this one is PURE speculation i think, but jiyong got his smiley face tattoo on his hand in the same place seunghyun got a scar on his? i think it was at a time when seunghyun was having it really rough so…idk
the amount of art work and furniture that seunghyun has bought, only for it to appear in jiyong’s flat a few months later is actually ridiculous
seunghyun spent his last birthday in a gallery with jiyong and (i think?) only jiyong
jiyong went to go watch him get his hair cut on his last day before enl*sting (even though there was no need for him to go get his hair cut?????)
they ended up spending new years eve together just the two of them “by accident”
You don’t taste the memories in the same way that I do. It’s the soft spot in me that you like to play with, the one that you think had always been there and will always be there for you. I’ll never know what it is that’s keeping you stuck in who we used to be, as though even after everything I’m just supposed to treat you in exactly the same way, I’m just supposed to love you in exactly the same way. I’d been waiting for those words and I thought that they were special, but I’m not going to wait on them when you’ve used them to shatter another girl’s world. I don’t ever want them to come from you, and I’m sorry if you don’t like that. Our time has passed.
I think I'm going to kill myself but I don't know how to tell my boyfriend that I won't be around much longer. I don't want to hurt him but I don't think I can stay here anymore
it gets better.
that’s what I am supposed to tell you, but some ambiguous and abstract wish for the future isn’t going to make you want to live because you’re hurting now. you want relief now.
but you paused.
you’re thinking about those you love, and you wrote this message, and you’re considering some sort of future because you just want to know that there is something out there that’s worth it, something that makes you worth it.
so maybe it will get better, and I hope that it will, but I don’t know, and you don’t know, and no one really knows. we just hope, and that’s all that we can really do.
so what do you tell your boyfriend, or your friends, or family, or anyone you love?
you tell them that you’re scared, and unsure, and that you’re in so much pain, and then you try your hardest to rid your mind of those demons.
if you don’t try to give yourself a future, you will regret it because life is beautiful. you just need help fighting through whatever is keeping you from seeing that.
It kind of feels like you don't want to be with me, but you don't want anyone else to be with me either.
I have wanted nothing more than you to find someone who was amazing.
And I did. And you went out of your way to convince her that I wasn't available.
I wasn't trying to. She wanted to know why you keep canceling on her. I couldn't think of any other reason you'd be acting like that if you really liked her as much as you say you do.
*opens mouth to interject abt how he doesn't have feelings for her anymore, but she keeps going*
And as far as MY feelings go...*sigh* it's...complicated.
*confused* What does that mean?
It means that I love Eddie & I'm living w/ him & my best friend out of the blue tells me he's been in love with me for years & then less than two months later is dating someone else.
*annoyed* How long was I supposed to wait for you, Iris? I mean, does this mean...do you-"
No. You shouldn't. It doesn't...*pauses to catch breath* I'm still reeling from what you told me, okay? I don't know how I feel about it yet, and I'm not going to break things off w/ Eddie if it turns out to be nothing. So...don't wait for me.
And I'm sorry about Linda. I never specifically said it was me you were trying to get over, but she must have connected the dots somehow. You're trying to move on, and I made it difficult for you without intending to. But really, Barry, if you want to be with her you should stop making her doubt that you do. I never have to wonder when you & I are together. *leaves*
*standing there helplessly, feeling more confused & conflicted than ever*
We flirt all the time, smile and laugh but how am I supposed to know if this is real? I can’t control my feelings anymore. It’s hard being around you and not saying all the things I want you to hear. I’m trying my best to act casual but all I can seem to do is get mesmerised in your eyes.
I’m scared that because you’re being so distant you’re gonna eventually leave me. Maybe the distance probably doesn’t really have much to do with me but it still really scares me. Like what if you just forget about me? What if over time you just slowly disappear and I never hear from you again? What if you go days without talking to me and you don’t even miss or think about me? What if you just keep drifting away and never come back? What if after things get better you realize you moved on and don’t care or need me anymore? When things go wrong we’re supposed to get closer, not pull away. And it’s terrifying me.
a personal message i sent to someone very important to me (LopezJayLo98)
So now it is time for one of my favorites if not my ultimate favorite, father!bts, it’s my love honestly but this time there’s a twist !! Last time I did all bbys/young kids but this time it’s going to be them as fathers of teenagers/adults so bc I love this AU i’m gonna start it off right away with the one, the only Kim Seokjin aka Jin aka I'm lowkey loving the blonde now like I’ve seen more pictures, I’ve seen more lightings and angles and I gotta say it’s nice as fuck 1000/10
For everyone that hasn’t read it, he has a lil bby girl
She’s not actually a bby anymore but he ignores that part
She’ll always be his lil princess who stood on a stool next to him while he cooked and “snuck” tastes of the food before she was supposed to
He would completely and totally still call her princess
He wouldn’t care how old she got
“Princess are you ready??? We’re meeting your uncles in like ten minutes”
“Hi yes I’d like one chocolate shake for my princess and one vanilla one for me plz and thnx”
“Do you not see how cute my lil princess is???”
“Jin she’s 16”
“What’s your point”
She grows to accept it tbh
Like at first she’s like hey man I love you but you cant call me that around my friends
But she actually starts to really love it bc he stops for a while since she seemed to really not like it at all
She starts to miss it once he stops
Like he just uses her name instead bc he just wants her to be happy and comfortable
It doesn’t even last a month bc she just has to tell him he can start it up again
She lo v e s singing with him though
She’d have a similar voice to him
It’s v v soft and warm and almost comforting
They both get so happy when they sing together like they’ve both just got huge smiles of their faces the entire time
Also she has his smile I just want to put this out there
Like they’re so identical when it comes to smiles
She also has a similar laugh
She’s very proud of being so similar with her father though bc she looks up to him so much
She teases him about being the embarrassing dad yeah but she loves him with all of her heart
The first time he sees her all dressed up, he actually tears up
I have this head canon that she’d have such a cute lil fashion sense
Like all of the cute shirts and the skirts and the cute lil flats with bows
But it’s all pretty casual ??? It’s never anything grand just simple and relaxed
One night there’s some big event like an awards ceremony and she actually dresses up, gown and all
He has to take a moment just to hug her and she’s a bit ?? at first but then she gets it when he just mumbles out a “my princess”
She lets him hold her and hugs him just as tight bc he has to accept that she’s growing up
She moves out of the house with her friends at around 19 or 20
Jin’s highkey protective like he calls her every night
“Did you guys get moved over okay?? is your stove working do you need me to bring you over some dinner?? Do you want me to come do your laundry do you need more socks I can pick some up for you”
It takes him a while to back off bc he’s so used to babying her that he takes a minute to snap out of the whole she needs to be taken care of thing
She does call him quite often on her own though
Even though she knows he’ll call her right before he goes to bed, she sometimes just misses him
They don’t live too far from each other since she takes within their city but she lives far away enough to be able to feel independent
She can visit anytime she wants to but school happens
She makes sure to visit at least once every other week at the very least
She aims for every week but sometimes life happens and she’s got a test or an essay or something she can’t move to another date
He’s pretty calm when she gets into a relationship
He’s not completely calm but on the surface he’s v v nice to her love
She takes her studies very seriously so by the time she actually even considers a relationship, Jin’s accepted that she’s an adult
He trusts her to make the right decisions and that includes who she dates
She does pick a really amazing person though so he’s very happy and content with her choice
Father!Jin understands that she’s growing up and although it takes him a while to get used to, he eventually lets her but he will always and I do mean always, call her his lil princess even when she’s got kids of her own
I haven’t cried in a long time. I’ve felt like crying. I’ve been scared, upset, worried. But no tears have come. I have cried oh so very much in the last 5 years, that lately - almost 8 months now - I am just out of tears and can’t seem to cry at all. Until today. I just can’t…with these boys and this fandom…I don’t understand my passion for them…You see - I’m alone on this planet. I’ve been alone and raising my kid for 15 years by myself and I’m so tired. When Sam said they will just “fade away”, I lost it. We will all fade away and that terrifies me. I have to make this life the absolute best I possibly can, because it’s all we have (that we know of, anyway - we don’t carry memories of past lives if that sort of thing exists) And I’m scared and alone and I am not sure how to do this stuff. I’m supposed to be the strong one…I don’t really know y’all but I need you. And thank you. Please don’t go away, ok? I need you…