I guess this was coming with how things have been going with me. Aside from the fashion show that I’ll be coordinating in April and my (mostly OOC) help with the Palazzo Aldenard, I’m going to be taking a break from RP for a time. I’m at a place where I can’t focus, where I’m losing time, where I feel guilty for logging in and wanting to level. I’m finding myself unable to stick with Discord RP.
Today sort of pushed me. I had so many plans that I wanted to do, story progression and just genuinely fun times… and instead I spent the day in and out of dis-associative states. My RP partners/friends say it’s okay, that they understand, and despite this I still feel like a PoS at the end of the day when I am unable to meet up for even an hour of contact.
I’ll still be in game, but I’m going to be focusing on content/maps and leveling my alts/getting them all Stormblood ready. I’ll still be on Tumblr, and I’ll gladly answer any prompts sent my way in regards to my characters, but I’m going to be trying to get better at graphics and things of the like so that my commissions take off in a positive direction.
I’m sorry that I’ve let a lot of you down in the past, and that I may be letting some of you down now. Until I get back on my medication, until I get myself sorted out… I’m just not in a good place to get into the head-space of different characters(people). I’m starting to lose who I am.
Hey guys! You’ve probably already seen me talk about these, but if not, you NEED to read these NOW:
(In order from most recent update to least)
The Alkahest This fic has it all. Long chapters (of which there are currently?? 56??) (Note: omg I checked my email and it updated literally a minute ago, so guess what I’m doing as soon as I’ve posted this). Slow burn. Relationships outside of JUST romantic ones, and between characters besides just Hermione and Draco. MALFOYS. Everyone’s characterisation is ON POINT. This fic will make you bust out laughing. This fic will make you cry. This fic will make you repeatedly refresh your email at one in the morning JUST IN CASE it updates before you go to bed. Read this fic. Also, leave a comment because @shadu-kiam is really lovely and deserves to hear your thoughts.
Unexpected I want to cry just thinking about how much I love this fic. That’s it. No words. Just whale noises and tears. It’s on both Ao3 and FFN so give our girls @pansyprknson and @hexrmionegranger some love and praise (bc they deserve it). If you love HBP and you would love to ruin your life over a fic, this is that fic.
The Last, Lost Hope So this one is quite a bit different from the previous two. The first has its moments. The second is rather angsty but still relatively sunshiny. This one is a straight-up dark, the-Dark-Lord-wins fic. It doesn’t follow just Hermione and Draco’s relationship, but has a plot that requires a whole ensemble of characters to work in really interesting ways to try to undermine the Dark Lord in any way they can. REALLY interesting fic, and I’m loving it so far. If you’re looking for something with amazing characterisation and a gripping (if dark) plot, then this is your fic.
Love In a Time of the Zombie Apocalpyse You’ve proooobably heard of this one. If not though… wow. Definitely a different plot. It’s an interesting read, and very near the end. It’s dark but, in a way, it’s kind of beautiful, too.
Inverse Please update this fic. Give me an update. I’m crying (But no really, if you love love and you love angst, and you’ve somehow not read this fic yet, you should.)
Devil, Tower, Star What I love about this fic is that there’s a huge magical theory component to the plot. I don’t want to give anything away, but it’s just so unique and intriguing and it’ll draw you right in. The characterisation is interesting, too, as both of our babies are so *damaged* by everything that’s happened to them (it’s a war fic). Just… read this if you haven’t already.
@all my New York or Tri state area followers: on Sunday April 26 there’s going to be a march to commemorate the Armenian genocide, starting at around 2 PM at 34th and 2nd going up to Times Square. It should be really cool and people from all backgrounds are invited!!!