i'm feeling sad and contemplative today

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today I’m angry. but because I was taught my whole life that being angry was unhelpful, counterproductive, a waste of my time and on occasion even not allowed, I’ve been trying to convince myself into thinking that I’m just sad. because being angry in certain situations is toxic, when you know that you can’t really change anything, so sad should do.

but I want to be angry. I want to give myself the right to be angry. to not feel guilty and then stick that guilt on top of the anger in a never-ending cycle of emotional self-destruction.

look at me go. 

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