i'm just a mess of feelings

originalpottervengerlock  asked:

I feel like Eliot would be the type of person who gets very affronted when someone he cares about doesn't get a proper breakfast. Like he sees them eating like five bowls of cereal every morning and one day just loses it and makes them a full English breakfast which then becomes team breakfast every morning

omg yessssss (and he would be appalled at what I eat for breakfast when I’m not at school….nothing lol) he’d be just like “ok maybe they didn’t have time today, one bowl of pure sugar cereal isn’t that bad” and then it would go on for a while and he’d finally just snap and get up like five hours before they usually get up and makes like a million eggs, pancakes, waffles, toast, French toast, coffee, orange juice, cinnamon rolls, and just goes all out and when they woke up and went to the cabinet to get cereal Eliot would be like “hey! maybe don’t do that!” 

tbh id be a little embarrassed if he did that for me bc I don’t eat very much food in general so like I’d apologize so much bc I couldn’t eat all of it lol whoops

get you a musical who can do both
  • Hamilton: I catch a glimpse of the other side. Laurens leads a soldier's chorus on the other side, my son is on the other side! He's with my mother on the other side! Washington is watching from the other side! Teach me how to say goodbye, rise up, rise up, rise up, Eliza... My love, take your time. I'll see you on the other side.
  • also Hamilton: I'm a general! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
  • Spring Awakening: All things he ever lived are left behind. All the fears that ever flickered through his mind, all the sadness that he'd come to own.
  • also Spring Awakening: Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla, bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla. Totally fucked
  • Spelling Bee: I think Dad is angry, Mom, and I do not know what to do... I think he takes out on me what he wants to take out on you. Mama, Mama, Mama! How I wish you were home.
  • also Spelling Bee: My unfortunate erection is destroying my perfection
  • Next to Normal: Do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head? Do you read obituaries and feel jealous of the dead? It's like living on a cliffside, not knowing when you'll dive. Do you know, do you know what it's like to die alive?
  • also Next to Normal: Valium is my favorite color
  • Dear Evan Hansen: I guess I wanted to believe, 'cause if I just believe, then I don't have to see what's really there. No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than these broken parts. Pretend I'm something other than this mess that I am, 'cause then I don't have to look at it.
  • also Dear Evan Hansen: iF i sTOP SmOKInG CrACK-
  • Falsettos: What more can I say? How am I to face tomorrow, after being screwed out of today? Tell me what's in store. Yes, I'd beg or steal or borrow if I could hold you for one hour more.
  • also Falsettos: I'm bitching, he's bitching, they're bitching, we're bitching, bitch bitch bitch bitch funny funny funny funny bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch
  • Great Comet: So easy to close off, place the blame outside. Hiding in my room at night, so terrified. All the things I could have been, but I never had the nerve. Life and love I don't deserve!
  • also Great Comet: says the mean old man in his underthings
  • In the Heights: "Alabanza" means to raise this thing to God’s face and to sing, quite literally, “Praise to this.” When she was here, the path was clear. And she was just here! She was just here...
  • also In the Heights: he's packing a stretch limousine
  • Groundhog Day: I thought the only way to better days was through tomorrow, but I know now, I know. Yes, I know now that I know... nothing.
  • also Groundhog Day: suck my balls i'm out
The signs as I know them

Aries: a fiercely protective lover, continuing an argument when you know you’re wrong, passionate loyalty, pushing past your comfort zone, fights that turn into sex, standing outside in the rain and screaming. Freedom. impulsive behavior. Loud and intense. Home.

Taurus: comfort food. Staying in bed on a rainy day. Smart but stubborn. Quiet calculations. Staying up all night talking. Outer space. Lazy days.

Gemini: books and coffee. Friendship tattoos. Smart and resilient. Beautiful. Making friends wherever you go. Two types; either wildly successful and organized like Pinterest in real life or a chaotic mess. Prone to addiction. Living art.

Cancer: musically inclined. Long walks downtown. Deep intellectual talks that leave you feeling calm but exhausted. Ambition. Second chances.

Leo: Staying up too late and drinking too much. Laughing until you can’t breathe. Doing your makeup drunk. Irresponsible decisions that make for good stories. Platonic kissing. Being held when you’re sad. Loyal friendships. Loud and exciting. Not talking for months and picking up where you left off.

Virgo: White furniture. Homemade Halloween costumes and holiday crafts. Careful and calculated. Cleaning for fun. Alphabetized book cases. Never saying ‘I told you so’ even when you’re always right. Motherly. Nurturing.

Libra: memes. Vibrant and super friendly. Always smiling. Eager to please and doesn’t like to disappoint. Goal oriented, and unstoppable once they have an idea. Surprise parties. Pretending you aren’t in love when you are.


Scorpio: staying up all night watching horror movies. Secretive and endearing. Will hold a grudge forever. Cemetery dates. Rough sex. The sound of a thunderstorm outside of your window. Feeling warm in a cold room. Extreme emotional intelligence.


Sagittarius: wanderlust. Forgetting to text back for days at a time. Always somewhere far away; unreachable. Feeing alone in a crowded room. Getting stoned and cuddling in bed all day. Japanese art. Staying out past curfew. Singing like nobody’s around. Inconsistent and deeply conflicted. Anime. Saying we’d still be friends.


Capricorn: Pretending to not like people but being really lonely. Cold. Immaculate attention to detail. Ambitious and unyielding. I haven’t met that many Capricorns.

Aquarius: Talking about alchemy and aliens all night. Doing drugs because I felt sad and you’re a good friend. Listening to me cry about a boy you told me was bad for me. Feels a lot more than they pretend to. Fireball whiskey. Marijuana.

Pisces: Knowing things before you’re told. Crystals. Tarot cards. Your life is a wreck but you always know what to say to help others. Die hard loyalty. Organized mess. Daydreaming all day. Boxed wine. Drunken yoga. A warm hug and a feeling of security. Selfless love.

9

“I will come as the rain.
I will come as the first snowfall.
I will beg the Heavens
to let me do just that.

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there’s a lot of drama happening in the sidemen fandom, so just a moment of appreciation for everyone’s unproblematic faves 

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some seamless tinyDragon patterns for your seamless tinyDragoon patterning needs 

please note that the dragons on the last one are transparent

i’ve hardly drawn these two nerds all summer, AND i’m a day late to deancas day i’m just a mess please take this

(also, i am aware cas is a little taller–i didn’t feel like doing full body, but the whole image in my brain was cas being hugged and lifted by dean a little)

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When I shine, you shine, always on your side

All my life you’ll have what’s mine

Mark my word, we gon’ be alright

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

TBT: a journey

About two months ago I was hate-watching the finale of Pretty Little Liars because I started watching it as a joke and got roped in by gays and murder and Troian Bellisario’s voice. Anyway there was this preview for this show and these 3 chicks were screaming at a subway.  And I wasn’t sure what was going on…Cosmo? That chick from Faking It? Cute black girl? Some white chick with a bougie name like Sutton? No thanks.

And then there was a preview during the PLL finale where they were talking with the chick from Faking It about orgasms.  And the other white girl and her black friend were being funny and the white girl had this line “Loving the can-do spirit!” And it made me chuckle.  So then when PLL ended I was like “eh…what the hell”.

And then I realized wait, these 3 chicks are super supportive of each other? And feel like real friends?

Oh and bougie Sutton is actually super relatable and hilarious, but also just really hardworking.

Oh and there was this boss, who is the chick from The Office, and when you think she’s just going to be a Devil Wears Prada rip off she’s actually really supportive of her staff and inspiring? 

And all of a sudden I’m just…What the hell am I watching? Why does this feel so rare and why am I smiling?

Oh wait…and then there was a LESBIAN MUSLIM RABBIT HOLE.  

And this character Adena, and Kat, and Kat doesn’t know if she likes girls. 

And all of a sudden I’m crying because this hits so close to home. And then she has a revelation at a gosh dang SOUL CYCLE class and it’s so absurd yet feels the most real any scene I’ve ever seen and it’s paired with Sutton negotiating a salary?! And I’m watching this nonsense and screaming: WHAT IS THIS GEM OF A SHOW!!!

And then some drama happened and Tiny Jany (because that’s what we call her because she’s tiny) might have a BRCA gene and she just sobs and I am sobbing with her. And they all get in a bathtub together and it’s the cutest goddamn scene ever.

Oh and then Kadena (because that’s what they’re called now because I just dove right into the trash of shipping this shit so hard) have the type of angst and slow burn that normally the straight whites have.  And they have this drawn out ROMANCE. That usually only happens in movies!

And they have the epic airport goodbyes, and the slow sex scene (in an airport).  
And now I’m this grown ass woman in her 20s with like a grown up job going…WHAT TYPE OF DARK MAGIC IS THIS SHOW AND WHY AM I SO SHOCKED THAT THIS IS ON TV BECAUSE IT’S LITERALLY SO NORMAL AND BEAUTIFUL AND I FEEL SO UNDERSTOOD.

Because Kat not knowing how to label herself is real. And Kat being terrified of relationships is real.  And Tiny Jane living the dream but still wanting more for herself and to take risks is real. And Sutton Brady is just the realest character out there.

I regret nothing from that random decision a few months ago. 

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#look at their faces #they’re watching the narnia they loved #but everything changed #because they weren’t there #trumpkin just accused them of abandoning narnia #but they didn’t chose to #aslan kicked them out #he threw them into a world where they didn’t fit anymore #and now they’re back #and they feel so guilty #and so sad #they weren’t here to protect the narnians as they should have #and now look at this mess #fuck aslan #he’s the one who abandoned everyone

I feel like I’m out of practice :S And I’m a day late. And I will do better next time, but I really needed to do something cute for my son so take this*tosses onto ur dash* Happy Belated Birthday to the Best Owl Bae!!❤️🎂~ 

anonymous asked:

I want to host a DND group, but none of my friends have any experience, so I'm stepping up as DM. Every part of it feels so daunting -- how to I even start? any advice would be appreciated

1. Don’t be afraid to mess up and ask your players for help.

2. ASK YOUR PLAYERS WHAT THEY WANT OUT OF A CAMPAIGN - Do they want combat? Exploration? Roleplaying? Puzzle-solving? If none of them care about wilderness survival, for instance, you probably don’t need to bother learning the rules for how to prepare food

3. For the first session - just plan out a simple one-off short story so you can get a hold of the ropes. As long as you have a story to tell or a problem to solve, some characters within the setting, and one combat encounter prepared, you should be fine.

  • *looking up first date tips*: don't overshare, you don't want to scare them off!
  • me, an oversharer, sweating: .....how....do you do that
protip

don’t ever tell your kids “if you’re not being useful then you’re being a burden” like manage not to say that so that your kids don’t work themselves into a depression and then death :) just a protip for all you parents out there

Okay but does the line
“She’ll open the door for you. No matter what time.”
completely wreck anyone else or is it just me??
I feel like when Rosita says it it’s a simple line but it really makes you feel and then when you think deeper and about how much the line really embodies the way Nicole feels about waverly it just hits you on a whole new level. Like Rosita and everyone knows just how much Nicole really loves Waverly and you see that written all over Nicole’s face in the next scene when she opens the door expecting Waverly

real talk about alicia clark in 3x05 for a second and how this arc of hers is actually a brilliant piece of storytelling like… 

if ftwd was a classic literature novel, your 11th grade english lit teacher would be lecturing on how alicia clark’s self-destructive spiral is an allegory for the millennial let down and apathy of the 21st century.

alicia clark grew up as an upper middle class millennial, in a nice suburb home, with a nice, seemingly well-rounded nuclear family. she and nick probably played little league soccer and have a box in the attic of old metallic plastic trophies.

she tuned out her world in favor of her ipod, lost herself in her studies because she was college would be the key to getting whatever she wanted out of life.

and now? all that pretty, painted ‘you can be whatever you want when you grow up! you can change the world!’ bullshit has been ripped away from her worldview and she sees the truth.

alicia clark could be a normal twenty-something going through her quarter crisis. useless college degree that put her tens of thousands of dollars in debt, dreams of saving the whales and ending world hunger crushed for the monotony of filing papers and learning microsoft excel.

english teacher’s lecture? all those zombies are corporate workers, dragging ass all day to get no where. lost in capitalism, in the draw of their cell phones. no recognition of the world around them, just consume, consume, consume…

alicia clark’s existential crisis is great television because it’s fucking relatable. all the pleasure has been sucked out her life in favor of survival. while she runs from zombies, we’ve got master’s-educated people working for minimum wage (or less). we’ve got brilliant young men and women who are always one mistake away from living on the streets or going without food this month. (or one congressman away from losing our health coverage for vital, lifesaving medications.)

it feels like it’ll never end. the struggle just brings more struggle. there’s little hope.

she tries drugs and sex and activities like cliff diving to feel something, to enjoy a moment in her miserable fucking existence. we… also do drugs and have sex and enjoy high-adrenaline activities lol, but additionally have the luxury of shit like enjoying our avocado toast and sending snapchat videos with silly dog filters and playing pokemon go for 8 hours a day, because if you can’t fucking get anywhere with the skills and degree that you worked on your whole life, at least you can smile for a moment when you finally evolve your bulbasaur.

idk, alicia clark’s existential crisis is brilliant and i’m loving it. rock on, my broken lil bean.

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Ayy he so cute I can’t

  • Neil in book 2: I will do anything to help Andrew Minyard and keep him safe and prove that he is a real person and not the emotionless monster everyone thinks he is.
  • Neil in book 2: Fight me, torture me, I don't give a fuck. Just don't you dare do anything to Andrew, you stupid pieces of shit.
  • Neil in book 3: Haha, I'm so glad there are no feelings here so we can just mess around before I die-
  • Neil in book 3: DIE FOR ANDREW BECAUSE SOMEONE HERE HAS TO SAVE HIM AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR HIM BEING HURT BECAUSE OF ME. WHY THE FUCK CAN'T ANY OF YOU GRADE A ASSHATS SEE HOW AMAZING AND HUMAN HE IS? SIT DOWN FUCKERS BECAUSE I HAVE PREPARED A POWERPOINT FUCKING PRESENTATION ABOUT HOW WRONG YOU ALL ARE ABOUT ANDREW MINYARD AND YOU ARE ALL GOING TO SIT THROUGH IT AND APPRECIATE EVERYTHING HE HAS DONE FOR YOU THAT YOU ALL HAVE BEEN IGNORING FOR FAR TOO GODDAMN FUCKING LONG.