i won't give up quotes

If I ever decide to give up on you, understand how much that took out of me. I’m the type to give endless chances, always have your back even when you are wrong, and truly accept you for who you are. When the rest of the world doesn’t want you, I will. So if I gave up on you, understand it took everything I had left inside of me to leave you…because if I love you, and care about you, there isn’t anything on the planet I wouldn’t do for you.
It hurts so much not to have you by my side, not to be around you, not to be with you. You’re the pain that I won’t give up.
I will seriously wait for you. I will wait for you for as long as I have to. I won’t give up just because it’s hard or frustrating because I want to tell you how I feel someday. I believe you are worth that wait no matter how long it is. That’s the effect you’ve got on me. I’m not going to lie, it feels pretty nerve-wrecking.
And what you’ll never know is the war I fought with myself to not give up on you. But even if you did, I’m certain you wouldn’t understand it. Because that’s what it is like inside when heart and mind are enemies. War. And one has to lose.
I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept — as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!
—  Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23.
This isn’t as easy at it was before. No, this is beginning to feel like that worst sort of hellish torture. What makes me feel worse is knowing that I chose this. I chose to feel for you and I chose to wait for you. But when I looked at you today I felt grieved because deep down I know that you won’t choose me. You love her. You always have. I thought maybe I could shoe you that I was lovable and wonderful too, but I can’t tell if I matter to you at all. Now when I see you looking at me in the corner of my eye I try not to look back because you probably get an ego boost or some other satisfaction. This hurts so much but despite this, you are still beautiful to me. Your eyes still take my breath away, your smile is still bright, and you are still very desirable. Nevertheless it hurts knowing that you may never look at me the way I look at you.