❤ Does your muse have an embarrassing favorite movie? ♛ A memory that will turn your muse’s face royally red? ✰ Has your muse ever cyber stalked someone, (& were they caught)? ☎ Did your muse ever leave someone a drunken voicemail? ✉ What is the worst texting slip up your muse has ever experienced? ☠ What is your muse deathly afraid of? ☂ What music does your muse listen to on an (emotionally) rainy day? $ Has your muse ever spent too much money on something stupid? ☮ Has your muse ever told a ridiculous lie to keep the peace? ☃ Has your muse ever built a snowman? (Was it ‘traditional’, or ‘unique’?) ™ If asked, what would your muse think is their defining quality to others? ✈ If your muse got kicked out of a country, what would it be for? ⌚ What is your muse’s go to excuse for being late? ☼ / ❅ Does your muse prefer sunbathing, or bundling up for winter? ∞ If your muse could live forever, what would they ideally do? (If they’re already immortal, what would they do if they started over?) ツ What makes your muse smile at their phone like a dork? ❝❞ What would your muse’s cheesy yearbook quote be?
*deep breath* I’m quite nervous about this, but here it goes.
I decided to officially come out as two things that I’ve actually been ashamed of for the longest of time. I’m doing this because I’m finally getting to that point where I can’t just cope with it or accept it, but I’m actually starting to take pride in being who I am (let’s hope it stays that way!). I also hope that this might reach and maybe in a small way help someone like me who isn’t quite there yet.
First of all: I’m intersex. Intersex is a broad term that implies a person is born physically diverting from the gender binary (it is often confused with transgender, since both often struggle with gender-identity). I’m also however, cisgender. Which -yes-, is possible. I’ve always identified as female and was identified as such at birth. My chromosomes however are XY… I’ll try to explain:
Yuuri and Grief/Loss as it Applies to his Career (and Victor)
Following my Victor and Grief post, here is a look at
Yuuri’s perspective to his feelings of grief and loss surrounding his own career. Unlike Victor whose
perspective we didn’t get until later episodes, Yuuri’s has been laid bare for
us since episode 1. We’ve gotten the chance to hear his thoughts in specific
moments and watch his evolution throughout the course of the show.
So one thing that I think will come as a surprise to absolutely
no one is that he has been grieving over the loss of his career since episode
1. And added to that is that he accepted this loss by the time episode 12’s
hotel scene rolled around.
Let’s take a moment to quickly review what kinds of loss
Yuuri has been working through.
In the interest of not repeating a huge chunk of text that I
already described at the beginning of my Victor post, I’m going to point you to
it here and only describe the portions here that apply to Yuuri.
The type of loss that Yuuri works through during the show
would fall under the category of Anticipatory
Loss. In short, this is the anticipation of loss, regardless of whether the
loss will actually come to pass or not. Victor says “I’ll get you gold at the
GPF” but never actually states during the entire show that his coaching and
time with Yuuri will end there. That interpretation of his words is entirely on
Yuuri’s end. Yuuri then spends a lot of time convincing himself that he is going to
lose Victor when there’s been no confirmation on whether that will actually happen or not.
The impact of Yuuri’s loss very clearly falls under the
category of Compound Loss. It’s easy
enough to see that through losing his career he feels like he is going to lose
a lot more (the future tense and focus on how he feels about it are important
as his loss is about something he feels
he is going to lose in the future).
He would be losing his role, identity, direction, and more. But most importantly
he’d be losing his relationships, both with his friends/fellow skaters (Phichit
for example) as well as with Victor, both before he knew him (he’d lose his
chance to ever get to know him in any capacity) and after (he’d lose the
relationship he had grown with him as a person and not just a skater).
As you can see, none of that really comes as a surprise
because Yuuri himself has basically told us as much. So let’s get into the 5
stages and see where they play in.
Fandom: Knights of the Old Republic Pairing: F!Revan/Carth Onasi Warning: character death
Title comes from something Malak says to Revan: “You belong to neither the light nor the darkness. You will forever stand alone.” I wrote this, as one does, in a text message at around midnight because I wanted to give @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels some feels to tell people about. It comes from two things: an exploration of Revan choosing the dark side ending without being wholly evil (inspired by something Kreia says about Revan becoming dark lord out of necessity) and the cut dark side ending with the Carth romance.
“Anakin’s fear is a kind of dragon. A cold kind. A dead kind.
Not nearly dead enough. That is the kind of fear that lives inside Anakin Skywalker: the dragon of a dead star. It
is an ancient, cold dead voice within his heart that whispers all things die…” “The dragon reminds him, every night, that someday he will lose Obi-Wan. He will lose
Padmé. Or they will lose him.
All things die, Anakin Skywalker. Even stars burn out…”
↳i don’t understand how this all happens. how we go through this. i mean, i knew her, and then she’s- there’s just a body, and i don’t understand why she just can’t get back in it and not be dead anymore. it’s stupid. it’s mortal and stupid. and xander’s crying and not talking, and-and i was having fruit punch, and i thought, well, joyce will never have any more fruit punch ever, and she’ll never have eggs, or yawn or brush her hair, not ever, and no one will tell me why.