i would of hated myself if i didn't make this

anonymous asked:

Idk why people think heteroromantic aces don't suffer about our sexuality. I didn't cry nearly this much when I was sure I was heterosexual. I just figured out that I'm (probably) hetero ace a month ago. I keep crying about dying alone and how I can never tell my family bc they wouldnt understand. Like ugly hyperventilating crying. It's weird that the LGBT community on Tumblr makes me hate myself more than I already do bc I was SO sure they would give me a safe place to figure my sexuality out.

They absolutely don’t consider it which is a shame because for a part of my queer existence the pain factor that some people want to base being in the community on was caused from my solely from asexuality. It was because I was not straight and was not able to go through life as a straight person even when I thought it was hetroromantic. I remember back when I didn’t know much about gender and nothing about the split attraction model (SAM). All that bullshit, pain, and abuse frankly came from asexuality not fitting into straight society. And it’s an utter fucking shame that the LGBT community often times turns people way because they wanted someone more like them. It’s definitely hard to navigate at times but hang in there and try to put yourself around good kind people.   

The looping gif that no one asked for and no one wanted, to endlessly fuel all your rage

volturisecretary  asked:

The whole "confrontation" still has me salty af lmao. So- I'm curious...If you would have directed the Breaking Dawn part 2 movie, how would you have changed the portray of the Volturi?

If I had any control over Breaking Dawn and its plot it’s entirety would be so, so different, ahah! I mentioned it in a post, but if the whole “Bella’s pregnant with a vampire/human hybrid” plot took place, the whole thing would have to change because otherwise it doesn’t make sense?

BUT that’s more of me nitpicking the books plot rather than the movies, so I’ll leave that alone for now. For the movies the casting is the first thing that I would change, for sure.

(since I’m bad with faces and can’t for the life of me find a irl fan-casting that I can decide upon, I’ll just draw up the differences in appearance, because?? i have too much spare time on my hands already so what the hell right?)

(movie versions on the left, how i personally imagine them on the right)

  (these are just my personal headcanons i dont mind other imaginings at all. except for movie aro. he’s still the awful equivalent of a fever dream, and i hate him more than i hate myself. which is a lot.)

  • I’d also actually include?? Sulpicia and Athenodora??? Because they are??? Important??? why weren’t they there????
  • I’D ACTUALLY ALSO PUT RENATA IN BECAUSE WHY DID THEY LEAVE HER OUT AS WELL?????? 
  • Also I’d make Jane and Alec a little younger, and actually played by twins. Also they would probably have burn marks?
  • Demetri I would have in his original dark skin like in the book

  • Felix and Heidi are fine I’m okay with that casting tbh
Send to see how my muse responds
  • "Take a chance on me."
  • "I'm the shell of a person that I used to be."
  • "I believe in you."
  • "From now on, I'm yours. Forever."
  • "What the fuck is wrong with me?"
  • "I'm so grateful to you."
  • "Nothing here is right."
  • "Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down."
  • "Did you met anyone?"
  • "People down here think I'm crazy, but I don't care."
  • "Why heart doesn't listen common sense?"
  • "With you it felt like in the movies."
  • "Kiss my ass!"
  • "I really want to make a love connection."
  • "I'm not afraid to face a little bit of danger."
  • "Let's get away just for one day."
  • "I wanted to vent but I never said nothing at all."
  • "What I did to you to make you hate me?"
  • "I ain’t censoring myself for nobody."
  • "Don't you ever wonder how we survive?"
  • "I'm not the villain, despite what you're always preaching."
  • "Save me."
  • "I should've known better."
  • "This can't be happening to me."
  • "I know it's already over now."
  • "You don't have to pretend that you didn't notice me."
  • "Raise your glass!"
  • "I would any day die for you."
  • "You touch me in many ways."
  • "Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?"
  • "Would you kill to prove you're right?"
  • "Where is your God?"
  • "I want to show sun to you."
  • "Let's get down to business."
  • "Let's save the world."
  • "I think about you too much."
  • "This isn't normal anymore."
  • "You are my only one."
  • "This is the best time."
  • "What ever can happen."
  • "I've always been like this."
  • "I'm kind of outsider."
  • "It is easy to get me wrong if you don't know me."

ox1997macaroni  asked:

The one thing I hate the most about these transtrenders is they have no idea how much harm they're bringing. It would be so simple to solve this if we just accepted the fact that transgenderism is a mental disorder. Healthcare would become accessible, it would be more accepted and open in society if we didn't have these idiots saying "I'm a drexygender nonbinary queer transsexual" like literally what the fuck is that supposed to mean?? Stop being so obsessed with making a label for yourself.

^This. I really couldn’t have said it better myself.

one of the things that I look back upon, and am the saddest about, and also have never really been able to put into words: i used to anticipate all comfortable clothing as making me look attractive. I would wear restrictive and uncomfortable fashionable clothing around my own home, by myself. I would feel suspicious of my own ugliness of unattractiveness if something felt too easy.

sometimes I think of the way I had internalized misogynistic beauty standards (which were also laden w race and class and sexuality) and feel so, so heartbroken. sometimes I still feel those things.

Bts reaction to being sick

Rap Monster

“Ill do anything you need me to… just don’t sneeze on me…”

He would be so sad that you were sick he would do anything you needed just to show how much he loves you, but he would be super careful as to not get himself sick.

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

Jin

“Dr. Seokjin is in!”

Jin would make you soup or any comfort food you wanted (sometimes he’d even feed it to you). After making sure you eat he’d sit and play with you hair while the two of you snuggled up on the couch.

Originally posted by vminv

Suga

He would always give you puppy eyes to get you to sleep off the sickness, he would take days off from work, and he would be so soft with you he would just want you to feel better. 

“You’ll get better! I know this because i’m here to take care of you!”

Originally posted by yoongijae

J-hope

“You know they say that laughter is the best medicine.”

J-hope would tickle you and wait for your smile to appear. but when laughing didn't work he would give you the vitimines you needed and possibly make you some soup.

Originally posted by iyeols

Jimin

Jimin would be such a baby he would be worried about you so so much, he would attend to your every need, run every errand, and would do literally anything to make you feel better. 

“Jagi… I hate seeing you like this, its scary… please get better.”

Originally posted by bwipsul

Taehyung 

“Don’t worry Jagiya! You’ll be feeling better in no time!”

He would try and stay positive as you lay in bed sniffling with an upset stomach, and he would take care of you to the best of her abilities.

Originally posted by hellosarang

Jungkook

“Don’t worry i’ll take care of you better than i take care of myself!”

He’d kiss your forehead for your temperature with a smile and cuddle with you all day. You would tell him not to so he wouldn’t get sick but he didn't care he just wanted you to fell better.

Originally posted by jecn


~Admin Lily

anonymous asked:

jim and his tummy are important to me for lots of reasons, one being, well don't laugh at me for this, but it makes me feel better about not being skinny? I'm chubby right now and he was and he got bigger as he got older but everyone always loved him and it never held him back from anything and he didn't care and it makes me feel better about my body. is that totally silly?

This isn’t silly at all. Representation is so important. SO IMPORTANT.

Honestly speaking? Jim helped me get over my own weight issues. I spent the majority of my life hating the reflection of my body. I struggled with an eating disorder for years. I was anorexic and would starve myself. When it finally came to the point where there was an absolute need to eat, it was awful. I felt so much guilt. Like literal guilt that what I was eating was just being wasted by my consuming it. Like I didn’t deserve to eat.

Because of that, I was anemic and exhausted all the time. But worse than all of the physical symptoms was how I mentally felt.

It sucks. It really, really sucks when you look in the mirror and you hate what you see. I was so thin and yet never thin enough. It ruled my life. Not good enough, never good enough, not thin enough. Over and over and over.

Fast forward to today. Thyroid issues made me gain a lot of weight and I had a world of trouble coping with that.

Today, though? I know I’m not thin. I have some padding and tbh it’s just whatever because fuck beauty standards. There is no standard. You’re hot no matter what you look like. idc if you’re a size 2 or 22. idc if you’re age 18 or 68. Skin color, makeup, no makeup, whatever. You’re beautiful and I hope you feel beautiful.

Back to your point, I relate. After all of that shit and years upon years of self-loathing, I’m confident today. I identify with Jim so much and I took a lot of comfort in knowing that Bill could continue to portray him as he gained weight and aged. And tbh? I’ve never ever found him unattractive. I know a ton of people agree with me.

So, no. You’re not silly at all. I think you should absolutely love yourself because there’s only one of you and that’s damn fucking special. <333 Companies use our insecurities to their advantages. They want to convince us there’s a cookie-cutter shape of beauty so we’ll buy their shit.

There isn’t. Don’t let them convince you of that. <3 There’s only one of you so treasure yourself. <3

anonymous asked:

Sorry for messaging you like this, but I've been following you for a while and feel like I know you at this point…i just wanted to tell someone. I feel so anxious and scared rn for myself, but even more for friends of color. And I live in a v open-minded liberal community…this country just makes me want to cry. I honestly didn't think that such a huge percentage of the people here would be so hateful…thank you for always being here

I completely understand these sentiments, because I share them. I was looking forward to returning to the United States next month to see friends and family and feel at home, but now I’m not sure I want to go at all. I don’t mind telling you, I have cried over this. A lot. (And I am not a person who cries very often.) I went to bed in a state of shock at about 5:30 in the morning, and only slept because I was so tired and it hadn’t really sunk in. I woke up in the morning to my phone playing “Goodbye Blue Sky” and just burst into tears because I wasn’t ready for that at all and everything just hit me at once. So I pulled the blanket over my head and just cried it out. Then I dragged myself out of bed, took a hot shower, got dressed, and hauled my ass to the train station. I drank a bunch of strong coffee and listened to loud music for an hour on the way to Oxford and managed to keep it together until I got to the bar to meet a friend. We didn’t even say much to each other, just sat in silence and disbelief and slowly drank until it was time to go off to the Sheldonian for Margaret Atwood’s interview with Emma Smith. And here’s the important part of this long and apparently pointless story: we laughed. Margaret Atwood had some great things to say about writing and books and art and the role of all those things in the undoubtedly rough years to come. And we laughed. Yeah, old white idiots elected a sentient trash bag to the Oval Office. Yeah, life is about to get really difficult for anyone who’s not an old white idiot who elected a sentient trash bag to the Oval Office. But that is all the more reason that the rest of us have to grit our teeth and clench our muscles and soldier on. Do whatever the fuck you have to do to get yourself out of bed and fighting back, whether that’s with activism or just with art or just by refusing to tolerate hate. Trump won the election, but he hasn’t won the ideological war. That’s just started. And as much as we all feel like we’ve taken a haymaker right to the metaphysical gut, we can’t afford to just curl up and cry–at least, not for a prolonged period. So, get that out of your system. You’re not alone. Find some solidarity and go about your business–especially if your business includes sticking it to the Trash Bag. Get angry. Get active. Because that’s the only way to survive something like this. It’s going to be scary as hell. Won’t pretend otherwise. But it will not be the end of you or me.

If I could gather you all together and pour you a stiff drink and give you a hard hug and a solemn nod before sending you back out into this wreck of a world, I would. But since I can’t do that, this will have to suffice. Cheers. Hug. Nod.

Let’s go fuck things up for Trump.

anonymous asked:

So my ex used me. He convinced me to do sexual things with him(not sex)and three weeks later we broke up and I found out he cheated on me with a friend of mine. I feel so horrible and weak because he made it seem that if I didn't do things with him than he would cheat but even after I did he still betrayed me. Help. I hate myself so much.

How others treat us is not a reflection of ourselves, it is a reflection of them and we are not responsible for the mistreatment we are given by abusers or other general assholes. Abusers are the sole people to blame for abuse, always remember that! We must make the effort to remind ourselves of our worth and radiance, especially when sour things like this happen. Love u 🌺🌺🌺💝

anonymous asked:

If I believed in babygate I would be asking myself, if Louis plans to raise his kid in LA, why is he renting instead of purchasing a home for himself? Why not make it permanent? And why didn't he ever buy that luxury home for B and baby? Even if he hates her, he would want his son to always live comfortably. Like it's all so nonsensical.

Yep. And even if the child was an accident and he wasn’t with B, there is no way he wouldn’t protect both her and the child instead of selling them out to paps. He would protect them, provide them with privacy and safety. I can say that from what I know about Louis, I am sure of that.

anonymous asked:

Salaam aleikum I'm a muslim, well i'm actually a very bad muslim.. I really need your advice. I have done so many messed up things. The sins i have done are so many. I have had sex and i drunk alcohol on parties, i smoked weed for like a half year.. I really hate myself for doing all that.. I didn't listend to allah but to saytaan.. Since it's 2016 i haven't smoked weed but i still drunk alcohol.. I thought i would make a new good start but i failed again.. Pls help me be a better muslim

Walaikum Assalaam,

The temptation will be there but you have to suppress your desire for the sake of Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala. Keep striving and never give up. Keep yourself busy and do productive things that will benefit you in the hereafter. Make dua and ask Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala for help. Cry and beg to Him that He give you strength to fight with your desire and help you abstain from sin. Avoid all the circumstances that trigger your feeling and strengthen your relationship with Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala.

The more you go against the self, the more light will be put in the heart.

Shaykh Hamza Yusuf

First of all find out what are the triggers and avoid being in those circumstances. Secondly fast if you are having problem in controlling desires or eat less. Thirdly temptation will always be there, throughout our life. But we have to abstain from the temptation. When you think about the desires and it gives you joy. The first thing you have to do is to repel that thought, before it becomes an action. Try to distract yourself, do something read books, talk to your family or anything that may help you to get distracted from the thought. If you keep thinking about it, it will become a stronger desire and it may happen you may end in doing sin.

Following are some tips that will help you to reduce sin in shaa Allah

1.      Fix your prayers.

Indeed, prayer prohibits immorality and wrongdoing, and the remembrance of Allah is greater. And Allah knows that which you do. (Surat Al-`Ankabūt 29:45)

2.      Being God conscious, always keep in mind that whatever we do, we have to be accountable to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and He’s watching us all the time.

3.      When you get tempted to do sin think of the death because it is the cutter of delights.

The Messenger of Allah (Peace be upon him) said:“Remember often the destroyer and cutter off of delights, which is death.” (Sunnan Trimidhi:2229)

4.    Have friends that remind you of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala not those whose company makes you forget Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

5.    Strive to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala. When our connection is stronger with Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala it will be easy for us to fight with the desires.

6.    When you get tempted think of the following things:

·         Allah is watching you

·         Angels are recording your deeds

·         Punishment of the grave

·         You have to answer on the day of Judgement

Here are some tips to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala that will help you in shaa Allah.

1.If we want to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala, we have to fulfill our obligatory duties and follows the command of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and his messenger (peace be upon him) wholeheartedly.

2.Being God conscious, always keep in mind that whatever we do, we have to be accountable to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and He’s watching us all the time.

3.Whenever we do a good work, always make the intention that you are doing this to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

4.Be thankful to Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala in every situation and be happy with the Allah decree.

5.Try to do dhikr all the time, it will make us closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

Following are some dhikr that we can do all the time:

1.  Asthaghfirullah

2.  Subhaanallah

3. Alhamdulillah

4. Allahu Akbar

5. Laa ilaaha illallah

6. LA HAWLA WA LA QUWWATA ILLA BILLAH-HIL ALIYYIL ADHEEM

7. Asthaghfirullah-halladhee Laa ilaaha illa-huwal Hayyul Qayyuumu Wa athoobu Ilay

Or Asthaghfirullah

8. SUB-HAAN’ALLAAHi WA BI-HAM’DIHI SUB-HAAN’ALLAH-IL ADHEEM

Or SUB-HAAN’ALLAAHi WA BI-HAM’DIHI

9. Subhāna-llāhi, wa-l-hamdu li-llāhi, wa lā ilāha illā-llāhu, wa-llāhu akbar. Wa lā hawla wa lā quwwata illā bi-llāhi-l-aliyyi-l-azīm

10. Lā ilāha illā-llāhu waḥdahu lā sharīka lahu lahu-l-mulku wa lahu-l-ḥamdu yuhyi wa yumītu wa huwa ḥayyu-llā yamūtu abadan abada, ḏū-l-jalāli wa-l-ikrām, biyadihi-l-khayr, wa huwa alā kulli Shay-in qadīr

Or

Laa ilaaha illal-laahu wahdahu laa shareeka lahu, lahul-mulku wa lahul-hamdu wa huwa ‘alaa kulli shay-in qadeer

We should also recite much of durood e Ibrahim which is the durood that is recited towards the end of Salaah.

Or the shortest durood is: Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallim

6. Dua and Repentence:

Almighty Allah says in the Qur’an: “When my servants ask you concerning me, (tell them) I am indeed close (to them). I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calls on me.“ [2:186]

The place of Dua is so high in front of Allah, that the Prophet (Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallim) has said: ”Nothing is more honourable to Allah the Most High than Dua.”[Sahih al-Jami` no.5268].

Allah loves repentance & loves those who turn to him in sincere repentance:

Truly Allah loves those who turn [to Him] in repentance… (Qur’an 2:222)

Narrated ‘Ubaadah that the Messenger of Allah said, “Whoever seeks forgiveness for the believing men and believing women, Allah will write for him a good deed for EACH believing man and believing woman.” (Tabarrani)

Subhanallah this deed can be done in EVERY dua and can you imagine how many rewards can be gained for each and every Muslim you make dua for from Adam alayhis ‘salam until now and the last Muslim on earth. This is the easiest way to earn rewards that go into the billions and the more you make these dua’s then the more your good deed account will get filled!

Ask Allah for the help and try to do dhikr all the time, it will help you in shaa Allah. Recite Astaghfirullah, Durood Shareef and kalma as often you can. Desire will always be there, nafs and shaitan is our enemy and this battle will continue till our last breath. On our shortcomings we should repent to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala sincerely. He is the most forgiving and merciful.

I hope it will be helpful. May Allah guide us to the straight path.

Ameen

the shoebox project sentence meme - part one
  • "it frightens the shit out of birds which you can imagine is exactly what I look for in a mode of transportation."
  • "_________ has got his head stuck in a window."
  • "S/He is not doing great, s/he is stuck in a window."
  • "Do please try not to be arrested."
  • "I don't know why s/he looked so panicked. I was wearing a top hat and was very chivalrous I think."
  • "We only almost got arrested once, and that was a mistake, I'd never seen that goat before in my life."
  • "QUIET IS BORING. BOOOOOOOOORIIIIIIING."
  • "I want to help you eat your sandwich."
  • "So this is a short note to let you know I miss you too! Though I miss my jacket more!"
  • "Stop making faces, that one you've got on right now is particularly unappealing."
  • "Repeat after me, ______: I do believe in commas. I do, I do."
  • "Summer love. Ah, the romance. Ah, the black eyes."
  • "It isn't funny. Stop laughing, I mean it."
  • "To pee or not to pee is hardly the question."
  • "I can say funnification if I want and one day, when our epistolary extravaganzas are published, the world will sit back and think What Brilliance!"
  • "Stop looking at your tongue in the mirror it's unbecoming."
  • "_____ do you think my tongue's weird? I keep looking at it in the mirror and it is WEIRD, it's sort of POINTY."
  • "I did that on purpose, you see, to give you something to do."
  • "Betrayal is a bitter potion to swallow, you know."
  • "There are nights I awake in a cold sweat, clutching my pillow, convinced I have got a GREAT BLOODY PINK DUSTER STICKING OUT OF MY ARSE when ALL I TRIED TO DO WAS HELP MY FRIEND IN HIS HOUR OF NEED."
  • "REST UP ALL RIGHT, don't do any calisthenics for a couple of days and no violent shagging!!"
  • "S/He's always around and s/he smells nice so why not right?"
  • "Like how some girls give friendship bracelets, we can give Friendship Scars."
  • "I like your nose."
  • "Anyway how can you resist a face like this?"
  • "So I look like two years ago I was on the African desert battling mad stampeding elephants with very pointy tusks."
  • "S/He's glad. S/He just doesn't know it yet."
  • "Can I have a towel, please, o most patient and understanding of hosts, on whose territory I have done nothing but trespass and drip."
  • "hey! that was definitely Inappropriate Touching."
  • "There are people who would give their eyeteeth to be groped by me, you know."
  • "Now. Where were we? Ah yes. Revenge."
  • "Thanks for making me miss all the fun, you stupid wanker."
  • "if it's war you want, it's war you've got!"
  • "At least i don't have fleas."
  • "You're a madman."
  • "I've got new socks on!"
  • "You do not win with no more underwear ever."
  • "You're again apologising for yourself. Stop it!"
  • "We must be getting somewhere; i didn't poison you, myself, or light anything on fire last time."
  • "You expect me to believe that?"
  • "I don't hate _____. _____ hates me."
  • "You told me you hate him/her!! We all hate him/her!!"
  • "Maybe you're being slowly eaten away from the inside."
  • "Are you busy after class? I want to talk to you, this is stupid."
  • "I thought you looked rather dashing, nearly snorting it up into your nose like that."
  • "Hang on, aren't we in a fight?"
  • "We've been very mature. We've definitely resolved the issue at hand."
  • "Well, if it makes you feel better, you look terribly handsome."
  • "I've always had a thing for older men."
  • "I encourage all forms of flattery from my underlings."
  • "They do say, that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery."
  • "What could possibly make things worse than right now?"
  • "Just don't do anything stupid, ______, and don't say anything stupid, either."
  • "You know, I thought this night couldn't get any more beautiful, and then you stepped round that corner."
  • "You are the only (wo)man who has ever managed to hold my complete attention. I can't stop thinking about you, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I do nothing but pine and steal your clothing--"
  • "I was under the impression that I had never even held your partial attention for more than a half an hour."
  • "I heard you and _______ shared a most passionate embrace."
  • "S/he's really a terribly attractive (wo)man, you know, for her/his age."
  • "You know, I do find myself developing a strange craving for human flesh."
  • "_______, you are determined to ruin everything!"
  • "Oho! Someone's not getting into the Halloween spirit!"
  • "I haven't said anything!"
  • "I've not said one word about your grammar."
  • "I'm not frightened."
  • "______, you are about to learn the meaning of a thumping."
  • "How do you know if you're paralyzed?"