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A MASTERPOST OF PORTRAITS OF MY SUMMERTIME MAD SWEENEYS! they’re FINISHED! i wanted to fill this portfolio i got, and i DID IT!! there’re actually about 30 in total, so this isn’t all of them, just the ones i particularly liked/featured in the folio

these were done on 9x12″ sketching paper with graphite, charcoal, india ink, white ink pens, white out, and occasionally faux gold leaf. a lot of q-tips died for these pieces

this character has been my summertime muse–i recently ran into a rut, and it was right after i finished The Swaingels. i pretty badly burnt myself out from overworking with digital, my eyes were in bad shape from accidental straining, but i REALLY didn’t want to stop working on things. i’ll get back to spn stuff soon, but it felt really nice to focus on this character for a while

i uh

i super adore him

  • if you did something purely for the fun of it today i am proud of you
  • if you treated yourself to your favourite food today i am proud of you
  • if you bought something pretty for yourself today i am proud of you
  • if you remembered to take your meds and eat today i am proud of you
  • if you did your laundry or made your bed today i am proud of you
  • if you read or painted or wrote something today i am proud of you
  • if you wore your comfiest sweater today i am proud of you
  • if you drank lots of water or took a walk today i am proud of you 
  • if you told yourself you look good today i am proud of you 
  • if you treated yourself with kindness today i am proud of you
  • for all the small achievements that no one else sees i am proud of you, and i hope you are, too.

anonymous asked:

Is there a story behind the blue jacket?

kind of. 

besides me being a fashion bombshell, even in the midst of wwii, the jacket was nice and warm and full of pockets. which is always a nice thing when you have to literally carry everything you need with you everywhere you go.

but on top of that, i grew up with tiny pre-human-lab-rat steve. among a very long list of medical issues which fueled his must-punch-everything attitude, steve was colorblind. (in a very typically steve move, he decided to become an artist, despite not being able to see half the colors out there.) 

 the modern term for what he was is ‘protanopia’ which is a type of red-green colorblindness which meant his ability to see the color red was not so great. pretty much everything in the red spectrum got toned down to taupes and greys, and yellows and greens were kinda muted. but his ability to see the color blue was basically unimpaired, so blue things stood out in his field of vision. back in the day, i wore a lot of blue because it was easier for steve to spot, and somewhere along the line it just kinda became my favorite color, and i tended to pick blue clothes out of habit. 

these days steve’s favorite color is red, just for the novelty of being able to see it.  

So at my very worst period of mental illness things were pretty freaking awful. I was dealing with psychosis, near constant panic attacks, what they called “severe bipolar 1” plus some sort of unidentified personality disorder. Basically, things were really really bad and had been for a long time. But here are some of the things that helped me when I was dealing with a 2 month psych hospitalization that summer 

  • Noticing the color of the sky 
  • Nice scented lotion 
  • Taking long showers 
  • Making sure that I was hydrated & well nourished
  • Taking deep breaths 
  • Playing guitar 
  • Keeping my living space neat
  • Putting on nicer clothes & doing my hair 
  • Journaling 
  • Exercise 

Honestly I was able to recover precisely because I started paying attention to moments like these. At the time I was still pretty miserable, but it was a major break through to realize I could appreciate the colors of the sky & grass, or the sound of rain, or the cozy feeling of a bookshop. It’s hard to articulate how much it changed things for me. 

Of course, I had a lot of other support too, and I’m not trying to say this alone cured me. I also know that stuff that worked for me in recovery didn’t work for my peers in treatment and vice versa. But I do beg you not to dismiss stuff like this that’s offered without judgement, like in self care posts. For one - you don’t know what the OP has been through & there is no reason to invalidate them or mentally people who do stuff like this –  You just can’t correlate the severity of symptoms to what kind of things help. 

And two - it’s not good to spread the idea that enjoying little moments, or doing common self care this is only for non mentally ill people. In fact, we are often the ones who can benefit the most. And it’s a shame to spread the idea that none of these things can work for any mentally ill person when that’s just not true & could prevent someone from doing something that could help. Treating severe mental illness is a big problem, but it’s often made up of lots of little changes

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DOUMEKI IS SERIOUS OK WATANUKI. 

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN HIM RAISE HIS VOICE BEFORE

HE EVEN DID THE ANIME HAND WALL THING

THAT’S HOW SERIOUS HE IS

Fun story, someone tried the anime hand wall thing on me once. It worked for precisely two seconds before I ducked under it and kept going. 

FUN TIPS TO TRY AT HOME, WATANUKI. 

For a moment I thought he was sitting on a giant fortune cookie and I was incredibly excited. 

BUT YUUKO ICHIHARA IS HERE AND THAT’S EVEN BETTER SO I’M OKAY WITH IT. 

She’s not going to be able to do it, but more importantly, damn Yuuko what are you wearing that’s incredible.

stormybud  asked:

okay okay peter also is trans because i noticed he wore a lot of layers?? and looser fitting clothing!!! (im nb, afab so im not sure if this is rude? if it is you dont have to post it!!) ive gathered this from my experience that layering helps make your chest flatter!

you’re not wrong, dude- layers are really helpful for hiding chest bumps!! Like, honestly layering flannels and sweaters together is such an iconic Teen Trans Boy™ look that I’m surprised more people haven’t pointed this out.

he even rocks the “Binder Poking Out Of Sweatshirt” look- like wow!!

I feel like I need to write a book on modesty and chastity because the ones available are just…idk missing the point and going in the wrong direction?

I remember when I was pregnant and had some medical issues I’m not going to describe and believe it or not I had some super tight jeans that were the only thing I was physically able to wear in mass without being in extreme pain (like pain until I faint-which happened at mass), and I even had some full compression stockings (that are meant for like DVT so they are VERY TIGHT) that didn’t do the job like these jeans are. So I would wear these jeans and like a baggy sweater-and I asked this group of devout catholic women to pray for me because I was embarrassed to wear this outfit at mass and they were MORTIFIED. They told me I should wear a maxi-skirt over it or just offer up the pain to avoid “leading men into sin” with my “immodesty”, and I bought it for a long time (not wearing the jeans, wearing a skirt) until I collapsed in mass enough from the pain that I almost didn’t go to mass from shame until I gave birth (I was eventually hospitalized the entire duration so the problem ended).

Anyway-I reflected a lot on their concept of modesty in the hospital and i realized how centered it was on something entirely different then true modesty. It was contorted and putrid and hateful and I remembered their words slapping me on the face and whipping me in the back when I wore those jeans to mass and I wept a lot.

I want a new understanding, I want the truth. And the concept we are all fiddling with now isn’t chastity or modesty-it’s an abomination. I feel like it’s something borrowed from “Christian” cults that shame women and their bodies and their femininity as something not created by God or created for good. We have a lot of modesty concepts as these cults, and we need to just rid ourselves of those.

coran: whoo, it’s hot out here!

allura: you think it’s hot out? i have seventy pounds of hair on my body, weighing me down, making me sweat. you wouldn’t know real heat if it yelled at you.

coran: princess, i think…it would be best for you to go inside.