i'm just really happy for him okay :'')

Okay so they’re at this party, right. And some of Even’s friends from his old school are there. And they’re all chatting and drinking. Even’s trying his best, really he is, but he’s just coming out of a depressive episode. He’s no longer completely depressed, he’s just…tired.

Anyway, none of the others seem to really notice it. Isak knows and Sana knows, because they know Even best. But the others just carry on chatting like nothing is really going on. Then one of Even’s old friends from Bakka talks about how much better Even seems now, how he seems so much more normal now. And one of the others makes a comment, saying, “Remember when you learnt the Qur'an, man? Fucking crazy.”

And Sana is surprised at Even’s lack of response. At first, she’s kind of angry. Even usually pulls people up on stuff like this – shuts them down. But now, there’s just…silence, from Even. He stares pointedly at the floor, nodding a little.

So, Sana is the one to shut them down. Asks why it’s so crazy that someone would want to learn such a thing. And they feel awkward, probably because they forgot she was there, and they mumble an apology and say they meant no offense and it’s all over in a matter of seconds. But Sana realises something.

She realises that the way Even looked at the floor is the same way she would look at the floor whenever someone criticised her religion before. Not so much now, but a few years ago, when she had less fire in her. When she was just a young girl. And she can’t be completely sure it’s the same look, but she sees it: the anger, the quiet defiance that you feel when people criticise something you care about.

So, after, when people are leaving, she takes Even aside. And she tells him that, actually, she thinks it’s really admirable that he learnt the Qur'an. She says it must have taken a lot of time and effort. And he shakes his head, says, “I was just ill.” It’s an automatic response, like he’s regurgitating something he’s been told a thousand times before.

Sana just nods. She doesn’t tell him he’s wrong. But she says, “Still, it’s very impressive. You must have been very passionate about it at one point.” And he looks at her quietly and apprehensively and says, “I still am.”

And the next second, things are a little awkward. Because Sana does not want to come across as preachy and overstep a line here. But…she has this feeling.

So she says, as casually and as gently as she can, “If you want to talk about it, I’d be happy to discuss it with you.”

And Even’s eyes just shift a little. It’s small and barely noticeable, but there’s more light in them now. And he smiles a little when he says, “Yeah?”

Sana nods. She tells him they could talk about any of the bits he found moving, or any of the bits that he has questions about. She tells him that she can be there just to simply listen to his thoughts on it, if that’s what he wants.

And Even smiles and nods. And he thanks her, and says, “I’d really like that.”

aph-ghoul  asked:

Hi friend! Your art style is amazing!! I was just wondering if I could request APH China? It's okay if you don't want to, it's just that your art style is so beautiful I couldn't help myself (☆_☆)

(adm: Thank you so much, friend!! I’m really happy you like my art! Sorry I took so long to answer, I hope you like it!! <3)

Love You Forever (Spencer Reid x Reader)

A/N: Hey guys! I’m still shook about last nights episode and i don’t think I will ever recover 😂 here is a very depressing but touching imagine. I might have cried writing this so I hope you guys don’t.
Warnings: death, depression, low self esteem
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader
Prompt: the reader and Spencer are best friends at the BAU and the reader is in love with spencer and everyone can see it except him so when maeve gets taken the reader manages to save her but ends up getting killed
Request: ✅
Upcoming Imagine: reader struggles with body image issues…
2 years.
For two years you have been working at the BAU.
1 year 27 weeks.
That’s how long you have been in love with Spencer Reid.
The whole team knew once you told Penelope but even though Spencer is a genius, he sure is oblivious to love.
He has been your best friend but never showed any interest in being more than friends, which you respected, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.
It hurt when you saw Spencer sitting by himself, reminding you that you couldn’t be his.
He’s so independent.
He’s independent until you make him depend on you.
When he bottles up emotions, you find a way to make him talk to you, opening him up to release anything that was on his mind.
He claims you were the only one who could do that.
And one night, he told you something that shattered your heart.
“Her name is Maeve and… I really like her…” you basically spaced off after that.
Are you not good enough?
Is that what it was?
You felt a tear fall down your cheek.
Damn it.
Good thing Spencer was looking at his lap, where he was sitting crisscross on the couch in front of you.
You quickly wiped the tear, but Spencer noticed.
“Y/N are you okay?” He asked a hint of concern in his voice.
“Yeah I'm… I’m really happy for you.” You said quietly.
By now, he knew something was up.
Thoughts fled his mind as he tried to profile your emotions.
“Is there something you want to tell me? Your holding back something. I will listen I promise.” He said reaching for your hand but you pulled back, knowing his touch is just going to make you nauseous.
“I'm… I’m okay. I promise. I’m just… I’m really happy for you. Im glad you… you found someone.” You said, the last part quiet and filled with disappointment.
He didn’t believe you.
He assumed you needed time alone so he patted your shoulder and left your apartment.
You did need the alone time.
Well time away from him.
You need to try to get over him, find a distraction before this gets out of hand.
Over the past month Spencer has told you all about Maeve and how important she was to him, stabbing you repeatedly in the heart as he rambled about her.
“She’s already the most beautiful girl in the world to me. I don’t care what she looks like.” He said staring at the ceiling.
You broke down, you couldn’t hold it in anymore.
“Sorry I need to leave.” You said, your voice breaking as you sped away.
About a month after that, Maeve had gone missing and Spencer was torn.
It hurt you to see him like this, distant, scared and lost of hope.
He came to your door multiple times with red eyes and a runny nose.
You took care of him of course, but you were half tempted to hand him over to JJ so the pain would stop.
He could crumple in your arms as you stroked his soft hair, telling him it’s going to be okay.
He had even slept over a few times but the last time you couldn’t help it anymore.
When Spencer was sleeping, you kissed his forehead.
“Spencer Reid… I don’t know how I could fall in love with you so fast but… I guess it was just your personality and hearing your soft voice as you rambled about random stuff. But I love you. Not just as a friend but like… I would have liked to spend the rest of my life with you. I wanted to wake you up in the morning with coffee and shower you in kisses because you deserve the world. But, I know there’s someone else… to do that. I-I hope she treats you well because you deserve it. You deserve it and so much more.” You felt tears spill over your cheeks as you kissed his forehead once more before walking to the kitchen.
The next day, Spencer had put his life on the line.
You weren’t exactly sure what happened, but you know he risked his life.
Now you were on the way to the warehouse where Maeve was being held captive by Diane Turner.
You and the team walked in, guns out of holsters and out in front of you.
“You would kill your self for her?!” Diana yelled as Spencer stood in front of her with his hands in the air.
“Yes.” He said sincerely.
“Wait! Diane right? You had the thesis about suicide killing brain cells right?” You asked putting your gun back in its holster.
“Why do you care?” She snapped holding the gun tighter to Maeve’s head.
“It’s wrong. I read it. I’m actually the one who convinced Ms. Donovan to reject it. She knew it was wrong but I knew how a biased thesis like that would have never passed. Let me take her place. Killing Maeve won’t do you any good. But if you really want to kill someone… kill me.”
“Y/N what are you…”
“Let’s see how your thesis was wrong. I’m putting my life on the line. I’m willing to die. You have no proof that your thesis works. Let me be your test dummy. Do it shoot me.” You said throwing your gun to the side and taking off your FBI vest.
Multiple people were yelling.
“Put down the gun!”
“Y/N what the hell are you doing?”
“Stop taking off your vest.”
“Let her go.” You said keeping eye contact with her.
Diane slowly let go of Maeve and while she was doing so you charged at her, attempting to tackle her and take away your gun but you were interrupted by a loud boom.
You were shot in the pelvis, making you fall to the floor.
You could have swore that would have worked.
Your head hit the ground as you saw JJ run over to Maeve and Derek cuff Diane.
“Y/N Y/N hey look at me.” You heard Spencer say as your body was slightly lifted.
He pressed down on your wound, but nothing hurt.
“Hey your going to be okay.” He said brushing hair out of your face.
“No. No Spencer I’m not.” You said as you choked back tears.
“Don’t-don’t say that you will okay.” He said as tears filled his eyes.
“Spencer… I love you. I’ve loved you for-for a long time okay? Please take care of yourself. Please be careful. I love you so much I’m sorry I couldn’t do better.” You said choking on hot liquid that turned out to be blood.
You saw confusion and compassion in his eyes.
“No you-your going to live. Your going to live.” He repeated but you could already feel your body start to numb.
He was lost for words.
He wanted to say more but he was shocked and everything was coming together.
At that point he knew what was wrong with you that one night.
He now pieced together the little signs he never noticed until now.
How your pupils dilated when you looked at him.
How you got a little shy whenever he would touch you.
The redness in your cheeks when he would smile at you.
“I’m-I’m so sorry.” He said as tears fell down his face.
“You don’t have to-to be. Just know that I love you p-please.” You said with a faint smile.
His blood-covered hand shook as he hugged you tighter.
He started to cry.
Not just shed tears; he started to sob uncontrollably as he felt the last rise and fall of your chest.
“No no please. Someone help me please!” He yelled holding your faint body in his arms.
The medics finally got there and had you on life support, but it was your time.
You risked your life for Spencer’s happiness and if you could you would do it again.
All you wish of now, up in heaven, is that he keeps going.
That he lives a happy life and gets the care he deserves.

I just… want to take a moment to talk about this page from the notebook…

I’ve seen people say that it looks like they barely write anything to each other, but obviously in game, they’re gonna keep it short, especially when you get to choose what you say (and it being short can be explained by the fact that they both are on the move but need to get messages fast, they don’t have time to write each other full letters during the events of the game)

But on the left there, you can see Noct’s messy handwriting and a longer letter there.

And then the main part that we see, it must be one of Noct’s prized gifts, which he included in that notebook to share with Luna. It’s a sticker that says “NOCT thank you” in Iris’ even messier handwriting, and Noct wrote a little note pointing to it that says “I got a ‘thank you’”

That little thank you must have felt so good to him. He didn’t do any of what he did for thanks, but he got it anyways and he was so happy and he wanted to share that with Luna.

I don’t think people appreciate enough just how private of details these two shared with each other.

shadowlucario778  asked:

Hey, I love your content. You post quality memes and they are like, one of the few that I love too see everyday. You inspire me and you're beautiful and most importantly you're gay af and I can relate. I really like all the comic dubs you do and aspire to be like you and I hope you have a fabulous day today and every day. ^_^ Say hi to vade for me and tell him his British accent gives me happiness and life and enhances my gay levels by 15%. Okay I'm done now byeee! ^_^ <--- He's Henry, btw

Originally posted by nyanpasuminasan



All that time I review the BSD ending, I think about... Just look.

Here Atsushi sinks among the darkness, water column doesn’t transmit light. Darkness — his thoughts, his past, his fears and his complexes, his self-flagellation. And he sinks in it, he sinks because he can’t change anything. He sinks because he thinks he is useless.

And here the Dazai’s hand. He touches Atsushi’s forehead, and look. Darkness recedes. Fears, despair, loneliness — all of this goes away. Here becomes light. Peace and tranquility are in Atsushi’s head, and all because of Dazai. And I’m not talking about his ability, I’m talking about himself. About his personality.

This is the best impersonation the way Dazai affects Atsushi, isn’t it? He gets rid of Atsushi’s fears, lets the light in the kingdom of intrusive darkness, vile thoughts immediately retreat.

Recall even chapter 25, where Dazai really helps Atsushi wake up from painful thoughts which suddenly revived with all the strength in his head. He gives Atsushi a slap and says the right words, standing on knees like Atsushi does. Dazai is not above Atsushi. Dazai is together with Atsushi.

And here Atsushi reaches for Dazai’s hand, so gently and tenderly, as if Dazai is a ray of light in his life.

Isn’t it so?

Furthermore, did you hear the lyrics of this ending song?

“Whenever you’re darkened by sadness and your tears overflow…
 Whenever your heart floods with loneliness and begins to waste away..
 I’ll call out a name: your name;
Just as you once called out mine”.

These words are playing right in that moment when Atsushi sinks and Dazai touches his forehead.

After that I just can’t believe that Dazai doesn’t care about Atsushi and doesn’t make him feel confident and…


Maybe I’m just a fujoshi, but my heart beats faster when I see them together ^^ Don’t hit me /)т_т(\

  • what she says: I'm fine.
  • what she means: Bo Burnham works so hard to create content that is hilarious as well as introspective and he puts so much effort into making his fans happy and I just want him to find his own happiness and purpose in life and if that means he needs to quit doing comedy then so be it, he deserves the world but the world doesn't deserve him
Okay Andi Mack thing I'm scared for

Since they made Cyrus canonly gay and clearly has a crush on Jonah, I really hope that they don’t make him the lonely queer kid when Jonah chooses Andi over him. Even though he probably wont get together with Jonah (rip Jyrus TT) I want him to be happy with another queer boy because my lil gay boi deserves to be happy along with Marty/Buffy and Andi/Jonah.

anonymous asked:

Ash!! Okay so I just saw the video where Andy says he's cleaner because Michonne licks him clean and I'm just in complete shock at how naughty and dirty he was 😂😂 but I don't understand how come he ships Richonne so much, like is it really because story wise it makes sense or is it because of how good Danai looks! Same thing with Norman, he also has commented how he wants Daryl with Michonne, and I always questioned the WHY!!! Anyways I'm happy we got some Richonne love from our captain!

Someone said this press tour happening after 7x12 airing is like a belated bachelor party for Andy/Rick. And it’s so true. 😂

As far as Andy shipping Richonne, I think he does genuinely want what best serves the story and his character, and any unbiased person could see that Michonne is the absolute best partner for Rick. The writing has been heading that way for so many years, I can’t even imagine how he would be rooting for anything else. That said, I’m sure he does find Danai/Michonne attractive, as evidenced by all those (most likely unscripted) looks he’s been giving her for four years. 👀There’s palpable chemistry between them. And it also probably helps that “his mom” ships it, and they’ve been getting fan questions about Richonne since Michonne stepped into the same frame as Rick, lol. Plus, wouldn’t you want your character to be with the best character? Mama Clutterbuck didn’t raise no fool. 😄

The photograph is from that rehearsal, taken from a seat just behind Louis. The stage in the background is washed in blues, reds, pinks, yellows, beams of light pouring from all different angles, crossing over each other at random. The spotlight is off, so the bodies on the stage are almost just silhouettes in motion. There’s the whip of a skirt caught in mid-turn, a tall figure with its arms extended, two shapes bent toward each other at stage left. Behind them, the skeleton of the set makes sharp lines and broken shapes against the white backdrop. In the foreground is Louis, just a sliver of his face as seen from behind, the light catching on the top of his cheekbone and the ends of his hair. His hands are in the air in front of him, gesturing as he explains something to one of the actors, and he can see ink stains on his knuckles. He can see for the first time the way he looks when he’s directing, the set of his shoulders, the hint of a smile at the corner of his mouth. It’s his kids, his work, distilled into an image and made beautiful. And Harry did it. He looks down at the table because he really, really needs to look at anything that is not this picture right now, and his eyes fall on a tiny piece of paper. It must have slid out with the print without him noticing it. He can see Harry’s handwriting on it. Lou, So you don’t forget what you look like to the rest of us Happy birthday!!! xxx Haz

anonymous asked:

are you okay with people drawing deity sans? just curious! i really love the concept!!

yes i am very ok with people drawing him. in fact there’s been several drawings already! which i still can’t believe omg.

also!! fics! there have been fics about the concept!

Flowers that Bloom in Spring by @knowmeknot101

Mortal by @sinnyskelle

A Distant Memory of Summer by @purrfecktlysinful

some otherwise overlooked parts from call me by your name (the book) that I just love so freakin much:

- the hug and Oliver asking “Does this make you happy?”
- “Do you really like me that much?”
- when they were telling each other they were clean before sleeping together
- “You okay?”/“Are you okay everywhere?” And Oliver’s awkward smile
- Oliver telling Elio the moment he first realized he liked him and that maybe Elio liked him back

anonymous asked:

Could you make a reaction of the boys reacting to their partner being bisexual/pansexual like if them coming out or something. If it's not too much trouble, love your blog by the way!!


Seokjin’s not really one to mind who you’re attracted to, as long as he’s at the top of the list! “Your identity is a bi-eautiful thing.”


“Okay.” It’s not that Yoongi doesn’t care, it just makes absolutely no difference to him whatsoever. It’s not like it’s a secret that he’s pan, too. Why would he have any reaction other than acceptance?


Hoseok would be really proud that you’re coming to terms with who you are. It can be a lot, and he’d recognize and respect that. “Thank you for telling me!”


Namjoon would be quietly excited for your coming out. It isn’t always easy to be attracted to multiple genders, and he’d always be right there to support you. “Welcome to the community!”


“As long as you’re happy with who you are, Jagi.” It matters not what you identify as. Jimin will support you, especially while you’re by his side. 


Hugs for you! Taehyung would love you just the same, regardless of identity, and as someone Taehyung loves, you deserve hugs. “It’s official. You’re the cutest pansexual in the world.”


Jungkook probably wouldn’t know what to say, simply because it wouldn’t make much of a difference to him. “Ah… okay. I’m happy for you!” He’d really just want you to be happy and comfortable, no matter who you’re attracted to.

anonymous asked:

Do you think Jimin is okay? He posted something in the fancafe about feeling weird and confused about the BBMAs. I know he was nervous and probably felt uncomfortable because of not knowing what anyone was saying but I'm really worried about him. :/

probably weird like surreal? i’m sure that he’s okay and that it’s just an overwhelming experience. they all seemed really happy and then he went on to say how it’s a pity they didnt perform lol

Anonymous said:JIMIN WITH DARK HAIR AGAIN IM SO AAAAHHHH! And look at him, he is gleaming, he looks so handsome *Q* also he shoots sparkels with his eyes and his smile is extra fine today, i caaaannnttt! *sorrytobother*

fklsjdf you arent bothering me! and YESSS the color and cut right now reminds me of how it was cut for the butterfly exhibit, I LOVE IT. 

anonymous asked:

Hey, sorry to bother you. I've been going through your blog and I saw you posting some stuff with how it sucks that the majority of Louis' fan base are Larry's. I was just wondering why... This is my opinion btw but shouldn't you be happy that Louis has a really supportive fan base? Like I'm not saying the Larry's who want to know all his personal information or are pushing the idea of Larry onto him are in the right or okay. But like the people who just find the idea cute, aren't they okay?

People who find the fictional idea of Larry cute but understand that they aren’t in a relationship, sending anyone signs, or faking having children or relationships with women, are just Larry shippers. Those are fine and they are, in my experience, relentlessly supportive of Louis as he embarks upon his solo career.

People who believe that Louis is a hostage to unending contracts that require him to fake birth certificates and lie about coparenting a child who appeared in his mother’s obituary for over a year and a half, sending warning and shoe selfies and using t-shirt slogans to message his fans and communicate using numerology, are larries, conspiracy theorists, tinhats. They spam his loved ones and his friends and his management with vitriol on social media in the hopes of driving them offline because they must be punished for louis’ failure to live up to their fantasies, or they encourage and egg it on, or they say they don’t, but think that hey, if those things happen, the recipients deserve it.

They constantly waiver between doing their best to publicly take credit for driving his music up the charts so that they can receive his acknowledgement, threatening to withhold their support if he is not sufficiently grateful, or boycotting him because they believe their money will encourage his fictional oppressors. They do this while dreading every public appearance he makes and word he says and photo he shares and preparing ahead of time to disregard his content and resume silencing behavior if it doesn’t validate their conspiracies.

That’s not support, that’s not a fan base, and if there’s a tiny bit of luck left in the universe for him I hope he finally wins over scores of people outside this fandom who can really see and respect him as a person and an artist and not the subject of the martyrdom fantasy some sad people tell themselves every night.

anonymous asked:

I know its not my busy but its been driving me nuts for months. I used to look up to you because you and ichi had been together for so long and looked like you had all ur shit together, then i found out later that things had ended. I say looked up because I had been with my husband for a long time like you guys, and I'm always waiting for that point when I'll think to myself that this is forever. Dont get me wrong I am so happy for you and shane, but i am so curious as to what happened.

Haha. It’s okay.

We met when I was 15 and we were together until I was 25. When I met him I was just a child and I really didn’t know what I wanted in a relationship.

I was just fooling myself, almost our whole relationship. There was a two year long stretch I tried so hard to make it work… but my ex was uncommitted to putting in anything to us. He didn’t (and doesn’t) have any ambition to go anywhere in his life, and when dating him I felt more like a mother than a girlfriend. It was honestly the worst. But how was I supposed to know? I hadn’t known it any other way. He was my only boyfriend. I honestly thought, “well I’m his girlfriend, I’m here to support him” thinking what I was doing was my job.

I remember times when I would flee to my blog and say “he’s been sleeping in until 3 and he still doesn’t have a job” and Anons would message me like “yo….. dump his ass” and I’d say “I just want to try a bit harder to make him change.”

But you can’t change people. You can’t make people mature. They can only do that for themselves. And to me, he is still… the 17 year old that I met when I was a teenager.

In before someone close to me reads this, I wasn’t a saint in all this. There was a period of time in our relationship where I was seeing other people. I told my ex about it at the time, and of course he didn’t like it, but he just… let it happen, and I kept going on with it. Of course, the things I did were awful, and I should have known better. But back then, both of us were awful to eachother.

The last two years of our relationship I didn’t see anyone else. I remember near around the end of our relationship I was giving him “by the end of the month” ultimatums….. – in the 10 years we were together, he had never taken me on a date…. so I would say, “please take me on a date by the end of the month, or we’re through”. I did that probably 3 or 4 months.

It’s so stupid when I think back to it. I did some awful things to him, but I can’t believe what I endured, either. We were awful to each other.

My new relationship is …….. I don’t want to say it’s perfect but it’s really wonderful. We do things for eachother. We compliment eachother every day. Shane is very driven is get a good education and a good job. We like doing things together, and he really appreciates the things I do for him. And he likes my cooking! My ex would only say a simple “thanks” whenever I made him something lol.

I’m really happy. At age 26 I finally fell in love. I loved my ex, but I don’t think I was truly in love with him.

So hmmm. I don’t know. Things are not what they seem, especially when people seem they have it all together, or its too good to be true…. I tried so hard in that relationship, but in the back of my mind always, there’d be a voice saying “this is fake this is fake this is fake ”…. but just keep up the facade a little longer, because you are in too deep to ever leave now.

The longer you wait, the harder it is to leave. Hell. I bought a house with this man. It has been *rough*. I’ve been living with my ex for almost a year and a half now, and it has been *ROUGH*.

This is a lot a lot a lot of personal information, and years down the road I might say “maybe I shouldn’t have done that…” but for now, I’m over it. I hope that clears some things up. Ha ha.

anonymous asked:

hello!!! i love ur blog btw but i just wanted to say something. i'm so ABSOLUTELY in love with my boyfriend and i literally see him every day and we hang out almost every day and i just left his house like 3 hours ago but i miss him so much already and i just wanna kiss him and hold him and tell him how much i love him bc he's so soft and pretty and i love him!!! AHHHH i'm sorry i just really needed to tell someone about what i'm feeling. I hope everything is going okay for you! have a nice day!

again, goals literally like everyone’s goals tbh. Reading your things like this makes me feel so happy honestly that someone feels this way, gives me hope.