i'm not here right now i'm at my dads

All Might: I love all of my children! Midoriya, Todoroki, Iida, Uraraka, Hagakure, Tokoyami, Aoyama, Ashido, Asui, Ojiro, Kaminari, Kirishima, Bakugou, Koda, Sato, Sero, Shoji, Jiro, Yaoyorozu, Shinsou and *looks at smudged writing on hand* Manatee

@tereziweek day 4: au day

i tend toward humanstuck, so take a bloodswap 

anonymous asked:

Who was everyone's first celeb crush? I'm curious!

If I told you guys mine, you’d kill me.

BakuDekuTodo x Brooklyn99 'Into the Woods'
  • Bakugou: Okay, I know that things are not looking great right now, but you have to admit you were having fun earlier.
  • Midoriya: I-I'm not now. I'm more stressed than ever...
  • Bakugou: Maybe that's because, you're just focusing on the negative Deku, I mean look at Icy Hot. He's chill. I'm chill.
  • Midoriya: That's 'cause he's in shock! Y-y-you know what? The reason you're so chill is because, you have everyone cleaning up your messes for you. D-didn't bring food? The "Thermostat-bastard" will find some mushrooms. Smashed through a window? Deku'll do the paperwork.
  • Bakugou: HEY, I DID THE PAPERWORK!!!
  • Todoroki: Please, please, calm down. I hate it when you argue. It reminds me of when my dad used to fight with my best friend-my mom.
  • Midoriya: I'm done with this...I-I'm going to sleep. Shouto, spoon with me. We need to huddle together for warmth.
  • Bakugou: No, Midoriya, you're my best friend! -ignores Izuku's shocked af face- You're going to spoon with me!
  • Midoriya: -stomps foot- I called first spoon! Shouto, get over here right now!
  • Bakugou: Midoriyaaaa, don't throw away a lifelong friendship -dutifully ignores Izuku's absolutely done with him face- for a one-night spoon with Icy Hot.
  • Todoroki: Okay enough. We're gonna stop fighting. We're gonna lie down, and we're gonna triple-spoon like grown-ups! Come on, bring it in. Bring it in. -all three spoon with Todoroki in the middle- There. Okay, see? -pulls Izuku closer against his chest- That's better, right?
  • Bakugou: -hugging Todoroki- ...
  • Midoriya: -cradling Todoroki's arms around him- ...
Who else dad is weird like this 🙄
  • *in another world at another time*
  • Me: *gets text*
  • Dad: Hey, who's my favorite daughter?
  • Me: Dad?
  • Dad: Hey there, dear. 😉
  • Dad: Last time I checked I was. 😂
  • Me: *out loud* Oh my god!
  • Roommate: Please stop screaming, I'm in a very intense debate about the merits of socialism with an online friend, and I can't concentrate with you making such a racket.
  • Me: Socialism? Aren't you incredibly rich and vain?
  • Roommate: I'm a Trotskyist, you fool.
  • Me: Who cares! My dad's alive!
  • Roommate: I wasn't aware that your dad was dead?
  • Me: Neither was I. I thought he had just abandoned me and my mom all those years ago. I have quite a story about it. When I was about 14, my dad took me on a road trip to go to IHOP for a delicious breakfast. After we had finished, he got up to use the bathroom and never returned. He left me stranded in a strange IHOP two states over.
  • Roommate: You traveled two states away to go to an IHOP?
  • Me: I mean, it was a road trip.
  • Roommate: How do you know it's your dad?
  • Me: Check my phone, it says dad right there. Of course he's my dad.
  • Roommate: It could be anyone.
  • Me: There's no one else in my contacts with the name dad, other than my dad, ya goober. In fact, with every new phone I've gotten I always added his old phone number to the contacts in case of a moment just like this.
  • Roommate: Even still, don't you think it's suspicious that your father is contacting you via text nearly a decade after he abandoned you?
  • Me: No.
  • Roommate: Not even a bit?
  • Me: No. *buzz* Oh, he texted me again!
  • Dad: Hey, who's my favorite daughter?
  • Me: Me, of course! 😘
  • Dad: No.
  • Me: What?
  • Dad: You're my fifth favorite daughter.
  • Me: I don't understand.
  • Dad: I have six daughters and you're my fifth favorite one. The sixth one died in a scuba diving accident.
  • Me: So I'm your least favorite daughter?
  • Dad: No, don't think of it like that! You're not my least favorite daughter, you're just my least favorite LIVING daughter. 😉
  • Me: That doesn't make me feel better.
  • Dad: Ah, it doesn't matter. You remember me, your dad, the big wacky goofball! 😝
  • Me: I remember you trading my bicycle for coke.
  • Dad: It's a thing of the past, my daughter who I love the least. I don't want to worry about the past, let's meet up and discuss the future.
  • Me: OMG You want to meet up? Where?
  • Dad: IHOP, for old time's sake, but this time let's make it the one in town.
  • Me: *out loud* Oh my god, I'm meeting up with my dad!
  • Roommate: I'm right here, you don't have to yell.
  • Me: I'm so excited. I'm reconnecting with my father. Most girls can only dream of this moment.
  • Roommate: He honestly sounds like a terrible person.
  • Me: People change.
  • Roommate: Yeah, sometimes they become worse.
  • Me: You're just overly pessimistic because you're a goth and also a Trotskyist.
  • Roommate: Eh, I can't deny it.
  • *later at IHOP*
  • Me: *waiting at table* I can't wait to see my dad again. I wonder what he looks like. I bet he's a businessman now. Oh, or maybe he's a priest. *notices commotion at the front of the store* Hmm?
  • Waitress: Sir, please wait to be seated.
  • Disheveled Dude: I'm meeting up with someone, you flighty broad. There's not much time. Get out of my way.
  • Me: *internally* At least that guy isn't my dad.
  • Disheveled Dude: Oh, there she is. *runs and sits at my table* Oh my god, is that my little girl. You've grown up so much. You look way too much like your mom. It's bringing back some really bad memories. I'm sorta regretting. Just joking. Hahaha. WHERE THE FUCK IS OUR WAITRESS, I'M TRYING TO EAT HERE!?
  • Me: What a coincidence it is that the horrible man making a scene at the front of the restaurant is my dad...
  • Disheveled Dude: What's with the distant look on your face? You're acting like you saw a ghost. Haha, maybe you do think I'm a ghost. Hey, sorry about leaving you at the IHOP all those years ago. Kinda got bored of the whole dad thing. JESUS CHRIST, CAN YOU GUYS FUCKING HURRY UP AND GET US A WAITRESS. F-Fuck. *wipes sweat off forehead*
  • Me: Dad?
  • Disheveled Dude: WHAT!?
  • Me: *jumps in seat*
  • Disheveled Dude: Sorry, I've been really on edge recently. *nervously looks over shoulder* Where the fuck are these waitresses?
  • Me: Dad... *gets teary eyed*
  • Disheveled Dude: Oh god, are you gonna start crying on me.
  • Me: *sniffles* I'm sorry, I just missed you so much.
  • Disheveled Dude: Yeah, yeah, I missed you too. Time to move onto the next thing. Inheritance. Uh, I'm gonna die eventually, so you can have all of my money. *put suitcase stuffed with cash on the table and pushes it towards me* You can just have it now, for all I care. I mean, you never know when I'm gonna die.
  • Me: Dad, I don't want your money. I just want to spend time with you.
  • Disheveled Dude: Well, you can spend all the time in the world with me once you accept the fat wads of cash in this suitcase. I just need you to say verbally that you're accepting this money from me as a legitimate form of inheritance.
  • Me: Dad, please. I just want to talk to you.
  • Disheveled Dude: Come on and take the fucking cash, Elizabeth.
  • Me: My name's not Elizabeth.
  • Disheveled Dude: Okay, whatever. Take the money and clearly dictate that you are accepting the entirety of this money as a legitimate form of inheritance from your loving father. You can use it for college, you're college aged right. Or prenatal care. I don't fucking know. What shitty kid doesn't want FREE FUCKING MONEY!?
  • Me: *stands up from seat* Dad! You're the worst ever! I hate you! *runs out of IHOP sobbing*
  • Disheveled Dude: Fuck, I knew that wasn't going to work. *notices how dark it is outside* It's almost here. I wasted so much goddamn time. I'm never going to get rid of this thing. FUCK!
  • Waitress: *nervously* I can help you now, sir.
  • Disheveled Dude: Oh, so now you show up. I'm not so hungry now. In fact, I've lost my entire damn appetite.
  • Waitress: I'm sorry, sir. It's all my fault. I'm so sorry.
  • Disheveled Dude: Which one of those cars outside is yours?
  • Waitress: The red one.
  • Disheveled Dude: That broken down piece of shit?
  • Waitress: Yes.
  • Disheveled Dude: Guess, there's no other choice. It'll have to do. Give me your fucking keys.
  • Waitress: What?
  • Disheveled Dude: *points gun at waiter* GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING KEYS!
  • Waitress: *drops keys on the table*
  • Disheveled Dude: *tosses wads of cash at the waitress* That's easily $200,000. Go buy yourself a better car. You might want to make it quick. *runs out of IHOP*
  • Waitress: *watches disheveled dude speed off* Why is it so dark outside and where did everyone go? I guess it doesn't matter now, though. $200,000. That's a lot of money. I wonder what I'm gonna do with all this? I'm so excited that I'm lightheaded. The future is so bright now.
  • Wall of Darkness: *encroaches*

mutsukitooru-myheartout  asked:

Question: the dress you were wearing in the picture you shared of your wedding was red. Is it common where you are from? (I can't remember where right now because I'm half asleep) I'm just wondering, since I'm so used to seeing white wedding dresses

Nope! White or ivory is the much more common here in the UK, but I just really like red and wanted something a bit different. My dressmaker did an amazing job!

Related: after I’d already made my decision, I actually found out my mum wore red velvet when she married my dad! Total coincidence :3

Most people working in customer service hate rude clients, but I personally love them because I have a very dry humour and I mean how can I resist being a smartass to people who like to be rude? My absolute pleasure.
I used to work at my father’s business, which is a private medical clinic. Some exams are covered by the gov, some are not. Prices can range from 100$ to 1300$ and even more (though when it’s more we usually split up the exams). I would work at night and on weekends, which meant I was alone at the front desk, two or three other employees in the back.
One night it was very slow so the two other employees were sat out in the front with me, and we talked as I did my chores. In walks a man, maybe in his thirties. You can just tell he is very despicable but I just smile brightly, welcome him and ask to see his doctor’s paper. I take a look and see it’s for an MRI, meaning ai have to fill a document with his information to have a tech approve it. It’s for his right knee so I confirm with him as I’m writing it down.
Him: could it be possible to add the left knee? Just to compare.
Me: i’m sorry we can’t, that’s illegal. You should ask your doctor and if he sees it to be pertinent he’ll prescribe the exam.
Him: okay but I forgot I can just pay for it!
Me: that’s an additional 650$, and I just told you it’s illegal.
Him: but you can just check it on the paper before you scan it into the computer.
Me: again, sir, I can’t do that because it’s illegal.
Him: I’ll do it then.
Me: but I know of your intention and I’ll just put a note in your file about it to make sure.
Him: come on , I won’t tell your mother!
Me (getting quite irritated): no but I certainly will tell my dad.
Him: what’s it to me?
Me: this is my father’s business. He owns it. Now I need your signature right here.

His face totally fell and the other two employees had to leave because they were laughing so bad.

anonymous asked:

So today my dad was talking about how stupid non-binary people are and I'm non-binary and I died inside. I mean they're also very homophobic and I'm very not straight... Pls help

You have many friends here, but in many ways, I do not think turning inward is healthy. I am not suggesting you come out to them, if it has the possibility to make your life right now painful or dangerous, but often times, these people do not learn because these people have no experience. They don’t understand how widespread it is, and they speak in complete stupidity. Sometimes when they learn that someone near them, whom they protest to love, is gay, or nonbinary, they amend their opinion. That is the ideal, of course.

I don’t know how old you are, but if you are older than say, 16, I would say it is now time to begin establishing your personal boundaries. If you can do so safely, begin having, not angry or hateful reactions, but definite and dismissive responses to bigoted comments. It may even be prudent to simply say that you do not want to engage in conversations that are disrespectful to other people, and then walk away. This may earn you negative replies and consequences, BUT it is good for several reasons.

Firstly, you declare the ethical high ground, and their only possible reply is “But I want you to see how bigoted I am!” Which makes them look terrible (even to their subconscious). Next, it allows you to set a precedent of your boundaries and feelings WITHOUT revealing what you are to them. Thirdly, it requires NO EXPLANATION. You simply do not engage in cruelty or dismissive behaviors. Those are your personal boundaries. And they will either respect them or earn your disapproval. I know you may be scoffing, thinking that they are the authorities and could care less about your disapproval, but I assure you, they ABSOLUTELY care. They may not interpret it as you want them to, but ALL parents can tell when their children are disappointed in them. Recall that they are human. They had parents, and even if they agreed with their parents upon every point, at one time or another they absolutely found themselves at odds with their parents, and had to find a way.

Eventually, the hope or idea is, that they will learn to stop doing those things in front of you, but only if you handle it properly.

You must not display any sort of rage, frenetic behavior, or emotional state. Your affect should be cold, dismissive, and definite.

You should not engage in answering “Why” questions. If you interrupt their remarks with “I do not engage in disrespectful discriminatory behavior, and I am leaving this conversation” and they attempt to defend their bigotry, it stands to reason they will eventually ask what is wrong with you- a why. At this point, you have simply to distance yourself further by either repeating yourself, or saying that speaking ill of others in a way that is ignorant of their circumstances is not something you condone. The most important thing is not to use any phrasing that is “name-calling”. You cannot call a bigot a bigot. They stop hearing you. So always talk about the behavior and the aspects about THE BEHAVIOR that bother you. Give them a chance to be a better person. Give them the opportunity to qualify what they have said in a more pleasant way. If they do, this means they are aware of their fault. It makes them easier to engage. If they do not “back pedal”, then you have met a brick wall, and you walk away.

If they pursue you or belabor the point, resist the urge to engage. Repeat yourself. No matter what they say. Repeat that you do not engage in such behaviors. Find a way to leave safely, whether it be to repair to your room, or to step outside.

This is the way you teach others how to engage you. This is how you stand up for yourself and gain ground WITHOUT imposing upon them. If they continue their bigotry as a pageant to upset you, well then…

They have taught you PRECISELY what sort of enemy they are, and have made themselves more obvious. You will have learned a simple truth about your family, and that is something to confront in different ways with a separate strategy.

I am sorry you have to deal with this. But this is a plague on the human mind, one that is hundreds of years strong, but you represent a generation largely immune. Uphold that. Defend it. I know that it can be frightening (and please do not do anything that is dangerous. I cannot know your circumstances, and you know your parents.) but all of you must step back and let them define themselves. Once they have, they are easier to beat.

Can I . . . talk with you?
  • Varian: Hey, dad! I don't know if you listening this or not, but . . . I just had to talk to you.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I know that even if you were able to talk to me, you wouldn't want to. I mean, I'm the reason your in the state you are right now.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I know it's my fault for what happened, but . . . I'm going to fix this. I promise you that.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: Since the princess isn't going to help me, I'm going to have to save you myself. Okay, Dad? Just hang in there.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: You know,Dad, it gets a little lonely without you here anymore. Now, I understand why you were always forcing me to get out my lab.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: You were lonely too, weren't ya? Ever since Mom . . . has been gone, things have been different.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I've been holed up my lab all the time and you've been trying to keep busy with helping the town. We've never spent much time together ever since then.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: But, I'll promise you this. Once I get you out of this prison, we'll never be apart.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: We can move away to some distant Kingdom where Princess Rapunzel and he friends can never interfere on out lives again.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: Maybe, Arendelle or Avalor. I heard Avalor is still trying to reconnect with the rest of the world since the true Princess stepped up to the throne. We can live there for years without being disturbed because they country will never believe any rumors since they'll never know what's true or not!
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: Dad, I will fix this. Even though I'm just one person, I'll do anything to have you back. I made this mistake, so it's my job to fix it.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I never realized how much I need you in my life, so I regret not cherishing the moments I had you by my side. If we both come out of this situation alive, I'll always makes sure you feel appreciated.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: Don't worry. No matter what happens to me, I'll save you.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I . . . love you, even if you don't love me back. I wouldn't blame ya. I'm not the best person to be known for 'attacking' the princess.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: I have to go now, Dad. I have look for that family recipe for our favorite cookies.
  • Quirin: . . .
  • Varian: Don't worry. I'll be back to talk some more later. Come one, Rudiger! Let's go! We got some work to do.
Saiyuki musical again...
  • Sister: (who also watches the Saiyuki anime) why is Koumyou a girl? And also keep popping up everywhere?
  • Me: that's not a girl
  • Sister: 😰 dad come here...
  • : :Entering 60 year old nerd as well::
  • Sister: the long haired blond she's pretty right?
  • Dad: hmmm I know enough of what you two watch to assume, yes very pretty and that's actually guy isn't it? Is this one of your boy love things?
  • : :by this point I'm laughing so hard I'm wheezing. Which alerts my step mom to investigate::
  • Sister: Melinda the blond guy or girl?
  • Melinda: which blond?
  • : :Now Genjo and Koumyou are singing together::
  • Me: damn it Sanzo go away you are confusing everyone!
  • : :now Hakkai and Gojyo are shirtless and have joined the stage::
  • Melinda: which one are we talking about? I'm assuming the two with shirts still on are girls...
  • Me: there are no women in this scene
  • Dad: your two younger sisters are not like this what is up with you two?
  • I should just put all my family in a room and record the random things we say watching these musicals...
  • Stacker: You were my first choice. All the other Mark 3 pilots are dead.
  • Mako: I don't think you're the right man for this mission.
  • Chuck: You slow me down, I'm gonna drop you like a sack of Kaiju shit.
  • Herc: I'm sorry about your brother. Now come sit with us, there's plenty of room at our table. Here, just take my son's food, I'll take good care of ya. Have any family left? Can I adopt you? Raised Chuck on my own. Smart kid, but I never knew whether to give him a hug or a kick in the arse. Now maybe if he had a friend...
  • Chuck: Dad. Dad please stahp.
Heathers: the Musical "Beautiful" Starter Pack.
  • "I believe I'm a good person."
  • "I think there's good in everyone."
  • "Here we are, first day of senior year!"
  • "What happened?"
  • "Freak!"
  • "Slut!"
  • "Burn-out!"
  • "Bug-eyes!"
  • "We were so tiny, happy and shiny . . . "
  • "Loser!"
  • "Shortbus!"
  • "Bull-dyke!"
  • "Stuck-up!"
  • "Hunchback!"
  • "Then we got bigger, that was the trigger."
  • "Welcome to my school."
  • "This ain't no high school."
  • "This is the Thunderdome."
  • "Hold your breath."
  • "Count the days."
  • "We're graduating soon."
  • "College will be paradise."
  • "I know life can be beautiful."
  • "I pray for a better way."
  • "If we changed back then, we can change again."
  • "We can be beautiful . . ."
  • "Hey, are you okay?"
  • "Get away, nerd!"
  • "Watch it!"
  • "Fight the urge to strike a match and set this dump ablaze!"
  • "Agh! . . . Hey, _____. "
  • "We on for movie night?"
  • "Again? Don't you have it memorized by now?"
  • "I'm a sucker for a happy ending!"
  • "_______! Wide load!"
  • "Hey! Pick that up right now!"
  • "I'm sorry, are you actually talking to me?"
  • "I wanna know what gives you the right to pick on my friend."
  • "You're a high school has-been waiting to happen."
  • "You got a zit right there."
  • "Why do they hate me?"
  • "Why don't I fight back?"
  • "Why do I act like such a creep?"
  • "Why won't he date me?"
  • "Why did I hit him?"
  • "Why do I cry myself to sleep?"
  • "Somebody hug me!"
  • "Somebody fix me!"
  • "Send me a sign, God!"
  • "Give me some hope, here!"
  • "Her dad's loaded - he sells engagement rings."
  • "Her mom did pay for implants."
  • "______, The Almighty."
  • "She is a mythic bitch!"
  • "I'd give anything to be like that."
  • "Grow up, _________ Bulimia is so '87."
  • "Maybe you should see a doctor, ________."
  • "I crave a boon."
  • "Shut up, ________!"
  • "For a greasy little nobody, you do have good bone structure."
  • "If I took a meat cleaver down the center of your skull, I'd have matching halves. That's very important."
  • "You could stand to lose a few pounds."
  • "Out of my way, geek!"
  • "I don't want trouble!"
  • "You're gonna die at 3PM!"
  • "Don't you dare touch me!"
  • "Get away, pervert!"
  • "What did I ever do to them?"
  • "Who could survive this?"
  • "I can't escape this!"
  • "I think I'm dying!"
  • "You hope, you dream, you pray, and you get your way!"
  • "Ask me how it feels lookin' like Hell on wheels!"
  • "It's a beautiful fricken' day!"

Who will I be for my daughter? This little baby, she means the world to me
Will I relive their mistakes? Or do things the right way? For her sake!

I am free now. Free to live without my fears. I believe now. There’s a reason why I’m here.

We're in game of thrones w/ clevver (Smosh's SSSS)
  • Shayne as Courtney: I'm Courtney freaking Miller! Don't you talk...I'm Courtney Miller...
  • Olivia: Courtney can you ask them... Uh the audience, the viewers where they can find them
  • Shayne as Courtney: Yo! Where can they find you
  • Erin: Uh...I'm at um the Internet... @heyerinrobinson
  • Joslyn: @joslyndavis
  • Shayne as Courtney: Look at my face, look at my freaking face... I'm Courtney Miller, You comment... WHICH CAMERA DO I LOOK AT! Which one... Right here! Listen to my face, you comment down below... What you liked about this show... And you better say nice things! Or Im a find you... I'm a find you. Also comment down below which games we should play! If you not already subscribed... You best do it now! You better like it! You better share this too. You spread the word, you tell everybody... You tell your mom, your dad, your friends, your whole school!
  • Olvia: great job
  • Shayne as Courtney: WE GOTTA SLEEP CAUSE WE TIRED... Alright clap off, *claps*
  • Everyone: *slowly claps*
  • Olivia: he sleeps with his eyes open... Courtney you sleep with your eyes open... K I think.. Courtney are you dead
  • Shayne as Courtney: *gets up* BEST WATCH YOURSELF FOOL! BEST WATCH YOURSELF!

jiminjungkooks  asked:

*knock knock* just checking in to see if you're alive after 'universe'? 👀 i am actually listening to it right now and i /really/ like it!

NAZ THE ONLY REASON I’M ALIVE IS BC THEY SAVED IT!!! ♥ it makes me so happy that you liked ‘universe’!!! have you listened to any of the other songs on their album yet? (it can be found here if you haven’t and want to). thank you for checking on your poor friend, pretty sure my heart nearly gave out at least 40 times while listening ;;

11x13 in a better AU, somewhere
  • Sam: Got it.
  • Alright it looks like we are dealing with a Quareen.
  • ... They present themselves as your deepest, darkest, desire.
  • Dean (a few minutes later): [chuckles]
  • Sam: What?
  • Dean: Well, the silver lining about being cursed? I finally get some facetime with daisy duke...
  • - 'My deepest, darkest, desire.'
  • Dean: [looking around the room] You find anything?
  • Quareen as Castiel: Hello, Dean.
  • ...
  • Quareen as Castiel: The profound bond we share? It has always been there. I need you, Dean. And your heart. I have always needed you. Just as you need me.
  • Dean: [speechless]
  • You- you aren't him. No matter how nice of a speech you can make [pause] Quareen.
  • Quareen as Castiel: [scoffs] Who I am doesn't matter. The real question is- who are you? A man... so vulnerable that the love you feel is cloaked in repression, fear-- despite the desperate years of longing.
  • Dean: [silence]
  • Quareen as Castiel: Is a heart like yours even worth taking? [smirks]
  • Dean: ...
  • Quareen as Castiel: You can't even admit what you feel. With me, that doesn't matter. He never has to know. Just give in.
  • ...
  • Dean: Yeah, you know what. You're right. Cas- the real one... I sure as hell have something for him. But you are nothing but a cheap imitation.
  • Quareen as Castiel: [frowns, moving forward to attack]
  • ...
  • Dean: [stares in shock]
  • Sam: DEAN?
  • ... I got it. It's done.
  • Dean: [still shaken by seeing a copy of Cas die] You good?
  • Sam: Yeah. Are you good?
  • Dean: Mm-hmm.
  • Sam: [looking at where Dean left, then around in confusion]
  • ...
  • Sam: What was it? Bach or Simpson?
  • Dean: Neither.
  • Sam: Huh.
  • Dean: ... It was Cas.
  • Sam: [knowing look] Does that surprise you?
  • Dean: It doesn't surprise you.
  • Sam: Honestly?
  • Dean: Honestly. What you seriously think that Cas- freakin' Cas man- is my deepest, darkest, desire?
  • Sam: He isn't?
  • Dean: No- I mean... shit. I- I dunno. He's... MY DESIRE? You know? You've known how I felt about uh, Cas?
  • Sam: Yeah, Dean. I've known for awhile now. It's kinda obvious. The staring you guys do? Alone? [snorts] It's okay man. Really.
  • Dean: But he's-
  • Sam: A guy? Dean that doesn't matter. It doesn't make you any different then who you are. Liking girls... guys being bisexual? It's a part of you. I just never knew how to tell you I knew. You get so freaked out.
  • Dean: [eyes shine and his lips part before he says nothing]
  • Sam: If you think I'm gonna blame you or judge you... I'm not. I'm not dad. It's okay Dean, really.
  • Dean: You know I love Cas?
  • Sam: Yes- after all this time? Of course. And I know you've been beating yourself up over it. But where has that gotten you?
  • Dean: ...
  • Sam: [sighs] Just how bad is it? You think he doesn't feel the same?
  • Dean: [swallowing hard] Standing here right now? It's there. Constantly. This... thing that I don't know what to do with. It's been building since hell- [laughs] since the winged bastard dragged my ass outta Hell. And every bone in my body just wants that. To be with him.
  • Sam: [nodding, looking concerned]
  • Dean: But when I'm near him... I just freeze up, when it comes to all that- that stuff. I don't know what to say. Or do. And love? Desire? [laughs bitterly] It's definitely that.
  • Sam: [looks down]
  • Dean: I- I'm screwed man. I want Cas. I need Cas. And I don't think I can tell him- don't know how, where to start.
  • Sam: ... [nods]
  • Dean: I'm sorry to load this all on you, y'know? But when it comes down to it...
  • Sam: I got it Dean. [has thoughtful, sad look]
  • Dean: [blinking back tears and leaves room]
  • Sam: [swallows, releasing a heavy sigh]
  • ...
Being an artist with non-artistic parents
  • Mom: *sees a piece of artwork* you could do that if you wanted to
  • me: y-yeah I mean ? Not really but ok alright
  • Dad: *looking at abstract art in a museum*
  • Dad: *loudly* I could do this in my sleep. It's just colors here and there all willy nilly. Let's go get lunch
  • Me: please.... Just :-) stop
  • Mom: so how's your... Um... Doodling?
  • Me: no
  • Mom: sketch...ing? D-drawing? How's the art coming
  • Me: it's going good I'm working on a new piece right now
  • Mom: oh that's nice honey I'm glad you have a hobby finally
  • Me: :0)yep
  • Dad: wait so how do you make a living as an artist if you're not a painter
  • Me: I- ...do you know what art is?

anonymous asked:

Emery, I am so sad. I am tired of distracting myself to stop feeling it. I'm tired of telling doctors about it and I am tired of being told that what I'm feeling is normal and I'm tired of my dad thinking it's not real and my mom saying she felt a lot better when she wasn't on medication and I'm tired of no one loving me when I really need to be loved and I'm tired of everyone leaving. I know you're going through a lot right now so it's okay if you can't answer this. But where do I go from here?

I think now is the time for you to start listening to yourself more and less to what everyone else is saying to you. I know love is important and I know it hurts that people always leave, but that’s just the risk we take in loving at all. Whenever somebody leaves, it makes so much space for everything else that is coming. And know that when somebody lesves, it is not a reflection of you. It doesn’t mean something is wrong with you. It is just where that person is in life. It just just where they need to go next. You just have to have faith in something. Anything at all. I think that it’s important in every single situation to let yourself feel what you’re feeling. You have to practice separating thoughts from feelings and then begin to understand where they’re coming from and why they’re coming from that place. Be conscious of what makes you feel good and what makes you feel bad. When you can keep track of those things, you can weed out the negative some more or at least control it a little bit. I know that we all have circumstances in our lives that we can’t change that hurt us as well, and that is just something that we have to learn to accept. Life fucking sucks and it also really is so incredible and you can’t avoid either of those thins, you can’t avoid life and you can’t avoid how it makes you feel. The most important things I’ve done for myself are to keep busy with things that contribute to my personal growth, I listen to and follow my intuition, I let myself be constantly vulnerable, and I let myself find comfort in certain people and give comfort as well. I don’t know what exactly is wrong but I think the most important thing right now would be to listen to yourself openly. You know what you need to do, you just have to dig your way through the layers of other things to hear yourself clearly.