i'm not even tired and it scares me

i wish to pause my existence
i do not wish for death
i wish for an escape
before i drown in the sea of deception
before the darkness consumes me whole
and i am no longer my own person

i do not wish for the last breath
i wish for a pause
while i mend and heal
while i become whole
but time waits for no man
and i am not an exception

i have to be brave
i have to be strong
no matter how hard
or how they thought i was wrong

it won’t be easy
but i’ll have to try
because my only salvation
lies in me, myself and I.

3

When I was young, I called Dad whenever I got scared. But now, I call out a different name. Do Min Joon. For the first time, I got a person I love more than you, Dad. From morning till night… I got a person who I want to do everything with. Even if that person keeps pushing me to go away, I can’t take my step. Even if I try to hate him, I can’t hate him. Again and again, I keep dreaming sad dreams where he loves me. Again and again, i’m dreaming a sad dream.

Another thing we need to talk about is Frank’s tone of voice when he says “Just this once? Wh…No, No, Red, That’s…That’s not how it works. It’s…You cross over to my side of the line, you don’t get to come back from that. Not ever.” Because damn.

I’M SORRY I CAN’T HEAR YOU OVER MY SHIP

THIS WASN’T EVEN A SCENE. THOSE CUTIES DID THAT.

this was during tris’s fear landscape where she is suppose to be all scared/not into it and shit. SHE LOOKS VERY INTO TO IT TO ME. AND IF YOU DON’T SEE IT.

THERE. CAN YOU SEE IT NOW?

AND HE EVEN LOOKS AT HER WHILE THEY ARE DOING PUSH-UPS IN BOOT CAMP.

Ugh, this ship will be the death of me.

What if Dan just suddenly confessed his love to Phil and he’s getting all emotional and scared and Phil just replies with “mhmmm”

and Dan’s all offended and shaky bc he just pulled his heart out and Phil doesn’t even look up from his laptop screen.

bUT WAIT when Dan’s all wtf Phil just kinda shrugs and replies with “Well yeah, duh, I love you too. I know you’re in love with me and I’m in love with you I just thought it was very obvious at this point haha.”

aND DAN JUST FREEZES AND CURLS UP NEXT TO PHIL AND THE REST OF THE NIGHT IS SPENT IN SNUGGLES AND SILENCE

2

This is me without makeup vs me with makeup

The “you look exhausted” thing starts to make sense

Just so you know, I don’t wear makeup to please others, I wear it to make myself happy and to feel pretty

So if I’m gonna really gain up some self-confidence, well, there I am and look nearly 90% of the time

Callout Post for Sumi

@dotaccino

1. Is too perfect and single-handedly disrupts the natural order of things

2. Owns exactly one (1) Younger Brother, a rare commodity

3. lort

4. Convinced me to make a deviantArt account before I was 13 years old and did not have my parents’ permission

5. Has mastered the art of scaring off a flock of illegal selfie-stick salesmen but won’t share it with anyone, even if they’re about to die

6. Tonkerbilly

7. Hasn’t tried sweet and sour chicken

11

I remember when you started following me, we were talking by asks because I had made you a gif request, and you followed me and I was like “okay, keep calm, it’s just a person”, lmao, I was so anxious AND excited! I’ve always loved your blog SO MUCH, and I’ll never get tired of telling you how TALENTED you are. Your gifs are the most wonderful ones, you make something that is already beautiful (ejemrobertejemaaronejem) even more beautiful. I love reading your opinions, and you are so kind, always helping people, and doing requests. This fandom (and this world) are so lucky to have people like you. I’m so blessed to know you.

send me a number and i’ll make a post about you

places hand on me cheek

not only is elliott decapitated, struggling to learn how to pilot his marble body, and suffering from the aftershocks of his traumatic death, but he can also no longer sleep. at least, I’d assume the undead can’t sleep. but now, in place of those hours he would usually spend without thoughts, he now has even more time to spend wide awake and confused and scared and tired.

even though he may no longer have any bodily functions or needs, his mind is still alive, and it can’t even rest.