“September 25, 2017 take me back to the night when everything was simple when talking was easy and laughing was easier take me back to the couch where we learned to be us where our hands fit just right and our hearts fit even better take me back to the moment that you first began to love me that i knew we would be okay and we would be together take me back to us because us just felt so right because I want to live in that feeling and there can’t be an us forever”
I miss you I said it to myself, only to myself, I have no right to say it out loud not even to you the one I miss I have no right to express that my being is missing yours .. if I had the courage, the strength, and a dose of plain boldness I would say it to your face.
let us picture a scene where I had all of those characters and said it. what do I expect in return .. please don’t say “I miss you too ”.. no, anything but that, I will accept silence. I will accept a shocked reaction in your face .. a swift change in the subject but you saying" I miss you too “is not what I want, you didn’t miss me and you don’t mean it while when my tongue said those words it expressed what all of me wanted to say .. I missed you .. these are not words .. I miss you … these are state of being.
Get me a book as a gift. Your favorite book. Highlight the lines that makes you feel something. Make note on the passages that make you laugh. Mark down the things that make you cry. I want to see exactly the kind of person you are, let me read what makes you, you.