i'm always more inspired to make something for a character after something like that

anonymous asked:

Pls share any thoughts you might have on Barry Allen (you always have such wonderful thoughts about every character and amazing grasps on their characters and poor Barry has been falling victim to mischaracterisation at every turn for the past eight years)

he calms me down. superman symbolizes the good people can achieve and be even in their darkest moments but flash makes me feel that people are already good, in a way? he’s like the exact opposite of an anxiety attack where everything looks scary but the silly kind of scary where you know it’s all just in your head. he’s the guy who doesn’t get fazed by something you thought was the end of the world so you catch yourself thinking “hey? hey. this isn’t bad. yeah this isn’t bad”

he brings so much positivity to the table and it’s not the annoying kind, it’s the “i can make the day better” in a very chill, matter-of-fact tone, which could so easily sidetrack his character and make him be a bit faster than life, yet he cares and will go out of his way to slow down just to show it. he’s so genuinely kind and that’s only multiplied by the flash family who are, to date, one of the most lovable families the dcu has had on such a big, extended-members basis

every flash is so laid back in their own way, but the reason i consider barry “my” flash is because i always found a hint of something more in his character. i can see the sacrifices he’s had to make in the way he carries himself but i can also see the crystal clear acknowledgement that he’s one of the very, very few people who hold the power to change the tides so monstrously. so he accepts it. he accepts that responsibility. he more than readily accepted it when he very first got his powers because he knew he was now the only person who could finally find his mother’s real killer and drop his dad’s charges; he accepted it when he tried to keep his mother from dying in the first place just to have the entire timeline completely turn around because of his actions. and instead of being okay with this new reality, instead of turning a blind eye which was so much easier to do than to actively try and do his duty (and possibly die in the process), he did what was right for literally everyone else except for him and lost her all over again so things could be the way they were

he’s so invested. it’s the only appropriate word i can use to describe him. you can see how much he inspired everyone who met him just by the legacy he left after his death, by how the other heroes talked about him in near reverence. the respect they had for all he had attained, how they held him as the gold standard for others to achieve (not just the justice league but the entire world). he’s had one of the most heroic deaths in Crisis on Infinite Earths, one of his last few words literally being “there is always hope” even as he was willingly getting torn apart to save everyone he loved and knew, and the people he’d never met or would likely ever meet. why? because he could. so he did

the reason i began by putting clark and barry side by side is because i consider clark to be one of the most human characters in the entire dcu and yet barry still has something more, however small the difference might be. he’s in every sense of the word a real hero and a genuinely good human being

lazilydeepcoffee  asked:

(please bear with me) Okay, so, I'm a 15 year old freshman in highschool, and I've wanting to create some sort of series, whether it be a comic, or something else for a few years. I haven't too serious about it, but after one my of my friends showed me your video, for some reason, i was especially inspired. Now, I already have one character... but that's all i got. How did you come up with the things in your film? And did you ever experience "writer's block"? and if so, how did you deal with it?

No worries dude!  So okay, I’m gonna’ be honest, when I read this, I was hit with such a weird mix of, like, “god this is literally impossible to answer”, and “man I remember feeling that way when I was 15″.  So I guess the best thing I could do is elaborate.

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anonymous asked:

I just realised that Ouma probably died while thinking that Saihara would be happier seeing Momota alive instead of him. And I just. I'm sorry okay.

I’ve often thought about the fact that pretty much every character in Chapter 5 is much more appalled at the idea of Momota being the one under the press than Ouma. It’s something that’s sort of vaguely touched on—“Ouma” in the Exisal, likely according to script, does have a few tongue-in-cheek remarks about the fact that everyone would probably much rather him be dead than Momota.

But it’s still something that’s not ever really fully touched on. Even at the very end in the post-trial, when everyone finally knows the whole truth of the catbox and sees Momota alive and well with their own two eyes, there’s sort of a distinct absence of grief over the general loss of human life.

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Fear Grips Gotham - Scarecrow’s Batman ’66 Origin

I’ve noticed that the ‘66 version of Scarecrow’s origin is rarely talked about, and perhaps disliked by some. I decided that it would be interesting to analyze the story because I enjoyed it quite a lot, and I believe others would too. This post is dedicated to @canadian-riddler​, one of the few fans of this particular origin.


The comic starts off with Batman and Robin responding to a crime in progress, a bank robbery to be specific. They catch a glimpse of a shady figure leaving the scene and run after him only to be face-to-face with the Scarecrow! He promptly sprays the duo with a crazy looking nerf-inspired gun that sports a pumpkin at the end of it’s barrel. (and I love the design, it’s so outlandish and silly, but it fits perfectly within the universe)

Fear Toxin fills the immediate area and the two are exposed to their worst nightmares. For Robin, it’s a demonic version of Batman mocking him and his failures. Batman, on the other hand is transformed into a child and has to revisit the untimely death of his parents, knowing there’s nothing he can do to prevent it.  The scene is really well illustrated, and captures their over dramatic use of emotion that the ‘66 comics are known for.

Once the two come out of their daze, a straw clad note informs them of Scarecrow’s plans. “In three days the whole city will come to fear the Scarecrow!” They leave to the batcave to examine trace chemicals left on their clothing. As it turns out, the toxin is so strong that it effects you upon skin contact, thus making filters useless. I always liked this idea, because it makes the toxin seem deadlier and more threatening. After some analysis, they head off to the source of the compound, a small town in the appellation mountains.

Since no exact location is ever stated in the comic, you could easily imagine this happening anywhere within the mountain range, even Georgia is an option for those who are fans of Year One. This feels like a good choice on the part of the writers, even the town of Jitters Holler is completely fictitious. Moving on though, our dynamic due come across the Cobbletoes, who are happy to answer any questions about the surrounding area’s soil.

Admittedly this part of the story plays on several clichés, plus the dialogue and character designs could be seen as a little racist, but I’m not here to debate that. It’s just worth mentioning, and the scene only lasts long enough to inform the reader on Crane’s backstory in this universe. Turns out the issue with the crops comes from an old mineral spring located on the Crane land. With the place now abandoned, we learn that the mansion on the property (which looks suspiciously similar to the Keeny manor) used to be a boarding house, and the family sold moonshine on the side.

Scarecrow’s backstory is depressing as usual, and echoes year one in a lot of ways. As the tale goes, one of the boarders left overnight never to be seen again. She abandoned her newborn child and the Cranes cared for him in her absence, that baby was Jonathan. It’s not brought up in the comic, but I like to imagine that he never knew his mother or what became of her, and only took the Crane name out of necessity. Of course, what Scarecrow origin would be complete with a bully? This time around it’s the son of Miss Crane, Zeke, who who terrifies young Jonathan by chasing him with a huge scarecrow.

Crane leaves Jitters Holler, heading for (presumably) Gotham University as he had earned himself several scholarships. The Cobbletoes never see him again, which is why they were surprised when Jonathan showed up one day a few months back, only to collect -something- from the shed and leave. Strangely enough, Zeke was parallelized with fear after his visit, and had to be hospitalized. (it’s heavily implied that this was due to fear toxin)

Back in Gotham Scarecrow is spreading fear like wildfire. I hate to be purposefully vague here, but I think this story is worth reading just for this ending. You’ll be be treated to scarecrow’s poetic monologuing as he rides a horse drawn carriage down the streets of Gotham. (it’s a staple of this aesthetic and I love that they included here)  Using the crazy nerf gun from before, he sends his victims running for the hills. However, things skid to a halt when a vision of horror appears before Crane, could the toxin be affecting him too?

It’s the same scarecrow that haunted him in his childhood, puppeteered by Zeke. Slowly succumbing to fear and unable to resist it any longer, Jonathan faints and collapses in fetal position, he’s clearly broken. This one scene makes the whole comic for me, and I implore anyone interested to check out the issue. In keeping true to the eccentric storytelling of Batman ‘66, the scarecrow and Zeke were simply the dynamic due in a costume. Something different and original, I happily welcome the idea. The comic ends with Jonathan under the care of Huge Strange. Considering their history together in other universes…this can’t end well.

anonymous asked:

What do you imagine for Julian's most embarrassing moments? I'm thinking of writing a fic with all of the characters most humiliating experiences and how each one could add to them as characters, but Julian has me stumped (so does Caitlin, honestly, but I have a few ideas for her.) I'm doing childhood, teen years, and adulthood for each of them so far, but anything that might help me think of something I appreciate! (I won't steal your ideas, just looking for inspiration and generally curious)

First, I’m sorry it took me ages to answer your ask dear anon. If it’s any comfort, I did spend the whole day zoning out and thinking about it. I encourage you guys to use any idea I’m posting, this fandom is like one big happy family and seeing that someone likes one of my ideas enough to include it in their stories gives me life!! (I’d love to read your work once it’s finished! I’m always here if you need to bounce ideas off.) 


I have a very specific headcanon about Julian’s old traumas therefore what could’ve embarassed him, get ready for a long and angsty trip, love!


When we first meet Julian Albert, we discover a brilliant snarky man who’d rather work alone, has no faith in His coworker and so obviously puts up a tough front whenever he interracts with people. All in all everything about Julian screams TRUST ISSUES.

What on earth could possibly cause a wealthy kid to mistrust people ?

The answer is simple: Being used. Over and over again.

To answer your question, Julian’s most embarassing moment as a child probably wasn’t about being publicly humiliated but more about the deep and sudden realization that he didn’t fit, that kids only befriended him when they wanted something from him. Overhearing your friends say that they only tolerate you so you’d do their homework would do that to you too.

Being the smart kid he was, Julian quickly found a solution, he preferred to be alone anyway.

Growing up, not allowing anyone to use him for his intelligence became a second nature and soon he was off to college, a place full of brilliant minds like him. A place where being smart didn’t paint a bull’s eye on his back.

He was still new to the whole making friends concept but he’d lie if he said he didn’t enjoy it. Meeting people as passionnate for science as he was had thrilled him, for the first time he felt understood. Safe.

Soon enough Julian couldn’t count how many friends he had, he’d go out with a new group almost every night. Friends even complained about not seeing him enough and the best part was that no one asked him to help on science projects or figure out a difficult formula for them. All they wanted was to have fun with him.

It was a call from his bank that made him realize he’d spent a fortune that month. He wasn’t aware how expensive all those drinks, gifts, clothes and tickets he’d paid for truly were. Acting responsible, the following night resulted in all his friends leaving him at the party and as if it wasn’t clear enough the only one that kept him compagny was trying to convince him that someone as rich as him should learn to loosen up and share for once. He had been used again. Second most humiliating moment.

If Julian had been foolish enough to think people could only use him in one way, he didn’t make that mistake again. He  cut ties with the other students and burried himself under work until he graduated with honors and left for good.

Emma’s death had devastated everyone but Julian was a wreck. His sister had meant the world to him. Seeing her again, months after the funeral had bereft him of logic.

Stones, research and expeditions, he’d done anything to get her back but he woke up in his hotel room instead, pictures of his dead team-mates on every local news channel. Fear, panic and guilt had washed over him, knowing that being the only one spared, he’d make the ideal culprit. It was probably a trap, one he had so willingly stepped in. He had been used again, in the most literal sense of the term this time, used body and mind. How ? There was so much he didn’t understand. Who would even believe him when he could hardly believe it himself? There it was, the third most humiliating moment of his life, laced with so much fear that he’d barely recognized the feeling.

Being used had by then become Julian’s biggest fear.

Meeting Barry Allen reminded him of every single person he wanted to get along with only to end up as a tool in their hands. The job not done, the half arsed excuses, the honest to god promise to get things done later and the big pleased smile when Julian would offer to do it instead.

He has somehow ended up with a team, a respectable one at that, trying to amend for his mistakes but Julian Albert wasn’t done being used.

If We Were A Movie (Seventeen Preference)
  • AN: this was probably one of the best requests of all time, I felt so so inspired by it and I hope you guys like it to. I'm seriously thinking about turning this into a whole serious, where each of these is a boy x reader oneshot so pls lemme know what you think of that idea? <3
  • S.Coups/Seungcheol: The Classic High School AU
  • We all know that our boy Coups would slay as the classic high school heart throb. Nobody would fit the part better than him. He is the meaning of after school football practices and making cheerleaders' panties drop with a wink and a smile. He also has the heart and the smarts underneath his muscles and good looks to bring dimension to his movie character that would surprise the protagonist in the best way and make you fall in love. (I mean, who wouldn't fall in love with him, anyway?) Not only does his character fit seamlessly into this AU/genre, but he embodies the genre itself. The cheesy romance bits of the plot, the corny jokes, and the underlying message to never give up on your dreams that always acts like a big brother to the viewing teens, just like Seungcheol does. He is the classic high school movie - a perfect way to settle into the movie marathon.
  • Jeonghan: Pre-Millennial Crime Thriller
  • That sounds like a very complicated title, but our Jeonghan is a very complicated and beautiful man. At first I wanted to call this one "1920's Mob Film", but I felt that was far too narrow. Mostly because crime dramas set in the 1960's and 70's are becoming very popular and Jeonghan fits that style very well along with the 1920's. So I believe this beauty would fit perfectly into any crime or mob movie set before the turn of the millennium. Mainly during the 1920's, 30's, or the 50's and 60's. His hair was just meant to be tucked neatly under a fedora and paired with a sharp suit that would have all his enemies shaking in their boots the moment they saw him coming. Because yes, he does have that beautiful, angelic face, but I feel that's what would make him the perfect crime boss. He would be the devil hiding in the angel's armour. Nobody would expect it from him until just a few moments before their tragic death. Slowly, over time, they would learn to fear this beautiful man, understand that this was his town and this angel was playing God not because he deserved it, but because he wanted it. I just feel like he's the human embodiment of soft music box music playing in the background of a murder scene during a movie like this, and I love it.
  • Joshua/Jisoo: Zombie Apocalypse
  • Joshua would be the Glenn of a Seventeen zombie apocalypse. (And because Glenn is my all time favourite character of everything I paired little Jisoo with the genre.) He'd be the good guy who survives strictly because he is good to others, and somehow manages to maintain his purity and morality even when the world goes to shit. That would be the best thing about him. He'd believe that others are still good and he'd high uphold the belief that no one should get left behind. He would be the guy who would often almost get killed trying to save other people. He wouldn't actually have many apocalypse survival skills, but his kind nature would find him with people to save his ass over and over again, no matter what trouble they had to go through doing so. Most would think that a badass type of person would embody the zombie genre, but I really think someone like Jisoo is it. He has the heart warming arch of the story, the loveable characters (you know, the ones you really, really don't want to die but probably get treated like shit anyway), and somewhere deep inside him he probably has the really dark parts that any good zombie movie has. But really he's probably more of a zombie comedy like Zombieland or Dead Before Dawn.
  • Jun: Vampire
  • Jun being the vampire genre is about as certain as the sun rising in the morning. He's a vampire through and through. But I believe he's his own breed of vampire. Not a classic, brooding dark creature of the night like Dracula, or a modern emotional sparkly lover like Edward, but a mix of sexual, adorable, funny, sassy, and something still very human that would make his vampire easily a romantic comedy or teen movie. He'd be the type to go around telling people he's a vampire, almost trying to scare them, and no one would believe him because he just doesn't seem like the type. And he'd drink blood out of those girly reusable athletic cups with straws in public, with no one actually knowing it's blood. He would be a lot like the vampires from My Babysitter's A Vampire, but with a twist of sexuality, and something a little more brooding. Because deep down he has realized his curse - being stuck between death and life for an eternity and having to kill to stay strong - and accepted it. He would just be the perfect main character, as well as the fact that he just embodies every aspect of every kind of vampire that has been portrayed on screen before.
  • Hoshi/Soonyoung: Summer Adventure/Feel Good Flick
  • Some of my all time favourite kinds of movies are the feel good summer movies about teens going on adventures and making some kind of growing leap or major character development over that summer. Like Now and Then, Whip It, The Sandlot, or the Goonies (which yes, I know that one was set in the fall). I feel like the spirit of these kind of movies also embodies a lot of music videos, like SHINee's View, which I really love. Hoshi himself is perfect for this kind of movie because he is a feel good summer adventure in human form. He's all the happiness and bright parts, all the interesting dips and turns in the plot that really keep the movie going. He's all the road trips, all the eating snacks out of crappy gas stations, sleepovers in rickety tree houses, bon fires on the beach, the best kind of montages to a great summer song (maybe Adore U?). Overall he's just a happy, bright little puppy that makes you feel really happy and bright like a great summer vacation and a great summer movie.
  • Wonwoo: Werewolf
  • As much as Wonwoo could be the ultimate emo vampire as well, I believe that his darkness can be channeled into hairy beast of the full moon. I was torn between him and Coups for this genre, but ultimately moody with a touch of puppy cuteness won out over heartthrob. I also feel that he has the mature side of a werewolf thriller or romance, and the silly side for when the genre is targeted toward a younger audience, like the show Teen Wolf (which I love, all time fav). And I mean he's just dreamy, and doesn't everybody have some weird werewolf kinky deep down?
  • Woozi/Jihoon: Magical Fantasy Land
  • My first thought with this one is Harry Potter. Woozi would be the perfect little pastel unicorn prince, slaying enemies with spells and making them bow down just with his cuteness alone. Even if it wasn't specifically Harry Potter, maybe it would be an Alice in Wonderland or Narnia, any magical fantasy would fit his personality and looks perfectly. The adorable shell with a serious, take charge and save the world undertone would belong there and make him the leader of the group or in any position of royalty if there was one - especially if there was some kind of magical "chosen one", he'd be it. Him just generally being ethereal, wise, and talented embodies this genre and if he was in a movie like this I'd watch it over and over again.
  • DK/Seokmin: Superhero Standby
  • There's nothing better than a good, classic superhero movie. Even the ones that are being made and coming out in 2015 seem to have all the classic elements to them, and that's what makes them so easy to love. Just like DK - he's a very classic kind of guy. Classic looks, classic humor, appears very easy going and easy to be around. That's why he would fit perfectly into the world of any classic DC or Marvel superhero (personally I'd go for DC, but that's just my preference). He could slip seamlessly into the role of ordinary citizen by day, and tall, handsome, muscled city saviour by night. His hero would be charismatic, loved by all, and not only treat the citizens as victims, but as everyday people that he loved and cared for. And if we really wanted to stir things up in this genre, DK wouldn't be the hero - he could be the shy, polite damsel in distress to our heroic female protagonist. Either way, Seokmin as a person has all the qualities of this genre - the humor, the drama, the energy, and the overall childish glamour that draws us all to loving superheroes and their adventures.
  • Mingyu: Low Budget Indie/Grunge Film
  • This is a very specific style of film-making, rather than a genre, that Mingyu (especially with his gorgeous silver hair) would fit into so brilliantly. There is a bit of cross-over between this and feel good summer movies, with movies like The Kings of Summer or Moonrise Kingdom, but the more unique thing I find about this genre is that the subject matter of these movies (mostly) is a lot darker. Usually of the nature of drug use and sex and abusive relationships. And what would our happy little Mingyu have to do with movies like this? It's really more about his aesthetic. Movies like this are all about aesthetic - there's entirely blogs dedicated to grunge, and a lot of movie screen caps end up on there - and his looks fit in perfectly. The sharply chiseled jaw, dark, smoky eyes, built form, and most of all, the silvery hair that really says grunge king. That and in my opinion, in the setting of one of these movies, he could turn on a dime from happy-go-lucky into the mystery, badass, soul punk that the story calls for. With an outfit change he could slip right into the world of a movie like How I Live Now, Hick, The Basketball Diaries, or a show like Freaks and Geeks.
  • The8/Minghao: Something Supernatural
  • One of the genres I definitely wanted to use was a supernatural one. Seemingly ordinary people having extraordinary powers (like the movie Push), demons and angels living in the suburbs, basically anything that would be the everyday plot of an anime. In this world, Minghao would be perfect in the role of the protagonist's best friend, the one who undoubtedly panics when he finds out what's really lurking in his world. But the protagonist would have nowhere else to go, no one else to turn to, possibly running from the government because of your abnormality, and you knew that Minghao would have your back. So you told him, disclosed to him all the freaky shit that goes on just under his nose, and at first he'd freak out. He'd deny it, he wouldn't really be able to cope. But then his heart would be right there in it. He would protect you no matter what, until his dying breath, doing anything to make sure you were safe. He would be the air of lightness, innocence, and maybe even comic relief that this genre needs.
  • Seungkwan and Vernon: Buddy Cop Movie
  • I know it might seem a little cheap to have two of them under the same genre, but you can't tell me these two wouldn't be the perfect pair of buddy cops. Just like Starsky and Hutch or the girls from The Heat, they'd have the perfect combination of bickering and die hard friendship to make their movie interesting and heartwarming. Seungkwan would be the paper work minded, rule driven, uptight cop that would be 100% about justice and putting the bad guy away, but doing it right. He would probably have some cheesy sap story from when he was a child about why he wanted to join the force in the first place that Vernon would brush off, but it would really get him in the gut. Vernon himself would be more of a dirty cop. He'd have more of a skewed idea of justice, but he'd get his bad guy no matter what it took. He would also be one to make jokes and ignore his paper work and this would bug the hell out of Seungkwan to no end. Together they would be the perfect cops, always get their man (or woman), and have a few laughs along the way. (Personally I would kill for this movie but that's just me.)
  • Dino/Chan: A Chosen One Story
  • This is the Divergent, Maze Runner, or maybe even Hunger Games type of story. Even though stories like this can vary drastically in their setting and details of plot, they usually do have a lot of aspects in common. Dino has all the traits of a protagonist in this kind of story; being young and uncertain, but having a great, strong heart and likely being able to overcome whatever is thrown at him with a smile. Even if he himself wasn't the Chosen One, he would make a great supporting character/best friend to the protagonist. I'm not really sure how else to go about explaining this, but Chan would be such a great character in a movie or even a series like this.
"Cusps"
  • Please Note - You only have ONE Sun sign, but being born at a very late or early degree gives you influences of the sign before/after resulting in the "cusp". I'm getting a lot of asks about them so I'm just going to put some mini-descriptions here for all of you.
  • Pisces/Aries: You try your best to be straightforward. You try to make sure that what you say is what you mean. You can be frequently misunderstood. Intuitive - your hunches are usually correct. You find it very difficult to deal with failure. Generous
  • Aries/Taurus: Powerful yet lazy. May be obsessed with personal power. You exert your authority without arousing antagonism. persuasive, when people meet you, you may come across as quiet and unassuming. You’re a fighter and feel an enormous amount of responsibility, but secretly long to just submit to the pleasures of life. You can be extremely giving when you find the other person deserving. Biggest struggle for you is finding the true definition of unconditional love.
  • Taurus/Gemini: Versatile, hasty. May come on too strong but still charming & magnetic. People either love you or don’t. May silently insist on being the centre of attention. Curious & purposeful . Introspection and soul searching is not really your forte but would be great for self development. Organised yet chaotic.
  • Gemini/Cancer: Lives for experience, falls in love with life. Wants to experience to world. Very affectionate. Loves Romance. Inspirational. Seductive and easily seduced. Charming and calm. Must be careful of isolation due to living in a dream world. Escapist. Give their hearts fully.
  • Cancer/Leo: Moody, volatile emotions, unstable. May seek stability but when offered it they want change. Not uncommon for those born on this cusp to travel or even change addresses a lot. Generally men are quite feminine, women more masculine. Compassionate, understanding. Risk taking, has a strong sense of morals. Exciting. Fun.
  • Leo/Virgo: Secretive & unassuming. Very observant and can make good judgers of character. Some seem overly exhibitionistic, others overly quiet (generally those to the Leo side are the former, those to the Virgo side, the latter). Can be emotionally immature. Trust is a very big issue for those born on this cusp. Intuitive and practical.
  • Virgo/Libra: Tend to be sensuous & beauty loving. Unsettled, almost nervous. They like being up-to-date. Biggest challenge is focusing on spiritual matters. May be very humble but still get lost in material matters. Avoids unpleasant matters. Loves having very close friends.
  • Libra/Scorpio: Very magnetic. Prone to jealousy. Charismatic. Addictive tendencies. Dominating. Often at war with their heart and their head. Sharp wit. Insightful and clever. Can be overly critical. Very protective of loved ones. Unpredictable. Sensuous. Passionate.
  • Scorpio/Sagittarius: Freedom loving, but also love their families. If they’re family life wasn’t the best, they love the idea of creating their own - this doesn’t necessarily mean they want children, they want someone to love and to be loved back. Goal oriented. Often thinks about plans for the future. Often tries to solve others problems. Extreme, they are very all or nothing. Laughter is extremely important to their lives, if they aren’t laughing often something is wrong. Strong sense of morals.
  • Sagittarius/Capricorn: Contradictory. On one hand very optimistic on the other realistic. Overly serious but can also be overly joyful. Must find balance between these aspects of their personality. You don’t talk for the sake of talking. You do not need the approval of others and do not actively seek to be liked. This is good because it allows you you to be yourself, but bad because you may be unwilling to take advice. You do best with a best friend, or very close relationships, not large groups.
  • Capricorn/Aquarius: Exciting. Must be careful of burnout. Chaotic. Light-hearted & easy going. Fun-loving. Often have controversial opinions. They definitely aren't all talk. They do what they say (usually they like helping the downtrodden). Wild. Moody. Addictive, they have a dark side. Strong fantasy life. They love humor. Believe people should be hardworking (even over beauty & intelligence). Will judge those that aren't.
  • Aquarius/Pisces: Sensitive, concerned with the universal. Aims high. They must beware of isolation. Very caring. Often insecure. Fighters. They are always pursuing something whether it is outwardly or inwardly. May be overly attached to family, must learn to become their own person. Armoured, must learn to be more vulnerable. Kind. Caring.
Ways to Cheer Yourself Up (When wanting to be alone) - 50 top things to do
  • 1. Go ON Tumblr, believe it or not, we don't care where you're from, what you do, how you're being you, as long as you are being you, you're pretty much welcomed on here. That's why i love it. Unless of course you are homophobic or judgemental or ignorant - then the people will speak for themselves, we look out for each other here.
  • 2. Read Books; escapism is a wonderful thing
  • 3. Listen to music; and no - not the sad, 'ALL BY MYSELF' type music, but the kickass songs like 'I will Survive' or 'Loser Like Me' just celebrate yourself for being awesome, because we know you are; even if others don't; especially then actually.
  • 4. Become your own superhero. Every single one of you have a talent or a dream. Follow up on that talent/dream. YOU ARE WORTH IT, and you can be whoever you want to be.
  • 5. DISNEY MOVIES. Unless you absolutely hate bursting out into song - better cut of highschool musical and glee while were at this, then Disney is the best pick me up ever.
  • 6. Watch your favourite TV shows. Remind yourself why life can be awesome. Watching your fav characters usually means you can relate to them.
  • 7. Go on walks - it's very pretty outside, and sometimes our heads can be overloaded with information or stress, I advise calming music and a nice walk outside in comfortable clothes.
  • 8. Have a diary. A friend of mine recently bought me one, and it's a godsend because all the anger, or emotions I feel, I try to put in the diary rather than putting it out on others. It also calms you down. I feel better when I write.
  • 9. Speaking of writing...if you enjoy it- WRITE. Writing is a wonderful way to escape. You can put all your emotions into your characters and they just come to life. I tend to do that when I'm stressed.
  • 10. If writing is not your thing then bake. I've actually ironically read in a fan fiction where a character would bake when stressed and try out new recipes, this character tried making butterbeer; maybe be adventurous; have a food blog or something to keep you occupied.
  • 11. Be With Your Pets - Pets are loyal creatures, and they love you, even when you're being a pain in the ass, and I hear they're very good listeners.
  • 12. Now I don't know about you, but I LOVE Musicals. If you are a musical fanatic like me and you're feeling a little down, my dears; listen to those awesome voices, because sometimes we just - need - a break (Also, if you haven't watched RENT, watch it - NODAYBUT TODAY...or Starkid...Starkid make the most funniest musical parodies, even if you don't like musicals I suggest it, and if you're not enjoying their YouTube Channel, then I'll eat my own hat).
  • 13. ASK ME ANYTHING. If you really want to talk to somebody but you don't want to talk to people you know and you just want to get things out, my ASK box is always open.
  • 14. Find a hobby. If you don't really want to talk to anybody, that's okay, sometimes we need to just have some 'me time'. In my me times, I usually deactivate from Facebook, and just focus on things that make me happy. Like; Puzzles, Sudoku, Games, writing, cooking, singing, whatever it is...travelling even. Enjoy yourself.
  • 15. Travel. Maybe being stuck in the same place is the problem, maybe you're head wants to be in a place where it can ACTUALLY THINK.
  • 16. Go Hiking. I suppose Hiking is similar to walking but if you're an outdoor person, this is a great way to clear your head and to feel fresh.
  • 17. Hit The Gym. Or even do your own exercises. I like to walk - do crunches, and I love Zumba. I love dancing. If you love being active, this is also another way to clear your mind from negative things.
  • 18. GO SEE A MOVIE!!! When was the last time you had fun? Even if it's just by yourself. You're allowed to treat yourself. Go, enjoy, be surrounded by people, even if they're strangers.
  • 19. If you like coffee, treat yourself for one at a local cafe. Who knows, you might meet your coffee soulmate in a cafe one day.
  • 20. STOP thinking Negative. Have a Pros/Cons List. Try not to outweight the Pros list with the Cons. Please?
  • You are good enough.
  • 21. Write down a bucket List, and start ticking them off. Having goals and dreams is healthy. If you have dreams, then you have a direction of where you're going.
  • 22. Get help. It's okay, if you're head is in a really bad place to reach out to people. It really is okay.
  • 23. Help others. If you're not sure what to do with yourself at all, be useful to other people less fortunate than you. Volunteer! Work with Charity, Feed the homeless, help the guide dogs association.
  • 24. Smile more. It looks good on you, believe me. Spend time with your guilty pleasures, my guilty pleasure is binge watching glee
  • 25. Please DO NOT go to a pub to drink to ease your mind, if you are going to do that, do it with a friend, or somebody close.
  • 26. Eat Chocolate. Okay yes while society says NO DON'T EAT THE FATTY FOOD. Hey; screw them. If you feel better eating a bit of junk go for it. There's nothing wrong with eating a whole pizza or tub of ben and jerry ice cream when feeling upset - just try not to make TOO much of a habit : p
  • 27. REBLOG YOUR FOLLOWERS POSTS, you might be surprised that you aren't the only one feeling the way you're feeling, you might be surprised by how much you're forgetting that hey - it's gonna be alright.
  • 28. Do something nice for your neighbour. Ah who knows, have you ever actually talked to them? Maybe they might be lonely too.
  • 29. Have a GAMES Night. A very good friend of mine loves Games. If You LOVE Games, then hell have a marathon of them. Play the sims, be in control.
  • 30. Speaking of marathons...dun dun dun - MOVIE MARATHON, I Don't Know About You Guys, But Having A Harry Potter Movie Marathon always cheers me Up. WITH FOOD Of course, and good company, but this is about cheering yourself up, so if you don't want company, that's okay.
  • 31. Draw. I love drawing too. I suppose I'm more of the creative person. There are a lot of different types of people out there, maybe you like solving things - do those fancy cube things Idk what they're called. If you are like my brother and you love Maths, then maybe you can tutor someone. On one hand you're helping someone, and doing something you like doing, just like I'm drawing because I like drawing.
  • 32.Be with kids. believe it or not, kids are the most innocent little munchkins, and they honestly don't care what you look like, if you play hide and seek with them they'll be thrilled, so long as you're nice to them, they're generally nice to you... but be warned, they tell it how it is too. I talk a bit different. The most popular thing they've said to me was "Is that why you talk funny, because of the things in your teeth?" (They've also never really seen braces before) I even had one kid determined to get me to sing 'Everything is awesome' I'll never forget that because this kid clearly didn't care how I sounded, and just wanted me to sing with her. I felt great.
  • 33. If you're into Fairy Tales, Please Please Read Chris Colfer's The Land Of Stories series 1-4. It's an amazing series, and you almost forget what world you're in once you start reading. Plus, there's more coming (I'm a little excited)
  • 34. Watch Pixar Movies. You can't go wrong.
  • 35. GO TO HOGWARTS. Harry Potter Fan? Visit - Platform 9 3/4s in London, or go to the Harry Potter World, or if you can't actually visit these sites, go on Pottermore.
  • 36. Read Fan Fiction, you might not be a harry potter fan, but whatever fandom you are in, believe me sometimes Fan Fictfion Cheer me up. I adore Glee *Don't Judge Me* and Dalton is the best thing ever. Or Little Numbers...or Both. They cheer me up big time.
  • 37. Role play. If you like superheroes or characters, go be with the crowd. I believe they have events like Comic Con, and on Facebook they even have Events for such things, go be with strangers! So long as it's safe of course.
  • 38. Write a letter to the person who inspires you most and send it. You might be surprised by an answer.
  • 39. Pick up your instrument. Don't ignore your musical talent if you do have a musical talent. Remember, you're worth it. I don't care what you've done. Pick, It Up.
  • 40. Maybe go visit your family? I know this is about 'quality me time' but if you haven't seen your family in such a long time or are at a distance. Maybe being surrounded by something familiar is what you need.
  • 41. Change Careers. If you're not enjoying what you're doing or studying, change it. I remember in highschool a teacher said you might change your job 10 - 12 times before getting it right. It'okay, you just haven't found where you're meant to be yet.
  • 42. Enter a competition - Who knows what will come from it, take risks.
  • 43. If you're a risk-taker, challenge yourself. IDK how you're going to do that, but google has some pretty good answers. Even ask your tumblr followers, they follow you for a reason after all.
  • 44. Go on a boat. Go Fishing! I don't know, it's not my thing, but if you like fishing, then hell - go out there and fish.
  • 45. Find time for yourself, are you working too much? Maybe you are working too much. You know life doesn't stop for nobody, and if you keep pushing yourself so hard, time will go so fast and you won't realise how much of that time you could have spent on your own self.
  • The world is not going to end if you treat yourself.
  • 46. You ARE Good Enough. Listen to my words. Sometimes encouragement is all we need, when people feel hopeless, or like everything's gone wrong. It's gonna be okay. I promise, just hang in there.
  • 47. Write Down Quotes that Inspire You. I have a wall of these, and of people that inspire me too, and it reminds me of the good things in life when I'm in a crappy mood.
  • 48. Find something to do. If you're not doing anything, go take up a course, research things that interest you, you might be surprised by what comes from it. Join a community that enjoys doing things you do.
  • 49. Go To The Beach - If you live in Australia like me, visiting the beach is actually really calming and me and my best friend always would go on a random drive, and drive up to a beach or a look out, and it was always calming. Enchanting too sometimes. Maybe we forget about the place we live in, and what's exciting about the place. If you're in New York, visit Broadway or The Statue Of Liberty, or if you're in London, go to the London Bridge, or the Eye, visit the Eiffel Tower if you're in Paris...just go Anywhere.
  • 50. Take a random journey. Go on a train to somewhere new, go on a road trip. You never know what's around the corner.
Wrathia isn’t telling the whole truth about her past.

Given that we’ve still got a good month or two before the return of Ava’s Demon updates, I’ve been talking about the comic with a few close friends of mine, predictions, checking out concept art, and pretty much having a fun time making theories, regardless of how plausible they may be. But I think I might actually be on to something here when I say that there may be a lot more to the Demon’s pasts than what we’ve been told thus far. Now, for the sake of saving everyone from a huge block of text, I’m gonna put this all underneath a Read More, and hopefully you’ll give it a read, as well as any other input that would support, or even question the claims!

Alright, here we go.

Keep reading

I still have thoughts about this, so to continue in something of the same vein as last night…

The thing about Rincewind is, he’s not really a character who ever becomes a hero.

I know we can argue all night about the definition of the word hero, but he doesn’t consider himself one, and other characters don’t consider him one, so there’s that. But what I really mean is that he doesn’t have a hero’s journey.

I sometimes see people talking about the Rincewind books in the context of facing your fears. That’s fantastic; whatever you get out of it is good, of course, that’s what fiction is for.

But Rincewind himself doesn’t get brave. He doesn’t really learn to face his fears. He doesn’t slowly grow into someone who thinks of it as his solemn duty to save the world. He is always and foremost a coward. The entire span of the books, this is true.

Mostly he just gets more resigned to how the world works. In The Last Hero he has a genre-savvy knowledge of how things are going to end up, so he volunteers; but it’s not out of bravery, it’s out of weariness. He knows how his life works so he just skips all the fuss and gets on with doing something he still, really, does not want to do.

He doesn’t get what most of what he wants. He doesn’t learn to use magic. He doesn’t develop any extraordinary skills. He doesn’t get a love interest, which is fiction’s common recourse when rewarding a hero (a device which bothers me immensely, so personally I’m glad of that). His major reward after the conclusion of his independent story arc is, essentially, a semi-peaceful retirement from adventure.

Rincewind is a mess. He is a coward, and he will admit that freely. When he does save the world, it’s because no one else is going to do it, and someone has to, and he doesn’t want to die. He doesn’t get rewarded, except possibly by continued living. He doesn’t learn to be brave, except in the desperate last-chance way he’s always been. He doesn’t learn to be good at what he loves.

That’s important. That’s very important. That’s what makes him stand out. Because - where do you go, when you’re too tired to be a hero, when you’re exhausted from people telling you to be brave and stick it out, when you’ve been trying so hard and you still can’t do well? When heroes only remind you of how inadequate you are, how much you can’t be them? When you don’t, especially, want to be inspired, because you are just trying to get by. Who do you turn to then?

That’s Rincewind. You may be down in the mud and unable to pull yourself out, but at least he’s down there with you, sighing and talking about how this always happens to him. And it’s okay. It may or may not get better, but you’ll be okay, for a given value of ‘okay’. You’ll survive. That’s an achievement

That’s what he means to me.

Mystinct- A fanfic

“What do you mean, Candela? Blanche… a girl?”

“S-Spark? You were listening?” Candela muttered, turning around to face the third person in the meeting room. Behind her, Blanche had fallen silent. Spark was smiling but his eyes were searching, confused.

“You said it, right? You called… You called Blanche a girl.”

“Yeah?”

“Why?”

“Dude, are you seriously asking that? Blanche’s always been a- oh. Oooh. Damn it.”

Knowing she had screwed up big time, despite not understanding the problem or the implications, the leader for Valor cringed before withdrawing at a fast walk. She just paused to tell the uncomfortable Blanche that she would be at the shop if she needed her. Both leaders stared at the door she had disappeared through.

When she left, silence reclaimed the meeting room again.

Blanche tried to assure herself that she had done nothing wrong. And really, this was nothing but a big misunderstanding. One that Spark had started.

Though it might be her fault for just going along.

Oh man, she was supposed to be the representation of wisdom and logic but she had refused to see what this was all leading to. Candela might feel guilty now, but she was nothing but a detonator — this had been coming ever since it started.

Oh.

Spark had finally turned to look at her. Blanche immediately cast her gaze down, unnerved by this unsmiling Spark.

“Let me get this straight. You, Blanche, are a girl, correct?”

Blanche nodded, her voice untrustworthy.

“And you… you- uh, Candela knew?”

Another nod, this time, she bit her lip, awkward at the way the other leader seemed unable to finish whatever he really wanted to ask.

“Who else?”

“…”

“Who else knew, Blanche?”

“…I- well, everyone.”

“Except me.”

“Yes.”

“Holy fuck.”

At this, the dark-skinned leader flinched, fully expecting the blond to start yelling or waving his arms or… whatever Spark did when he got angry. Spark raised his arms to his hair, messing with it. “Holy fuck,” he repeated, meeting her eyes with surprise. “Blanche, what the fuck?”

“…I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to lead you on. I got swept away by—“you”—by the circumstances and before I knew it… I never could seem to find the right time to- it took me far too long to realize you didn’t… know but-“Blanche, ever insightful and serene Blanche, stuttered out as she hugged herself. Not even minding or noticing Spark’s foul language — which she always chastised him on and had been the whole reason he did it. Alarm crossed Spark’s face for a moment. He opened his mouth… but Blanche beat him to it with another, “I’m really sorry.”

“But hang on, wait a minute, where the fuck are your boobs then?” The yellow-clothed leader exclaimed, pointing an accusing finger to a suddenly flabbergasted Blanche. He squinted seriously as if trying to see something in her torso that he had missed, effectively making the other leader blush and scowl and try to hide herself.

“Spark! How many times have I told you to not be so vulgar!”

“Never in this sort of circumstances. After all, I’m both the meme lord …and the gay king… Right?” Spark said, the fool smile on his face slipping into something more serious. “I had been boisterously loud with my orientation — some of my new recruits are struggling with these things, you see —, why me, Blanche?” He ended with that beg, voice quivering slightly and making Blanche feel a little like scum.

“I- May I be perfectly honest?”

“Hit me. I sorely need you to be upfront with me. Including the boobs.”

One slap to the nose later (logically thinking, so much as bumping your nose hurt, so slapping it would be more painful, but circumvented the risk of a broken nose), Blanche started, tucking a stray hair back into place.

“Well. I was aware of your reputation — I mean after all you included it in your introduction and your presentation cards when we met after being elected for team leaders. But, I was saying, I… I started harboring feelings for you and I got carried away by your advances. I thought that maybe… maybe I was different. That I… was interesting to you, despite me being… well, not a man.”

Spark’s face had frozen over as his mind ran the phrase ‘Oh man, oh crap, oh no,’ over and over again in his mind, there was no denying he had truly messed up and he was the only one at fault and he was a real idiot for not noticing —realizing, Blanche’s true gender.

“Wait, was that why you kept asking me if it was alright with me?”

“Well… yes.”

“Oh man, Blanche I’m so sorry for not noticing before.”

“It’s okay.” Mystic’s leader said with a sad smile. If she weren’t so emotionally drained she would have smacked him for even thinking she was anything but a woman. “At least it’s all out now. I don’t know how long I’d be able to stand not telling you.

“So, do you perhaps think we can at least remain friends?”

Spark paused, smile drooping (and inwardly making Blanche panic) as he stared at her in silence.

“Blanche, I- The time I’ve spent with you, the memories, everything…” Instinct’s leader started, thinking out loud, before he noticed how his words could be (and were being) misinterpreted and he hurriedly waved his hands in front of him, hastily adding, “Oh my god, calm down, I’m- uhhh, sorry I realized this must sound like I want to break contact with you- no, that’s not it. “ Their eyes met for a brief moment, wide and a little scared as they both waited for Spark’s next words.

“To be perfectly honest, I fell in love with a man named Blanche. Who was odd. Weird at times. Fulltime serious and part-time eccentric. A very clever scientist, a passionate researcher, a pokemon nerd and an absolute dork.” When Blanche lowered her gaze again, feeling inadequate, Spark found the courage to walk forward to grasp her cheeks with soft, tender hands and coaxed her into looking at him. “I loved every single aspect of you because it was you. As it turns out, I do not care what gender you are, female, male, it doesn’t matter. You’re Blanche and that’s what matters.”

“You’re not…you’re not mad?”

“Well… You’re still manlier than I’ll ever be. You even have that six-pack.”

“If you’re trying to assure me, let me tell you, you’re just confusing me.”

“Urg…”

“And your observational skills are absolute crap.”

“Blanche!” Spark exclaimed, torn between scandalized and amused, not noticing how his breath ghosted over the other’s skin. She usually didn’t curse and smacked him whenever he did. He then flushed pink as a thought occurred him. He missed how the woman’s blush deepened as he pushed his face even closer in concentration. “You’re not mad at me? For thinking you were a man all along?”

“Uh…” Blanche said coherently, trying to come up with something. “To be honest, I’ve always been confused for a man ever since I was little so I’m used to it…”

At that point the tension broke as Blanche was suddenly thrown into Spark’s chest as he hugged her head, successfully suffocating her. Spark mock sobbed as he spouted, “I shall protect you from evil, no one gets to call my Blanche a guy except for myself!”

Blanche blushed down to the roots of her hair even as she mentally agreed with a vision of Candela that said that Spark was really an idiot.

Her idiot, apparently.

 End

Spark then proceeded to put on his Heelies, telling a confused Blanche he was going out because he needed to wear his Heelies to escape his feelies.


Author’s notes

Hey guys, guess who decided to write some PokemonGo fanfics instead of playing the game? (I do play, do not be offended)

Just a couple things. This story belongs to me, Raining Sky Guy, you can find my profile in here. I’m posting it here since there’s no category for pokemon go (should there even be one omg) I was also inspired by this tumblr user’s art.

Also, I ship any combination involving those three leaders, and yes, I think Mystinct should be Blanche’s and Spark’s ship name.Last thing. At the start I had never doubted Blanche’s gender to be anything but a man. Turns out I was wrong haha, but since I still see Blanche as a man sometimes, and she’s androgynous  enough (and the debate still seems to be raging lol) I might make more stories with male!Blanche. Not canon, yes, but I think fanfiction rarely is.

EDIT: Sorry, I forgot about the nonbinary headcannon, That one too is just as cool. I mean, you don’t get to see such an androgynous character on a regular basis, so it’s pretty cool too. But I don’t know how to write such a character anyone could give me a hand? What about pronouns? I don’t like the use of “they”, it’s just awkward grammar then.

anonymous asked:

can I have some advice? recently, I started reading something where the main character has paranoid schizophrenia, and he's always scared that "them" are going to come torture him and take his secrets. I'm pretty sure I have a form of schizophrenia, and I'm going to test for a diagnosis. after reading this thing, I've adopted my own version of them, but instead of targeting me, they want me to hurt my boyfriend. Now I keep seeing shadows and I just know they're coming after me. (1)

I’m scared to see my boyfriend again, now, because I’m scared that I’ll do something because of them. I am aware they aren’t real most the time, but there’s a lot of times I cannot force myself to think reasonably. how can I try to calm myself and think rationally through these episodes, especially when I’m with him next? thank you so much. (2)

Hi anon, sorry for not being able to reply sooner because I was trying to do some research on the matter. I found this really helpful website that teaches you how to deal with paranoid thoughts. I´ll post some highlights about about dealing with paranoid thoughts:


1 Start a journal to track your thoughts and feelings.

Journaling can help you to understand what may have caused you to feel paranoid and it is also a great way to relieve stress.

It can also help you identify your triggers, or people, places, and situations that seem to inspire your paranoia. To get started with journaling, choose a comfortable place and plan to devote about 20 minutes per day to writing. Think about situations in which you feel paranoid. For example:

  • When do you feel the most paranoid? At night? Early in the morning? What is it about that time of day that makes you feel paranoid?
  • Who do you feel paranoid around? Is there a person or group of people who make you feel more paranoid? Why do you think those people make you feel more paranoid than usual?
  • Where do you feel the most paranoid? Is there a place where your paranoia peaks? What is it about that place that makes you feel paranoid?
  • In what situations do you experience paranoia? Social situations? Is there something about your surroundings?
  • What memories come to you when you experience these feelings?

2 Make a plan to avoid or reduce exposure to your triggers.

Once you have identified the situations and people that seem to be contributing to your paranoia, you can make a plan to reduce your exposure to these triggers. While some people, places, and situations may be unavoidable, such as work or school, being aware of what triggers your paranoia may help you to minimize your exposure to other things that you can avoid.

  • For example, if a certain route home from school makes you feel paranoid, take a different route or ask a friend to accompany you.

3 Learn how to question your thought process.

In the case of triggers that you cannot avoid, learning to question your paranoid thoughts may help you to reduce or eliminate the way that you feel about these people and situations.

The next time that you find yourself thinking paranoid thoughts about a person, place, or situation, ask yourself the following questions.

  • What is the thought? When did I have it? Who was there? When was it? What happened?
  • Am I having a thought that is based on fact or opinion? How can I tell?
  • What am I assuming or believing about the thought? Is my assumption or belief realistic? Why or why not? What would it mean if the thought were real?
  • How do I feel—physically and emotionally?
  • What did/could I do to deal with the thought in a positive way?

4 Distract yourself from the paranoid thoughts.

If you cannot defuse your paranoia by examining its content, try to distract yourself.

Call up a friend, go for a walk, or watch a movie. Find a way to get your mind off of the paranoid thoughts so that you do not begin to dwell on them.

  • Distraction can help you avoid rumination, the obsessive pattern of thinking where you think about the same thing over and over again, like a broken record. Rumination is associated with higher levels of anxiety and depression.[25]
  • However, distraction on its own is usually not enough to fully address these thoughts. Distraction is a type of avoidance, which means you will need to take other steps to work on your paranoia too.

5 Avoid punishing yourself.

You may feel embarrassed by your thoughts, and this could lead to you judging yourself harshly for them. Studies have shown that this type of technique, or “punishment,” is not effective at addressing paranoid thoughts.

  • Instead, try reappraisal (examining your thought process), social control (seeking advice fro others), or distraction, as described elsewhere in this article.

6 Determine if you might need professional help.

Mild paranoia may be manageable on your own, but you will likely need professional help if your paranoia is moderate to severe. If you are frequently having paranoid thoughts, consider the following questions:

  • Are you considering acting on potentially harmful thoughts?
  • Are you considering hurting yourself or others?
  • Are you thinking and planning on how to go about hurting someone with the intent of doing it?
  • Are you hearing voices telling you to hurt yourself or others?
  • Are your obsessive thoughts or behaviors affecting your home or work life?
  • Are you reliving a traumatic experience over and over again?
  • If you answered yes to any of these questions, you should seek help from a mental health care professional as soon as possible.

There is more information here:

http://www.wikihow.com/Deal-With-Your-Paranoia

Hope this helps.

Regards,

Marcela

fanfic writer appreciation day

i know, i know, it’s a day late!! ;;; but better late than never. 

the kylux fandom and the unbelievable talent of kylux writers has helped me through so much shit this year. it’s really important to me that i share my appreciation for those authors with everyone!! 

also, before we get started: i want to list so many more fics than this, but i’m so busy and distracted lately in the process of moving houses :\ if i’ve forgotten anyone crucial i apologize!! i will remedy any mistakes once i’ve realized them xxx

far from any road — @lost-balloons | madison you are in oregon right now planning for our future restaurant and hipster life but i am here to remind you that a) i love our kylux shitpost sessions, b) you are truly wine mom hux in the flesh and c) this fic is so gorgeous and has the most incredible format

can’t rewind we’ve gone too far@reserve | my definite favorite ben/hux to kylux fic. every time i read one of your fics i’m blown away by how you’re able to build an entirely new world or atmosphere with the same characters, you’re still one of my biggest inspirations!!

loyalties @skywalkeraesthetics| i’m loving the imagery and setting of this fic so far, and millicent as hux’s therapy animal is everything i’ve ever wanted. also, a big weepy thank you for all of the beautiful ficlets you send me over pm (i can’t wait to collab with you)

the entire everything of me series@sinningsquire | weak together still haunts me. stronger than the sea broke me and then put me back together again. the way you write the kylux dynamic is so powerful and vivid, i admire your skill so much!! 

at the mercy + elesion@saltandlimes | so so so good my god these are so good. and relatable which i know isn’t good but!!! your self-destructing hux makes me ache, in the best way. i find myself drawn back to this universe of yours constantly, it’s always drifting into my head to remind me that you are spectacular at capturing my attention and holding it with these riveting dark-spun stories. it was hard to choose favorites out of all of your works, but these two are masterpieces

know thyself@theeascetic | i fawn over you all the time i know!! but that’s not going to stop me from fawning over you again here and now!! you are so talented in both art and writing and i always stop whatever i’m doing to rush to read your updates and new fics. being able to chat with you and dream up/rant about kylux headcanons together is something i look forward to every week. your know thyself series in particular is heart-wrenchingly excellent, i can’t wait for the upcoming chapter!

collateral damage, i tell you miserable things after you are asleep, ALL OF YOUR WIPS — @abernathae​ | sydni where do i even start with you?? you are the very first writer i ever talked to in the kylux fandom and i’m so lucky to know you and be your friend. your writing is goals. your life is, in fact, not real, but actually just a xavier dolan film. i would probably help you take over the world tbh. and happily live under your Kylux Gothic Glory reign. whoever hasn’t read your work is missing the fuck out

definitive gaze + inappropriate material@irisparry| dismantle me was the first fic i read of yours, and ever since i discovered your writing you’ve continued to produce hilarious and stunning content. you have a real knack for building ambiance— the first few paragraphs in definitive gaze still come back to me every once and a while, i can still remember incredible detail you put into painting the picture of kylo waking up in the morning. i just! love your writing! so much

autonomous sensory meridian response@starsshinedarkly77 | SUPREME LEADER OF SOFT KYLUX, HELLO. as someone who uses asmr to help calm anxiety + get to sleep (just like kylo!) this fic is so important to me. i was on the edge of my seat with my heart in my mouth the entire time, and hux’s quiet sort of kindness at the ending brought tears to my eyes. i can’t thank you enough for all of your beautiful work in this fandom, we’re blessed to have you!

hotline bling@minzimpression​ | THIS FIC. YOUR WRITING. matchmaker organa. snippy workaholic hux. the sauciest  kylo ren to ever grace ao3. minze, you are a genius comedian and a prose deity, i kneel before you and your talent. this fandom wouldn’t be the same without you!! (also sorry i’m so awkward whenever i talk to you, you’re crazy cool ;o;)

the slightest shift in the weather, my whole existence is flawed@claricechiarasorcha | first of all, every time you publish a new fic, i’m amazed. it’s like, every time— there it is! she’s done it again! your sniper hux is a gift— and so is that scene in the cantina ;) your matt the radar tech is my favorite matt the radar tech. you are an absolute treasure

aquarius@acroamatica | so GOOD oh my gosh, i’m pretty sure i read this fic all the way through with my mouth hanging open, jaw on the floor. it starts off beautifully and only goes up from there, you most definitely have a way with words, the atmosphere you’ve created here is so brilliant. i can’t wait to read more from you

your lips drop sweetness@rex-luscus| this fic cured my depression honestly and also introduced me to the beauty of hux calling kylo “darling”. it’ll probably always be my no. 1 pick-me-up soft kylux fic to go to whenever i’m down, i just adore it (and you!!!) so much

like a wounded animal, at the beginning of the world, artificial light@huxcrying| ok i had to put all three of these fics on here because seriously, everything you touch turns to gold. i think about artificial light way more than i should, and thanks to you i giggle a little whenever i use coconut oil. whenever anyone asks me for a kylux fic rec i turn to you immediately. you have such a gift + i’m so happy to know you ;^;

missionary impossible@ofamaranthlie​ | i know you wrote this ages ago, but it’s stuck with me all this time!! the scenario is a classic kylux setup, but your style and perfect dialogue crafted it into something original and unique. in less than 2000 words you managed to make me fall in love with your renditions of both kylo and hux. i’ll never stop coming back to this fic!!

anonymous asked:

I'm not too sure on how to word it buuuttt What would Hidan, Deidara, Sasori, Kakuzu, Itachi and Pain do if they had a chubbier s/o that hid their insecurity, but it finally spilled after holding it in for so long. Sorry if it's against any of the rules, I'm on mobile so I can't seem to find them

A/N: You requested perfectly fine, lovely! It’s not against the rules at all, so not to worry lovely! Sorry for taking awhile to make your request! I hope that you enjoy what I’ve come up with, thanks for your request. And, I just want everyone of my followers and anyone who reads this to know that no matter what your body stature or size is, you’re absolutely stunning and I love you very much! 💙

P.S: Sorry that some of them are remarkably longer than others (*cough* *cough* Hidan’s, it’s just there’s more to write for some characters than others.)

Originally posted by narutoquotess

Not my gif! Gif credit goes to it’s rightful and amazing creator


*Warning! Swearing Ahead (Probably mainly just in Hidan’s)!*


Hidan:

Hidan isn’t very, so to speak, “prudent” or “thoughtful” of others, - unless he’s inflicting pain on them through his rituals-. So, in my opinion, Hidan wouldn’t notice at first if you were feeling insecure.

It wouldn’t be until it spilled out and/if you were sobbing about it that he would notice. He’d be very distant and amateurish with this topic. He’s not very comforting or considerate of others, so providing you with comfort would be incredibly difficult for him.

What the hell is with the waterworks all of a sudden?”, “What are you doing?”, “Did some fucker hurt you?” or something along the lines of that would be uttered from Hidan.

Once you finished explaining, Hidan would grow angry. “Who’s the fucker that made you think this way? I’ll kill them, make them scream in pain like a little bitch. They better pray to whatever Higher that they believe in, because Jashin won’t show them any mercy.” he’d spit.

Once he calms down, eventually. He’d show you in his own Hidan way that there’s nothing wrong you with. He’d probably have sex with you to show you how desirable you are, point out how other males/females look at you, - even though it makes him really jealous and possessive-, and he’d probably ask you “How do I do this? What I mean… er… dammit! How do I make you feel… better? Fucking hell! This can’t be so hard can it?!

His efforts would be humorous which would make you smile, because Hidan would try making you feel better in some sort of way, - even if he wasn’t being gentle or attentive-.


Deidara:

Deidara would know that something was up with you, but he wouldn’t press on about it unless he was aware that you were hurting inside. He’d probably wait for you to approach him about the topic.

If it spilled out and you were crying about the topic, he’d spring into action; cursing the person who started the insecurity, ensuring you that there is nothing wrong with your weight or body stature. He’d do his best to be understanding and comforting.

You’re like a piece of art that the universe has created. You’re the only creation that I’d never blow up… Dammit! Don’t tell Sasori that I said that! Art should definitely explode! But… you better not, un.” he’d blabber on and on for ages, but he’d fit in sweet things to say about you regarding art and how he wouldn’t want to make you explode.

He’d be cheesy, molding small clay figurines of you. He’d say something like: “See? This is art at it’s finest. It’s modeled after you, the most gorgeous, beautiful and sexy person that I know, un.” he’d grin into your ear.


Sasori:

If it was apparent to Sasori, he wouldn’t really make it evident that he knew. He’s rather cold and aloof character, so he wouldn’t exactly feel much for such a topic or be able to relate to it, since he finds himself to be perfect, - since he’s a puppet-.

However, if he noticed that you were unhappy and crying over it, he’d take his time to listen to you. He’d listen to every word that you’d utter, growing a bit impatient if you took you stumbled, but he’d stay quiet.

He’d feel curious as to why you feel that way, but do his absolute best to let you know that you’re perfect to him.

There is no point in me changing your body into one like mine. You may not last forever, but, the warmth and smoothness of your skin is gorgeous, the stature and size, weight… it’s… it’s just… perfect.” he’d breathe out lovingly into your ear, his tone indifferent, but he really was doing his best to reassure you.

Sasori would be irritated if you could not see what he see’s, but he wouldn’t be harsh. He’d probably make puppets modeled after his s/o, showing his s/o that they’re more than worthy of being inspiration for his art.


Kakuzu:

Kakuzu would definitely not notice until it’s too late. His mind is always on one thing… money.

However, Kakuzu would find it bothersome at first, not because his s/o is sharing their feelings with him, but the fact that she has this insecurity really irritates him. He see’s that there’s nothing wrong with his lover.

He’d surprise you, taking you out to stores where he’d buy you clothes that would show off your figure in the best of ways with his own money.

His response to this would seem harsh, but there’d be an underlying attentiveness to it. “Feel lucky, because all of this didn’t come cheap.” he’d grumble out, setting down the bags. “I know money doesn’t buy any happiness, - for most people-, but hopefully… hopefully this may help.

He’d spend his day/night watching his s/o try on all of the clothes he’d bought them that would prominently flatter their figure. He’d give brief hurried comments on before handing them another outfit. He’d seem disinterested but that’s just grouchy Kakuzu talking.

On the last outfit, he’d stand up, a smirk forming on his stitched face as he slowly walks towards his lover. He’d pull them close, his lips skimming their ear before he huskily breathes; “Your body is the definition of perfect.” he’d make you look in the mirror, seeing for once everything that he saw about you. He’d be content with the smile on your face.

Now, if anybody could put a bounty on you for your head, they wouldn’t be able to come up with a sum. You’re priceless, no matter what; and I honestly assure you of that.” his words would be a bit morbid, but they definitely have a tint of sweetness to them.


Itachi:

At a sudden change of emotion, Itachi would know what was up. He would do his best to uncover what it was by analyzing you. If he’d figure it out by himself, he’d be very attentive and sweet, - without you being aware of it-, he’d be comforting you, ensuring that you knew just how gorgeous your body is.

If you opened up to him, he would be passive, though he’d feel upset that you were feeling down and insecure about your physical state. He’d offer as many things as he could, to which will help you feel better and guide you to see how beautiful you are.

I don’t think Itachi would be the type to judge you on your physicality. He’d love you for being who you are, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

He’d shower his s/o in their favorite foods, gifts, and definitely hold them and whisper sweet nothings into their ear. He would also do his best to shower you with as many compliments as he can.

He wouldn’t be able to go to sleep at night or leave his s/o without making sure that they feel 100% adored and loved.


Pein:

Pein is the type to take on others pain, he would surely attempt to take some of the hurt that you feel from being insecure about your body. He’d be very sympathetic and sweet to you.

He’d do things that would surely aid you in becoming more confident with your build, speaking words of encouragement, too.

You are beautiful, no matter what anyone else or yourself says. Nobody can take away your inner or outer beauty, it shall always be present, whether you are aware of that or not.” he’d murmur into your ear. “I cannot promise you that your insecurities or pain will go away soon, but someday they’ll blossom into love of yourself.” he’d continue sweetly.

Pein would most likely do anything that his would help his s/o feel better and see how beautiful they are. If it did help, he’d lay there with his s/o and hold them, letting them cuddle with him until they knew just how much he loved them.


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This is all @rosyoreo‘s fault.

Just felt a sudden surge of inspiration to write a short piece of Zakk Tomorrow™ fanfiction. An odd fandom for me, I know, but my eyes have been opened to it’s supreme awesomeness over time. So just a little something to try and get used to the characters and how to write them - sorry if they’re a little OOC! ^_^;;

Set after Future!future!(etc)Zakk first appears.

Rating: K
Genre: Friendship

How to Handle the Future

“You sure you’re ok, Zakk? I mean, you’re not acting like your usual, uppy, yuppy, energetic, go-getter self.”

“Huh?” Zakk blinked and looked up at the sound of his name as if coming out of a daze.

With a smirk, Alexa put her hands on her hips. “Exactly.”

“Aw, give him a break. Not everyday your future self comes back to warn you of the impending apocalypse,” said Adam as he shoved his hands into his pockets.

Ah. They were worried about him. He could hardly blame them, of course. Here they were at the VR arcade, a place that was second hat to them but usually gave him a huge rush of excitement, and instead of blasting virtual aliens or sailing the high seas looking for treasure he constantly found his mind wandering back to the day before, the day he’d met himself.

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Banjou the Bear?

So apparently I missed Banjou’s birthday yesterday (sorry buddy) so thought I would do a post about him to make up for it.

I’m pretty sure this is common knowledge but for those of you who didn’t know (like me until about 3 weeks ago, I had always just thought the similarity was a funny coincidence) Ishida based the name Banjou Kazuichi off the titular protagonists of the video game series Banjo-Kazooie:

You can see where he gets his beefy arms and bara stocky build from.

Kazooie is Banjo’s birdy best friend who lives in the backpack on his shoulders. Every now and then, Kazooie will pop out the bag, flap his wings and help him jump, fly, etc. I always thought it was a quirky trait that a ghoul as large as Banjou was given an ukaku kagune (ukaku’s make you think of fast, lithe builds) but if Ishida based more than just his name off of Banjo-Kazooie, it kinda makes sense. Ukaku’s are known as ‘shining wings’ and have a feathered appearance after all. You could say that Kazooie is to Banjo what a Kagune is to Banjou (sorry there’s way too many similar names in this post).

Moving onto something more serious, there have been a few theories/discussions going around recently about Ainu culture (inspired by Kaneki’s Ainu poem in V14) and their reverence of animals; particularly the bear, striped owl and killer whale (the original post about Ainu culture, Eto and owls by @anniepet is here while @harostar‘s add on is here - you should go read them, they’re both really cool theories/points).

We already have Eto the Owl, and Shachi’s alias is Orca so he’s holding down the killer whale camp. But so far, as pointed out in the above posts, we haven’t had anyone associated with the bear.

Banjo from Banjo-Kazooie is a honey bear. Banjou the ghoul bares (sorry, terrible pun) a lot of resemblance to his namesake. Perhaps our Uncle Banjoi is meant to hold the place of the bear in the Ainu theory?


Anyone feel free to add onto this! I think it’s mostly just the character’s names that were referenced but there might be something cool to find in the game that could have been inspiration for Banjou’s character in Tokyo Ghoul. The evil witch antagonist of Banjo-Kazooie was crushed by a boulder kinda like Rize was crushed by steel beams but I doubt Banjou would do that to his beloved Rize!

anonymous asked:

hi! i was searching anidala on tumblr and i found out your meta abt them, so i hope you don't mind me if i ask you something. i just recently watched the prequels for the first time and uh anakin has v creepy stalkerish and possessive behavior regarding padmè, and while i can see why he falls in love with her i rlly can't see the opposite. so what i'm asking you is: was it really love? why do you ship anidala? pls don't read this as an attack on the ship or you, i'm just genuinely curios :) thx!

Hi! Omg good questions. Sorry it’s taken me a bit to get back to you; I’ve been busy the past few days. First of all, no of course I don’t mind you asking I love asks lol. Second, don’t apologize!! Discussing Star Wars is my jams. 

So. Was it really love? Hm… My background is a little muddled romantically, and I’m still learning to work past that, so my viewpoint on this might be a little… distorted. From my opinion, I’d say yes, just a very desperate, idolizing kind, blinded by passion and projection.

What I think Anakin did with Padme was he clung to her as this literally angelic figure that represented the future off Tatooine for him. I think he remained so obsessed with her for his ten years of training, even though he didn’t see her a single time in between, because he used her memory as a source of comfort.

When he first left Tatooine, she was kind to him. She brought him a blanket when he was cold. She looked out for him and was more concerned about his status as a slave (versus potential Jedi) than Qui-Gon. He did something to help her, and helping her was demonstrating to the most important person in the world- his mom- that he had learned something and would follow in her footsteps. Continuing to help and serve her would be what his mother would want. Anakin has this obsession with being a “good X” whether it’s Jedi, husband, or son, and I think this desire to please stemmed from the desire to make his mother proud in exchange for leaving her behind in slavery on Tatooine. 

Padme for young Anakin represented open doors, possibilities, freedom, peace, and happiness. Keeping this image in his head throughout his training I’m sure was a great comfort to him as he dealt with separation from his mother, and basically having to deal with a new master. 

Anakin never identified as a slave. When Padme asks if he is a slave, he says, “I’m a person, and my name is Anakin.” Likewise, I don’t think he would  accept the idea of being a slave to anything else: to the Jedi order, to his emotions, or to his own idealism. (I think he finally realizes he is basically a slave to Palpatine in ROTS, and I think that’s what breaks him, really. Padme’s death was a sign of his loss of freedom, and worse, I think he realized it was all an illusion in his head after she died. But enough Anakin analysis.)

Back to Anakin’s idealism. Anakin is so taken with this idea of a perfect secret marriage- the ultimate service to Padme- even under the eyes of the Jedi order, who he must also provide the ultimate service to. And he cannot do both, and both end up slipping away from him. It’s tragic and it’s heartbreaking. Anakin in his entire life believes the only thing he is good for, indeed his entire life’s purpose, is serving. (Of course he angsts a lot about this. He believes the perfect servant is what he “should be” and gets angry when he feels he isn’t.)

So yes, I believe Anakin loved Padme, but I believe a lot of that love was directed to what she stood for and symbolized in his mind as much as anything else. 

And Padme. Anakin was a little boy she met on Tatooine as a young and headstrong but naive queen. Anakin showed her the reality of the galaxy. He was a pure force of good who gave freely while expecting nothing in return. I think this was extremely inspiring to her and even though she as a queen was already very worldly and unselfish, I think this deeply shaped her future political career. Everything she does now is for the greater good, and I think this is something she learned from Anakin and his mother. 

She initially seems to not want to enter a romantic relationship with him, but I mean, I can relate to that. I said things like she did but for me it was a sort of self-denial. I’m not sure if Padme truly meant that she didn’t want a romantic relationship with Anakin, because in the middle of AOTC she says something about dying a little inside every day since he came back into her life. (that was such a corny line honestly that freakin movie had so many corny lines) That said, Anakin should always listen to when her mouth says no, even if her body says differently. Sheesh Ani.

Anyway, I think Padme is blinded by this vision of Anakin being a pure force of good and she clings to it for far longer than she should. This ten years of separation to solidify this impression didn’t help. When Anakin does shocking things like kill an entire village of Tusken Raiders, or beat up her ex, Padme seems shocked, you know? Every time she’s so confused as to why he would do that because she doesn’t think it’s in his character. 

Padme is attracted to GOOD. She likes the light side things, she likes effective, selfless politicians, she likes people who can solve problems and make things right. And when she was very young she saw Anakin do this and this impression stuck with her for life, I think. To the very end she still believed Anakin to be the ultimate chosen force of goodness (even if she didn’t know about or understand this “chosen one” prophecy) and was devastated to see that something she’d built her entire worldview upon… was imperfect. 

(oh my god this is so long sorry) Long story short, yes, I believe that Padme also loved Anakin, but a portion of her love also owed to what she believed he stood for symbolically. They projected their expectations onto each other, and the relationship ultimately failed.

Still, they both desperately loved each other because they wanted those ideals the other stood for to prevail in the galaxy, and they believed an intimate relationship and perfect marriage would seal this presence and assure them that everything would be okay. Padme overlooked far too many of Anakin’s faults, and enabled his misdeeds way too much, and Anakin ended up in yet another master-slave relationship- he treated Padme like an object yet became a slave to his emotions regarding her. 

Their relationship could have been quite different if they were allowed to freely associate and communicate with each other, to see each other as people more than as ideas and objects. There was a gigantic communication gap in between them, and if they weren’t so censored by Padme’s public image in her career and Anakin’s status as an  allegedly celibate Jedi, they could have had the opportunity to fix this.

So, why do I ship anidala? It is super screwed up, of course. Definitely not without its faults. But as a symbolic thing to me, it’s like a ray of hope. These two people loved each other no matter what. They were so passionate and they so deeply believed in everything that their relationship stood for. It was an impossible union but still two beautiful things came out of it (no, not the Empire and destruction of the Jedi order… well maybe that last one was a bit overdue anyway): Luke and Leia who brought balance to the force. 

Also, I guess I’m a bit of a sadistic audience member and I enjoy tragic relationships and characters lol. Honestly that’s the main reason. But the symbolism thing too. 

Wow, that was way longer than I planned, but I hope I answered your question lol. Thanks a lot for sending me the ask! 

"I'm done rooting for Michelle Phan"


Can you trust anything by Michelle Phan?

I’m done rooting for Michelle. She has so many chances to right her wrong doings, starting all the way back from her fetus years when she was plagiarizing art. Michelle has always had a deceitful nature about her, even before she gained notoriety. Had she not been deceiving people for as long as she’s been doing, then maybe I’d be of the same opinion. But no, from the sketchy business practices that have been swept under the rug, to denial about her cosmetic procedures, Michelle is just a very disingenuous person overall. She’s built this false persona for herself, a persona that promotes the empowerment of women and a positive self-image, but she doesn’t practice what she preaches. Her whole life is pure irony.

Shady iQQU Venture - Lies about being FDA-approved; Discreet Disassociation


What enrages me so much about Michelle is that she is so full of herself. I can’t sense a humble bone in her body. It’s always “I’m here to inspire, listen to my wisdom, young girls look up to me, I built all these businesses and gave people jobs, I still edit my videos by myself, etc.” It’s ALWAYS about her, her, her.Have you seen my commercial, look at me in this magazine, I was on this talk show, I got such-and-such award, I’m getting a documentary, I’m getting a doctorate!” The attention always has to be on her. And the McCoy message was the last straw. After seeing how disgusting her character truly is, I could never wish for her success. Not when she goes around acting like Buddha’s reincarnate, preaching about “love and light,” and inspiring people and then behind closed doors she threatens people who don’t worship her. After that, I truly wished to see her fail.

Condoning Cyberbully | Impending Honorary Doctorate Degree


Regarding Michelle and Bethany Mota’s differences in economic status: Bethany is much more well off then Michelle was when she started YouTube. Hell, her mom was buying her MAC products when she was 15. But even though Bethany IS well-to-do, she doesn’t ACT like she is. A lot of these gurus are very materialistic, with their channels only existing to show their viewers how many new clothes or how much new makeup they bought. Some gurus see their subscribers as customers or simply numbers, but Bethany sees hers as what they are, people. Girls that are just like her.

A major part of why Bethany so popular is because she’s so down-to-earth and relatable. I also couldn’t understand why this one particular teen suddenly blew up among all the other beauty-guru hopefuls because what she does in her videos really isn’t anything new. But after watching a few of her videos, I realized that it was her personality that draws people in. She’s genuine. She’s very humble, personable, goofy, and just fun to watch. She NEVER brags about her lifestyle or possessions, and even with the sudden explosion of popularity she has still managed to stay true to herself, something Michelle wasn’t able to do.

I would be able to sympathize with Michelle’s previous financial situation if she didn’t continue to bring it up. In magazines and online articles, in every other interview it was “we were so poor, my mom was working fifty jobs, I wanted a better life, blah blah,” and it got pathetic and OLD. She has actually started to use her poor upbringing as a marketing tool and I find that so disgusting. Stories about how she couldn’t afford a silly little princess dress for Halloween, her sob story “Draw My Life” video, how her family “scraped together” furniture money to put her through school, how she used to be a lowly waitress, but now she’s “one of a kind.” She loves to milk her “poor” upbringing because it fits the inspirational, rags-to-riches image she wants to portray.

I would respect her if she acknowledged that yes, her life didn’t used to be the most comfortable, but that she was able to overcome her struggles. Instead she harps on and on about her past and how hard it was for her. What makes an underdog an underdog is that in spite of being in a less than desirable situation, they still manage to come out on top. Michelle has made it to the top, but she keeps using her unsavory past as a crutch to get her further in life. That’s not an underdog. Nobody wants to hear a successful person constantly whine about how hard they had it.

As far as YouTube being a career, maybe it IS a hobby for Bethany, but I don’t think that makes her any less deserving than Michelle. I think it’s great that she was able to become so successful by doing something she enjoys. It was a hobby for Michelle at one point too, but Michelle made it into a career herself. She didn’t have to. It was HER decision to drop out of school and live off of YouTube, and her making her hobby into a career is also why I hold her to much higher standards. But it’s obvious she doesn’t care anymore about the career she made for herself. She’s lost her passion.

Before the schedule change from every Friday to once a week, her videos were always late. All of her videos are sponsored and the makeup looks are sub par; she isn’t even trying anymore. So sure, she made this into a job, but is she performing at her absolute best? YouTube is her career, but it’s obvious she’s become bored. She’s jumping at every opportunity she can to make herself more known OUTSIDE of YT because she knows she is losing her presence. She knows that in a few years time there will be other Bethany Motas out there who will pull her away from the spotlight, and she doesn’t want that. Instead of taking one thing at a time and focusing on her online career, she’s worrying herself about staying relevant and her mixed priorities really reflect in her videos and her drop in viewership.

Karma’s a cold bitch. She’s had this coming for a while. And I’m gonna enjoy watching her fall. I’m done rooting for Michelle.

This opinion piece is written by Cococcino.

anonymous asked:

I am really upset over the fact that many popular artists have decided to stop drawing gruvia because of the shippers. I dont really get what we really have done that they actually hate the pairing now. :(

I hear ya, anon. This is going to be a long reply because I have a lot to say.

I’m not a traditional fan artist, but I do write fanfics. so I do know what it is to take time out of your day to create content to please not just yourself but others. And while many of the artists take requests, most artist need to be properly inspired and/or have a fondness/passion to draw something, and especially if it’s for free. So, if something has put them off, or even killed their love for a pairing, you can’t expect them to want to spend time drawing something they don’t care about, or even like anymore. 

So, I’m not going to hold anything against the artists who just don’t have their heart in it to draw Gruvia.

However, as to the reasoning I keep seeing behind the distaste for Gruvia, this is what I have to say. Supposedly, and as you said anon, it’s mostly, if not exclusively the Gruvia fandom’s fault. I’ve seen it be said that it’s not even a few shippers, but MOST Gruvia shippers who are unkind, rude or overbearing.

The thing is, I don’t know what’s going on in people’s inboxes. I don’t know what kind of messages artists, and others who have supposedly been besieged by hateful Gruvia fans, are getting. I don’t know how many of them are sent anonymously and how many are not. 

Now, if the majority of them are anonymous, can anyone say for a fact that the hateful anons are not just the same few people (or even one person?) sending hate over and over again? Or not trolls who actually despise Gruvia but take joy in trying to make it’s shippers look bad by posing as badly behaved gruvians anonymously? 

And if the hate is left signed, I haven’t personally seen it. I know a lot of people don’t want to give the haters any attention, but I wish that the signed hate would be posted/replied to, so we can see who these badly behaved Gruvians supposedly are. 

Now, what I do know, is that the FT fandom is big, and the Gruvia fandom is also big. I don’t know how many Gruvia fans are on tumblr, but to try and put some kind of number on it, I think unisonraidd posted recently (and her blog is heavily Gruvia, and almost exclusively reblogs/posts Gruvia fanart) that she has 7000 followers. I, myself, with my blog almost exclusively walls of text about Gruvia, have 1500+ followers. 

So, unless people are getting thousands of messages in their inbox, and all from angry Gruvia fans, I think it’s unfair to say it’s the majority of the fandom that’s badly behaved.

As to when this all started, most of this nonsense seems to have snowballed after the summer’s events where Gajevy got the romantic moment Mashima had teased on twitter. After that there was one negative post directed at Levy’s character and disappointment from expectant Gruvia shippers , I posted in support of Gajevy fans and their right to their enjoyment of their wonderful moment without having to sort through negativity on their ship’s tag. 

However, the outright negativity was still just one major post, and even that was just a negative critique of Levy’s actions in that chapter. At that time I went looking for other problematic posts in both the Gruvia and Gajevy tag. Aside from general disappointment from Gruvia shippers, and a few people trying to dismiss the romantic nature of a moment for whatever reason, I found nothing that stood out to me, and certainly not anything to warrant the distaste against Gruvia and it’s shippers that people are showing even to this day.

Being a Gruvia shipper, maybe I’ve just become highly tolerant towards ship hate, as I see negativity against Gruvia on a weekly basis at least, and certainly it spikes if Gruvia happens to be enjoying attention in the manga. So, maybe other negativity didn’t stand out to me as much as it would to someone who has Gajevy as their OTP, I don’t know. But, if there was something more, beyond what I’ve mentioned here, I’d love to hear about it. 

Now, when I see anyone labeling or implying the Gruvia fandom is bad, I almost always feel badly about that label. And depending on how and what the person voicing their opinion says, I will sometimes respond in defense of my fellow shippers. Especially if I feel like the original poster is wrong in some way. You know why? Because whenever posts like those show up (and at this point, we should all know they DO show up in the mobile tag whether you’re tagging it Gruvia, or not, because even mentioning Gruvia (or any ship) shows up in the ship’s mobile tag), Gruvia shippers start feeling down about themselves and their fandom, and it shouldn’t be like that.

I shouldn’t have to scroll through my ship’s tag, with a bunch of innocent shippers being upset that once again a negative post about their fandom has infiltrated the tag. Because, unlike a negative opinion about Gruvia, Gray or Juvia, this negative opinion feels PERSONAL. This negative opinion is about a group of people that you are a part of.

So, that’s why, if I think there’s something that needs to be said, I will say it, and hopefully, without making things personal. Because, at the end of the day, we are all still talking about FICTIONAL things. Yes, we all feel strongly about those fictional things. I know what it is to get defensive, resentful, or even feel personally attacked when someone knocks your ship or your fav character. But just keep in mind, you’re talking to and about actual human beings beyond the computer screen.

And I want to make it clear, I’m not dismissing bad Gruvian behavior, or saying it doesn’t exist at all. The first person I ever blocked on tumblr was ironically an overbearing Gruvia fan who took issue with one of my posts and got overly defensive and rude because of an opinion I had that didn’t match hers. So, I know they are out there. And if you are a Gruvia fan who is sending anonymous hate for whatever reason, PLEASE STOP. You are not doing your fandom or ship any favors!

But, what I’m asking people, and especially the artists who have become disenchanted with the pairing, is to please keep the following in mind.

I’ve had the pleasure of speaking to many Gruvia fans in the last few years. I even know some of these lovely people personally, and they do not deserve to be constantly painted in such a bad light. Most Gruvia fans are not active on tumblr. Most people don’t even post anything personally. They simply reblog pretty things they see on tumblr, and take joy in gorgeous fan art of their OTP. Again, there are 7 THOUSAND Gruvia fans following a Gruvia fanart blog. The majority of these people have done absolutely nothing wrong and just like seeing art of their OTP from their beloved artists.

So, when a kind Gruvia fan/anon Gruvia fan, who’s never sent or posted a hateful message in their life, requests some art drawn of their OTP, because they adore your work, just consider what I’ve said here.

And as shirousagi said, if you’re an artist who genuinely enjoys the Gruvia pair itself, then you shouldn’t let a fanbase ruin that for you. I’ve said this recently, but after dealing with fans that are rude and aggressive, I DO understand how you can become resentful towards a character or ship, and can’t help but relate said character and ship to those rude fans. But, I personally take this approach: Mashima is the only one who can ruin a ship or character for me. As long as I still like how he is portraying them, then I wont let anyone else lessen my enjoyment and appreciation of that ship or characters.

Again, I know that dissatisfaction with hateful shippers (whether targeted towards you or friends) is just one element when it comes to being inspired to draw something. So, I’m not telling you what you should or shouldn’t draw. But, if this truly is what’s putting you off about the pair, and you feel the need to punish a fanbase by denying them art because of it, maybe you might find it in your hearts to reconsider for all the kind fans who just like your art and aren’t involved in any of the drama.

I don’t know if this will change any minds, but regardless, I just don’t want people to feel bad about themselves, so to the anon who sent this message, don’t worry so much about it either way. Appreciate the artists who do draw your OTP, and respect the artists who choose not to. 

After the first gold medal, he feels pride. The second he’s defending a title, the third he’s proving a point. The fourth gold medal he starts to feel bored, and after the fifth, just a curious emptiness he doesn’t know how to analyze.

*

“You’re bored,” Christophe says, and if there’s an edge there it’s only barely perceptible. If there is bitterness, Christophe is too good a friend to let it show.

“I’m not sure that’s it,” Viktor says.

“Let me ask you something, Viktor, why do you keep skating? Don’t get me wrong—you have to keep skating until I can beat you, I just want to know what your reason is.”

There’s something sort of gloomy about that statement—does he have to keep skating? Until someone beats him? Is that even what he wants? Is that something everyone else wants?

“See, you can’t even answer, can you? Just think about—everyone on this ice has one thing in common: you. We’re here to beat you. But you don’t have a Viktor so you’re bored.”

Everyone has me but me, Viktor repeats in his mind.

“What you need is a really good fuck.”

“It always comes down to that with you,” Viktor says genially.

“Because it’s true! It cures everything. Just anonymous fucking; you and someone else and you’re both just bodies and pleasure and it’s the best thing in the world. It’s eros—the highest form of pleasure anyone can obtain. It’ll help you get over your funk, trust me. Find a random person and screw their brains out.”

Christophe says this like Viktor doesn’t know that Christophe has been in a very committed relationship for the past year. Like Viktor doesn’t know that Christophe is very much in love, and that he found his inspiration not with anonymous fucking, but with a love that doesn’t leave.

Maybe that’s what I need, Viktor thinks idly. A love that doesn’t leave.

He dismisses the idea almost immediately. Whatever this emptiness is, it’s not something that romance can fill.

*

“Do you think I should keep skating?”

He’s not even sure this is a question he wants an answer to, but it’s a question he feels like he needs to ask, and he has to ask it to the person who has known him the longest.

“Of course you have to keep skating!” Yakov shouts, predictably angry. “What else are you going to do? Retire? Travel? Write your memoirs? Don’t be an idiot. You’re still the best, so you keep skating. What else is there?”

Right, Viktor thinks.

What else is there?

*

“‘Do you want my autograph?’ God, you’re such a fucking idiot. Get over yourself, asshole, not everything is about you.”

Yuri has been on a tirade for quite some time, and Viktor doesn’t understand why. Nor does he particularly care—Yuri is usually on a tirade about one thing or another and Viktor has long since concluded it’s just better to smile and nod along when he gets like this.

“Really, Viktor, that was poorly done,” Mila says. And if even Mila agrees than surely he must have done something wrong, but it’s too late to figure out what now. “Although, Yuratchka, I’m not sure why you care—weren’t you the one saying, ‘There only needs to be one Yuri?’”

“THERE DOES ONLY NEED TO BE ONE YURI,” Yuri shouts. “THAT IS NOT THE POINT. THE POINT IS THAT HE IS A FUCKING ARROGANT MORON.”

“It is good that Yuri has a rival,” Georgi says off-hand, “Besides you, that is. A more attainable goal, since he’s just starting out.”

A rival, Viktor thinks. It always comes back to that. Is that what I need? Not a Viktor, but an attainable goal.

But everyone on the ice was a friend and a rival, so he’s not even sure what that means.

*

It’s only at the reception that Viktor realizes what it is that the others had been yelling at him for. He sees the dejected Japanese man and it clicks, Oh, he’s another skater. No wonder Yuri yelled at him—it was very poor form to offer his autograph to another skater.

Guilt is not something he likes to dwell on—he doesn’t like it, he’s never been particularly good at it, and really all things considered life is just much easier if he’s not too hung up on what other people feel because of him.

But he does feel bad.

He keeps watching the sad man and thinks to himself, How could I have known? He remembers Yuuri Katsuki now, (Yuuri had, all things considered, been a very memorable skater—it’s no wonder he caught Yuri’s eye) and the glasses make him look like a whole different person.

He’ll have to apologize later.

The not-guilt makes him aware of the other man in a way that maybe he wouldn’t be otherwise. It’s strange—but maybe he’s envious of the other man’s devastation. Maybe that’s what I need—something that will make me cry. He can’t remember the last time he cried. He can’t even remember the last time he had anything he cared enough to cry about.

*

“Shouldn’t someone make him stop?” Michele says, sounding nervous. “That’s like his fifteenth glass, and I’m not even exaggerating.”

“Pft, Italians,” Mila scoffs. Michele is far too easy to tease, so she purposefully thickens her accent and says, “That’s nothing. We feed that to babies, in Russia. You Italians just don’t know how to hold your liquor.”

“I can hold my liquor just fine!” Michele shouts. (“He really can’t,” his sister whispers at the side), “I’m just saying, if he keeps drinking like that he’s going to die.”

Mila has a point—Russians know how to drink. It’s a point of national pride, really. And maybe that’s why every single Russian in the room is watching Yuuri Katsuki with a sort of hushed respect. It’s not just that he’s on his fifteenth, moving onto his sixteenth, glass of champagne, it’s that it doesn’t look like the liquor is slowing him down any and you don’t have to be Russian to know just how impressive that is.

Maybe that’s what I need, Viktor thinks. Drink until I lose all control.

Or maybe I just need to lose control.

*

“Viktor! After the season is over, my family owns a hotspring, so please come. Be my coach! If I win this dance-off, you’ll be my coach, right?”

Oh, Viktor thinks.

Maybe all I need is you.



A/N: Thanks, anon-friends! I haven’t fully decided if I want to write a long story for Yuri on Ice yet, (largely because I’m not sure I have stories to tell yet) but I am also super weak to anyone asking me to write something, so I hope you enjoy this character sketch of Viktor! I am sure it has been done before a million times, but it’s where I wanted to start in this fandom =D Thanks again!!