i'm losing people

A loved one not lost but remembered. 

some people make me feel so worthless, it hurts sometimes, I just wish to sleep for over a week without dealing with anything.

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if you look closely enough, you can see the second Zero goes kill bill sirens

bonus:

I know everyone loves the idea that lup fired warning shots at kravitz because he was trying to get with her brother
But as soon as kravitz mentioned he felt the presence of a lich the umbrastaff attacked him so what I’m saying is lup tried to attack kravitz because she knew he was going after barry

170717 Baekhyun fan account

OP met one of the professional gamer who was in Baekhyun’s team on the first round of SM Super Club League. 

“After the game ended, he (Baekhyun) thanked every single member and opponent member sincerely. He (the pro gamer) said after playing this game for more than ten thousand times, it was the first time he received thanks from a team member. He said he was really surprised by Baekhyun’s well manners.”

Source: x

anonymous asked:

Pens fans are bitter over the draft because we're losing an amazing goalie who everyone loves. So kindly stop being such a douche

Everyone is losing someone that they like, sweetheart. You’re not special.

I’m nervous to post this, but I just need my feelings out there in the open!

Hey yall, so before I start this post I want to say in response to the (bajillion) questions I’ve receive about my sexuality throughout the years: I choose not to label myself. The most I’d say when it comes to labels is that I’m not straight. 

So, this post is for my followers, and for myself! I’ve had this blog for a long time. I’ve always wanted to sort my thoughts out in a post like this, but I never wanted to take the time; and I was afraid people would unfollow or break off friendships with me due to my thoughts. I’m now realizing that we can all agree to disagree (or agree) while blogging alongside each other with respect. Side note: in the past I’ve made comments, tags, and posts that I know longer agree with. That being said, I also stand behind a lot of the old stuff I’ve posted throughout the years! I feel like I’ve truly grown up with most of you (it’s wild how long we’ve all been on this hell site together lmao). Change is inevitable. When people receive more information, or see things from different points of view, beliefs are bound to change! I asked yall (my lovely followers) to participate in a survey broken down into a categories about Larry, Freddie, Houis, and Gryles. The results blew my mind. A LOT of people had completely different answers. I just want to say that regardless of what you believe and what you ship, I thank you for following me (and paying attention to me when I needed to be paid attention to). I seriously consider each and every one of you a friend. 

I want to start with Larry. My views on Larry are ever-shifting. I’m sure a lot of you can relate to that whether you want to admit it or not. I entered into the fandom during the X-factor days. I saw Harry and Louis with my own eyes flirting…a lot. Whether that was friendship or not, I’ll never truly know, and I’m okay with that; I’m not a part of their personal relationship with each other, so that is for them to know. I will say that I believe Harry and Louis were dating/in love for quite a long time. I’m not going to use dates, because as I stated earlier, my views on Larry are ever-shifting. I started getting messy when I got involved in management mayhem. Do PR stunts exist? They sure do! Is every little thing a PR stunt? No! I was so washed up in the drama that I took things too far. I will admit that there are still things that are sketchy, and that is why I 100% believe that Larry was once very real. For Harry it was a little more real. This is where I will start to lose some of you, and that’s ok. I will say I think management played a part in keeping them separated because they didn’t like that their bromance turned into an actual romance. PR teams tend to like when members of boy bands are “on the market” (since PR teams seem to think every girl who listens to a boy band is under the delusion that they will some day be Mrs. Harry Styles). Ok, so back to my “for Harry it was a little more real” bomb that I dropped. My stance on the “realness” of Larry is as simple as this: Larry was once real, but they broke up; and I still ship them for fun, but not to the extent I used to. I think there were also points in their relationship where they took breaks from each other. To be completely honest, I know this is going to make some of you angry, but I think Larries (myself included) played a part in Harry and Louis distancing themselves from each other. It’s upsetting, but it’s true. For example:

A) “It created this atmosphere between the two of us where everyone was looking into everything we did. It took away the vibe you get off anyone. It made everything, I think on both fences, a little bit more unapproachable.”— Louis about how “Larry” influenced his and Harry’s friendship 

B) In a recent interview with The Sun to promote his new single “Back To You,” Louis acknowledged the deep respect he’s always had for Harry. “In a band, you’re going to get some people who get on really well and some people who get on quite well,” Louis explained. “I have forever had a very, very high level of respect for Harry. He’s great in this situation, he’s great on stage, he’s a great musician and artist. It’s just one of those things that happens naturally in a band.” But he couldn’t deny that the constant rumors about the nature of his relationship with Harry ultimately made their friendship awkward. “It kind of happened naturally for me and Harry because a certain amount of the fans drew up this conspiracy,” Louis said about the Larry Stylinson conspiracy theories. “When it first came around I was with Eleanor, and it actually felt a little bit disrespectful to Eleanor, who is my girlfriend now. I’m so protective over things like that, about the people I love.”

Now, I want to touch on my thoughts on Louis’ sexuality. I also want to talk about the blatant offense he’s given to people thinking he’s gay (which in my opinion is hurtful). Some people choose to believe he shows this offense because he doesn’t want people to know that he’s gay because he’s closeted. This could very well be true, but I don’t know. Personally, I don’t think he’s 100% straight. I think that back in the day he definitely had feelings for Harry. I think Harry was in love with Louis, and I think Louis was in love with Harry; but I don’t think Louis was comfortable enough to pursue it publicly. I think this played a part in their downfall. I think that it hurt Harry’s feelings. I think that there were times in the beginning (before they were a “couple”) when Harry was more into Louis than Louis was into harry (at least more than Louis would admit to himself). I think that Harry was starting to get used to the idea of him and Louis being a couple, but I don’t think Louis could handle the microscope that fans/the media put them under. As he said, he felt like we were looking into every little thing between them (and we were). 

When I say Louis’ blatant offense to being considered gay is hurtful, I’m talking about things like this:


I understand that if he is closeted he wouldn’t want people writing about him being gay, but personally, I’ve always kind of found these tweets hurtful? If I’m being honest, I think I’ve always WANTED Louis to be the gay icon that he just…isn’t. Do I think Louis hates gay people/his gay fans? OF COURSE NOT. I think he loves his gay fans, and I think he’s happy if we’re happy. Do I think Louis is offended when people think he’s gay…um yea. That tweet is just one example…I think a lot of people cover up the stuff he says by saying it’s either A)management or B)because he’s in the closet. TBH: I think the management excuse is overplayed and I’m tired of it. BUT: I do think Louis has some internalized homophobia. I think that he’s not 100% straight and I think Harry was his sexual awakening. I think he knows this deep down, and I think he knows Harry will always be a part of him that he can’t run from. However, I don’t think he is going to pursue other men or have a relationship with any other men because I think he’s like 90% straight (not literally but I don’t know how else to convey what I mean). 

-I hope nobody thinks I hate Louis. I don’t hate Louis. I just don’t think he is some type of gay icon. I think for a while I tried to make him out to be one, but he’s just not. He’s said he’s not time and time again.- 

***ALSO SIDE NOTE: IT’S SO UGLY TO HATE ON THE WOMEN LOUIS AND HARRY DATE OR HAVE PR RELATIONSHIPS WITH SO YALL SHOULD STOP SLUT SHAMING AND TEARING WOMEN DOWN BECAUSE IT AIN’T GONNA GET YOU ANYWHERE AND HARRY AND LOUIS WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED! TREAT PEOPLE WITH KINDNESS!!!!!!!!***

Now I will talk about Harry’s sexuality (I feel weird talking about it because like…idk him personally; but I don’t know anything for a fact these are just my opinions). I know Harry doesn’t label himself. I feel like if you’re straight you just say “I’m straight”. You don’t say “I don’t label myself” (this is just me speaking from personal experience though). It’s clear that Harry is more open about his sexuality from things like the iconic “not that important” interview, to him literally running around with rainbows every. single. night. on his solo tour. Straights don’t do that. Some say this is him just supporting his gay fans (maybe so). Personally, I think it has to do with the fact that he’s…not a straight! Ok so back to Larry being “more real” for Harry. Yes, I believe Larry was very real at one point for both Harry and Louis. There are 8,000 examples out there. I could attach them all, but that would take forever. Literally just go back in the depths of my blog and you’ll find plenty of evidence. HOWEVER, I don’t think they are together right now. I think that Harry was crushed by Louis. You ever listen to a song and think ~who hurt Harry~ …welp! I think that Louis couldn’t handle the media and fan attention that came with dating Harry when they were younger. I also think, as I stated earlier, Louis has a hard time facing his attraction to Harry. Whether he’s bisexual or just had some type of special exception when it came to Harry…I don’t think he was able to take the heat. I think being “out” scared him way more than it scared Harry. This leads me to my next point.

Why did they break up? Ok I have a lot of theories on this. I think the main one I always come back to is that Louis just couldn’t give Harry what he wanted from a relationship. I think Harry would have openly dated Louis, but Louis didn’t want to face the fact that he was 100% straight, and he didn’t want to risk his straight boy rep by dating Harry in the public eye. I think one of the main reasons they aren’t dating/close anymore is because Harry confessed he really truly wanted to make it work with Louis played it off like all that time they were just friends OR he just literally couldn’t come to terms with not being straight. It’s possible that they grew apart because of Harry’s sexual preference. When I say this, no I don’t mean Louis hates gays. I mean that he was sick of people shipping him and Harry and wanted it to end so he decided to distance himself. He said it himself we made him uncomfortable. I have been in the fandom for a long ass time and it was pretty clear that all of a sudden Louis was very cold towards Harry. I think this started with management thinking it was better for their band image if they didn’t spend so much time together because of the Larry rumors. However, I think that Louis was probably relieved, which makes me sad. I don’t think the rumors ever bothered Harry because he is comfortable with his own sexuality. I also think back when they were dating/talking whatever it was they were doing (when they were close) that Grimmy was into Harry and Louis felt threatened by Grimmy (this starting the Tomlinshaw feud) even though Louis knew that he really had no right getting bitter about it when he was never going to actually date date Harry the way Harry wanted it to be. Something positive: Louis is a lot more comfortable with talking about Harry recently in the media so that’s nice!

I’m going to keep the Freddie drama short and simple. I will admit it, I was one of those Larries that was nasti and called Briana “Briani” and speculated about her appearance, and I regret doing that because she didn’t deserve the hate. I truly think that when Louis and El broke up and shit with Jay started getting difficult Louis was out getting drunk to mask the pain. I think that he drunkenly hooked up with B, and she got pregnant. I think the reason he was acting so weird when people brought it up was because it came as a shock. Imagine you have a one night stand and get pregnant…you’d be in shock too! His life was about to change! I do think Louis is the father. Literally look at his baby picture next to Freddie’s and try to tell me that isn’t his son? I’m embarrassed that I ever bought into that doll shit that “big” Larries tried to push onto us. I think the final straw for me was when Louis was actually hurt that people were saying Freddie isn’t his son. Like when he spoke up about it, and was pissed that people were trying to say he wasn’t real. As a fan of Louis, I am choosing to trust in him and support him and his son. I think if you call yourself a Louie, then you should support Louis being a father. He would want you to. ALSO, Freddie was literally mentioned in Jay’s obituary. I don’t think Louis would use his mother who passed away to keep some fake story going.

Finally, I’m going to talk about Gryles. My stance on Gryles is that they’ve definitely been involved before. I think Grimmy is super into Harry. There’s definitely a possibility they still hook up. Some evidence that @truerobbers helped me with:

-Harry saying, “pretend you’ve fallen in love with me” to Nick during a game of call or delete.

-The feud that happened between Louis and Nick after harry and Nick’s friendship began.

and then this 

ALL OF THIS BEING SAID: I STILL ENJOY LARRY CONTENT AND LARRY FICS AND GRYLES FICS AND GRYLES CONTENT AND I JUST LOVE GAY CONTENT BUT I LIKE TO INDULGE IN THIS WITHOUT OPENLY ANTAGONIZING HARRY LOUIS AND NICK. (AKA I’M NOT GONNA SIT THERE AND COMMENT LARRY IS REAL EVERY TIME LOUIS TWEETS SOMETHING BECAUSE JUST LIKE STOP…EVEN IF LARRY IS STILL REAL RIGHT NOW CLEARLY THEY WANT THEIR RELATIONSHIP KEPT TO THEMSELVES) I LOVE HARRY STYLES SO MUCH WOWE! HE HAS HELPED ME THROUGH A LOT AND TAUGHT ME THAT LABELS DON’T MEAN SHIT! I STILL LOVE LOUIS TOO. I’M JUST SAYING I USED TO PUT HIM ON A PEDESTAL AS SOME TYPE OF GAY ICON WHEN…THAT JUST ISN’T WHO HE IS WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT IF I’M BEING HONEST! I STILL LOVE HIM. I WILL ALWAYS HAVE A SOFT SPOT FOR HIM IN MY HEART BECAUSE I RELATE TO HIM IN A LOT OF WAYS. IF LARRY CAME OUT IN THE FUTURE I WOULD SUPPORT THEM. IF THEY PURSUE OTHER RELATIONSHIPS I WILL SUPPORT THEM! I SUPPORT THEM SEPARATELY AND TOGETHER (IF THAT’S WHAT THEY CHOOSE). FINALLY, I THINK THERE ARE SOME QUESTIONS THAT WE WILL JUST NEVER HAVE ANSWERS TO. I AM STILL THANKFUL FOR LARRY AND THE FRIENDSHIPS IT BROUGHT ME. I DON’T REGRET SHIPPING LARRY. I WILL CONTINUE TO POST ABOUT LARRY PROBABLY BECAUSE IT IS A PART OF ME AND THIS BLOG! I’M NOT AN ANTI! I GUESS I’D CONSIDER MYSELF A HOUIS?! IDK! LIKE I SAID, I HATE LABELS :)

DISCLAIMER: THIS POST ISN’T FULL OF FACTS. I AM NOT CLAIMING TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT LOUIS OR HARRY OR GRIMMY. THESE ARE MY PERSONAL VIEWS! I AM NOT PUSHING THESE VIEWS ON ANYONE. WE CAN ALL AGREE TO DISAGREE AND KEEP THE PEACE. PEOPLE WHO START SHIT WITH ME WILL BE BLOCKED. XOXO 

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Just some scenes that I wish would’ve been animated in Book of Atlantic.
It’s the small details that matter most.

i need snk season two. i’ve been reblogging variations of the same 10 anime scenes for almost two years now and it is driving me insane. i get it. the world is cruel and also very beautiful. eren and armin want to see the ocean and the outside world. i get it. levi’s squad died and it was sad. i get it. we are so thoroughly out of material it it driving me up a wall. possibly up many walls. maybe even wall maria.

Dialogue

“I know people use this word way too loosely now a days, but I fucking love you, okay? I don’t want to lose you…”