i'm not sure what this is sorry

anonymous asked:

Hi! How are u doing? I hope great ❤ anyway I have a stupid cuestion after reading a meta of yours. You said that Dean "sees Cas’ own strong feelings returned for him after season 9" but I'm not sure what are you referring to? I'm kind of confused? What happened in s9? Sorry I'm that stupid 😑

Hi! Well for me it is made clear to the audience and also to Dean in season 9 that Cas does love Dean back after season 8 made it clear Dean loves Cas.

Season 8 was awash with “Dean loves Cas” from the purgatory stuff but in 8x07 and 8x17 Cas inadvertently rejects Dean romantically by basically friend zoning him, even though it IS Dean who breaks the connection and Cas can see what Dean has done for him in purgatory, he doesn’t IMO have a full realisation of his own emotions and potentially Dean’s either until he himself falls and is human.

That for me is such a part of Cas’ arc in season 9, realising all of this and what his own emotions are. I think he loved Dean for a long time (waves at season 6) but didn’t really realise it until he fell.

I mean… this face! This is Misha’s “jilted lover” face, as directed in the script.

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So yes I think in season 9 Dean realises Cas’ own returned feelings too. There is much we don’t see on screen in 9x03 and 9x06, then we see them both flirting in 9x09 I mean come oooooon. They both know. They’re both testing the waters. They’re both so hopeful…

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Then at the end of the same episode we have Dean sounding pretty gutted that Cas is back Angel mojo’d up, Cas himself doesn’t answer Dean’s question as to whether he’s ok with it because he’s clearly NOT. This is the factor that puts the brakes on again, alongside the duty part and then Dean going to get the Mark of Cain. 

They were THIS CLOSE! then got it ripped away from them *sobbing noises*.

From season 9 onwards IMO Dean and Cas both know, or at least they both strongly suspect each others’ feelings but they also still don’t feel they deserve it. There are a bunch of reasons they don’t act on them, pretty much all about themselves, variations of “I don’t deserve it”, “there’s more important things at stake to focus on” then of course Dean’s MoC arc and Cas’ depression arc are an obstacle. Coincidence that they come one after another? A totally accidental that they narratively drag out the long time love story… hmm.

These are internal obstacles though, which seem now to be not present anymore (Cas’ depression and Dean’s lack of self worth). I HOPE that there are little to no more internal obstacles left (both are growing to accept that they deserve good things and have self worth), Dean’s biggest thing left is his self acceptance overall and his sexuality as a part of this and Cas has to let his duty go, more than he had done so far.

I hope that this is the season where any obstacles that they do have are external as @amwritingmeta said brilliantly to me recently, I’m loving the succinct way she put it where I was harping on for ages about their struggles and their depression/self acceptance being done so what else is there in the way to stop Destiel within moments of 13x06 and she just said, well yeah, external instead of internal obstacles, I was like, DUH! YES! :D

So yeah, I hope this makes sense, for me Dean has been relatively confident of Cas’ feelings since season 9 and Cas of Dean’s too. It’s just a case of them accepting that they deserve it and doing something about it without external obstacles in the way.

TBH though, if they do have to now use external obstacles like Dean being imprisoned away, Jack etc then I’ll still squeal because this just shows how they have to use these things or it would just happen already, they’re pretty much at that point in the story now where it’s inevitable if you leave them in the same room together for more than 5 minutes without any kind of issue going on around them to rip them apart.

*Rubs hands together for season 13* 

anonymous asked:

Do you think Narvin takes notes on different things but below it he has how he understands it? like he writes something he learned and then tries to make sense of it in his own way?

Sorry for my late answer, I don’t have much time this days :p

I’m sure Narvin is trying to figure out what does the phrase mean all by himself. At least for a start. But, I guess, the biggest problem he has to deal with is a lack of context. So, maybe sometimes he needs a helping hand to understand agent Ace’s language. But that doesn’t mean he’ll get the meaning anyway :D

Just ask Ace, ok, man?

anonymous asked:

probably a #DUMB QUESTION but where do u find urself drawing inspiration from???? i consider myself an artistic person but not a particularly creative one and i'm trying to get myself to create more and see what comes of it/if i have anything to say and i don't know where to start. lmk if this makes a lick of sense. luv ya stuff i hope you love it too

honestly 16yr old me would fully #relate … not silly at all !!! it makes several licks of sense. even though i’ve like … done the exact thing you’re asking about i kind of have no idea lmao. it kind of just Happened without me realising but a lot of it is just about using colours you like and shapes you like and drawing things you like (a dog … a leaf … a mary berry) and doing it for fun and not expecting to be The Best Artiste Ever immediately. also i always thought “im not a ~real~ artist bc i don’t have anything meaningful to say or any Big Ideas” but like … everyone has thoughts they can make art about (it doesn’t have to be A Serious Thought at all ever) and if not you can just make things that look nice and it doesn’t have to be a whole thing ! 

shout out to people who have really morally wrong intrusive thoughts! people who know those things are wrong and can’t stop thinking about them, people who are disgusted by themselves. you aren’t disgusting! those thoughts aren’t you and you can’t control them! it’s ok, you’re a good person.

Fantasy Iwaoi

 

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in case you haven’t noticed, i’m weird. i’m a weirdo. i don’t fit in.
something is very, very wrong with me. there’s this darkness in me, that’s overwhelming sometimes and i don’t know where it comes from.

i think there’s one important fact people need to know about the jinki situation

whatever jinki did, it was enough to warrant a police report and the victim to try and press charges. we don’t know what happened, but it was serious enough that charges were pressed and the police conducted an investigation into the matter. it’s also important to note that neither sm or jinki have denied it happened– they just aren’t saying what happened exactly, only saying that it wasn’t intentional. whether or not you want to try and process that is up to you.

no matter what the outcome is, jinki still did something to make that girl uncomfortable enough that she initially pressed charges. if she really decided on her own to drop the charges, then i’m really happy that they managed to sort the issue out between them. however, he still fucked up, and that’s not okay. if he gets like this when he drinks, he shouldn’t be drinking anymore. period. the best case outcome for this, if it really is like sm says, is that jinki takes this as a cold lesson on his behavior and how to better control himself if alcohol does these kinds of things to him.

on top of that, i just hope that girl is okay. i’m wishing her the absolute best, and i hope she’s doing alright. please don’t defend him– we may not know what he did, but he did enough that she felt she was justified in filing charges against him, and that’s just not okay.

if you really love jinki as a fan and you are going to continue to support him, support him not drinking anymore and never doing this type of thing again. ever. and don’t defend him or victim blame. these are the kinds of things that prevent victims from speaking out. if you’re a real fan, you’ll know not to excuse him. thank you.

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“Don’t trap me inside walls
Where I can’t see, no
If you won’t have me, then let me go”

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“[Ray] would stay up til like 6 am, just working on this arrangement, over and over, and he wrote this whole string arrangement.” - Gerard Way, about #singitforjapan

So here’s a page of my son and his boyfriend

My tablet died but I still have sketches I can color using the trackpad l o l

Link and Fairies!

Redraw!