i'll always find them

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DON’T LOOK AT ME PLS OMG
it gets a bit confusing to me coz i have a male oc that looks like how i draw zarya orz I FORGOT ZARYA’S TATTOOS IM SORRY

anonymous asked:

I feel like everyone always talks about how katniss has PTSD and no one ever talks about peeta. Do you think Peeta has PTSD?

I think Peeta’s PTSD do get discussed to an extent, but since his hijacking is the bigger thing that happens to him, that gets the attention more, whether with meta or in fanfics

But yes, I do think Peeta also suffered from PTSD like Katniss did*, even before he was hijacked. I’m not a mental health expert by any means, but I don’t think that’s an illogical assumption to make, as he exhibits several symptoms of PTSD

(*tho it has to be said that people experience and deal with PTSD differently, as we have seen with Peeta and Katniss especially right after they came back from the 74th Games and tried to cope on their own)

It wasn’t as explored in the books, but people who lose a limb, especially from a traumatic or violent experience, often end up suffering from depression, grief, and/or anxiety at minimum. 

Peeta has difficulty sleeping, and before him and Katniss slept together on the train, he spent most nights roaming around the train cars. When he does sleep, he also suffers from nightmares:

“All I do is go around trying to forget the arena and you’ve brought it back to life. How do you remember these things so exactly?” 
“I see them every night,” he says. 
I know what he means. Nightmares—which I was no stranger to before the Games—now plague me whenever I sleep…. “Me, too. Does it help? To paint them out?”
“I don’t know. I think I’m a little less afraid of going to sleep at night, or I tell myself I am,” he says. “But they haven’t gone anywhere.” 
“Maybe they won’t. Haymitch’s haven’t.” Haymitch doesn’t say so, but I’m sure this is why he doesn’t like to sleep in the dark. 
“No. But for me, it’s better to wake up with a paint-brush than a knife in my hand,” he says.

“Peeta, how come I never know when you’re having a nightmare?” I say.
 “I don’t know. I don’t think I cry out or thrash around or anything. I just come to, paralyzed with terror,” he says.

And while I do agree that Peeta by his own nature does have a temper and he did have a right to be upset with Katniss and Haymitch then, but I also think his angry outburst in District 11 was also a symptom of his PTSD:

“Then I made things worse, too. By giving the money,” says Peeta. Suddenly he strikes out at a lamp that sits precariously on a crate and knocks it across the room, where it shatters against the floor. “This has to stop. Right now. This—this—game you two play, where you tell each other secrets but keep them from me like I’m too inconsequential or stupid or weak to handle them.” “It’s not like that, Peeta—” I begin. “It’s exactly like that!” he yells at me.