i'm not entirely satisfied with it but it will do

i’ve made so many heavy edits to sunlight girl over the last few months, like rewritten entire sections, fixed dialogue, pruned awkward exposition, all the way down to little tweaks, like word order or unnecessary articles. combined with all my nitpicking for the last 3 years and it probably has only the most basic likeness to the original. iDK there’s something deeply satisfying about editing, like sculpting the story. smoothing out its crude form. you learn while you’re doing it too. 

live with a man who knows you

do you live with a man who knows you / are you living the life you chose?

Summary: Victor has spent nearly his entire life being cold, from being born in the dead of winter through growing up in northern Russia to deciding to dedicate his life to ice rinks. He’s never thought much of the cold—until spends enough time feeling warm. (Or: adjusting to domestic life in St. Petersburg, the fanfic)

Word Count: 3,569

A/N: Annnnd it’s finished! This one gave me an unusual amount of difficulty to write, but I really, really wanted to do it anyway.  It can also be found posted to AO3 here.

This is the second of a few fics I plan to write for follower requests after I hit a milestone about a week ago. @subteraneans and @demisexualmako both asked me for domesticity in St. Petersburg, and @comet-kind requested something fluffy and sweet and snowy for the season. The two requests ended up in combination here. 

Thanks to @subteraneans for helping me with Russian terms of endearments, and happy belated birthday to @comet-kind, who shares the day with Victor!

Call it a weakness, but if there is one thing that will keep Victor lingering in a store for hours, it is the search for a perfect pair of leather gloves.

He has a whole drawer full of them in his closet, bunched behind soft-knitted scarves and few mismatched fuzzy socks. Yuuri discovers this when helping Victor pack up his room in Hasetsu, his eyes wide with a disbelief Victor rarely gets the pleasure of seeing on him in such a mundane setting. There have to be at least fifteen pairs, he points out. Yuuri pulls each pair one by one from the fingertips and deposits them on the floor in front of him in a damning spread of evidence. For what on earth does Victor need so many pairs of gloves?

The answer is simple: absolutely nothing.

Victor likes the scent of leather. It’s that somewhat sweet, somewhat sharp tang that wears away with age but never fully disappears. He breathes it in from his hands when it clings to his palms and cracks it in the air when he curls his knuckles, flexes fingers with each new glove pulled snug. Good leather, soft leather is pleasant to touch. And most importantly, whether each pair of gloves is lined with fur or fabric or nothing at all, they keep out the cold. 

He jokes to Yuuri that since he has to wear cheaper, moisture-wicking gloves for exercise when he’s skating, he’s had to buy so many other nice ones to make up for all the lost time. Yuuri rolls his eyes and tells him this is absolutely terrible logic. 

Victor laughs and falls back with his head in Yuuri’s lap, holding up a white fleece-lined glove to Yuuri’s cheek.  “Hm,” Victor murmurs. “Perhaps a brighter color would be better with your skin-tone, Yuuri.”

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pokemon!au jungkook
  • a long overdue follow-up to my infamous bangtan harry potter au series
  • jeon jungkook is a lovely bright-eyed young trainer just fresh out of high school
  • but don’t let that fool you ohoho
  • he’s not here to mess around, and his pokemon are his whole life. he’s been journeying around the region and has already managed to take down five gyms in record time for a kid his age
  • but more on that later
  • jungkook is an electric type trainer
  • his pokemon include luxray, raichu, ampharos, emolga, magnezone, and jolteon 
  • but luxray is his #1 favorite and his most highly skilled pokemon by far – he caught a wild shinx that had insanely high stats and he evolved it and trained it to near perfection
  • emolga is just there for the cute factor but that doesn’t make jungkook love it any less
  • jungkook grew up in a very small mountainside town, where pokemon were hardly used for more than pets. he was unfamiliar with the concept of training until his first visit to the region’s capitol
  • that was when he was 10 years old and went on a school vacation. it was the first time he had seen a pokemon gym, the first time he had ever seen trainers and powerful pokemon like lucario or dragonite. 
  • it literally turned his world upside down
  • he spent all of his allowance on pokeballs and training guidebooks and whenever he could, snuck off into the woods to catch really common pokemon like weedles or pidgeys 
  • until one day he stumbled across a wild shinx, and was like ???????
  • because jungkook lived near route 6, and shinx was only supposed to be found on routes 18 and 20
  • and so 12-year-old jungkook caught his first big-kid, real-life pokemon. he cherished this little shinx with his whole soul and trained it meticulously, with the help of the only other trainer in town – a former member of the region’s electric gym 
  • that was what started jungkook’s adoration of electric-type pokemon. gradually he began to save up his money and visit other places to collect electric types. 
  • his first shinx evolved into luxray, and remains on his team to this day
  • at 15, jungkook had begun traveling and meeting other trainers. he defeated his first gym (psychic type). within day, word got around about this new kid with a lot of talent 
  • finally, six years after he caught his first shinx, he had assembled a very powerful electric team of skilled pokemon. he was only 18 years old but was already a force to be reckoned with. he walked away from almost every battle victorious
  • his electric team has taken the region by storm. despite being a teenager, jungkook had already made a name for himself in the pokemon community as a young prodigy 
  • it’s jungkook’s dream to defeat the elite four and become the leader of the area’s electric gym 
  • speaking of the elite four, they first heard about jungkook when he was 16 and defeated his third gym (bug-type). they continued to hear stories about the kid and his talent, and looked forward to battling him in the future
  • ((in case you were wondering, the hyung line is the elite four. yoongi is ice, namjoon is dark, seokjin is fairy, hoseok is grass. fun factz))
  • the only gym jungkook ever failed to defeat was park jimin’s fire-type gym. despite jungkook’s initial frustration, the two became very good friends. eventually jungkook defeated the gym, and jimin introduced jungkook to a lot of senior trainers who could help to guide him. 
  • one of these senior trainers was researcher kim taehyung, who mostly dealt with flying-type pokemon. jungkook and tae hit it off right away, and even travelled together for a little while as tae did field research
  • jungkook splurges and mostly carries great balls rather than regular pokeballs. while he doesn’t catch pokemon as often anymore (seeing as how he has his perfect team) he will occasionally nab a rare pokemon here and there
  • jungkook’s favorite non-electric pokemon is ninetales; when he first saw jimin’s ninetales, jungkook was in awe. it was easily the most stunning pokemon jungkook had ever seen, and was coincidentally the same one that knocked half of jungkook’s team unconscious during their first battle
  • his face is recognizable in practically every city. he’s already done so much traveling that he’s practically a regular at every pokemart in the region lmao
  • honestly he’s pretty fearless and daring; he’ll do all kinds of wild shit to find a rare pokemon or a rare gemstone or stuff like that
  • but he’s actually really scared of going in caves because one time he had gotten lost in a mountain pass during the wintertime. jungkook had gotten so cold and drowsy that his jolteon had to physically electrocute him every couple of minutes to make sure he didn’t fall asleep and freeze
  • jungkook doesn’t take cave passes anymore
  • always makes sure to have an excess of potions and electricity-enhancing magnets so his pokemon can stay happy and healthy 5ever because he loves them like his own children 
  • all of jungkook’s free time is spent training his pokemon. jungkook’s pokemon are incredibly loyal towards him, and will protect his life with their own. they love him and he loves them
  • whenever they’re on the open road, jungkook will always allow his pokemon to roam freely with him, outside of their pokeballs. 
  • also when they go to sleep at night jungkook always sings his pokemon to sleep and they love his voice so much bc it’s so soothing
  • anyway long story short, he wants to be the very best, like no one ever was, to catch them is his real test, to train them is his cause
  • jungkook is so talented and smart, and he’s already got half the gym leaders and the entire elite four rooting for his success bc man this kid is gonna go far in life 

jungkook ver. / taehyung ver. / jimin ver. / namjoon ver. / hoseok ver. / yoongi ver. /jin ver.

[ more coming soon! ]

Llamas with Hats starter meme
  • There's a dead human in our house.
  • I do not kill people. That is- that is my LEAST favourite thing to do.
  • And I, uh, well I stabbed him 37 times in the chest.
  • Yeah, I'm in the wrong here. I suck.
  • My stomach was making the rumblies that only hands would satisfy.
  • You sunk an entire cruise ship.
  • I would think I would remember something like that.
  • Would you believe it's strawberry milkshake?
  • I will not apologize for art.
  • Looking at the trajectory of the moon and the sun, probably at the bottom of the ocean.
  • I have a problem. I have a serious problem.
  • Shh, do you hear that? That's the sound of forgiveness.
  • That is what forgiveness sounds like. Screaming and then silence.
  • I don't know about you but I am having a wonderful time here.
  • The people have spoken. Viva la resistance!
  • That was a foot. I appear to have swallowed an entire person.
  • Well, that explains why my mojito is taking so long...
  • It was horrifying. Your mouth unhinged like a snake.
  • That hurt my feelings. Now we're BOTH in the wrong.
  • Well, I'm building a meat dragon, and not just ANY meat will do.
  • I feel like I've been issued a challenge.
  • I totally don't remember your name.
  • Well, if you'll excuse me, I have some pictures to delete from my computer.
  • I'm not responsible for this. I've been jamming on the saxophone all morning.
  • Clue number 1- the imposter is a phantom.
  • What's that? It's hard to hear you over the sound of a melting city.
  • I ripped the tag off a mattress.
  • Who's laughing? Clearly not all the people who just exploded.
  • Friendship is two friends munching on a well-cooked face together.
  • You're right, it's not nearly as tasteful as I pictured in my head.
  • Probably because I'm a dangerous sociopath with a long history of violence.
  • It's a lovely day out, we're having a great time, what have you done.
  • I stepped on a ladybug by accident.
  • I may have created a crack in space-time.
  • I think I was expecting worse.
  • But this is totally fucked, bro!
  • I don't understand how or why you do anything!
  • And the payment is baby hands.
  • I'm the Henry Ford of human meat.
  • It's not a meat grinder, it's an orphan stomper.
  • It's everything. Everything you've done, ever.
  • That looks like a meat dragon.
  • Did you finish your meat dragon?
  • Now how would you feel if I called your work a monstrosity?
  • Of course I had to use faces. Anything else would be disrespecting the art.
  • I disagreed with the election results.
  • I think their bodies are still in my blood canal.
  • You're sitting. You never sit.
  • Pianos aren't supposed to bleed and scream!
  • Why can't you go horrify someone else?
  • You made a mask of my face?
  • To some, you are now known as Nikolai Sponakoff, brutal leader of the Russian opium cartel.
  • I used up the rest of my savings buying the swans.
  • I buried a large chest of dubloons once, I could go dig that up.
  • A lot of something is in a hole somewhere.
  • I'm putting on some music. I'm not listening anymore.
  • I think I would have remembered dismembering someone and putting all their bits on the ground right here.
  • You said you weren't coming back.
  • I'm kind of just freestyling it these days.
  • Oh, it's my gore pit.
  • I think my legs are broken.
  • That's probably a basilisk. It probably won't bother us. The stupid thing only eats CHIPOTLE!
  • Were you always this creepy?
  • All the hands are eaten, all the meat creatures are made, unleashed, and then also eaten...
  • Yelling. Also a felony.
  • I'm sorry if this violates your restraining order, but it's important.
  • Oh, hey. I didn't do that...
Endangered (-0.5/25)

I don’t have a good explanation for this, except that @calidiousglope​ drew me a super cool android!Dirk and then I wrote a small essay in the tags and got ideas, and suddenly the first half of chapter one got re-written with the roles reversed, so yeah, here’s a quick android!Dirk and human!Hal in the Endangered-verse. I ran out of steam before I got to the pesterlog, sorry D:

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“I want to know where to touch you,” he says. “I want to know how to touch you. I want to know how to convince you to design a smile just for me.” I feel his chest rising, falling, up and down and up and down and “Yes,” he says. “I do want to be your friend.” He says “I want to be your best friend in the entire world.

I know simple and sweet
is how you prefer me,
but I figure you wouldn’t mind
if I change myself a bit for you.
  
So I’ve tried to mix and match
myself with bits and pieces
of others and ardently
attempted to become better.
    
But you still don’t seem satisfied
and I’m not sure why.
Which version of me do you want?
Am I good enough for you to only look at me yet?
— 

Version 2.0 (9:30 PM)—448

16 March 2017

Zeref and Natsu Headcanons

·Zeref and Natsu were abandoned by their father(*cough*Acnologia*cough*) and Zeref had to care of Natsu on his own

·They were unloved street rats for the majority of their childhood, and Natsu had literally been the only one kind to Zeref their entire lives

·Zeref would always give Natsu his share of their food, and work nearly all day to get it

·Zeref always dreamed of getting into the Magic Academy, but wouldn’t dare to leave Natsu alone to do it, and originally gave up on the idea, satisfying himself by sneaking into the library at the school or stealing books from strangers

·Zeref had a total weak spot for Natsu’s puppy-dog eyes. Natsu could have requested the young Zeref to tear out a person’s heart, decorate it, and eat it with those eyes, and Zeref would have done it without a second thought

·(/|\) Natsu once asked Zeref is he could be a Prince with this look, which was the TRUE main factor in the birth Alverez

·Zeref loved being called Onii-chan, and often took great pride in being one

·Zeref would often do the forehead touch to Natsu when they were little kids, because that was the last thing their mother did to them before she died and it comforted him

·Natsu is just as much of a genius as Zeref(He learned to read and write in three days for kami’s sake!) and loves to read the magic books his onii-chan would bring whenever he could, but gets bored easily and needs Zeref there to give him demonstrations or he gives up and moves on to a new subject

·Natsu couldn’t read in the future, in Fairy Tail, because he was used to a completely different language from Fiore - one that had been used when he grew up with Zeref - but he can read ancient languages easily

·Natsu either starved to death, died of sickness, or died of the cold, and Zeref mostly blames himself because he couldn’t get enough money or steal enough to keep them safe

·Before they had been abandoned, Acnologia had originally been an incredibly caring father, but right after Natsu’s birth, the Dragon King’s Festival started, and Natsu’s mother was killed. To protect them all, Acnologia fought against the dragons and killed them, and the power that came with it was so abrupt and dark that he lost most of his sanity in the process and became power-hungry. He left his kids so he wouldn’t hurt them, and when he heard Natsu had died he became cold and uncaring to humans

·Acnologia didn’t recognize Natsu on Tenroujima because he hadn’t heard that his son had been brought back to life and he thought Natsu was still dead

·The reason Acnologia attacked Tenroujima was because he realized Grimoire Hearts was attacking his ‘only living son’ and he snapped

·Zeref hates Acnologia for abandoning them all those years ago, not fully understanding why he left and partly blaming him for Natsu’s death

·Acnologia doesn’t like Igneel or Makarov. When Makarov claimed to have protected his children on Tenrou, he got jealous because he felt that he himself had failed. By the time he fought Igneel, he’d realized who Natsu was and was angry that he’d been replaced

·Zeref has insomnia. He can only sleep for short spans of time thoughout the day. That’s why his eyes are always drooping instead of pointy like Natsu’s. As a child, Zeref would always have nightmares about their mother dying, their father leaving, and him failing to protect Natsu. For a short while as a teen, he was able to sleep a little, instead dreaming for a future of being with his little brother again, but most of the time he would just dream about Natsu’s death. For four hundred years, he avoided sleeping for long periods of time because when he did he would dream about the past

·Zeref talks to Natsu’s book all the time, whenever he feels lonely, and sometimes imagines he’s talking to his little brother himself, often telling the book fairy tales at night, talking to it about his day, telling it stories, asking it how it’s day has been, and if it had fun.

·(/|\)Natsu sometimes hears the things Zeref tells the book. He sometimes thinks he’s going insane

·(/|\)(/|\)This is going to be how Natsu finds out(if he doesn’t already know)about him being END and Zeref’s brother

okay people talk about angelica matching hamilton in “satisfied” by playing off his “alexander hamilton / where’s your family from?” but what really gets me is four lines before that, where she challenges him while matching his tonal shift in “you’re like me [i’m never satisfied]” with her “is that right?” angelica is two steps ahead of everyone at any given time and the intricacies in the music fuck me up !! and that entire exchange is incredible, for sure, but renee elise goldberry’s voice is perfect right there in that singular moment

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Sooo, it’s really late and i should probably go to sleep, but i’m trying this text thing out, and to inaugurate it i’m being extremely cheesy and doing a “you’re good friends and he likes you but you’re slightly oblivious to his feelings” sorta thing? (and things don’t go exactly as planned for jungkook, sorry, i’ll make it up to you i promise)


I’m not entirely satisfied with these, but it’s worth a shot, hope you like it! :)

-A.

Do you ever read a book...

And then it has a terrible ending? Like, the entire story is building and building towards this one event, and then you finally get to the end and it’s just such a letdown? Because I’ve finally just caged and read John Green’s Paper Towns, and I’ve got to say that while I appreciate what he was trying to do by defying expectations, it just wasn’t satisfying at all. This is officially a Saturday night I’m never getting back, and I’m pretty displeased.