Hi! How are u doing? I hope great ❤ anyway I have a stupid cuestion after reading a meta of yours. You said that Dean "sees Cas’ own strong feelings returned for him after season 9" but I'm not sure what are you referring to? I'm kind of confused? What happened in s9? Sorry I'm that stupid 😑
Hi! Well for me it is made clear to the audience and also to Dean in season 9 that Cas does love Dean back after season 8 made it clear Dean loves Cas.
Season 8 was awash with “Dean loves Cas” from the purgatory stuff but in 8x07 and 8x17 Cas inadvertently rejects Dean romantically by basically friend zoning him, even though it IS Dean who breaks the connection and Cas can see what Dean has done for him in purgatory, he doesn’t IMO have a full realisation of his own emotions and potentially Dean’s either until he himself falls and is human.
That for me is such a part of Cas’ arc in season 9, realising all of this and what his own emotions are. I think he loved Dean for a long time (waves at season 6) but didn’t really realise it until he fell.
I mean… this face! This is Misha’s “jilted lover” face, as directed in the script.
So yes I think in season 9 Dean realises Cas’ own returned feelings too. There is much we don’t see on screen in 9x03 and 9x06, then we see them both flirting in 9x09 I mean come oooooon. They both know. They’re both testing the waters. They’re both so hopeful…
Then at the end of the same episode we have Dean sounding pretty gutted that Cas is back Angel mojo’d up, Cas himself doesn’t answer Dean’s question as to whether he’s ok with it because he’s clearly NOT. This is the factor that puts the brakes on again, alongside the duty part and then Dean going to get the Mark of Cain.
They were THIS CLOSE! then got it ripped away from them *sobbing noises*.
From season 9 onwards IMO Dean and Cas both know, or at least they both strongly suspect each others’ feelings but they also still don’t feel they deserve it. There are a bunch of reasons they don’t act on them, pretty much all about themselves, variations of “I don’t deserve it”, “there’s more important things at stake to focus on” then of course Dean’s MoC arc and Cas’ depression arc are an obstacle. Coincidence that they come one after another? A totally accidental that they narratively drag out the long time love story… hmm.
These are internal obstacles though, which seem now to be not present anymore (Cas’ depression and Dean’s lack of self worth). I HOPE that there are little to no more internal obstacles left (both are growing to accept that they deserve good things and have self worth), Dean’s biggest thing left is his self acceptance overall and his sexuality as a part of this and Cas has to let his duty go, more than he had done so far.
I hope that this is the season where any obstacles that they do have are external as @amwritingmeta said brilliantly to me recently, I’m loving the succinct way she put it where I was harping on for ages about their struggles and their depression/self acceptance being done so what else is there in the way to stop Destiel within moments of 13x06 and she just said, well yeah, external instead of internal obstacles, I was like, DUH! YES! :D
So yeah, I hope this makes sense, for me Dean has been relatively confident of Cas’ feelings since season 9 and Cas of Dean’s too. It’s just a case of them accepting that they deserve it and doing something about it without external obstacles in the way.
TBH though, if they do have to now use external obstacles like Dean being imprisoned away, Jack etc then I’ll still squeal because this just shows how they have to use these things or it would just happen already, they’re pretty much at that point in the story now where it’s inevitable if you leave them in the same room together for more than 5 minutes without any kind of issue going on around them to rip them apart.
*Rubs hands together for season 13*