i'm not even going to explain myself here if you don't get it

Hamilton  songs explained by my friend
  • Alexander Hamilton: "did they just rhyme father with father and farther?"
  • Aaron Burr, Sir: "this antisocial man is so done with this overeager puppy and this random ass boyband"
  • My Shot: the overeager puppy joins the boyband. somehow becomes the front man of the band. they gain lots of fans.
  • The Story of Tonight: The boyband covers a song from les mis???
  • The Schuyler Sisters: WHERES YOUR GOD NOW @ boyband.
  • Farmer Refuted: boyband has a hater. Front man puppy roasts hater before he can he even start to talk.
  • You'll be back: to be sung draped over a piano with with champagne fake crying into a handkerchief
  • Right Hand Man: "there's a moment you know... you're fucked. aND THATS RN PEOPLE I SWEAR TO GOD.
  • A Winters Ball: "20 year old males who drink are gross and do gross 20 year old drunk male things"
  • Helpless: "this could be the start of something new it feels so right being here with you"
  • Satisfied: "I've done fucked up"
  • The Story of Tonight reprise: the boyband gets drunk and harass the antisocial man (again)
  • wait for it: the song that could get away with going on the radio
  • Stay Alive: tfw ur dad doesn't trust you to lead an army #relatable
  • Ten Duel Commandments: "Revolutionary men have fragile pride and I don't know why they were trusted with guns"
  • Meet Me Inside: "the puppy gets fired because he got mad that his father figure acknowledges the fact that he's a father figure"
  • That Would Be Enough: "you're not even a father figure you're a legit father"
  • Guns and Ships: "surprise bitch, tis I le baguette here to win the war"
  • history has it's eyes on you: I fucked up once. and now it's your turn to.
  • Yorktown (the world turned upside down): surprise BITch (part 2) herCULES MULLIGAN-
  • What comes next?: I'm petty as shit.
  • Dear Theodosia: "Burr imma let you finish but, loOk AT MY SON
  • Non-Stop: the puppy and boyband have been separated since the war so the puppy decides to go into law then government
  • What'd I miss: the war??? wtf???
  • Cabinet Battle #1: "I know more than you" -Ron Swanson
  • Take A Break: use your fucking commas and don't use child actors to play your children
  • Say No to This: ... you are singing the word "no" you should be able to say it
  • The Room Where it Happens: the banjo turn up of the century
  • Schuyler Defeated: antisocial man and the puppy have a falling out
  • Cabinet Battle #2: (sips tea) (slowly puts it down and turns)..... you must be out of yoUR GODDAMN MIND IF YOU THINK-
  • Washington on your side: I am ready to throw punches
  • One Last Time: I'm tired... I think I'm gonna go home now.
  • I Know Him: The John Adams Roast begins
  • The Adams Administration: The Roast continues
  • We Know: well fuck,we actually didn't know
  • Hurricane: I will roast myself and save everyone else the trouble of doing it.
  • The Reynolds Pamphlet: "YOU MUsT BE OUT OF YOUR GOD DAMN MIND" -Angelica, and literally the whole cast
  • Burn: I have no words, only tears.
  • Blow us all away: you thought it would be okay... you were wrong.
  • Stay Alive (reprise): tears intensify
  • It's Quiet Uptown: full fledged sobbing 2 minutes into the song
  • The Election of 1800: ham and jefferson roast burr to the point of no return
  • Your Obedient Servant: the slightly bitchy passive aggressive anthem
  • Best Of Wives, Best of Women: a single tear because we all know what's gonna happen next
  • The World Was Wide Enough: "most disputes die and no one shoots" is the biggest goddamn lie in the show
  • Who Lives Who Dies Who Tells Your Story: hello death I welcome thee.

anonymous asked:

Can I request RFA + saeran reacting to a MC self harming like how they would find out and react (sorry if this makes you uncomfortable and you don't want to this) I'm currently almost a year clean!

Well done, anon! That’s a brilliant achievement ^^. I’m over 2 years clean now and currently feel really positive in myself. I really hope I wrote these alright because everyone self-harms for different reasons and feels differently about it. I tried to sort of generalise it and I’ll put a trigger warning here that there are mentions of self harm and blood (Not detailed, though) ~H x

RFA with an MC that self harms

Yoosung:

-He saw it by accident one day at school
-You were both in science, doing an experiment involving water
-The water had splashed on your sleeve and Yoosung had kindly offered to dry it off
-You didn’t expect him to pull your sleeve up, though
-He saw the scars on your arm and gasped in shock, quickly pulling the sleeve back down so that no-one else sees
-You looked down in shame
-Yoosung was never meant to see that
-“I’m… sorry,” you apologised.
-“You’re coming to mine after school, right? I really want to talk to you. Why are you sorry?” Yoosung responded.
-“I thought you’d be upset with me. Or disappointed,” you explained.
-Instead of answering, Yoosung pulls you into a big hug as you try not to cry
-At Yoosung’s after school he asks you when it started and why it started
-You’re reluctant to tell him but he eventually has you in tears, spilling out the full story of when you started with depression
-All throughout, Yoosung hugs you close to him, rocking you and stroking your hair
-“You’ve been through so much, MC,” Yoosung said after you’ve finished, “I’m so proud of how strong you’ve been. But please- it breaks my heart to think that the most wonderful, most beautiful person I know would harm herself because she thinks she isn’t good enough.”
-You nod. You understand how he feels and you wish it was as simple to stop
-But Yoosung went through a rough enough time after hearing that Rika was mentally ill
-So now that he knows what you’ve been suffering with, he’s not letting the same thing happen to his precious girlfriend. He wants to get you professional help.
-And if you think he’ll be too shy and won’t
-Think again
-Because this boy loves you

Zen:

-After a while of dating, he noticed that you always wore long sleeved tops
-One day, it was absolutely boiling outside but you wouldn’t take your jumper off
-Even though you feel like you’re going to be fried alive
-“Babe, just take your jumper off! You look like you’re boiling,” Zen tried to persuade you.
-Your sudden, “NO!” is all it takes for him to confirm the worry he’s had for a while
-“MC, please will you show me your arms,” he asked seriously as he reached across the table to you and held your wrists.
-You squeeze your eyes shut and shake your head
-Not today. You can’t let him see. He’ll think you’re a failure
-“MC,” he said so sternly that you jump in shock
-As you jump, his hands accidentally slide up your arms and scrape a recent cut
-You yelp in surprise
-And he doesn’t allow you to pull your sleeve back down
-When you face him, you’re expecting some sort of emotion but you didn’t know what
-What you certainly didn’t expect was tears
-“How long?” he asked quietly, maintaining eye contact and making you want to shrivel up in yourself
-“A while. Since before I knew you,” you responded, making him know that he had nothing to do with the mental illness you’d be struggling with for ages.
-“Does anyone know?” Zen asked.
-You shook your head.
-“MC, I want you to look into my eyes and tell me that you want to hurt me in the same way you hurt yourself,” he said sternly.
-“But I can’t- I don’t- I love you!” you argued, wondering how he could suggest such a thing.
-“The fact that I now know you did this gives me exactly that pain. Imagine how I feel to know that you would suffer through this alone, without telling anyone, hurting yourself in such a way,” Zen sighed, holding your hands tightly.
-You don’t know what to say. You’re not good enough. Surely he knows this
-“Please- we already lost Rika- we can’t lose you. I can’t lose you. Not after everything we’ve been through,” Zen cried, now fully letting tears stream down his face.
-“I’m sorry,” you whispered, “I’m disappointing you.”
-“No!” Zen immediately interrupts, “I’m just worried about you because I want you to be well. Please let me take you to see someone. They can help you.”
-You didn’t want to see anyone- that’s why you hadn’t
-But if Zen was hurting, you’d at least give it a go
-“Ok,” you agreed as Zen pulled you into his chest.
-At least you had something to live for- your wonderful boyfriend
-Did anyone notice the quote I kind of took from Phil? It’s so beautiful

Jaehee:

-Mama Baehee sees and knows all
-She realised practically immediately
-Because she literally forced you to take your jacket off when you came to her house
-You were really worried how she’d react and if she’d realise you weren’t the support she needed and ditch you
-Instead, she ordered you to sit and talk
-“You can say what you like to try and get out of it, MC, but you aren’t leaving until I have the truth,” she insisted.
-So you cried and told Jaehee everything
-“What I think you need is someone there to promise you that they’ll always be with you and help you to believe in yourself,” Jaehee seemed to analyse.
-But then she shuffled closer to you and hugged you
-“MC, will you let me be that friend? Can I help you?” she asked, to your surprise.
-You were already crying too much so you just nodded
-So Jaehee smiled and started to cry too
-She looked so cute crying but you didn’t deserve her
-In fact, you wondered how many times you’d drawn a line of your own blood because you were ashamed of your sexuality
-But with Jaehee hugging you so tightly and promising to be there for you, you allowed yourself to imagine what a world with good things in for you could be like
-What if Jaehee did like you back?
-Oh if only you knew
-If only you knew how much it broke her heart to see that you’d caused yourself pain
-Jaehee wondered if it was her fault for not being a good enough friend
-It’s not, Baehee, you’re perfect and we love you

Jumin:

-It was whilst you were still ‘trapped’ in his penthouse that he found out
-He thought you were about to leave
-So he grabbed your arm to stop you escaping
-You know the Visual Novel I’m on about, right?
-And you accidentally let out a yelp of pain
-He let go go your arm and saw blood seeping through the fabric
-Forget whatever he was about to tell you- you were injured
-“MC, what happened? I didn’t- I didn’t hurt you did I?” Jumin panicked.
-“No- it’s not you. I’m fine,” you lied.
-He wasn’t about to let you pretend you weren’t hurt
-So he rolled your sleeves up
-And saw the lines on your arms
-And broke down
-“MC- I- Why- Why would you do this to yourself?” he asked, practically in tears.
-You just hung your head, not answering
-“It’s not me, is it?” Jumin asked with his eyes wide, “Am I trapping you? Is that why? Please- I’ll let you go immediately.”
-At this point you’re pretty sure he’d leaked a few tears
-“No,” you said calmly, “It was way before I met you that I started.”
-“How could someone as kind and beautiful and perfect as you do something like that to your body?” he asked.
-“I’m not perfect or beautiful in any way. I’m messed up. Really messed up. I just wanted to try and help you,” you explained.
-“And you are doing. So now I need to help you,” Jumin said sternly.
-You looked up at him
-And started crying
-So he cried too
-Jumin decided to envelope you in a hug
-So you just cried into his chest, feeling safe
-Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to stay at his penthouse forever
-When Elizabeth was around, Jumin promised himself that he’d force you to see the best counsellor in the world

Seven:

-He found out just after you’d started living in his house
-He’d told you he had something to fix on his computer but you were having a really bad day
-So to you, that just seemed like an excuse to not spend time with you
-He loves you though, please never think that! People love you and sometimes they actually just have to do stuff
-For once, he didn’t put his headphones on
-So he heard crying and decided to come and check it out
-Only to find you with blood coating your arm in a pile of tears
-He panicked
-And just runs towards you and hugs you close to his chest, not caring if he’s getting blood all over him
-You cry into his shoulder for a while whilst he just rocks and shushes you
-He knows the feeling
-Whilst he never self harmed, he was very depressed for so long
-And he knew what it was like to feel like you shouldn’t even exist anymore
-But without you
-He couldn’t exist
-Deciding it was best to tell you this, he starts to
-“MC, I love you. I couldn’t live without you. You mean so much to me. You helped me with my depression and now I want to help you. Please, let me save you like you saved me,” he begged.
-He’s going to do absolutely anything he can to help you

Saeran:

-I feel like he’d know the signs
-Because I’m pretty sure he’d self harmed too
-So he just asks you
-“MC, do you self harm?”
-“What makes you think that?” you answered sceptically.
-“Because I did for a while. You were what made me stop. Please don’t lie to me and show me your arms,” Saeran ordered with clear concern in his eyes.
-You show him your arms- it’s pointless hiding it
-“You’re going to come and see my counsellor with me,” Saeran said immediately.
-“No, Saeran! I don’t want to see a counsellor,” you begged.
-He grabbed you by the shoulder and leant down to look you directly in the eyes
-“I don’t care if you want to go or not. I’m not going to allow the person that saved and healed me to suffer herself. I love you too much to lose you. My life is nothing without you,” he told you.
-You hug him really tight
-And just wonder how you’re both messes
-Saeran was not going to allow you to help him as much as you had without him helping you in return
-He loved you too much to lose you

V:

-You were constantly thinking that you were nothing compared to Rika
-Sure, she’d been crazy, but V had loved her
-Probably more than he loved you
-V found out you self harmed when he accidentally walked into the bathroom whilst you’d just finished showering
-You had a towel wrapped around you but your arms were exposed
-And bleeding
-“I’m sorry- wait, MC, your arms!” V started to apologise before seeing the lines and blood on your forearms.
-You hung your head
-He was going to tell you that you were nothing compared to Rika- that you were weak- that you were weird for harming yourself
-But he didn’t
-Instead, he runs towards you, gently takes your arm and kisses all your scars
-“I made a mistake last time- I didn’t help her. I’m not going to make that mistake again because I love you so much that I will force you to see a therapist,” V told you.
-“But I don’t want to-“ you started to protest
-“I know. Last time I made the mistake of thinking love would be enough. I’m not blind anymore and I can see that despite me loving you, you need proper help. I don’t want to lose you. You mean far more to me, MC,” V said.  
-I’m sorry for the blind joke, really I am
-It suddenly registered in your mind what he was saying
-V loved you
-He loved you more than he’d loved Rika
-And he wanted to help you
-Finally- someone did
-And you loved him

Dirk Gently's S1 recap transcript
  • Dirk: Where to begin? This show is sort of about...a lot. So...my name is Dirk Gently. I'm a holistic detective and by that, I mean, I investigate cases not through pesky thinking and logic and deduction, but in a more naturalistic way. Then I just sort of wander around and trust the universe to use me to work out the problems that need solving. I'm handsome, brave, unstoppably tough, gifted, stunningly intelligent, and just generally capable of anything I put my mind to. I was hired to investigate the murder of reclusive billionaire Patrick Spring, which is how I met my assistant, Todd--
  • Todd: Stop! Stop. I'm not your assistant.
  • Dirk: Sidekick?
  • Todd: No. I am...a guy you know. I am your friend. I'm not your assistant when you explain to people who you are. I'm Todd Brotzman. I used to be the lead singer of a punk band, but that kinda fell apart. I made a lot of mistakes, I was working at the hotel where Patrick Spring was murdered. That's how I met Dirk. He broke into my apartment, hijacked my life into total chaos. We ended up on the run from a cult, trapped in an underground maze, kidnapped, and finally going back in time. Honestly, we couldn't have done any of it without Farah.
  • Farah: Did you say my name?
  • Todd: Yeah! I was talking about the cult.
  • Farah: Hey, we promised not to talk about that. I find it very triggering.
  • Todd: Well, maybe...do you wanna--
  • Farah: Black. Farah Black. I've always wanted to be in the military or the law enforcement, but I had certain setbacks that stopped me from achieving this. So, I have a very specific skill set which is often very useful in high intense situations. I was Patrick Spring's bodyguard and took it upon myself to find his daughter after he was killed, and that's how I met Dirk, Todd, and his sister.
  • Amanda: His sister. Really? That's all I get? His sister?
  • Farah: I don't mean to be rude but--
  • Amanda: Yeah, cause that's just who I am, his sister. Like am I worth even being rude to? I'm so beneath you, I don't even get a name?
  • Farah: I...uhh...okay. Why don't you just--
  • Amanda: Just kidding. I am Amanda fucking Brotzman. I spent the last 5 years of my life trapped by a disease called pararibulitis, it causes painful hallucinations that feel completely real. My brother was my hero, my role model, until I found out he lied to me about basically everything. I thought my life was over until I met the Rowdy 3, a group of anarchist vampires who can feed on the energy of my disease. So, I'm with them now.
  • Ken: Trapped with a bunch of crazies? I can relate to that.
  • Amanda: Uhhh...who are you?
  • Ken: I'm Ken.
  • Amanda: Did we even meet each other in the first season?
  • Ken: I was kinda busy. I was hired to do some grid hacking by some shady types, but then I got kidnapped by a woman I thought was insane. At first, I was her hostage, but she showed me something incredible: that there was a pattern to the universe, that there might me a bigger purpose, a greater plan to everything. This mass murderer I found--
  • Bart: Huh? Murderer? Come on, I don't murder people. I just kill them.
  • Ken: That's murder, yes.
  • Bart: Words words words. Murder is a mean word. Don't be mean to me or I'll kill you...nicely. I'm an assassin, my name is Bart. Nothing can hurt me. I'm guided by the will of destiny itself to kill all of the people who are supposed to die, so far, that's pretty much everybody who I meet. I've killed tons of thousands of people across the world and will kill tons of thousands more because...that's just how it is. Death comes for everybody, and if death won't get you, I will.
  • Dirk: So basically, it's kind of a long story, but it turns out: the kitten was in a shark, the girl was in the dog, the body swapping machine was actually a time machine, the fat man was a rockstar, I was the gorilla, and Patrick Spring accidentally murdered himself. And they all lived happily ever after!
  • Friedkin: Uh, excuse me, we're not done here. My name is Hugo Friedkin. I was in the army reserves when I was pulled onto a special, top secret mission for a program called Blackwing. It, uh...didn't go perfect. But I did my best and they put me in charge of the whole operation, 'cause that's how the government works, I guess! It seemed to me, the best course of action is also always the biggest, so I did that. I took action. I took everything. So, um, season 2 is just me winning and everyone congratulating me, I guess.
  • Voice: We'll see.

anonymous asked:

I don't know if I'm late for the drabble game but I have been thinking about this for a while. Can you please do a Taehyung's POV from Zaddy 3, that part when he's coming to see her, and the whole fight? That part when she's scared of him, the whole almost- slapping thing it's one of my fav parts, you're genius. ❤ I hope I'm not late for the party, but don't feel pressured or anything.. 😇

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*゚‘゚・ THE OFFICE ( SEASON 1 ) SENTENCE MEME
  • ❝ There's a person here who wants to sell handbags. ❞
  • ❝ What do I do with a removed uterus? ❞
  • ❝ If you think she's cute now, you should have seen her a few years ago. ❞
  • ❝ Through concentration, I can raise and lower my cholesterol at will. ❞
  • ❝ Now, I'm gonna warn you, don't freak out. ❞
  • ❝ So you've come to the master for guidance? Is this what you're saying, grasshopper? ❞
  • ❝ How many Filet-O-Fishes did you eat? ❞
  • ❝ You're a jerk. ❞
  • ❝ You know, if I were allergic to dairy, I think I'd kill myself. ❞
  • ❝ That's offensive. ❞
  • ❝ This is the smallest amount of power I've ever seen go to someone's head. ❞
  • ❝ Don't say cocks. ❞
  • ❝ That place is like the promised land to me. ❞
  • ❝ Frankly, I'm a little insulted that you have to keep asking about it. ❞
  • ❝ Don't panic. ❞
  • ❝ I don't like to necessarily touch things, I'm just shopping. ❞
  • ❝ And I'm boring myself just talking about this. ❞
  • ❝ You know I do my best to to be my own man/woman and go by the beat of a different drummer. And nobody gets me.They're always putting up walls and I tear 'em down. Just breaking down barriers, that's what I do all day. ❞
  • ❝ I wanted to talk to you in private because I wanted to ask you out on a date. ❞
  • ❝ You need a hot date more than anyone. I wish, right? Giggle, giggle Chuchee, chuchee I get it. Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood over here. Right? ❞
  • ❝ God, I don't even know how to explain this. ❞
  • ❝ I have tried to treat you all as adults but obviously I am the only adult here. ❞
  • ❝ A hero kills people, people that wish him harm. A hero is part-human and part-supernatural. A hero is born out of a childhood trauma, or out of a disaster that must be avenged. ❞
  • ❝ I could fall and pierce an organ. ❞
  • ❝ This isn't the big surprise, is it? Because we've been having a pretty horrible day. ❞
  • ❝ That's a very rude thing to say, ____. ❞
  • ❝ Man, I would be all over that if I wasn't dating ____. ❞
  • ❝ In the wild, there is no health care. In the wild, health care is, Ow, I hurt my leg. I can't run. A lion eats me and I'm dead. Well, I'm not dead. I'm the lion. You're dead. ❞
  • ❝ Take a seat. Cop a squat. ❞
  • ❝ The thing about a practical joke is you have to know when to start as well as when to stop. ❞
  • ❝ Grumble, grumble, but you would follow me to the ends of the earth, grumbling all the way. Like that dwarf from Lord Of The Rings. ❞
  • ❝ Good Lord! Look at these purses. ❞
  • ❝ Everything ____ does annoys me. ❞
  • ❝ That's a pretty intense accusation. ❞
  • ❝ Please don't throw garbage at me. ❞
  • ❝ If I had to choose between a one-night stand with some stupid cow I'd pick up at a bar, and these people, I'd pick them every time. Because with them, it is an every-day stand. ❞
  • ❝ Don't bring that lamb to work or it'll poop on the floor. ❞
  • ❝ Where was my Oprah moment? ❞
  • ❝ Let's celebrate. Celebrate good times. Come on! Let's celebrate diversity. ❞
  • ❝ Just go along with it, OK? Just follow my lead. ❞
Dresden Files Books Rated By The Opening Line
  • Storm Front: "I heard the mailman approach my office door, half an hour earlier than usual. He didn't sound right. His footsteps fell more heavily, jauntily, and he whistled. A new guy. He whistled his way to my office door, then fell silent for a moment. Then he laughed."
  • Easily one of the weakest in the series. 3/10.
  • Fool Moon: "I never used to keep close track of the phases of the moon. So I didn't know that it was one night shy of being full when a young woman sat down across from me in McAnally's pub and asked me to tell her all about something that could get her killed."
  • Nicely ominous. Thanks to this book, I also keep track of the phases of the moon. Helped me catch a local werewombat. You have no idea how hard it is to put one of them down. 8/10.
  • Grave Peril: "There are reasons I hate to drive fast. For one, the Blue Beetle, the mismatched Volkswagen bug that I putter around in, rattles and groans dangerously at anything above sixty miles an hour. For another, I don't get along so well with technology. Anything manufactured after about World War II seems to be susceptible to abrupt malfunction when I get close to it. As a rule, when I drive, I drive very carefully and sensibly. // Tonight was an exception to the rule."
  • Not bad, per se, but not all that good. It takes too long to get to its point, which makes it not as good of a hook. 6/10.
  • Summer Knight: "It rained toads the day the White Council came to town."
  • This one makes me giggle. 8/10. Good job.
  • Death Masks: "Some things just aren't meant to go together. Things like oil and water. Orange juice and toothpaste. // Wizards and television."
  • Very relatable. I, too, am no fan of toothpaste in my orange juice. I used to put toothpaste in my orange juice all the time and had no clue why my orange juice tasted so bad. I mean, who knew? 9/10.
  • Blood Rites: "The building was on fire, and it wasn't my fault."
  • There is no need to explain perfection. 15/10.
  • Dead Beat: "On the whole, we're a murderous race. According to Genesis, it took as few as four people to make the planet too crowded to stand, and the first murder was a fratricide. Genesis says that in a fit of jealous rage, the very first child born to mortal parents, Cain, snapped and popped the first metaphorical cap in another human being. The attack was a bloody, brutal, violent, reprehensible killing. Cain's brother Abel probably never saw it coming. // As I opened the door to my apartment, I was filled with a sense of empathic sympathy and intuitive understanding. // For freaking Cain."
  • One of the all time greats of this series. Lovely illustration of how Dresden feels and catches people up on his relationship with his brother really quick. 10/10.
  • Proven Guilty: "Blood leaves no stain on a Warden's grey cloak. I didn't know that until the day I watched Morgan, second in command of the White Council's Wardens, lift his sword over the kneeling form of a young man guilty of the practice of black magic. The boy, sixteen years old at the most, screamed and ranted in Korean underneath his black hood, his mouth spilling hatred and rage, convinced by his youth and power of his own immortality. He never knew it when the blade came down."
  • Dark. Really sets the tone for the book. Also, I'm, like, totally jealous. Blood stains are the worst. 8/10.
  • White Night: "Many things are not as they seem: The worst things in life never are."
  • I know, right? It's, like, I thought this guy who came into work would be just a normal customer and get his stuff and leave, but, instead, he rants about conspiracy theories and shit when I can't tell him to fuck off. 9/10. Good job.
  • Small Favor: "Winter came early that year; it should have been a tip-off."
  • Not bad, but kinda weak. I mean, did he even consider that maybe winter came early because Global Warming is actually a hoax? I mean, it isn't, but couldn't he at least consider the possibility? 6/10.
  • Turn Coat: "The summer sun was busy broiling the asphalt from Chicago 's streets, the agony in my head had kept me horizontal for half a day, and some idiot was pounding on my apartment door. // I answered it and Morgan, half his face covered in blood, gasped, 'The Wardens are coming. Hide me. Please.'"
  • It's just, like, whaaaaaat? Why's Morgan here? How'd he get all bloody? And, like, he even snuck in some nice foreshadowing with the headache. Really well done. 8/10.
  • Changes: "I answered the phone, and Susan Rodriguez said, 'They've taken our daughter.'"
  • Nice and shocking, making you want to read more, but the last book did a similar shocking opening better. 5/10.
  • Ghost Story: "Life is hard. // Dying's easy."
  • Totally relatable. I, like many others, wish for death because life is too hard. Thanks for making me feel better, Harry. 8/10.
  • Cold Days: "Mab, the Queen of Air and Darkness, monarch of the Winter Court of the Sidhe, has unique ideas regarding physical therapy."
  • One would imagine. I mean, did you hear her TED talk on it? Fascinating stuff. She's an innovator in the field. 7/10.
  • Skin Game: "There was a ticking time bomb inside my head and the one person I trusted to go in and get it out hadn't shown up or spoken to me for more than a year."
  • Don't you just hate it when you have a time bomb in your head? I know I do. But not all of us know bomb defusal experts. We're not all as lucky as you are, Dresden. I had to defuse my time bomb myself. Dick. 4/10.

50cyg  asked:

Okay I am dying over here. Everyone is talking about the swimming scene and no one is talking about the "I expect too much of him" scene. I NEED AN ANALYSIS OF THIS SCENE SO BAD, LIKE WHAT DID YAMATO MEAN WHEN HE SAID HIM AND TAICHI DIDN'T GET ALONG, I'M SOOOOO CONFUSED!!!!!!! Can you analyze this scene or direct me to someone who has cause I am going crazy, I don't understand what is happening

Oh lord, I told myself I wouldn’t be the 28-year-old grown ass woman pointing fingers at screenshots screaming “SEE?! SEE?? I TOLD YOU SO” but they’re making this too easy! LOL

I’ve been rambling about these two for seven years straight in this blog now.

That everybody usually has high expectations for Taichi, that’s hardly news.

That Yamato is particularly bad at it, we all knew that too! He’s been like that since the classic series, he always seems to fail to cast his frustrations aside and act understanding when it comes to Taichi in particular.

I think what makes me giggle about that scene is just how self-aware and conscious Yamato is of his attitude towards him now!

This basically confirms that when Yamato slamed his hand against the wall and Taichi ran away from him, Yamato realised again he worsened the situation between them. There’s a moment suddenly he doesn’t seem as frustrated with Taichi as he seems frustrated with himself! And God this means he felt bad, like, really bad for forcing him into that kind of situation.

Now it makes sense - more than ever - that Yamato suddenly tries to lift some of that pressure from his shoulder. It’s when he tells him more Ultimates in the team won’t require Omegamon as often. 

And of course Yagami Taichi is absolutely IN AWE…. this is Ishida fucking Yamato GOING EASY ON HIM. Acting KIND and UNDERSTANDING. WHAT THE HELL. THAT SURE EXPLAINS THE BLUSH?? 

Of course Yamato cares, we know that, even Taichi knows that, it’s just that Yamato admiting it right to his face is such a rare sight! lol

Taichi just need his boyfriend to calm the fuck down.

It took me AGES to figure out Yamato’s personality I swear but I suppose once we come to understand him he’s surprisingly very easy to read. lol

bobosmith01  asked:

Wait a minute, unless I'm forgetting something, all Shadows have an Arcana. In Persona 3, they make it clear it's only of the first 13 Arcana, as far as I can remember. I don't recall any shadows outside of the 13 Arcana except Teddie (Does he even count?) in Persona 4, either. So why isn't that true for Persona 5?

Okay, time to get out our old friend, P3 Club Book.

Ahem…


World Q&A; Page 177:

Q: What is the meaning of the Shadows’ different Arcana?

Aigis “I understand that the Shadows are classified in Tarot Cards, beginning with Number 0, “The Fool” and ranging to Number 12, “The Hanged Man”.” [Translator’s Note: I originally thought that this was an error in the book, since there are no Fool Arcana Shadows, however, now I think this is referring to Pharos, implying that his Arcana as a Shadow was “Fool”, which would actually make a lot of sense.]

Ikutsuki: “If I remember right, you were taught in class that the Tarot Cards can be used to represent the spiritual growth of an individual, correct? It is similar with the classification of Shadows; their Arcana indicates the tendencies and content of the psychological complexes they entail.”

A: “And the higher the number of their Arcana, the stronger their power?”

I: “Hm, no, not exactly. The Arcana’s number indicates the grade of maturity the Shadow has reached, but all grades are quite necessary to compose Nyx. You need Shadows which tend to all different Arcana meanings, from 0 to 12. When you fuse all of these Shadows, they will mutate into the 13th Arcana, Death. This Arcana is special and, accordingly with its role as the “Appraiser of the Fall”, indicates that the preparations for Nyx’s revival have been completed.”

A: “And that was Ryoji-san. It is sad… He may have been a ‘lech’, but that he had to meet such an end…”

Ryoji: “You called for me?”

A: “Target Located! FIRE!”

R: “Ouch-Ouch-OUCH! That hurt! Ah… What a temperament! I generally prefer my ladies without heavy firearms, though.”

A: “Be silent and die.”

R: Hey, hey, calm down. I was just going to try and explain a few things myself. The “Death” Arcana is special in that I am capable of carrying the true weight of Nyx’s psyche, allowing her consciousness and power to be transferred into me. This turns me into her incarnation - The Nyx Avatar. In this state, I am a bringer of death, comparable to the grim reaper. The Nyx Avatar will then call to its body in the moon and proceed to become one with it. Nyx would then return to being an existence capable of destroying whole planets, only befitting the name “Star Eater”. It’s making me sad just to think of it. But my friend was able to use a trick called the “Universe” Arcana and let me sink into the depths of the Collective Unconscious once more. He’s amazing, isn’t he?”

A: “You seem surprisingly happy that The Fall was averted.”

R: “Well, you see- Ah, on the other hand, some things are better left unsaid. I will be taking my leave now. Farewell!”

A: “…! …He’s gone… I have to admit, he is actually a surprisingly kind person. What are you doing, Ikutsuki-san?”

I: “*sob* *sniffle* He explained all the best parts before I could.”


I take this to mean, that Archetypes befitting the cards from Fool to Hanged Man are all aspects of Nyx, with Nyx herself represented by Death, so Shadows’ Arcana don’t generally go beyond Death, since then they’d represent concepts not inherent to Nyx… However, that only applies to Shadows in their base form. The Shadows in P5 generally take the form of demons, which are imbued with archetypes given to them by humanity, so they have another layer of “meaning” added on top of what they are in their base “goop” form, hence why they can be related to more Arcana than what is representative of Nyx.

I would like to point out that, yes, Persona 4 already DID have a Shadow that fell outside of the 0-12 range, and no, I don’t mean Teddie - at least not directly. I am talking about Shadow Teddie, who was of the Moon Arcana (Yes, Moon, not Star. Moon.) For the longest time, I was quite baffled as to how Teddie’s Shadow, of all the ones shown in P4, fell outside the range of what was common in P3 and P4, but now I think it has to do with what Teddie himself is; his own soul. Despite being a Shadow, he’s already transcended being just an aspect of Nyx’ presence on earth, since he actively tore himself away from that, forging a new identity. So it actually would make sense that this wouldn’t be reflected in only him, but also his own Shadow. 

Back to Persona 5; it is worth mentioning here that the Arcana shown in mook battles aren’t actually the Arcana of the Shadows per se, but the Arcana of the gods and demons they appear as, which additionally makes sense of why they fall out of the usual range. If these Shadows appeared in their more abstract forms from P3 and P4, you can be sure that they’d also have slightly different Arcana shown upon analyzed, however, in P5, their Arcana “as Shadows” are not of interest to us, while their “Arcana as Demons” are. I mean, the Demon Arcana are useful, since they tell us what kind of Persona we’ll get out of them, while the Shadow Arcana were never really useful per se. However, in P3 and P4, the Shadow Arcana were relevant for story reasons, since the maturity of the complexes Shadows represented were still important symbolism due to the themes of the game.

However, this isn’t true anymore, which is why displaying Shadow Arcana has been dropped as a feature as early as Persona Q. The boss enemies in P5 generally don’t have an Arcana associated to them either. That’s because it simply isn’t relevant to what these Shadows mean in the context of PQ or P5. The importance lies elsewhere: In PQ, the importance is with how the Shadows relate to Rei’s state of mind, while in P5, the importance is with the vices and desires Shadows represent much more than their Shadow archetypes. Hence, why all boss enemies have a deadly sin related to them, but we never learn their Arcana.

It’s all a matter of narrative efficiency. Whatever isn’t relevant to what’s happening doesn’t need to be shown.

Or, to quote Anton Chekhov:

“If you say in the first chapter that there is a rifle hanging on the wall, in the second or third chapter it absolutely must go off. If it’s not going to be fired, it shouldn’t be hanging there.”

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm just dropping in to say that I love your voltron gifs! And I was wondering which sharpening settings you use for them? You don't have to answer if you don't want~ Hope you have a nice day! <3

Hey there! Thank you for dropping by with this nice message <3

So since a few people have asked before, I decided to make this post a very short rundown of the sharpening process I usually do! Sorry if any of this is confusing, I tried my best to explain it but if you’re still unsure about something, feel free to DM me for more questions if you’d like!

Sharpening Gifs using Surface Blur + Smart Sharpen

Basically, my sharpening process always involves surface blur and smart sharpen. I’ll show with screenshots the settings I usually pick, but I’m going to assume you already know the first steps of gifmaking so I’m going to skip ahead!

Once you convert the frames to timeline, then convert them to Smart Filters, I usually start with the Surface Blurs. (here’s a screenshot in case you’ve never used it before)

Usually, I do 3 surface blur filters, then 2 smart sharpens in a row, in that order. Each filter I put on, I use progressively lowered settings, like so:

I start with radius at 15, threshold at 8, then lower it a bit with each surface blur.

Next, I go through the Smart Sharpen filter (which is under the Sharpen tab as seen in the first screenshot above). This, I also do with progressively lowered settings, like so:

Only 2 Smart Sharpens though, because I find that over-sharpening doesn’t look so good.

Of course, feel free to play with any of the above settings as you will and see what looks best for you! These are just the standard I pick for myself personally.

THEN I do this other little trick I found. See the filters lined up here?

I right click each one and change the setting to Darken.

I do this for each one. All of them are under the Darken blending option. Once in a while, I experiment and change one of the filters to Soft Light, because it sometimes looks nice depending on the scene I’m gifing.


Again, feel free to play around with all of them though! Lots of options to try out. I heard some people only use one surface blur filter, then just a normal blur layer, and then one smart sharpen. There are lots of ways to play with this. You can also use “darken” on all of them, or just a few of them.

And.. that’s basically it! I think it makes a huge difference and I really love how it looks personally, so I do it all the time. :)

Other tips with gifs + coloring

Just a random piece of advice that I feel has helped me: A gif, no matter how big it is and despite the new 3MB limit, can only hold up to 256 colors. This is why some gifs look grainy even though you feel like you’ve gotten it to the point of being what you feel is the highest quality gif it could possibly be. So to help make it look even better, I personally find that singling out a few key colors and then desaturating the other ones individually through hue/saturation filter, makes an immense difference in the end result. Black/white Gradient Maps help a lot as well!

(Also, I used this video for reference when I first started)

So there you have it. These are the basics of my gifing process. After trying a bunch of different coloring options, I now like to keep it fairly simple when I’m just doing a normal gif/gifset. No need to get too complicated! :)

Hope this helps!!

anonymous asked:

So I donated to your kickstarter so long ago that I can't even remember when it was and you haven't been making updates about the progress of the album in a very long time. I know life happens and sometimes things get pushed back but I'm starting to wonder where my money went and if I will ever get the vinyl I paid for. It's been well over a year and it's making me think you just took everyone's money and don't really care how long they have to wait to see what they paid for come to life.

this mite be a long post! please for the love of god feel free to scroll beyond if u dont care, i truly hate when people fuck up my feed with their essays so ya. that is my disclaimer here. ok.

ok. deep breath.
i talk about this/my campaign/my project VERY often on twitter (it’s distracting and often harmful for me to use tumblr and facebook regularly. sorry if that’s inconvenient). i realize most people aren’t actively checking my shit & that my tweets get buried in the constant avalanche of my stupid thoughts, so i’ll summarize the past year or so. hopefully whoever left this anonymous message will check back to see the answer and if so, i IMPLORE u to read the entire thing instead of picking out details from the first 4 sentences and sending me another message about how i stole your fucking money.

my album is almost finished. i’ve said this multiple times over the course of the past year, but this time it’s like, legitimately fact. i’m feeling extra sensitive right now and reading this message felt like stepping on a rusty nail, so i’ll go ahead and give you as many details as possible to explain why it’s taken me over a year to complete my first full-length album. 

i am an independent artist, as you probably know. i am also an extreme perfectionist. when i began my kickstarter campaign in september of 2015, i had about 30 songs written that i’d poorly recorded in my shitty apartment, many of which i hoped to record professionally for my first proper (and physical) release. i could not fucking stand the thought of being contractually obligated to make music via label and figured kickstarter was my last hope. i honestly thought it would fail miserably and decided that when my campaign came to a humiliating end, i’d move on from music and do something else that wouldn’t make me feel so fucking horrible about myself. somehow, thanks to you and everyone else who made my dream come true, i made enough money to actually make a record.

two months later in january of 2016, i went home to florida from LA to visit my family for the holidays. thanks to my incredible fucking luck, some kind of crime ring was hitting licks on every major airline’s baggage claim at LAX post-holiday and my luggage containing 3 notebooks filled with all of my lyrics, 2 external hard drives and a bunch of little USB drives containing 2 years of my work were stolen. hmu if u want the police report for proof. 

i lost a lot of work (and learned the value of The Cloud- i hate to trust it after my nudes were leaked and my fucking whole bank account was emptied after someone hacked my shit in 2014, but here we are) and basically all morale but pieced together what i could from what i had left. i hired a producer i’ve admired for years to be the executive producer of my record and decided this fucking bullshit was an opportunity to make my shit better. due to unfortunate, unforgivable and honestly criminal circumstances, this fucking psycho wasted an upsetting amount of my time and decided to back out of my project. THAT particular situation keeps me up at night and i fucking live for the day i can tell that goddamn story, it truly shocks me that a human being could do me like that fool did me, yall will find out one day but ahem. anyway. 

after this incredible fucking scam, i decided to ONCE AGAIN start anew considering the legal and financial obligations of releasing music that had been co-written by this bad fucking person. i left my home in LA and went to stay at my dad’s house in florida, spent literally all of my time mastering production software and learning to play piano, and filled in all the shit i’d lost with new things i’d written and produced entirely on my own. then i got married, but that’s unimportant to this story. actually it is like, kind of important, but whatever.

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in january 2016 and in march of 2016 i attempted suicide. i left an organized folder of songs, mockups for art, my bank account info and a note to my manager to make sure that my album was released because i literally could not comfortably die knowing that i let down the people who gave me money. im not tryna make anyone feel bad im just like saying cuz its part of the whole shit. anyway, i failed at killing myself and woke up in a bathtub of puke ready to go the fuck off. haven’t wanted to die since.

ahem. so. since i’m honestly 100% unable to trust a single fucking human being with my work and my thoughts after what happened up there ^^^^, i decided to set up a room in my new home for recording. i wrote, recorded, and produced (with some help, but like please bitch give me credit here) a fucking entire new album that i actually LIKED. im not shy about the fact that i think my music is stupid gimmicky- after trying to die and not dying and then getting help i realize i have like a little bit of talent i should actually appreciate. i finished recording and producing it, hired a person i trusted with a degree in music production to help me polish it and alas, he ran off without a single fucking word. thankfully i didn’t pay him a cent but like hey there u follow me on twitter and FUCK. YOU.

so now, as of about a month ago, i’ve absolutely perfected my songs (as much as i can- i still lose sleep over the imperfections im just not good enough to fix) and i’ve found the most trustworthy, hardworking team i’ve ever met to finish this shit. it’s demoralizing to recap the past year, mostly bc it was so fucking horrible for me, but i can promise you the last thing i would ever ever ever ever do is take a bunch of money and dip out with it. i do literally every single piece of this shit on my own, from the music to visuals to branding, and it’s hard. it’s time consuming. i have a job outside of music to provide for myself and for my family, and that takes up my time too. 

so i really apologize for the amount of time it’s taken for this record to be released. it fucking kills me to be waiting and i didn’t spend your money; god knows i would never in my fucking life just STEAL your money. the fact that anyone would ever accuse me of that makes me ILL.

i just want ya’ll to know there’s nothing easy about releasing music as an independent artist, especially one who refuses to accept anything less than perfection, and ESPECIALLY one who refuses to be disrespected and taken advantage of. i’m doing my best, and it took me a while. i feel like it’s worth it. it’ll be another 2 months or so. hit me up if you want a refund on your vinyl.

Mango Float

Street racers!AU

warnings: fight scene, bloody and gory, flirty Minhyun, man Minhyun’s different here, still mafia related, two more chapters then boom done, someone finally breaks, Minhyun getting real tired of Daniel’s shit, strong language, Kita na Kita (I Finally See You).  

Setting the pots outside your store was what you normally did in the morning, but today was an exception. A man was standing outside the boutique, he had shoved his hands inside his pockets while waiting. You stared at him for a minute or two to get a glimpse of his face until he turned around and met your own gaze making him smile.

You averted your gaze to fix the plants outside the closed store before turning the sign. For a split second, you said to the male without facing him, “I’d rather stay inside than wait for the rain to pour.”

He conceded, entering the shop and strolling around the garden. You eyed the guy, a grin creeping up your lips as you watched him observe the hanging plants. Thereafter, you looked back at your desk proceeding to work; however, he interrupted you, “I’m Hwang Minhyun.”

You said, “I know who you are, my grandparents used to talk about you. They tried to set me up with you as a matter of fact.”

He licked his lips whilst nodding his head at your straightforward attitude, he knew you; could almost recite your entire life, and how your grandparents describe you. He just stared from far away at most times.

“Why didn’t you?” He questioned. You replied, “We just met.”

“I’ve known you for years. You just never bothered to stop and look around.” He blurted out which finally made you face him. Minhyun added afterwards, “Do you want to take the day off? Go on a drive?”

“How about tomorrow around six in the morning?” You scheduled, noticing another beam from him. Minhyun drove back to the TRXY bar that evening, a scene unfolding itself inside their room. Daniel was about to throw a punch at Seonho, but Minhyun was quick enough to react and thus he restrained Daniel.

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bossmyc  asked:

OH! Game! I've been checking you out with Wonho?? It fits very well cause I was checking him out.. i don't know about details i'm not good at that part BUT you have lovely picture and video inspiration maybee

I could have written this for like 200 million pages….

Beautiful in the US Prompt Game!

Originally posted by wonhontology

  • Wonho; I’ve been checking you out;

He eyed you from the corner of the stage he was standing on, having finished the final song for the night. You watched his chest heave for air, and you caught his eyes and smile. You still hadto wait for the ‘thank you’s and the ‘we love you’s and the exiting scene, but you’d be with him soon enough.  

Returned to him a radiant smile of your own; your hands clapped with the rest of the patrons who were yelling around you down in the front rows. He mouthed something to you, but you didn’t catch the second half as the lights went out, the stage going pitch black.

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  • Robert: Hey. I thought... You're still leaving?
  • Aaron: Yeah, I'm gonna go and see my mum and Liv. I wanted to come and tell you.
  • Robert: Give it a couple of days, and then I'll follow you out there. Just let me know when.
  • Aaron: No. I told you we're done.
  • Robert: That was yesterday - you were upset.
  • Aaron: Robert, don't do this. This is why I said meet me in the pub, so we don't go back through all of this.
  • Robert: I've been up all night, Aaron. I was without you when you went to prison, I can't do it again.
  • Aaron: You'll be fine.
  • Robert: No, I won't, and nor will you. You love me. You need me.
  • Aaron: No, Robert, I need to get well. Which is what I'm trying to tell you and trying to explain that you. You're not listening.
  • Robert: I am. (Aaron gets up and leaves) Aaron. (follows him outside)
  • Adam: (pulling up) Yes, Aaron, you ready?
  • Robert: Don't go. I'm begging you.
  • Adam: Robert, not now, mate.
  • Robert: You're gonna wake up and regret this every day. Aaron, we're good together. We're... we'Re almost perfect and we can be again.
  • Aaron: No, we're not now. That's all gone, that. And you know, I hate myself for not being able to handle all this - Rebecca and the baby and... it's just the way it is.
  • Robert: But running away... it's ridiculous. You're gonna hurt yourself even more.
  • Aaron: No, I wan't though, that's the thing. Not as much as if I stay here.
  • Robert: I'll get you through this, I promise. And I'll never let you down again.
  • Aaron: I need to do this myself. I need to fix myself. I can't be this pathetic, needy, broken person. I just... please. (silence) I'll see you later, Robert. (gets in the car)
In Which Obi-Wan Realizes That This Is Not A Dream

Ben Kenobi woke up.

It was still a novel sensation, even after three weeks. He had, perhaps naively, assumed that once he died, waking up would no longer be an option. It was a pleasure that he had not previously paid much attention to. He yawned contentedly, watching the first glimmers of the Coruscant sunrise light up his old room, and ran a hand through the old familiar spikes of the Padawan haircut. He pulled himself out of bed and silently went about getting ready for the day, smiling to himself at the sounds of Qui-Gon Jinn doing the same from the other side of their quarters.

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anonymous asked:

i just want to say: sorry and thank you. i'm sorry for the people who are putting so much pressure on you to update. i'm sorry you were subjected to that; you don't deserve it. all you should be getting are thanks. thank you for letting us see into your creative mind and its wonder. thank you for all the effort you put, all at the cost of your own time. thank you for bringing us endless joy with your words. just thank you; we're grateful for you. we will always support you, love. just be you 💞

OH GOD DON’T MAKE ME CRY!!! Thank you, I appreciate this message so much. I have yet to address the issue on Tumblr, so I’m assuming you saw the discussion I was having with some other writers on Twitter.

For anyone reading this that doesn’t know what I’m talking about, my inbox is currently full of messages demanding updates on my stories. This is not the same thing as getting a message that says somebody is excited for the next chapter because that has a very positive effect on me – it lets me know you’re excited and that makes me excited to write the next chapter. But I’m talking about people who are making demands for updates and that needs to be addressed.

So, here we go.

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Let’s face it – as fans of Korean music, there unfortunately aren’t many places we can get merch that doesn’t scream “LOOK AT ME, I LIKE KPOP.” Speaking for myself, I’d rather wear a shirt out knowing I won’t have to explain “what’s Bangtang?” to everyone I interact with that day. Not that I mind talking about my tastes, but if people who wear Maroon 5, Bruno Mars, or Adele shirts don’t have to do it, why do I have to? Hopefully, you feel the same way.

There aren’t many sites and resources selling merchandise with subtle references to the artists we love, so I created my own. At first, I only planned on buying these for myself, since I have no desire to make a profit off of these (I already have a job, I don’t need two). However, it only seems fair to share it with other ARMYs as well :)

I created a REDBUBBLE so you all, if you’d like, can have merch with subtle hints to Bangtan as well. The six above are a few of the designs already on the RedBubble account, so feel free to take a look!

Each design is available as shirts, jackets, phone cases, table/laptop cases and skins, pillows, mugs, notebooks/journals, bags, and prints/posters of different varieties. I’m willing to slightly alter designs (colors, placement) if need be, and don’t mind taking recommendations. However, I put a lot of thought into the meaning and look of each design (many of them were altered drastically, and some are graphics I never continued, so I have done a lot of reflecting on each one), so the way they are published is how I intended for them to look. I hope you’ll give my work a glance!

Thanks for reading!

RedBubble: HERE

anonymous asked:

Your stories are hilarious omw. Do you have any other ones to share????????

The Time I Accidentally Set Myself on Fire

(it kind of speaks for itself, but just in case…. tw for fire)

  • So in my family I’m the one who cooks
  • (Partly because I like it, partly because when I was 13 or so I said to my mum ‘I want to learn how to cook’ and she went ITS YOUR JOB NOW SUCKAAAA and ollied out of the kitchen)
  • And in our old house 
  • (‘The hell house’, we call it, not fondly)
  • that meant using the old school spark lit gas stoves.
  • Now I had been using those stoves for about seven years and had never had a problem
  • Until the day I did have a problem
  • (and in case you don’t know by now, when this stuff happens to me it freaking HAPPENS. ‘how bad do you want it to be?’ the personification of misfortune asks. ‘just fuck me up’, i reply)
  • So it’s 2012, June - which is the coldest time of year for us
  • My brother is outside playing with sticks
  • (He’s 14. He has no excuse. Sometimes he uses sticks from the enormous, carefully cultivated twig collection he kept in the backyard, and sometimes he uses foosball sticks from a set my mother bought and promised to put together but never did, and have long since rusted from my brother using them as makeshift lightsabres and then leaving them outside come rain or shine.)
  • so I go into the kitchen and start to make dinner
  • (Pork and sage ragu)
  • (I’ll never forget)
  • (It was a memorable night)
  • I get out the ingredients and the pots and frying pan
  • I’m wearing at home clothes, which includes a multicolored, fraying cotton top with sequins all over 
  • (It was actually a really nice top. The only reason it got segregated into staying at home clothes was because of a huge tear on the right side)
  • So I go to turn the gas stove on 
  • (As I have done a thousand times before)
  • And to this day I couldn’t tell you if the flames were just really high, or I was standing too close, or if it was the wind factor
  • But for whatever reason, the flame lifts and catches onto the tear in my shirt
  • Out of the corner of my eye, I see the flame is incredibly bright
  • And then I look down and think,
  • Oh.
  • I’m on fire.
  • I try to pat it out
  • Doesn’t work
  • Its been about two seconds of flame on
  • The flames have caught to the rest of my top
  • I fucking 
  • SCREAM
  • I have never in my life, before or since, screamed like that
  • So I’m not thinking much besides FUCK FUCK FUCK STOP DROP ROLL FUCK
  • but for some reason, my ON FIRE fight or flight mentality has time to register
  • DONT RUIN THE FUCKING CARPET
  • i BOLT outside
  • the door is, by some goddamn miracle, open
  • I look like Denethor in return of the king
  • I’m diving for the grass when my brother, terrified, throws a bucket of water at me
  • (THE BUCKET. So we had this pipe on the outside of our house that was corroding and leaking water, and the noise was bothering my mum in a telltale heart kind of way, so she put a bucket out there to catch the water)
  • (Note: it is actually probably a really good idea for you to have a random bucket full of water sitting in your backyard)
  • So I’m half lying, soaking wet, in the grass in my backyard
  • I’m crying
  • My brother’s crying
  • My throat hurts from all the screaming
  • My heart Is thundering like crazy
  • Pretty sure I’m in shock
  • I start laughing a little manically
  • (Kind of sound like the joker)
  • Definitely in shock
  • The neighbors are shouting over the fence asking if everything is alright
  • Their pet geese are sqwaking
  • My mother opens her bathroom window and pokes her head out
  • ‘What is it?!? Is it a snake?!?!’
  • NO, MOTHER
  • I’VE BEEN ON FIRE
  • 'A sNAKE?’ I say, still laughing a little, because really now. We live in Australia, yes, but it’s the goddamn suburbs, everyone knows snakes stick to empty lots and fields
  • So the shock is wearing off and I’m still soaking wet, and my mother is outside now telling the neighbors we’re okay, even though my brother is still crying and I’m deep fried extra crispy
  • She’s telling me to get off the grass
  • I don’t want to get off the grass
  • She wants to have a look
  • I don’t want her to have a look
  • 'you have to get up now okay’
  • I get up 
  • It’s dark out so we go inside and as soon as my mum sees my side she says ‘wee have to go to the hospital’
  • there are a lot of things I’ll do
  • But I fucking hate
  • The 
  • God
  • Damn
  • Hospital

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anonymous asked:

Hiii! Can I please make a request where the bts members' s/o refuses to wear diamonds(for engagement ring) because she worries about the ethical issues of blood diamonds? So she asks them to get her any other gemstone etc? I don't even know if they use diamond in asian cultures I'm sorry, but I hope this made sense? Hwaiting!

BTS Reaction To Their S/O Refusing To Wear Diamonds

A/N: I had a fairly good idea of what a blood diamond means, but to be sure I had looked it up and checked lots of sites, same goes for rings in Korea, I had did some research so hopefully you like this reaction let me know and if anyone thinks I got something wrong, my deepest apologies, message me so I may correct myself ^.^(also fun fact: did you guys know red diamonds are the most expensive/rarest of gems I found this out when I was researching it cost one million for one carat for that bad boy)


Set Up: The two of you were finally a step closer to being a married couple, the two of you had discussed your engagement, and now he had wanted to make the proposal to you and give you the thing he thought you deserved a 4 carat diamond silver ring. “I’m not sure if you’ll give me a ring or not, but I wanted to tell you beforehand, if it’s not to much could I get a ruby/sapphire,etc.(your pick) ring, I don’t know how I could handle a diamond knowing it could be a blood diamond” you’d looked down sadly.

Jin:

He would try to be understanding of your decision “it’s ok jagiya, I understand” he’d put the ring he was going to give you back in his pocket “don’t worry” he’d laugh a little nervously before excusing himself. ‘Ah I shouldn’t have assumed that she would want that’

Suga:

He would be a little dissappointed since he really wanted to give you a diamon, but he respects your wishes of not wanting a diamond. “I know it’s become quite the norm to have it but I-” you’d start to ramble about it until he cuts you off. “Don’t worry about it jagiya,ok” he’d smile at you.

Rap Monster:

He would be surprised at first to hear your request “oh” he would be all he can say at first after you had explained why you didn’t want a diamond. “I get it (y/n) no worries” he would do some research of his own, since he liked knowing new things and would want to get you the best gem.

Jhope:

Like Namjoon, he would be surprised at first, but once he heard why you didn’t want to, he’d nod knowingly. “I never really thought about it that way before” patting your head, he’d smile at you. “Thank you for letting me know before hand, I’ll get you the best gemmed ring out their!”

Jimin:

He would completely understand, and do his best to get you the ring you wanted. “Don’t worry about it jagiya, I get it” he’d smile, though on the inside feel a little bad, for assuming for now he had a diamond ring he needed to return.”Heh, I guess I should go find that ring now” he’d awkwardly laugh.

V(Taehyung):

He wouldn’t mind all too much, he’d be very understanding just like Jin, but maybe just a little disappointed, since the ring he wanted to give you was passed down in his family for generations. “I respect how you feel jagiya, maybe we can get the same style ring,with the gem of your choosing”

Jungkook:

He’d be a little surprise/shook, but relieved that you had told him this ahead of time before he had even went out on his own to get a ring. ‘Note to self don’t get 4 carat ring’ “I’m glad you told me jagiya, how about instead I take you with me to pick out your dream ring”


A/N#2: Here is what I’ve found on blood diamonds encase no one else knew about it like I had did.

Blood diamonds (also called conflict diamonds, war diamonds, hot diamonds, or red diamonds") is a term used for a diamond mined in a war zone and sold to finance an insurgency, an invading army war efforts, or a warlord’s activity.And here is what most sites had told me as far as how they do rings/proposals in Korea

The down-on-one-knee proposal actually isn’t standard in Korea. Instead, the topic of marriage is one which both partners decide and plan jointly. While this seems like the most equitable setup all around, it doesn’t lend itself naturally to those suspenseful fairytale proposals that you see in TV shows and movies.

This also means that engagement rings are not so common here. Some of the younger generation are starting to pick up the custom, staging a romantic proposal after the agreement has been made. But the woman may or may not wear the ring after the wedding, and both parties may opt to skip the wedding rings entirely. This again is a generational thing – older Koreans tend not to have wedding rings at all.

Ok I hope this helps and I hope everyone learned something like I did ^.^ Thank you anon for opening my eyes to both of these things ^.^sorry if it’s not good, even with his info I at times got blocked thinking on how they may react.

tabtotheleft  asked:

I want to make a thing for my friends as a sort of 'what to not do/what to try/what to look for' for when I'm having a meltdown and/or shutdown (prolly 2 separate docs) because they've expressed concern and wanting to help but I don't know what to put on it? Especially for my meltdowns, I don't even know what helps them? Do you have any advice or ideas? I'm asking around looking for suggestions, even just things to consider myself to figure it out.

Here are some suggestions (there will be suggestions that contradict others as different ones might work for different people so pick and choose whichever work for you, or maybe they’ll prompt some ideas of your own that are more applicable to your needs). It might also be helpful for your friends to be aware of any pre-meltdown or pre-shutdown signs as well so I’ve included a very general list. You can always sort them into the appropriate categories if you want to. 


I might struggle with:
- being too hot/cold.
- noisy environments.
- sudden noises.
- bright lights.
- too much movement.
- too much social interaction can be tiring.
- unexpected events.


Signs to look out for:
- I may become irritable.
- I may become withdrawn/quieter than usual.
- I may stim more or less than usual, or differently [you could be specific about this, explainng the exact stims to look out for if any].
- I may become (more) aversive to touch (than usual).
- I may seem ‘sulky’ or ‘whiney’.
- I may act more ‘childish’ (than usual).
- I may become restless or more fidgety (than usual).
- I may ‘huff’ and sigh a lot.
- I may become uncooperative.
- I may cover my ears/close my eyes.
- I might become physically aggressive.
- I might become verbally aggressive.
- I might scream/shout/cry.
- I might become nonverbal.
- I might not be able to move independently.


Don’t:
- Panic, or get angry or upset.
- Touch me.
- Leave me by myself.
- Talk too loudly.
- Talk to me.
- Ask open questions.
- Stop me from stimming or stop my sensory seeking behaviours.
- Prevent me from avoiding sensory stimulus.

Do:
- Keep me safe.
- Talk to me.
- Reassure me.
- Explain where we are going (or what you are going to do).
- Ask closed questions (questions requiring yes or no answers, or giving you options to choose from.
- Gently guide me away from crowded or noisy areas.
- Remind me to use/Give me my headphones/earplugs/sunglasses.
- Remind me to use my/give me stim toys.
- Help me to keep warm or to cool down.
- (Ask if I would like you to) hold my hand tightly/hug me tightly.
- Use AAC (use specifics: tell them what kind of communication you prefer and if you need them to find an app on your phone, tell them which one - you could even include the icon for it).

If anyone has any other suggestions, feel free to reply so that tabtotheleft can look at those as well.


Ben

anonymous asked:

There was something in here a few days back pertaining to being mad at people who don't think Yona deserves to be with Hak. We never said that Yona was obligated to love Hak romantically. We just don't think she was ever that great of a friend to him, that she has been selfish and insensitive. We know love doesn't work that way in this series though. Hak will continue to love Yona so, certainly, that part is on him. Still, that doesn't change the fact that we don't think she deserves him.

First of all anon, I want to clarify to you (and anyone else really) that if I ever say I don’t like a theory or certain way of thinking etc., I am not trying to say anything against anyone personally. I am merely disagreeing with the idea, not anyone as an individual. If you ever read an opinion of mine here, unless I specifically state otherwise, I am never trying to have a go at anyone or say that my opinion is better. My personal viewpoint holds no more power than anyone else’s here - I’m merely using my blog to post thoughts and reflect on my own, subjective interpretation of the AnY series. 

Second, I’m sorry if you thought I was misinterpreting your personal opinion. I got an asker that never specified a source of the opinion they were discussing, so I created hypothetical arguments from others to explore a variety of viewpoints someone could have about Hak and Yona’s relationships. I did not base what I said on any existing viewpoint I had read about, rather viewpoints I assumed people could have that would explain their thinking. Perhaps I never made that clear enough, and if you thought I was misinterpreting an opinion you have, I’m sorry about that. 

Third, and addressing the opinion you have stated here, I find myself still a little lost to the whole “deserving” thing. I guess one could argue that there have been times when Yona is selfish or insensitive, but I myself would argue that Hak has also been selfish and insensitive at times, and I don’t think their relationship is some sort of scale where Yona’s perhaps been more selfish and therefore has to make up for it to even things out. Both of them have things they’ve sacrificed for the other and things they’ve done that probably weren’t the best for the other, but the bottom line for me is that they continue to try and better themselves in this area. They listen, they work out issues, and they’re getting better at discussing their feelings openly. They’re both growing as people and learning, and I don’t think they’ve ever done anything truly awful to one another, so any trip ups they have had are, for me, well in the past and not in need of making up for. They help each other grow and become better and that’s what matters to me. Again, this whole “deserving” goes over my head a bit because I never understand where we draw the line. Just my two cents though.