i'll write you

Knowing I can’t give you everything you deserve is breaking me apart

I don’t know when it happened but I think I’m in love with you.
—  Day 265

“September 25, 2017
take me back to the night
when everything was simple
when talking was easy
and laughing was easier
take me back to the couch
where we learned to be us
where our hands fit just right
and our hearts fit even better
take me back to the moment
that you first began to love me
that i knew we would be okay
and we would be together
take me back to us
because us just felt so right
because I want to live in that feeling
and there can’t be an us forever”

— kaitlyn. h

I miss you
I said it to myself, only to myself, I have no right to say it out loud not even to you the one I miss
I have no right to express that my being is missing yours .. if I had the courage, the strength, and a dose of plain boldness I would say it to your face. 

 let us picture a scene where I had all of those characters and said it.  what do I expect in return  .. please don’t say “I miss you too ”.. no, anything but that, I will accept silence. I will accept a shocked reaction in your face .. a swift change in the subject but you saying" I miss you too “is not what I want,   you didn’t miss me and you don’t mean it while when my tongue said those words it expressed what all of me wanted to say .. I missed you .. these are not words .. I miss you … these are state of being.

-S.B

The sky is as clear

as our love story.

I am the sun that shines

and highlights your stunning

features

but all you did

was to squint your eyes

and rushed to the nearest

shade.

I’ve always wondered what you saw in me and what made me so special.
—  Day 242
I know I say I love you too much and I’m sorry but one day I won’t be able to tell you anymore and I just want you to know how much I do love you
—  Day 231

“I miss you, but not the type of missing where you crave to be close to someone, the type of missing where you’d do anything to hear their voice.”

- Excerpt from a book I’ll never write (excerptsfromstories)

Get me a book as a gift. Your favorite book. Highlight the lines that makes you feel something. Make note on the passages that make you laugh. Mark down the things that make you cry. I want to see exactly the kind of person you are, let me read what makes you, you.

Mp

i acted like it wasn’t a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

Day 17

Dear ex,
Thank you. Thank you for showing me what I deserve. I now know that I deserved better than you ever gave me.
—  Day 218