i'm just really excited

In 4 months I’ll finally be able to work in my field.

I’ll hopefully be able to get a job working where I used to intern because it’s $20 per diem ($40 an hour if you have 30 min appointments back to back) and it’ll be nice just to finally have money.

I’ve had enough to get by, pay for my phone, gas, insurance, but I’ll actually have spending money for the first time in years. I want to commission artists and support people on patreon and I’ll finally be able to!

i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later. 

W E L C O M E  T O  T H E  M A D N E S S

Yurio, you’re such a little punk. ilu.

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Samuel’s debut MV teaser!!

this concept is gonna be very…. sensitive like i have faith in them so i hope that it’s approached in the right way.. the concept is thoughtful n wholesome but bc it’s them carrying out the roles it’s important to handle this w a lot of tact.. is tact the right word??? respect?? u know what i mean

Okay, so ignore me while I adjust my tinfoil hat but what if this standalone Episode 9 is a Snow Ball episode that features Snow Ball present and Snow Ball past? What if something strange happened at the Snow Ball, say, when Hop and Joyce were kids? Or the teens? What if the lost brother is actually someone who disappeared a long time ago? What if stranger things (heh) are happening at Snow Ball present and this is our cliffhanger ending? Everyone’s happy and dancing then the lights flicker ominously and the credits roll.

*constantly resists the urge to append Daveed’s “hip hop doesn’t need Broadway but Broadway needs hip hop” quote to every post by a theater kid who can’t understand why people who like Hamilton don’t get into every other musical*

ok yeah I know, I’m supposed to be going to bed, but I’ve been ruminating on Fitz’s behavior during this episode & how it could pertain to what they’ll do to have him eventually remember Jemma.

first, he seems far more interested in the information that May brings him about a random infraction at some school than someone at his high level in Hydra should be. then, he’s oddly interested in Skye’s application to co-habit with Ward - as if, perhaps, he senses he’s missing that feeling himself. finally, AIDA refuses to let him see pictures of the surveillance of the infraction (Jemma), and he gets unnaturally upset about it. (as if his mind has been warped to believe that he’s upset because he wants to protect AIDA, but deep inside himself he knows he’s missing something else wildly important.)

also, a lot of us were laughing at the irony that Fitz finally gets to be The Doctor - but not in the way that he would ever want (or expect). and the show has a history of Doctor Who references.

so, Agents of SHIELD have already given us time and space-defying FitzSimmons - Amy x Rory - as well as diving into a portal with their own safety be damned - Rose x Ten (along with over half a dozen other DW parallels).

what if this time they give us Fitz as the Tenth Doctor/John Smith in “Human Nature”?

Oh, no, she’s just an invention. This character, Jemma. Jemma I call her.

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Update: These still need some work here & there but I’m gonna try to makes these into gifs!! I’m struggling with Shiro’s hand on his hip… >_>