i'll.... stop talking now....

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If you run into a wall and pretend it doesn’t exist, you’ll never make progress. The wall will never change, so you’re the one who has to change.

Happy birthday to my dear Allen!!

we tried hard to stand it. we

were barely human. we were bodies

stacked with pain. we never said sorry,
didn’t wanna. you were always drunk
& sad & too far gone for that. I was
terrible & I didn’t care about being better.
but now you’re standing in my bedroom.
now you’re scared & you say you
wanna get into heaven. you wanna

stand in some form of light that isn’t
filtered through clouds of crude smoke.
good luck, & who knows, maybe god
will forgive us for all of this. the stones
we threw, the ankles we bit, the people
we kissed. showing up at the gates
with our tails between our legs.

starved & mad, two dogs who missed
their last meal, licking our wounds &
itching for a fair fight.

there so much to get mad about.
go ahead pick something. imagine
if it helped. imagine if mattered.
I didn’t cry when you left. I just
circled ‘round the block & waited
for you to come back. because
you always do. because I know
how this goes. we pretend we
aren’t the same & then we realize
we are & we pretend we don’t care.
we need each other & that’s all we do.

it’s crazy the things you do for a friend.

it’s crazy the way you’ll act for love.

Cards on the Table (Taron Egerton)

Originally posted by senxrfoggy

Summary: They dealt the cards in their hands when it came to their relationship, but there was always one that they kept hidden in their sleeves.

Author’s Note: I don’t normally write imagines for real actors, but my thirst levels are off the chart and I couldn’t help myself when I got this idea. I wrote it mainly for myself so I just want to publish it here for fun. Enjoy!


Their relationship always seemed a bit simple once they laid their cards out on the table.

Being cast as one of the main bodyguards for the villain in the new Kingsman movie meant spending quite a bit of time with the main cast. Even more so when her role involved seducing Taron Egerton’s Eggsy Unwin in the script. They got along quickly, and it didn’t take her long to know that she was attracted to him.

Who wouldn’t be? He was very cute and sweet and made her laugh. She had almost let it develop into a crush. Almost.

After a long day of shooting on the set, Taron, herself, and a few of the cast went out to a nearby bar for drinks. A few rounds in, the conversation had turned in the direction of relationships and types. She had no type, she said. If she was attracted to a guy, she was attracted to him; it didn’t matter what his hair color, eye color, or race was. Simple.

Taron’s was simple as well. “I like older women,” he answered. That was his card, and that was when she knew she didn’t stand a chance; she was two years younger than him. One of their co-stars said that people always end up dating beyond their types. She (almost) wanted to believe that was true and keep that glimmer of hope, but her thoughts quickly shut it down. Why wouldn’t it work between Taron and an older, more mature woman?

She was most definitely not that.

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hi I watched the latest episode and
im totally not crying
i totally did not screech at the top of my lungs
totally
but
he gave her
a bracelet
because she gave him one
yea not crying

edward elric and ronan lynch are both hot headed teenagers with immense powers linked to creation who fall in love with their mechanic friend, idolized their mothers growing up, have complicated relationships with an older male member of their immediate family, have fathers who were largely absentee and possessed the same powers as them, and are extremely protective of their younger brothers, both of whose lives are connected to their older brothers’ own lives, due to the older sibling being somewhat responsible for the creation of their current physical form

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Woken up like an animal
Teeth ready for sinking
My mind’s lost in bleak visions
I’ve tried to escape but keep sinking

anonymous asked:

anyway, this thing could have been so much worse! like camille and kendall aren't even gonna walk, sw*ft isn't gonna perform. I'm pretty sure someone out there isn't really happy about how this thing turn out

As far as I am concerned it’s still a shit show he’s participating for the sake of a narrative and image harry has always fought against, but his team wants so much for him. the pr machine behind VS Fashion Show with harry involved is going to be ridiculous (and it already is if you read the press about it, international press especially, and the comments they are writing about his presence at the event) because shows like this one lives for this kind of circus and i am sure they couldn’t wait to have lothario styles™ and some of his pr stunts at the same show while he sings song like kiwi or something like only angel (which logically would be the second song he might perform). taylor swift was part of the whole narrative and im glad it looks like she’s not performing but she might be still there and you can bet your left hand she’s going to exploit this shit in any way possible cause thats what she does. her pr with harry still produces publicity and money for her and it’s highly encouraged by both teams as we could see during the promo for harry’s album. Again, even without her in the show, its still a bad move in my opinion, especially if we think about the fact that harry doesnt do any other even that is not grammy related, azoff related or friends in the industry related (corden, grimshaw etc.) so him performing at VS is clearly just for the sake of  easy publicity based on his image which frankly sucks and has always sucked since 2010 and i am quite tired of them selling him this way (as much as i am tired to see louis being sold the way he is, they are all on the same boat but with different narratives). Once more, it’s his team’s choice and if they are happy with it fine but it doesnt mean i have to support it or be excited because I know what to expect (I work with VS Fashion Show every year) and I will definitely not like the whole show. It’d be the same if it was louis, clearly, but its even more yikes because they make harry do it with all that it entails plus they gave him a gross ex-VS model who worships charles manson to date for the season mostly because of this show. 

(don’t even make me start about the message a show like VS sends and be associated with it it’s a no for me. Obviously, anyone is entitled to their opinion and be happy Harry can get publicity out of it, I am not.) 

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I know I already posted a bunch of gifs making fun of myself, but I just remembered that I sent these texts to my good friend last night, and watching my unabashed panic in the moment is way funnier than any jokes I could slap on a gif of me being an idiot.
So here it is: a summary and review of my experiences with the You’re Welcome tour. Featuring @markiplier, @crankgameplays, Wade, Bob, Dan the Music Man, and the crushing psychological weight of playing the Nintendo Switch. Tyler is not mentioned, but is there in spirit, and also standing stoically in the background.
Important to note: after watching the video today, I discovered that I did not hug Ethan twice, nor did I actually even pause when Mark asked for my name. That was entirely in my head. My brain constantly works under the assumption that it’s about to implode at any given moment, so it just made an educated guess and assumed I did something stupid.
Also, I want you guys to know that the first thing Mark Fischbach said when gazing upon my face wasn’t even a real word. It was just a guttural throat noise. I feel like that belongs on my resume in the “references” section.
“Probably not my #1 child, but she sure does try. Please note that I only have two children.” -Mom
“Not a hoarder at least.” -Former Roommate
“Who?” -Astronomy Professor
“UGGHHH.” -Markiplier

A Writer’s PSA

Firstly: I just saw an interesting post made by @caplanbuckybarnes (who I can’t tag, but that’s okay), that inspired both anger and relief in me at once. I was compelled to type out this PSA.

Secondly: I am tagging everyone who has asked to be tagged in The Irrelevance of Napoli SO YOU CAN SEE HOW GODDAMN AWESOME THEY ARE BEFORE I START THIS. 

@thecrownedrose @persephone-is-here-omg @find-me-here2 @captainamerotica @redgillan @angryschnauzer @ursulaismymiddlename @rebelslicious @kittykitty-mewmeww @erisjade @siren-kitten-his @buckyappreciationsociety @kozmicrock @aingealcethlenn @rachelle-on-the-run @thewinterswimmer @vaisabu @inside-lizzys-head @angryschnauzer @melconnor2007 

Thirdly: I am doing this more for the sake of my upcoming fic, Cherchez la Femme, which I have been working on for MONTHS–probably since Septemberish–than I am for Napoli. Also doing this for the sake of other authors who may feel this way, but don’t want to say anything for fear of making people mad. I personally am tired of dealing with my own anxiety about this subject, so I’m getting this off my chest. 

Okay.

 I am exceedingly frustrated by the majority of attitudes (or non attitudes) I see towards anything that is not a one-shot on here. ESPECIALLY if it’s smut.

I like smut. I love smut. I’ve read some really good smut on here. But… that’s not all I’ve read on here. When I first got on Tumblr, I found some really unique and interesting fics, and I got very invested in them. But lately, the majority of what I’ve been seeing on this site is the same damn thing, over and over and over again. Smut one shots, no plot, no character development, no nothing. Those fics I was invested in were discontinued (temporarily, I hope) in favor of smut one shots, which, like I said, I don’t mind, but ya know… I also do.

Authors are capable of writing more than smut one shots. 

Authors are capable of writing more than smut one shots. And many of them do write more than smut one shots. But I have seen two (2) of the multi-part fics I follow being seriously reblogged. That’s out of A LOT that I happen to read and like. One of my favorites got put on hiatus because there were no reads on the most recent chapter at the time.

Tumblr, seriously, what is going on? Like, I recognize that we all want to imagine ourselves having sex with some version of Sebastian Stan (ME TOO, I AM NOT EXCLUDING MYSELF FROM THAT GROUP) but some of these people have worked ages, ages on these fics. With well-developed characters and plot and settings and serious issues that are worked through. THESE PEOPLE I READ SHOULD WRITE ORIGINAL CONTENT AND GET PUBLISHED. In my world, they would. Because they are that good.

And yet, they get almost no recognition. And it frustrates me, and scares me, and makes me really, really sad. Some might say, “Tumblr is more (something else) than fanfic for me”–which is fine. Please engage in whatever joy may have brought you to Tumblr. But also remember that for others, it IS about fanfic, and they enjoy doing that just as much as you enjoy doing whatever you do. So hit the like button every once in a while. Read more fics of your favorite characters. Some might say, “I have –something that gives me a shorter attention span–, I can’t remember what happened before this chapter/can’t concentrate enough to get through a whole fic in the time I have”–in which case, you are fine, don’t worry about it, not a big deal. Some of you may say, “Works in progress are annoying, I hate waiting for new parts to come out”–and trust me, I’m right there with you. I’m waiting on a few new parts for fics myself (I’m also waiting for Diana Gabaldon’s next Outlander book, goddammit), but that doesn’t stop me from reading and commenting on the parts that are there! Tell the author that you have something to look forward to until the next part comes out! Also, TELL THE AUTHOR IF YOU ARE WAITING FOR THEM TO COMPLETE IT, or ask to be tagged in the final masterlist! We won’t mind if you do it that way! Some of you may just hate longer fics and there’s nothing anybody can do to change that. In which case, whatever floats your boat.

I’m not getting on anyone in the above paragraph to suddenly change your preferences and start reading fics with more than two parts. What I am saying, though, is if you consume, but don’t comment AND reblog (or at least tag and reblog), or if you don’t consume at all and blatantly ignore what authors are putting out there… come on, guys. We put our heart and souls into this stuff. Some of the stuff we write is taken from real life. Some people don’t have anything but their writing to help them get through what may be a really bad stage. Likes, comments, reblogs–writers need these. We don’t all have to be JK Rowling here, but we do hope to see that someone smiles or laughs, or cries, or feels in some way with our fics. 

One of my friends on here was very sad a couple of days ago because she was getting very few notes on even her one-shots, or reblogs with no comments. She has 700+ followers and a taglist that’s a mile long. It made me sad for her, and I can’t even hug her because she lives far away from me. Readers, you don’t have to comment or reblog every chapter of a fic that’s been written, it’s really okay if you don’t, but let the reader know that you like it and acknowledge the work that’s been done. 

I’m still relatively tiny on here, and I definitely need to follow more blogs, so I will now go looking. But, indulge me for a second: If, when I publish Cherchez, I deem it as not getting enough notes, I will make a goddamn video of myself deleting the thing off my computer and burning the damn notebooks. I started by writing this stuff for me. Napoli ended up being about someone I know who recently died. Cherchez was what I wrote when I was coming out of a breakdown. So yes, I write for myself. But as soon as I put it up here, it becomes yours. You consume it, you feel because of it. So really, guys, read all the smut you want. I know I’m going to. But read more than smut, too.

Sincerely,

Someone who is a teeny bit oversmutted

(If you want to, you can check my tags for more info)

Things I would like from 2b:

• Simon getting an individual storyline that doesn’t revolve around him being someone’s love interest
• Luke getting proper screen time
Sapphic content!!
• no more R*zzy
• Isabelle being healthy and happy
• more Maia (being treated well)
• Malec (no requests just give me more. Malec talking. Malec breathing etc.)
• Jace not having an utterly shit time
• also Raphael not having an utterly shit time
• Luke and Magnus being besties
• death to Climon
• more Max and Magnus content because I deserve good things
• Meliorn being part of the storyline because srsly?? Wtf writers?? Give me that content!
• Fix that Raphael/Simon dynamic because it’s bumming me out
• more cute Raphael + Magnus family time
• give Maia a cute gf (Jordan who??)
• more premium content of Magnus being the high warlock of Brooklyn
• and PLS no more incest!!! (cough*Sebastian*cough)

Okay so, it’s Sunday and i’m out of good paper to draw anything new and everything is closed on Sunday so I can’t get more. I still have not-so-good paper that I can use for linearts but that’s pretty much it, sooo

How about we do an ask game thing or an anon hour later tonight? Some of you have been asking for one and it’s been a loooong time, and I miss talking w/ you all. I can still answer with little doodles, I just can’t paint them. I’ll let ya know!