but he’s still not a hot manly man. He still often gets manhandled and protected and held and treated roughly.

Is Hiccup a physically strong person? No, he’s not, especially compared to all the dragons and superhuman Vikings he’s surrounded by.

Is Hiccup a strong person in every other way? Yes, of course he is.

In Hiccup’s finest moments, his strength is either non-violent, or involves borrowing the strength of other people whose loyalty he earned with respect and kindness.

I think it’s FANTASTIC when a man manages to still be masculine despite having traditionally feminine traits or roles, and vice versa. I think that Hiccup can be a physical weakling and a good man at the same time.

Hiccup is a manly wisp of a flower. He’s a kitten leading a troop of gorillas. He proves that strength of heart is not something to scoff at.

About Yuri!!! on Ice ep 12

Before I start I have to say I cried because of this episode. Please do note that I’m not an emotional type of a person, I rarely cry. But I did. This just shows how precious the last episode is. Therefore, I’m not going to choose just some scenes like the previous rants. I will talk about AS MUCH SCENES AS I CAN because I have class after this.

First, this scene hit me. We all know that Victor smiles a lot, no? He looks happy most of the time so a scene where such a bright character has tears in his eyes…. just like someone punch me in the gut as I see it. Our living legend cried. Him getting mad? God I love how this show can properly portray human’s complex emotion.

YES FOR LETTING SOMEONE WHO’S NOT A SEIYUU INTO THIS SHOW. It adds the feel, that we’re actually invited to Spain in this show. Thank you Stéphane Lambiel for being a YOI family member ///v///

Then this scene also happened. I fucking feel for JJ. Like seriously. I was once a bowling player in the past and I fucked up my first competition. Pretty badly. So bad that it was like a beginner who hadn’t really played before and just suddenly showed up in a competition. I might not be a good player, but my scores in practices were fine. I really, really hated myself that time lol. That’s why I’m so glad JJ could pick himself up and finished his FS JJ style *CLAPS FOR JJ*

Yes, Seung Gil smiled for JJ I can’t even explain it well but his smile is so precious even more when he doesn’t do that often ///v///

Then. *clears throat* YOU CAN’T JUST NOT SMILING LOOKING AT PHICHIT LIKE SERIOUSLY. HE’S SO PRECIOUS I ALWAYS SMILE SEEING HIM///// And look at that dream of his OH MY GOD IS HE AN ANGEL????? Where’s my Phichit!!! on Ice I need it now

And this right here was making me cry again. THIS SHOW JUST PLAYED WITH MY EMOTION GOD–

This. Look at how they shook hands and then Yuuri letting go first leaving Victor’s hanging as if not wanting to let go. I sobbed.

Okay I admit I was too entranced by Yuuri’s performance, but this one hit me again. LET THIS HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP SINK INTO YOU GUYS. He doesn’t want to keep Victor to his side only. He also thinks of Victor, what is good for him and act to it. Though, if I can say something, it’s always good for you to think of your partner’s well-being, but the decision to act upon it is your partner’s. Respect their choices as well, okay? Let the both of you talk it out with cool head, I’m sure you’re going to be fine/// this psych student can’t stop herself to preach on this I’m so sorry Continue onto the next one!

At this point I cried. Congratulations Yuuri you’ve succeeded in making your point why you decided to retire across Victor. You light up Victor’s competitive side *cries again* Oh my God this is so beautiful I can’t thank Kubo-Sensei enough (;-;)

THEN IT’S THIS HOT STUFF’S TURN. Look at his face when Victor and Yuuri cheered for him. That’s just so cute OMG;;; Also,

NO, THANK YOU FOR BEING PRECIOUS.

OTABEK’S TURN!! At first I was like “Whoa he picked that piece?” when I heard the music playing. And the costume looks so good on him I LOVE IT. I was so entranced by the performance there was a time when I thought “If Otabek wins the gold medal I won’t be surprised, he’s so good;;”. He’s just so manly and solid I fall for him and I’m a fan of the piece he picked. But then…

The narration is Otabek’s but the scene was showing Yuri instead. I thought “…Oh no, it’s like he’s giving a place for Yuri to shine…” No, I’m not saying Yuri win because of Otabek giving him a slack. Yuri is capable, strong enough to win with his own skill to count on. It was just a hunch of mine, saying that Otabek isn’t going to win a medal and Yuri is going to get the gold medal.

Lastly, it’s Yuri’s turn. I’m so happy to see Yuri’s point of view and the flash back. Here we can see him getting his interest piqued by Yuuri. He didn’t suddenly mock Yuuri, instead he saw him as another competitor who could do better. For me, he’s not a childish brat who can only diss people out, he thinks of their capabilities too and that’s a good point of him.

Since he saw Yuuri as fellow competitor, he wants him to keep skating. This episode isn’t just about Yuuri making his point across to Victor through his skating, Yuri is also doing just that to Yuuri. 

So turns out I guessed right. Yuri took the gold medal with Yuuri slightly behind. And then…

OH MY GOD I CRIED. YUURI WANTED VICTOR TO STAY WITH HIM IN COMPETITIVE FIGURE SKATING. Victor wanted to be with Yuuri. Yuuri wanted Victor to return to be a competitive skater that he is. Accomodate both and you got this. KUBO-SENSEI THANK YOU/////

So yeah I’m already happy with how the things are. I’m pleased to see this show. I thought it was just like that, but–

There’s Yuuri. With Victor’s free program. And I noticed how his costume was similar to Victor’s, only with different color. I kept watching and watching, entranced more and more to the performance. Both the choreograph and piece were so good I can watch it all day. 

THEN I SAW VICTOR CASUALLY SKATING INTO THE RINK AND I SCREAMED INTERNALLY I CAN’T EVEN SCREAM PROPERLY. IT’S A FRIGGIN’ PAIR SKATING OF VICTUURI I’M–

SO BEAUTIFUL KUBO-SENSEI I’M CRYING I CAN’T THANK YOU ENOUGGHHH THANK YOU FOR MAKING SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SHOW now I’m getting emotional

I hope we can see more of your works, Sensei.

See you NEXT LEVEL!!

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Personally my favorite Les Mis AU is the one where Jean Valjean picks up the barricade and walks away

Biphobia in Fandom

I’m here with another fandom PSA, specifically to address the rampant biphobia going around right now, especially in regards to attacking ships like Kallura and Shallura for being “straight”. I’ve already written something like this on my personal blog, but for here, it’s a little less, erm, “strongly worded” I guess. I was pretty angry when I wrote the first one. And, I’ll be honest, that anger has not subsided.

Long and short of it, arguing that M/F ships in this fandom is heteronormative is not fighting against heteronormativity, it is reinforcing it. 

Heteronormativity assumes that straight is the norm and everything else is a deviance. Ultimately, it reduces people’s sexualities (which go far deeper than relationships btw) to the assumed gender of their partner and what they do with their partner behind closed doors. It also goes hand-in-hand with biphobia.

Attacking m/f ships just because they look straight is textbook biphobia. And pan/ace/poly/trans-phobia. When I mention bisexuality from here on out, I am including them, too. 

I am a bisexual woman married to a man. That marriage does not magically wash away the biphobic bullshit I still have to endure from both straight people and my own community. 16 years of my life was spent living in a Southern state with all its extremely religious and homophobic trappings that we hear so much about so trust me I know. And lemme tell you, straight people do not consider us one of them, they consider us gay and just as damned for hell. I’ve heard it and lived it again and again for 16 years and long after, and only in the recent years have just now started peeling away my internalized biphobia embedded in me and fighting back.  

I need everyone to watch this video. Notice that the moment the main character learns her date is bisexual. It destroys the otherwise romantic mood of a third date. Not a first date. A third. A guy she supposedly likes enough to date him multiple times. And then later, all she and her friends focus on is the fact that he is once dated a guy and that she needs to leave him. 

This line here: “…but in the end they all ended up with men.” And “So did the bisexual women.”

I’m not going to go into whether this is commentary for biphobia or if this actual biphobia framed as comedy because I’ve never watched this show at all, but the point I’m trying to make is that this is our life. This is what our identity is reduced to. This is what straight people think of us. This is heteronormativity, that this guy is strange and abnormal and not worthy of dating her because he is not straight, he is bi and therefore “ew” he also likes guys. If the main character were to stand up to her friends, tell them that she will continue to date this guy because she likes him (and not just because he’s a good kisser, because that’s also pretty gross and fetishizing) - that is not heteronormative and actually fights for bisexual representation. 

When we go to fandom for escape, to explore our sexuality, to tell our stories, we are met with the same “You can’t ship m/f because that makes it straight!” Trust me. We know what that is really being said here. It’s the same biphobic lenses straight people use, just a different frame. “You can’t ship m/f because it looks straight therefore it isn’t valid!” 

It goes the other way, too. I very recently had to block someone who was using my Allurance art to showcase Lance’s “straightness”. DO NOT DO THIS. I headcanon Lance as bisexual with a different gender preference just like I am. In my fics and headcanons, he has been given a lot of nuances that reflect my own upbringing and experiences. Even when I ship him with Allura, he is still bisexual. Being shipped with a different gender does not change that. So seeing my art with that context on a blog steeped in biphobia was one of the most insulting things that has ever happened to me in fandom. 

Bisexuality is an identity. I was bisexual before I was married, and I’m still bisexual even during the fact. That will never change, no matter who I am with at the time. I am a bisexual woman married to a man and I. Am. Still. Valid. And if you can’t accept that, if you can’t support bisexuals in different gender relationships because they look straight, then you are not an ally.  I’m not saying this to be “mean” or paint you as some kind of awful person. Not at all. You are just simply not an ally. Being an ally doesn’t mean you get to pick and choose what makes you personally comfortable to support. You either support it all or none of it. Point blank. That’s how it is. 

Do you want to fight against heteronormativity? 

Normalizing non-straight different gender relationships in healthy ways is how you fight against heteronormativity. 

Not by attacking shippers for their ships that look straight, especially shippers who do identify as LGBTAQ+ and have their m/f ships reflect their experiences.

Thank you for your time. 

worth the wait for gold

Yuuri does not win gold for three more years.

That first year, Viktor takes first and Yurio the silver. The next year, Yuuri trades places with Yurio and stands highest by Viktor’s side, so close again but the gold going to a person he loves more than any measurable reality.

And then, finally, that third year when Viktor is thirty-one and Yuuri is twenty-seven, and Yurio eighteen, he watches in disbelief as the gold sinks down around his throat, cameras flashing him blind and the crowd cheering him deaf.

He knows the medal is no heavier than any other he’s his had resting on his chest, but it feels it, the weight of the victory settling into an empty place inside his heart he hadn’t known he had.

Yurio is at his left, taller now that the years have passed, but still just as sullen, blonde hair short in a way that still catches Yuuri off guard and arms folded over his chest. Out of the corner of his mouth he mutters, barely loud enough for Yuuri to hear, “I’m not going to congratulate you.”

He’s known him long enough by now to know that’s Yurio speak for you deserve that medal today, but I’ll make sure you don’t for long.

He feels fingers on the back of his hand, and he jumps, turns to see Viktor, tall enough that even with the podium difference of first and second they’re at the same level, and he’s smiling like this isn’t the first time anybody has ever taken the gold from him.

Yuuri,” he says, and it’s too loud in the stadium to hear that one, but Yuuri has long since memorized the look of his name on Viktor’s lips, and he thinks Viktor’s going to lift their hands up and kiss the gold band on settled on his finger like he’s done a thousand and one times, but his hand snakes up Yuuri’s arm to his chest.

Yuuri jerks forward when Viktor pulls at his medal, close enough to see the high fever in his cheeks and the wet shine in his eyes, and then Viktor kisses his gold medal right there on the podium, with a thousand cameras and a milion eyes watching them.

The crowd goes absolutely crazy. By tomorrow this picture is going to be slathered across every news site and paper the world over. Yuuri would expect nothing less; even without the gold, Viktor is still the headline.

He smiles up at Yuuri, lips still brushing on the medal, and says, “you’ve kept me waiting.”

look Percy (the real Percy from PJO) is witty with a sarcastic self-deprecating sense of humor I relate to on a personal level. He’s not a happy-go-lucky kid ready to spread joy and cheer, but he’s also not…cruel. He’s not hard and sharp. He’s soft and compassionate. He’s always been the first to jump to an underdog’s defense, another trait I really relate to. The first to protect or befriend them if he saw they needed a friend, even if it means no one else wanted to be his friend for befriending said person. Percy’s ADHD sometimes gets him into trouble in school (as well as uncalled for monster attacks) but he’s not a troublemaker and he’s not ‘a cool kid’ either. Percy tries to keep his head down and not get into trouble, not get noticed, and he chooses to hang out with the lonely, misfit-ish kids at school, like Grover, then Tyson, and then Rachel. In Gym class his dodgeball team was made up of all the misfit bullied kids in school because he likes them, feels for them, and wants to defend them. Percy has such a big, bleeding heart. Even when Annabeth was missing in TTC and Percy was worried sick about her, Percy still went out of his way to cheer up Bianca and a random shop owner he didn’t even know just because they looked sad. He bought a rubber rat from a lonely shop owner just to cheer that person up, to see that person smile, and was bashfully surprised when Bianca called him “a good guy”. Like I get Percy is a great warrior and intimidating in battle (especially when he’s angry), but I don’t think he’s this intimidating loner enigma in school or in general, nor is he some popular talkative goofball. Percy rolls into Goode High on a beat up skateboard wearing similarly beat up clothes and meets eccentric paint-splattered Rachel at her locker and then they chat about video games and her “save the marine life” campaign this weekend or poke fun at the ‘mean popular’ kids on their way to class cause not all the cool kids are mean or go tell some upper class man picking on some freshmen to fuck off. Percy’s done some weird and wild stuff being a demigod, sure, but he’s still a dork who trips over his own feet and is nice even if he’s not real outgoing and the Mist is still a thing, which makes mortals forget about a lot of the scary stuff. He’s probably viewed as more strange by others than intimidating, running off or disappearing all of a sudden and then reappearing with no real explanation. He’s a witty misfit dork with a heart of gold. People are probably more “wtf” about Percy Jackson than “jfc”.

So are we ever gonna talk about the fact that in 1.06, Wyatt is apprehended looking like this

but when he wakes up handcuffed to a chair, he is missing his jacket, his tie, and the first few buttons of his shirt?

Also his sleeves were rolled up?

And he does not get his stuff back by the end of the episode. It’s just gone. Gone forever.

What happened that made this necessary? Rufus is intact: jacket, tie, buttons. Even his press pass is still on. Did someone have to resuscitate Wyatt or something? Make it easier for him to breathe? Is taser/chloroform that bad of a predictably bad combo? (Chloroform will affect the heart/lungs.) And after all, we do know that, canonically, Wyatt just does not handle his vapors well. (He’s also the last one to wake up in 1.11. By at least twenty minutes.) I’ll just imagine Flynn begrudgingly giving Wyatt cpr so he doesn’t die.

Why did this dressing down occur?

And were Lucy and Rufus similarly drugged here, or did they go quietly and willingly after Wyatt was incapacitated? We see them get grabbed, but did they just… go along with it?

Oh, these answer-less questions.

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the first frame is right after isak tells jonas that the person he likes is not a girl, and he’s waiting for his reaction, and you can read all over his face that he’s scared, because at that point the ball is in jonas’ court, what he’s going to say or do now will determine the future of their friendship. and he can’t go back now. he already said it. it’s out and he’s exposed and vulnerable. and isak can’t afford to lose what they have, so he’s trying to read jonas’ face, just hoping that it’s all going to be okay.

and then you have the second frame, right after jonas’ response, when he asks isak “is it me?”, but he doesn’t seem angry, or disgusted, his body language doesn’t indicate that he’s rejecting isak and you can see the immediate relief on isak’s face, because although pretty much everything in his life feels like it’s a mess, their friendship isn’t. he and jonas are okay, they’ll be okay, and now, yes, perhaps he will be okay. 

Thank you, Bangtan

Okay I need to let my feelings out. So I’m just going to do it here. 

First of all, I want to congratulate Bangtan for winning their second Daesang award at the MAMA 2016. Artist of the Year, goddamnit. They won their first one for Best Album of the Year at the MMAs. I can’t fucking believe how far they have come in such a short span of time, and it just proves how amazingly talented these wonderful boys are. I’m saying short, because winning Daesang awards within three years since debut from a company that is not one of the ‘three huge companies’ is such an amazing achievement to do for a boygroup that started off as nugus. I became an ARMY only after the INU era, but I had been following them roughly from the beginning. They started off with No More Dream, and besides the fact that I jammed the fuck out of myself on these songs (lol), I already could see how talented these boys were. Also, when I found out that they wanted to ‘stand out’, and tell the world an important message with their own music, I knew that these boys would be able to come far in their carriere if they would work hard, and try their best.

A few months after No More Dream came out, I started to pay less attention to them, but I still watched their MVs and some of their comeback performances. I could see them growing slowly, their fanbase became bigger and they were gaining more skills and experience. I was basically a diehard Exo stan, so at that time, I didn’t pay too much attention to BTS. That was until I Need U. I can still remember myself being blown away by that song, looking at the MV with my mouth literally half agape. I felt like I Need U was the beginning of a complete another side of BTS, the side that fits them, that belongs to them. I saw their first comeback stage for INU a few days later, and I was snatched. I was fucking snatched you don’t even fucking know. Their perfomance, the fanchants, the message in their lyrics. It hit me all. It’s thanks to INU that I became an ARMY, and I still listen to that song every day to remind myself of the fact how I became a fan of this wonderful 7-membered boygroup. 

When I saw Bangtan winning the Artist of the Year award today, I suddenly could see their 2013 appearance in front of me. I could see them in their horrible No More Dream outfits, the era in which they were just fighting for that Rookie of the Year award, which they eventually got as well. I realized that they became this successfull with their own blood, sweat and tears. They keep saying that it’s all thanks to us ARMYs that they have come this far, but honestly, it’s all because of Bangtan themselves. It’s all because of their effort, their stamina and their own hard work that they have become THIS far. Without their efforts, we ARMYs would not even be here. ARMY does not exist without Bangtan. And I hope they realize this fact.

They will probably never see this message, but on behalf of all ARMYs, I want to thank Bangtan for their hard work, for their efforts to make some great and beautiful music with meaningfull messages in them. Messages that every single ARMY cherishes, and keep these in their hearts. Thank you Bangtan, for existing, and giving ARMYs all over the world you see what I did there ;) a reason to keep going and to be happy.

Thank you Namjoon, for being a great leader for over 3 years, and taking care of the other members like they’re your own brothers. Thank you for producing and making great music for Bangtan, and wanting to change the world with the messages you want to convey. You’re an amazing person. Without you, Bangtan would not even exist. So thank you.

Thank you Seokjin, for giving it a chance even though you thought you would not fit in this group because of the hip hop concept. Even though you did not had any experience in singing or dancing, you still tried your best to make something out of it. And you fucking did it. Your danceskills got improved drastically, and not to speak about your amazing voice. You’re a rolemodel for so many ARMYs out there. Thank you.

Thank you Yoongi, for sharing your burdens with us in your mixtape. For inspiring us to chase our dreams, and encouraging us to speak up about our own burdens and problems. It takes a lot of courage to do that, and you just did it, and probably without regrets. Yoongi, you’re definitely a person ARMYs look up to every single day. Thank you for being such a wonderful and amazing person.

Thank you Hoseok, for being such a never ending sunshine that keeps smiling through the days, even when it’s hard sometimes. Your smile keeps me positive and motivated, and it helps us reminding of the fact that being sulky does not help anyways. You’re the golden hyung, and amazingly talented in as well as dancing, rapping and singing. You can do it all, and you have to know that ARMYs appreciate everything that you do for us. You did a great job with your intro for Wings. The applause and praise you wanted for that intro, you got them all, well deserved. Thank you.

Thank you Jimin, for NEVER giving up, for working hard CONSTANTLY only to show us a better side of you, and to make us happy. You have to know that it’s okay not to have abs, and just be yourself in front of us, because that is what makes us ARMYs the happiest. You’re the sweetest, cutest mochi I have ever seen in my life, and I want to thank you for being such a great support for the other members, always lending them your shoulders when they have burdens. Thank you. You’re an amazing person.

Thank you Taehyung, for being your fucking self even if you have an idol image to maintain. You got criticized a lot for your behavior, but you always managed to be yourself and just be happy with the other members, and I know that must take a lot of courage as an idol. Taehyung, please keep doing you. I believe you’re definitely one of the strongest vocalists in the group and I’m lowkey hoping big hit will give you more chances to shine, and I hope your drama will be a great succes. Thank you.

Thank you Jungkook, for maintaining yourself in this industry while you’re still so young. You’re amazingly talented, and everyone probably knows that already, but I feel like you have to realize this as well in order to let yourself bloom even more. Don’t be too harsh on yourself, because that’s the last thing you actually deserve. You’re a cute, sweet bunny your hyungs and ARMYs always will cherish. Thank you for loving your hyungs until infinity, and thank you for spoiling us ARMYs with that wonderful angellic voice of yours,

Thank you Bangtan, for giving ARMYs the most beautiful moment in life. <3 

Omega Headcanons

-Omegas are very motherly even before they actually become mothers. In their friend group the Omega is almost always the “mom friend” who makes sure everyone is happy and full and well rested, always the first person anyone goes to when a problem occurs

-Omegas are generally very petite and while a lot of them are bitter about it, others embrace the hell out of it. Using their small stature as an excuse to make their big Alpha friends carry them around or get them things that are high up on shelves

-Omegas love soft and cozy things, always wearing soft sweaters or wrapping up in warm blankets. Fuzzy socks are also very much loved by Omegas

-An Omega who is always cold constantly clinging to their big warm Alpha. Walking down the street and smoothly slipping under the Alpha’s arm and snuggling into their side as they walk, or seeing the Alpha sitting on the couch so they go and climb onto their lap and cuddle up against their warm chest. The Alpha loving how cuddly and dependent their mate is

-An incredibly innocent and sheltered Omega who hasn’t even had their first heat yet, not understanding when their Omega friends are talking about knotting and instead of explaining anything to their very clueless friend, they suggest the Omega ask their Alpha friend about it who they know has a crush on the Omega. So the Omega of course goes and very bluntly asks the Alpha to explain knotting and the Alpha is instantly bright red but trying to stutter out a mature and helpful explanation and once they finally finish the Omega is very quiet for a minute and then, “oh so you could knot me because you’re an Alpha” and the Alpha just dies

-Young Omegas being possessive of their friends and low-key becoming anxious whenever their friend makes a new friend because they feel like they are being replaced

-Omegas usually have a self sacrificing nature, which makes them good mothers, and they always make sure the ones they love have everything they need even if it means they have to go without

-Between being very smart and very nurturing, Omegas are well suited for being teachers and tutors. Always encouraging and having the patience to help someone who is struggling with basic concepts

-An Omega having a very close bond with their Omega sibling. Always looking for some kind of physical reassurance from them like holding hands in busy public places or cuddling up in a nest together when one of them is sad

-An Omega who is really nervous and shy and only really comfortable with their Alpha, to the point where if they are out with people and the Omega wants to say something they will lean up to whisper it to their Alpha who will then tell the group for them

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