i'll run away

Let me get lost.”

There is a desire that resides deep within her soul to run away. To escape to an unknown future. To wander around eternally, without destination, without home in sight.

It is always there just beneath her skin, humming in her veins, vibrating on her bones, just barely on the back of her mind, always within grasp.

To carve a new path. To start a new adventure, a new life. To change her name, her looks, her identity, and personality. To forget. To go somewhere where no one knows her. To start all over again. To never look back.

To never get back.
—  cynthia go // Escape ( @cynthiatingo )
Klance Brothel AU

So I had an idea a few months ago about a Klance Brothel AU and I wanted to share some headcannons with y’all:

  • Keith Kogane is a prostitute in an illegal and unregulated brothel with exploitative conditions for workers
  • Lance McClain is a cop who pretends to be a prostitute
  • Everyone is aged up (from 25 to 35)
  • Lance is on a sting operation to catch the owner and go along with the suspect’s actions to gather evidence of the suspect’s criminal activity (exploitation of prostitution)
  • The operation is supervised by detective Allura Altea backed up by her assistant Coran and her team called “Voltron” (Hunk Garrett, Pigde Gunderson and Takashi Shirogane – also Lance)
  • Lance meets Keith for the first time after a few years right in the brothel
  • Keith is surprised to see Lance McClain there. Is he a client? He can’t tell but he hope so
  • Lance is shocked. He thought Keith just moved away to another state to start a new life or something
  • They went to the same police accademy but Keith got kicked out for disciplinary issues and lack of attendance even though he was one of the best students. Then he disappeared
  • They have been rivals but it was kind of one-sided thing started by Lance. He wanted to be recognize as an equal under Keith’s eyes
  • Actually Keith had a crush on Lance
  • Keith: “What the fuck are you doing here?!”
  • Lance: “Excuse me? What the fuck are you doing here?!”
  • Lance tells him he just got the job and from now on he’s an actual prostitute
  • Keith gets so mad at Lance that he drags the guy in his room yelling he’s just made the worst choice of his life
  • Lance: “That’s none of your business!”
  • Keith: “You’re just wasting your life, asshole
  • And that’s how Keith realizes he’s still pining after Lance
  • Lance thinks he can pull some important information from Keith since he’s been in the brothel for years and apparently he seems to be the owner’s favorite. He just need to get closer to him and get his complete trust
  • They become friends at some point and Keith trusts Lance enough to give him a lot of useful information. Keith also tells Lance he’s the only one he can trust in that place. Lance feels awfully guilty after Keith’s confession. After all he’s manipulating Keith filling his head with lies. But he has to if he wants the operation to succeed
  • Keith is jealous of Lance’s clients
  • Lance’s totally oblivious
  • They fight a lot because of that but Lance just doesn’t get it
  • Keith is a mess
  • Lance is only focused on his sting operation but then feelings kick him in the cojones
  • Keith is impulsive and sick of Lance’s blindness so he kisses him
  • They fuck
  • Lots of feelings
  • One day police raid on the brothel and the owner gets arrested. All the prostitutes are escorted out of the bulding. Keith is sickly worried since Lance is nowhere to be seen
  • Keith doesn’t want to leave without Lance so he fights against the cops
  • He’s forcibly dragged by the police out of the brothel. Lance is out there talking to a silver haired woman who seems to be a cop
  • The woman is returning Lance’s badge back giving him a pat on the shoulder. She seems to be very proud. Keith’s head starts to spin
  • Keith: “What does this mean…?”
  • Lance: “Keith…I can explain-“
  • Keith: “You fucking lied to me!”
  • A n g s t™

i’m sorry if I made any mistakes or whatever, English is not my first language plshavemercyonmeeeee

we have to assume that this isn’t the end. being fatalistic is easy, and feels almost good, but fundamentally, it gets us nothing. i believe in our ability to make things better. i believe that we are strong, that every oppressed and downtrodden individual in this country is strong and beautiful and deserves more. i love you all and i think we can make this better.

  • Me: *inhales*
  • Anyone I've communicated to in the past WEEK: YES, we KnOW. You love Alex Fierro, Alex Fierro is your CHilD, Alex Fierro is lIFe, ALEX FIERRO, FIERROCHASE, JUST. SHUT. UP. PLEASE.
  • Me: *backs away slowly*
  • Me: *whispers*
  • Me: a l e x f i e r r o
No wonder Lainey is mad lately (December 2016)

Here she is joining Gerg and Sarah for a game. She doesn’t look/sound happy. She leaves less than half way through this video and Billie joins them, too.

Take note how their legs are touching.

The screenshots above are from the most recent video on his uhohbro channel.

These pictures below are from this previous three or four videos from early Nov to now:

Look how closes these two are sitting versus how close he and his WIFE were.

Okay, so he’s grabbing her knee.

IT GETS BETTER!!! The girl using the VR is not Lainey, she’s another moderately attractive blue haired girl. So there’s three pretty girls in his house at this time and Lainey has fucked off in the back room I guess?

Look at that, folks. When is the last time he sat like this with Lainey? It gets better! 

Are- Are those Billie’s little fingers dangerously close to his teeny peeny? 

YES THEY ARE!!! 

Now they are hiding more under the cover. Verrry interesting. 

Wonder what’s going on under there?


So yeah, seeing this explains why Lainey is so unhappy. He lights up with Billie. They are always physically touching. He insults Lainey by calling her a “fucking moron” but he teases Billie and the other girls. Personally if I were Lainey I would’ve punched someone in the mouth by now. I would lose my mind over this. I’m sure she is losing her mind over this. 


So Lainey, or Elaine, or Laine, whatever you go by now, if you’re seeing this I hope you know that this is what’s happening while you’re off doing god knows what. I’m willing to bet that you pout in the room while he’s out here making videos with other girls, and I bet you don’t watch his gaming videos. So here we go! Pictures of this slimy fuck getting very, very cozy with the girl that he WANTS to be with. 

“The only reason why I’d do it again is because it made me who I am today. The nights I spent lying awake, tossing and turning. The times I debated whether or not to call you. That hollow feeling in my chest when it was over all of a sudden. Leaving you on your doorstep with tears in your eyes hurt me as much as it hurt you.” But I don’t know how to be different, I added in my head, I don’t know how to stop running. I took a step away from him and wiped his tears from my cheeks. Then I did what I did best. I ran.”


- excerpt 
n.j.

I haven’t been looking up lately. Like I’ve forgotten how engulfing the blue of the sky can be or how dark these nights are. With only a few daring stars visible for me to wonder about. I’m in need of new skies. Brighter and vaster than the tentative polluted gray one I’ve been stuck with. Aren’t I supposed to learn to love the skies I’m under? Because all I feel is disappointment. Maybe I’ve just been here for too long. The lure and appeal of every city has an expiration date and California as a whole has long since expired my attraction. This permanence is daunting. I’ve been stuck in the same house on the same street with the same people as six years ago. I hadn’t planned to cement my friendships in important things. I hadn’t expected to learn these streets. I still haven’t fully unpacked. Like I’m ready to bolt at any moment. To come home one day to an empty house a full car and an expectant heart. I thrive on the knowledge that there’s a solution to my problems. Leaving them. Dropping the ball. But things are different this time because there’s people who plan on running with me. Leaving everything behind doesn’t really work if your memories aren’t just memories. If they follow you instead of sticking to the cement they surfaced out of. If they dig up their roots just because I didn’t set any. I didn’t mean to invest myself so heavily in them but I did and now I want more than anything to disappear into the comfortable uncertainty I’ve been missing but haven’t found yet. I just need to leave.
—  this was written months ago but still feels relevant

how does one draw snow in SAI again…

anyhow, here’s a fanart for @pemprika‘s werewolf!yuu AU! >w< i haven’t done any proper colouring in a while so this was sort of a challenge for me as well TwT

i hope you like this!~ ;v;

Sweets Songs For Autumn

Thanks to @autumn-of-ilvermorny for the ask about the sweets songs! I hope this helps. <3

  • Mahiru: Oh what are you gonna watch?
  • Kuro: Probably a serial killer documentary again..
  • Mahiru: Nice, I like those types of documentaries too!
  • Kuro: ..Yeah it helps knowing what they all had in common which got them killed so I can avoid it
I’m leaving tomorrow. In fifteen hours, I’ll be throwing the last bag into my car, turning on the ignition and driving away and never coming back. I’ll be eighteen tomorrow. Some people say that’s a terrible way to spend a birthday, but I think that it’s perfect – tomorrow, I’m finally getting to do something I’ve wanted to do for most of my life. I can’t think of a better birthday present.
—  An excerpt from a book that I’ll never write #12

cloversdreams  asked:

*sneaks onto your page and gives you a hug then runs away*

okay, NO*grabs ankle and drags you back before clinging onto you*

Ohohoho you tried but failed miserably…! I got you. And I will fucking suck all the energy out of you because you’re churning out fanfics and I can’t do anything but obsess over MHABigBang. Fuck you, you lovely bundle of goodness. I shall squeeze the life out of you ♡

♡(っ˘з(⊙_⊙;)・゚。 HOW DARE YOU TRY TO RUN AWAY! YOU CAN’T JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME LIKE THAT CLOVER!! THAT’S NOT ALLOWED! GIVE ME YOUR LOVE! ALL OF IT!