baz feels empty sometimes. i got inspired for this fic by listening to let’s hurt tonight by one republic. the lyrics of the song don’t really have that much in common with the fic, it’s more the feel of the song that inspired me.
word count: 2k
Baz hadn’t been over for a few days. When Penny thought of it she realised it must have been at least a week since she’d seen Baz in the flat. Being busy with her homework had kept her ignorant to this, but now it was weekend and Simon was alone in his room. It was… strange. Baz often couldn’t stay away for longer than two days and the two of them barley ever spent time at Baz’ place.
Penny wondered if there was a chance that they were in a fight. Even more so, she wondered if she should get involved with whatever was going on between the two of them or not. Her instant response to that would have been no, she was not involving herself in their problems. Though, after she’d thought it over again, she cared a lot more about their relationship than she would have preferred. They were both her friends—and she did not have many more friends besides the two of them—which meant she wished them the best they could have. Especially after all that Simon and Baz had already endured.
After a few moments lost in thought she decided that just asking Simon about it was the least she could do. Offering herself as a supportive listener was different from involving herself in their problems, she told herself.
“Come in,” said Simon shortly after Penny had knocked on his bedroom door.
She walked into his bedroom and saw Simon slouched on his bed with his laptop resting on his lap. He seemed relaxed, probably too relaxed for him to be in a fight with his boyfriend. Simon didn’t hide his emotions very well, you could basically feel any emotion radiating from him. Penny realised she would have known from more than just Baz’ absence if Simon and Baz had been in a fight. So… they weren’t in a fight?
“Baz hasn’t been around for a while. Why isn’t he here tonight? It’s weekend,” Penny asked, unable to keep the curiosity inside her.
Simon shrugged. “He’s been sick the last few days.”
Penny frowned at that. “But, Simon, he’s a vampire.”
Simon copied her frown. “I know… I guess it’s sick as in not feeling well. A vampire can still not feel well right?”
“But,” Penny was still a bit confused about it all, “you don’t know anything more than that? What did he tell you exactly.”
“He said he wasn’t coming by because he wasn’t feeling well.”
“You didn’t ask him what was going on?” Penny asked.
Simon stared at her for a little while. “Should I have?”
“Didn’t you want to know?”
Simon shrugged again. “What difference would it have made?”
“You would have known.” And maybe he needs you, she thought, though she quickly argued herself on that. Baz knew Simon and knew the way Simon worked. If Baz was in need of Simon he should’ve told Simon. You couldn’t expect from Simon to read everything between the lines.
“I guess I would have, but knowing he isn’t feeling well seemed like enough information. I told him I’ll wait for him until he feels better.”
“Maybe you could visit him. Don’t you miss him?” Penny pushed.
“I could,” Simon said and became quiet for a bit. “What if he just wants rest, Penny? He didn’t tell me to come visit him.”
“Did he tell you not to come?”
“You could just text him and ask him if he’d like you to visit him,” Penny encouraged him. Penny felt a little ridiculous for having to help Simon this way, but she knew that sometimes Simon just needed a bit of guidance onto the right path.
Simon nodded. “I will.”
“Good,” Penny said in satisfaction and she left his room.
A few minutes later Simon was at her bedroom door to let her know that he was going over to Baz’ place. Penny smiled to herself whilst shaking her head slightly. The two of them were a piece of work.
The Heathen Army is so lusty this morning! Allow me to further whet your appetites with the opening scene for a new multichapter fic I don’t have time for, but keep thinking about…
Ivar the Boneless had not been what she had been expecting.
When the chariot pulled the heathens’ dark-clad commander into the village square,
Aedre had forced herself to look up at the man responsible for ruining her
life. She lifted her eyes from the rough cords binding her wrists to the long
rope restraining her and the other unfortunate souls who had not run from the
invading warriors fast enough. He removed his helmet as he surveyed the ongoing
plundering of her home and she was shocked to see he was just a youth, with a
beautiful face and soulful, piercing eyes. The rumors had said the oncoming
Heathen Army was led by a ruthless man with a mind as clever as it was sadistic.
Some had whispered that he might be the devil himself, come to bring a
reckoning to Mercia and the rest of the fallen kingdoms of England.
The boy that sat in that chariot was almost a
disappointment. His dark hair was bound up in a strange row of braids and his
face was speckled with blood, but he was certainly younger than she was, though
by how many summers Aedre could not quite guess. His calculating gaze met hers
as he looked down the line of captives; she thought she saw a glimmer of
interest spark there before she cast her eyes down hurriedly. A shiver ran down
her back as she reevaluated her opinion. The face may have been too young, but
those hard eyes lived up to every rumor.
Aedre heard his tongue clack and then he was guiding his
horse past the row of her weeping and cowering countrymen. The heathens had
used some of them quite roughly before rounding them up into the square. The
young woman offered up a silent prayer of thanks that she had been found by one
of their strange armed women and led here to be bound up unmolested. She felt
her luck change, however, when the heathen commander drew up alongside Aedre
and tugged the reins of his horse curtly, stopping the chariot beside her.
His voice was a cold, low growl. “Þessi.” Though Aedre did
not know his language, another chill ran down her back. She could just feel
that he was looking at her as she stared meekly at the ground. “Horfðu á mig.”
A moment later his hand flew out in her direction, and a burly man who had been
following the chariot stepped forward and seized her chin. He turned Aedre’s
face up toward his commander’s.
Aedre was not sure what showed in her own expression then.
She was trying to hide fear and anger both, believing either one would bring
the wrong kind of attention. The boy called Boneless took the measure of her
face, then his eyes slid down over her body, taking a good long look at her
curves. Aedre steeled herself against the indignity of it, wishing she knew
what to do to repel his sinful interest.
He smiled out of one side of his mouth and flicked his
fingers in a lazy gesture. “Hafa hana tekið að tjaldi mínu.” He clacked his
tongue at his horse again, but his unreadable eyes lingered on her even as he
started moving away.
The big man let go of her with a shrug, went to speak with
the dirty warrior at the head of the line of prisoners. Aedre couldn’t tell
what it all meant. She snuck a glance behind her, studied the tall, proud back
of the retreating conqueror. He wasn’t looking at any of the other captives.
do you know that feeling when you want to write a story/update your pending story and at first you’re like “yes i can do this!” but then when you started to forget the ideas and the plot and it leads to you not writing anything except endless profanities for your lazy self
Once, when he was younger, his mother told him a story from a book of stories, (all of which were written so strangely, he could only understand their iambic pentameter when she read it) and despite his confusion, he could never forget it.
“It’s based on a real story, my son,” she had hummed to him. “A real story of love and tragedy.”
“So they die, big deal.”
“Death is not the only tragedy.”
He never got it. Why would someone sacrifice the opportunity for power for something as ridiculous as love? How could someone fall in love with such abandon? With such complete and utter arrogance?
So when the fleet arrived and the lovers were left to face the last of their lives, Keith had snorted to himself quietly. It was to be expected. Love was not their tragedy. Arrogance was.
Eventually, life took his mother away and with her the story of Antony and Cleopatra.
Note: Sorry that this took so long. I will start working on the TJeff request that I promised to work on earlier this week tonight and hopefully finish it tomorrow. For now, I hope you enjoy part 2 of Fat Fingers though. c:
Word count: 3168
Pairing: Daveed Diggs x reader
Warnings: Mentions of racism, homophobia and neo nazis. Do not read if Trump supporter, I guess??? Also a bit of swearing.
been unable to go to sleep that night, even if you tried really hard to do so.
It had been a horrible day and you wanted nothing but to tell your family how
much you hated their influence on your life. But, if you did it would mean that
you would never see them again and they were definitely someone you did not
want to make your enemy, as they could make your life a living hell. You had no
choice but to try and live at least a little bit by their rules.
point, you found yourself deciding to message Daveed on Facebook. At first, you
had no idea what to write, but you just really felt like you owed him an
apology and if he did not accept it, you sure would be embarrassed. But, you
would have tried. At least the likelihood of you two ever meeting again was
pretty much to zero.
“Hey, I don’t know if you remember
me, but I was the girl who ran into you this morning. I just really wanted to
apologize for the way my ‘friend’ acted. Anyway, that’s probably all. Bye” You
typed awkwardly and send it to him. You were not sure whether he would reply or
not, but just as you had put your phone down on your bedside table again, your
phone buzzed. When you checked, you had not expected to see Daveed’s name on
the display, but were unable to help the grin that spread across your lips. He
really did respond.
“Hey Y/N, I
remember you. No need to apologize though, it’s not your fault. I hope that you
still want to take me up on that coffee soon. I’m heading to bed now, but feel
free to call me at some point. Number is 510-555-0150. Hope to see you soon”
Diggs just given you his number? You blinked a couple of times and checked the
display another time just to make sure that he had indeed given you his number.
He definitely had. You could not help but wonder why, but it made you smile
like an idiot. And blush a tiny bit too.
his number in your phone and contemplated on whether you should text him or
not. You decided on the later, as he had told you that he was going to bed. So,
yet again you placed your phone on the nightstand and as you were about to fall
asleep, finally being able to after you had gotten the apology off your chest,
you received another message. Surprisingly enough, it was from Daveed as well.
not too much to ask, could you send me a text?” He asked and you chuckled
replied, before finding his name in your contacts. You were unsure about what
to write. You could just send him a hi with your name, but that seemed sort of
boring. “I think I am the one who owes you coffee. Goodnight, Diggs” You texted
and finally went to sleep after sending it.
You woke up
to a text from Daveed next morning. You had not expected it, but it honestly
made you happy. Getting a response from him last night had saved your night and
getting a text from him now definitely was a great start on an otherwise
probably stressful day.
“Mornin. I don’t
think so, Y/LN. I’ll buy coffee tonight, if you’re up for it? Have a great
day.” The text said. You giggled softly and shook your head. You honestly still
found yourself doubting that this was indeed real.
morning Diggs. Only if I get to pay? You too” You replied as you got out of
bed. You knew that you would be off late, it would probably be around 6 before
you finally finished work, so you had to bring spare clothes because there was
no way in hell you were going back to your apartment before going for coffee
with Daveed. First, you changed into a pair of jeans, a white chiffon dress
shirt and a blue blazer. It was nothing special, but it was suited for work.
For the coffee trip you settled on a cute, wine red dress that reached to just
above your knee, a lemon curry knitted cardigan and a pair of black heels. It
was nothing special, but you wanted to at least do a little bit to look
were heading out the door, you received another text from Daveed. “Guess we’ll
see about that. How does 7 sound? It’s a date” You read with a smile.
good. Noted. Where are we going?” You asked. So, it was actually a date. You
were going on a date with Daveed freaking
Diggs. You hoped that you could make it there in time. Otherwise, you could
probably just tell him whatever time you needed.
know yet. I can pick you up at work at 6:45, if that’s cool?” You didn’t get to
reply for a while, since you were in a bit of a rush to get to the subway, so
it wasn’t until you stepped out of the subway again, that you got to actually
text him back.
see you at 6:45 then” You texted and added your work address as you made your
way to your office. It luckily was not a long walk and you made it there in
about 5 minutes. You were later than usual, but still made it on time.
went by way too slowly. You wanted nothing else but to get out of there and go
on that coffee date with Daveed. You were really looking forward to it, but had
to push it to the back of your mind to get some work done. It worked for the
most part, but you were not surprised when some of your co-workers noticed how
happy you seemed, which had become pretty rare those days.
you so happy Y/N?” Your friend Emma had asked while you were sat at a table
with her, along with two other friends from work at lunch.
not really knowing what to say. You looked up at her with a nervous chuckle and
looked at the two others as well. They had definitely noticed your
significantly happier mood too, so there was no way you were getting around
this one. “I… Uhm. I’m going on a date.” You murmured and stared into your food.
You filled your mouth with food so you were unable to answer any other
questions for now.
Seriously? Are you really going on a date? That’s so exciting. Who’s the lucky
one?” She asked, a bit too loud. A few of your other co-workers turned to your
table to look at you. You felt your mouth go dry as you felt very exposed under
big deal…” You trailed off. You bit your lower lip as you wondered whether or
not you should tell them. You had bonded over your mutual fondness for
clipping. after all. “Daveed Diggs.” You finally blurted under your breath.
They were going to figure it out anyway when he picked you up later.
She almost shouted and you felt yourself slide further into the comfort of your
chair. You sensed that she was about to scold you. She was head over heels for
the guy after all. “Fuck you, Y/N. You knew that I had a crush on him.” She
lightly at her. “Please, Emma. I will set you two up if it’s that big of a
deal.” You answered ironically as you rolled your eyes.
expression softened at that and she shook her head softly. “No. God no. You two
suit each other much better. Besides, I’m an even crazier fan than you. How did
you two even meet?” She rambled. The rest of your friends sat staring at you in
silence and you began to grow uncomfortable.
big deal… I just spilled my coffee on him.” You replied as you quickly filled
your mouth with more food to stop the endless row of questions. Luckily, Emma
seemed to get the hint and the 4 of you fell into your usual, cosy
conversations while you finished lunch.
hours felt more like years. You kept looking at the clock every 5 minutes or so
and you were always disappointed. You worked hard to finish what you needed
before 6 pm. You knew that there was no way in hell you were finishing up until
at least 30 minutes later, but you hoped that you would at least be ready then.
Luckily, you managed to finish what you were working on in the half an hour you
had left and once the time showed 6:30pm, you finally closed your computer.
your station, bringing your bag with you to the ladies’ room. Once inside one
of the booths, you quickly changed into the clothes you had prepared from home
and fixed your make up in front of the mirror. You did not feel as confident as
you had hoped, but you knew that you just had to roll with it. You were not
going to wear your work clothes out for a date, so this had to do.
With a soft
sigh you left the bathroom. It would only be a couple of minutes until Daveed
was picking you up outside. So, you bid Emma goodnight and headed down the
stairs. Once outside, people started to spill out of the building as they had
just finished as well. You texted him, just to make sure that he knew that you
were ready. “I’m outside now” you wrote.
You did not
receive a text from him, which was probably due to the fact that he was just
around the corner. You were pretty happy when you saw him walking once he
turned the corner of the street, as driving around LA at this time of the day
was really hard.
spotted you in the crowd of people leaving your office, his face lit up in a
smile. “Y/N. Hey.” He smiled as he made his way to you and once in front of
you, he gently took your hand and pressed a soft kiss to the back of it, his
beard tickling your skin lightly. A pinkish blush spread across your cheeks.
a gentleman.” You teased with a soft smile. There was no real fire behind it
though. You were just really relieved that he actually wanted to drink coffee
do learn something from playing a Frenchman in a Broadway musical, I guess.” He
joked, which made you chuckle softly.
You smiled. You felt very comfortable in his presence. He was nice, sweet. You
really hoped that this would not be the last time the two of you went out for
coffee, even if it would just be as friends in the future. He had this
personality that you just could not help but love.
“So… I was
thinking. Can I ask you out for dinner instead? Nothing fancy, but I never got
around to eat anything and since you just finished work, I figured you didn’t
either.” He asked.
softly. “Yeah. That would be great, honestly. I’m starving.” You admitted,
which made him chuckle softly. “So, where do you want to go?” You asked.
this great café not too far from here where they sell food too. How does that
sound?” He suggested.
food. Classy.” You joked, before you nodded. “Sounds great. Lead the way?” You
questioned. You probably did not know the place he was talking about anyway.
gently took your hand, holding onto it loosely as he led the way down the
street. You thought that perhaps this would be a great night out with him
without your family or any of their friends figuring out what you were doing.
feared that they would figure out what was going on, so you were pretty
grateful once you got to the café and headed inside. Luckily, no one seemed to
have noticed you and if they did, you were done defending your choices in men
to them. If you wanted to date someone who they did not like, they would just
have to deal with that.
you to a small table in the back of the café, pulling a chair out for you to
sit in. You giggled softly at the gesture and said down. “Thank you, Monsieur.”
You joked., which made him snort, even if he was unable to hide the smirk
tugging at the corners of his lips.
You already know what I do. So, what do you do?” He asked. You bit your bottom
lip lightly at his question. You really did not think your life was that
interesting, but you knew that telling him about yourself was inevitable.
“I just do
office work. Nothing interesting.” You said, as you lowered your gaze with a
slight shrug. You could definitely find better things to do, but your mum had
gotten you this job a while ago, so you felt like you were unable to just
What if I think it’s interesting?” He challenged with an arched eyebrow. He
obviously was not going to let you off that easily.
shrugged. “I honestly don’t think you do.” You answered with a shy smile. Your
work was nothing interesting. It barely even payed your bills, but it was
better than letting your parents pay for some expensive life style that you did
your evening was spent like that, asking each other questions about your lives.
You found his to be much more interesting than yours, even though Daveed kept
telling you that he thought your life was pretty interesting. However, at the
subject of family your mood seemed to do a complete 1-80. You truly wanted
nothing to do with them. If anything, you wanted them out of your life, but it
was an impossible task.
“I… Like I
said, my family is very… Republican. Racists, homophobes, neo Nazis. Stuff like
that.” You explained as you lowered your gaze. People often thought that you
were the same. But, you had very different believes compared to the rest of
could obviously see that the topic of family bothered you a lot and you were
quite surprised when you felt a pair of soft, warm hands wrap around yours. “Well,
at least you aren’t like them, Y/N.” He smiled softly, trying to cheer you up.
It did not work however, and actually made things a bit worse. You did not dare
to tell him, though.
“No, I know.
They let me know every day…. Things would be so much easier if I could just live
by their rules.” Your murmured, looking down at your hands. You hated that you
had to at least try and live the way they wanted you to, but you had no other options.
but I am glad that you are different. You deserve better than a family who is
against all your believes.” He sighed.
nodded, as you had no idea what to say. “I just really want to not have to be
viewed as one of them.” You blurted, biting your lower lip slightly.
“Who do you
think views you as the same as them? You seemed to make your opinion on the
election very clear, at least from what I could tell.” He seemed really
surprised at what you had said. He definitely did not think that you were like
them in anyway.
know… Just. People. Everyone I meet seem to know my parents.” You shrugged,
before shaking your head. “Anyway. Let’s talk about something else.” You added.
You just did not know what. You wanted to change the subject though, as you
felt tears starting to sting your eyes as the topic of conversation fell on
luckily seemed to pick up on it and quickly changed the subject. “So, was
spilling your coffee on me really an accident or did you do it intentionally to
get to talk to me?” He teased, instantly lifting your mood.
“I wish it
was on purpose, but it honestly wasn’t.” You giggled softly. It would have been
a smart move, but it was honestly an accident.
waved at a waiter to pay for the food and coffee the two of you had finished a
while ago, he chuckled lightly at your response. “You could have fooled me.” He
winked. You immediately felt a blush creep up your neck and heat up your
time it won’t be an accident, D. It did gain your attention after all. Or was
it my dashing looks?” You sassed him. You too could play that game.
about to protest when Daveed handed the waiter his credit card and he held his
hand up to cut you off. “I’m buying, my treat. You can pay next time.” He said.
you were not going to win this one, so you simply nodded with a soft sigh. “If
there’s going to be a next time.” You teased.
definitely is.” He said. The two of you got up once the waiter had returned to
your table with Daveed’s credit card.
The two of
you left the restaurant together and once outside, you finally turned to him to
answer. “What makes you so sure that I want to see you again, Diggs?” You challenged
with an arched eyebrow. You definitely did, though. And as soon as possible.
you think I’m hot.” He winked at you, which made your mouth fall open slightly.
Daveed.” Your blurted as a blush spread across your cheeks. He was not wrong,
though. You definitely thought he was hot and he had a great personality too,
which made it even worse. You knew that your family would in no way approve of
any form of relationship with a person of colour, let alone a rapper who wrote
a song about how much he hates Donald Trump. Also, you thought that Daveed
could do a lot better than someone like you and it honestly scared and confused
you a bit, that he wanted to see you again.
Though, for tonight I just want to say thank you.” He grinned, which made you
D. Tonight was great.” You smiled, as you tiptoed to place a light kiss against
his cheek, his stubble tickling your chin lightly. You then flagged down a cab
and waved goodbye. It had been an absolutely amazing evening and you were
honestly really looking forward to seeing him again.
I’m not saying that I want to write a smut fic with Rey and ‘Matt’ where Rey is undercover and Matt just so happens to be someone she ends up liking. I’m not saying I don’t want Rey to have a cam on her during her undercover mission so that Leia and others can get intel directly from the workers mouths. I’m not saying that I totes want them to bang and Rey forget the camera is there. I’m totally not saying that I want Rey to figure out that it’s Kylo during the sex and that that leads to a lot of awkwards conversations later with Leia..