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@mellorad encouraged me to and helped me set up my own streaming channel! In order to try it out, she got to request a drawing and wished for a Mustang waiting for a date with Elizabeth – I loved the idea (of course).
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  • Mahiru: Kuro, could you take out the trash?

anonymous asked:

IM GOING TO KEEP POKING YOU ABOUT AUTISTIC NESTA BC THOSE HEADCANONS WERE A M A Z I N G AND IM OBSESSED WITH THIS!!!!! Can you talk about autistic Nesta in the context of nessian though please bc I would love to hear your thoughts!!

Of course I can, friend! ^_^ This will be a weird blend of like…meta and headcanons it’s just a little stream of thoughts, basically? 

Okay first thing that I love especially in the context of this is the differences, socially, between Cassian and Nesta? (And also the ironies that come with this and how they were raised but I’ll get to that in a second.) I just..Love the gender role reversal for a start? 

Women tend to be the ones who are expected to have more social skills and be good at performing emotional labour in relationships. Men are typically allowed more leeway and it’s expected that they won’t be as good at reading other people and are generally seen as less compassionate and what have you. 

This, very obviously, gets flipped on its head when it comes to Nessian. Nesta is uncomfortable in social situations, prefers to be on her own, and when she is around people she can come off as a little…acerbic, sometimes. Like she loves them but dear god she does not have the patience to be around them all the time. Cassian on the other hand, is the picture of social intelligence. He’s described repeatedly as being deeply compassionate and it’s also made clear that he’s excellent at reading and understanding people and knowing how to respond to them. 

The ironies associated with this is that revolve around how they grew up. Think about it. Cassian, who’s so deeply connected to and good with people, grew up alone as an abandoned bastard. He was trained as a soldier and rose to be an army commander, all while having this huge heart and amount of social intelligence that means he’s more naturally suited to solving problems with his head rather than his fists. 

Then there’s Nesta, an autistic who probably wasn’t diagnosed as such in the human world (if they have a concept of autism in this world (let’s say they do)) But Nesta is a girl, and she’s a noble-born girl too, whose mother loved the parties and social life that being of this class afforded her. Nesta is expected to carry that on and be good at it as well and I can just imagine her struggling with it? The parties are too loud and too crowded and there are too many people and it honestly doesn’t matter how many lessons her mother gives her on social politics and etiquette; somehow she always, always manages to do something wrong. And she never understands exactly why or how it’s wrong. Just that when she tries to join in on the conversation everything goes quite. People give her that look. And her mother is standing staring on in disappointment from the corners. 

Multiply this over the course of several years and then introduce a sister like Elain, who is so obviously better at this than her, who gets praise from her mother and from all of her friends while Nesta is shunted to the side and I’m not surprised she gave up and started thinking of them all as ‘sycophantic fools’ instead. Nesta got fed up trying because no matter what she did it was never quite right, and never ever good enough, so she stopped.

 She stopped trying to be like them and she just started being herself instead. People still sometimes fell into awkward silences when she spoke but now she wasn’t disheartened by it, she’d expected it. She still pushed people away but she didn’t sit up late at night crying herself to sleep about it anymore. This was just the way that she was. This was just who she was. She wasn’t her mother, and she wasn’t Elain, either, even if she loved them both dearly. She was herself. And if they didn’t like that, well, she didn’t much like them, either, what did she care? 

And then Cassian and Nesta meet one another and it’s like two sides of the same coin being allowed to face and see each other for the first time. Cassian comes up against someone that he can’t always read, someone who operates a little differently to how he’s used to, someone who confuses him, keeps him guessing, someone he doesn’t automatically know everything about. A challenge. 

And Nesta…Nesta finds someone who actually tries. She finds someone who sees the surface her, that cold, withdrawn, acerbic air she somehow can’t help but project whenever she’s around people (and has long since stopped trying to help it - Elain accepts her for who she is, everyone else can too) but sees her too. He sees beneath to the raging heart, the torrent of fierce emotions they all accuse her of not having.

 She’s heard them whispering in the village, heard them call her heartless and unfeeling and they don’t understand. None of them understand just how deeply she feels, just how strong her heart is. And she tells herself that it’s their loss, their fault they’ll never truly know, never truly benefit from all the fierce love she has to give…But it does get lonely. 

Then he comes along and he sees her. He sees that fierce heart and those raging emotions and he understands. He’s so unlike her, in fact it’s probably difficult to find someone less like her than Cassian. Yet he understands her. 

For all their differences in how they see and interact with the world, though, they respond to it incredibly similarly. Cassian and Nesta have…A lot of the same motives and ideals and goals, actually. They stem from very different places and very different people but they are the same. 

That determination. That ability to sacrifice and destroy yourself for someone that you love. The way that Nesta would have died fighting Tamlin for Elain. The way that Cassian spreads his wings in front of Az to protect him from the king’s magic. The way that Nesta declares herself emissary to the human world because they are the forgotten, the group no-one cares about or seeks to help. But she will. The way Cassian stands before Nesta and swears to defend the humans with her, because dying to save those who cannot protect themselves is a worthy end for him. The way Nesta shields Cassian’s body with her own; as he had done for his brother all those months ago. The way Cassian sets himself up to die so that others will live. 

They are such different people but their hearts are alike and in spite of everything they understand each other

So I love that aspect of this dynamic, but I also love the fact that Cassian accepts and loves Nesta for who she is. Without expecting or wanting her to change, in a way that I don’t think anyone save Elain has ever truly done. (I’ve argued before but I’ll say it again, Elain also has a lot of social intelligence, like Cassian. She also grew up with Nesta and I think that she sees and understands her in a similar way to Cassian and this is one of the reasons that the two sisters are so close - that understanding) 

Cassian’s acceptance of Nesta is really important to me because I think it’s so easy to see a character like her and expect her to change. Expect her to soften herself so that she can more easily navigate the world. Expect her to thaw herself and become warmer and friendlier and more open because this is what’s expected of someone of her gender and class. Expect her to fit the moulds that she never has fit and likely never will, but it’s expected that she’ll shatter some intrinsic part of herself to do so. And in the context of this hc it’s even more important to me that Nesta is never forced to do that, is never forced to change, and is allowed to utterly be herself…and still be loved and worthy of love and a mate and a support circle in spite of all that. Because she doesn’t conform to society’s expectations, because she can’t conform to them. And that doesn’t matter. She is not broken, she does not need to be ‘fixed’, she only needs to be accepted. 

Okay, okay, last thing on this post (which got really long and out of hand, I have other autistic!Nesta/Nessian hcs on another post that someone asked for, smaller and less meta-y ones, so I’ll just post that as it is instead of forcing them in here) but one thing I really love in the context of this hc is, once they’re together, Cassian sort of…helping Nesta understand and navigate the social world around them. 

So Nesta talking to someone and saying something and the conversation ends a little abruptly and she can lean into Cass and ask him if that was okay or- Did she fuck up? How did she fuck up? And Cassian can either gently explain the social rules that have escaped her all her life if need be, or he can reassure her that no, she did good, that was fine, they’re just a prick. 

Or Cass can do what Feyre did for her at the dinner, and reassure her that people aren’t trying to hurt her all the time, sometimes they’re just teasing but they really do mean well. (But also Cassian having quiet words and asking people to stop that if it continues to bother her) and him like…Interpreting other people for her because jfc they’re exhausting, she has no idea what’s going on at all, she is Tired. 

Cassian understanding when Nesta can’t face the idea of a party or a big social gathering, even with his help, so they just stay in that night and snuggle and be together.  

Nesta using the mating bond between them to start learning Cassian’s tells. Because she can learn how to read people’s body language it’s just…like learning any other language because it’s not intrinsic or instinctive. So she can feel through the bond what he’s feeling and thinking, and start to learn how he looks when he’s angry or agitated or upset. Even if Cass tries to hide them from her, then…She knows. 

Cassian just…Helping Nesta to navigate the tangled minefield that is social interaction and working with her and supporting her instead of just sighing at her. Understanding that there are some things she genuinely can’t do because she processes the world differently to him and her brain is just wired differently.

Cassian being completely and utterly fascinated by this and wanting to learn all about it and exactly how it’s different and exactly what he should do to help and Nesta being…Shocked. Because people either turn their noses up at her and assume she’s trying to be rude or difficult, or they just try and beat the same lessons into her over and over again but Cass just…Okay but how do we make things work for you and how can I change a little to better accommodate you for a change and Nesta just…Being really, really touched that he’d do this for her.

Nesta growing more confident in herself and far, far less insecure around other people. She opens up a little more because she can be herself and be accepted and wanted for that. She doesn’t have to choose any more between being who she is, and keeping people around her. She can have both. Cassian helping her and supporting her into reaching that conclusion and refusing to allow her to expect any less from people just because of the way that she is. Cassian never, ever expecting Nesta to change herself this way because then, well, she really wouldn’t be Nesta. This is a part of who she is and he helps encourage her and others to accept that about her. 

  • Gruff men who get all soft and happy when they’re with you 
  • Big men with calloused hands who touch you like you’re something incredibly special 
  • Grumpy men who chuckle at your bad jokes 
  • Calm men who get protective and irrational and then pretend like they didn’t
  • Stoic men who look at you with gentle smiles on their face when you’re not looking at them with an expression that sort of says “I can’t believe she’s with me." 

Sonny in season 16

im-siriusly-over-this-rn  asked:

Okay so actual James Potter came into my work yesterday. I'm talking tall, fluffy hair, classes, jawline the whole shebang. My boss was like "he should cosplay as James Potter" and I was like "DUDE THATS WHAT I WAS THINKING". He was adorable and a dork and his name was Dave and I sold him a nice pair of shoes. But I'm telling you he looked exactly like James.

(( OOC: Send him to me. ))

The fact that Bakugou takes after his mom so much delights me.

I’m still nominating mama Midoriya as best mom tho gosh.

you guys. my dad bought a chainsaw. MY DAD. my seventy-four-year-old, jewish, five-six in his socks if he’s LUCKY, has never completed a household project more complicated than drilling a hole or sticking velcro to something, dad. a CHAINSAW. to cut down an actual dead tree. by himself.

thankfully, he realized that this was a TERRIBLE idea before trying it. so he went to return said chainsaw, prompting the following exchange at the hardware store:

salesperson: why are you returning this? did you use it?

my dad: no. i made it as far as the six sheets of paper with warnings on them.

salesperson: oh, you should never read those! it’s all california’s fault, they have to put warnings on everything.

salesperson, examining the chainsaw box: you couldn’t put it back right? look at this, i’m going to have to take it out again just to get it to fit!

my dad: if i couldn’t even operate the box properly, what chance did i have with the actual chainsaw?


Another Psych rewatch! - Episode 1x01 (Pilot).
“I’m Shawn Spencer, the psychic.”.

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  • Q: Do you have any discarded scenes/storylines/projects?

Nice one! I don’t have any discarded projects – everything is just in various stages of “not finished yet” – but yes, every once in a while, I do snip out a segment that’s just not working. I usually save it as a “[fic title] Cut” until I finish the story, just to make sure I don’t need to come back to it.

I usually delete them when the fic is done, but since I’m still working on so many fics, I actually have a few still in the “in progress” file at the moment. My favorite might well be one from Yancy’s fic, because I might just decide to stick it back in.

If you remember A Life Less Ordinary and its sequel, All the Bastards Here are Cold, I’ve always intended a finishing chapter to the trilogy from Yancy’s point of view about him recovering and the whole lot of them going on an unofficial mission to find out who ordered him to be “decommissioned” and scarpered off to the Kaiju Underground to be turned into one of their drone pilots.

In fact, I’ll just paste it in here, if anyone’s curious. Yancy’s voice gives me trouble because we don’t get to know him that well in the movie (and I don’t want him to sound like Raleigh because they’re brothers, but not the same person), but some day. SOME DAY. *shakes fists at sky*

Little preface: if you haven’t read the earlier stories, Yancy’s been in hospital care, paralyzed from the neck down, since the midair dogfight disaster six years before that everyone thought killed him. This is after it’s all come to light and the focus has shifted from just keeping him alive to maybe using some Kaiju Underground research, awful as it was, to help him.

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Jess Mariano’s life is a mess but he just keeps going.

anonymous asked:

Rereading SAL and I was wondering if you had plans to bring back that shadow-fighting technology that Jack came up with to blast the darkness? Pitch says something like "they could have used him"/he would've been an asset back on his home planet, and now that you're writing TGA (yay!!) I think it'd be neat if Jack ended up creating something similar. (Jack's snow by itself is supposed to bring false comfort to soothe the citizens of lune, but infused with light it becomes a real beacon of hope!)

I’ve been thinking about this a lot, actually.

I’m pretty sure the Light-infused snow will be a thing. But I’m not sure the actual ideas that Jack had in SAL re: North’s engineering will make a return. That’s partly because I don’t really want to do exactly the same thing twice, but also because…in TGA, North is an Engineer who is surrounded by Warriors who can make the Light; machinery that can interact with it already exists to a point.

And also partly that while SAL inspired TGA, the mythology isn’t connected. Kozmotis Pitchiner in SAL came from a genuine golden age. He didn’t live in a totalitarian society and he loved the Tsar, and the Tsar was a good guy. That, alone, radically changes everyting about the society that Pitch Black in SAL came from. The Darkness was never as overwhelming or evil - it was entirely possible back then to capture all of it and put it in a single tower/box. That’s impossible in the TGA world. The Golden Warriors in TGA have been trying to think of different ways to make Light etc. for a long time now.

So like…yeah some things will appear, but some things won’t appear. Also there’s things coming up that will really impact Jack’s standing with the people of Lune. e.e *waves vaguely towards the storyline and mumbles something about spoilers*