i'm feeling judged

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So these are Dan’s facial expressions when Phil talks about chocking and then opens a button… the fuck.

Also I’ll start thinking about what my life has come to right now.

please don’t ever laugh at someone at the gym who’s lifting very little amounts of weight, or running only a little bit on the treadmill. don’t make fun of someone for putting a machine at the lowest weight or only bench pressing the bar (it’s already 45 lbs on its own). don’t laugh at the people who are just starting out or who physically can’t do too much weights or running or pull ups or squats or whatever. Everyone has to start somewhere

[AU] the “year” between their first meeting and their reunion

ETA: I’ve been (thankfully) notified that my timeline of events is way off so this is 100% inaccurate. However, it makes for a lovely AU (because who doesn’t like pining!Victor amirite) so I’ll leave it up. Just keep in mind that this does not follow the canon timeline. At all. Thanks, @nika11ama, for clarifying things for me!


I kept asking myself why, if they’d previously met (at the Banquet) and Victor had really fallen in love with Yuuri that day, had he treated him that way in this scene? How could he  be so nonchalant in that situation? It didn’t make sense.

But what if Victor had spent the entire year lying to himself? Telling himself over and over that he couldn’t possibly have fallen in love with someone after only a day? Forcing himself not think about Yuuri or web-stalk him. Chastising himself every time he caught himself remembering their dance or, worse, pining. 

So a year passes and he thinks he’s golden, thinks that time has finally done its job and eroded his little “crush.” And then he sees Yuuri again and tries to treat him like he pretty much treats everyone else, only it completely backfires on him.

He watches him walk away and tries to convince himself everything’s fine. That he’s fine. That he doesn’t care. And yet he can’t bring himself to tear his eyes away from Yuuri’s back even after the other man is long gone. 

And it’s like a floodgate opens. Every wall he built over the past year to keep himself from obsessing over Yuuri collapses and he finds himself incapable of not thinking about him.

And then he sees The Video™…

…and every lie he’s ever made to himself just turns to dust. His defenses are down. He can’t fight it anymore. He doesn’t want to fight it anymore. He’s in love. Has been in love since since the day they met, and maybe it doesn’t make sense but he’s reached a point where he just doesn’t care anymore. He’s going after what he wants, and what he wants is Yuuri. 

So when an opportunity presents itself he seizes it and flies to Japan without a second thought or a backwards glance. He’s wasted enough time and has no patience left. 

See, he made a promise the first day they met, though not with anything as obvious or empty as words. Yuuri seduced him, and Victor fell, hard, and the traitorous little organ in his chest promised itself to Yuuri without him realizing. It took him an entire year to. 

And that’s why Victor, who’s notorious for never remembering–and therefore keeping–the promises he makes, remembers Yuuri’s request an entire year after he made it. 

The heart doesn’t forget. 

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he/him, even with the hijab picture

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#when will the Original Iwatobi Relay Team come back from the war

I was feeling nostalgic earlier and i skimmed through the high speed manga and i remembered again how much i love my tiny rarepairs, like makorin who are adorable and smiling up there because they were friends and also had fondness for each other.

and also i saw this tiny panel

it’s smol and like… at the back of a Very Important Haruka panel but this made me smile so much because this was the scene before Nagisa went to say “I’m really nervous!” all smiley at Haruka??? this implies that he was more nervous and worried but rin talked to him so he’s kinda more smiley after?? that’s such a cute small detail!!! also rin and nagisa are so touchy, i appreciate my cuddle buddies being on #brand.

i love nagirin so much ok

Teach Me

I decided to actually sit down and write a snowbaz fic after about two months of promising to try it. It’s sooooooo bad ngl. FLUFF

Simon wants to learn to play violin.


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We all know, but it never ceases to amaze me, just how much Hide means for Kaneki. How many times he’s been to one to push Kaneki forward. How many times he’s turned a sorrowful day into something brighter. He was the one to always trust him, always support him, always care about him. Hide wasn’t just someone who accepted Kaneki’s existence; he appreciated him, Kaneki ken, and loved him no matter what.

Romantic or platonic, I don’t think it matters much. But one can’t deny that what these two share is beautiful and deep.

I think we all remember that scene where Kaneki used his kagune for the first time to save Hide from Nishiki.

“The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. He who would be born, must first destroy a world.”

Just as people say, living is far more than just existing. For Kaneki, stuck between the desperate need for love and the doubt that he deserves it, existing was merely a wait until the moment when his desires would be fulfilled. But in that cycle of hope and fear there was no room for accepting the love people were already giving him, he just couldn’t see himself being loved.

But he still couldn’t give it up, and searching for a way to satisfy it his wish to be loved became a reason to die, rather than a reason to live. He became unable to see his own worth, deaf to his own voice that, deep down, wished to go on.

But now the world he used to live in, under a wish that only brought him closer to his end, has been destroyed. That world and his deadly wish have both been broken, through the voice of the one that’s saved him again and again by proving him that there’s a meaning in him being alive.

K’s egg, his world has been destroyed. What kind of new world has he been born into? What kind of meaning will he find in it? We can’t know for sure, but we do know that this world is one Kaneki has walked into by himself. This is a life- a true life that he has chosen to live from now on.

Because in the end, that “I wanted to live on with you” wasn’t said by Hide.

It’s what Kaneki thinks, and I’m glad he’s finally realised it himself.

I thought I would throw my favorite whump situation out there

I like it when they start out in a bad place, whether it be in a relationship or my main guy is just doing his best at hanging on as he is going through whatever the fuck he is going through…

AND THEN IT GETS WORSE. Maybe he gets hit by a car. Or maybe he gets hurt just doing his damn job. But he is being pushed to that ledge.

So obviously I like the whole emotional whump and then the dollop of physical whump that almost puts him over the edge. 

But then, at the end of it all, there’s a light. 

I guess what I am trying to say is that I love it when a character literally goes through hell and back just to make it out OK in the end. 

I think in the end it comforts me to know that maybe I will be OK too. 

Thought?

Finally found DOUBT. Now my bunny mask manga collection is complete.

I am bitter
And alone
I am bigger than the moon and sun
I have marks that stretch across the universe
With no help from you
I dance in the dark with you
But you still leave
I try to follow but I just end up
A fool
A filet’d fish still floundering
Yeah-
I wouldn’t like me either