i would fail miserably

twitter bios

speak your mind even if your voice shakes

tell me a lie

you were a masterpiece, but then everyone saw you

I smell autumn

yes I function with out a heart

my mom won’t like you

please do not touch

there are so many types of art but {name of idol) is my favourite

seize the day

fragile, handle with respect 

I was the perfect roe that drowned

happiness is a great colour

you eventually will run back into it 

keep your heart closed but mind open

qualified meme-ster

ambitious

s/he was so artistic painting smiles on every face but her/his own

did s/he forget to love

ask no question and you’ll get no lies


people change quicker than you think

society is an ugly burnt ass cracker

how many secrets can you keep

only fools fall for you

meme queen

everything I ever loved, I lost in the magic

seek joy, embrace joy, share joy

if you don’t build your dream, someone will hire you to build theirs.

autumn kills summer with the softest kiss.

no tears for the creatures of the night

you will let go

the colour yellow is really under-appreciated

im a petty bitch

Im a golden thread; fragile but valuable 

a little bit of sugar, but a lot of poison too

confusing reality with dreams

and I will fight even if I break 

smile

fuck im broke

give me a sign

you’re one of a kind and no one understand

make your life a story worth telling

in conclusion, im bitter

but one day I’ll stop falling

(idol name)’s the tear in my heart

im soppy and emotional so stay the fuck away

yikes

have I fit into society yet?

is this any better?

create you’re own path to an adventure 

I let you out, and everyone saw

send memes

glazed donuts 

late nights, red eyes

entertain my faith

*instrumental*

sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind

I’m Fiji water, you are toilet water

see good in all things

we rise by lifting other

oh no, not you again

you still have Facebook?

you make me emo

just keep going

but do you know my aesthetic?

wheres the leak ma’am 

be like spongebob, create fire in the ocean

can life go back to when I didn’t understand it

How do I silence my sins

I will burn again

did I give you permission to break my heart?

red blood, black heart

dear society, do you accept me now?

a thornless withered rose

a touch of gold

fuck you I don’t care I failed

aesthetic mind

my brain is 80% song lyrics

im at the top but I still don’t see you

left me in the dark

stars fall and the world goes blind

sorry mom I promise to never be a a bad bitch

if you’re lost just look for me

dismayed mind

fuck of weirdo

home is where the art is

keep your dreams close to your heart

teach me your contour blending ways

find a way to be yourself

first you find yourself

let me glow bitch

I don’t want seconds

take on life like a swan; calm and serene on the surface, but paddling like hell underneather

(idols name) fills my heart

mom can I be savage now?

do ya thang

neither lost nor found

have a positive mindset

im honestly a troubled kid looking for dank memes

don’t look back, chase whats in front

no thanks, I don’t want leftover

I want to create

a black cloud in a black sky - nobody notices

oops sorry I spilled out my heart

I found the heart, but its empty

did I leave a stain on your heart

I thought this was eternal

buy me food pls

I asked for the word, and you bought me a carrier bag

sorry only dark humour is accepted 

you made it this far kid

you’ll probably love me 

too lazy to socialise 

I found my happy ending

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This went REALLY well last time so I thought I would try it again (idc if this failed miserably its 2am)

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like or reblog if use :)

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what should I do/make next? 

creds to @httpmisfitx if use
Bts reaction to their girlfriend wearing their clothes

SEOKJIN / JIN

He would laugh hugging you and kiss you all over your face. Later while cuddling he would tease you saying “It’s okay if you don’t know how to do your laundry, I can do it for you, you don’t have to steal my clothes baby" 

Originally posted by jjilljj

YOONGI / SUGA

Yoongi would pretend he didn’t see you wearing his clothes and lay down on the couch, you would sulk and sit on top of him crossing your arms “but im wearing your hoodie” “yeah, wash it and put it back when you’re done with it please” you would sulk more and pout. Then he would wrap his arms around you pulling you down and nuzzling your neck saying how much he loved it when you wore his clothes. 

Originally posted by gotjhope

HOSEOK / JHOPE 

​He would smile as soon as he saw you. He would probably kiss you before running to his room to come back a few minutes later with a bunch of his clothes asking you if you could wear them so he could take pictures and show everyone “You just look so cute, I suddenly need a new background for my phone”

Originally posted by kookiyoon

NAMJOON / RAP MOSTER

​Namjoon would tease you because lets be honest, namjoon is that amazing. He would hug you and kiss you and after a few minutes of cuddling his horny side would appear “i love seeing you with my clothes but i rather see you with no clothes at all”

Originally posted by trash-for-bangtan

JIMIN

​He would be super happy about it and would show it as soon as he saw you “You look so cute with that Jagi” “Let me cuddle you please”

Originally posted by jiyoongis

TAEHYUNG / V

​Taehyung would be happy, he would be super clingy and tease you about it “that looks so big on you baby cakes” he would smile back hugging you “It already looks big on me so imagine how you look, so smol and cute” he would pinch your cheeks while kissing you repeatedly.

Originally posted by mvssmedia

JUNGKOOK

​Jungkook would be all shy about it, he wouldn’t say anything but he would look at you all the time and bite his lip trying to hide his smile, when you asked him if he was okay he would put a fake mad voice and tell you he was mad for stealing his clothes “You know I don’t like sharing clothes” but he would fail miserably when he started laughing, then he would cuddle you until you two fell asleep together

Originally posted by bangtanofarmys

Gif credits to the owners. 

A/N: this is my first reaction and im really sorry if this is shit, please forgive me 🙏🏻
the ultimate heathers lyric starter meme ( act 2 )

MY DEAD GAY SON

  • ❛  You wait just a minute, (name)!  ❜
  • ❛  It’s ignorant, hateful talk like yours that makes this world a place that they could not live in.  ❜
  • ❛  They were not dirty!  ❜
  • ❛  They were not wrong!  ❜
  • ❛  They were two lonely verses in the Lord’s great song.  ❜
  • ❛  Our boys were pansies, (name)!  ❜
  • ❛  Yes! My boys a homosexual, and that don’t scare me none.  ❜
  • ❛  I want the world to know, I love my dead, gay son.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ve been thinking. Praying. Reading some magazines.  ❜
  • ❛  It’s time we opened our eyes.  ❜
  • ❛  Well, the good Lord created the universe.  ❜
  • ❛  The Lord created man.  ❜
  • ❛  I believe it’s all a part of His gigantic plan.  ❜
  • ❛  I know God has a reason for each mountain and each flower, and why he chose to let our boys get busy in the shower!  ❜
  • ❛  I never cared for homos much until I reared me one.  ❜
  • ❛  He loves his son.  ❜
  • ❛  Jesus says it’s cool!  ❜
  • ❛  They just had flair!  ❜
  • ❛  They were desperate to be free!  ❜
  • ❛  They took a rebel stance, stripped to their underpants.  ❜
  • ❛  I can’t believe that you still refuse to get a clue after all that we’ve been through.  ❜
  • ❛  I’m talking you and me, in the summer of ‘83.  ❜
  • ❛  That was one hell of a fishing trip.  ❜
  • ❛  Our jobs are now continuing the work that they begun.  ❜
  • ❛  They were good men!  ❜
  • ❛  We’ll teach the world to love.  ❜

SEVENTEEN

  • ❛  Fine, we’re damaged. Really damaged, but that does not make us wise.  ❜
  • ❛  We’re not special. We’re not different.  ❜
  • ❛  We don’t choose who lives and dies.  ❜
  • ❛  Let’s be normal. Watch bad movies, sneak a beer and watch TV.  ❜
  • ❛  Don’t you want a life with me?  ❜
  • ❛  Can’t we be seventeen? That’s all I want to do.  ❜
  • ❛  If you could let me in, I could be good with you.  ❜
  • ❛  People hurt us, or they vanish, and you’re right, it really blows.  ❜
  • ❛  We let go, take a deep breath.  ❜
  • ❛  Don’t stop looking in my eyes.  ❜
  • ❛  Is that so hard to do?  ❜
  • ❛  Let us be seventeen, if we’ve still got the right.  ❜
  • ❛  So what’s it gonna be?  ❜
  • ❛  I want to be with you.  ❜
  • ❛  Yeah, we’re damaged. Badly damaged.  ❜
  • ❛  Your love’s too good to lose.  ❜
  • ❛  Hold me tighter. Even closer.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ll stay if I am what you choose.  ❜
  • ❛  You’re the one I choose.  ❜

SHINE A LIGHT

  • ❛  Deep inside of everyone there’s a hot ball of shame.  ❜
  • ❛  If we show the ugly parts that we hide away, they turn out to be beautiful by the light of day.  ❜
  • ❛  Every day’s a battlefield when pride’s on the line.  ❜
  • ❛  I attack your weakness and pray you don’t see mine.  ❜
  • ❛  If I share my ugly parts and you show me yours, our love can knock our walls down and unlock all our doors.  ❜
  • ❛  Who wants to share what’s in their heart?  ❜
  • ❛  No volunteers? Fine, I’ll start.  ❜
  • ❛  I live alone. My husband left. My kids are grown.  ❜
  • ❛  In the 60s love was free, that did not work out well for me.  ❜
  • ❛  The revolution came and went – tried to change the world, barely made a dent.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ve struggled with despair.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ve joined a cult.  ❜
  • ❛  I chant, I prayed but God’s not there.  ❜
  • ❛  (name) I’m ending our affair!  ❜
  • ❛  I faked it every time.  ❜

LIFEBOAT

  • ❛  I float in a boat in a raging black ocean, low in the water with no where to go.  ❜
  • ❛  The people smell desperate.  ❜
  • ❛  We’ll sink any minute so someone must go.  ❜
  • ❛  Everyone’s pushing! Everyone’s fighting!  ❜
  • ❛  There’s no where to hide.  ❜
  • ❛  The captain is pointing. well who made her captain?  ❜
  • ❛  Still, the weakest must go.  ❜

SHINE A LIGHT (REPRISE)

  • ❛  Aw look, (name) is gonna cry.  ❜
  • ❛  Stupid childproof caps!  ❜
  • ❛  Aw look, (name) is gonna whine all night.  ❜
  • ❛  You don’t deserve to live.  ❜
  • ❛  Why not kill yourself?  ❜
  • ❛  Here, have a sedative.  ❜
  • ❛  Whine, whine, whine like there’s no Santa Clause.  ❜
  • ❛  You’re pathetic because you whine!  ❜
  • ❛  You whine all night!  ❜
  • ❛  Your ass is off the team!  ❜
  • ❛  Go on and bitch and moan.  ❜
  • ❛  You don’t deserve the dream!  ❜
  • ❛  You’re gonna die alone.  ❜

KINDERGARTEN BOYFRIEND

  • ❛  He was sweet, he said that I was smart.  ❜
  • ❛  He was good at sports and people liked him.  ❜
  • ❛  At nap time, once, we shared a mat.  ❜
  • ❛  I didn’t sleep, I sat and watched him breathing.  ❜
  • ❛  I watched him dream for almost half an hour. Then he woke up.  ❜
  • ❛  He pulled a scab off one time playing kickball, kissed me quick and pressed it in my hand.  ❜
  • ❛  I took that scab and put it in a locket, all year long I wore it near my heart.  ❜
  • ❛  He didn’t care if I was thin or pretty.  ❜
  • ❛  He was mine until we hit first grade.  ❜
  • ❛  Last night I dreamed a horse with wings flew down into my home room.  ❜
  • ❛  Now we’re all grown up and we know better.  ❜
  • ❛  Now we recognize the way things are.  ❜
  • ❛  Certain boys are just for kindergarten.  ❜
  • ❛  Certain girls are meant to be alone.  ❜
  • ❛  I believe that any dream worth having, is a dream that should not have to end.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ll build a dream that I can live in, and this time I’m never waking up.  ❜

YO GIRL

  • ❛  Oh my god, is she dead?  ❜
  • ❛  Just another geek trying to imitate the popular people and failing miserably.  ❜
  • ❛  keep it together.  ❜
  • ❛  I knew you would come far.  ❜
  • ❛  Smell how gangsta you are.  ❜
  • ❛  I’m so sorry.  ❜
  • ❛  Feel a bit punchy?  ❜
  • ❛  She’s not looking so well.  ❜
  • ❛  You’ve earned that red scrunchie.  ❜
  • ❛  Come join (name) in hell.  ❜
  • ❛  Where have you been?  ❜
  • ❛  We’ve been worried sick!  ❜
  • ❛  Your friend, (name), stopped by.  ❜
  • ❛  He told us everything.  ❜
  • ❛  He’s got your hand writing down cold.  ❜
  • ❛  Please, honey, talk to us.  ❜
  • ❛  No, you wouldn’t understand.  ❜
  • ❛  Guess who’s right down the block?  ❜
  • ❛  I’ve experienced everything you’re going through.  ❜
  • ❛  Guess who’s climbing the stairs?  ❜
  • ❛  Your problems seem like life and death, I promise they’re not.  ❜
  • ❛  Guess who’s picking your lock.  ❜
  • ❛  You don’t know what my world looks like!  ❜
  • ❛  Times up! Go say your prayers.  ❜
  • ❛  (name)’s running on fumes now.  ❜
  • ❛  (name)’s totally fried.  ❜
  • ❛  (name)’s gotta be tripping on shrooms now.  ❜
  • ❛  (name)’s done for, there’s no doubt now.  ❜
  • ❛  Notify next of kin.  ❜
  • ❛  Too late, he got in.  ❜
  • ❛  Sorry for coming in through the window, dreadful etiquette I know.  ❜
  • ❛  Get out of my house!  ❜

MEANT TO BE YOURS

  • ❛  All is forgiven baby!  ❜
  • ❛  Come on, get dressed! You’re my date to the pep rally tonight!  ❜
  • ❛  You chucked me out like I was trash.  ❜
  • ❛  For that, you should be dead.  ❜
  • ❛  Then it hit me like a flash: what if high school went away instead?  ❜
  • ❛  Those assholes are the key.  ❜
  • ❛  They’re keeping you away from me.  ❜
  • ❛  They made you bling, messed up your mind.  ❜
  • ❛  I can set you free!  ❜
  • ❛  You left me and I fell apart.  ❜
  • ❛  I punched the wall and cried.  ❜
  • ❛  I found you changed my heart and set loose all that truthful shit inside.  ❜
  • ❛  So, I built a bomb!  ❜
  • ❛  Tonight our school is Vietnam.  ❜
  • ❛  Let’s guarantee they never see their senior prom!  ❜
  • ❛  I was meant to be yours.  ❜
  • ❛  We were meant to be one.  ❜
  • ❛  Don’t give up on me now.  ❜
  • ❛  Finish what we’ve begun.  ❜
  • ❛  In the rubble of their tomb, we’ll plant this not explaining why they died.  ❜
  • ❛  Our burned bodies may finally get through to you.  ❜
  • ❛  Your society churns out slaves and blanks, no thanks.  ❜
  • ❛  We’ll watch the smoke pour out the doors.  ❜
  • ❛  Bring marshmallows, we’ll make s’mores.  ❜
  • ❛  We can smile and cuddle while the fire roars.  ❜
  • ❛  I can’t make it alone.  ❜
  • ❛  You were meant to be mine.  ❜
  • ❛  I am all that you need.  ❜
  • ❛  You carved open my heart, can’t just leave me to bleed.  ❜
  • ❛  Open the door please.  ❜
  • ❛  Can we not fight anymore?  ❜
  • ❛  (Name), sure, you’re scared, I’ve been there.  ❜
  • ❛  (Name), don’t make me come in there.  ❜
  • ❛  I’m gonna count to three. 1, 2, fuck it–  ❜
  • ❛  Oh my god.  ❜
  • ❛  Please don’t leave me alone.  ❜
  • ❛  You were all I could trust.  ❜
  • ❛  I can’t do this alone, still, I will if I must.  ❜

DEAD GIRL WALKING (REPRISE)

  • ❛  I wanted someone strong who could protect me.  ❜
  • ❛  I let his anger fester and infect me.  ❜
  • ❛  His solution is a lie.  ❜
  • ❛  No one here deserves to die, except for me and the monster I created.  ❜
  • ❛  Heads up (name).  ❜
  • ❛  I’m a dead girl walking.  ❜
  • ❛  Can’t hide from me.  ❜
  • ❛  There’s your final bell.  ❜
  • ❛  It’s one more dance and then farewell.  ❜
  • ❛  (name) told me you just committed suicide?  ❜
  • ❛  Yeah, well, he’s wrong about a lot of things.  ❜
  • ❛  I through together a lovely tribute, especially considering the short notice.  ❜
  • ❛  What’s under the gym?  ❜
  • ❛  That’s it.  ❜
  • ❛  What’s that sound?  ❜
  • ❛  Give a great big yell!  ❜
  • ❛  Step away from the bomb.  ❜
  • ❛  This little thing? I’d hardly call it a bomb.  ❜
  • ❛  This is just to trigger the packs of thermals upstairs –those are bombs.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish your mom had been a little stronger.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish she’d stayed around a little longer.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish your dad were good.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish grownups understood.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish we’d met before they convinced you life is war.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish you’d come with me.  ❜
  • ❛  I wish I had more TNT!  ❜

I AM DAMAGED

  • ❛  I am damaged. Far too damaged.  ❜
  • ❛  You’re not beyond repair.  ❜
  • ❛  Stick around here, make things better.  ❜
  • ❛  You beat me fair and square.  ❜
  • ❛  Please stand back now.  ❜
  • ❛  Don’t know what this thing will do.  ❜
  • ❛  Hope you miss me.  ❜
  • ❛  Wish you’d kiss me.  ❜
  • ❛  I’ll trade my life for yours.  ❜
  • ❛  Wait, hold on!  ❜
  • ❛  Once I disappear, clean up the mess down here.  ❜
  • ❛  Not this way!  ❜
  • ❛  Say hi to God.  ❜

SEVENTEEN (REPRISE)

  • ❛  Listen up kids, war is over.  ❜
  • ❛  Brand new sheriff’s come to town.  ❜
  • ❛  We are done with acting evil.  ❜
  • ❛  We will lay our weapons down.  ❜
  • ❛  We’re all damaged, we’re all frightened, we’re all freaks but that’s alright.  ❜
  • ❛  We’ll endure it. We’ll survive it.  ❜
  • ❛  (name) are you free tonight?  ❜
  • ❛  High school may not ever end.  ❜
  • ❛  Still, I miss you.  ❜
  • ❛  I’d be honored, if you’d let me be your friend.  ❜
  • ❛  We can be seventeen.  ❜
  • ❛  If nobody loves me now, someday somebody will.  ❜
  • ❛  There’s still time to make things.  ❜
  • ❛  One day we’ll change the world, but let’s kick back tonight.  ❜
  • ❛  Let’s go be seventeen, take off our clothes and dance.  ❜
  • ❛  This could be our final chance.  ❜
  • ❛  We’ll make it beautiful.  ❜

On tonight’s edition of unrelenting insomniac thoughts: This one throw away line in this one scene that only serves to set up that something is rotten in the state of Riverdale that I’m pretty sure has haunted only me.

(Is Riverdale a state? is that established yet? or is it like Puerto Rico or Guam, a territory picked up from the Spanish years ago that isn’t a state and just hangs there in limbo and pays taxes without representation in direct conflict with the us constitution? or is it just a weird offshoot of Alaska or Vermont that the states refuse to talk to or about during family reunions?  They have maple trees and snow in Vermont, right?)

This scene gets so much more depressing and telling once you know F.P. has been coerced into playing the fall guy for Clifford Blossom and, unfortunately for my brain, raises a million more questions that I fear will never be answered.  (Literally, there’s like, at least thirty questions that i know will never be answered without at least a season dedicated solely to F.P. Jones II and the mystery of why he looks so much better scruffy and slightly manic.)

Like, how long has F.P. been ‘playing his part’ of the town drunk? Fred made a comment about F.P. stealing, but I don’t recall anything him commenting about being an alcoholic (then again, the whole story seems to be written from Jughead’s p.o.v. and what he knows.  This is also the show that refused to say abortion or concede there’s anything harder than weed despite showing a dead, o’ded body in the last episode and continuing graft of political figures.  Which raises another question: Is sheriff an elected position in Riverdale? Is that why Roscoe Keller (is that his name?  I feel like he’s a Roscoe despite the entire internet telling me his first name is Sheriff) was biting at the bit to arrest someone for a murder, regardless of how tenuous a motive it is?  He needed election money from the Blossoms, much like Mayor McCoy, to fund his election campaign?  Or did Clifford merely promise him a new Keurig and pinball machine for the station? Was he so jealous of Riveradle high’s ample supply of coffee and coffee related accessories that he accepted money from Clifford?  I’ll bet he decided on a KISS pinball game.  He looks like a closet KISS fan.).

(Even more ridiculous ramblings under the cut)

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…their S/O telling them ‘i love you’ for the first time pls❤

Montgomery:

You were in the kitchen, placing some chips and pretzels into a bowl for you and Montgomery to share. You were about to move to throw away the bag when you felt strong arms wrap around your waist tightly, picking your body up off the ground, as you felt his head burying itself in your neck “Hey sexy” he would sing, his smile prominent on your neck. You would giggle and fall back into his embrace “We’re never gonna have movie night if you keep distracting me” you would jokingly warn. You would feel his head shake, his lips traveling to your ear “Awe but you love the distraction. You love me” he would confidentially declare, his teeth nibbling on your earlobe. Your smile would only grow wider as you shut your eyes and tilted your head to the side “You’re right” you would agree “I do love you”. His nibbling would cease and he would place you back on the ground, his hands tightening around your waist as he began to rock the both of you “Wow” he would begin, your face tilting to watch his expression “I never thought I would hear you say those words” he confessed honestly. Your eyebrows scrunched together “Wanna hear em again?” You would question, biting your lower lip. He would eagerly nod, his eyes closing as he waited for your response “I love you Montgomery De La Cuz”. You spoke slowly and surely, and with your words he would smile, his eyes opening to shine brightly “And I love you too Y/N. So god damn much”

Zach:

Originally posted by rafaelasgomes

He had just singlehandedly won yet another basketball game for his team and the school. You had taken him out for a celebratory dinner at Rosie’s diner, one you found the two of you doing quite frequently. He had moved from the other side of the booth to by your side, one hand resting on your thigh and the other around your shoulders. You laid your head on his shoulder “Proud of you babe” you would remind him, glancing up to watch a smile smear itself on his face. He would lean down and place a gently kiss on your forehead “And that’s why I’m such a good player, I got your support to drive me” he would compliment, his soft smile turning into a smirk. You would laugh in response, your hand tracing his arm on your thigh “Glad to be of assistance” you would start “But if my love is enough to make star athletes then I must be a wizard”. It was meant to be nothing, just a little joke to piggy back in what he said but you knew you meant more behind it, and apparently he did too. “Love?” He would question “You love me?”. Your voice would get caught in your throat before you could respond “I mean” you began before you shut your eyes and took a deep breath “Yeah. Yes. I do love you Zach” you would confidently state, your eyes timidly glancing up to meet his. His smile never faltered, never wavered, never dropped, it only rose “I love you too babe” he would confirm, his lips moving to kiss yours “I really do" 

Justin:

Originally posted by alec-baene

The two of you had just come back from a weekend of partying that you weren’t necessarily proud of but at this point in time you couldn’t stop your incessant giggling. He watched you with loving eyes, his arm wrapped around your waist, drawing you close as he smiled at your constant laughter "That is the cutest sound I’ve ever heard, I love it ” he would compliment, his eyes shinning as you glanced up at him. Your hand interlaced with his “Awe, and I love flattery” you respond, your giggling quieting itself and being replaced by a toothy grin. “And I loved this weekend” he would continue, building up on the love of things the two of you were sharing “And I love you” you would reply as if you’ve said it millions of times before. He didn’t seem to be shocked, concerned or confused, just content, pleased and happy “That’s what I was gonna say” he pouted playfully. You once again began to giggle “What? That you love me or you love yourself?”. He rolled his eyes playfully, his head shaking slightly “That I love you silly” he began “That I really, really love you”. Your smile shone as bright as the sun, reaching up to plant a kiss on his lips “Well I really, really love you too”

Jeff:

Originally posted by wkom

You thought he was asleep. The two of you were nicely cuddled up in your bed, watching some horror movie on tv that Jeff had fallen asleep during. The final credits had began to roll and you moved to glance behind you to see his eyes tightly shut and take notice of his peaceful breathing, the rising and falling of his chest against your back. You would snuggle up closer to the boy and sigh lovingly “I love you” you would quietly murmur as your eyes fluttered shut, getting ready to join your boyfriend in sleep, but with his sudden movements your eyes quickly shot back open “You what?” He would question, his voice tired but pointed as you no longer felt his arms around your waist. You would rub your eyes and turn around to face the boy that was now sitting half way up right and staring at you with wide eyes “I-uh-I” you would stammer and try to avoid his eye contact, while failing miserably. After you began to try and stutter out a few more incoherent words, Jeffs demeanor would soften, they would form into a look of realization and love. He would then smile and cup your cheek, leaning in to place a passionate kiss on your lips and moving back to rest his forehead against yours, his thumb lightly stroking your cheek, his eyes shinning with affection and admiration “I love you too Y/N. I love you too”  

Clay:

Originally posted by lilpieceofmyworld

He was showing you the stars on top of the Crestmont roof. He had been so excited to show you for the whole day, he would remind you every thirty minutes, a boyish grin plastered on his face, and it only got larger when it was time. He would tightly grasp your hand “C’mon its time” he reminded, dragging you to the top to where he had placed two lawn chairs and a blanket with a candle. Your smile grew as you planted a kiss on his cheek “It’s wonderful Clay, thank you” you encouraged as he lead you to the blanket “I wanted you to be comfortable”. The two of you were snuggling for about an hour, listening and watching clay point to every constellation he could point out and all of his comments about the moon, you loved every second. “I love this Clay” you started, snuggling into his side “I love you”. You felt his grip tighten around you, it had taken Clay months before he had finally admitted his feelings towards you, so you knew this was a leap, but he didn’t seem to be freaking out. You felt his warm breath against your neck as he leaned his head towards your ear before he responded “I love you too”

Tony:

Originally posted by female-winston

The two of you had driven to the top of a mountain, one the two of you regularly found yourselves at. It was quiet and a great place to talk, have a picnic, lay on a blanket and just hold each other, it was your spot. The two of you were leaning again the railing blocking off the road form the edge of the mountain top, staring off at the town you two called home down below. You felt his hand search for your before it found its target, his fingers lacing with yours “I never thought I could share this place with someone” his thumb would begin to rub your outer hand as he kept his gaze ahead of him “Thought they would ruin it. Make it less peaceful or less safe or something. But you” he would pause for a moment, a smile flashing over his face “You made it better. You made it a place that I. Ever want to be unless you’re by my side…I guess what I’m trying to say is…I mean I” he would stop, lowering his head and shaking it, unable to finish. You would lean over and kiss him, feeling his breath stop as your lips touched. You would slowly pull away, your forehead leaning against his “I love you Tony” his lips would curl, his free hand placing itself on the back of his neck “I love you too Y/N" 

Alex:

Originally posted by bullet-for-my-valentine09

The two of you were playing some video games, the two of you neck and neck "Give it up Standall, you can’t beat me” you would mock, a smirk curling onto your lips as your eyes were glued to the screen “I wouldn’t be too sure Y/N, looks like imma bout to get the lead” he would declare, his tongue grazing his bottom lip. You knew that the declaration wasn’t about to come true and only a tactic used to scare you, and when he glanced from the screen to you he could tell you knew what he was doing, so he took matters into his own hand. He slowly began to lean into you, causing you to rock to your side “Alex Standall!” You would shout, trying to keep your eyes on the screen but you vision was slowly becoming impaired as you kept falling. You would thrash under him, only causing him to laugh as he took over the lead, ending the game with his name in gold letters, shinning as the winner. You groaned and threw your head back, the controller flying from your hands “Cheater” you grumbled, eyeing him from your position. He would shrug, a grin as wide as ever on his face “I wouldn’t say cheater, I just took advantage of the situation at hand” he would explain, turning his body to face you. You scrunched your nose and stuck your tongue up at him “Hate you” you stated with no real animosity behind it. “Awe” he began, his bottom lip puckering out “No ya don’t babe” he defended, his thumb grazing your cheek. You thought for a moment, filling the silence with your humming before you responded “You’re right” you began, your hands loping around his neck “I don’t hate you. I actually love you…cheater”. His eyebrow tilted up, showing signs of confusion but as time went on his confusion went into admiration “I love you too…loser”

Jon & Daenerys

At last, Jonerys is here. After 20 years.

From the moment they layed eyes on each other, I struggled to hold back my tears. Failed miserably. I never imagined I would witness this kind of chemistry on Thrones. Unbelievable. There is no going back now. Chemistry. Fireworks. It was like watching the most beautiful dance. Jonerys is an unstoppable force of nature.

I feel weak and my heart is bursting with happiness.

I am a mess. I am the happiest. ❄️🔥

I know exactly how you feel when you planned so hard for this Ramadhan and scheduled how to make the most out of this blessed month yet somehow things got preoccupied.

If you think you failed to be up to date with your schedule and you are feeling like you are failing miserably, then I would like to share with you this beautiful hadith.
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No one in this world is sinless, everyone of us have sinned. We have to accept that but as we accept that fact we should always realize and keep in mind that Allah loves those who repent and ask for His forgiveness.

This hadith that I am about to share with you is one of the closest one to me, when I first encountered this hadith, tears just fell and I just couldn’t describe how I felt that time.

I am sharing this because I know there are people out there who feel hopeless and feel like Allah will never forgive them because of the wrongdoings that they have done and the sins that they have committed. If you are one, or you know one who is at a halt in life because he or she is in this stage, I ask you to please share this to them.
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Once Prophet Musa Alaihi Salaam asked Allah Almighty: “O Allah! When a pious person of Yours calls You, how do You respond to him/her?”

Allah Almighty said: “I say here I am, O My servant.”

Prophet Musa Alaihi Salaam asked: “When a sinful person turns to You, how do You respond to him/her?”

Allah Almighty said: “I say here I am, O My servant; here I am, O My servant; here I am, O My servant.”

Surprised, Prophet Musa Alaihi Salaam asked, “O My Lord! When a pious person calls You, he/she gets one reply ‘here I am, O My servant’ but a sinful person gets three replies, ‘here I am, O My servant.”

Allah Almighty said that the pious person prayed to Him for fulfillment of his or her need (exalted status) whereas, “My sinful person prays to Me in hope of My Mercy.”

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A similar message has been explained by our Prophet Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalaam, he used this as an example:

“A person travelling through an arid land. He has supplies of food, drink and provisions loaded onto a riding animal. He halts at a place to rest. When he rise after his sleep, his animal and supplies of food and drink has disappeared. He gets greatly concerned as to how he can survive without eating and drinking and travel such a long distance without the animal. He is totally disappointed and he fears that he will suffer the agony of a slow death.

You may well imagine how that person feels when he suddenly finds his lost animal with all the supplies of food and drink on it. How happy would he not be? When a sinful person turns to Him, Allah Almighty is happier than the person who has found his lost provisions.”
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Subhan’Allah, I think this hadith is self-excruciatingly impactful. Ponder for a moment, compose yourself and let your next prayer be as sincere as it can be and ask forgiveness from Allah. 

Who will forgive us but Allah? So seek His forgiveness and never despair of His Mercy.

We have entered the last ten nights of Ramadhan, make this count and let not Ramadhan leave without you asking sincerely for the forgiveness of Allah.
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Story was taken from Radd ul Bala’Bid Du’a, p. 28 
Hadith was taken from Sahih Al Bukhari, 6308

anonymous asked:

Can I just say, I feel like I'm the only one that's extremely irritated with the whole moving theories? Like it's great if they are but in all seriousness, there's a lot to disprove them moving, specially right now with everything going on(vaca). And moving is something serious, not some secret project that doesn't have to be acknowledge right away like moving would. Why the fuck would they be so hush hush over moving? There's no need to?? And dan said he's redecorating his room SOO... no move.

fair enough. idg why it’s the foundation for so much discourse to be honest. if they move they move if they don’t they don’t. they inevitably will eventually bc they’ve said themselves that the house is too small for all of their things. so it’s rly more a matter of “when” and that seems v uninteresting to me overall to be frank

edit: since yesterday i’ve been thinking about the wholly inadequate answer i gave to this ask. not only was i a bit condescending in my response (and i want to say sorry about that bc i didn’t intend for my tone to be laced with so much judgment … of course it’s valid to be interested in if/when they’re moving and think about what it could mean for them,) but i also didn’t even really respond to the question that this anon posed and i feel really bad about it (which is also why i realized i should probs log off and not try to answer much else, since i was not in a great place to be thinking about this stuff.) 

i do want to try and respond better tho to the question of why dnp would “be so hush hush over moving” (though i apologize in advance since u said you’re feeling irritated by the moving theories. this is a full on explanation of all the evidence that supports that theory.) the first point i want to make is that i actually don’t think they’re really trying to keep it hush hush. they’re obviously not outright stating that they’re moving, but dan especially has made several allusions to that notion over the last few months, many of which seem to have been forgotten in the overall discussion happening in the fandom right now. there were all of the needing storage mentions of course, and then the explicit statement in that january live show that “getting more storage” was definitely on the agenda for 2017. that could obviously be an innocuous statement, but with dan’s extensive knowledge of phandom discourse, the chance seems slim that he didn’t know that “getting storage” was being used as a way to talk about moving. then there were all of those subtle mentions about how long they’ve lived in the flat–i think on 2 or 3 separate occasions dan brought up that he couldn’t believe they’d been there for 5 years now. there was also the mention that he wants a new piano, and that that was something he would do this year. again while it’s possible he meant getting a new piano in this flat, he’s also stated in the past that the piano has been in that apartment since it was constructed and it just seems more feasible to accomplish that goal in a new place? and he also stated in january that after filming a lot for dapg, the early part of 2017 would be dedicated to “life things.” and, finally, with respect to yesterday’s live show, if they’re really trying to keep this some enormous secret dan would’ve tried a lot harder imo to hide the absence of the wirrow painting and the shit on his bedside table. or he would’ve waited until after the tuesday live show to get the stuff moved. or he would’ve canceled the tuesday live show altogether, especially bc he had a pretty solid excuse in being swamped with pre-travel preparation (he even made it seem like a possibility that he wouldn’t stream today during the joint live show last week.)

generally, i do think there are a number of reasons they would want to keep it mostly secret (the pressure from millions of people openly speculating about it, drawing conclusions from it, expressing their heartbreak bc of their emotional attachment to their current flat, etc. seems like an incomprehensible stress on top of the already stressful process of moving.) but i also think it’s important to note that they’re not really trying very hard to eliminate speculation on it either. in my opinion, they seem more like they’re attempting to lowkey prepare people without outright stating it so that no one who is seriously invested in them and their personal matters (aka the ardent live show watchers) can truly claim to be shocked or surprised when it happens. i mean, just look at their tags here on tumblr rn–if they were aiming to keep it “hush hush” i would say they miserably failed. if, however, their goal was to tell people subtly without confirming it outright,, then they clearly succeeded.

overall, since dnp have always been people who seem to make every decision and statement with so much premeditated thought, the easiest explanation of all of the past statements i’ve listed (and yesterday’s very pointed “you could say i’m relocating it … one could say” …. like rly if he’s aesthetically rearranging his current bedroom why that sketchy “one could say” addendum? it makes literally no sense in that context) is that they’re moving. i also don’t understand why it seems like such a ‘reach’ to people. they’ve lived in that flat so long. they’ve talked about needing more space for so long. it just seems very logical to me on every level that two people with their level of intertwined living and their financial capacity would take this relatively chiller time in their professional lives to do something about their struggle w too limited space, the annoying loudness of their street, their leaky gas pipes, their overbearing landlord, etc. etc. and “see if there’s a better way to live” (also dan’s words from earlier this year, in case ppl forgot) 

in short, all of these things seem to make at least a reasonable case for them moving (and moving soon), and  all of dan’s talk about aesthetics and new backgrounds for his videos, plus asking viewers to send him “palettes,” are easier explained, imo, as just a bit of (adorable) excitement around the upcoming process of redecorating in a new place. he’ll still need to think about how to arrange his furniture and what sort of decorative pieces to add to his background in this hypothetical new place, obvi, and he never explicitly said the words “i’m redecorating this bedroom that i currently inhabit.” moreover, that they’re moving and some of their stuff has already been packed away explains all of the sketchier elements of the show in a much cleaner way. for example, why was dan’s excuse for using his phone that the mouse to his “laptop” was dead? do they not have batteries? do they not have other computer mouses in their house? (they do. like at least 2 if not more.) why would not having a mouse, if that was even true, necessitate him sitting on his bed with his phone? why not use his laptop? or if that’s broken too, why not use phil’s laptop as he has done before? using a phone seems like the most inconvenient solution, and sitting on the bed with that phone seems doubly inconvenient. like, let’s say all of the other tech is packed away for their trip or dead or broken and his only option really was his phone … why did he choose to sit on his bed? something he hasn’t done in a live show in literal years? something that is so clearly uncomfortable? wouldn’t it have been easier to sit at his desk with his phone leaned against something? and then obvi why the weirdness with the painting? why the empty bedside table? also, why will phil be unavailable to do a live show until the 25th if the aus convention ends the 15th and, by dan’s own words, they’re coming home before going to florida? 

i really think the simplest explanation to all of these things is that his room is being emptied and he didn’t want to show us, they’re in the process of moving some stuff out, maybe all of it, so that they’ll be totally relocated in the coming weeks. i think the notion that he was talking about rearranging his room makes much less sense bc then he would’ve just directly said “lol i’m rearranging my room right now and i need ideas and also that’s why the painting is gone.” there was literally no reason for him to be so weird and unclear about it. that they’ve been house-hunting and packing shit up would also account in large part for their apparent busy schedules and stress over the last few weeks. it would account for why dan has made so many allusions to being tired (rmmbr “i’m so tired … i don’t know why … actually i do know why”?? rmmbr him clarifying at one point that he was “physically” tired??? hmmm.) 

obvi everything is speculation at the end of the day, i could be totally wrong on all of this and dan might just be a crazy person who says random misleading shit for kicks, but i guess overall i’m just a bit confused why the idea that they’re moving is being treated like some sort of outrageous tinhat theory when: 1. there have been so many signs pointing to it 2. it just makes sense for them at this stage of their lives, and 3. they’ve seemingly not tried super hard to hide it either. 

BTS Reaction to Seeing Their Ideal Type at a Fan Meet

Rap Monster: I feel like Namjoon would stumble upon his words when he sees him/her making both of them laugh but after 10 seconds he would turn into such a flirt and maybe do some aeygo. The fan next to the girl/boy would impatiently tap on the table trying to get his attention as he/she left shyly blushing. He wouldn’t take his eyes of her/him and apologized to the fan for taking a while. 

V: I feel like Taehyung would smile at her/him so widely and immediately ask for his/her name. He would make it his mission to make her/him laugh while they were with him. He would ask her/him a lot of question and never lose eye contact staring deeply into her/his eyes. When they would look away he would laugh blushing and apologized for staring and maybe compliment her/his smile/eyes. He would write a cute little message on her/his poster and after the fan meet he wouldn’t stop thinking about her/him. 

J-Hope: Just like Taehyung, Hoseok would do anything in his power to make her/him laugh. He would most likely make a fool of himself but it would be worth so he could just see her/him smile. “Ah you have such a gorgeous smile,”he would say smiling. He would answer all her/his questions and even ask some questions of his own. He would hope to see her/him again soon and would be left in a daze after she/he left. Which ever of the boys that was next to him would push him,”J-Hope are you ok?” He wouldn’t even answer just smiled the rest of the day.

Jin: Jin would be shy and smile a lot not really saying anything to her/him. He would make very few small talk which resulted in his awkward laugh. He would be staring at her/him kindly thinking how gorgeous she/he was inside and out. Once she/he left he would curse at himself multiple times for not talking to her/him more confidently.  

Jungkook: Just like Jin he would be very awkward and shy but I think now he’s gained more confident. He would do silly things and purposely do horrible aeygo to make her/him laugh. He would maybe even flirt and his hyungs would tease him. He would stare deeply into her/his eyes whenever she/he talked to him not wanting to miss a word. 

Suga: Yoongi would try to act cool but would fail miserably. I think just like Namjoon he would stumble upon his words and shyly smile when she/he would talk not really making any eye contact because he would probably be smiling like an idiot. He/She would be the ones who would talk most of the time while at the fan meet since Yoongi isn’t really one to talk to begin with let alone his ideal type is right in front of him.

Jimin: oH MY GOD this boy I shit you not once he/she got to him he would flirt with him/her nonstop. He would wink so many times and flash his charming smile knowing it will drive her/him crazy. This boy knows what he’s doing and he would want to get to know the girl/boy more so he maybe even slip his number to her/him.

Riverdale Imagine: Victim (Archie x Reader)

Requested by anonymous: hi omg!!!! i wanted to know if you could do an archie imagine??? literally I can’t find any and he’s my dad I love him sm you can choose what to do with it, I literally don’t care at all 😂 I just want some archie fic in my lifeee. thank youuu!!

Summary: You had been in love with your best-friend Archie Andrews for years, but that was irrelevant. When you catch him in the middle of an encounter with Miss Grundy, you realise that you have to help him understand the truth about her. Even if that means losing him forever.

Approx. 1800 words

It was a Wednesday when you saw them together. You had just finished editing Betty’s article that was due to be published in the Blue and Gold newspaper the following morning – an interesting piece on the stigmatisation of eating disorders in young women – and you were eager to get home. You had finished all of your homework earlier in the week and, as you escaped from the prison that was Riverdale High with your headphones blaring in your ears, you were contemplating which series to binge on Netflix later that night. As you neared the exit a flash of blue and yellow caught your eye from one of the music classrooms on your left, as you peeped through the window in the classroom’s door, you were surprised to see a letterman jacket on the wooden floor. You furrowed your brow in confusion, you thought you were the only person left in the school building, and you opened the door just enough so you could peer inside. You were not prepared for what you saw. Archie Andrews – your best friend and long-time crush – was half naked and entwined in a passionate embrace with Miss Grundy, Riverdale High’s music teacher. They were both in an alarming state of undress and their clothes were strewn around the floor, clearly having been ripped off each other in an animalistic manner. You heard Miss Gundy giggle like a teenage girl as Archie lifted her up and placed her on the top of the piano, the muscles in his arms flexing appealingly. You nearly threw up at the sight of him kissing down her neck, his hands running up her bare thighs and reaching her breasts, cupping them almost roughly.

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anonymous asked:

Can I request of what the bidders would do on MC' bday? + your account is ✨

I don’t know if these were requested by the same people or not but, they shall be put together lol. Since they’re basically the same <3


Eisuke

  • Eisuke is, of course, the boss.
  • He’ll take what MC says in consideration… knowing she just wants it to be just the two of them but…
  • Oh no…
  • It has to be more than that because it's Eisuke muthafucking Ichinomiya…
  • And, he’s like the king of ‘Over the Top’.
  • So, everything has to be freaking extravagant.
  • Her dress, his suit- the party itself.
  • Yeah, only the best guest is invited and if you didn’t get an invitation then…
  • Oh well. You know where you stand with the CEO.
  • HE’S SHOWERING HER WITH GIFTS.
  • He doesn’t even want anyone else getting her anything like…
  • “I’M THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WHAT SHE WANTS… SO DONT EVEN BOTHER”
  • Yeah, he’s that type lol.
  • But, overall MC is thankful. Though- she tries to get him to take everything back and he’s just like NAH.
  • The night ends with tons of Birthday sex until the next morning.

Soryu

  • The day before belongs to the Dragons.
  • Mainly because Inui requests it to be that way in which Soryu reluctantly agrees to.
  • They’ll shower her with gifts, compliments, etc.
  • It’s mainly just a family dinner of some sort.
  • And then there’s the day of…
  • That day belongs to Soryu and only him. (so he thinks)
  • Birthday Sex.
  • Yup.
  • He’d try to cook breakfast for you (failing miserably I might add)
  • Which would result in you cooking or you just going out to eat
  • He feels bad about it but, he knows it’s for the better if you want to continue living in that house.
  • The rest of the day is just the both of you chilling in each other presence… Which you’ll gladly accept.
  • But, then nightfall belongs to the bidders.
  • Dinner with them as they’re all showering you with gifts (especially Ota and Baba)
  • Overall- it’s a simple birthday dinner and you’re grateful for it all.
  • Especially for Soryu.

Ota

  • He’d spend most of the time that you’re at work finishing your birthday gift.
  • From a painting to making jewelry- he’d shower you with a bunch of handmade gifts.
  • Morning Sex to start the day though because he’s most likely neglected you to finish his deadline.
  • Dinner dates and more importantly- him proudly showcasing his work to you.
  • He’d hate that he had to share the night with the other bidders but, he ‘d make sure that the time before that was a day that you won’t forget.
  • Fashion Dates too.

Baba

  • Fancy Restaurants or Just going to the Amusement park.
  • The day is yours to decide whatever you want to do.
  • He’d definitely wake you up with sex and the cook for you because-…
  • He’s that much of a gentleman lol.
  • He’d cater to you all day, regardless of the need or want.
  • It’s your day and he’d want you to have fun with it.
  • He’d treat you like a Princess all day- like a Queen.
  • He’d also hate that he’d have to share the night with the bidders but of course after dinner- it’s just the two of you.
  • Birthday sex for the rest of the night.

Mamoru

  • He’s catering to you.
  • Regardless of what it is.
  • He’d get you a simple gift- nothing too extravagant.
  • In which, you’re completely fine with.
  • Birthday sex- Morning, Noon, Evening and Night.
  • He’d definitely make sure he took off for that day too.
  • Ignores all calls from the office.
  • It’s your day and he wants to make sure that it was special.

anonymous asked:

So I donated to your kickstarter so long ago that I can't even remember when it was and you haven't been making updates about the progress of the album in a very long time. I know life happens and sometimes things get pushed back but I'm starting to wonder where my money went and if I will ever get the vinyl I paid for. It's been well over a year and it's making me think you just took everyone's money and don't really care how long they have to wait to see what they paid for come to life.

this mite be a long post! please for the love of god feel free to scroll beyond if u dont care, i truly hate when people fuck up my feed with their essays so ya. that is my disclaimer here. ok.

ok. deep breath.
i talk about this/my campaign/my project VERY often on twitter (it’s distracting and often harmful for me to use tumblr and facebook regularly. sorry if that’s inconvenient). i realize most people aren’t actively checking my shit & that my tweets get buried in the constant avalanche of my stupid thoughts, so i’ll summarize the past year or so. hopefully whoever left this anonymous message will check back to see the answer and if so, i IMPLORE u to read the entire thing instead of picking out details from the first 4 sentences and sending me another message about how i stole your fucking money.

my album is almost finished. i’ve said this multiple times over the course of the past year, but this time it’s like, legitimately fact. i’m feeling extra sensitive right now and reading this message felt like stepping on a rusty nail, so i’ll go ahead and give you as many details as possible to explain why it’s taken me over a year to complete my first full-length album. 

i am an independent artist, as you probably know. i am also an extreme perfectionist. when i began my kickstarter campaign in september of 2015, i had about 30 songs written that i’d poorly recorded in my shitty apartment, many of which i hoped to record professionally for my first proper (and physical) release. i could not fucking stand the thought of being contractually obligated to make music via label and figured kickstarter was my last hope. i honestly thought it would fail miserably and decided that when my campaign came to a humiliating end, i’d move on from music and do something else that wouldn’t make me feel so fucking horrible about myself. somehow, thanks to you and everyone else who made my dream come true, i made enough money to actually make a record.

two months later in january of 2016, i went home to florida from LA to visit my family for the holidays. thanks to my incredible fucking luck, some kind of crime ring was hitting licks on every major airline’s baggage claim at LAX post-holiday and my luggage containing 3 notebooks filled with all of my lyrics, 2 external hard drives and a bunch of little USB drives containing 2 years of my work were stolen. hmu if u want the police report for proof. 

i lost a lot of work (and learned the value of The Cloud- i hate to trust it after my nudes were leaked and my fucking whole bank account was emptied after someone hacked my shit in 2014, but here we are) and basically all morale but pieced together what i could from what i had left. i hired a producer i’ve admired for years to be the executive producer of my record and decided this fucking bullshit was an opportunity to make my shit better. due to unfortunate, unforgivable and honestly criminal circumstances, this fucking psycho wasted an upsetting amount of my time and decided to back out of my project. THAT particular situation keeps me up at night and i fucking live for the day i can tell that goddamn story, it truly shocks me that a human being could do me like that fool did me, yall will find out one day but ahem. anyway. 

after this incredible fucking scam, i decided to ONCE AGAIN start anew considering the legal and financial obligations of releasing music that had been co-written by this bad fucking person. i left my home in LA and went to stay at my dad’s house in florida, spent literally all of my time mastering production software and learning to play piano, and filled in all the shit i’d lost with new things i’d written and produced entirely on my own. then i got married, but that’s unimportant to this story. actually it is like, kind of important, but whatever.

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in january 2016 and in march of 2016 i attempted suicide. i left an organized folder of songs, mockups for art, my bank account info and a note to my manager to make sure that my album was released because i literally could not comfortably die knowing that i let down the people who gave me money. im not tryna make anyone feel bad im just like saying cuz its part of the whole shit. anyway, i failed at killing myself and woke up in a bathtub of puke ready to go the fuck off. haven’t wanted to die since.

ahem. so. since i’m honestly 100% unable to trust a single fucking human being with my work and my thoughts after what happened up there ^^^^, i decided to set up a room in my new home for recording. i wrote, recorded, and produced (with some help, but like please bitch give me credit here) a fucking entire new album that i actually LIKED. im not shy about the fact that i think my music is stupid gimmicky- after trying to die and not dying and then getting help i realize i have like a little bit of talent i should actually appreciate. i finished recording and producing it, hired a person i trusted with a degree in music production to help me polish it and alas, he ran off without a single fucking word. thankfully i didn’t pay him a cent but like hey there u follow me on twitter and FUCK. YOU.

so now, as of about a month ago, i’ve absolutely perfected my songs (as much as i can- i still lose sleep over the imperfections im just not good enough to fix) and i’ve found the most trustworthy, hardworking team i’ve ever met to finish this shit. it’s demoralizing to recap the past year, mostly bc it was so fucking horrible for me, but i can promise you the last thing i would ever ever ever ever do is take a bunch of money and dip out with it. i do literally every single piece of this shit on my own, from the music to visuals to branding, and it’s hard. it’s time consuming. i have a job outside of music to provide for myself and for my family, and that takes up my time too. 

so i really apologize for the amount of time it’s taken for this record to be released. it fucking kills me to be waiting and i didn’t spend your money; god knows i would never in my fucking life just STEAL your money. the fact that anyone would ever accuse me of that makes me ILL.

i just want ya’ll to know there’s nothing easy about releasing music as an independent artist, especially one who refuses to accept anything less than perfection, and ESPECIALLY one who refuses to be disrespected and taken advantage of. i’m doing my best, and it took me a while. i feel like it’s worth it. it’ll be another 2 months or so. hit me up if you want a refund on your vinyl.

Silver for Monsters -- Chapter 3

Series: Witcher/Fairy Tail

Pairing: Gajevy

Summary: In a world ravaged by monsters where magic is becoming outlawed and nonhumans are hunted, the Witcher known as Black Steel Gajeel takes up a contract. He expects to find a simple old herbalist, terrorized by a beast in the woods. But in his many years he has learned to never trust what he expects.

Notes: I’m a terrible person because I was literally so excited to post that I FORGOT TO TAG/THANK @spikerr for beta-reading this for me!! And sticking through my streams as I hunted for inspiration.

Ch. 1 Ch. 2


Gajeel coughed in surprise as he fell, face first, into the grass.  His hands searched quickly, frantically, for… well he didn’t know what he was reaching for.  One moment he had been in the refugee camp and the next he was swallowed up into a black malestrom. The tug of the sorceress on his chest had disappeared at some point, and he found his stomach in his throat, all senses caught in a headspin with nothing to hold onto.

Then he was on solid ground, somewhere completely different.  He could count on one hand how many times he had gone through portals in the past, and as he rolled over, gasping for air, he remembered why he had sworn to never do it again the last time.  If he could help it.

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Polaroids and Pastures (Thomas Jefferson x Reader): Part 2 [FINAL PART]

Title: Polaroids and Pastures

Pairing: T-Jeffs x Reader

Word Count: 3094 (sweet Jesus)

Modern AU

Summary: After being told about his crush on you by James, you go on a drive in the country with Thomas for a date and he behaves like a Southern gentleman.

Originally posted by alexander-hamiltunes

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There is something about Trixie. Season 1


Aside from my attempt to make this a funny title and failing miserably, I would like to dedicate this post on Trixie. No real speculations until the very end mind you. Most of this post will be theory free, a bit vanilla if you like until the very end. 

Now due to the length, this will be divided into two posts, each covering one season. The second season will have some heavy speculation in it. 

Pilot 1x01

Many have wondered about Trixie’s surname. Up until recently, Trixie in fanfiction sites was usually picked as a character, as Trixie Decker. Several have skipped that option and have put Trixie Espinosa but what does the production say? A bit tough. You see in IMDB Trixie doesn’t have a surname. That’s a big deal. At the same time if we see one of the last pilot scripts Trixie has a surname but Chloe is there as Chloe Dancer, not Chloe Dexter. Let’s all agree that Trixie is an Espinoza according to the show so far. 

In the same episode, we see her as a regular 7-year-old and that is fine. There is nothing to question in the pilot aside from the fact she is vert happy to actually meet the Devil.. Yet we have to go back to the script again. In the available script online there is a detail in the elementary school which was not included in the pilot episode. There is no clear answer here if the script actually plays with Amenadiel’s presence (despite actually mentioning that) or if it goes deeper without giving out any spoilers/hints. 

So yes apparently in the pilot Amenadiel drops by at the elementary school or does he? We will never know or perhaps we don’t know so far. 

Moving on! Still on the pilot, many have been confused on why Trixie is obviously darkish if compared to Chloe and Dan. Thus I remind you two things. First, Kevin Alejandro has two children and they take after their mother a lot. Beautiful kids by the way, yet this again is not explanatory to Trixie’s complection. Yes, Kevin Alejandro is actually a fair Latino but in the original Pilot, Dan Espinoza was played by Nicholas Gonzalez. The written gruff character changed along with the actor but that benefited the show I believe.

Now Lucifer was always set on him being a Douche…. Alejandro or Gonzalez. Dan Espinoza was a Douche.  

If you want to watch the scenes where Nicholas Gonzalez plays Dan Espinosa in Lucifer please check the elementary scene or the hospital scene


Lucifer, Stay. Good Devil - 1x02

Lucifer meets the child again in the second episode and we also meet Molly McDowell…  A ballerina by day, but a ninja-chemist by night. Who can forget Lucifer asking whether fetching is way too advanced for a 7-year-old? Still, this could have been a moment which we could all pass if it wasn’t for two little things. One Trixie meets Maze in 1x10, but why would that be interesting? It wouldn’t if Molly McDowell didn;t share her surname with Celeste McDougall (The sweet smug-faced 92-year-old, deceased woman in 2x18). 

Trivia: McDowell and McDougall are the same surname with just a spelling difference. Both legit by the way. The surname sans the Mc means black stranger. I’m not going to say no more aside from the fact that you already know my 2x18 ending theory.   

The Would-Be Prince of Darkness - 1x03

Trixie: Mommy, did Daddy forget to pick me up?
Chloe: No, monkey, I’m sure he’s just stuck in traffic.
Trixie: Are you doing homework?
Chloe: Um, sort of.
Trixie: What’s the assignment?
Chloe: Uh, well, I saw Lucifer do some things I can’t explain.
Trixie: Is Lucifer a magician?
Chloe: That’s sort of what I’m trying to figure out.
Trixie: When Daddy gets here, maybe he can help.
Chloe: Mm.
Trixie: Sometimes Daddy helps me with my homework.
Chloe: I’m not sure if Daddy has the answers to these questions.
Trixie: Why don’t you just ask Lucifer?
Chloe: Because if he’s a magician, then he won’t reveal his secrets. So I have to find out on my own how Lucifer does these things that I can’t explain. Oh, that can’t be him.

In episode 3 there is nothing I can really tell you although Lucifer found Chloe’s phone somehow. Okay so I’m not going to blame the kid here but for a future reference, which I’m not going to explore in neither post I’ll just highlight the: When Daddy gets here, maybe he can help. Aside from that imagine if Chloe did ask him. We would have had out revelation scene perhaps ages ago. 

Manly Whatnots - 1x05

I’m just going to leave this here with only one note. This child is perceptive on where this was going…


 Sweet Kicks 1x06

In this episode, Trixie does not make an appearance but we Chloe mention’s her

Lucifer: It’s wonderful, isn’t it? Uh, when do I get my own gun? 

Chloe: I wouldn’t trust you with my kid’s lightsaber.

Of course, I don’t read much into this. After the double references from Lucifer about the Jedis and speaking in the speech alteration device saying: Detective, I’m your father” We can say that this is just a funny reference and yet something bothers me when I try to pass it as such. Yet what we do know now is that both Lucifer and Trixie are HUGE fans of Star Wars. 

Wingman 1x07

No appearances nor is she is mentioned in the episode. 

Et Tu, Doctor? 1x08

In here we will just pick the nod towards Neil Gaiman and not the first one at least until 2x05. In the end of the episode, Chloe teases Dan that Trixie persuaded him to read her that book about a sneezing panda, five times… 

The book is actually called Chu’s Days Board written and all we can tell about it is this: 

Seriously now that was an adorable reference but what I’m going to leave you here is that Chu also visits a circus… Just saying if you picked that up. If you didn’t I’m not going to tell. It’s kind of a spoiler after all. 

A Priest Walks into a Bar - 1x09

No appearances nor is she is mentioned in the episode.

Pops - 1x10

This episode is an iconic one for both Trixie and Maze. A small kid enters a bar and is served a stiff drink by a demon while she tells what ales her.  

I’ll try to get the Uber ride ordering pass, as we all know that the kid is way too smart and move on with the Bar scene.

When Maze asks her why she is searching for Lucifer all she says is that he cheers her up. Here she steals the show of course but we cannot claim to have anything deep in here aside from one tiny fact. That kid was able to befriend the Devil and a Demon in less than a minute. 

Lucifer punished her bully while Maze did what seemed logical to her. Offered her a free drink. That I would guess goes a long way in her book. So let’s admire again how she can make friends with celestial being so easily. And a question here… Do we consider Maze to be a celestial being? Well until 2x13 then. 

St. Lucifer - 1x11

No appearances nor is she is mentioned in the episode. 

#TeamLucifer - 1x12

Lucifer: But since you’re up, I have some questions for you.
Trixie: Right.
Lucifer: Are you adopted? In other words, are you sure the Detective is your mother? Could she be from somewhere else? Does she have any special powers?
Trixie: Uh-uh.
Lucifer: What about any markings? Scars, on her back perhaps? There’s some chocolate cake in it for you.
Trixie: want cash.
Lucifer: Oh. (chuckles) I like your style.
Trixie: All right. Mommy does have a scar.
Lucifer: Oh?
Trixie: On her butt. From when she got bit. By the Kraken.
Lucifer: Right. Not the direction I was going for, but what’s this Kraken that you talk of?
Chloe: My mom’s evil Chihuahua.

The spawn moved from chocolate cake to cash.  In season 1 we have seen that Trixie can manipulate her parents pretty well but that applies for you average 7-year old pretty easily. 

At this point, I could ask… What if Trixie is the one adopted here? Yes, we have nothing to back that up and it would be a real bummer for me so I hope it will never happen in the show but it was something that I wanted you to keep in mind just in case. 

Sometimes I also wonder this. We have several opinions on why Lucifer is connected to Chloe. Some say it’s because Lucifer might have been sent to protect her and he has done that. Others claim that Lucifer just stumbled on Chloe’s path and she was destined for something far away from Lucifer. Who knows at this point? Now just take this point of view. What if Lucifer did not stumble on Chloe but on ultimately on Trixie? As we will see in Season 2 the lines are blurred a bit and therefore I wonder if Dad wanted Lucifer to play Guardian Devil at some point by playing even step-dad as well? 

The above semi-theory is a bit farfetched but I would have welcomed it. Even more, if my headcanon was real but that’s for another post… Perhaps even the next one about Trixie in Season 2. 

Take Me Back to Hell - 1x13

In this episode, we have the chilling kidnapping of Trixie by Malcolm. The funny thing here is that although Trixie adores Lucifer since the first time she sees him, something we cannot blame on Lucifer’s charm, she doesn’t like Malcolm.


As we saw in the pilot Lucifer doesn’t have the same effect on children like he does in adults. Their gender doesn’t matter and although I believe he can draw out their desires, he cannot make them be as enamoured with them as adults can be in his presence. Perhaps that is why he is afraid to be near them. He has no power over them and we can attest he has some control issues. 

Back to Trixie, what we learn from this episode is that the child can distinguish real evil. Perhaps she can even sense divinity in some extent but that’s a talk for season 2. What we will keep from this episode is that Lucifer saves Trixie and Chloe, in a sense, he bargains his life for two people, not just one as we the Deckerstar fans usually assume. 

Also when he reunites with Chloe and Trixie Lucifer hides his bloody shirt. In a similar move like the one in a pilot when he stops Dan and Chloe’s bickering, he instinctively protects Trixie. The similarity between the two scenes always makes me think that we have more to see from Trixie when it comes to her relationship with Lucifer. Yet only time will tell

The End of Part 1

This post as I said was mostly plain and explored Trixie in season 1 with no major theories or speculations. I have some heavy stuff for Season 2 as you know….

My Worlds recap

Here I was, on March 30th, in my hometown Riga with bus and ferry tickets and most importantly - tickets to Ladies practice and Short Dance in my pocket. I could not believe I was going to Worlds after many years of living and breathing figure skating. This was a dream of mine that I thought would never come to life. It felt so surreal I had to pinch myself a few times. 😅

When me and my mom made it to the arena at 8 AM on March 31st, it was so difficult to hold back tears ( i am literally tearing up as i’m writing this 😂). Watching figure skating has been one of the biggest parts of my life for five (!!!) years now and I don’t think I can put my feelings towards it in just some sentences. It is better than all the movies because it’s the real life - but with the spectrum of emotions I only get to see in the cinema. It doesn’t only show “the movie” (aka the performance) but also every behind the scenes action (like the emotions before and after the performance, the training process, the challenges along the way) which makes it so much more interesting. So when I walked in the arena it felt like a dream come true. They didn’t have doors heading to each sector, but a curtain instead (to not make a sound every time someone enters or exits) and because it was the practice time for Ladies the curtains weren’t closed but fully open instead. So even when I had just come in the arena, I could already see a glimpse of the ice rink which felt so surreal and that was the first time it hit me so hard that I was actually really here - at the World Championships.

It felt fantastic to see stars like Ashley Wagner, Kaetlyn Osmond, Gabrielle Daleman, Evgenia Medvedeva, Anna Pogorilaya and Carolina Kostner skate so close to me (we were seated really close to the ice), to see their determined faces and to live through their great performances. Incomparably mesmerizing.

Before the short dance there was some time to kill so we just walked around and enjoyed the atmosphere which is SO unique! There is this buzzing feeling which makes you feel warm and welcomed and everyone looks nervously excited. We walked through every booth/shop there was, I even got some beautiful postcards from John Wilson Blades booth (they were handing them out for free?! 😧) with Ashley, Patrick, the Shibs and Chock/Bates. There I met a lovely French fan and we had a brief talk about our journeys as fans and let me add that it feels so weird to actually talk with someone about figure skating after you’ve mostly only shared your opinions online and have never had a legit conversation live??! 😂

Then it was the time for the short dance (oh my, hearing the ISU fanfare live was hands down the best experience ever 😂😂😂) . I have been a massive ice dance fan since forever and I am a big supporter of Tessa&Scott. They are the main reason I was actually here - I can’t put into words what they’ve done to me in these past years - they have held me up every time I felt down in various ways - with their performances, life stories or just small interviews. I just wanted to give back to them a little with my heartfelt support. However, I joined the V/M fandom in 2012 when everyone was furious about D/W and their success (which would happen in 2013 and 2014) and I quickly learned to be as bitter as everyone else. It feels sad to look back now and think that we used so much time to just talk about Meryl and Charlie - more than about great things of Tessa and Scott. I only understood this after T&S took a break after 2014 and I just became this casual ice dance fan who wanted to see the best in everyone and was listening to everyone’s stories of ups and downs. It was the same fantastic atmosphere - just without all the rage. During this period of time I really fell in love with Kaitlyn&Andrew, Maia&Alex and Gabriella&Guillaume. When Tessa&Scott came back I couldn’t believe how great I felt during the season - it was now 100 times more exciting as I had so many couples I loved and supported throughout (…well, i did love t&s a little more than anyone else though 😆) . And you have NO idea how much I loved the theme of this years SD. SOOOO much spunk and sass! I hope you don’t mind me saying that pretty much all of these were the best short dances I have ever seen from the top teams.

First of all, let me say a word about the atmosphere live. It is absolutely incomparable to the TV. The audience noises are lowered for about ten thousand times and are almost inaudible in the TV which is the biggest change. The ovations are so impressive you can’t believe them at first. Second of all, the skating skills and the speed is insane live. And thirdly of all, the costumes look SO. MUCH. DIFFERENT. (they are much more sparkly and colorful 😍✨).

I was actually worried that I might not last for seven freaking groups but the time went so fast. I still can’t believe the zamboni breaks. I swear to god they didn’t last more than five minutes 😅 (I always get cranky during the resurfacing breaks when I watch TV - feels like hours). From the first four groups couples that stood out for me the most were Smart/Diaz, Kaliszek/Spodyriev and Lauriault/Le Gac - they all had great stage presence and superb feel to the music.

Then the fifth group came. All of a sudden Tessa and Scott were on the ice and I was like one of these crazy Bieber fans who can’t stop their tears. I tried my hardest to bring the tears back but I miserably failed (I had promised myself that I would act NORMALLY NOT START CRYING ON MY FIRST OPPORTUNITY I AM SO WEIRDED OUT OF THE SUDDEN EMOTIONS THAT CAME OUTSIDE IN THAT MOMENT - I am a very reserved person who always puts herself together 😂). Tessa’s costume is SO much more beautiful live. I wasn’t a fan of it when I first saw it but DAMN she looked hot. Also the golden sparkles around the cutouts on the pants are basically not seen at all in the usual professional pics but they were actually unbelievably shiny. And Scott just has this amazing aura around himself. He seemed to ooze confidence but also some sort of humbleness. And OMG - they’re fast. But the thing that struck me the most was the non-touching step sequence. They did it once in the warm up and I legit thought it was some “easy version of this sequence without the hard steps just to get warmed up” and you can’t imagine how surprised I was when they performed it in the actual dance. It WAS the sequence. I swear it looked like anyone could do it. So light and easy. Now THAT was the moment I understood how superior they actually are. Everybody else’s StSq looked, you know, like a StSq should look like - a hard element hard to execute (don’t get me wrong - they were mostly done beautifully but it was visible that this is a hard element - which it is 😆). After the warm up ended I was probably still in shock so I have no recollection of the first two pairs in that group. Sorry. 😁 Then they came up on ice for a short warm up again while the previous teams scores were announced. And this includes the moment I think nobody has caught on camera (I don’t think I have seen any pre-sd videos at all which is such a shame). They were just gliding on ice separately with Tessa slightly in front of Scott. Then they started to slow down because they were coming to Marie France. And while they’re slowing down, Scott skates right in front of me with the biggest grin ever and his lovey-dovey eyes focused on Tessa’s back slightly in front of him. And that is the moment I calm down. His eyes bring the sense to me that everything is going to be okay and he is confident about it (i swear to god he’s a magician or whatever but that look was SO calming and surreal). And Tessa just turns her head, looks at his face and literally rolls her eyes with a smile on her face (okay i might’ve imagined the eye rolling but you all know that face when tessa looks at scott and thinks ‘god you’re such an idiot i love you’) and then they’re already with Marie France with last words before performance. The actual performance was unreal. They did their beginning moves right in front of me and that was SO sharp. Also when they did these moves there were quite few “eeeaaaww” kind of shouts or whatever the Michael Jackson kind of short screams sound. That was superb and I’m so sad NONE of them are audible during the actual recording. It gave a great atmosphere. Scott did the kneeling thing right before the end of the first section right in front of me which left such an impact. SOO much control. The blues sequence was hella smooth (and twizzles were ok but i was so scared about them) BUT THE LIFT. THE STADIUM FREAKING ERUPTED DURING THE LIFT. I felt as if I had wings and had been accepted into paradise. And then it ended and I was on my feet and there was an ocean of tears (whoops😅). It was an experience I will never forget.

Then it was time for Group number 6. I have to be honest - I was a little disappointed with Stepanova/Bukin. I’ve been a huge fan of their SD but seeing it live was a little bit underwhelming. It’s the way of skating - they skate “small”. However I still loved the choreography and their chemistry is certainly the best in the younger ice dancers field. If they can improve their skating skills, I’m completely on board.

Piper and Paul were a huge surprise for me. Even when they were warming up with everyone else, you could feel their presence the most. And let me just say this - Canadian men are superior dancers. Scott, Paul and Andrew all felt a bit similar to me. They makes themselves look extremely confident (i mean their skating skills also are 😍) and they lead their ladies better than anyone else - it just feels extremely natural. So, back to Piper&Paul. This was a huge hit in the arena (and for me!). The feeling was great throughout the performance and I just want to say it one more time - the skating skills (piper has improved so much)!! the twizzles! they took my breath. I have to admit I didn’t think this dance would actually work for me but it did.

Another team which surprised me in a good way were Bobrova&Soloviev. As the season progressed, I always felt as this program was a little “pushed”. They tried to bring the sass, but instead it came off as a vulgarity. However the forms they create on ice are very clean and blade work is beautiful so I was actually scratching my head after watching these two because I’ve never really liked them but somehow they look better live (I just don’t understand why?)

I was also delighted by Anna&Luca’s performance. That dress looked even more beautiful live and they also made me like them more than on TV. They just draw you in and you can’t do anything about it. I just wish they would be more versatile (but i still love them!)

The seventh group started with the Shibs who I think had the very close second short dance choreography-and-idea-wise behind T&S. I’ve absolutely adored this dance all the times this season and this was no exception. That lift was badass and man, those twizzles… I didn’t think that was going to leave such a big impact on me. SO sharp in every movement. Alex just needs improve his facial expressions a bit and then they’d be even more perfect (also maia is a literal goddess).

I have to say my sentimental favorites of the night were Kaitlyn&Andrew. Their skating on TV looks a bit like Stepanova/Bukin’s so I was a little bit worried that it would fall flat. It was the DIRECT opposite. I think their skating skills were second only to VM that night because damn, they skated with so much speed. And their chemistry just went sky high. Also that lift made the arena erupt (again😂). It looked so much more powerful than on TV. The move where Andrew just rolls Kaitlyn on his back was hands down one of the coolest of the night. I was just so happy to see them perform the best they can after some disappointing starts. It was truly wonderful and after they finished I was standing and in tears again. I thought they were terribly underscored, but oh well, #twizzles. (they are both also incredibly hot 😏🔥)

Gabriella&Guillaume were also amazing live. I loved that they did the most program to the blues music which I truly respect because it is so much harder to keep an audience interested with blues than with hip hop. But the slow section was amazing - the attention to details and the blade work was soooo smooth. I’ve got to say although Guillaume’s skating skills and dance moves are through the roof fantastic, he doesn’t “lead” his partner that well - the Canadian guys do it so much better. I don’t think he has any rivals in the “best male ice dancer by himself” category, but he has a lot to learn to be the best in the “best male partner in ice dance” nomination - he isn’t the full package yet. However I’m a big fan of hard work and dedication (and I’m sad people only appreciate Guillaume’s because he is the more gifted one) so I’m a big fan of Gabi, her personality and facial expressions during the performance. She sells everything better than Guillaume but I don’t think she’s being recognized enough for that.

Madi&Zach also surprised me live by looking far more polished than on TV. The movements were sharp and they’ve got this weirdly different blade quality compared to others that I can’t explain (but i liked it). I certainly was a bit cringey about the music at the beginning of the season, but I’ve got to say that crowd really appreciated it and I was also on board. I smiled so hard when the scores came up because I absolutely love it when underdogs show everyone what they’re capable of.

Last up were Madi&Evan and this unfortunately turned out the same way I felt about Stepanova/Bukin. I had also been a big fan of this SD all season but their way of skating didn’t seem to impress me. I had also liked how Evan just tossed around Madi various times in the program but live it just seemed a little too much? BUT I totally respect that they have worked so much with their chemistry because it was nonexistent some years ago but now they just scream the word “FIIIIREEEEEE”. 😉

Afterwards there were about a hundred of people making a crowd close to the door which skaters entered to go to the draw for the FD. Well, I think it’s not a very good way to get a skaters autograph. They are very tired after the competition and it’s not even over - there’s still the FD so they got to keep focused. I think a moment between a skater and a fan should be much more personal than just blocking an entrance just to get your autograph. I don’t know, it just made me a little uncomfortable when everyone was waiting for them just to come like they’re some sort of zoo animals or whatever. I didn’t want any autographs or anything, it was just SO hard to get through the far-too-excited crowd (to the exit of the arena) I decided to wait until they go away. I didn’t even register that I was standing right after the entrance to the draw (where it wasn’t crowded at all, in fact I was like the only person there) and the wall was from glass so you could see the skaters after they entered the “closed zone”. And then I turned my head and saw FREAKING TESSA AND SCOTT in the closed zone. About a meter from me there was this crazy crowd waiting for skaters and turning their heads in the other direction while I was enjoying my view of Tessa and Scott having a conversation. 😄 They were kind of afar from me though and I was trying my best not to stare ('they are not animals and it is rude to do that’ I muttered to myself) - I don’t think they even saw me because they looked completely in ease as the glass wall separated them from everyone. Then they left further for the draw and I couldn’t see them anymore. Tessa&Scott were already in the closed zone because they skated early but the skaters from the last group still had to come. I’ve got to say it was a bit sad to see the guards having a hard time taking the skaters from the crowd to the closed zone. People went crazy every time someone came. But I, still not accompanied by anyone, just had the best view of my life of skaters like Maia&Alex, Kaitlyn&Andrew, Gabi (Guillaume didn’t show up because he was getting his hand stitched) , Piper&Paul, Madi&Evan and Madi&Zach after they had gone through the crowd. Madison Hubbell actually turned around to see the crowd once again, laughed, then turned in the other direction, saw me all by myself, smiled and waved at me! 😎😱 I was so surprised but also very thankful for such a nice gesture! (jeez, but I hope I didn’t look like those weird, creepy stalkers 😁). The crowd finally went away and I got to walk out normally.

My journey was over but the memories were never going to fade. It was an experience I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world as it brought the whole spectrum of emotions to me. It was the best day of my life. I can never thank enough to my mom who came up with this idea and travelled with me. We had the most fantastic time ever. ❤️

(thanks for reading, this was suuuuper long 😂)

anonymous asked:

Um...i wanna know if what are the best characteristics in your opinion about the members of the Derp Crew? i have no idea how to write them.

Alright, precious anon! I absolutely love the Derp Crew and they are very welcome in here despite my blog being mostly about BBS I’ve been watching them a lot lately, but unfortunately, the fic I had planned for them to play a big role in is currently on hiatus. Still I hope what I have can help you out.

Ze: He is the peaceful one. His voice is very soothing and his smile is really warm. He’s also a vegetarian and is very passionate about space. He’s in it for the fun and nothing seems to make him rage. In a fic, that personality can be an opportunity to write him as someone who hides his true feelings.

Chilled: I won’t say he’s egocentric, so I’ll go for ambitious. He likes being on the top and will do whatever it takes to get there. But many times his ambition is the reason for his downfall. In a fic, it can be explored to show that Chilled also have a sensitive side, despite not being usually shown.

GaLm: Pragmatic, smart and very reasonable. He is someone who usually goes for the most logical decisions and can be very good with what most people find difficult. He is known to rage a little bit, especially when he loses becsuse of someone else’s fault. I see him more of the one that others seek for advice, because he makes very good points about his opinions.

Tom: He’s the unique one, and it shows on his talent on Mario Kart. He has a striking personality and it can be noticed on the way he talks and thinks. While he excels at one thing, he can fail miserably in others. I would say he is the one that makes it all more fun to the group, no matter what they are doing.

Smarty: Funny and slow. Seems like he has no worries in life, but he really tries to do his best, and even though his constant losses makes him a little angry, he can recover from it very fast. In a fic, he’d be the one that fucks up, but it can be soon overlooked because it usually falls on himself and makes the others laugh.

Aphex: Speaking of laughs, this one does it all the time. He is happy, doesn’t mind being joked about his height and seems to have fun, losing or winning. The others don’t make it easy for him, but he also doesn’t mind that. I feel like, in a fic, he would be the goofball that every group needs and definitely a derp like all the others.

Sorry for the long response. I chose those descriptons of them because that is what I noticed when I got to watch more of them. My advice would be for you to also watch their videos, especially Mario Kart and Shellshock Live. In those, they talk a lot about different topics so you can get to know their personalities a little better. I’m glad you chose me to ask about them. Feel free to ask again if you have any other questions and don’t forget to share the fic with us once it is done!