how much planning have you had to do for whms? it feels like everything has come together really organically and there are so many real events in there. how do you plan for everything?
well i spent about a year mapping out the fic in my head and imagining how i’d write it, but i never got around to actually writing it because i was too afraid that i’d forget to include something or that i wouldn’t write it as accurately as i wanted to.
when i first started writing, i would pore over every single word and research every little scene i wanted to include. it was impossible. and extremely draining and unsatisfying. lucky for me, i was in near constant communication with charlotte about the fic and what i wanted to do with it and when i told her my dilemma she basically said to stop worrying about making it as accurate to reality as possible and just write the fucking thing.
after that, i planned out everything up until jensen’s wedding. and i knew once i got to that point, i would be able to start posting it.
(i also had not thought of a title until i had written about three or four chapters, so i couldn’t have posted it even if i wanted to.)
so i wrote up til chapter 11 or whenever it is that jensen’s wedding happens. and i sent everything over to charlotte to give it a go, and she…….did not like it as much as i hoped she would like it lol. she found it frustrating that jensen and misha didn’t even seem like friends for several chapters - too many chapters. there just wasn’t enough interaction between the two of them, and it was too awkward for too long.
cue me reading and editing and rewriting about 25k words’ worth of fic, sending it over to charlotte, editing some more, then finally feeling confident enough in it to start posting.
since then, there’s been a lot of charlotte messaging me things like “don’t forget to include this,” “i think this is coming up, don’t forget,” and me asking her questions while i write and running things by her to make sure i’m on the right track.
but you’re absolutely right that a lot of things have happened organically - or even fortuitously as if the cockles gods are watching out for me. seriously, the fact that alona tal asking misha what it’s like to kiss jensen happened in real life ONE WEEK after i wrote jensen and misha kissing in my fic was????? a total coincidence/??????? i messaged charlotte after that one and was like “cockles is real, i’ve cracked it.” and then i knew i wanted jared to find out about them a few months before they break up, so when i researched the coin prank and learned that it was during season 6 i was like I’VE CRACKED IT AGAIN.
i have a document titled “cockles notes” that i’ve been keeping for over a year now and it just has links and bullet points of things i mean to include and things i need to remember, so that helps me organize stuff that i know i’m gonna forget. but otherwise, yeah, it’s kind of just all up in my head as vague ideas that i have to figure out how to get to paper. i’m that gif set of george rr martin explaining that some authors are gardeners that don’t know what the fuck they’re doing until the flowers have grown. that’s me.