i'd do anything just to feel alive

grey's anatomy sentence meme ( various seasons. )
  • " you're my person. "
  • " i am a hormone casserole! "
  • " i don't know how it happened, but i don't have anyone. "
  • " isn't that the most ridiculous piece of crap you've ever heard? "
  • " the only time i don't feel like a ghost is when you look at me. "
  • " how would you feel if she called your penis angry or snide? "
  • " they're my family. "
  • " we are not better. "
  • " the two of us are going to be serving slushies at the multiplex. "
  • " don't look at me like that, like you've seen me naked. "
  • " do i have sex hair? "
  • " just put one foot in front of the other, just get through the day. "
  • " you're dying inside, aren't you? "
  • " you can't replace her, nobody can. "
  • " sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, they just can't love you back in the same way. "
  • " apparently i lost you. "
  • " i was raised to be a good man in a storm. "
  • " i never understood squat about who you are. and now i do, and i don't like it. "
  • " are you upset with me? "
  • " life without you terrifies me. "
  • " it's you, i need you, and you're the only thing i will ever need. "
  • " take your hand off my boob. "
  • " because, it's what jesus, would freaking do! "
  • " you got your second chance, just don't screw it up. "
  • " in your dreams evil spawn! "
  • " what? you've never did anything crazy for love?"
  • " take off your pants. "
  • " you walk away? that's all i get? "
  • " i always screw myself out of everything good. "
  • " he/she's the one, and i wish he/she wasn't. "
  • " it kills you, doesn't it? "
  • " i'm going to become a lesbian. "
  • " please don't chase me anymore, not unless you're ready to catch me. "
  • " you can have the worst crap happen to you and you can get over it, all you gotta do is survive. "
  • " i would notice if you were missing... i would notice. "
  • " slow down, slow down.... shh. "
  • " here, take it easy. "
  • " i don't wanna be alone. "
  • " that's it? you're just gonna leave too? "
  • " i have nothing left. "
  • " i'm so tired. "
  • " i don't know what's wrong with me. "
  • " i don't feel anything. "
  • " my point is, i have a dog. "
  • " i'm miserable without he/she/you. "
  • " why are you whispering? "
  • " i'd really like to try your method of "healing with love." "
  • " you did good. "
  • " i need you alive because you're my person. "
  • " promise me you won't die because that would be the worst break up ever. "
  • " i'm still in love with you. i tried not to be, but it didn't work. "
  • " you want me to kick his/her ass? "
  • " thirty second dance party! "
little rant
  • my chronic illnesses are just getting worse and I'm normally good at keeping flare ups concealed but lately they've been too bad to hide. i feel bad having a flare because i don't want people to judge me or think I'm faking - why I'd want to fake something like this I don't know. i feel like my body keeps on failing me and i know that in the future its just going to get worse.. I've already lost half my childhood to these illnesses. i know i have it lucky.. although i have multiple and rare illnesses, i have quite mild versions of all of them - I'm quite lucky to be alive right now. but i miss seeming normal, looking normal, being able to do anything i wanted with no restrictions, not having to watch what i eat or panic for ages about plans with my friends just incase nobody can cater for my needs. i hate when i say I'm disabled and people look at me as if I'm crazy.. its real, trust me i have to deal with it every day. the stress im under makes evrything ridiculously worse. in the summer i can be fine for weeks but in school i can have 3 or 4 flares a day, and when all the illnesses are at it, its a great time. i keep thinking about how I'd be right now if i didn't have these illnesses, i feel so limited at school because i have to nap when i get home or my back pain is so bad i can't move all night. all that extra time spent being ill when i could just be revising. i keep being sick at the moment too, all my friends were around and i had to hide myself upstairs and be sick and i hate hiding it but i don't want anybody to know how bad i actually suffer sometimes. i hate hate hate the fact that my friends have to help me so much and i feel like nobody will ever want a relationship with me because im such hard work, physical and mental illnesses combined are hard work for those around you. some days will be great, some days will be fine, and i am so so so thankful for those days.. but some days are terrible, and i can never tell what type of day its going to be..
  • i bet nobody read this, but its nice to get your problems out once in a while, even if nobodys listening.. i feel too much of a burden to actually talk to somebody
  • i hope for better days soon, i need some