My contribution to the PostitForward movement!
May is Mental Health month, and the support from everyone on this website means so much to me.
As I was taking these photos, I found myself critiquing every little thing about myself and what I looked like. Then I realized what the pictures were for.
I refuse to think badly of myself anymore. I love every one of you, I think you’re all beautiful, so why is it that I shouldn’t feel the same of myself?
So, I hope my mental illness is watching me right now, watching me smile into the camera, because I won. I won this battle and I will continue to fight and win for the rest of my life.
Summary: Dance school!AU (or the Step Up/Pride and Prejudice mash up nobody asked for). Bucky Barnes is forced to take twelve hours of commercial dance classes to pass the year- and that just happens to be your regular weekly dance class.
New chapter, new header and new readers! I’m thrilled to have you all (getting the notifications when you read through the story right from the start is honestly amazing ahhhh) and I have made good on my promise to have these shorter chapters up in quicker succession. Let’s do this!
“Why is it,” You grumble, hopping about on one foot, “That
fluff always collects on the soles of tights even though you wash them?”
“I highly doubt anyone’s going to be looking at your feet,
Y/N,” Wanda calls from the bathroom, and Pepper nods her head in agreement. You
sigh and give up.
“Pepper…” Wanda’s voice floats back in, “Please find out why
she’s stressing so much. I can’t take it for no reason.”
“What- no. No-”
You start to clam up, but Pepper shifts on the beanbag and fixes you with a piercing
“She’s right, Y/N. Something’s up.” When you sigh
uncomfortably, Pepper touches your arm. “You can tell us!”
You suppose you can: but, all the same, you’re never keen on
making yourself more vulnerable than you have to be. It’s just a silly crush, you tell yourself, then force yourself to
stop chewing your lip.
“It’s James,” You relent, “I mean, it’s nothing, but-” The
end of your sentence is drowned out by a whoop as Wanda comes leaping back into
the main room.
“I knew it!
Pepper, you owe me a drink!”
“What?!” You gasp,
then make an ineffectual swat at Wanda as she bounds past. “You are the worst!
I can’t believe you- you made a bet
“It was obvious something was going on,” Pepper makes an
apologetic face, “But I thought it
was just you making friends.”
“He got her to stretch, Pep,” Wanda says, smirking, “I’ve
been trying to do that for two years.”
“Ugh,” You groan, “Please don’t say anything tonight. I’m
just taking it slow.”
“Of course we won’t,” Pepper says, instantly. Wanda holds
out for a moment longer, before relenting.
“Fine. We’ll do it your way.”
“Good,” You say, firmly. Your heart’s still pounding a
little, but at the sight of your friends’ smiles, you can’t help but feel just
a little bit optimistic, too.
Wanda and Pepper had been magnanimous about girls’ night
being upstaged by an invite from the ballet school, but they both insisted on
coming ‘round to yours before setting off. Thinking about it, they’d probably
planned it, just to get a confession out of you.
“Are you ready to go?” Pepper said, getting to her feet.
“It’s nearly quarter-to.”
“Yep, just let me get my shoes on.”
“Hold on!” Wanda yelps, dashing back out, “I forgot to do
one last thing before I log off forever of tumblr:
I am so proud to call myself a juventina. I’m proud that I’m loyal to my club. Juve could lose all the finals in the next 10 years, I would still be here wearing our colours and singing our hymn until my very last breath. I'm proud to support Juve and not any other Italian club, or Spanish or German or English club. I don’t care if they have more trophies, more fans, more money, more success, whatever. I owe Juve so much, I owe especially Gigi Buffon so, so much. As many times I wanted to forget about juve, there are as many times where I wouldn’t still be here without them. For nothing in the world would I want to love a different club other than Juventus.
You know, I think the biggest difference between RoboMay and Melinda is really just the talking.
Melinda doesn’t push, she doesn’t pry. (Maybe sometimes, when it’s for a mission or something). Other people give her information, or she figures things out in her head without asking. She almost always keeps her thoughts/questions to herself.
Which, by the way, I think is another great yin-yang aspect she has with Phil. Phil is constantly asking questions out loud. It’s how he thinks (i.e., the Tai Chi scene). He also pokes and prods and pushes people until they give him an answer. Phil and Melinda balance each other out that way. I’m not sure Melinda would have ever told Phil about seeing him when she died, except that he kept dogging her about it. RoboMay, on the other hand, DOES ask questions frequently and pushes for answers. About missions and information (especially about the Darkhold, of course), but also when it comes to Phil (which makes sense, because whether she knows it or not, she IS on a mission, so she naturally pushes).
I think the biggest distinction between them is not that Melinda doesn’t think/feel the same way as RoboMay, but that with Melinda, there’s always something holding her back from actually saying it. That’s why I’ve always headcanoned that Phil would have to be the one to cross the boundary in their relationship, because Melinda won’t do it–unless maybe she KNOWS he feels the same way. I don’t think Melinda would have told Phil to “start taking chances” the way RoboMay did, nor do I think she would have told him about going to Ireland together (at least not so obviously)–and not because she doesn’t want to say it, not because she doesn’t feel the same, but because she would stop herself from saying it.
RoboMay’s programming, on the other hand, lets her overcome Melinda’s apprehension/fear/whatever it is that holds her back. It removes that barrier that Melinda created in order to stay distanced from Phil just enough that they didn’t cross that line between friends/partners and lovers. That’s why things have been progressing so quickly between RoboMay and Phil, whereas he and Melinda have been moving at a slower pace since the beginning of the show, and most notably this season. That’s my theory, anyway.
so idk how widespread the news is but grenfell tower which caught on fire earlier is still blazing, nearly 24 hours later, i don’t live there but i live so close, i accidentally stepped on charred clumps of building on my way home. i’ve seen people i know on tv being interviewed who only just escaped, there are people i know who lived there and i don’t know if they’re safe or not. i cannot believe this was allowed to happen, and i will tell you NOW, for a fact, that they clad that fucking building to make it look ‘nicer’ for that piece of shit academy they built and i hope it haunts them for the rest of their lives because it let that entire building be engulfed in flames and i’m so fucking furious. i live in the RICHEST BOROUGH IN THE COUNTRY. and they let people burn to fucking death because they’re fucking cheap and negligent.
like… literally probably hundreds of people are dead. completely turned to ash, people were throwing their children out, their babies out, of stories high windows just in the hope that they might survive. people jumping out from the top floors because they have no real choice. people had to step over bodies in the stairwell to make it out. the 1 stairwell this block had, for hundreds of residents.
i’m just so fucking shocked, seeing it today was so fucking harrowing, it was something like out of an apocalypse movie, right in the middle of london, not so far from where the former PM lived