i'll never be okay with it

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I’m losing my fucking mind over you.
I still love you.
And, without lying to myself, I think I always will.
—  Nicole Torres // excerpt from a book I’ll never write; E.M //
I’ve been told many times over that when you really, truly love somebody, you would do anything to see them happy; even willingly suffer in silence while they love another.
—  Watching you with her hurts beyond belief, but I find solace in knowing my love for you is real
So please,
if your heart
ever gets tired
of understanding
the people you love—
when they keep
on taking you
for granted—
it’s time for you
to close your eyes
and take a deep breath,
make them realize
that a kind heart
also needs a rest,
when they already
felt exhausted.
—  ma.c.a // I feel something, and it’s okay
It’s scary how you think everything is alright until one day, it’s not. And then you realize that it hasn’t been for a while and you had no clue.
—  And then it’s too late

It’s strange, yknow, because everything in my life usually feels wrong.

But you’ve never felt wrong to me.

—  Nicole Torres

“Have you moved on?” He whispered, almost as if he didnt want to hear the answer.

She paused, but only for a short moment.

“I….I’m not sure. Its changed, everything’s changed. Its been 9 months now. I dont think of you every time I see the ocean, or think about how freaking cold you must be all the time.” She laughed. “But… it’s when I’m lonely, or need something to think about. I automatically go to you. Over that past year, I think I trained myself to do this. But I cant, not anymore. Its not fair.”

“What’s not fair?”

“Everything. Us. The fact that whenever I think of someone to fall back on, it’s you.“

—  It’s always been you | a.m