i would love to watch you again

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“Before we go, any advice for the people watching?” the Interviewer asked.

You shifted in your chair to face Matthew, wondering what his answer would be.

“Uhm..” Matthew pondered. “Find what you love and do it for the rest of your life.”

Your mind registered the connotation and instinctively you joked, “Are you talking about me again?”

Matthew looked over at you, doubling over with laughter, his forehead hitting your knee before regaining his posture. “Yes, I am. Yeah.”

You chuckled, sending him a wink before turning your attention back to the Interviewer.

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Just a little something to tide you over until I post the requested Spencer Reid smut imagine in an hour 💕

LOL I'm watching Lying Detective again

Like, with what we’ve seen now, with the “I love you” scene… think of all that came before, in the episode that aired right before this: they’re talking about romance so fucking much in these last scenes, and Sherlock is totally denying that’s his thing and John is telling him to go for it cuz it would complete him as a person…

And I’m supposed to think that him having a realization while saying “I love you” to Molly (a second unnecessary time) is somehow NOT about romance?

People denying the romance aspect 100% must be shipping something else specific and therefore cannot except the reality, which is SHERLOCK HAS ROMANTIC FEELINGS FOR MOLLY. The internet is full of weird fucking people because every single human I’ve showed this series to in real life is completely convinced that he feels romantic feelings for her and that that was the entire point of that scene. Y'all are making me batty with all this denial of the presented facts.

pterocardio  asked:

Just wanted to say I absolutely love your blog! ASoUE have always been my favourite books & your theories make me so happy (& tempted to reread the whole series again, especially since I'm watching the netflix series rn). Since we know the Baudelaire parents tried their best to actively keep the children away from VFD but ultimately failed, would u know if there are any other VFD members who tried to do the same and succeeded/if there are any VFD-relate orphans who managed to avoid the VFD?

I’d advise you to check “All The Wrong Questions”. There are a lot of kid characters with suspicious parents in this series, and a V.F.D. connection might explain their behavior a bit.

‘I Love You’: a man’s perspective

I haven’t made the rounds yet this morning, but already last night I’ve seen multiple posts that seem to want to either downgrade or erase the meaning behind Sherlock’s words to Molly Hooper. I find it insanely amusing, because had those words been to John Watson, people would be wetting themselves, but because it was for Molly, people are climbing all over themselves to again deny this character her actual fair due.

My husband, who watches Sherlock with me, had some very interesting perspectives on The Final Problem. He tends to read the show textually, without shipping or all the other nonsense we as fandom people get into.  I tend to trust what he says only because he has no ulterior motives, like zero. Even my own ship doesn’t really mean a damn thing to him. He knows I love it, but he’s not swayed by my reading or my desires at all.  

His reading of The Final Problem was that this was Eurus effectively unlocking the original Sherlock Holmes.  This was Sherlock’s sister, bringing him home, just as he was bringing her home.  To do that, she had to undo what she did when she took Victor Trevor away from him at that young age.  She took a little boy who was filled with bright, wonderful, hot emotion, and she made him lock that away.  She made him like her, and to my husband, it seemed like that was never what Eurus wanted.  

The scenes inside Sherrinford were about systematically making Sherlock face each single, major emotion that he’s refused to feel all these years: anger, fear, sadness, and above all…love.  And no, I don’t mean love for your best friend, that’s already been addressed, and that was already the easiest thing for Sherlock to unlock in himself. He basically did that in S1.  Sherlock loves John, his best friend, just like he loved Victor.  The parallels are spelled out for you in the clearest of ways.  

Sherlock’s locking away of his ‘sexuality’ was already broken open in S2 with Belgravia.  Irene Adler represented a part of Sherlock that really, really wanted out.  It was confusing as hell for him, as we saw, but he still managed to deal with it.  Sex is sex is sex.  It’s meaningful, and at the same time, can also be meaningless.  I personally never saw Irene as meaningless, far from it.  But I do think her special place in Sherlock’s “unlocking” was more physical than emotional.  Hence, we were reminded of this by the moan of her text tone. I personally think Sherlock’s sexuality is firmly unlocked at this point, no need to revisit it again and again.  Something that remained hidden though, very deep down, was Sherlock’s ability, willingness and understanding of a deeper love, and what that means.  This is where Eurus comes in.

The scene with the coffin was very carefully done, both by the writers and on the part of Eurus’ planning.  In fact, if you listen carefully to Eurus’ words, she states exactly why she did it: you lost, look what you did to her, look what you did to yourself, all those complicated, complex emotions, emotional context.  All of those things are things people feel when they love someone (romantic love, since I’m sure I need to spell it out for some viewers).  You feel elated, but you also feel scared.  You may also hate yourself because you probably feel the person you love deserves BETTER than you.  Should you act on it or let them go find someone better.  Do you have the strength to give up parts of yourself for them?  Do they have the strength to give up parts of themselves for you?  It’s scary as hell, y’all!!

 My hub says, to him, the first time Sherlock says ‘I love you’ to Molly Hooper, he didn’t mean it…or at least Sherlock thinks he didn’t mean it. Then, the second time, he did mean it, and he knows it.  That is why he smashed the coffin…that was perhaps the biggest emotion he’d locked away, and he was consumed and confused by it.  For a man who has spent decades pushing love away, it came roaring in within 3 minutes, and he couldn’t push it away. Eurus wouldn’t let him push it away, and more importantly, Molly Hooper wouldn’t let him push it away. That’s why she turned the tables on him and made him say it first.  She inadvertently helped Eurus, which I’m sure was her plan all along (if you believe she’s as much of a supernatural badass as she’s shown to be).

My husband’s purely textual reading of Sherlock’s smashing the coffin with ‘I love you’ on it is that he DID mean it, but he wasn’t sure what that meant to him, and it scares him, greatly.  He said that looked like a man who was pissed that he LOVES.  He spent his entire life working at not loving, and here he is, loving this woman, but now he isn’t sure what to do about it, because he’s not even sure what that really means.  He doesn’t understand it…yet.  Love like that is incredibly strong, true love I mean, not “Hey let’s bone” love.  He said that wasn’t the actions of a man who doesn’t really care.  He said, as a man, if I had to get a woman to say that and I didn’t really love her, I wouldn’t care as much.  I surely wouldn’t care enough to smash an entire coffin to bits with my bear hands.

Lastly, my husband said something I thought was incredibly interesting about how he reads Sherlock.  He said he thinks the reason Sherlock hasn’t really pursued any other relationships with women, not seriously that is, is that on some level he really knew he loved Molly, but that he felt HE wasn’t good enough for HER.  He thinks Sherlock, for all of his arrogance, actually doesn’t think he’s a good man.  He knows Molly Hooper deserves a good man, someone to love her exactly how he thinks she should be loved, and he’s terrified he ISNT that man, or he CANT be that man.  His rage at smashing that coffin was basically anger at himself, anger at himself for loving this woman who really deserves more.

So, from a man who views this show with as much pure text as possible, he thinks that “I Love You” was real, but he thinks Sherlock simply doesn’t know what to do with it, doesn’t know what it means.  He said love is the scariest thing, especially to someone who’s lived closed off.  He’s had an upbringing that, without going into details, was a bit devoid of emotional support from people he needed it from. That means that learning how to show love was incredibly, incredibly difficult for him.  Trust me, I’ve been here for the entire thing.  It took years for him to learn how to show it.  It took me years too…in fact I still have massive trouble with it. People who’ve lived not understanding how to love since young childhood…it takes us a very long time to learn how to do it.  

My husband and I are not the kind of people who go on romantic ballroom dancing dates and snuggle on the Tunnel of Love ride.  We’re just not those kind of people…but we do love each other very much.  We have our way of showing it that works for us. There’s no one else I’d rather trust my mind, body and soul to.  That was first built on friendship, then trust, then love.  For us, I think that’s kind of where Sherlock is starting to head.  We may not ever see that adventure, as that’s not what Sherlock’s story was about.  But, finding how to love, that was his story, and Molly Hooper is an irreplaceable part of that.  No one can deny that, not ever.

I watched The Final Problem with my friend’s 50 year-old dad who is a big fan of the show, who doesn’t ship Johnlock, but who ranted to me for twenty minutes afterward about how the episode had nothing to do with John and Sherlock’s friendship and “that’s all that really matters” and “why would they have Sherlock die for John again in the last episode if never to show that stuff some more?” like…. this guy was appalled at the lack of Sherlock and John together on screen as themselves – Loving each other, however you want to view it. “There were no cases, no deductions, no Sherlock and John…. this doesn’t make any sense” – and this was HIM saying that.  I was just stunned, sitting there bewildered and silent.  

but in the center of our hearts we wanted something real. nothing can be perfect, we whispered, showering with our heads down to drown out the little things. he doesn’t love you like roses not like birdsong not like little gestures. he loves you like good enough, like his parents don’t mind you, like you’d be comfortable enough. like you don’t laugh as much as you pictured but it’s not like you don’t get along. like he’s a good person, like it would be scarier to be alone again, like you’d regret it if you left because you had it pretty good. what are the chances you’d find someone like that again.

so we kiss him in bed or on our knees and we close our eyes during sex. so we tell ourselves it’s okay enough for the moment. so we say that our dreams of something better are unfair, that we’ve got more than we deserve and better yet. so we love him and dream of her and we wake up and do it again. 

we see movies where he loves her loudly, where he says the right things, where he makes it beautiful whenever he can. and we say to ourselves. it’s not real. it’s not real. it’s not real.

nothing is perfect.

Incoming long post about Ezra Miller

If you don’t like Ezra Miller I’m sorry but have you seen him

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 why would you not like him

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 he’s precious

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but also very attractive

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and he’s so open about social problems and wants to raise awareness

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and don’t even get me started

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on his range

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as an actor

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he was the saving feature of We Need To Talk About Kevin for me

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and basically

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i love my queer son Ezra Miller ok

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31 DAYS OF ANIME▸ anime watched in 2016  
                    #9/31 - O R A N G E  ( オレンジ )
I wonder what happens when you die. Do your regrets disappear? Are sins atoned for? Would anyone be sad if I died?  Would something good have happened tomorrow? I guess none of it really matters.  ( if you ever cry alone again, or even if the day comes when you find just living to be painful, then i promise i’ll save you again and again.)

what was really in genji's letter to mercy 100% real not fake

dear angela, how are you? i’m writing this letter and watching my beautiful robot husband play in the snow. haha. he’s such a nerd i love him. i hope you and fareeha are doing well in your marriage

love genji

p.s have this feather i found. it is from a bird. your wife, fareeha, who you love very much, is also like a bird. i thought you would appreciate it

p.s again i love my omnic husband we are going to make a snowman now

My Top 10 Recommended Shoujo Anime to Watch (◕ᴥ◕)
  1. Kaichou wa Maid-sama! - who wouldn’t be attracted to that perverted alien?
  2. Ao Haru Ride - hmmm meeting your first love again huh?
  3. Kimi ni Todoke - like, kazehaya is a perfect example for the man of your dreams
  4. Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji - wondering how would it feel being a real life doggy
  5. Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun - the monster seated next to me. Ohhh wait, is that adorable war freak boy a monster?
  6. Say I Love You - yamato so hot (≧∀≦●)/
  7. Kamisama Hajimemashita - suddenly positioned as a goddess? okay. but not just that, what if, you’ll have a servant who is a hot fox as fk?
  8. Vampire Knight - i swear if you’ll watch this, Kiryuu Zero plus all those hot vampires will surely steal your heart and everything
  9. Yamato Nadeshiko - a shoujo with a dark side bwahahaha *insert nosebleeds everywhere*
  10. Diabolik Lovers - hmmm, i dont really know if i’m going to recommend this but i’m really amazed with their biting scenes with all of that ohhh-so-hot vampires hehehe, i ship ayato and yui really really hard bwahahaha
  11. Akagami no Shirayukihime - did i just say that i’ll recommend you 10? ʕ⊙ᴥ⊙ʔ Here’s an extra recommendation then, akagami no shirayukihime or snow white with red hair, oops it’s not the literal snow white that you’re thinking off. just watch it and see how pretty this anime is (〃ノωノ)
The real deal

What I love even more about John Boyega and Riz Ahmed is that they *are* British or at the least they are in my eyes true Londoners. Like you would come across people here in London that talk like them, dress like them, look like them. If you think people like felicity Jones, Tom hiddleston and benefits cucumber are what majority of people are like here think again.
I love watching interviews of John and Riz and hearing dialects that sound just like mine and I’m majorly proud that they’re POC and are getting the roles they deserve.

A few Starters - Ice Breakers
  • “Are you following me?”
  • “Hey, watch where you’re going.”
  • “You look vaguely familiar…” 
  • “I don’t know who you are but you don’t strike me as the trustworthy type.”
  • “I don’t know what you want but you’d better fuck off before I make you.”
  • “Sorry but I’m new around here, would you mind giving me pointers?”
  • “Strange to see a fresh face around here.”
  • “Hey you. It’s dangerous to be walking around here, you should leave.”
  • “Do you need help with that?”
  • “Do you believe in love at first sight or should I walk by again?”
  • “Do I know you? Cause you look a lot like my next girlfriend/boyfriend.”
  • “See my friends over there? They wanna to know if you think I’m cute.
  • “Hey handsome/beautiful.”
  • “You might be new, but you’re looking at the top dog around here.”
  • “Sorry but I’m not interested in your offer.”
  • “Are you as cold as you seem or do you always walk around like you own the place?”
  • “What’s wrong? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
  • “The answer is no by the way, to whatever you’re about to say.”
  • “Don’t bother, I’m busy.”
  • “No no no, this can’t be right. You shouldn’t be here.”
  • “It’s you, isn’t it?”
  • “Happy to see me again?”
  • “It’s been so long since we’ve last parted, hm? We have some catching up to do.”
  • “You looking to start a fight or something?”
  • “Did you think I wouldn’t notice you watching me?”
  • “Us meeting wasn’t an accident.”
  • “Hey hey, no need for that I’d just like to talk.”
  • “Why the hostility? Do you treat every stranger this way?”
  • “I see no one has ever bothered to teach you manners.”
  • “Come with me, no time to explain!”
  • “Look, you’re in danger. You need to do as I say.”
  • “Are these guys bothering you?”
  • “Hey, leave him/her alone!”
  • “You look tired. Need a ride?”
  • “Shit shit, are you okay?!”
  • “Give me your belongings and you won’t get hurt. Sound fair?”
  • “Well look what the cat dragged in.”
  • “Never thought I’d see your face again.”
  • “Are you drunk? Hey, you can’t be walking around like that, be careful!”
  • “You look like bad news….”
  • “I hope I’m not being too straightforward, but are you single?”
  • “Nice to meet you.”
  • Lance: Keith and I are the main characters, so that means we're the love interests!
  • Pidge: Oh yeah? What does that make us?
  • Lance: You boys are the homosexual supporting cast!

HI!

Yes, it’s me back again with the Star Wars crap. 

If Star Wars the Clone Wars or Rebels ain’t your thing, then completely ignore me if you wish. If you loved the shows as much as I did and still do, then tune in for just a second of your time if you are equally as obsessed with Ahoska and Anakin’s relationship as I am. 

This scene. 

I am going to talk about THIS SCENE. 

Because watching it as a fangirl and lover of Ahsoka and Ani’s relationship as not only Padawan and Master but also brother and sister (ish), this was huge for me. Finally, they meet again, and honestly, I wouldn’t have had it any other way. 

True, I would much rather had Ahsoka be able to persuade Anakin back to the the light, but we all knew that wasn’t going to happen. 

I want to talk about the eyes. In this scene the eyes of both characters were featured very prominatnly, and I do NOT thing that was a mistake of any kind.

Ths is Ahsoka, after years of thinking him dead  or worse, then having doubts on if he was this Sith Lord, firm vertainty of the opposite, and now her fears are coming true. But maybe for just a moment she was filled with filled with a different emotion. A happier one. Maybe for just a milisecond she was relieved because he’s back.

THEN THERE’S ANAKIN.

Yes, I’m calling him Anakin, not Vader, fight me.

Ahsoka says his name and he stops. He halts for a moment and he looks down. He looks away from his opponent as if he’s remembering something. Remembering better times, times when this foe in front of him wasn’t that. Remembering when she was still so small, too small to be fighting in a war. 

Maybe he’s remembering his little Snips and it makes him stop. 

And there’s doubt. Doubt about what the he’s been taught and what the Empire is telling him to think. Doubt because he loved this kid once. Why would he want to kill her? 

And it makes him stop

And then there’s silence. 

It’s only for a moment, but there’s seilcne. Silence for Anakin to think, and silence for Ahsoka to see that there’s still a piece of her old master left in there. 

But ten his eyes narrow again and turn angry. Anger at himself for his weakness and anger at Ahsoka for causing these old feelings to erupt. And maybe there’s some anger at the Empire too. He knows what he has to do, and maybe a tiny peice of him is screaming no

His pupils shrink again and his eyes widen with fury. Anakin is pushed back under the thousands of layers of anger and hate, kept locked away so no one can see him. Because Anakin is weak and weakness can not be allowed in the Empire. 

He readies his lightsaber, prepared to do what he has to. 

Ahsoka stays. She won’t leave him, not this time. 

And she saw it too, the part of her master that no one had seen in years. The small part of Anakin Skywalker that still remained. 

She sees in his eyes the man who she loved once, who treated her like his own child, took care of her and trained her. Taught her all she knows. She saw the man who she looked up to and respected above everyone else. 

And there is a glimmer of hope. 

She will not levee him. Not this time. 

Not again


And then they fight again, and the door closes on their battle, and we assume that Ahsoka dies, killed by her former master. 


But maybe, for just a milisecond, the light that never really left Anakin Skywalker shines through.

Gone in a flash, disappeared without a trace, but I think that Ahsoka sees it too.


Alright, I know that I’m babbling know. I just have a lot of feelings about these two, okay? Sue me. 

Wake Up

People loved my headcanon so much I figured I would write a short drabble over it ^^

Setting: Canon (Chapter 514)

Pairing: NaLu

Summary: “I thought I lost you again.”

“Why won’t you open your eyes?” She rhetorically asked, caressing his cheek with her hand. “Please Natsu, just open your eyes for us… for me.”

The rest in the room all watched the Celestial Mage with a saddened expression, they all felt the emotion radiating off of the blonde for the man who was on death’s doorstep. When Evergreen had told Brandish Lucy was head over heels for Natsu, it had just been playful banter… but seeing the way Lucy acted with the fire mage now…

It didn’t seem so far off from the truth.

“Natsu…” Happy said, tears overflowing his eyes. He wanted nothing more than his best friend to wake up. Happy has been with Natsu every step in his journey during this war, being there when the dragon slayer had found out hard to believe facts about himself.

Happy would do anything to make sure Natsu woke up and smiled again, and he knew that Lucy felt the same way. Which is why the two were both stark naked rubbing the unconscious boys body in hopes of warming up his cold body.

“He’s not warming up.” Lucy muttered as he rubbed her hands along the expanse of his chest. “He’s not even stirring.”

“You’ve only been at it for ten minutes girl.” The medic chasted. “You must keep going, or Natsu will die.”

“You said yourself Porlyusica, it would take a miracle to get him to wake up.” Brandish said as she looked sorrowfully at Lucy’s desperate attempts to wake Natsu up. “He’s going to die-”

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Dating Steve Rogers

A/N: Here’s my first set of Marvel headcannons, dating Steve Rogers. Let me know any requests you might have xx

Warnings: None

Word count: 464

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·         He’d definitely ask Nat about how to ask you out

·         She’s probably be his go to for relationship advice

·         Steve would be so protective

·         He’d constantly have an arm around you to make sure everyone knew you were his

·         God help anyone who tried to flirt with you

·         Forehead kisses

·         No matter what heels you wear he will always look like a giant next to you

·         You would binge watch I Love Lucy together

·         You taking him out to see what he’s missed and explaining everything to him

·         He’d make a list of things he needed to be explained by you

·         One time Tony took him to a strip club and he came home mortified hoping you did not have that particular skill set

·         He’d never trust Tony to take him anywhere ever again

·         He would tell you what dates used to be like and you would try and recreate them for him

·         You’d own a killer vinyl collection

·         You buying him an original polaroid camera

·         Him having so many polaroid pictures of the two of you

·         He always has one with him, especially when he’s on missions without you

·         Helping him when he wakes up from nightmares

·         Steve would have to have you in his arms at night because he had to know you were there and real, not just a dream

·         Normally waking up to find out Steve had been on a run, got back and started to make breakfast for you both

·         On the rare occasions Steve didn’t go for a run, you would both try to stay in bed for as long as you could

·         Tony would low key be jealous of your relationship and ship it like mad

·         One day he claimed you two were ‘adorable, almost as adorable as me which should be a crime’

·         He’d get so turned on when you call him Captain

·         This leads to teasing in public

·         He’d often get back from an evening run to find you in one of his shirts eating popcorn from his shield

·         You’d be so close with Natasha as you were the only other girl on the team

·         He’d always be close to you on missions, always keeping a close watch on you

·         Although, a lot of the time you end up helping him out

·         Steve would draw you a lot

·         When you found out about Clint’s children he would ask you to babysit all the time

·         This would be the cutest thing ever

·         In your line of work almost everything would be unpredictable

·         This would lead the both of you to become inseparable, never wanting to leave the other because you never knew what was going to happen

·         Pretty much everyone around SHIELD shipped the both of you, but no one does as much as Tony does

List of Au’s I Need
  • You always watch our soccer/football game but you’re always alone and I wanted to talk to our number one fan 
  • You suck at gym class and coach assigned me to be your partner, seriously dude, you can’t even kick a ball
  • You’re the cute nerd that keeps getting pushed around but you just punched your bully and I gotta save you
  • I’m a monster/guardian that the local village give sacrifices too and you’re the new sacrifice but don’t worry I won’t eat you, I’m kinda lonely
  • You’re my mate but you won’t except it, c’mon, it took me forever to find you can I at least get a hug or something
  • I just captured the ship you’re on and about to kill everyone on it, but you’re cute, I’ll keep you
  • You’re a princess that wants to escape castle life and I happen to be just traveling the world, totally not running away from bad people or nothin’
  • You’re the neighbor that keeps their curtains open, even when changing, and I can’t talk to you without blushing 
  • You just snuck into my apartment and wait is that blood
  • we’ve been roomates for a few months now and I never see you at night except this time when I caught you dragging a body into the kitchen
  • I needed to kidnap you for a mission but don’t worry I won’t kill you, you’ll be staying with my family for a while
  • You just threw your prosthetic arm at me for being an asshole but seriously dude I’m sorry, do you need a hand?
  • I’m that dork that makes stupid puns and you’re the nerd that actually finds them funny

And I could be enough
And we could be enough
That would be enough 


wow i am so feely lately? it’s been a rough few weeks

i finished painting this- they really relax me and it helps

gon be using this baby for a while <3 again done while listening to hamilton, please watch that musical

also guys, i’m from Spain, but i can see it’s a very hard time you’re going through right now

so to any followers or anyone who needs it, hang in there yea? not telling you not to worry, but you can’t just throw everything away

it’s cheesy but it’ll all get better for y’all, just you wait