I’m not sure what changed. I woke up one morning and realized I’ve been going about this all wrong. Like I’ve been trying to sprint through sand and now suddenly my feet hit the concrete, and I’m gone. Weightless.
I hope you let me fall in love with you. I hope you let me get to know you. I hope you let me see the shiny shell that you show to the world and the dark, scary corners of your soul and everything in-between.
I hope you tell me all your favorite things. I hope you let me tell you mine, but I think that listening to you would be more interesting. I want to know your favorite color, and your favorite memory with your parents, and what your favorite season is and why. I want to know all of that.
I want to see you at your best and at your worst. I want to see you in all your moods, both good and bad. I want to see you on your perfect days and the ones that you thought you would only see in nightmares.
And, most of all, I want to be there. I want to be there to hold your hand when you need it or want it or just want to hold it for no apparent reason. I want to be there for all of it. The good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. The discovery of new music and new places and new things and the discovery of feelings and hopelessness we never thought we would feel.
I just want to be there. I just have one more thing to say: If you let me love you, please love me back.
“i sound more and more like season 1 and 2 meredith grey every day” // an excerpt from a book that i’ll never write #30
Sure, there are days when I need my space, and you need yours. But I know that we’ll always find our way back to each other. All the fights and obstacles that stand in our way have made us stronger. They’ve helped us learn about ourselves and realize things aren’t perfect. Hell, we wouldn’t know what to do if they were. I guess I’m trying to say I wouldn’t change anything about you. You’re the one I fell in love with, and days like today fall for you all over again. If by some miracle you’re reading this, just know that I will always love you.