i'll have to read more of him

anonymous asked:

Hi, 7goodangel. I am here to ask you about PaperJam as a shy, smol and innocent being (mainly thegreatrouge made him be). There has been some conflicts regarding his trait. Some said his canonical personality is a jerk, like what you wrote in his bio / info and some said that is severely wrong and being shy, (which made him shipped with Fresh), is his canonical personality. What are your thoughts about this? I mean, it is your character and people are taking control of it. Don't you disagree?

Well… I have talked to people and seen public conversations and this has happened several times to me over months. I guess I’ve gotten a little numb to it now… or maybe it’s due to school that I haven’t given it the attention that it deserves. Probably due to school. 

I just can’t update constantly like others - even though some others in school were and are able to update constantly. I can’t keep going around and holding up my bio of PJ and police people. It’s exhausting to me… it really takes up the small bit of free time I have. 

I think after I get a solid job that I’ll be able to go around better… but anyway - back to your question. 


While I love seeing interpretations and do not want people to be limited by something and have their imaginations go forth… it’s proving that a huge con comes with that mentality - which you have pointed out. A lot of people swear that PJ is the cute, innocent interpretation that really, did get PJ popular in the first place. While I did have him as a jerk from the beginning - I kinda kept that info to my RP blog - so you could say it is my fault this is all happening and I do think that. I could of done something to make it not as bad as it is now… 

It’s just like the NSFW stuff… people just assume the first thing and run with it. And it really does make me feel like I really am not needed for my own character at points. 

It’s a struggle - I don’t want to have people stop interpreting PJ within AUs… but I also don’t want people to just see him as an innocent child to ship with Fresh. 

And I’m still trying to find the best solution to it. 

But… I feel like the damage is already done. It’s too late for me to talk to all of these people going around swearing on their life that PJ is canoncally like Rouge’s interpretation/AUs. It feels like an hopeless battle to me. 

And I guess I needed someone to ask me this question so then I can fully say my thoughts on this. 

So in short, while I love creativity and don’t want to snuff it out (considering some people would probably think I’m doing that already with saying “No Sin”), I still don’t like it. It irritates me, irks me, frustrates me, and I feel like even as the person who thought of PJ in the first place, my voice isn’t enough. Communities seem like they don’t care about artists unless they reach a ‘certain goal of popularity’ or seem like they have a more professional style of art. I know I do not reach either of those titles. 

People misspell my username all the time - I actually claimed ‘7goodangle’ on tumblr for that reason.

People still say “I’m too lazy to find who made PJ” when they clearly mentioned they looked at the bio on the wiki. 

People still go around arguing others on the canon ship of OmniPJ and swearing that FreshPaper is the true canon ship, when all people are pointing out is that they need to keep the canon ship in mind when going around with information.

Even just basic personality traits… and these things are happening on sites that I do not nor want an account for. 

I still want others to have fun - to be happy; but I don’t know… I guess I’m cutting out my own happiness to get everyone else happy? I want to eventually write a version of PJ within his own universe and story… and he is more like the version I created within the UT verse. Not exact - but close. Though who knows… I might shove PJ to the side and replace his role with another character. I’m still weighing options.

Cause PJ was the first character I ever put this much time and thought into… my first character that was balanced, well rounded…

And what happens?

…well.

You said it Anon. 

They took it - changed it (initially as an AU but now people think it’s canon) - and I can’t do much about it. Due to school and not much free-time… due to how many don’t know the true creator… and just back talking anyone who is just mentioning it to people who swear by it. 

As an artist and a character designer…

It makes me not want to show designs, characters, and stories ever again online.

Considering if this is how I was treated on the first one… why even take a chance at a second one? If it has brought me so much stress, frustration, and time… why even try it again?

I said I was only going to do fanart so if anyone stole it, it didn’t really matter. 
I think I should have stuck with that thought process. 

In conclusion, there are some major things to take away here. First – that yes, I do not like how it has skewed this far to the point of arguing over a fandom version with the canon. Canon is canon and I get the different AUs – this is too far. Way too far. I am emotionally drained from this – from this whole mess that I have been defending throughout majority of PJ’s lifespan. I will state this – Paper Jam is my character. He is my original character that I created more than a year ago. And the UT AU fandom took my character and warped him to something he is not and all of his original meaning is lost. I do not like to hurt others or make other sad – but I must put my foot fully down. This miscommunication needs to stop. I am tired of repeating things over and over and I have past my breaking point time and time again. I just want people to see PJ how he really is… and I wish that people could be focusing more on the reality of him instead of the alternate that they all claim as truth.

Final words: I still like Undertale – I still like creating characters and having fun – but the Undertale AU fandom is ridiculous now. The Amino UT community is insanity in an app, and there is a lot of stuff that has made many artists and creators to their breaking point and leaving the fandom entirely. Everyone in this fandom needs to take ten steps back and look at what they are doing. Go back to the game. Play it again – watch your favorite let’s player’s videos of it again. 

And just… food for thought… please don’t jump the gun on someone else’s OC’s personality and actions. 

I do not want anyone to experience what I had.

here 

have it as proof that i’m still alive

“I got a chance to have a small conversation with her.”. She said. “She’s indeed nice. And she’s an interesting person.”. She continued, as she smiled a little. She knew what she has to say. She needed to let him go, and she knew only one person who could take care of him more than anyone else. Of course it will hurt her so much but some things never lasts the way we wanted it to. “I know you weren’t mine anymore. Or maybe you were never even mine from the very start. The moment I saw the two of you together, I knew then that I lost you already even if you haven’t told me about it yet. You know it hurts, but you have no idea how much it would affect me and my damn heart. Because it’s me, who will have to fight these feelings of mine, just to make you happy. Just to see you smile, I need to hide every little tear that’s going to come out. But don’t worry about it, I can do that—for you. Anything for you. I always do that, right? ”. She smiled as if she can’t feel any pain inside her. She wasn’t mad at him. She wasn’t mad at anyone else. She was just so sad she thinks she can’t say any word anymore. But in the end, she told him one thing she hoped he would do. She gently grabbed his hands and said, “Please do me one last favor. Please be happy. This time, please be really happy—do it for me. Will you? ”. Without waiting for an answer, she let go of his hands and walked away—without looking back. But with the acceptance that things between them will never be the same anymore.
—  ma.c.a // Love and Understanding
i wish i could rewrite our story because i hate the way things turned out. i want to write in the margins and rip out all of the sad pages. but more than anything i want to change our ending. so maybe, just maybe, we wouldn’t have ended up like this.
—  you will always be my favorite book to re read
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He could actually be a decent ruller with this mindset it is s o hard to root for Netero

Thieves Among Us (1/4)

Let Jon have his armies and his devoted wildlings and the love of their people, she thinks. Let him have his dragon queen. She’s in possession of a secret, tragic as it may be, but at least it’s entirely her own. For Sansa, that’s more than enough. It has to be. Rated M; inspired by content from S7.


“You’ll attend the banquet, won’t you?” Lady Karstark asks, as the subtlety is brought out and presented before the King in the North and the Queen of the South—a sugary rendition of a dragon and a direwolf, likely the work of a talented southron pastry master that had tailed along with everyone else in the Northern March. With so many bodies in and around Winterfell nowadays, Sansa can’t even imagine if there’s anybody left in King’s Landing, though she knows that’s not true. Still, she imagines how eerie it is, the idea of the royal capital completely devoid of people. The silence alone would be frightening, she thinks, when she can still remember the claustrophobic roar of voices and sounds that had echoed in between the tight streets she had ran through, desperate to escape the men who had been all too eager to get a piece of the nobility they so detested.

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OKAY BUT ONE MORE GOOD THING BEFORE I FORGET

One of my favorite and likely underrated moments was when Adam turned back into a human. You know how that part’s often mocked because he looks funny turning around at first?

Well, here, there’s soooo much to appreciate. Because not only does Dan Stevens look the part perfectly, but since he does, when he turns human it feels /right/.

damnhitsuzen replied to your post “GUYS I READ WISH.  GUESS WHO MY FAVOURITES WERE? GO ON GUESS.  WOOPS…”

And now return mentaly to Legal Drug. Any familiar faces? ;) But I have to remind you that Drug&Drop is heavy on xxxholic spoilers right from the start, so do not read it. They are easy to confuse, but only one will give you spoiler too massive to survive.

Not to worry! I own physical copies of Legal Drug, but none of Drug and Drop, so it’s easy to know when to stop. I will remain spoiler free!

And, re: familiar faces, I’ll be making a post about this in the days to come so JUST YOU WAIT. 

Compromised - Ch 1

An Ending

Summary: The 6 years after Zurich, told from Jack’s perspective. AKA somebody wanted him and Gabe dead, and as far as he knows, they half succeeded. Now Jack won’t stop until he gets to the bottom of it.

Rating: M, blood, gore, psychological trauma, broken bones, head injuries, blind: 76 stuff as well  because it’s my favorite headcanon.

Notes: I posted this a while (a WHILE a while) ago on AO3 and… I was really nervous posting here because it was my first fic for reaper76 and it’s not even heavily such! So now I’m posting it, and I’ll post the later chapters in the following week. This piece is meant to be a companion to Decayed; both can be read separately but are more fulfilling together.

AO3 Link


The hardest part was coming to.

He took a gasp of life-giving breath and immediately regretted such a survivalist decision. Pain lanced through him like lightning, everything seizing. His body panicked, shaking with unrelenting convulsions. His ears ran, his face felt wet and hot, and his whole chest refused to cooperate with the frantic messages his brain was sending it. Panic rushed the adrenaline quickly through his veins, opening every nerve ending until finally, wretchedly, he coughed in the air his body was fighting so hard for.

It was released in an agony-filled scream, a tortured reminder to his ringing ears that his body still had the fight to stay alive.

He was dying. This had to be what dying felt like, sitting on the precipice but with no way of swinging all the way over. Or perhaps he had swung across, flinging himself into the fires of the hell that awaited him. With his grinding teeth and gnashing bones on top of the dark, sweltering, smoke filled air, he might as well already be there.

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okay so introduction post… for those of you that aren’t familiar with charles. he’s the brother of carmen and athena and i (sam) play him… he’s an oddball tbh. you can read his bio here and some stats here, but considering i’ve played him for a really long time… he’s changed A LOT so… i’ll break down most of it under the cut so that you guys have an idea of what i’m doing and whatnot.

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Dynasty Warriors Meme

Favourite Character (Shu): Guan Yu

to everyone who  asked me about what kankuro and kibas child would be like!

allow me to introduce you to:

Taro is actually kurohigi​ and leafmutt​ s OC, but he’s stolen my heart and I am no longer capable of imagining them with anyone else. you can read more about him here and here !

also if its ok I guess I’ll be using him to answer any future questions about this?

“I think about him more than i think about myself and my life. Instead of thinking about what ill be doing tomorrow, i think about what hes doing tomorrow and if we will cross paths. having to hide my feelings from him so i dont fuck up a friendship. I cant look at him without getting butterflies. Hugging him feels like my whole world is in my arms for five seconds. Im in so far… im fucked.”

—s.g // excerpts from a book ill never write #24

Okay…
So I have read here on Tumblr and elsewhere that there are many Bethyl and Team D fans who were concerned as to why Daryl was not wearing the accessory that has been ever-present since Beth has been “just gone”–her knife that was tenderly bestowed upon him by Carol. Her knife was missing while he was on the mission with the rest of Team Family to proactively murder the Saviors in episodes 12 and 13 of season six.

My friend @lilly.loup on Instagram presented a theory that she said was more of her personal headcanon, but I thought it was compelling enough and worth sharing with you all here. She believes that Daryl did not bring her knife with him on the brutal mission out of respect towards Beth. He has lost his faith in “good people” that had previously been restored thanks to Beth’s influence during their hallowed time spent together. His faith was then dashed by his negative experience with the two Saviors he encountered, Dwight and Honey, in the burned out forest in season six’s episode number 6–“Always Accountable.” Dwight took Daryl captive, threatened to kill him, and eventually ended up robbing him of his treasured crossbow and both he and Honey rode off on his motorcycle. This was of course despite Daryl trying to save the life of their friend, Tina.

And despite Daryl losing his faith in there still being “good people” in this wrecked world, Daryl knows that Beth would still be disturbed if he used her knife to murder people in addition to putting down walkers. Even if it was a self-protective measure–killing the Saviors before they can do significant harm to him and the rest of Team Family.

So this is a comforting and reassuring headcanon: Daryl leaving Beth’s knife back at Alexandria out of respect for her convictions. Plus, it is also likely that he would want to keep his precious memento of his beloved Beth safe and sound and not getting it lost or taken from him. Why else would he all of a sudden not be shown wearing it??? There is a REASON why he has been prevalently shown wearing it on his belt since Carol gave it to him. And in MY (as well as many others’) Team D headcanon, this is also because he will personally return it to Beth when they are tearfully reunited. And she will give his crossbow back to him. ❤️

All of this also inspired my latest photo edit here. 😍

You always had imagine your first heartbreak. You have read quotes and books about it, you have seen your best friend cry in the middle of class because the guy she loved more than her life left her. You have seen this and that and you’re afraid until someday you meet someone and you fall for him without even realizing it. He makes you see the world in different view, he makes things better. He kisses you like you’re the air he breaths and he hugs you like he is holding the world. Being this happy with him made you think you had forever like nothing could ever tear you apart. But then the day comes and he does, he tears your heart apart, he leaves you with nothing. You have read about it but experiencing it is a whole of a different thing. It will shatter you, destroy you. You’ll get away from everyone, try to build your walls so high and never let anyone in again but don’t do that. Take care of yourself start to love everything that makes you happy. Don’t ever let your happiness depend in someone else. You are more than a boy who doesn’t care
—  k.m

Even though Mo is (understandably) really pissed off he still cared enough to read the contents of the note

He Tian knows him well enough that he would read it (lol). 

How adorable, playful and teasing that note actually is? He Tian genuinely likes his company and having him around and really likes his food. Honestly that little note did funny things to my heart. I can’t even help to think that when he calls him ‘idiot’ it’s nothing more then in an endearing manner. 

And lastly all of this leaves me missing the happier times and the angst 100x more painful T_T but I guess it was needed 

And suddenly, while we stared each other under the pouring hot water, I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted more, I wanted more than just looks and brushes of arms and legs and the stupid endless flirting. I wanted to taste his lips and and his neck and his cheeks and everything. I wanted to run my hand through his hair and feel the electricity of love rush through me as I have read in all of the books in my life. I wanted to pull him in and never let him go.
“Kiss me.” he whispered and that was all it took for me to kiss him like every fibre of my being was dying, and he was my medicine. And oh my love, it did feel like it, because suddenly, I was more alive, I felt stronger, happier and i felt at home. His arms felt like home and damn, I never wanted to leave home again.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #388 // @ughnashraa on Instagram

Title: By Another Route

Fandom: K Project

Notes: For onedayk on Twitter, prompt: clan reversal. I don’t really have any plans to continue this, I just liked the idea. Sort-of implied future Sarumi depending on how you want to read it.

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  • me: omg look rob chernow's book that inspired hamilton omg i've never read a historical nonfiction but leggo
  • me: *on page 20*
  • book: u think hamilton had it bad??? u think you know him from the musical???? no. u don't know him. YOU HAVE NO IDEA. it's so much worse than u could have imagined. his whole inheritance was stolen from him bc his mother had a beef with her ex husband and it went to her legitimate son and then not only did his cousin commit suicide, he left nothing for alexander and james jr (his brother) and willed it all to his mulatto child and his slave mistress and then his cousin's dad came and then like a year later HE died... and he STILL didn't will anything to hamilton
  • me: no plz why are you doing this to me
  • book: james hamilton might've not even been his father
  • me: no don't do this to me
  • book: he looked just like edward stevens
  • me: stop
  • book: he had a closer relationship with stevens than with his own brother.
  • me: n o
  • book: that may be why james hamilton left. he didn't feel a sense of responsibility.
  • me: o h my g o d
  • book: here have a letter hamilton wrote to edward
  • me: aww... he called him neddy that's kind of cute he's pretty smart for a 14 year... OH MY GOD DID HE JUST SAY THAT HE WISHED FOR A WAR
  • book: u don't know his story. u don't know hISTORY.
  • me: i... just thought... it was dramatized maybe a little
  • book: lol if anything, it skimmed over the juiciest details. a musical can only be so long... this is only the first 30 pages of his life it can't take up that much space. JUST IMAGINE WHAT THE REST OF THE STORY HOLDS.