i'm not sure how i feel about this but i'll post it anyway

Second Chances

Words: 10.1k

Genre: Fluff / Soulmate AU

Warnings: slight description of a panic attack, swearing

Description:  Soulmate AU in which you get to see colours when you kiss your soulmate. Dan has a particularity.

Read on AO3 / @florallylester made a moodboard for this and I’m crying


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i can’t respond to all the asks i’ve gotten in the past few days! here’s a post addressing some of the messages i’ve gotten re: that last ace diary comic

to all the ace and lgbt folk that came to share their experiences and support:
thank you so much. it means a lot to me to hear from people in my communities, and it always brightens my day to see other aces sharing common experiences with each other. i don’t think 5 years ago when i first discovered asexuality i would have even believed that so many other ace and ace/gay people existed!

to the people who sent hate about things i had already addressed in my previous comments on the matter please actually take some time to look at my blog and responses on my post before sending senseless rude comments.
i’ve apologized for being unaware of the complications with the term “allosexual” and i acknowledge that my comic was easy to misconstrue as an oversimplification of gay experiences. i apologize again for the confusion and my mistaken use of bad terms. i stand by the fact that it was not the word i should have used to convey what i meant, which was purely just the factual classification “non-aces”

to the ones calling me “abusive” and “homophobic” to my gf:

-frankly i don’t even know where to start with this one. maybe look at my other daily comics for context? maybe get some perspective about what homophobia is actually like? try coming from a conservative family and dating another gay girl from a conservative family! 

-shockingly, two gay people can be happily in a relationship even with different sexualities. our relationship is one of unconditional love and support - we’ve navigated and celebrated our differences for three years and intend to continue to do so.

-you cannot assume that every ace person is sex repulsed/attraction repulsed or knows nothing of intimacy. some are, but you cannot assume it of all aces. maybe actually talk to an ace person before making assumptions about their lives and relationships! if you’re curious about the ace experience in relationships with non-ace folks, please message me privately and I’d be happy to inform you. I’m not quite sure how the comic was read as “gay sexual attraction is gross”.. if anything it was meant to be self deprecating for forgetting such a common thing as sexual attraction exists. even tho i’m ace i am frankly The Biggest Gay

-my girlfriend “looks uncomfortable” in that comic because i DREW her that way. in our real life interaction, she was talking about sexual attraction to a former crush with her current, long term girlfriend! she said it was embarrassing because the feelings were irrelevant now. if you looked at my blog for context or at her blog (http://scorpiialpha.tumblr.com/) you’d realize instantly the dynamic between us, instead of assuming it from one small section of my diary comics.

(btw right hand pic above is done by her she wanted to contribute 2 this post and it’s great) 

ANYWAY,

i’m sorry i cannot reply individually to all of you, but thank you again to all the supportive anons, all the other lesbians and aces in my inbox, and those who came to calmly explain and help me understand my mistake with the terms i used. I’ve been so disconnected with tumblr that it saddens me to hear that there’s been so much controversy around ace people. I don’t know the details and it sounds like there were rashly made comments on both sides.

i made some mistakes with my last auto-bio comic, but i will not stop making ace/gay content. it has always been important to me to normalize lgbt experiences and to create works with diversity. i’ve had experiences that convinced me i was broken and my asexuality would sink any potential relationships, so these auto-bio comics with my girlfriend are especially important to me - to show aces with the same fears that there’s always hope, and to rid myself of any remaining lack of confidence in my identity.

anonymous asked:

How do you deal with self-doubt when studying? Like whenever I study and feel good after I always just think of how I'll probably fail anyway and that there was no point in studying that hard. I always just super nervous that I'm studying for nothing

Hi there. I get what you mean. Sometimes when things are overwhelming it is easier to think “why am I bothering?”. It is so important to remember that although studying can be boring, difficult, and overwhelming at times, it is for the best. You’re never “studying for nothing” so it is crucial for you to realise that every little bit you’re doing is helping - even if you don’t see it right away. Here are a couple of things that might help ease your mind:

  • stop making excuses and start doing - you’re probably in a cycle of wanting to do better but when it comes to actually trying, you’re either just lost or don’t feel like you can. Find small ways to be more productive - whether that be tidying up your desk, organising what you need to do, putting your work in order. If you get into a routine during each study session, you’ll find it a lot easier to stay motivated.
  • identify your doubts and learn to ease them - you’re going to be thinking “I can’t do this”, “I’m going to fail”, or “this is too hard” and that is totally understandable. Instead. you should think “I can’t do it yet but there is nothing stopping me from trying”, “if I fail, I’ll figure out why and try again”, or “I’m motivated to figure out this tricky thing”. If you can change your doubts around into positive opportunities to learn, you’ll be in a better mindset for studying. 
  • make an inspiring and positive work environment - if you’re sitting at a desk that doesn’t inspire you to work then you might find getting that extra motivation tricky. On your desk, you should have out things that will help you study like pens, post-it notes, motivational quotes, etc! If you wanted to you could check out my ‘motivational monday’ printables. They’re free to download and you can stick them up on your wall to help you stay positive about your studeies!
  • remember your previous successes - I’m sure you’ve had many awesome achievements in your life and they’re so important to remember. It’s so easy to forget those cool things you’d managed to do but think of how you felt when you were successful! Whilst you may still pass without studying, how great would it be to pass with flying colours because you revised!
  • remove the idea of “failure” from your mind - the likelihood is, if you’ve studied, you aren’t going to fail. You may perhaps get a lower mark than expected if you’ve not studied effectively but if you’ve done everything you should be, it is unlikely that you’ll fail because you were ill-prepared. Try to remain positive about your chance to prove yourself wrong. You can do it.

There is always a point in studying - even if it is for algebra… You shouldn’t allow yourself to feel bad for studying. Honestly, when it gets to need the information you’ve studied and you’re answering questions and remembering the information, you’ll probably realise there was no need to doubt yourself. I hope this helps xx

Upcoming Valentines Day RFA Party
  • Devlyn: Good morning~ I see that everyone is on the messenger today. Well almost everyone.
  • Jumin: Morning? It's already half past noon.
  • 707: That's probably her version of morning, like how mine's 1:00am. Get it? One in the morning? LOLOL
  • Jumin: ...
  • Yoosung: Good afternoon Devlyn! Have you eaten?
  • Devlyn: Hi Yoosung! No I have not, just woken up after all.
  • Yoosung: Aww, you've got to eat properly!
  • Devlyn: I'll try!
  • Jumin: She's totally ignoring us...
  • 707: Shelikeshotasafterall.
  • Yoosung: ?
  • Devlyn: I can read that.
  • Yoosung: What? What's that supposed to mean? I'm not a little boy!
  • 707: Woops, I forgot to convert it to hacker language LOL. Btw, why is Zen silent?
  • Yoosung: Oh he said he was going to the bathroom earlier, I think he left his phone on the table or something.
  • Jumin: Probably due to the trauma of dropping his phone into the toilet bowl after Seven posted the cat photo.
  • 707: God that was GOLD.
  • Devlyn: Anyways, Lady Jaehee contacted Nana and I about an upcoming Valentines Day RFA event. Looks like V had decided we're ready for another party. Nana is a lil busy now so I'm tasked to ask the members about their thoughts and ideas.
  • Jumin: Lady Jaehee...
  • 707: Well she looks up to Jaehee after all. Funny how she respects Jaehee more than you though, Jumin, her employer LOL
  • Devlyn: I'll respect him more once he cuts Lady Jaehee some slack.
  • 707: LOLOLOL
  • Jumin: ... She has plenty of slacks. She wears them to work once in a while.
  • 707: OMGGGG DID OUR JUMIN JUST PUNNED?!
  • Devlyn: ... Can I hit you? Might be worth loosing my job over it.
  • Yoosung: What??? I don't get itttt. But urgh Valentines Day... worse than Christmas..
  • 707: I can almost hear Zen groaning together with Yoosung lol
  • Devlyn: We need ideas, so far it's still a blank sheet.
  • Yoosung: When Rika was around, she sacrificed her Valentines Day with V to hold a party as well. How about one that concentrates on helping those who lost their loved ones?
  • Devlyn: That sounds like a great idea!
  • 707: How about one where you get to date a cat?! Elly will be the queen of the party!
  • Jumin: I agree with this idea.
  • 707: Something like this perhaps! https://www.battersea.org.uk/support-us/events/feline-lonely/ Feline lonely? Meet your purr-fect match!
  • ZEN: NO!!!!
  • Jumin: Oh hello Zen, we were just discussing about Valentines Day with cats for our upcoming party.
  • Yoosung: Zen's back from the bathroom!
  • ZEN: NO. NO. NO. NO. and NO. Not a combo for the worst day for singles and allergies! Gosh even thinking about it is making my nose itch!
  • Jumin: You've been avoiding cats for too long, you should try to overcome it.
  • ZEN: NO. Can't we have a match making event instead?! Oh, but then no one will find their match because everyone will be busy looking at me <3
  • Jumin: And what if you end up getting matched with me?
  • ZEN: EW NO WTF
  • Devlyn: Oh! *v* That's a good idea.
  • 707: Yeah the guests seem to be very excited each time Jumin and Zen are squabbling. Hard love between a demon and an angel they said LOL
  • ZEN: WHAT NO, They were excited to see me, not us together.
  • Jumin: I'm pretty sure the excitement got more intense when you came over with a red face.
  • Yoosung: Well I think it's good that everyone is happy about how the RFA members are so close to each other.
  • 707: LOL Yoosung you're so pure.
  • Yoosung: Whattt? Don't treat me like a child!
  • Devlyn: Well this is getting no where... Let's get some ideas from the guests instead shall we?
  • Yoosung: Good idea! That way the guests would feel more involved as well!
  • Jumin: I have no objections to that, would be nice if they all agreed on cats though.
  • ZEN: Jumin cut the cat crap out! AHCHOOO!
  • 707: LOL you didn't have to type that out.
  • Devlyn: I'll report to Nana and Lady Jaehee then. One of us will update the blog with a post for further information! I'll take my leave now, time for a nap.
  • Yoosung: Remember to eat well!
  • Jumin: Sleep again..?
  • 707: The Sloth has spoken.
  • Zen: It's good to have lots of beauty sleep if you want to be as beautiful as I.
  • Devlyn: Alright I will, good bye! ^^
  • Jumin: She ignored us again.
  • *Devlyn logs off*

I made a post a while ago about the time duplicates of the TMNT 2012 kids turning into Space Pirates(!!!) and I was thinking about that again so here are some headcanons I’ve come up with so far:

  • -the original person to suggest it was Raph in a very sarcastic tone because Donnie had gotten arrested for stealing again, and this is the eleventh time they’ve had to break him out of jail why not just make it official already
  • -and then Mikey in a very not sarcastic manner wouldn’t let the idea go and essentially one by one they all ended up on board with the plan to become Intergalactic Space Pirates
  • -their original timeline selves had already accumulated plenty of enemies and bounties on their collective heads, might as well roll with the roles they’ve been given.
  • -Leo was tempted into it because SPACE ANYTHING is always tempting to him.
  • -also because typically they only steal from ‘bad guys’ and have a sort of Robin Hood thing going on.
  • -except when Donnie/Casey/Mikey/Raph/April absolutely have to have that one thing and laws be damned.
  • -Fugitoid was already a fugitive anyways so he’s just going along with things at this point.
  • -he has six kids now and apparently they all want to be pirates and he won’t disappoint them by saying no.
  • -Donnie is scary good at manipulating shit on the digital Black Market, and has actually held fake auctions for the ownership his siblings when he gets pissed at them. he only ever lets his brothers get a little kidnapped after they’re sold off. just until he’s got the money, alright?
  • -if there’s fire or fighting or a combination of the two anywhere in the area they’ve landed for the day it’s probably the direction Casey and Raph have gone.
  • -April gets a bigger gun than the pea-shooter she’s given by Fugitoid almost immediately, and then proceeds to keep collecting various guns as they go. she’s breaking twelve universal possession laws just by having a quarter of her collection.
  • -Leo isn’t always sure how they get into the situations they do but he’s basically just resigned to shenanigans and being chased by space police at this point.
  • -Mikey has caused more intergalactic incidents than one being should be able to feasibly cause, and has the highest bounty on his head.
  • -his wanted poster is him smiling widely at the camera and giving a peace sign because even though they’re light-years from earth he’s still a weeaboo piece of shit.
  • -Mikey might have the highest bounty but April has the biggest rep for being fucking terrifying and she loves it.
  • -Mikey’s bounty is only higher because of the sheer property damage he causes. April just scares everyone she meets into comas. it’s much less messy.
  • -Casey and Raph have a running tally of who can get into and win more bar fights.
  • -April is currently winning that tally.
  • -there are no legal drinking age laws in space and long story short they all got smashed one night and woke up with matching tattoos on their shoulders.
  • -the nonsense symbol was then assumed to be their flag sign and now they can’t escape being associated with it, even though it was originally just a half-assed drunk scribble courtesy of Mikey and Donnie fighting over a pen.
  • -it looks cool enough though so they’re rolling with it.
  • -Space!Donnie and Earth!Donnie eventually figure out how to contact each other and proceed to become each other’s best friend/worst enemy. they either hate each other’s guts or agree on literally everything together and there’s no in between for those moods.
  • -their conversations typically end with them either storming off and yelling “WHY AM I SUCH AN ASSHOLE?!” or them saying “Why can’t you be more like him?” to their family.
  • -Leo has way too much fun monologue-ing villain speeches at the ship crews they rob, and maybe kind of practices said monologues in the bathroom mirror before using them.
  • -Earth!Leo sometimes asks if they can switch places, and Space!Leo always says no.
  • -the Earth!Kids are maybe really jealous and want in on the Space Pirating shenanigans.
  • -it ends up being where they spend their vacation time.
  • -also everyone is gay in some manner because Space Is Gay and they’re in space so they are all gay and there’s no way around that.

Feel free to add your own hc’s!!!

While The Grass Grows 1

I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE

HERE’S A LADYBUG ONESHOT I WROTE

It’s also on ffnet

When a new school year started, Marinette noticed almost immediately that Adrien had gotten taller. Although she was trying hard not to notice too much, it was obvious that he had filled out a little too–his shoulders seemed broader especially, and from what she could see of his forearms, he was probably working out. Alya asked her several times during the first week of school if she was okay, and Marinette had to come up with new excuses each time ‘it’s just a little hot in here’ 'I’m just disappointed to be back in this classroom’–but Alya, perceptive as ever, clearly wasn’t fooled.

It was well into October before Marinette realized that actually, Chat Noir was taller, too.

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A meeting of the Sans
  • sans1 has just created the room
  • sans2 has joined the room
  • sans1: hey sans.
  • sans2: hi sans.
  • sans1: any change over in your timeline?
  • sans2: eh. not really. the kid keeps botching his genocide run.
  • sans1: they still haven't given up on that, have they?
  • sans2: in a way. they always stop at my bro, thank god. speaking of, how is he on your end? you got a pacifist run, right?
  • sans1: yeah. he's studying for his permit. undyne is teaching him the ropes.
  • sans2: niiiiiice. what caught on fire this time?
  • sans3 has joined the room
  • sans1: nothing, but they did manage to destroy an old warehouse the other day. we've been told we're saving the city millions by letting them practice in destruction zones.
  • sans3: hey sans and sans. talking about papyrus?
  • sans1: hey, sans. yeah, post-pacifist and learning to drive from undyne.
  • sans3: nice. what caught on fire this time?
  • sans1: nothing.
  • sans3: really?
  • sans2: i know, i'm so proud of him.
  • sans3: hey sans. still on botched genocide?
  • sans2: yeah. hope the kid gives up soon, it's giving me a heart attack every time they approach papyrus.
  • sans3: yeah... god i miss him.
  • sans1: don't tell me. genocide?
  • sans3: the kid's taking a break from being dunked on.
  • sans2: how many times have you won?
  • sans3: 107. i know it's only a matter of time, but isn't that approaching the record?
  • sans1: dude, i think the record was 618.
  • sans4 has joined the room
  • sans3: oh man, really? so much for my record.
  • sans4: hey guys. dunking record?
  • sans3: yup. 107.
  • sans4: dude, nice.
  • sans3: oh, actually make that 108. brb
  • sans3 has left the room
  • sans2: christ how does he keep that up?
  • sans1: i hear the sanses in the genocide runs get numb a lot faster.
  • sans2: that's hard to believe for me. i still break into a cold sweat when my papyrus is facing the kid, and he always backs down in my timeline.
  • sans4: they're still at that?
  • sans2: yeah. can we move on to a lighter topic of conversation?
  • sans4: ah man sans, i didn't mean to rattle your bones or anything.
  • sans1: tibia honest, i didn't wanna make light of your situation.
  • sans2: heh. want me to pull papyrus in here? he'd hate this.
  • sans5 has joined the room
  • sans4: nah. he deserves a break every once in awhile.
  • sans5: hey guys. can't stay for long, about to head out. just wanted to check in.
  • sans1: hey sans. what's the rush?
  • sans5: date.
  • sans2: oooooooooh
  • sans1: oh oh oh oh
  • sans4: c'mon spill the beans man
  • sans5: heh, alright. post pacifist, toriel.
  • sans4: i can relate. i'm with toriel in my timeline, too.
  • sans5: how long?
  • sans4: about two years, now. first date on your end?
  • sans5: that obvious?
  • sans4: i can't even see you and i can tell you're rattling your bones.
  • sans2: wait, who's toriel?
  • sans1: the lady behind the door.
  • sans1: let's focus on what's important right now. namely, embarrassing sans before he goes on his first date.
  • sans5: wait. what.
  • sans4: i agree totally. hey sans, toriel really likes touching the rib cage. just saying.
  • sans5: oh
  • sans4: and watch it, she's a cuddler. like, you've seen how she hugs frisk? just wait until she gets her paws on you. like being wrapped in a thick, furry blanket.
  • sans5: oooooooooh
  • sans4: and if it goes well, she has this really cute dress that
  • sans5: i came here to have a good time and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now
  • sans2: guys if i laugh any harder i'll wake papyrus up
  • sans4: alright alright. seriously though, she prefers white wine, she'll expect a kiss at the end but she'll be fine if you're too flustered, and avoid talking about asgore, unless you immediately turn it into a pun. her favorite is the "my aim is getting better" one. if she's comfortable enough to initiate that herself, you're golden. that help?
  • sans5: yeah. thanks.
  • sans4: also, she has this sweet spot right at her thigh. she'll make this adorable bleating/giggle and you know you've got the right spot.
  • sans5: okay wow it looks like time i should go
  • sans5 has left the room
  • sans4: he'll be fine.
  • sans1: so toriel, huh? weird.
  • sans4: why's that?
  • sans1: honestly, i can't see myself with anyone but mettaton.
  • sans4: oh my god, mettaton?
  • sans2: dude. dude. whoa.
  • sans1: what? what's wrong with that?
  • sans4: my papyrus is dating mettaton in my timeline.
  • sans1: your papyrus is in a relationship? mine's aro.
  • sans2: and meanwhile i'm sitting in a timeline where papyrus just has a huge crush on the rectangle.
  • sans6 has joined the room
  • sans1: that's just... bizarre.
  • sans2: and chatting with parallel timeline versions of yourself isn't?
  • sans1: point taken.
  • sans6: hey guys. what's up?
  • sans4: quick, who are you in a relationship with?
  • sans6: uh... gaster?
  • sans2: ...
  • sans4: uh, ew.
  • sans1: whoa.
  • sans6: hey man, don't kinkshame me bro.
  • sans4: dude, he's my dad in my timeline?
  • sans6: your dad? freaky.
  • sans2: oh you poor soul. he was just my lab partner in my timeline.
  • sans1: it's... weird for me.
  • sans4: okay, i'm really curious. how weird?
  • sans1: well, "gaster" is actually the name me and pap used to call ourselves before he split into us two.
  • sans6: oh yeah, i've met a sans like that.
  • sans2: i sure haven't. when does he get on?
  • sans6: time is relative, but i think early morning?
  • sans2: ah. that explains it.
  • sans4: yeah, the only reason i get out of bed in the mornings is because toriel practically drags me out on my feet.
  • sans2: papyrus does the same for me.
  • sans6: so... wait. does this mean, from a multiversal sense, i'm engaging in both incest and selfcest?
  • sans1: hey, this is a judgement free zone dude.
  • sans3 has joined the room
  • sans4: you're the one who said not to kinkshame you.
  • sans3: back. 108 now. man i walked into a weird conversation.
  • sans2: c'mon sans, we've had weirder.
  • sans6: wait, 108 what?
  • sans4: speak for yourself. i'm getting weird mental images with me and gaster, now.
  • sans3: dunks. end of genocide route.
  • sans2: hey, remember when amalgamate sans entered the chat?
  • sans4: okay, i'll admit that was weirder.
  • sans6: and really sad. i think that was the only time alphys ever joined the chat.
  • sans1: yeah. i wonder how they're doing?
  • sans6: amalgamate sans or alphys?
  • sans1: both.
  • Core Frisk has joined the room
  • sans6: well hopefully
  • sans2: wait who's this?
  • sans1: frisk? wait, what?
  • sans4: oh, hey frisk.
  • Core Frisk: Hello Sanses. Sorry, I'm not interrupting anything, am I?
  • sans6: uh. hey kid. this is a little hard to explain, but
  • Core Frisk: Don't bother. I'm not your Frisk, anyway.
  • sans4: yeah, he's a frisk that fell into the core and now he's kinda omniscient.
  • sans1: wait, what?
  • sans3: whoa.
  • sans6: and gaster was worried about nearly falling into the core.
  • sans1: he had every right to be.
  • Core Frisk: I just wanted to pop in and saying the particular sans amalgamate you were talking about a moment ago is doing fine, in a manner of speaking. He insists that he's happy so long as Papyrus is with him.
  • sans1: that's a relief, i guess.
  • Core Frisk: Oh, and Sans? The one who's been married to Toriel for two years?
  • sans4: yeah?
  • Core Frisk: Just a heads up, sans' first date went fine, but he's plotting a revenge prank on you.
  • sans4: wow kid, that's real cool of you to let me know.
  • Core Frisk: Don't thank me. He asked me to pull the prank myself. Undyne is going to be hunting for you to get her eyepatches back.
  • sans4: what.
  • Core Frisk: if you start running now, you may just get a head-start! :-)
  • sans4: ...
  • sans4 has left the room
  • sans3: that was ice cold, kid.
  • sans6: and amazing. teach me your ways, o master of pranks.
  • Core Frisk: Aw, well I did learn from the best. Namely, you. You're gonna teach me that one in a few months when I visit you.
  • sans6: niiiiiice.
  • sans2: hey, kid? you know all possibilities across all the timelines, right?
  • Core Frisk: Yes. Your Frisk will finally quit at the King Papyrus ending. It'll be lonely for him, but so long as you're with him, he'll be fine. You're a great second-hand man and an even better brother.
  • sans2: ...i gotta run, guys. i, uh... i gotta tell my bro i love him.
  • sans2 has left the room
  • sans3: oh, same here. kid's back for more. don't tell me if i end up beating the record, i wanna find out for myself.
  • sans3 has left the room
  • sans1: ...so, does he?
  • Core Frisk: Where would the fun be if I told you that?
  • sans1: fair enough. alright, i'd better head out. i need to go read papyrus his bedtime story.
  • sans6: and then have fun times with mettaton?
  • sans1: i'm ace.
  • sans6: oh.
  • sans1: ...i don't want to know what you do with gaster, do I?
  • Core Frisk: No, you really don't.
  • sans1: heh. alright, goodnight frisk. goodnight sans.
  • Core Frisk: Night, Sans!
  • sans6: night sans
  • sans1 has left the room
  • sans6 has left the room
  • sans7 has joined the room
  • sans7: i missed the chat again, didn't i?
  • Core Frisk: Yeah. Outertale, right?
  • sans7: ?
  • Core Frisk: Space?
  • sans7: oh. yeah. why?
  • Core Frisk: Well... I've always wanted to try out a jetpack.
  • sans7: you can jump across timelines, right?
  • Core Frisk: You HAVE met me, haven't you?
  • Core Frisk: That was a rhetorical question. I know that you've met me. Omniscient and all.
  • sans7: heh. get over here, i'll grab a pack for you.
  • Core Frisk: =D
  • Core Frisk has left the room
  • sans7 has left the room

purple-possibilities  asked:

(Anotha one) He opened the door, took one step inside, before realizing what was going on and turning back around; he was not going to deal with this---not without his camera, anyways. (I'm trying to see how long I can make these sentences without them being run-on sentences. It's fun!)

Madara tried to stifle his snickering as he pointed the camera at the bed- where only Kakashi’s hair was visible beneath a pile of sleeping, snoring ninken -because really, every instance in which Kashi let down his guard was ridiculously endearing.

“Don’t think I can’t see you with that camera, Dara-chan,” Kakashi mumbled, his voice muffled by Pakkun, who had apparently decided to sprawl across his face to sleep.

Madara’s laughter only intensified, and he snapped several pictures to make sure he got the best angle.

“If I weren’t so comfortable, I’d be offended… but since all of my limbs are otherwise occupied, I’ll let this one slide.”

“You know you love it,” Madara chuckled fondly, receiving only a light snore in response.


[Send me the first sentence for a fanfic and I’ll write the last five.]

I   F O R G O T   Y O U   S E N T   T H I S.

not sure I would ever actually write a fic of it but I kind of want to think about a jayroy soulmate au for young justice (because i’m always a slut for soulmate aus and jayroy would be like. Ultimate Angst)

  • so I mean first of all you have to talk about what kind of soulmate au it is
  • tbh I always go for “first words” soulmate aus
    • but where’s the fun in restricting it to only words though? so what if Bona Fide Humans From Earth have first words but martians have an immediate semi-permanent totally low-effort telepathic connection or something
      •  (like. something even more so than their usual telepathic powers. something about that person just feels Right.)
    • kryptonians on the other hand have idk pictograms or something. imagine if they had timers lmao would clark’s be fucked up from relativity or whatever until he arrives on earth
      • kal-el’s parents: what the literal fuck is going on with our kid’s timer what the fuck what the
    • clark either has to fake a soulmark (definitely has to hide his timer, possibly under a watch bc clark thinks he’s funny like that) or just pretends that his is hidden under his clothes all the time. lois has words – probably in english instead of kryptonian tbh
      • the real problem is whether she meets superman or clark kent first. whose words does she have on her
      • pffft imagine if it’s clark’s words on her. lois is always assumed to be in a relationship with superman but her words aren’t from her, they’re from her fcuking ridiculous fellow reporter clark kent
      • finally lois finds out the truth and just takes a deep breath and clark kind of sheepishly shows her his timer and is like “uh sorry I don’t have a matching soulmark because kryptonians have timers instead of words but I promise you it timed out when I first met you”
    • ANYWAY
    • conner and m’gann would have soulmarks in this au too is what I’m saying. soulmarks in their various forms are a universal constant, not just a human thing
    • trying to match up with the various people/aliens in the universe is fucking difficult though because sometimes it’s like “oh cool” and then sometimes it’s like “why the fuck are my lips purple with you kissed me for the first time couldn’t you just leave words written on me??”
      • alien s/o: do…you want me to write words on you? I can do that. and personally I think it’s weird that you don’t leave color sO….
  • right but anyway onto the jayroy

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torabelichan  asked:

Hello Chekhov! If I'm not wrong you studied linguistics right? Since I'll go to Uni soon and I'm interested in studying it too I was wondering if you could tell me a bit about your... experience with it? Was it difficult to study? Is it useful to you now? Thanks in advance! ^^ (also I really like your art! It's so lovely!!!)

Heyo! Thanks for the question. I hope you don’t mind, but this is a semi-frequent question so I’m gonna post it publically. 

You are correct! I did study linguistics in University. I loved it, and I loved studying it. I can’t say for sure whether or not you’d love it too, but here’s a few things to consider:

1. Linguistics is not an English degree. 

It’s not about studying one language - and it’s not about studying literary classics. You will not be reading a whole bunch of really flowery language books, and you will hardly ever be studying a single language for long enough to become proficient at it. (You can, however, study a language on the side - many people do, because most Linguists are language nerds.)

2. Linguistics is unreasonably NOT a Science major - but it should be.

While technically classified as a BoFA, Linguistics classes tend to resemble math classes more than anything else. In most programs, you’ll need to load up on the general knowledge of basic language-building such as Linguistics 101, Sociolinguistics, Phonology, Semantics and Syntax. 

The first two are softer - you can get in and out without too much math-ing and will probably enjoy yourself a lot if you like analyzing fanfics. 

The last 3 are gonna be a cold shower of no-numbers-involved algebra at best. They are purely analytical in the math sense - you will need to create and recreate formulas for sentence structure, solve semantic truth statements and figure out the logic behind why a sound changes in one context but not the other. They might be fun for you - but you need to go into it with the right mindset, and you need to be ready to solve puzzles for those 45-90 minutes.  

3. Linguistics majors are diverse

This one kinda ties into the “How can I use it?!” question. It’s a good question! I’m not sure I even have the answer. However, I’ll try to give  avery basic rundown of options.

Professor/field research

This is basically…. study after more study. You get into the research field, you go somewhere to study a language or a linguistic phenomenon. You document dying languages, or help with language rehabilitation. This requires major sacrifices from you in a mental way - it’s basically just writing and researching work. If you enjoy that, if that’s your deal, great! Your life will depend on grant money, though.

Speech pathologist

This is a field which works with people with speech impairments - they could be purely physical, they could be neurological. You’ll be working with the medical side of things, so this involves a thorough knowledge of human sounds and you will need to apply them to things like speech therapy or rehabilitation. 

Coding/computer language

While this isn’t necessarily the same as being a code-monkey, if you’re really into syntax and semantics, you might be a good fit for computer language analysis and writing and etc. Right now this field can pay off a lot. I know quite a few people who, after taking courses in semantics, ended up in a field coding apps or programs for larger companies. It’s not guaranteed, but if that’s something that has been your dream, it might be a good step into the coding world as well. 

Translation/interpretation

Although this field is technically NOT accessible with ONLY a language degree, you MIGHT be able to worm your way into it. Google translate is a big project still going on, and it’s still a big goal for many companies to create a translation device that can rival human brains. You could technically make linguistics your stepping stone if you want to work in a field of helping machines take over the world translate some words. 

Teaching

Okay, so this is what I’m doing - but it’s not because I’m a linguist. I technically got this job for other reasons, but it’s still valid. A lot of people DO become teachers - many of them foreign language teachers or linguistics teachers. That’s because it’s easier to teach a language if you know how ALL languages work in blueprint form as opposed to only studying the grammar of one. Specifically for me, teaching English in a foreign country language and phonetics has been a huge help in focusing my kids’ issues with pronunciation. In fact, currently I’m trying to channel my linguistics knowledge into the new curriculum I’m helping create in my school. It’s a bit out there, but it happens! 

This is just a rundown of things, but I hope it helps someone - anyone. 

Honestly, my biggest piece of advice would be - don’t study linguistics if you don’t like studying! It’s a very academic route, it’s not just a reading club. That being said, it can also be incredibly invigorating to be in a class with only 6 people (as most linguistics classes of upper level tend to be small) arguing about that one part of a sentence you’re analyzing from a language none of you speak. You feel like you’re discovering something. You feel excited.

Or maybe that’s just me, cos I’m a nerd. 

Anyway, if other linguistics majors have something to add, pls reblog!! 

the week you turn nineteen,
you spend more time choking back
tears than not. the world spins on
and you wonder if growing up
is supposed to feel like
being waterboarded.
the beginning chapter of eighteen
saw a fierce girl
with sparks caught between
her teeth. she had a fight in her
bones and a song on her tongue.
eighteen finds a title, she finds
a home,
even if so many still spit out its name.
she builds a roof over her head and
some days it’s heavy to hold up. some
days the rain leaks through. but
most days, most days it is the only thing
that makes sense.
eighteen finds a world skilled
at throwing punches and she thinks
she’s just as good at taking them
until the world stops fighting fair.
eighteen gives way to nineteen
three rounds past trembling knees. she
passes the mantle on broken legs.
on a heavy chest.
on tear-stained sleeves.
nineteen shows up like the guest
you forgot making plans with. she
knocks on the door and
eighteen says, “it’s not a good time” but
nineteen says, “i don’t feel like celebrating”
and stays anyways.
eighteen didn’t
get out of bed when girls that love like her
are killed on television and nineteen
dry heaves by the side of the road
three days after her community is
massacred in the next state over. nineteen
is afraid of falling asleep and
even more afraid of waking up. sixteen
was searching for god and
fifteen cried while she prayed
but nineteen has stopped looking
for answers that don’t make her
sick to her stomach.
nineteen finds you curled under the covers.
nineteen finds you suffocating.
nineteen finds you grasping
for a way to live that doesn’t make
you a target. nineteen finds you as a
soldier drafted into a war that
shouldn’t have to be fought. some
tell you you’re
brave
and some say every breath you take is a
shot fired
but none of them have ever
had to stand on the front lines.
the way you love comes with a
body count.
a death toll
that keeps climbing.
you sit in the foxhole while your
friends’ blood is all over the news and
you can’t even write home to
mom and dad about the reasons you
feel so small these days.
seventeen was lost and eighteen was
proud but nineteen is just scared.

you tell nineteen that she will relearn
how to feel hopeful.
soft.
strong.
safe.
she will.
she will.

—  nineteen // cc
Secret Santa!AU

Pairing: MinKey (but really… my OT5 feels were out of control)
Length: 1k~
Rating: PG
Warning: This will make more sense if you’ve watched One Fine Day. Its set in the December following their OFD recordings (which happened in November for MinKey). I guess this is canon? Also… this is probably part one of three? But I don’t know yet lol

Summary: Minho’s gonna get Key the perfect present this year. 

“Nooooooo!” Taemin whined loudly as he unfolded the small slip of paper in his hands. Instantly, the rest of the band knew who he’d gotten for Secret Santa. Jonghyun and Jinki chuckled at Taemin’s misfortune and Key rolled his eyes. At the very least, this was the first time that it happened to Taemin.

They’d started doing a gift exchange during their trainee days because they were all short on money, but they’d kept up the tradition even after they’d received their first paycheck from SM. The five of them were all oddly sentimental about all the struggles they had been through as a group, each tradition they upheld and even the new ones they started were pleasant reminders of where they started and how they hope to grow together.

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My History of Science Was Wrong
  • Back when Venus passed between Earth and the Sun, a conversation with a local astronomer got me interested in reading just a little bit about the history of astronomy. I was completely surprised by how reasonable old-timey theories like Aristotle's levity/gravity and a geocentric Earth are--IF you drop your presentist knowledge in favour of the tools that were around at the time.
  • I learned a lot of things from reading just one (long) online comment-thread
  • Part of the understanding is just how crazy our modern cosmology is. Of course none of us question it because there were astronauts on the moon on TV and besides our teachers told us so and they have a higher social position and education than we do. (Bacon) This really hit home for me when I read that some ancient Greek natural-philosophers had measured how fast the Earth would have to spin to validate heliocentricity and concluded the number (~10,000 mph) was ludicrous. It sure feels like I'm standing still and not being blown by a 10,000 mph wind!
  • One ancient natural-philosopher speculated: If only there were some kind of ... ENVELOPE, or SHEATH, that would protect everything from spinning off and keep the air still on the Earth as the Earth whirled at its . Speaking of ad-hoc theories that fail Ockham's Razor....
  • (But wait ... how could they make that calculation if they thought the Earth was Flat because no Col&oacute;n/Magellan...? I think that's another misconception I'll have to remedy later.)
  • Also interesting is that the concept of relativistic frames shows up in the 14th century. To say whether the celestial sphere or the Earthly sphere is rotating (what the stars can be observed to do at night) ... well, it's all just a matter of perspective, innit? Neither one "is really" rotating, it's just that the "other" is rotating -- considered from wherever "you" are standing.
  • I was also reminded, in imagining the astronomers working with their epicycles to predict -- quantitatively, not necessarily knowing the underlying mechanism -- the motions of the stars and planets, of quantitative finance. Particularly the machine-learning side. We just try to figure out *a* formula that works. If it has lower Vapnik-Chervonenkis dimension, great, but all we're really trying to do is predict what will happen or, more often, the risk of X happening. I can imagine future economists looking back on what fools we are, with our neural nets trained on the wrong data and overfitting the wrong functional forms. All for the sake of making a dollar and getting that social approval.
  • Have you ever tried explaining why inertia is right and things all fall at the same speed to a kid? Because things don't all fall at the same speed, and smoke in fact goes up. Not only that, but (if you have chosen to live far enough away from artificial light or regularly venture there at night) the sky is obviously still and even with great precision we can't measure parallax. Not to mention
  • Also -- that whole "Humans have over time come to see themselves as less and less special or privileged in the order of the universe"? Who said that, Sagan? I oughtta put a different book in front of his face before he promulgated all that stuff. The ancients and medievals didn't see humans as special or privileged by the Earth being at the centre of the Universe. They saw us as being at the bottom (which we obviously are. all the Heavens are above us. "up" is defined as the normal to the manifold surface of the Earth) of the natural order. This is totally consistent with the Fallen post-Eden state -- the Earth getting older and decaying, Man living shorter and shorter lifespans and falling deeper into Sin, the great civilisations of the past crumbling and decaying.
  • Anyway, there are way too many informative things said by different people to do "Quote" posts and I want these to be tied together. So I'm using the "Chat" Format instead.
  • if heliocentrism is so blatantly obvious and only the stupid Catholics didn’t get it because of their “blind faith”, why did the Chinese, who were unencumbered by both Aristotle and the Bible, have to wait until the Jesuits – of all people – came, rather than vice versa? It’s funny how all these clamorous indictments against the Catholic Church for holding back science somehow amount to a big insult to non-European civilizations, who didn’t have the evil Church to hold them back and somehow still didn’t make it, despite being given a 1000-year headstart.
  • Don’t forget, heliocentrism had been falsified in good Popperian fashion by the absence of the predicted stellar parallax and the lack of eastward deflection in falling bodies. (Good evidence why Popper is inadequate.) The latter was not empirically settled until the 1790s when Gugliemini dropped weights down the inside of the spiral staircase of the tower of the Univ. of Bologna. The former was apparently settled when Calandrelli observed parallax in a-Lyrae. (“Apparently” because some have contended that he could not have actually observed it. However, it was reported in the literature in 1803.)
  • the Jesuits were half-way convinced. Grienberger was reported to have said that Scheiner was on board and even Clavius was not far from the Copernican system. Then GG had to get into a flame war with Grassi over the comets of 1618, where Grassi had made meticulous telescopic observations and was clearly right on the science while GG had not even bothered to observe them, and so the Jesuits, who had earlier celebrated Galileo, sat on their hands when he went on trial.
  • Galileo declared that the comets of 1618 were emanations in the earth’s atmosphere; whereas the Jesuit astronomers claimed they were bodies in highly eccentric orbits that had come from somewhere beyond the moon. In the Dialogo, Galileo had claimed the ocean tides were sloshing caused by the earth’s rotation and so conclusive proof. But centuries before, Aquinas had written that the tides were caused somehow by the moon.
  • Somebody else pointed out that the Catholics have had the longest-running astronomical observatory in the world. Elsewhere that Aquinas wrote that there are multiple possible interpretations of the Bible and we shouldn't settle on THE official one until we know it's true (however false interpretations can be ruled out)
  • Apparently the future Pope told Galileo in 1611 that the theologians needed a little time to go over his work. He pushed them on the issue and said they needed to reinterpret the Bible based on his work of natural philosophy, That was a no-no because only the Church can interpret the Bible (this is before Martin Luther) and that is in fact where all of their political power comes from. So rather than being anti-science, the Church was forced, politically, into taking GG head on when, for intellectual reasons, they woudl have preferred to continue their centuries-long project of squaring science with religion.
  • (In the discussion it coes clear that science and religion as we think of them today are misleading terms, because science as we understand it didn't exist and neither did religion as we understand it. Natural philosophy, astronomy, geometry, and theology are better terms.
  • here's what the other guy said:
  • The Catholic Church has one of the oldest operating observatories in the world. During the time the Catholic Church was ascendant, Europe experienced one of the greatest scientific booms in world history.
  • The conflict thesis about Galileo and Bruno are basically urban legends that have little connection to what actually happened. It always disappoints atheists when they find out that Galileo was actually kind of a dick, and Bruno wasn't executed in the slightest for his support of heliocentrism, but I try to always attack urban legends whenever they crop up.
  • Geocentricity was not seen to support humanity’s “specialness”. The centre of the universe was the bottom of the universe – everywhere you looked was up. That we occupy the place of least dignity in the universe was a commonplace of classical & medieval poetry. --Andrew Brew
  • "Anachronistically, we tend to think the Church's great problem was negotiating the difference between dogma and emerging science. But the Galileo debate was superimposed on a much older struggle to assimilate Greek thought (Aristotle) w Church teaching." —Jim Harrison
  • "Immutability of the heavens is not & never was prerequisite to geocentricity. Stoics rejected immutability & accepted geo."—@rmathematicus
  • "There is an obsession with suggesting that X was wrong, and that the 'truth' came along and bulldozed all previous lies."—Pete Langman
  • "contrary to popular opinion, Copernicus’ De revolutionibus was not on the Librorum Prohibitorum but only referred there until corrected."
  • "Kepler worried about having his book on the Librorum Prohibitorum but friends pointed out that it became more attractive, forbidden fruit."
  • "All the ban meant was that scholars could not find the book on open shelves but had to apply…duly delivered from the poison cabinet."
  • attributed as a chat
  • presentist ... fuels debate
  • W
  • Jim Harrison: What really ended the debate was not a decision on which system had fewer epicycles and assumptions, but the emergence of a persuasive dynamic explanation. So long as it’s just a matter of geometry, Tycho’s system works as well as a heliocentric system even if you consider the phases of Venus. Once you develop laws of motion and a theory of gravity, however, it becomes pretty hard to think that the itty bitty Earth is lording it over the enormous sun. It seems there was this guy named Newton…
  • Came across a historian of science who is tearing apart the story we were all told about the Catholic Church and Galileo.
  • https: //thonyc.wordpress.com/2011/06/22/but-it-doesn%e2%80%99t-move/
  • A few choice quotes:
  • @rmathematicus: if heliocentrism is so blatantly obvious and only the stupid Catholics didn’t get it because of their “blind faith”, why did the Chinese, who were unencumbered by both Aristotle and the Bible, have to wait until the Jesuits – of all people – came, rather than vice versa? It’s funny how all these clamorous indictments against the Catholic Church for holding back science somehow amount to a big insult to non-European civilizations, who didn’t have the evil Church to hold them back and somehow still didn’t make it, despite being given a 1000-year headstart.
  • @rmathematicus: Don’t forget, heliocentrism had been falsified in good Popperian fashion by the absence of the predicted stellar parallax and the lack of eastward deflection in falling bodies. (Good evidence why Popper is inadequate.) The latter was not empirically settled until the 1790s when Gugliemini dropped weights down the inside of the spiral staircase of the tower of the Univ. of Bologna. The former was apparently settled when Calandrelli observed parallax in a-Lyrae. (“Apparently” because some have contended that he could not have actually observed it. However, it was reported in the literature in 1803.)
  • @rmathematicus: the Jesuits were half-way convinced. Grienberger was reported to have said that Scheiner was on board and even Clavius was not far from the Copernican system. Then GG had to get into a flame war with Grassi over the comets of 1618, where Grassi had made meticulous telescopic observations and was clearly right on the science while GG had not even bothered to observe them, and so the Jesuits, who had earlier celebrated Galileo, sat on their hands when he went on trial.
  • @rmathematics: Galileo declared that the comets of 1618 were emanations in the earth’s atmosphere; whereas the Jesuit astronomers claimed they were bodies in highly eccentric orbits that had come from somewhere beyond the moon. In the Dialogo, Galileo had claimed the ocean tides were sloshing caused by the earth’s rotation and so conclusive proof. But centuries before, Aquinas had written that the tides were caused somehow by the moon.
  • @rmathematicus: Somebody else pointed out that the Catholics have had the longest-running astronomical observatory in the world. Elsewhere that Aquinas wrote that there are multiple possible interpretations of the Bible and we shouldn't settle on THE official one until we know it's true (however false interpretations can be ruled out)
  • @rmathematicus: Apparently the future Pope told Galileo in 1611 that the theologians needed a little time to go over his work. He pushed them on the issue and said they needed to reinterpret the Bible based on his work of natural philosophy, That was a no-no because only the Church can interpret the Bible (this is before Martin Luther) and that is in fact where all of their political power comes from. So rather than being anti-science, the Church was forced, politically, into taking GG head on when, for intellectual reasons, they woudl have preferred to continue their centuries-long project of squaring science with religion.
  • @isomorphisms: (In the discussion it coes clear that science and religion as we think of them today are misleading terms, because science as we understand it didn't exist and neither did religion as we understand it. Natural philosophy, astronomy, geometry, and theology are better terms.
  • here's what the other guy said:
  • The Catholic Church has one of the oldest operating observatories in the world. During the time the Catholic Church was ascendant, Europe experienced one of the greatest scientific booms in world history.
  • The conflict thesis about Galileo and Bruno are basically urban legends that have little connection to what actually happened. It always disappoints atheists when they find out that Galileo was actually kind of a dick, and Bruno wasn't executed in the slightest for his support of heliocentrism, but I try to always attack urban legends whenever they crop up.
  • Andrew Brew: Geocentricity was not seen to support humanity’s “specialness”. The centre of the universe was the bottom of the universe – everywhere you looked was up. That we occupy the place of least dignity in the universe was a commonplace of classical & medieval poetry.
  • Jim Harrison: Anachronistically, we tend to think the Church's great problem was negotiating the difference between dogma and emerging science. But the Galileo debate was superimposed on a much older struggle to assimilate Greek thought (Aristotle) w Church teaching.
  • @rmathematicus: Immutability of the heavens is not & never was prerequisite to geocentricity. The Stoics, for example, rejected immutability & accepted geocentricity.
  • Pete Langman: There is an obsession with suggesting that X was wrong, and that the 'truth' came along and bulldozed all previous lies.
  • "contrary to popular opinion, Copernicus’ De revolutionibus was not on the Librorum Prohibitorum but only referred there until corrected."
  • "Kepler worried about having his book on the Librorum Prohibitorum but friends pointed out that it became more attractive, forbidden fruit."
  • "All the ban meant was that scholars could not find the book on open shelves but had to apply…duly delivered from the poison cabinet."
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@adhd-is

Hey! I’ve never posted proper photos of myself on here before, but now I’m like, #yolo, even if just for today, so here we #golo

ADHD is…

Not being diagnosed in childhood, because you did “too well” in school

Spending your teens feeling stupid as all hell, because you struggle to meet deadlines and can’t quite understand concepts in subjects that don’t 100% capture your interest (math, u lil bitch, i am lookin @ u)

Having your executive dysfunction chalked up to “laziness” because if you’re smart, you “can’t” have ADHD, so you’re obviously just unmotivated and lazy. Except if you were unmotivated and lazy, you wouldn’t have high achievement, so like, check mate, bud?

Being told that ADHD isn’t a reason for your behavior, it’s an “excuse”, and that you should just “do better” despite your brain literally not being able to

Not being told you have it until you’re 18 and struggling to function like an adult

Having trouble driving because you can’t focus, having trouble sleeping because you can’t stay still, having trouble with chores because you never remember anything

Hyperfocusing on something so hard that suddenly it’s 6 AM and you’ve ruined your sleep schedule all over again

Suffering from loads of mental health issues, overcoming literally all of them, and having your executive dysfunction still blamed on them because people just??? really love????? to use mental illness and their ableism as a scapegoat?????? instead of trying to help, and recognizing that adhd is a permanent part of you?????????? like “are you sure you’re not just depressed” yes. thank you for your opinion even though i never asked for it, but I am actually very sure, good day to you too sweetie :) :)) :)))

Not being able to make yourself shut up when you’re speaking about something you’re passionate about. Having that problem in college lectures, and hearing a few people snicker each time you talk because you’re /that girl/ who /talks too much/ and has /too many opinions/ like gawd sorry for taking up space ffs

BUT ALSO, ADHD IS…

Finally having an explanation for some of your less-loved quirks, and knowing that you’re not just lazy or stupid

Finding a whole bunch of people who get it

Being able to do amazing things when you hyper focus, getting more done than most people because you actually can’t get distracted for once

Finding outlets for your energy very early on in life, and finding them to be your favorite things in the whole world (acting, dance, music)

Being able to multitask like a pro (and also having to multitask, because when you have the tv/radio/whatever on in the background, it’s a distraction you can control, which helps a lot)

Knowing a whole ton of totally random trivia about so many different things, and a bunch of information on a few select topics, to the point that people think you’re a student in those things (example - I’ve been very physically sick this year, I like to read medical journals, and when I went in to get a CT scan a few months ago, the tech asked me if I was a medical student because of how much I know about it all)

Having a huge amount of energy when you’re doing things you like, and feeling it exponentially grow, feeling like you can take on the world

Understanding that nothing’s wrong with you. You work differently than most people, and it makes life hard, but that’s because of the world, not because of you. It’s just how we are.

ok so I was yelling with @bshittyknights​ about JACK L. ZIMMERMNANN (as one does) and SHE MENTIONED EPIKEGSTER AND HOW JACK WAS LIKE, “hey you wanna take a selfie” and AND

okay. first of all: i still cannot believe jack wanted to take a goddamn selfie with bitty. but that’s a given. i’ll never be over it. i’m making this post because i rEALIZED that jack would have made the selfie his fucking facebook profile picture. if parse hadn’t showed up and RUINED EVERYTHING, JACK LAURENT ZIMMERMANN WOULD HAVE CHANGED HIS PROFILE PICTURE TO A SELFIE OF HIM AND BITTY.

(l i t e r a l l y I JSUT FUCKDIFHNGDK REALIZED THIS AND I’M DEAD. does your own brain ever kill you. god dAMN.)

so anyway as i’m like, crying & losing my shit over this realization, @bshittyknights​ goes “he would have emailed it to himself”

which. WHICH. yeS. JACK EMAILED THE PICTURE TO HIMSELF AND THEN HE SAVED IT TO HIS FUCKING COMPUTER. THEN HE OPENED FACEBOOK AND LABORIOUSLY TRIED TO FIND THE PIC AGAIN. “where did it go. hmmm,” jack thinks to himself, clicking around, brow furrowed. computers are annoying. (he probably re-downloads it several times, thinking, maybe it didn’t save?? or something?? where is it going??)

so then there’s like “IMG_5583.jpg” “IMG_5583(1).jpg” “IMG_5583(2).jpg” in jack’s downloads folder. FINALLY HE FINDS IT. this whole thing has taken like 25 minutes. so then Jack uploads it to fb and he’s careful to make sure the crop looks good (it just so happens that bitty is centered in the little icon in the end, jack’s face a bit smooshed to the side—it’s just, bitty looks nice. that’s why jack likes the picture. he doesn’t really care about pictures of himself, anyway).

the picture gets a bunch of likes and johnson shares it to his page with the caption “i love this au, what could have been *sigh*” which jack thinks is weird but whatever. it doesn’t matter. the picture looks great. bitty looks nice. jack likes looking at it.

JACK LAURENT ZIMMERMANN THEN PROCEEDS TO KEEP THE SELFIE AS HIS PROFILE PICTURE UNTIL GRADUATION BEFORE HE REALIZES WHAT IT FUCKING MEANS.

(it’s still Bad Bob’s doing. Jack’s pulling his whole puppy-dog-eyes-staring-at-Bitty’s-back-with-discontentment thing as he walks away, and Dad Bob comes over, chirps, “<Hm, he’s cuter in person than in your profile picture, don’t you think?>” Jack turns instantly beet red, splutters, “<N-n—I, w-what? What… do you… mean?>”  Rad Bob raises an eyebrow. “<I didn’t want to pry, but you know you can tell me things, right?>” Jack stares at him. What does his dad think he knows…? Rad dad Bob smiles, rolls his eyes. “<Go on, then… go really say goodbye. We have time.>”

Oh, Jack thinks.

He turns around and runs. To Jack, it feels like he’s running toward a place he’s always been going.)

"What actually happened" for Dummies
  • <p> <b>Sakura:</b> *remembers "thank you" scene from first time she confessed*<p/><b>Sakura:</b> if I "STILL" have a ""PLACE"" IN ""YOUR HEART"" then please don't slip any further away...if we just all stayed together forever then i'm sure things will go back to the way they ""USED" TO BE"...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *shakes at her words, calls her "annoying"(recalling the same day that made her understand that she indeed once had a place in "his heart"), instead of actually killing her (like he intended with naruto) he genjutsus her because he fears that she might get in the way(get hurt)*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *doesn't get it...yet* you lil shit all Sakura ever did was love you...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *tries to play cold;but fails* Does she expect for me to play at romance? She has no reason to love me and likewise..<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *throws chancla at him* baka--BAKA! you only need a reason when it's hate and...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> ...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> wait a diddinly darn minute...?<p/><b></b> Playing at romance? what da heck are you talking about? She never mentioned any of "that"??...she "just said" that she loved you, wanted you to go back,and for things to go back to the way they "USED" to be!<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> (shit.)<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> you sneaky lil bastard were you two playing at romance behind Sensei's back, back then?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> *laughs* they kinda looked like they were "lovers"...I feel so embarrassed *blushes*... And I cried so much when they first parted as well... OMG so much feels!...you guys should also read--<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> not now trollshimoto, I have answers I need questioned.<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> It's kishi.Kishimoto,and I think what you actually meant to say was: "questions i need answered"?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> Now...don't get all cocky of me just because you think you're the writer of this Manga!<p/><b>Kishi:</b> eh? But I am the writer...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> shhhhhh<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *turns to Sasuke* now, as I was saying...<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *not there anymore*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> WHAT? Where did Mr. "duck's-butt-hair" go? He still hasn't answered Sensei's question!<p/><b>Naruto:</b> I dunno, he said something like: *changes voice to sasuke* "those may just be chains from our failed past" and then ran away like a ninja while half-crying-half-blushing.<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> ?ah! "and naruto" how long have you been there?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> NOW THAT'S JUST RUDE!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh sorry it's just that you were irrelevant atm.<p/><b>Naruto:</b> hah? I was the one who has seen more ss moments I'll have you know!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> Naruto, have I ever told you how relevant you were?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> you changed your mind pretty quickly...eh -_-<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh common Naruto, don't be like that. Tell your most beloved Sensei what he wants to know, mmh?<p/><b>Naruto:</b> now I'm not sure about "most beloved"; but I'll tell you anyway just so you don't say I'm irrelevant to all of this...<p/><b></b> There was that time when he wanted to die for her and wanted me to carry her and run with her as fast and far as I could no matter what happened while telling me how dear she was to him; but of coarse I immediately took the spotlight away from him because I'm the protagonist and I'm suppose to save people...,anyways there was also this time where sakura was worried for him and I had no idea what was going on but<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> pfft third wheel<p/><b>Naruto:</b> I wasn't!<p/><b></b> He just admitted that "only she" could convince him of anything with the exception of revenge!... which was kinda of weird because despite having said this the moron still planned on dying, throwing away his dream just so "she could live"...<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> well I did say that sakura ("the girl who filled "his heart(lonely existence)" with the emotion called "LOVE"") was a "precious" person he was supposed to protect...duhhh that's why he broke a guy's arms for touching her, and the only one who could calm him down was sakura "by hugging him". Hello? Anyone remember that?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> and then... "naruto"?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> (was I just ignored?)<p/><b>Naruto:</b> when sakura hugged him at the hospital he made an expression that made me feel like I didn't belong in the room so I left<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> See...!third wheel!<p/><b>Naruto:</b> -_-<p/><b>Naruto:</b> *sarcastic laugh* Ha-Ha-Ha! Not so much, because later the idiot was jealous of me and decided to fight me(almost kill me)...and part of it was triggered because of sakura's grateful smile towards me...and despite wanting to chidori "me" to enter true darkness like itachi wanted him to...when Sakura got in between... he suddenly got scared!<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> welp I always knew he had a crush on her...he probably also feels strongly about her if not cutting his ties with her wouldn't have been so hard back then...<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> love is a complicated thing...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> you still here?.<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> I was just leaving<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> 685 anyone? I threw sasuke in that dimension for the purpose of eyesex, and to catch him in his cold act...let's not forget that i--<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> oh can you just be quiet!?<p/><b>Kishimoto:</b> Oh so now you're not ignoring me, huh?<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> You killed Rin! I hate you! *kicks him back to his original dimension*<p/><b>Naruto:</b> Ooo-Kaay?? Now that Sakura's words have shaken Sasuke's soul... I'm going to punch some sense into him and finally bring him back...cause that's pretty much what this story is about "when love doesn't work, punch your friend in the face until he realizes it does"<p/><b>Sasuke:</b> *from the distance* he sure is taking his time<p/><b>Naruto:</b> (my sasuke senses are tingling) *runs away like a ninja*<p/><b>Hagoromo:</b> I hope those boys get their love back...*looks at Sakura* especially Sasuke...that bootay is fine...*starts to disappear*<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> What bootay is fine? Wait, wait, waaaaaiiiit...ah aaaand he left...<p/><b>Kakashi:</b> *sighs* we don't get paid well enough...<p/><b>Sakura:</b> *suddenly wakes up from a genjutsu cast by the current strongest sharingan user* you think...?<p/></p>
call and response - jongtae (1/4)

~3.2k words, pg for this part. parallel idol au w/ composer!jong. eventual side minkey. pure fluff.

1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - epilogue

In which Jonghyun is requested to work on his boss’s brother’s solo album and gets a little more than he bargained for.

this was requested by lnternetwar like forever ago on twitter and i’m suuuper into this au. i’m sorry i’m a shit and had to split it up into parts orz but i hope you enjoy!!! uwu it won’t take too long to get the other parts out; this one’s just a bit short because it’s essentially an intro.

Jonghyun has always said that the taste of good coffee is probably the best thing in the whole world. It’s familiar, something so quintessential to his day and his life, something the carries along with it the comfortableness of late nights. It may not be the best taste, objectively, but he couldn’t imagine a world without good coffee. It’s so thickly engrained in him that it’s in his blood, probably, helping more than he thinks to carry out all of his executive functions.

But right now, that comfortableness, that solace, is nowhere within reach. He’s sipping on a warm, medium cup of coffee that’s tailored to perfection, immersing him in the richness of the dusk that’s falling outside of the windows of the near-empty 24-hour café. He’s anxious; there’s a buzz in the air that he can’t quite place, a tickle in the pit of his gut that’s leaving him somewhat dissatisfied in this time that’s usually his small slice of peace.

Is he forgetting someone’s birthday? Is he missing a deadline? Did he leave Roo in the bathroom again?

Something isn’t right.

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anonymous asked:

what do u think about bob's comments on belarke? although i'll never agree on sending Eliza hate this time I can understand why blarkes defend bob and they hate Eliza. I'm far from being his fan but this time I have to give it to him, not bc he said everything is platonic -we all knew that- but I really liked the way he explained the relationship between belarke. And also I liked that he said he wish the ships war ends, maybe his fans will listen to him.

First off, “I can understand why blarkes defend bob and they hate Eliza” There is NOTHING to understand. You don’t treat another human being the way Blarkes attacked Eliza due to her ONE less than stellar word choice when referring to ‘romantic Belarke stuff’.  You don’t send hate to anyone, especially for saying they like a fictional platonic relationship over a super fictional romantic one.

Second, Bob and Eliza have BOTH been consistent about what Bellamy and Clarke are to each other and how they portray that bond. Eliza and Bob have BOTH in the past have addressed their ‘distaste’ for this constant asking about Belarke in a romantic light. The only thing that Eliza said that was controversial was saying “belarke shit”, which if anyone with a functioning brain will realize is slang for ‘stuff’. Like watch this video below and you will see how Bob’s facial expressions to the mention of belarke say a million things he isn’t saying. And when Eliza said “belarrrrke” Bob said, “you’ve awoken the beast”…Bob called the fandom a ‘monster/beast’, right? I bet you anything if Eliza said that she would get hate. Anyways this is just a compilation of things said and done when ‘Belarke’ has been mentioned….

Getting back to Bob and Eliza loving the platonic bond of Belarke…which is actually revolutionary if you think about it. How many deep-seeded friendships between a man and a woman (that are the leads) have been portrayed that have never turned romantic? I can’t list one that is how few they are. This is something I think both Eliza and Bob want to represent. Bob and Eliza are friends with people of the opposite sex and they are probably also tired of people constantly thinking men and woman can’t be just friends and have a close emotional bond. I know I’m sick of it. 

Many many Clexa people also love the bond Bellamy and Clarke have and the m/f close platonic friendship they represent.  That you can love someone, trust them, open up to them, and it NOT be romantic. Think about f/f friendships that are like this….many people would just call the girls best friends. However, when it comes to m/f, due to heteronormativity, people want and expect these people to be a romantic item. This is actually something I have written in one of my posts about why I understand why people ship Belarke (x). This is something Bob said at a panel. This is what I believe is being referred to in the ask above. I completely agree 100% with Bob as to WHY people want Belarke together. Bob is basically saying in his speech that is due to heteronormativity of society that people think men and woman can’t be best friends and nothing more. (This is actually something I have written in one of my posts about why I understand why people ship Belarke (x).)

BOB: Oh, Belarke. You know, I understand people’s gravitational pull towards Belarke and the truth is, i love working with Eliza and most of the scenes where Bellamy is at his emotionally vulnerable are with Clarke. He shares a lot with her, so i understand why people want to see those two together. She makes him a better person or she makes him believe in himself, or…did. So I get it, I completely get it. HOWEVER, from my standpoint AS BELLAMY, I don’t think it’s a romantic relationship. But there’s definitely deep feelings there, that they need each other, that they rely on each other. And for some reason or another, he feels compelled to be open with her. And openness and being trustworthy are some of the most important things when it comes to relationships and those two. For some reason or another, they do open up and trust eachother…so yeah, i don’t blame people for “shipping” Belarke, but I don’t think it’s necessarily a romantic thing.”

I have not looked at the Belarke’s fandom’s reaction to this but I believe many of them are just dismissive of what Bob said. They say things like, “Sure Bob, the way Bellamy was looking at Clarke was completely #platonic” Which just makes me like?????????? Bob is the one portraying Bellamy!! His face and the emotions behind his portrayal are CANON. And what is he portraying??? An amazing platonic friendship between a man and a woman. AND if that is not enough…there has also things written into the script to show the comradery between Bellamy and Clarke. Like this is CANON for the belarke hug. 

Now, even though Bob and Eliza have basically been saying the same thing… why are so many people so quick to demonize Eliza? well…other than just being shitty people? I think it is internalized misogyny and a believing woman should “keep their mouth shut” while if a man says something they don’t like they just say “they’re problematic and are just not in tune to human emotions so they ‘don’t get it’ or see it. Oh a typical man, amiright? lol.” Many blarkes think Bob is basically a ‘god’ and can do no wrong. And you know what…it isn’t because Eliza is ‘pro clexa and lexa’ and vocal about it that is why she is demonized. Becuase there is another person that has been vocal about their love for Clexa and seeing the chemistry…someone that was actually one of the first Clexa shippers…

Honestly, it sickens me to see how many Blarkers have such a double standard when it comes to Bob vs Eliza and their distaste for ROMANTIC Belarke. Do they not realize how anti-feminist it is and is rooted in misogyny? It is quite sad if you think about it. Gosh, what pisses me off too is how upset Belarkers get at Bob & Eliza saying that they enjoy the platonic relationship but don't’ necessarily like it in a romantic way. Like….many Clexas say this too! …and then the Belarke shippers get angry at us for loving the platonic bond and not seeing it in a romantic way, and wanting that m/f friendship rep?  Now, I do think that what Bob said at the panel does help make Belarkers feel validated in their feelings. It is due to these attributes for amazing friendships often are in romantic relationships that Belarkers ship Bellamy and Clarke. The reality is that is also due massively in part by heteronormativity that people see Bellamy and Clarke’s friendship as a romantic one. Make Bellamy a Bella that has these same attributes of trust, loyalty, opening up to Clarke and I bet you anything Belarkers would only see it as platonic. A concept Belarkers don’t seem to get is that you can have deep feelings for someone and them not equate to romantic ones. 

So do I think the Belarke fans will listen to Bob? No, no I do not. I don’t have a problem with them shipping Belarke, but as soon as they demonize Lexa or Clexa to legitimize their ship that is what I have issues with. 

kids that i once knew (1/?)

Captain America: The Winter Soldier CS AU. 

Note: This is only part one, of who knows how many parts. I’ve been working on this for over a year, and have purposely avoided reading all variations on Captain America CS aus within the fandom. Dunno when the next part will be ready, but, well. This is a project near and dear to my heart. So it’s definitely not going to be abandoned. Shout out to @swallowedsong​ for encouraging me to post, @alchemistc​ who I’ve been telling about this for ages, and AU week in general for rallying us all together and inspiring so many wonderful works. 

Title from the song “Dead Hearts” by Stars. 

one. 

            He wakes up fuzzy, warm and cold all at once, head pounding and tongue heavy in his mouth, like he’s swallowed sand that tastes like the worst toothpaste he’s ever tasted in his life.

            He wakes up and he notices several things in quick succession:

            The bed beneath him is strangely soft.

            His clothes are strangely tight and unstarched.

            The air feels stuffy and fake.

            The game on the radio is several years old. He knows this because he was at that game with Liam.

            He sits up and he knows—he knows that something is very, very wrong.

            (The last thing he remembers is a plane, and cold, and water, and her and—

            “I’m gonna need a raincheck on that dance.”

            “All right. A week next Saturday at the Rabbit Hole.”

“You got it.”

“8 o’clock on the dot. Don’t you dare be late. Understood?”

            “You know I still don’t know how to dance.”

            “I’ll show you how. Just be there.”

            “We’ll have the band play something slow.”

            “Killian? K—”)

            “Captain Jones.”

            He pulls himself out of his thoughts and glances up at the woman who’s just walked in. Something about her is off, too. Everything is wrong.

            “Where am I?”

            “A recovery room in New York City,” she answers with a smile. Her uniform is right—like the one he’d seen Emma wear (Emma) but—

            “No. Where am I, really?

            Her smile falters.

            “I don’t understand.”

            Well, he thinks darkly. That makes two of us.

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Paradise. LRH.

Originally posted by omgcashton


Words: 2100
Pairing: Luke/Reader
Rating: not much swearing, no smut. sfw.

(Not proofread and was also written after 0 hours of sleep, so the grammar may not be good. But trust me, I normally have great grammar.)

Loosely based on Paradise by Coldplay. 

His calloused fingers danced along my naked spine. He drew shapeless pictures into my skin, knowing that even his touch caused me to feel ticklish, almost ultrasensitive. I giggled into the crook of his neck, the echo of my laughter bouncing off of the walls of his collarbone.

I couldn’t believe after all this time, we were still sickeningly sweet like peach iced tea in light breeze of summer. Sure, we would sometimes fight about stupid things like jealousy or housework, but for the most part, it was like we were forever trapped in a honey moon phase.

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