Having finally had enough, Amanda breaks up with Steve (I don’t know where exactly, maybe at the mall or out in front of the school ((somewhere with a lot of people watching))) and he’s kind of ‘whatever’ about the whole break up, but she ignores him and walks away with her head held high. However she still dated the guy for two years and she’s upset so she’s also fighting tears the entire way, and the moment she gets around the corner she runs right into Sam.
And he’s like “I saw what happened. You okay?”
And she’s like “I’m fine… Can you drive me home?”
And Sam freezes because he doesn’t own a car, his dad certainly isn’t going to buy him one, and seriously he doesn’t exactly make a lot of money selling drugs in this small town, but she’s upset and he wants to be there so he’s like “Yeah, about that, I can give you a ride home. But I don’t exactly own a car.”
And she’s like “Well, what do you have?”
And he shows her his bike, the same bike he’s had since he’s been about 12, and she’s just standing there, staring at it, for way too long, but she also knows she can’t exactly face Steve or the rest of the school/mall right now. So, she sighs and says, “Fine, but I get to peddle.”
“I want you, believe me”, he pleads with his eyes.
She takes a deep breath, gathering all her thoughts. This would be the last time she would look him in the eyes and be this close to him. The last time.
“I believe you but it doesn’t matter anymore. I have waited months for you to tell me that, hoped every night for you to say those words to me. I’ve waited so long and it’s too late now. I don’t want you anymore, I don’t need you anymore. You took too long to figure out what you really want and it’s too late now. I’m sorry.”
With those words she turns around and leaves, closing yet another chapter of her life.
*slams hands down on the table* OTP AND I’M GONNA TELL YOU WHY
Let’s start with Chika wanting so desperately to shine. She’s in high school, she has yet to find her calling in life, to find something she cares a lot about, and suddenly BAM school idols color her world! Enter Riko, who she describes as a “miracle.” A literal miracle. And when Riko talks about how she used to be so passionate about the piano, Chika is amazed. She’s always been dreaming of having what Riko just lost. And you know what? That sucks. So of course she prompts Riko to be an idol. Yes, partially it’s for her own sake, but also because she wants Riko to fall in love with music again? Why else would she suggest Yume no Tobira as the first song Riko should hear? They both need to open the door to their dreams: Chika is about to find hers for the first time, while Riko needs to unlock the old door that one day shut in her face so coldly. When Chika reaches across the balcony to touch Riko’s hand, I swear an actual spark lit between them. (If nothing else, one lit up in my heart.)
THEY BUILD EACH OTHER UP!!! SO SUPPORTIVE!!!
They spend a ton of time together, working together, getting closer. They learn about each other, and they let their walls down in front of each other! Chika finally breaks down and sobs in Riko’s arms because she feels safe there. Riko literally CONFESSES HER LOVE TO CHIKA WHILE HOLDING HER HANDS IN FRONT OF THE SUNRISE???????? Iconic. Legendary. Canon.
Some people think Riko “stole Chika” but she’s so selfless, honestly. Chika had to literally tell her to go perform piano when it conflicted with the live. She had to convince her to follow her dreams. Riko felt so guilty about it anyway that she got everyone MATCHING SCRUNCHIES. Riko and Chika called each other while they were apart and that’s so sweet? Long-distance girlfriends? Nice.
Riko is trying so hard to overcome her depression, and Chika was just as much of a “miracle” for her as the other way around.
UM this doesn’t even begin to cover my thoughts on ChikaRiko but I’m going to stop here for now and just say that I love them forever byE
I’ve been in love with you for a year,” she admits.
“Over a year, actually, but you’ve never noticed because you never pay me any attention.”
He opens his mouth to say something, but she puts a finger up to stop him.
“I’ve always just been your girl friend you come to when you need sympathy. Not your girlfriend, but your friend that’s a girl, in case you needed clarification. I deserve so, so much better, but all I want is you.”
His mouth practically hangs open.
“Close your mouth honey, you’ll attract flies,” she says simply, then carries on.
“If you’ve ever even had a whisper of a thought about me cross your mind, please share it now. Because otherwise, I think I have to stay away from you. Loving you is destroying me.
I need some advice. I've fallen in love. The hardest part is I know I need to swallow my pride as not only is he leaving to go overseas for 3/4 months, but it's clear he's still in love with his ex of 4 years. It gives me a bit of anxiety as we get on so well and he comes over often, I see him at uni, I see him at work. He kisses me and calls me "my love" but I know that I'll never be his 'girlfriend'. I'm wondering how to go about this situation so I don't end up breaking my own heart.
I’m dealing with a hard breakup right now, I’m absolutely crushed. I’ve been throwing myself at other guys who don’t appreciate me, I’ve been talking to new people who don’t love nor appreciate me like he did. But I’m doing it because I want somebody to stop this pain from hurting so badly. It’s like I’m looking for him in everyone I meet.
I guess what I’m trying to say is….
Don’t get caught up in the crossfire of somebody else’s hurt, don’t be the person who gets used to help mend somebody else. I think you should talk to him, if you really think he’s not over her, then he probably isn’t. Break your own heart instead of waiting for him to do so.
And some day, maybe years from now, I hope I get a letter from you. It will be addressed with your new house number where you live with your girlfriend, soon to be fiance. In that letter, you’ll say the only thing you regret is never telling me you really loved me, you were just too young to understand what it meant. Maybe then I’ll finally feel like I haven’t been wasting all of my fucking time chasing my dreams of you and I.
I’m hopeless (excerpt from a book I’ll never write #21)