i'll try to find a better one

It started out small. First I made excuses to why I had been crying, then when that didn’t work, I just ignored whatever questions I was asked. After that came feeling drained emotionally and physically. I slept off however I felt in hopes to feel better… but that led to headaches and pills. Getting over you is no simple task.. it’s one I hoped I’d never even have to try to commit to. Yet, at the same time, I knew we’d never last.
—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write. (#43)

I’m still trying to convince myself that im a better person when I’m high, but the truth always finds a way back to me
And when the drugs are gone, and the day is done I can still feel the sadness lingering.

I wanted a life of substance but I always get lost in the substances.

Shaking, crying, aching for another line
Wanting the rush, the dope, just one more time
Dry mouth, pounding heart, weight loss, just losing another part
Of my soul
Sleepless nights, dizzying heights of high
Dangerous decisions, damaged minds.

And coming down feels a lot like when you left
Sweating, bawling, temper short
Puking, tremors, a sickness I cant thwart
Sleeping 20 hours, trying to heal
Sometimes i just can’t deal

And I can lie to myself until the very end
Until my final moments come and go around the bend
But the truth is,
I’ll just never make amends.


trying out a new signature, one of these days i’ll find one that I’m 100% satisfied with, maybe orz

in other news, i can’t believe this is getting a japanese dub?! i’m so excited to hear his voice~ but at the same time, the pain of your fav being a super minor character w/ maybe 10 seconds of screen time total is…very…suffering…


          She was fire, and light, and ash, and embers. She was Aelin Fireheart, and she bowed for no one and nothing, save the crown that was hers by blood and survival and triumph.

And the stream has completed! Thank you guys for taking your time to join me in my first stream! I know it wasn’t very eventful as I only finished a sketch of half a body in more than one hour…. but I got to know you guys better and it was really fun for me! Sorry again to those who couldn’t chat( I didn’t know it only allowed people with accounts to chat)… I’ll try to find something better for the future! Anyways thank you all again!!!!


BOOM! I’ve been quiet for a while due to many projects…. here’s one of them! After seeing Tentayena had done a Tadashi figure, I was dying for one myself :’D so the idea/knowledge of what pieces to use comes from them (and I ain’t talkin) but this has definitely started me on the path to making more figures like this- I already have another BH6 character lined up~

This definitely feels like a prototype- I learned a LOT from doing this, and I’m not super happy with the edges of the lines- but look at that LOGO! I am so proud of me >w>


Gravity Falls Season Finale Soundtrack

not the best quality, but oh well

credits go to the creator of the video

Like everyone else in the world I’m playing pokemon go. Like everyone else playing that lives in a rural area, the lack of poke stops and pokemon kind of sucks. My office isn’t much better. But one of my co-workers tipped me off about the historic district a few minutes from our office being a gold mine.

Let me tell you, it was beautiful. There must have been 30 poke stops and three gyms in a half mile radius. 

So I’m walking down the strip, and I see a bar with a poke ball on its sign. The bar owner and one of the waitresses are sitting at a table outside playing. The outside tables are within range of three poke stops. They look up, and let me know very enthusiastically that their bar is filled with pokemon and that I need to go inside and catch more. I told the owner I couldn’t buy a drink since I’d be driving home soon, and she said she didn’t mind at all if I didn’t buy anything, but I HAD to go catch the good pokemon inside. Like she really, REALLY wanted me to go inside.

She told me she’d take me around personally, even through the back, on one condition: I had to show her my collection and anything I caught in the bar. So she did just that. She took me around through the bar, the stage, the back stage, the storage rooms, even the kitchen. There was a goldeen, a staryu, a zubat, and an eevee. And oh yeah, a really cool bar. 

She was just so excited about everything I caught, everything she caught, and was just to welcoming to anyone who wanted to come in and play. Definitely made a mental note to come back with friends.

I’ve had more conversations with random people since I started playing this game. Businesses that are smart enough to take advantage can do very well with this. I’m exploring areas I’ve never been to before, finding new places to hang out. And man, people are just being so nice! Tell me again how this game is bad thing?


Even if you don’t live in Salt Lake PLEASE REBLOG TO SPREAD THE WORD.

“Steven Smith, a 14 year old boy with autism was last seen on Wed. April 30th at around 5:50 at Heritage Park in Salt Lake City. If you see him please call 801-799-3000 or call 911.”

Steven is 5 feet 5 inches tall and weighs 120 pounds. He has brown hair, blue eyes and was last seen wearing a grey “Star Wars” T-shirt and dark, shiny sweatpants.

Steven has the mental capacity of a 6 year old and may not speak without being prompted. He possibly doesn’t realize that he is lost and will be cold and hungry. Anyone interested in participating in the search can meet at Heritage Park.

Thank you!

Beautiful Lies Sentence Starters Pt. 1
  • “Trying to change your mind is like the weather.”
  • “And you don't make my heart beat like you used to.”
  • “Maybe one day we'll fit back together.”
  • “I've been waiting for a sign
  • “We could save each other for the better.”
  • “And when you say my name I'll be a memory.”
  • “This is more than we had planned.”
  • “I find it's too hard to breathe.”
  • “Just say what you want to say.”
  • “Time to learn from our mistakes.”
  • "Only you ever make me scared."
  • "So wherever you go, I'm your shadow."
  • " I know every way you move."
  • "You stay, you go, you change I am far too."
  • "I've seen you lose your way, you're not in control and you won't be told."
  • "All I can do to keep you safe is hold you close."
  • "Let go of all your haunted dreams tonight."
  • "Everyone keeps a darker place to lose control."
  • "I know your soul; I'll be your home."
  • "I would die a thousand times to ease your mind."
  • "I don't know if you mean everything to me."
  • "I wonder, can I give you what you need?"
  • "Can we just pretend that we're not falling into the deep end?"
  • "You've gone quiet, you don't call."
  • "I'll keep trying to help you heal."
  • "How do we mend?"
  • "I didn't choose to depend on you."
  • "It's out of our hands."
  • "Maybe it will work out in the end."
  • "This can't be love if it hurts so much."
  • "I will survive and be the one who's stronger."
  • "I will not beg you to stay."
  • "I will move on and you should know I mean it."
  • "I remember how we danced so close, I would stand on your feet."
  • "And the phone calls that would last all night, they were lifeboats to me."
  • "Our human hearts forget how strong they are."
  • "It's not giving up, it's letting go."