i'll leave the ending to you all

I dare you to burn holes into me; I will bleed love and kindness from all of them, and you will drown in the things you tried to end in me.
—  Believe it, Eliot Knight
i tore down the walls of my heart for you because i thought you wanted to come in, but all you did was linger outside only to leave in the end.
—  and now i’m left trying to rebuild it all over again.

“how did you know that it was over? that you should leave him?”, she asks her best friend.

“simple. i asked myself two questions: do i love him? and, does he make me happy?”

“and?”

“yes, yes i love him. but no, he doesn’t make me happy. and just being in love with someone isn’t enough. if that someone can’t make you happy, all the love in the world can’t help you. you will just end up destroying yourself for someone who isn’t even worth it.”

—  e.s. // all the love in the world can’t help you.
be more chill characters as things i've said during class
  • jeremy: michael mell is warm and kind and soft and the only good thing in a world of bad
  • michael: i wanna do a sick kickflip while yelling "i'm gay" but i don't own a skateboard and i also don't know how to do a kickflip so now i'm sad
  • jake: i'm throwing a halloween party, no straights allowed
  • rich: don't talk to me today okay i'm small and bisexual and full of rage
  • christine: i've cried over musicals 3 times today, which is an improvement compared to yesterday when i cried over musicals 6 times
  • chloe: i want to wear my cute skirt and crop top to the party tonight but also i'm really tired so i might end up wearing crocs. i'll still look hot though
  • brooke: please leave me alone i just want to eat cookies and cry
  • jenna: i can see you opening your mouth to tell me the gossip about last night and i'm just gonna say don't bother. i already know and have made an instagram post about it
  • the squip: my laptop just died like [sad beep boop noises]

I’ve missed your calls for months it seems
Don’t realize how mean I can be
‘Cause I can sometimes treat the people
That I love like jewelry
‘Cause I can change my mind each day
I didn’t mean to try you on
But I still know your birthday
And your mother’s favorite song

So I’m sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can’t believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn’t mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind

I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open ‘til the end

I know one day someone will love you,
Better than i ever did,
Better than you deserve,
Sorry to my unknown lover,
All i want you to know,
I tried.

—  Till the day i die
4
The signs as things I've heard people say at school
  • Aries: hey if I died right now do you think I'd still have to do my exams in hell
  • Taurus: why? Was I not supposed to use hydrochloric acid? Oh... Then I have a confession make
  • Gemini: chemistry can kiss my fat ass
  • Cancer: I'm gonna die a virgin who can't drive, can't swim and can't apply the cosine rule
  • Leo: yeah so I said who cares? I'm like really over you, you can suck 10 dicks. But then he said good I'm gay anyways. How did I not see that coming? (Cries)
  • Virgo: (everyone was talking about chicken fillets and asked her if she used one) no I'm a vegetarian you idiot
  • Libra: (when asked what we should do to avoid having this test) maybe if we stay still he won't notice us and he'll think that nobody's here
  • Scorpio: I think murder in a science lab should be legal if you end up with a moronic partner
  • Sagittarius: Look all I know is I was blazing it and then it started blazing me and I had to take the bus home with my shirt half burned off. It looked cool though
  • Capricorn: if I finish all these biology notes in my next free period I think I'll have time to go home and watch every single Star Wars movie
  • Aquarius: it's a fucking conspiracy. How can every single science teacher that ever taught me since year 7 just leave school like that... Something's up
  • Pisces: (why weren't you paying attention)I was thinking about how Drake would say xylem

Okay maybe I’m just being paranoid but I have a bad feeling that Navy isn’t gonna stay innocent and sweet.

Hear me out! I slowed down the clip right after she landed and noticed this:

She doesn’t look desparate or innocent in these. That’s realization and then anger. She recognizes them and hoo boy she’s not happy. Only after the bubble is put up does her expression change to innocent.

And then there’s this:

That’s clearly the entrance to the Rubies’ ship which, if I’m not mistaken, is still at the barn where Lapis and Peridot are.

Where are Navy and Steven in the majority of the leaks?

You bet. It’s the barn.

Steven’s expression says it all – he looks betrayed and terrified (because, I mean, he’s slipping out of the ship. who can blame him?).

Of course, there’s every chance that I’m overthinking this and that Navy will stay and become a Crystal Gem, but the previous angry frames combined with the screenshot are leaving a bad taste in my mouth.

Something in this episode is gonna be a gamechanger and I have a feeling this episode’s not gonna end well.

anonymous asked:

hey junky, I know you already apologized for the post (which really, nothing to apologize for), but I just wanted you to know that your version of G is my favorite, and I can't tell you how happy I am to have it continuing. I know that probs sounds like bs to make you feel better, but I truly mean it!! Stone g is literally my favorite version of ANY AU, so I hope you know how much people love it next time you don't sleep! I know all things must end, but I'll be heartbroken. Thank you for it!!!❤️

oh thank you ;_; I hate leaving things unfinished, so I will try to finish it (even if it will take an extremely long time, which is the problem with this ^^;;;), but it’s always great to still have readers, even if one day i know no one will be around anymore, but I am thankful for you guys now. so, thanks ^^

You know that feeling of relief when you realize this day will leave and better is to come.
When you know that there is another bright morning,
when you understand that there is a better future.
You may feel low or uncertain but always keep this with you, keep it within you

because there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Believe me the best is yet to come , just chill and be ready.

“That feeling is what keeps it all going”

-Endearing11

ONE CALL AWAY - S.M

you and shawn had met when you were sixteen. his career was just beginning to take flight, but he couldn’t resist direct messaging the pretty girl he had stumbled upon through twitter. truth be told, when you first met, you had no clue who “shawn mendes” was. nevertheless the two of you got to talking, and soon became inseparable. he would fly you out to wherever in the world he was whenever you were available, and you could almost always be found backstage at a weekend concert of his. although you had a celebrity boyfriend, your school work was still very important to you. throughout the hectic traveling and ridiculously early call times shawn had, you still managed to finish high school with a 4.0 GPA.

the summer after graduation, you joined shawn for the north american leg of the “illuminate world tour”. you knew you were to be attending college in washington, d.c. in the fall, so you hoped to make the most of what could be your last summer with shawn. as the weeks led up to the final show, you knew you had to make a decision. go back to the long distance, and virtual relationship you and shawn once knew? or end things after a beautiful summer of love and touring? your classes were starting in just a week. the thought of leaving shawn made your heart more than anything, but you needed to focus on school work.

shawn was on a high after his show in boston. it was the last american date of the tour, and he was excited to have a bit of time off. while you were happy for him, you knew it was time to force yourself to decide. being long distance with him was how you guys started, but it was also how you almost ended. the both of you often felt the stress that a long distance relationship can bring. though you didn’t want to leave him, those memories helped you decide that it would be for the best. you told andrew and geoff your decision, begging them to not let shawn know. they understood and helped you book a flight home secretly.

it was 5 o'clock in the morning when you departed the tour bus to get on a flight home. you had written shawn a note, professing your love and explaining your decision. you were positive he’d be able to see the drops of your tears on the scratch paper you’d used. with a final sigh you placed a small kiss onto his forehead and left the vehicle you’d known as home for the past three months. geoff drove you to the airport, silent sobs falling past your lips the whole ride there. geoff’s voice occasionally broke the silence, reminding you that you didn’t have to do this, that he could turn around and bring you back the second you said you wanted to. he didn’t know how many times you almost begged him to return you to shawn. but you always ended up closing your lips.

eventually you parted ways with geoff too. you knew shawn was most likely already awake, pacing around and trying to figure out ways to get you back. your fears were confirmed when you heard his ringtone play from your phone as you went through airport security. it broke your heart to let it ring out, but you knew you had to. simply silencing the device would’ve been too much for you. as you settled into your seat, you wondered what shawn thought of your letter. the words you had debated writing still tattooed into your mind.

dear, shawny,
i’ll be long gone once you read this. i tried for weeks to figure out how we would work once i went to washington. no solution was full proof and i couldn’t bare to leave you with a girlfriend who couldn’t be with you all the time. that’s why i’m flying home and ending us here. i’ll still listen to your music and buy your merch, i’ll never stop supporting you. i hope you find a girl in hollywood that can understand you better than i could. i love you and i am always yours.

A friend of mine once tweeted “idea for a story: accidental road trip with your lyft driver” and my brain immediately jumped to a TRC AU in which Blue is an Uber driver and ends up with Gansey and Henry in her Uber pool and for some reason the 3 of them end up on an epic impromptu road trip and they all fall in love even as she’s threatening to leave their pampered asses by the side of a desolate backroad in Pennsylvania.

anonymous asked:

Every year we visit my extended family in France and stay at their farm. Last trip they had an exchange student from southern france staying with them and of course he was so fucking sexy. On the last night me and my cousins drank but they got drunk too quick and went back to the main house, leaving us alone in the guest house. We ended up having the hottest rough sex, he ate me while fingering my ass for ages. Never talked to him again but it was the best sex i think i'll ever have, came 3x.

  • Brienne: Your grace, may I speak to you in private?
  • Jon: Um, sure.
  • Brienne: *activates rage kitten mode* How dare you disrespect Sansa!! After all she's done to secure the North's loyalty for you! How dare you bend the knee to a foreign queen!!
  • Jon: (This feels familiar. Oh right... I'm the asshole this time.)
  • Brienne: With all due respect, your grace, if you do anything to soil Sansa's good name again, I'll kill you myself.
  • Jon: (Huh. Much more terrifying being on the receiving end of this threat.)
  • Brienne: *leaves*
  • Jon: If only they knew I was doing all of this for Sansa. For our home. *sighs*
empty-handed, full-hearted – if there was ever a way to invent, this is it. i hold you in my hands and that is all – the stars for company and the crickets for symphony. let’s forget it all, lover – run and don’t look back. run and tell me we can make it to the ends of the earth. home is with you.
—  leaving // abby // prompt for anon
The 1975 sentence starters
  • "Don't call it a fight when you know it's a war."
  • "Go sit on the bed because I know that you want to."
  • "You've got pretty eyes, but I know you're wrong."
  • "Get in the shower if it all goes wrong."
  • "I swear there's a ghost."
  • "I feel like I'm just treading water."
  • "I love the house that we live in."
  • "I love you all too much."
  • "I've got a woman now."
  • "This one's on the house."
  • "It all tastes the same, but there's something different about your mouth."
  • "You try chasing dreams, it's harder than it seems."
  • "Stick another pill in my head and go to bed."
  • "We're not doing it again, so leave it."
  • "I wanna see you, but you're not mine."
  • "You think we're doing it again, keep dreaming."
  • "Yeah my shirt looks so good, when it's just hanging off your back."
  • "She's got a boyfriend anyway."
  • "All we seem to do is talk about sex."
  • "He's got a funny face, but I like that 'cause he still looks cool."
  • "Does he take care of you or could I easily fill his shoes?"
  • "If we're gonna do anything we might as well just fuck."
  • "And you're a liar, at least all of your friends are."
  • "It's my party and I'll cry to the end."
  • "You must try harder than kissing all of my friends."
  • "You're alive, at least as far as I can tell you are."
  • "And it's not my fault that I fucked everybody here."
  • "Do you wanna dance?"
  • "It's no fun if you've only a bottle of wine."
  • "Yeah, I want you."
  • "I'm so high, I think I love you."
  • "I was thinking about leaving again, it all depends."
  • "Are we just friends?"
  • "We go where nobody knows."
  • "Oh, my hair smells like chocolate."
  • "Stop looking at my friends."
  • "Write another song about your friends."
  • "I love you, don't you mind."
  • "I think I've lost a lot of my friends."
  • "Well fuck me if you must then."
  • "Treat me like an old friend."
  • "I'm not scared."
  • "I used to think you're cool and I believed you had a wonderful vision."
  • "I was always looking for a way to get out."
  • "You just write about sex and killing yourself and how you hardly ever went to school."
  • "I'm falling for you."
  • "Maybe you'll change your mind."
  • "I'll take you one day at a time, soon you will be mine."
  • "Do you fancy sitting down with me? Maybe?"
  • "I don't wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your neck."
  • "I can't believe that we're talking about him."
  • "Why do you talk so loud?"
  • "I think you're trying too hard."
  • "I've been thinking lots about your mouth."
  • "I forgot to call you."
  • "I remember that I like you, no matter what I found."
  • "It's nice to have your friends round."
  • "It's just you and I tonight."
  • "Gotta love the way you love yourself."
  • "You got something to say? Why don't you speak it out loud, instead of living in your head?"
  • "I don't seem to be having any effect now."
  • "I guess I'll never learn 'cause I stay another hour or two."
  • "You know I can't be found with you."
  • "I'm so fixated on the girl with the soft sound and hair all over the place."
  • "You're cold and I burn."
  • "She had a face straight outta magazine."
  • "Babe, stay, stay, stay, stay, stay."
  • "I'll give you one more time."
  • "You've got a pretty kind of dirty face."
  • "Babe, you look so cool."
  • "What's the fun in doing what you're told?"
  • "I could persuade you."
  • "I'm not your typical, stoned 18 year old."
  • "Girl, I'm not your savior."
  • "They're just girls."
  • "One moment I was tearing off your blouse, now you're living in my house."
  • "What happened to just messing around?"
  • "You just sit and get stoned with 30 year olds and you think you've made it."
  • "Well, shouldn't you be fucking with somebody your age?"
  • "I told you from the start, I'll break your heart."
  • "She's definitely got the style."
  • "I'd like to say you've changed, but you're always the same."
  • "I'd love you to stay but that's simply insane."
  • ""Well, I think I'll say a couple of words if you don't mind..."
  • "You've seen so many faces that I've never seen before."
  • "We're never gonna lie to you."
  • "I know it's me that's supposed to love you."
  • "Is there somebody who can love you?"

clevverblocker  asked:

For the "SEND ME A FIC AND I'LL TEL YOU..." thingy, Otayuri! Thank youuuu

Sure thing! ^_^

Who said “I love you” first?

They’d both been thinking of saying it for a while, and on one of their dates, they ended up saying “I love you” at the same time. 

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background?

Otabek. He doesn’t mind that Yuri does not have a photo of him as his phone background because Yuri’s phone background is a photo of their beloved children cats, all 5 of them.

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror?

They both do it, but Otabek does it more simply because he wakes up earlier in the morning and showers first most of the time. On the few occasions that Yuri showers first, he always leaves a note.

Who buys the other cheesy gifts?

Again, they both do it, but the patterns differ. Yuri buys gifts on the most random of days, saying something like “This reminded me of you, so I got it.” Otabek saves the cheese for important dates, like birthdays and anniversaries.

Who initiated the first kiss?

Otabek. It was right after they’d confessed their feelings, and Yuri was blushing like mad, looking at anything in the room except Otabek, so the latter gently leaned into his line of vision, and after confirming that it was okay, kissed him.

Who kisses the other awake in the morning?

Otabek. Because he wakes up earlier (I headcanon that Yuri is a night owl). Plus, it’s the least risky way to wake Yuri up (all other methods have resulted in angry, nearly violent reactions.

Who starts tickle fights?

Yuri. He gets a mischievous glint in his eye, and Otabek knows he’s toast.

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower?

Both of them. Although, most of the time, they just join the other person without saying anything at all.

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch?

Neither of them. They both do train together in the same rink, so this doesn’t really apply in their situation lol

Who was nervous and shy on the first date?

BOTH OMG Otabek would be super stiff, and Yuri would fumble over everything he said.

Victuuri followed them to the first date and Victor just kept shaking his head for a long time like “Yuri, where did the smoothness and deftness from the ice go? Surely you learned something from watching me” (”Victor, showing up in a foreign country out of the blue and having your first conversation with the person of interest while naked is not something Yuri should learn from you at all” is what Yuuri said). Finally, Victor went up to the couple (very poorly disguised) and left a list of conversation starters, fun facts about each other, and some… stuff that no one ever brings up afterward. Yuri and Otabek both recognized him immediately and spluttered, but the element of comical surprise led to them laughing and easing up. Till date, Yuri refuses to accept that the date was a success because of Victor. Yuuri, who witnessed everything, refuses to comment on the matter.

Who kills/takes out the spiders?

Yuri. Otabek won’t completely freak out, but if there was a spider, he would just go to Yuri, tell him with the straightest face on, and then not go to the room where he found the spider for the rest of the day.

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk?

Definitely Yuri. Otabek doesn’t need to drink to be open about his love for Yuri (”so embarrassing” is what Yuri says in response), but Yuri doesn’t hold back when he’s drunk. 

It leads to very memorable GPF banquets.

Do you know what it’s like to love
with heart and soul?
Being trapped in someone’s hold
and your skin is alive;
burns at their slightest touch.
And a fire settles in your eyes
with a single glance.
A combustion takes place in your heart
at the sound of their laugh
and you’re reduced to eternal tears
because you’re worried they’ll leave you there.
A never ending fear.
Pieces of darkness filling in the gaps of your mind.
Feeding the fierce fear that follows
forcing you to fall;
victim to the vicious.
Then everything slows down,
words of woe simply follow
and you’re left stranded.
Do you know what it’s like to love
with heart and soul?
Only to lose it all?
—  well, do you? It’s fucking painful // j.r

anonymous asked:

Please tell me more about metis and aura. I rly rly wanted them to be together (im crying for aura shes so bitter and sad) and i feel like i want evidence but i cant find it. Please!! Tell me how aura x metis is real!! Pls!!!

HEY HEY SO i want to apologize for not responding to this for literal ages but i wanted to finish my dual destinies replay before i did so i had the best memory before responding alright so 

the game makes it pretty clear that aura was in love with metis and there’s a bunch of stuff that leads up to that where the ‘’reveal’’ (i say it like that bc i feel like the game heavily hints at it and then the actual confirmation is after)

some of the little stuff is like this: 

the way she talks about metis… isn’t really the way someone would typically talk about losing a friend or even a very close friend, i feel? it feels very romantic? and like phoenix mentions that she like, changes her demeanor when they start talking about metis and she has that really dreamy sprite (where she’s holding the drill up to her face) on, too 

and below is that ‘confirmation’ i was talking about earlier 

so like, the game really really… really heavily implies that aura was in love with metis which i think sort of is the direct intention? like people that say ‘oh but maybe she wanted to be close friends?’ or the worst interpretation i’ve seen that was ‘i thought aura saw her as a mother figure’ because like, it’s… pretty heavily implied aura loved her and people wanna gloss over it which is lame but you know 

(and for the record @eatingfireflies helped me out on this one so i can only say what they told me which is in the japanese version of the above text, simon sort of implies that metis was very hard to work with? but she chose aura very very purposefully?) 

and i think (this is like me gripping your shoulders and saying ‘i know it doesn’t seem it but HEAR ME OUT’ thing going on here) that metis also loved her back, too? and i think that bc the game gives more evidence for metis reciprocating those feelings than it does against it? so like, take this dialogue with apollo: 

and in addition to that, ponco and clonco call metis and aura ‘mommy metis’ and ‘mama aura’ respectively? which is also very telling? aura later changes this, but it’s out of grief rather than anything else– clonco says it hurt her to be called ‘mama’ after metis’ death, but their robots saw them both as mothers? come on. come on. 

it’s just such purposefully written? apollo’s saying that he can see metis put aura above almost everything in her life (and remember simon said that metis was incredibly devoted to her research + the robots and cared about it immensely so much so that she was difficult to work with because she was very (i’m assuming) serious and intense about her work) aside from her daughter? like in my interpretation, he’s sort of saying that athena and aura were the two most important things in her whole life? plus he uses the word ‘love’ which i know doesn’t really ‘say’ anything on its own but in this specific circumstance it feels very very telling? the game goes out of its way to say this, the phrase ‘almost as much as she loved you’ gets its own text box, like you can really feel the tension they’re building up there? and they didn’t have to include that! it’s not vital to the story progression? 

and like i feel like the game gives way, way more evidence that metis did love aura back than to say she didn’t? i think it would’ve been incredibly easy to confirm that yes, aura did love her (keep all of aura’s dialogue the same) but include something about a father for athena? or some sort of relationship that she was in? at all? but they don’t, they leave it really open ended! 

and like tl;dr i think that it’s entirely plausible (and i know i keep repeating it but i do think that the game gives more for it than against it) for metis to love her back! it all boils down to ‘they don’t say it outright but it would be doing a disservice to the characters to try and knock the relationship down to ‘just friends’’