“I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go Where the wind don’t change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you’re taught to cry into your pillow
But I survived”
*writing* Oh wow, they are going to love this. This is by far my best work!
*witty lines* *perfect love making* *fluffy enough to kill us all* *a dash of angst, a smidgen of hurt/comfort*
Oh man. This is it. This will be my legacy! *sweats into fic* *bleeds into fic* *cries into fic* *spends days perfecting the grammar and verbage and sex scenes* *has 15 betas look over it*
Okay. It is finally time to release my baby on the world. Here you go fandom. You're welcome.
Ha, cute. *like* *kudos*
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*writing* Whatever. This is shit, I don't even care right now. A singing squirrel? Sure, let's do it. Haha, cheesy lines that make no sense, sure. Grammatical errors out the wazoo? Why not. No one's going to read this piece of crap anyway, I literally wrote it on a scrap of 1 ply toilet paper with a broken yellow crayon.
OMG THIS IS THE BEST THING YOU HAVE EVER GRANTED US WITH, WHERE HAS THIS BEEN ALL MY LIFE, OMG, I NEED A SEQUEL IMMEDIATELY, PLEASE. WHAT THE. I'M NOT EVEN WORTHY. *kudosrebloglikereccomment*
he doesn’t know what they look like. Who knows what scars he has under his shirt, you know?
I bet he’s feeling so insecure about them. like my god. he probably thinks they’re way worse than they actually are
i wonder if any of the bros just sat down with him and told him what he looked like. it was probably prompto because gladio was Angry™ and noct was in shock. Prompto was really really genuinely trying to help everyone (like he always is)
Like Iggy asking Prompto what he looks like and Prompto goes “you look fine!” and Iggy goes “no. what do i look like?” and prompto has that realization like… ok… so he describes him. Iggy looks pretty disheartened but Prompto shuts that down in an instant
Gladio wears his scars as a source of pride, like “this tried to kill me but guess what bitch” but he never tells Ignis to do the same, since he knows how much the scars stole from Ignis. He knows that Ignis hates his scars.
Noctis just doesn’t touch him – noct didn’t want to be touched, really, once he got the scar on his back, so he figured Ignis must be the same, except Ignis lowkey wants to be touched. he wants to be acknowledged. Iggy can only tell who’s there and who’s not by the sounds he hears and the touches he feels – Noct is sitting still most of the time and he’s not talking and he’s not touching and Ignis just hurts because of this. Logically, he knows that Noct isn’t pushing him away (he wouldn’t, right? ignis also hates all his newfound doubts) but it still feels like he is. And iggy just hurts.
Ignis becomes resentful of a great many things, too. He hates the pity. He hates how something that was so easy before is so difficult now – he hates feeling like a liability. He hates listening to his friends – his family – go at war with each other. He hates the empire even more than he did. He hates Leviathan. He hates wearing those shades. He hates hoping that his sight will improve while knowing that it won’t. He hates his walking stick. He hates his new clumsiness. He hates the Ring. He hates he past kings. He hates Ardyn. He hates, he hates, he hates.
Ignis probably feels like he’s drowning but he doesn’t have the option of breaking the surface – they’re all drowning, and he’ll be damned if he leaves his family to save himself.
Ignis probably wants things to go back to how they were, but they can’t and he hates that, too.
After Noct is absorbed into the crystal, he’s haunted by the guttural scream his friend let out. it’s the last thing he hears – for ten YEARS, that’s the last thing he heard. Ignis constantly wakes up from nightmares of that scream – he always falls just short of being able to save him. Noct isn’t dead, but he’s not here, and that’s more than enough for his brain to have a twisted time with.
Ignis wonders if things would have been different if he could see. if he didn’t have these scars.
But ignis kicks himself in private, because he knows Prompto and Gladio have to be having just as hard of a time – there’s no use in bringing up the topic that will rub salt into such a tender wound.
I kinda want to write a post-civil war frostiron fic where Loki pops in on Tony one day and is like “did you know your team is enchanted” and Tony’s like “… what” and it turns out that Wanda has been working for hydra all along and purposely drove the team apart but that doesn’t just erase everything that happened even though some people on the team (Steve) thinks it should.
Okay so what if there’s a white board/post board/ whatever in Dispatch. And, it’s the weirdest stuff posted there because Will would totally call everyone out for dumb shit.
Like, imagine it.
“Engaging in contact with a mortal is not forbidden, though screaming and chasing one with a chainsaw is.”
“‘He gave food to a stray dog’ is not on the list of reasons to allow humans to live. Related note- no drunk soul collecting.”
“Knox, the next time you seriously insult Sutcliff’s fashion choices you will not be under our protection and you will be tabbed for resulting damages.”
“Sutcliff you are encouraged to not attack coworkers on the premises.”
“Physical relations should occur at home, not at work. My office has windows.”
Does anyone else find it interesting that Skam starts off with Jonas speaking? I always thought it had a bigger meaning. What he says is quite powerful as well and I couldn’t relate it to Eva’s storyline either.
Do you ever get to a point where you naturally sense what to include where in a book, rather than forgetting to add details (small to big) and having to go back and edit them in? Maybe it's just because I have ADHD, but even when I throughly plot things out I'm always forgetting something, if not multiple things, that I eventually have Ah ha moments about then have to go back and include and sometimes rework to make them fit. Do you ever get to a point where this at least happens less often? 😣
I do have a good natural “on the fly” sense for this kind of thing, but I tend to backstop it by making sure that all but the most casual details are slotted into the “step outline” for a book where I expect they’ll be needed. The motto is: if something gets forgotten, let it be something minor. (And the corollary, of course, is that Nothing Is Minor.)
I prefer to handle this kind of issue in hard copy, rather than just letting things float around in my head to deposit themselves where needed on demand, because let’s be frank here, I am nearly 65 and the brain chemistry operates in a more leisurely manner these days than it used to in the 30s and 40s. (I.e. my brain is still like a steel trap, but the jaws close more slowly.) :) Something once jotted down / slotted in can always be moved later.
When I get what seems to me a good idea about a piece of character business or a buried motivation or whatever, I pull out the project file immediately (this is one of the joys of Scrivener, in that I can now use it as an app on the iPad as well as on the big machine or the laptop) and put the thing in place. Barring that, at the very least I dictate a note into Evernote (or type one) and then set an alarm to remind myself to transfer it to the main project file when I get home. (This is one of the things IFTTT is good for: I have a “recipe” in there that, when I’ve been away from home, uses my phone’s GPS to (a) notice when I’m back and then (b) screams bloody murder at me to move any newly made notes into Scrivener and lock them into the structure where they belong. Yes, my life is a noisy place.) :)
As for the Ah Ha moment: we all live for these, I think… the times when it becomes plain that the unconscious mind / subconscious mind / Back Of The Shop has been quietly processing away on some issue for days or weeks or MONTHS… and then, suddenly, without warning, hands you a solution to something that’s been bugging you for days or weeks or months or YEARS. (I had one of these the other day and it blew me away. This particular thing had been bothering me on and off for FIFTY YEARS and suddenly the answer popped up. Now all I have to do is figure out what to do with it.) :) …Either way, all you can do when one of these happens is sit down with the Work At Hand and figure out where it belongs (assuming that’s not already blindingly obvious).
Do the go-back-and-fix-its happen *less* often as you work more? I think probably they do. But best practice is to always, always ALWAYS be prepared for something to appear out of sequence or at the worst possible time. Being prepared is best. :)
People who get all up in arms about You Will Be Found saying that it’s a lie is like really upsetting to me because like, no one found me. I felt like nobody was there. And you know what? I found myself. I didn’t realize that until just recently, but all of the grief and loss I put myself through last year was just me finding myself. I needed to grow and learn and let things(and people) go. I didn’t have anyone to find me so I had to carry myself and pick myself up off the ground and it was bad. It was hard. And at times it was rough, but in the end I am so much happier with who I am. I was able to step out from behind that window and be okay with what other people saw. Sometimes you gotta find yourself.
Thank you Dear Evan Hansen, for helping me realize that and for helping countless other learn to let people in and for giving hope for those still lost.
what do you think happened when alec stayed at magnus' loft to 'help treat luke's wounds'? what did they talk about all night?
Oh man, if I could demand one thing from the sh creators, it would be to go back and give us this scene. I’m still devastated that they had Alec spend an entire goddamn night at Magnus’s apartment and not give us a single damn detail about it. Because that’s such an important night for them??? Yes, they had done a tiny bit of (very one-sided) flirting, and Alec had vaguely accepted a non-specific version of the date Magnus offered on the phone in the previous ep, but that’s it. That’s really not much. This was their first big scene. Just the two of them, for an entire night, with no implied physical intimacy whatsoever (since they definitely would have told us about that). Just two men who barely know each other, having a couple of drinks.
It’s so unbelievably important in the grand scheme of their story. Because at some point, Magnus Bane goes from ‘this boy’s cute maybe I can make out with him at some point’ to Ghost!Ragnor telling him to crash the wedding because it’s a chance for Magnus to finally feel love again. At some point, Magnus feels enough of a connection with Alec to consider really giving him a chance, after a century alone, and after all of the emotional trauma he went through with Camille. There’s something about Alec that makes Magnus feel safe, and hopeful, and finally ready to try falling in love again. And that very well could have been something that he saw in Alec for the first time that night. It’s the first time they really get to talk to each other. It’s when Magnus really figures out who Alec is as a person.
And for Alec, I mean… think about his social track record at that point. From what we can tell, his only close friends are his siblings. He doesn’t have any outside acquaintances that he feels comfortable sitting down with and talking to for an extended period of time. For all we know, that night at Magnus’s is one of the first times he has any sort of extended conversation with a relative stranger. And while I’m sure that’s fairly terrifying for someone with his anxiety levels (and tendency to stutter around cute guys), I imagine that must also be so freeing for him. Magnus has been flirting with him literally since the moment they met, and Alec knows that. There’s an awareness between the two of them that they’re interested in each other. I think it might be the first time in Alec’s life that he’s been with someone and felt that he’s allowed to be openly interested in men around them. Regardless of the fact that he happens to be interested in this particular man, that’s still huge for him. Magnus has absolutely no expectations for him. Alec has no reputation to uphold while he’s there. Alec is allowed to blatantly be himself and not worry about the repercussions for once in his life, and I can’t even imagine how wonderful that must have felt.
Honestly, I’m not sure of what they talked about. Probably nothing important. Just usual, everyday conversation between two people who are starting to like each other, and want to know each other better. I don’t think the subject matter was particularly extraordinary. But in some sense, I think that’s what makes it so important for both of them.
FANFICTION IS A CREATIVE OUTLET FOR PEOPLE!!! IT DOES NOT EFFECT CANON AND DOESNT EVEN HAVE TO MAKE SENSE!!! A WICKED/POKEMON CROSSOVER??? WHY THE HECK NOT!!! BE FREE MY BIRDS!!! NOT A VERY GOOD WRITER AT ANGST OR JUST WANT SOME DUMB FLUFF OR WHATEVER??? SURE! DO THAT! I MIGHT NOT LIKE IT BUT ITS MY CHOICE NOT TO READ IT!!
JUST HAVE FUN AND WRITE WHAT YOU WANT!! IF IT SUCKS OR DOESN’T MAKE SENSE TO THE PLOT! FUCK IT!
Linnéa, I had this thought late last night that they had released the text conversation between Sana and Isak a day early. Because why would she (jokingly) reference 60k? That made a lot more sense after yesterday's clip about the russ bus. Five girls would each need 60k to make 300k. And Isak did just say to Even that he'd be staying longer to study. I'm pretty sure they messed up the release date of the Monday's text and it was supposed to come out yesterday.
‼️‼️OMG!!!!! THIS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!! WHAT!!!!!! Mindblown!!
I'm sure you already noticed this but, the Bendy cutouts self-repair when they are infront of one of those circles, but stay broken when they aren't. Any theories for why that is? Or what it means?
Actually, I do! Thanks to @whatisthisnonsense for explaining the basics of this kind of magic to me, but usually these sorts of pentagrams are used to summon, empower, supplement, or even contain things. It makes sense that the thing they’re dedicated to would be healed or repaired by something meant to supplement them, y’know?
The only confusing thing is the circle itself. The markings on it don’t make sense when compared to any historical magic practices, alchemy or satanism or what have you otherwise. The circle and the triangle aren’t positioned right for their respective “soul” and “fire” meanings, and there’s a random sector line added between two points on the star that neither makes sense nor has any known meaning.
This is all for the pentagram on the floor of that first coffin room – the rest of the pentagrams are actually decagrams, and they’re made by simply overlaying the singular pentagram on top of itself, shrinking it, and giving it a 1/5 rotation. This practice doesn’t resemble any “real” magic, either, so I’m not sure if it has any real meaning or if it’s just for visual effect.
Given the success of female YouTubers who use their body as a way to get views (not saying there is anything wrong or right about it), have you ever considered transitioning your content to be more like that? I'm sure many would agree that you're a very attractive girl already.
In gaming that sort of thing is especially common, which makes sense. Booth babes and sexy cosplay have been a part of the industry for decades. I have thought about it, and maybe when I was younger that would have been more appealing to me, but even if the money is tempting it’s really not for me. You get a different kind of audience and a different kind of legacy when your business is your body and I’d like to be remembered for more than my flesh prison. Not knocking girls who do it though, it takes guts and it’s a lot of work in its own way. I just prefer to focus my creative endeavors on making things.
Any thoughs on neurodivergent Batfam? For now all I tought abt is Dick with ADHD, Jay with BPD and Tim with OCD. (Of course, thats besides the very obvious PTSD)
Everyone’s got PTSD like, shit, everyone is scarred mentally.
Don’t even… get me started on Bruce I’d be here all day
I can see Dick having ADHD, like that would make sense for him giving his personality and a lot of his traits (chattiness, inability to settle down)
Jason, oh boy, PTSD bigtime, for sure some bad claustrophobia, I bet the Lazarus Pit plus well dying messed up his brain more than a bit. He seems to display some traits consistent with bipolar or another mood disorder? I think it’s canon he’s had hallucinations and various psychosis before.
Tim has severe, untreated anxiety and depression, like really, really badly. He’s got other issues but like those are the big ones. I’ve seen some theories of mildly autistic Tim (like Asperger’s) and I could roll with that.
Cass has a whole list of problems mostly due to Cain’s abusive upbringing, like her brain literally is not wired the way most people’s are and thus it makes it very hard for her to talk and think normally and nearly impossible for her to read or write.
Damian’s actually pretty good? Like he went through awful shit but he’s young and healthy and his brain is already recovering. Look how far our baby has come I’m so proud. Still, mild depression is likely he’s got some autistic like qualities but that’s more upbringing than chemistry.