i'm not sure what i think about this but i spent too long on it not to post it

iilesgemeauxii  asked:

I really liked your awkward Hanzo comics~ Could you make one where McCree compliments his hair (particularly the white little hair-wings part thing) and the next day someone (Genji? Symm?) finds him with a little smile trying extra hard to make them perfect? (not in a snooty/prideful way. more of a "i hope they look good today maybe he'll talk to me again" way) I am not sure if I'm allowed to make requests/suggestions so i hope this does not come off as pushy~ '3' Welp, 25 letters left so this -

im super glad you liked it omg thank yOU!!! i am 1000% down for requests & suggestions hehe there u go!!!

Secret Love Song

Hello, everyone! I’m writing again for the first time in about a year and I am so excited. I’ve been playing with this idea for a while but I finally got the motivation over last few weeks. ( i wonder why ;) ) There’s a bit more to it and I was considering posting a Part Two. So let me know if you want to see that!

It was all happening for him. Having a solo career was something Harry had dreamed of since he was a kid – it was what he had showed up for at the X-Factor audition in the first place. He’d been more than happy to have the opportunity to be a part of the band and to experience everything with boys by his side. But now, for the first time in 7 years, his dream had finally become his reality.

The day had come for his debut album to release, one of the most anticipated days in the industry, and you couldn’t find anything suitable to wear to the release party. Some of your dresses were nice enough but nothing screamed important industry party to you.

You throw yourself down on your bed, burying your face deep into your pillow, figuring maybe you wouldn’t go. Between the music executives, press and fans, Harry would be tied up all night anyway. And the fact that the public still didn’t know about the two of you wouldn’t help much. He’d practically begged you to come though but his insistent invitation had a bit of a damper to it when he gently reminded you, you’d be going as his sister’s date. But even so, he swore up and down that he wanted you there, whether you got to be together or not.

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anonymous asked:

Jocasta Nu survives that bit with the murder (somehow) and winds up with Rebel Intelligence (where else). Post ANH she ends up teaching Luke and possibly also Leia. Certain truths may get told a sight earlier (cough*Vader*cough). On a completely unrelated note it's not exactly easy for sundry rebels to take Vader seriously anymore due to someone spreading Temple gossip courtesy of the de facto Jedi Grandmother.

Okay but why not go full AU here and drop Jocasta into the Double Agent Vader storyline.

She’s an intelligence agent, of course, and by the time we reach the OT period she’s probably working closely with Mon Mothma herself. And if we assume that Anakin shared a bit of Tatooine culture with her (though far from everything), then she might very well recognize the name Ekkreth. Especially since she already knows that Anakin is Vader.

If Jocasta survived, I think it would be because Anakin failed to kill her in the Temple. Which, realistically, would probably mean he knowingly let her escape. So she knows better than anyone, even Obi-Wan or Yoda, exactly what he did. She was there.

So it’s going to be difficult for her, to say the least. She cared a lot about this kid, and she did what she could to help him without fully understanding the situation and without having regular access to him, and obviously something went horribly wrong. She was there in the Temple. She knows what happened. She knows what he did. It’s not something she can ever forget. Sometimes the thought of it makes her physically ill.

But she also sees what he’s doing now, and she’s perhaps better equipped to work with him than most other members of Alliance Intelligence. When the Inquisitors’ lists of Force sensitive children start coming in, she knows what that means. And when his coded phrases reference Tatooine stories, sometimes she knows what that means, too.

Eventually she sends him a coded message directly. That wouldn’t be completely out of the ordinary - Anakin’s primary Rebel contact is Leia, but sometimes he communicates with Mon Mothma as well. But when he gets this message, he knows it’s not from Mon Mothma. She doesn’t usually send physical deliveries, and she certainly wouldn’t send something like this: a carefully wrapped package of biscuits, with a note included that says “Don’t forget again.” It’s signed “Grandma.”

It’s a pretty big risk, even if there is no directly incriminating information. But Jocasta’s felt alone for a long time now. She has a place in the Rebellion, but most of her life was spent surrounded by other Jedi, and now it’s just her. Just her, and on the rare occasions when they’re stationed on the same base there’s Ahsoka Tano, grown now and insisting she’s not a Jedi. And now Ekkreth, someone she once knew as a boy called Anakin. He’s grown now, too, and it’s no less strange than Ahsoka. She’s used to thinking of both of them as children.

And yes, there’s quite a large part of Jocasta that blames Anakin for the loss of the Order and the Republic. But he’s also the only one left, and sometimes she isn’t sure if she blames him or if she blames the Jedi or even herself. It would be easiest, and maybe best, to simply blame Palpatine, but Jocasta’s learned that logic alone can only get you so far. Her emotions are harder to tame. It’s funny, she thinks bleakly sometimes, that it took the loss of everything she’d ever known and believed for her to start questioning those beliefs.

So she doesn’t know how she feels, really. But a few weeks later, when a delivery arrives for her on the Rebel base on Settra, she lets herself smile about it. There’s a seemingly untouched package of biscuits inside. Beneath every biscuit there’s a datastick. She runs each of them through the decryptions. They’re copies - abbreviated, limited, but there - of the Jedi Archives.

Eventually, she hopes, they’ll meet again in person. She still doesn’t know what she’ll do. But this is something. It’s a beginning.

(pls forgive me, i’m not a photo editor. i just wanted ot7)

Hey, everyone! I recently hit 100 followers! I’ve had this blog since January and even though I had a rough start and I wanted to leave a few times, I’m very glad I pushed through. I wanted to save a follow forever for another milestone and just do a drabble game for this one but there are so many amazing blogs a wanted to thank. I really appreciate every single one of you guys. This blog has been a safe haven for me, and I can’t imagine how my life would be without it. I’ve felt much more loved on this blog in the short time I’ve had it than on my previous blog, which I had for 2 and half years before I left. Even though this blog may be considered ‘small’ to some people (not that it matters to me), I still feel as if I genuinely matter to all of you, and I can’t thank you enough. I will never be able to fully express my gratitude. I really do care about all of you. All the users that show up under my followers are my friends, and I care about each one of you so much. Thank you all so much for all that you’ve done for me. I’m beyond grateful.

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Forgive Me. [JHope/Hoseok; Angst]

“If I could see you again I, I want to show you everything I have. My heart that’s beating to hold you tight, I want to convey it all to you, I, for real for real, until you hold this sincerity in your embrace once again.” - J-Hope

[From “Hug Me” Taehyung & J-hope version; Trans cr; @BTS0222]

The sequel to “Hug Me”. [Please read that first.] 

Summary: How can one gain forgiveness from someone who is no longer in a position to give it? How can one be forgiven if they refuse to forgive themselves? How can one move forward to the future… if the past was so much better?  

Hoseok x Reader/ Hoseok x his daughter; Angst

A/N: So this is the REAL thing that I was writing during my plane ride >.< since it was safe to write with public eyes around lol I’m sorry for the April Fool’s joke, but anyways, here is the angst that no one asked for. :) 

Originally posted by hobiga

         Hoseok was never the same again after the death of his wife. No longer did his smile radiate like the sun, no longer did his laughter ring infectiously. Days after his wife’s death, he locked himself inside his house with his daughter, tormented by the questions of her young mind.

           "Where’s mommy?“ she constantly asked.

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Snivellus Snape and the Potions Shop from Hell

Anonymous Asked: Could you write something where Snape is Lily’s boss and she is always worried about losing her job because he wants more* of her but she loves James.

Lily had to admit, not only was her boss socially useless and awkward, but she also hated that she literally owed him for giving her a job in his shop because she was newly graduated from Hogwarts.

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say you’re me and you’re in english class, supposedly analyzing lord of the flies but in actuality thinking about manga and how jarring isayama’s pacing is with snk. there’s of course, the fact that the clash of the titans arc takes place literally like a day or two before the female titan arc and pretty much everything happens in a flashback for some reason, then there’s the super-confusing mess that is the uprising arc with politics and some pretty fiiine character development that all happens in what’s probably less than 36 hours. 

and then, of course, there’s the return to shiganshina arc where they find out what’s in the basement after foreeever and then… an infodump??? for three chapters??? whyyyy!!

but of course if you really think about it, it makes perfect sense, in a kind of weird roundabout way that requires way too much thinking. but since this is english class of course you gotta analyze the story way too much in ways that the author likely never intended!

okay that was fun now onto actual meta or w/e. and, in case you guys didn’t pick it up from the introductory ramble, manga spoilers!!

  • we know that there’s only one family within the walls (besides grisha) who actually knows what goes on outside the walls: the reisses, the royal family. 
    • they’re the only ones able to actually access this power to remember all that happened pre-wall era at will, assuming they have the coordinate
    • there’s only one person with the coordinate power at a time within the walls, so that makes only one person inside (again, besides grisha because he literally comes from outside) who knows everything. 
      • AND they can’t tell anyone because it’s pretty overwhelming and terrible stuff
  • we know that the memories of the first king come are pretty overwhelming, completely taking over the holder of the coordinate for short spans of time

(i spent way too long looking for that screenshot but you know what it was fun refreshing my memory)

  • the memories of the outside world probably come rushing to the holder the second they become the new shifter in what’s probably a bunch of flashbacks, and when they come to literally minutes or less later, they’re completely different now that they have all this scary knowledge

(context for those who don’t mind spoilers or have forgotten details: historia’s father’s brother has just acquired the coordinate and is now more or less he god of the walled world. he knows.)

  • which brings me back to what i was originally harping on about: the point of the infodump on what’s going on outside the walls.
    • the reader is blind to all the truths and hidden secrets of the manga, just as everyone within the wall is blind to what happens beyond the titans and outside the walls.
    • and then, all of a sudden, we hit this huge milestone that’s been hyped up for literally 84 chapters, and we’re blown away with all. this. info. in such a short span of time. the meta writers went bonkers and everyone was kind of just screaming with their heads lit on fire.
      • that’s probably how all the reisses who inherited the coordinate felt when they first felt getting all this information

IN CONCLUSION: the way that the info dump was set up might have been intentional, paralleling how both the character’s felt at the time with this sudden heap of new information, and how most of the coordinate holders felt when they first learned everything.

i’m not saying it’s good writing. in my opinion, it was kind of lazy to just “hey kids we’re at this super hyped up, legendary basement have three months of screeching about now knowing everything whoop now there’s different problems yup”. but when overanalyzing it, it makes for a perfect mirror into how the characters themselves are feeling.

anonymous asked:

Hi I'm sorry if this sounds rude but you mentioned your friends are giving up fic writing? And that you came close to.I notice writers get much fewer rebblogs than artists but I didn't know it's that bad. Who are you talking about and do you guys talk about this, like is there a chatroom for writers?

Hi anon! This isn’t rude at all, don’t worry! This is going to be a bit of a long answer, so bear with me :’)

I don’t know if I can mention names here, I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable, so I can’t really give you more details than I already have: I am friends with this person and they probably won’t be writing fanfics anymore.
I can tell you though that I’ve also spent most of the last couple of weeks wondering if there was still a point in posting my writing at all.

The thing is, writers barely get any feedback. Especially ones that aren’t insanely popular. We pour so much of ourselves into our writing, so it’s incredibly discouraging to barely get any comments, kudos, likes or reblogs.

In my personal experience, tumblr is an awful place for writers. I’ve got a decent-sized following on ao3 I think (though I don’t have much to compare to) and even there, with more than 100 people subscribed to me, I only tend to get around… 5 or 6 comments max per fic that are actually reviews (as in, comments with more content than “please update soon” or “this was nice”) - which is already more than I know many of my writer friends get.
On tumblr, I’m lucky if two or three people reblog my work, and that’s exactly the problem: Who’s going to see it if no one reblogs it? Likes are fine and of course I appreciate those, too, but in the bigger picture they’re meaningless.
Once a fic is done, it’s done. It’s out there then, and I can’t keep reblogging my own posts again and again in the hopes that someone will pay attention to them. I get one shot, maybe two if I reblog my fic again for people in other timezones, but that’s pretty much it. I’m not surprised that it’s gotten so frustrating that it makes people want to quit.

…as for your other question - I don’t know if there’s any larger chatroom or space for writers. I know some people have group chats, but it’s mostly a private thing, as far as I know? I’m really not a big name in this fandom so there might be a lot of stuff going on that I don’t know about.

As for me - I just message people a lot, with the tumblr feature, or on skype or snapchat if I know them better. I’m open to any and all conversations (most of mine with other writers started by me yelling at them about how much I love their work ^^), so if you want to talk to me please don’t hesitate to shoot me a message. That’s what they’re for, after all? My ask’s always open, and I don’t mind private messages either.

In any case - there’s quite a few people in my immediate vicinity that I’ve talked to and I consider friends - many of them are writers, some are artists, some do both, some do neither. I talk about this problem (of wanting to write, but barely receiving any feedback, of feeling like we’re wasting our time) to pretty much anyone who will listen, but it’s frustrating because I don’t have the influence to change anything. Of course I’ll try to keep my fellow writers motivated and try to change their minds about giving up, but there’s only so much I can do, and in the end it’s their decision. Most writers I’ve talked to really enjoy writing fanfics, and it takes quite a bit of disappointment to get you to the point where you want to just… stop. So… yes, it’s a big problem.

I’m going to wrap this up now, but… again, I cannot emphasize enough how important comments are to writers. I’ve talked to some people who’ve said they’re not sure if their comments will even make a difference, because they feel they haven’t got anything interesting to say - picture it this way. As a writer, I’m standing on a stage and presenting a thing, and in response, about twenty people give me polite nods (kudos, likes) and four actually start clapping. But there’s like two hundred people (hits) standing in this room, and I kind of feel stupid now.
All comments matter. At this point, they might save you your writers. Because with less and less feedback, there’s less and less incentive to actually post things.

I can’t say much for other fandoms because it’s been a while since I’ve written substantially for anything but Haikyuu, which is still a relatively active fandom? But I get the feeling that’s starting to wear off, too.

Enthusiasm shifts, and I get that. But if you still enjoy an author’s work, please, please, by all means leave them a comment. Otherwise it might be the last work you read from them.

anonymous asked:

I'm still salty about Rhys's comment that Cassian would sleep with Feyre if she wanted to though, that's like the last thing Cassian would do :(

I totally get you nonnie, because there are some weird ways that the Inner Circle talks about Cassian re: sex. I don’t think that Rhys actually believed it though? He wasn’t being literal. We have to look at the context of the discussion and who Rhys is, what we know about how he interacts with Feyre (especially at this time since they are still… figuring things out), what he and Feyre were doing at the time. Here is the comment:

“Cassian tried to convince me last night not to take you. I thought he might even punch me.”
“Why?” I barely knew him.
“Who knows? With Cassian, he’s probably more interested in fucking you than protecting you.”
“You’re a pig.”
“You could, you know,” Rhys said, holding up the branch of a scrawny beech for me to slip under. “If you needed to move on in a physical sense, I’m sure Cassian would be more than happy to oblige.”
It felt like a test in itself. And it pissed me off enough that I crooned, “Then tell him to come to my room tonight.”

This scene is when they are going to the Weaver, and Rhys has a history of… goading Feyre, when she is upset for various reasons. He distracts her by annoying her, by pushing her buttons. I don’t think that his comment should be taken literally in any way. I mean… Rhys is clearly in love with Feyre, why would he actually suggest that??? And she recognizes what he is doing, moments later:

“A dangerous line—one Rhys was forcing me to walk to keep me from thinking about what I was about to face, about what a wreck I was inside.

Anger, this … flirtation, annoyance … He knew those were my crutches.

What I was about to encounter, then, must be truly harrowing if he wanted me going in there mad—thinking about sex, about anything but the Weaver of the Wood.”

However, there is a history of people making jokes about Cassian, but in this scene he gives shit back to Amren just as easily:

“No one warming your bed right now, Cassian? It must be so hard to be an Illyrian and have no thoughts in your head save for those about your favorite part.”
“You know I’m always happy to tangle in the sheets with you, Amren,” Cassian said, utterly unfazed by the silver eyes, the power radiating from her every pore. “I know how much you enjoy Illyrian—”

There was another comment on that post (I’m assuming your ask is a response to that) that explained how Cassian would have actually reacted to that situation of Feyre coming to him, and yeah, he is not actually up for sex with whoever the hell Rhys sends his way. And if we were to look at this from a different perspective, if Cassian were female, then we would definitely be looking at this as a sort-of taking away of his bodily autonomy, basically?

But this quote here is what makes me think that he is willing to play this role in particular circumstances, for the benefit of his friends, in a way:

“We’d just appeared in the mud outside the little house when Cassian drawled from behind us, “Well, it’s about time.”
The savage, wild snarl that ripped out of Rhys was like nothing I’d heard, and I gripped his arm as he whirled on Cassian.
Cassian looked at him and laughed.
But the Illyrian warriors in the camp began shooting into the sky, hauling women and children with them.
“Hard ride?” Cassian tied back his dark hair with a worn strap of leather.
Preternatural quiet now leaked from Rhys where the snarl had erupted a moment before. And rather than see him turn the camp to rubble I said, “When he bashes your teeth in, Cassian, don’t come crying to me.”
Cassian crossed his arms. “Mating bond chafing a bit, Rhys?”
Rhys said nothing.
Cassian snickered. “Feyre doesn’t look too tired. Maybe she could give me a ride—”
Rhys exploded.”

TBH, the way that Cassian is acting here is so like Mor - pretending to think this is funny, while also preparing himself for what he knows is coming, what he has baited Rhys into. It was necessary. He doesn’t literally think that Feyre will have sex with him. Just like Rhys never literally intended for her to approach Cassian. So… if you look at the context, think about what we know about the characters, I don’t see this as being such a problem as some others seem to.

If there is more evidence I would love to see it, if it challenges my ideas or not, because I honestly haven’t really spent any time thinking about this in too much detail - mostly because I don’t think that the Inner Circle is dysfunctional or that Cassian in any way is somehow… the victim of their disregard or disrespect. I almost didn’t even want to go into this aspect of Cassian’s character because… fandom history. I’d like to explore more of his character, either way. So that he isn’t just seen as a trope or a stereotype of himself. BUT, I think that if you look at his character’s parallels with Mor, the way that he is basically… subtly taking care of various needs? We get a lot deeper.

anonymous asked:

Hello you beautiful person!!! ^w^ Hope you have a wonderful day. How would the main 4 propose to their beloved? (I'm new here, so I'm sorry if I just repeated a question that you already answered *offers sweets and got chocolate.*)

I accept this offering… Since you offered me something sweet, I will give you something even sweeter in return!

  • You and Noctis had decided to go on a much needed break; just you and him on a small and simple vacation.
  • Of course the two of you ended up some place by the beach. No surprise to you, you figured it might have a little to do with fishing. But surprisingly he seemed to abstain from that.
  • Instead of that, he would spent his time being on the beach with you, walking and enjoying the water washing up against your legs, or getting to see the small barnacle pools along the shore. But eventually the two of you sat down and started to build a sandcastle. Nearly complete, and the moment you looked away Noctis had put something up on one of the tallest towers. Looking back, the shine of something caught your eye immediately- a ring…
    “Noct?”
  • “Before you ask if it’s what you think it is, the answer is ‘yeah’, it is. And yes, I am.”

  • At the beginning of the day you had already known something was up by the way Ignis started to randomly pamper you extra by serving you breakfast in bed, and the fact he had already gotten everything ready for you that day.
  • Not only that, but it also seemed like he was in somewhat of a hurry to get you outside of the house. Very rarely did Ignis hide his plans from you, but seeing as how this time he wasn’t telling you anything, all you did was try to roll along with it the best you could. After all, if he had a plan then it couldn’t be too bad. Of course… you’d find what it was soon.
  • You came back later in the night, the house completely dark save for the candles. Little dim lights trailing through the house, leading you along to the den where there’s a circle of votives positioned around a ring. And beside it is a note from Ignis, it’s a little on the lengthy side; it goes on reminiscing about the history you two have had, and all the reasons and ways in which he fell in love with you in the first place. “For all those reasons, and so much more, I would love for nothing more than to spend my life with you. Will you marry me?”

  • Gladio wasn’t one for too much romance, at least not an abundance of it. Even for something as important as this… So the idea of this proposal didn’t come with much planning, and it came suddenly.
  • You and him had been enjoying a weekend of camping. Seeing as how he loved the outdoors, this was sort of a common thing. So there’s no suspicions roused out of you when he offered you to come with him, somewhere deep out in the middle of nowhere for a little getaway because this had happened all too many times already- but then again why would there be? He didn’t even plan on doing such a thing, even while on the travel over. He didn’t even have much time to even start acting suspicious over it.
  • The two of you had been lying together in the tent, post coitus with you cuddled up to him, when he had been really getting to think about it… “You know, we’ve been through some pretty amazing journeys together so far. And… I’d like to take the next step in that journey. I think we’re ready for that next step.”
    “What are you saying, Gladio?”
    “What am I saying? Something I never thought I’d be saying; I’m hoping you’ll do me the honor of marrying me.”

  • Prompto actually spends a long while of thinking how to do this. If he’s going to spend the rest of his time with you (or so he’s hoping to) then he wants to make sure that it’s perfect and that this moment is memorable; he plans a little treasure hunt with you.
  • The first clue is a simple one, a hand-written clue, and it starts off in your very home, and it’s a hint to the location of the next clue and so on and so forth. Eventually it all takes you out, leading you to around some of your most favorite places around town and even further out.
  • The last stop finally ends with a small little box. “Go on, take a look.” He encourages. And just as you start to reach for it to open, he starts talking. “You know, I’ve been thinking about this for a long while y/n, and all the time we’ve spent together has brought me nothing but happiness… And I was wondering if you’d do me the honor of making me the happiest man forever more-” but it’s as soon as you open it and get a good look at the ring inside that he finally pops the question… “Will you marry me?”

laurent-ofvere  asked:

16 for damen and laurent bc i'm a masochistic asshole

Prompt: First fight

Pairing: Laurent and Damen

Thank you for sending me a prompt!!! I hope you like this and that they’re not too ooc!! 

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anonymous asked:

Alex, before John wakes up and when/after he finds out about the tattoo, the constellations aligned

Can do! x

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When Alex is high, he sleeps like a dead thing. When’s he’s drunk-drunk, he wakes up every hour or so and then immediately falls back to sleep. When he’s tipsy, he drifts in and out of sleep, never going all the way under until he’s sobered up. When he’s in an unfamiliar bed, he can never quite allow himself to give entirely into sleep.

Tipsy and high, post-orgasm, in von Steuben’s library, he seems to be falling somewhere in the middle. He drifts for a while and then sits up straight, wide awake, and then falls back into his half-sleep when he decides not to get out of bed. It’s a few hours into the night when he gives up and props himself up in the bed, hoping maybe he can sober up entirely and then at least nap until it’s time to go home.

Next to him, John sleeps on, undisturbed. He’s on his stomach, his hair a riotous mess of tangled curls that’s mostly up off of his neck and back, bare in the cool air of the room. Alex shivers—John is beautiful, this ethereal being that he’s somehow allowed to touch, something otherworldly and precious.

He would blame the affection on the lingering alcohol and marijuana sluggishly crawling through his system, but he tries not to lie to himself—this is how he always feels about John, deep down inside.

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anonymous asked:

Your top/bottom! Hux ideas concerning your fics were so interesting. Have you got any headcanons for kylo? I'm just asking bc I really love your rens lol and I can't get that ~you don't fuck like a nice guy ~ part from wild honey out of my head

Let’s see the other side of the coin, then! :D [The ”is Hux a top/bottom” post is here, explaining that I don’t give too much significance to it, because I think it’s just a preferance.]

I’m really happy to learn that you liked that sentence in Wild Honey, and I think it sums up what happens to him in that fic. He’s still Ben; he’s trying to be a good boy, and he’s been holding back with his previous partners. (There were probably like, two-three of them.) He’s self-conscious about everything he says or does or how he looks like, so his snarkiness is a sort of defense-mechanism. Hux makes him let go and embrace his Kylo-ness, the identity he’s been repressing. When Ben goes to the date, he expects to get something from Hux, and he’s ready to settle for anything thrown at him, basically, a pity handjob or a sorry makout would do. But he gets so much more: he realises he can be himself with Hux - the very self he’s been denying - and this identity wants to take. It’s consensual, it’s fun, but it’s also hungry and desperate and very much about self-discovery and power. 

In Bohemian Rhapsody, we don’t learn much about Kylo’s sexual history, but we do learn two imporant things: one, he knew he was gay by the time he was six, and his family was very open about it; two, he’s romantic to the bone. My headcanon for the fic was that he had mad crushes during his teenage years, but probably on persons who were unattainable: older than him, totally straight, or simply not interested. When he was still Ben, he was kind of mazohistic in this regard, and subconsciously seeked out rejection as a form of self-punishment for his (real or imagined) failures as a son, grandson, student or musician. 

Once his early teenage angst years were mostly over and he was around 16-19, he actively seeked out romantic partners for long-term relationships, but his relationships ended within a few months/weeks, partly because he started to take them much too seriously for his age. At this point he already started  rejecting Luke and Leia and fancied himself the ‘head of the family,’ the guardian of his grandfather - he was basically looking for husband material. He imagined his future in Amsterdam, living in a joint apartment with Anakin, having a lovely husband and maybe a cat; they’d all live happily ever after. He was anxious to make this future attainable so I think he was overeager and suited himself to his partner’s needs, whether they wanted him to top or to bottom, and he was quick to idolise them and declare that They Are The One only to be disappointed later.

When Anakin dies, there’s a period of grief when Ben doesn’t allow himself any sort of joy or pleasure. He’s sent to work with Luke, and his grief slowly gives way to repressed anger. First he’s masturbating excessively, having no desire to have any sort of human connection, and being closed off from the rest of the world. Then he hooks up with a male nurse from the charity and they become fuckbuddies, which lasts until Ben becomes too… Kylo, and the nurse asks him never to contact him again. He escapes to Prague a few weeks later. He’s spent three months there, having time to sort of cool down and work through his issues, but his dry spell is getting on his nerves - nevertheless, he can’t really trust his attraction to Hux at first. Then he’s quick to confess his love because he’s overjoyed that his Big Romantic Dreams he had given up on might just come true. I don’t think he gave too much thought to topping or bottoming. He’d have had Hux any way.

A similar pattern of maturing is present in Psychomachia: he throws himself at Hux, and he’s over-eager to please him at first, not even daring to top because he’s too afraid he’d mess it up - then he gains confidence, and more importantly, his relationship with Hux becomes less of an obsession and more like a trusting, two-way relationship, so although he panics the first time Hux asks him to top, he starts to prefer it. 

In the Suit Porn AU, I think Kylo doesn’t really question his position. He’s my most experienced Kylo, and based on his previous experiences, he came to the conclusion that everybody wants him to top: he’s massive and he’s very much in charge, he looks like and acts like a stereotypical top; furthermore, he has a preference to the twinky type. (Of course, twinks can totally top, but Kylo’s been more successful at wooking the submissive type.) He’s really pleasently surprised by how bossy Hux is, and he enjoys being ordered around by him, because no one really dared to do this to him before. They find great pleasure in breaking stereotypes and challenging each other. I’m sure Kylo will start fantasizing about Hux topping on Special Occasions pretty soon.

In conclusion, although I like varying headcanons for Hux, my Kylos are all like “I don’t give a damn as long as I get to touch you.” (Although it’s high time I’ve written him as bi/pan.)

Part of being in a relationship with Kuroko was accepting the Miracles as a bizarre extended family, and Kagami had long since come to terms with that. It’s only later when he realizes that Kuroko’s family is actually much bigger than he’d originally assumed, and all things considered, it was actually easier dealing with the other Miracles, because then at least there was basketball. Kagami wasn’t quite sure how to handle the rest of Kuroko’s family.

*

“ARE YOU KIDDING ME?” the Fujimaki daughter yells at the top of her lungs. She is the loudest woman Kagami has ever met, and he simultaneously thinks about how she’d get along really well with Alex, and hopes they never meet. “AFTER ALL THE GRIEF YOU GAVE ME ABOUT ELOPING AND YOU’RE JUST FINE WITH TETSUYA MOVING IN WITH HIS BOYFRIEND?”

“It’s because Tetsuya is the favorite,” the second Fujimaki son, Tadashi, snickers.

“No one is the favorite,” Touko, General Fujimaki’s wife, says, “We love you all equally.”

“IS IT A GENDERED THING?” Sakura continues to shout.

“Probably,” the eldest brother, Hiroki, says, “Tetsuya’s not going to get knocked up and run away shaming the family, now is he?”

“It’s because Kagami-kun asked politely,” General Fujimaki says mildly. “Like a well brought-up young man.” Which makes Kagmai feel slightly guilty, since asking permission had not been his idea (and he still doesn’t quite think he was asking).

“Unlike that good-for-nothing artist you married,” Hiroki says.

“I’m right here,” Sakura’s husband says, “And I’ve been incredibly successful with my art—”

“Yeah, but you still knocked up my sister, didn’t you?” Hiroki says.

“THIS IS SO NOT FAIR,” Sakura says. “TETSUYA HAS IT SO MUCH EASIER.”

“Divine right of the youngest sibling,” Tadashi says.

Kagami is starting to get a headache, and it’s only about half an hour into this ensemble of Fujimaki family members.

*

“You are the tallest man I have ever seen ever,” one of the grandchildren says, staring up at Kagami, wide-eyed. He can’t remember their names—he’s having a hard enough time remembering the adults—and he somewhat feels self-conscious about this statement.

“There are taller people than me,” he feels the need to defend. Clearly, these children have never met Murasakibara.

“Can I measure you in chopsticks?” the boy asks.

Kagami thinks this over and then shrugs, “Sure, go for it.”

*
“Basketball?” Hiroki says frowning, “That’s not a career.”

Kagami bristles and says, “It’s what I want to do. And anyway, I’m good at it—”

“But we’re a military family,” Hiroki says. “We’ve always gone into the military. Or married military spouses.”

“I DIDN’T,” Sakura says. “I MARRIED A VERY RICH ARTIST.”

“Except for Sakura, who brings shame to her family, daily,” Hiroki says. “If Tetsuya-kun isn’t joining the military, you should.”

“I am not, Hiroki-san,” Kuroko says. “And Kagami-kun doesn’t have to either.”

“NO ONE CARES ABOUT THAT ANYWAY, HIROKI, YOU’RE AN IDIOT.”

“But he has the right build for it and everything,” Hiroki says.

“I’m also built for basketball,” Kagami says, futility, since no one is paying attention.

*

“Oh ho ho, you are even better looking up close.” This very disturbing comment is accompanied by the subsequent squeezing of his biceps by what has got to be the oldest woman alive. “What a nice young man. And so strong! I bet you could pick me up and carry me like it was nothing.”

“Er,” says Kagami. The arm-squeezing intensifies.

“Tetsuya-kun, you have excellent taste.”

“Thank you, Obaa-san.”

“How do you jump like that? Is it hard?” the oldest woman alive asks.

“You’ve seen me jump?” Kagami says, confused.

“Of course, dear, I’ve gone to every game, haven’t I?”

“You did?”

“I particularly liked that Yosen game. Those were some big players! You did so well in that game.” The Fujimaki matriarch pats Kagami on the butt.

*

“Are you the reason Tetsuya was out on his last birthday?” the youngest son asks suspiciously.

“Not just me,” Kagami feels the need to say. “He also spent some time with the Miracles.”

“Still. Not cool, dude, you could have at least invited us.”

I didn’t know you existed, Kagami wants to say, but also feels like he probably shouldn’t say that. He’s still marveling at all these people who surround Kuroko like a warm and gentle light. “So, you… you don’t mind that your dad took him in?”

“No?” Tadashi says, raising his brows. “It made a lot of sense. Tetsuya’s a lot like the old man. Dad always wanted a nice, quiet child who liked to read. In a lot of ways, it’s like Tetsuya was meant to be in this family all along. We were missing a nice, quiet kid.” He claps Kagami on the back, “Hiroki already fulfills our idiot quota, but we never had an athlete, so I guess it’s a good thing you’re around.”

“Thanks?” Kagami says. And then later, “Hey!” once he realizes he’s been insulted.

*

“Your family is…kind of intense,” Kagami says, when they finally get a moment alone. He can still hear the Fujimaki clan laughing and shouting inside, and he thinks this briefly stolen moment alone with Kuroko probably won’t last uninterrupted for long.

“They are,” Kuroko agrees, sounding pleased with himself. “The Fujimaki family is very kind. I had not realized they would want to spend my birthday with me last year. Thank you for agreeing to come with me.”

“Of course I was going to come, idiot,” Kagami says. He thinks about how pleased Kuroko had been last year, when they all gathered to celebrate his birthday. It really hadn’t occurred to him that anyone would want to celebrate this day with him. Of course the Fujimaki family would feel left out. “They clearly all love you a lot. I’m surprised you still…” He trails off. He doesn’t want Kuroko to change his mind, he wants Kuroko to still live with him, but after meeting all these people he’s feeling a little selfish for taking Kuroko all to himself.

“My place is to stand closest to the light. Didn’t Kagami-kun say that?”

Kagami blushes at the memory—he does remember saying that. They hadn’t even known each other for that long. In retrospect, Kagami was probably a goner from the start, when it came to Kuroko.

“But—”

“They are not going anywhere, Kagami-kun. I have come to understand that, now. Bonds do not diminish just because we are separated by space.”
And Kuroko had a lot of bonds he cherished: the Miracles, Seirin, the people inside. Similarly, Kagami thinks he has a lot of bonds too, all the more so now that he’s with Kuroko.

“Happy Birthday, Kuroko,” Kagami says, leaning close for a quick kiss before anyone can steal them away.

“TETSUYA! TAIGA! STOP MAKING OUT AND EAT CAKE OR YOU WON’T HAVE ANY CAKE LEFT!”

“Thank you, Kagami-kun,” Kuroko says, when Kagami groans as he pulls away. “She is serious about that cake, though. She can eat more than Murasakibara-kun.”

“Better get inside then.” Kagami’s never had a big family before. It’ll take some getting used to, but he figures he’ll like it in the long run.

Assuming there’s still cake left.

A/N: I started writing this for @cock-speed, who wanted to know about what the adult Fujimaki children thought about Kuroko, in thanks for her incredible help with getting my master list started. Then today I was thinking about how I wanted to write something for Kuroko’s birthday, and I remembered @ladyknight5 prompt, and the kind anon-friend who wanted KagaKuro fluff, and I thought, “I can make all three of these things happen at once!!!” Thanks friends!!

I'm sure its nothing (Part 2)

You had spent the past few days as though you had no real purpose. As though there was nothing you could do that would have any relevance. You stayed in bed whilst Simon was asleep though you didn’t sleep yourself. You cooked food for yourself and the boys but yours always ended up in the bin. But you hadn’t cried since that day. It was as though that had released all of the tears you had in you. Now you just felt empty.
You hadn’t said anything to the boys. Nor had Simon. He wanted to but couldn’t find the right explanation.
“Hey beautiful” Simon smiles lightly when you walk in.
“Hey” You reply, setting the cup for him down on his desk.
“Did you get yourself some breakfast?” He asks with worry.
His fans had noticed a change in how Simon had been. He hadn’t been on Twitter, the videos he had posted were from before anything happened, he hadn’t posted any main channel videos and the boys had been recording without him instead.
“Um no I wasn’t really hungry” You admit simply.
“Babe i-” He starts, “You know you can talk to me right?”
“Of course” You nod and kiss his forehead, “I’ve got a bit of work to do”
“Sure” He says though you can tell he wants to say more.
You take your laptop and go downstairs to work so you don’t disturb him whilst he works and take a seat on one of the kitchen barstools instead.
“Hey (y/n),” Vikk smiles when he walks in, grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge.
“Hey Vikk” You reply politely.
“Everything okay?” He frowns.
“Why wouldn’t it be?” You force a ‘happy’ smile.
“I didn’t want to say anything but it just seems like you haven’t been yourself recently” He comments.
“Vikk, I’m okay” You assure him, “Don’t worry about me”
It isn’t long, maybe an hour, and the other boys come downstairs with Vikk too.
“(Y/n) can we talk to you please?” Josh starts and they all stand at the end of the counter in the kitchen.
“About what?” You sigh, closing the lid of your laptop and hating that you couldn’t find a sense of peace in this house.
“Listen, we have noticed recently that you’ve been acting different” Vikk comments, “You’ve been distant with all of us, distant with Simon, you haven’t filmed together, you haven’t been on social media, you haven’t seemed like you two”
“I-” You begin but JJ cuts you off.
“If you need to tell us what’s happening its fine” JJ bursts.
“What do you think is happening guys?”
“Has Simon done something to you?” Josh questions with that all too parental look on his face.
“What?!” You exclaim and you feel as though its the most emotion you’ve shown recently.
“Its okay (y/n)!” JJ responds, “You’re not alone”
“That’s not what’s happened” You roll your eyes.
“What has happened then?” Vikk sighs, “It just hasn’t been you”
Simon comes down then, obviously questioning why everyone was downstairs.
“What did I miss?” He asks when everyone’s eyes dart to him.
“Are you two splitting up?” JJ exclaims loudly.
Simon looks at you and takes a deep breath, walking over and squeezing your hand.
“We were going to tell you when it had sunk in a bit more for both of us,” He starts, “Over a month ago, we found out that (y/n) was pregnant. But a few days ago, something happened and-”
He notices the tears in your eyes and stops. They all do.
“Oh god, I’m so sorry” Josh says sympathetically.
The other two nod but have nothing to say. You couldn’t blame them.
“They’ve said its just one of those things really and it doesn’t mean we can’t try again in the future “ Simon explains and you know he’s talking to you as well as the boys.
"So, how are you both?” Vikk asks carefully.
“It was a shock at first. And I know its going to take a little while but-” Simon starts but stops to glance at you.
“We’re okay” You state with a slightly croaky voice but when Simon looks down to you, your lips show a delicate smile.
“Well, how about you guys have a day off?” JJ suggests, clasping his hands, “We could all do with a few hours. I’ll get the pizza menus and Josh, you can put the game on the TV. Its Arsenal”
“Plastic fan” Vikk mutters and soon the other boys are messing around in front of you.
Simon grabs your hand and turns your chair so you can face him, “Are you sure about that? About us being okay?”
“No I’m not” You shake your head truthfully, “But right now, sitting around is only going to waste my time. I’ve still got my boyfriend and I’ve still got all of these assholes. And I think this past few weeks has taught us that maybe we could have kids”
“And are you sure about that babygirl?” He asks with a hint of hope in his voice.
“I think I am” You smile and he leans down to kiss your lips.
It was the first time you’d kissed him properly for the past few days. You needed to show him that you were still there. That this whole thing hadn’t taken you away from him. That he still had his rock by his side. And that this wasn’t you losing hope. It was you finding a new dream.
(I know that final line or two might seem a bit strange x Its actually something my brother said to me when he went through the same thing so I think it was important to include x)

anonymous asked:

Sorry I've seen the post about the "new fans" who are disrespectful of their "humor" towards Katie I totally agree I didn't have any idea that happened, but surely the majority are kids and have no limits What about if instead of making posts criticizing their attitudes, tell them privately bc maybe they don't realize that their jokes are offensive they think is friendly like the jokes you do w/ friends but inappropriate for someone they don't know like Katie? is no need to point out publicly :)

Hey anon, I appreciate both the idea and the sentiment, however from personal experience, I can personally say it does not work. I have actually spoken with a number of them. Various fans that have been upset about it have and it has little to no impact. Hence my reasoning for pointing out that some simply don’t care. It is especially the more popular ones that don’t care and they are each old enough to no longer be considered kids and understand that it is wrong. At the very least they are old enough to consider the feelings of others but they unfortunately do not.

Most importantly, in return, if fans that are displeased about it wish to use their blogs as a way to air their frustration on the matter it is their prerogative to do so. If some choose to come to me to share their opinion, I am more than happy to be an outlet for them. Many fans have been staying quiet for a long time and I personally see no problem with them speaking up. I stand by them. It is nice to see people coming together against the hate and disrespect because quite frankly we have spent too much time seeing just the opposite in the fandom.

In my opinion, a positive thing that has come from this is that fans that are frustrated with the discourse are able to see that they are not alone and can appreciate that fact and hopefully even find some new blogs to follow that respect Katie McGrath at all times as opposed to using her as a device to grossly amuse themselves and others.

Thanks for stopping by. 💗

SO YOU WANT TO MAKE AN INTERESTING CHARACTER:

AKA, this is a game of “who the fuck are you.”

I wrote a guide for my characters because I’m trying to lead a campaign with 3D characters, and there was some interest in seeing it? So here it is. Of note: The main city in this campaign is led by a duchess, who in her youth slayed a dragon- the previous tyrant of the main city.

Choose a race and a class that provides an interesting story- one you want to be part of, one you’d be interested to read, one you’d be interested to play with. You’re going to be spending hopefully a lot of time with this character, make them someone you’d like to meet. This is not a combat-driven campaign, it’s a character driven campaign. If you don’t have an interesting characters, this campaign won’t work. Your character should be at least willing to work with others, but you don’t necessarily have to like or even trust one another to begin with. That can come later. On that note: I encourage you to have secrets. Your character should not be immediately discernible. If you’re playing a half-orc barbarian, that shouldn’t be the extent of your character. Why did you leave your barbarian group? Are you still on good terms with them? You are entirely welcome to hide your backstory behind traditional fantasy tropes though. No one’s liable to question the massive half orc who claims they’re a barbarian and carries a huge axe- even if the blade of the axe is simple tin hiding a magical core, and is secretly a wizard’s staff.

Also- You’re looking for work. I don’t know how or why you are looking for work, that’s something you can decide (you have  to pay off a debt, you’re a refugee trying to settle in the city after fleeing a plague/war, etc). All I know is- somehow you ended up in the main city of this continent looking for a job. (also, feel free to borrow some aspects of your character from a favourite book, TV show, movie, or game. If you want to use Mulan or Inigo Montoya or Captain Jack Sparrow as jumping off points for your character, go for it!):

What follows is a pair of sample characters and a breakdown of why I like them as characters to toss into a campaign. Example characters and starting points under the break. This got pretty long, sorry

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The Apple - S.K

gnere: flufffff

warnings: -

word count: 910

summary: “but i didn’t eat the apple, did i?”. The boy with the chubby cheeks and a sense of humour, funny friends and now your name card.

a/n: o no, i’m so sorry about being away for so long guys…… serious writers block and a bunch of other stuff came up, but I have a few things lined up that i hope you will enjoy… hoping to hopefully post some valentines day stuff??? no promises thooo…

xx Admin Sunny


Of course you enjoyed working at the cafe that you worked at. You were a graduate fresh out of college and really didn’t want to dive head first into the pool of working business people, you always though you were too energetic for an office job.

“Can I have that apple?” you heard a voice interrupt your thoughts. It came from this young man who had the most adorable squishy cheeks ever and a fair complexion to go with it. He was tall for the way he looked, which was almost like a middle school boy, although most anyone knew it wasn’t true.

You too the apple and passed it to him with a gentle smile on your face, “That’ll be a dollar.”

“Then, can I trade this apple for a pear?” He said again, putting the apple back in its spot as you passed him the pear. You looked at him with a questioning look, wondering what he was trying to pull with this trade.

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Internet Friend! Moon Bin

Dongmin | Minhyuk

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Originally posted by kpop-kdrama-kvariety

• Bin would be the type to talk to you first 

• You two had been mutuals for a while and you always reblogged each other’s posts but never really reached out to each other 

• Until one day you saw a message coming from him • And then you started talking 

• And by talking I mean nONSTOP TEXTING OMG • And he would be texting you and his face would light up and the others would make fun of him for it 

• You two staying up late/ waking up early to try and talk to each other at a reasonable time for the other person 

• Bin always telling you not to stay up too late for him 

 • You two learning each other’s native language 

• gLASSES BIN 

• Like the first few times you skype or FaceTime he would be wearing his contacts bc he was a little nervous 

• But once he got more comfortable around you he would wear always wear his glasses 

• aND YOU WOULD THINK IT WAS LITERALLY THE CUTEST SHIT LIKE WHY WERE YOU HIDING THIS FROM ME 

• You two finally meeting in person • You being super nervous when you get off of the plane 

• Bin making sure to get to the airport like 2 hours ahead of time just in case your flight gets in early 

• It doesn’t but he doesn’t mind waiting 

• Him getting more and more nervous the closer it comes to you two meeting 

 • Bin going to look for you 

• Because what if you get lost 

 • That would suck

 • You two looking for each other at the same time 

• And him seeing you looking around and calling your name while running up to you 

• And hE’S WEARING HIS GLASSES AND A BEANIE 

• JUST LOOKING SUPER CUTE 

• And then he picks you up and hugs you super tight 

• It’s super cute and comfy but after a while it’s like “okay Bin I c a n ’ t b r e a t h e” 

• Bin introducing you to the guys

• And MJ saying something like "so THIS is who Bin hasn’t shut up about” • And you’ll both blush like crazy 

• Watching Minhyuk and Bin do girl group dances 

 • The other members noticing how happy you make him 

• Neither of you wanting you to leave 

• Bin trying to get you to stay and move to South Korea 

• Since you can’t just completely move away he makes excuses to see you a l l t h e t i m e 

• Visits becoming an insanely regular thing 

• Bin being afraid to tell you he likes you because you live so far away and long distance is incredibly hard 

• But eventually one day when you’re visiting him he tells you 

• And then the visits become more frequent 

• Usually you visiting him 

• And your free time is spent talking to him as much as possible 

• And although you both like each other you aren’t really ‘dating' 

• Until one day when you’re at his apartment and he takes you on a real date 

• And that potentially leads into a long distance! AU 

• Loving any time you get to spend together 

• But just in general talking to him all the time and feeling like you could tell him anything and always feeling super happy even when you’re just texting each other because sometimes that’s all you really need