i won't get into my feelings here

15 years from now
  • The Riddler: Alright Dark Knight. If you can guess my riddles I will not kill these hostages.
  • BATMAN: I won't let you get away with this.
  • The Riddler: I hope you are ready detective. Here is your Riddle
  • BATMAN: [Prepares Brain]
  • The Riddler: I am a flightless bird who likes to make you think that I am your friend but I will kill anyone you fall in love with out of jealousy but somehow still manages to make you feel bad when killing you [Heavy Breathing] WHAT [Heavy Breathing] AM [Heavy Breathing] I???!
  • BATMAN: Oh my god.
w.i.p. [summer edition]
  • pansy x godric gryffindor [ zombie apocalypse au ]
    • l o n g one-shot
    • character study???
    • angst
    • literally a road trip fic in disguise i think
    • preview
    • black & blue
  • theo x blaise [ modern royalty au ]
    • mid-length one-shot
    • kind of started i’ve written like 2k of dialogue and it’s a++++
    • not a lot of redeeming qualities
    • “funny”
    • ALSO NOW A MISTAKEN IDENTITY AU
    • honestly is blaise secretly being the prince of genovia even slightly unbelievable 
    • is it, in fact, probably canon??? 
    • who knows, not theo
  • romilda vane x percy weasley [ VERY ELABORATE FAKE DATING AU ]
    • long one-shot
    • ????????
    • this has a plot now no it doesn’t
    • like 25% done
    • romilda is very short and percy is very tall
    • pining
    • so much fucking pining
    • honestly this is a masterpiece 
    • like
    • you’re all welcome bye
  • flintwood [ modern werewolf au ]
    • mid-length one-shot
    • 75% written this is so close to being done it’s fucking irking me that it isn’t
    • also a coffee shop au
    • sorry in advance
    • marcus is so sad in this 
    • the saddest werewolf
    • preview
  • dramionesoulmate au ]
    • long one-shot
    • probably about hockey
    • angst ^infinity
    • dubious world building
    • based on this
    • tropes on tropes on tropes
    • like the fic version of that scene where film harry’s all “who am i hedwig?”
    • 40% written maybe
    • preview
  • blinny [ internet dating au college au ]
    • drabble
    • EPISTOLARY
    • i’ve been wanting to write a fic consisting entirely of awkward match.com style emails/messages/etc for what feels like several lifetimes so
    • will likely double as a mistaken identity au
    • this fucking
    • IT’S NOW A BREAK UP SERVICE AU
    • I WILL NEVER WRITE THE INTERNET DATING AU OF MY DREAMS
    • 20% written i had to delete this so who tf knows
  • multiple pairings [ SUMMER CAMP AU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]
    • long one-shot
    • this is entirely outlined actually but like…badly
    • s’mores
    • first love nostalgia
    • light angst??????
    • there is no angst i’m a fucking liar
    • cormac mclaggen will be on canoe lifeguard duty 
    • upon further review this is going to be a drabble series 
    • SUN’S OUT GUNS OUT
    • preview || preview
  • hansy [ the definitive accidental pregnancy au ]
    • l o n g one-shot
    • 30% done? i guess?
    • lmao
    • messy af 
    • almost a college au but nope that’s a fake out
    • i’m funneling all my residual pregnancy hormones into this fic and it’s going to need extensive editing lbr
    • might have to switch the pov ?????
    • this might never see the light of day tbh
    • preview
  • Dream: Guys, look, Red's upset! We should go help him.
  • Ink: ... But that's not our job.
  • Dream: Of course it is! We are the Star Sanses, and we-
  • Ink: Please, don't do the theme song.
  • Blue: Here's a compromise. I have a plan that involves him being happy, and neither of you have to do any work.
  • Ink: Perfect!
  • Dream: ... I don't mind, I just want to make sure those negative emotions go away.
  • Blue: We all know I'm the master of getting rid of negativity. Now, here's the plan: we walk up to him, and you, Dream, ask him "why the long face?" Then, Ink, you say something about horses having long face or something.
  • Ink: Okay.
  • Dream: ... I don't understand this plan. Won't that just make him feel worse?
  • Blue: For a second, maybe, but then it's my turn to step in! I tell him, "Huh, so does that mean I'm a cowboy?"
  • Dream:
  • Ink:
  • Blue: What? You guys will leave after that. Everyone gets what they want.
  • Dream: ... I don't think you understand-
  • Blue: Yes I do.
  • Dream: Um... Ink, a little help, please?
  • Ink: Okay, sure. Blue, there's a flaw in your plan.
  • Dream: Thank you!
  • Ink: Saying that you ARE a cowboy suggests that it's already happened, which could either confuse him or creep him out, for fair reasons, so change it to "I'm going to be a cowboy tonight".
  • Dream: THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT
  • Blue: ... Good thinking. Okay, team, initiate plan "Blue Gets-"
  • Dream: S T O P
feel the sunrise

ok but can we talk about waking up on a sunday morning with shawn? like a good sunday morning, the kind where you wake up in a big bed with clean white sheets, and after your eyes adjust to the little bit of light streaming through the blinds, you turn your face against the pillow to see shawn lying there next to you, all soft, secret smiles and sparkling eyes. he would reach out to push back that one strand of hair that was blocking your face, and kiss you on the nose because you were both too drowsy for talking but not tired enough to go back to sleep.

and after you stayed there for another precious moment, and after you brushed your teeth and picked up his sweatshirt from the back of the desk chair and threw it on because you always thought he kept the ac on a little too high, you’d pad barefoot down the stairs and meet him in the kitchen. he’d already have a mug of coffee out for you, and you’d lean against the doorway in your underwear and his stolen sweater, grinning behind the rim of your mug as you watch him stare into the fridge for a moment, searching for something to eat.

and when he couldn’t find the carton of eggs, because you’re both still adjusting to living with one another and you have different ways of arranging the fridge and the cabinets and the dishwasher, you’d pull them out for him and grab the milk, too. he’d put on some music, something slow but happy, and then he’d come up behind you and wrap you in a hug. you’d be completely enveloped in his warmth and this is what you want every day, isn’t it? you want sleepy neck kisses and tangled hair against your cheek, pillow creases in your skin and heady whispers of sweet nothings, large hands tethering you to the earth and reminding you that you are here, this is real, you are so, so lucky.

and when you burn the eggs, he wouldn’t get mad; he’d only laugh and drag you over to the couch where he’d lay you down and tell you he was hungry for something else entirely - and that’s how you’d spend your sunday afternoon.

someone sTOP ME (title is from “coffee” by miguel but like this isn’t even a real imagine this is just me being in my feelings at midnight)

Wicked Lyric Meme
  • "Isn't it nice to know that good will conquer evil?"
  • "No one mourns the wicked."
  • "The good man scorns the wicked."
  • "Goodness knows, the wickeds lives are only."
  • "Goodness knows, the wicked die alone."
  • "Are people born wicked? Or do they have wickedness thrust upon them?"
  • "Have another drink, my dark eyed beauty."
  • "Woe to those who spurn what goodness they are shown."
  • "Many years I have waited for a gift like yours to appear."
  • "My future is unlimited."
  • "What is this feeling so sudden and new?"
  • "Let's just say, I loathe it all."
  • "Every little trait, however small, makes my very flesh begin to crawl."
  • "There's a strange exhilaration in such total detestation."
  • "I will be loathing you my whole life long."
  • "These things are sent to try us."
  • "The trouble with school is they always try to teach the wrong lesson."
  • "Life's more painless for the brainless."
  • "It's just life, so keep dancing through."
  • "Life is fraughtless for the thoughtless."
  • "Those who don't try never look foolish."
  • "I hope you'll save at least one dance for me. I'll be right there. Waiting. All night."
  • "It's clear we deserve each other."
  • "Finally for this one night, I'm about to have a fun night."
  • "Black is this year's pink."
  • "I've got something to confess. A reason, well, why I asked you here tonight."
  • "We deserve each other. Don't we?"
  • "I've decided to make you my new project."
  • "When someone needs a makeover, I simply have to take over."
  • "You're gonna be popular!"
  • "I'll teach you the proper ploys when you talk to boys, little ways to flirt and flounce."
  • "I'll help you be popular!"
  • "Don't be offended by my frank analysis, think of it as personality dialysis."
  • "Did they have brains or knowledge? Don't make me laugh!"
  • "It's not about aptitude, its the way you're viewed."
  • "He could be that boy, but I'm not that girl."
  • "Don't dream too far."
  • "Don't lose sight of who you are."
  • "Wishing only wounds the heart."
  • "One short day full of so much to do."
  • "I think we've found the place where we belong."
  • "One short day to have a lifetime of fun."
  • "I am a sentimental man who's always longed to be a father."
  • "I think everyone deserves the chance to fly."
  • "Why couldn't you have stayed calm for once instead of flying off the handle!"
  • "I hope you're happy how you hurt your cause forever."
  • "I hope you're proud how you would grovel in submission to feed your own ambition."
  • "I don't want it- no- I can't want it anymore."
  • "Something has changed within me. Something is not the same."
  • "I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game."
  • "It's time to try defying gravity."
  • "Can't I make you understand youre having delusions of grandeur?"
  • "I'm through accepting limits cuz someone says they're so."
  • "Some things I cannot change but til I try, I'll never know."
  • "If that's love it comes at much too high a cost."
  • "I really hope you get it and you don't live to regret it."
  • "If in flying solo, at least I'm flying free."
  • "Happy is what happens when all your dreams come true."
  • "People are so empty headed, they'll believe anything."
  • "I can't harbor a fugitive. I'm an elected official."
  • "There isn't a spell for everything."
  • "Finally from these powers, something good."
  • "Surely now I'll matter less to you. You won't mind my leaving here tonight."
  • "I've got to go appeal to her. Express the way I feel for her."
  • "You're going to lose your heart to me, I tell you."
  • "I never asked for this or planned it in advance."
  • "If you insist I will be wonderful."
  • "Where I'm from we believe all sorts of things that aren't true. We call it history."
  • "A rich man's a thief or a philanthropist."
  • "Is one a crusader or a ruthless invader?"
  • "It's all in which label is able to persist."
  • "I need help believing you're with me tonight."
  • "My wildest dreamings could not foresee lying beside you with you wanting me."
  • "I'll make every last moment last as long as you're mine."
  • "Maybe I'm brainless, maybe I'm wise, but you've got me seeing through different eyes."
  • "Somehow I've fallen under your spell."
  • "Say there's no future for us as a pair."
  • "Know I'll be here holding you as long as you're mine."
  • "It's just...for the first time, I feel wicked."
  • "Let his flesh not be torn."
  • "Let his blood leave no stain."
  • "Let him never die."
  • "You're the latest victim of my greatest achievment in a long career of distress."
  • "No good deed goes unpunished. That's my new creed."
  • "Was I really seeking good or just seeking attention?"
  • "No good deed will I do again!"
  • "Wickedness must be punished. Evil effectively eliminated."
  • "I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn."
  • "We are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them."
  • "I know I'm wrong am today because I knew you."
  • "Who can say if I've been changed for the better."
  • "Because I knew you, I have been changed for good."
  • "So much of me is made of what I learned from you."
  • "I ask forgiveness for the things I've done you blame me for."

anonymous asked:

You seem to ignore a lot of my asks.. is there certain things you won't answer?

i’m really bad at answering asks tbh hngj i apologize. partly because i get so many that it’s hard. i’ll try to be better and when i’m not so busy i’ll answer ones that i’ve neglected ㅜㅜ also i try to answer things that i feel like many people would be interested in and that i can answer well. i’m very tough on myself when it comes to writing, esp my posts on here (curse you mercury conjunct saturn) sometimes i’m in the middle of answering an ask and go ahh that doesn’t sound right then delete it..there’s so many eloquent astrologists on here that phrase themselves so well i’m jealous!!

please don’t feel that i’m ignoring your asks because i’m not. i appreciate everything you guys send in and frankly without ur asks this blog would be quite dead. don’t be discouraged because i will try my best to get it! 💕💞

anonymous asked:

I joined the national guard to pay for school (one of the main recruiting tactics sadly enough) but I want to do what i can to help. Is there anything I can do to support Antifa that won't jeopardize my main source of income? (If I get booted before my obligated service is over with ill have to pay back my full 4 years tuition and, like a lot of folks who got coerced into service, I'm from a poor family)

We definitely feel you here.  Fortunately, we can think of lots & lots of things you can do to support anti-fascism and anti-racism without jeopardizing your service or your college.  

We’re going to break anti-fascist work down into four broad categories to help you think about what you personally could be doing.  We’ll also offer some examples & suggestions for you:

1) Protecting Our Communities From Bigotry

This one’s going to depend on where you live, who the bigots target for scapegoating & attacks where you live, and what’s been going on where you live.  Maybe reach out to organizations that work with groups like migrants, LGBTQ+ people, members of religious/ethnic minorities, etc. and ask them how you could help.  

Even a small act like putting up posters or distributing pins showing solidarity with these people and opposition to bigotry, sends a big message to them, to their attackers, and to other people in your community that feel the same way you do.

Example: one neighbourhood we know of in Toronto responded to a rash of alt right vandalism and racist harassment by creating lawn signs in the languages spoken there to show opposition to racist asshats.

2) Building An Authentic Anti-Fascist/Anti-Racist Youth Culture

Most anti-fascists we know got started when they were young.  Some of us started throwing “rock against racism” concerts or shows.  We’d meet up with crews from nearby.  We’d set up info tables at shows where we’d distribute information about the issues we were dealing with (and sell t-shirts & stuff to raise money).  We’d make sure that racists knew they were not welcome anywhere we hung out - in the parks, at shows, in the football terraces, etc.

Finding ways to promote an explicit and authentic anti-racist/anti-fascist youth culture is one of the most powerful things we can do because the ideas we put out there and the friendships that form in that youth culture will last for decades to come. It’s one of the best ways to counter attempts by white supremacists to radicalize youth.

You want a great example from Buenos Aires?  Check out the trailer for the upcoming documentary about La Cultural del Barrio. Maybe you could get involved in something like that in some way.

3)  Collaborating With And Supporting Other Anti-Fascists 

  In the past we’ve posted tips about joining an antifa group or starting your own.  The Anti Fascist Network has also published a good set of tips for starting an antifa crew.

You should also watch out for callouts for events or support from antifa crews - we regularly publish those right here on this tumblr.  When you see one and it’s near by you, back ‘em up.  If you’re not nearby but you know people nearby, get them out there!  At the very least, send them a message of support & solidarity.

As the antifa movement progresses, we’re collaborating more and more across borders.  Several crews hold antifa festivals like Manchester’s 0161 Fest or the anti-racist World Cup hosted by FC St. Pauli in Hamburg or The Torch Antifa Network conference in the U.S. or the anti-fascist MMA tournaments organized by Freedom Fighters in Poland.  Find something happening near you and go!  Or put your own thing together!

One of the best examples of cross-border collaboration and solidarity has to be The International Anti-Fascist Defence Fund, which has helped dozens and dozens of anti-fascists and anti-racists all over the world.  We would highly recommend making a donation to the Defence Fund or holding some sort of fundraising event for it.   

You’re in the military and many anti-fascists are interested in getting familiar with the safe use of firearms - maybe you want to help set up an antifa gun club like the John Brown Gun Club or the Huey P. Newton Gun Club?  


4) Disrupting Fascist Activity - So this is the one that’s probably going to worry you the most.  It’s also antifa’s bread-and-butter - what we’re known for.
Fascism is an utterly illegitimate and dangerous ideology that is no longer up for debate or discussion after literally millions of people have died because of it or fighting to stop it.  So when it rears its ugly head once again, it is imperative to oppose, expose, and confront it immediately.

We can understand why you’d be hesitant to get involved in this aspect of anti-fascism, but there’s lots of way to do this without putting yourself at risk th tmuch.  This tumblr has been dedicated to recording and reporting on anti-fascist activity all over the world for almost the last three years.  There are over 4000 examples of anti-fascist activity in our archive that you could sort through to find ideas and inspiration for the kind of things you and your friends can pull off without putting yourself in hot water.


7

Full Atypical Chaos, one song for each atypical

Sam, I Wish I Knew How It Would Feel to Be Free
Caleb, Grass
Chloe, People
Damien, Search and Destroy
Mark, Wake Up
Frank, Blue Lips
Rose, Day Disguise

Saphael Fanfic Rec 2.0

A Saphael Fest.

More writing goodies from amazing writers.

As always, if you know any of the authors and tag them, that would be very much appreciated

A Daisy instead of a glass shoe by @soft-saphael

Tumblr prompt: runaway prince!simon and commoner!rapahel

Two weeks from his coronation and three from his wedding to Princess Isabelle of Idris, the Prince of New York found himself on a park bench in Brooklyn. His face buried in the palms of his hand as his phone continued to ring.
Deep breaths. Deep breathes. Deep- the phone is laying in pieces on the concrete walkway in shattered fragments.

“You’re a little far from the palace” A slightly accented voice said, from out of the corner of his eyes Simon saw black leather.

“Excuse me?”

“Oh I’m sorry your highness, I apologize for not bowing” The boy snorted.

“Please, just leave me alone” Simon huffed tiredly.

A First Date (Kind of. Almost.) by SnogboxesAndChips

Simon is always looking for excuses to be near Raphael. When he finally finds a suitable excuse, he walks in on Raphael doing something that Simon would have never thought Raphael would do. He was cooking.

And every road you take (will always lead you home) by @woodenhallslikecaskets

For Raphael’s 55th birthday Magnus gifts him a portal that leads to 1956.

Brooklyn, NY 1956: he meets a beautiful boy by the name of Simon Lewis. They’ve never met before but Raphael feels like he could love him. They could fall in love.

Break of the light by @makehomesofhumans

Simon’s eyes sparked to life as he was being dangled over the edge of a building. He sighed, because that was just his luck.

But who would love a monster, anyway? By @spendeonswithyou

As he learns later, loving Simon hurts. It’s making his dead heart want to beat again, destroying the remaining bits and pieces of his soul.

Or the Soulmate AU in which you can feel your soulmate’s pain.

Customer Satisfaction by kuro1neko2kun

‘You’re the customer and you get back at me for all the times I’ve spelt your name wrong by mispronouncing my name in increasingly horrible ways’ AU

Darling, you’re all I need by @anjawritingsx

Simon and Raphael are happy together, that is until Simon forgets their 8th year anniversary.
Raphael is left heartbroken and Magnus and Alec try to pick up the pieces.

Does that mean you’ve a really bad crush on me too? By milleniumlint

Simon wants Raphael to understand he has feelings for him but he’s not so obvious like he thinks he is.

Dreaming of You (endlessly) by Nubian_Reese

Corazón—His heart. He loves Simon so much it hurts. His beauty, his optimism, it’s a sea of good and Raphael does nothing but dive right in. And he is not ashamed, because Simon is a gift. God’s gift, and sometimes Raphael can’t believe what they have together is real, but when Simon leans down and kisses him, hands running through each other’s hair skimming down backs, and gripping hips, Raphael lives in every sense and knows that this is real.

Flirting 101 by TrickyVicky3

Raphael sighs, shaking his head more to himself than anything else as he reaches down for Simon and pulls the other boy up again. “That will be all for today” he pulls the bottom of his tank top up, using the material to wipe away sweat, unaware of Simon’s gaze tracking over his abdomen. “You did good but not good enough, even if you pinning me down was kind of hot”

Keep reading

2

I stole the fingerless kitty gloves from on of my friends today XD

The Signs as Charlie Puth Songs (Nine Track Mind)
  • **Check your Venus sign too!**
  • Aries: My Gospel // There's nothing that I won't do just to make you love me
  • Taurus: Then There's You // There's beautiful and then there's you
  • Gemini: Losing My Mind // I'm sorry that I'm not there to give you what you want, I'll think about us some other time
  • Cancer: As You Are // I could never judge you, I would take you as you are
  • Leo: Suffer // Don't keep me waiting, you should come over
  • Virgo: River // Nothing is as cold as running on your own
  • Libra: One Call Away // Call me baby if you need a friend, I just wanna give you love
  • Scorpio: Up All Night // Cause there ain't nobody else that could light me up so bright and break this crazy spell
  • Sagittarius: Dangerously // I loved you dangerously, more than the air that I breathe
  • Capricorn: Some Type Of Love // When the world's on fire we won't even move, there is no reason if I'm here with you
  • Aquarius: Does it Feel // Tell me lies, like how you're better off without me
  • Pisces: We Don't Talk Anymore // Should've known your love was a game, now I can't get you out of my brain

anonymous asked:

We have our own credit card, I'm starting to resent the customers who don't use it or won't sign up for it and I don't want to feel that way! I'm under so much pressure to get at least 5 sign ups a week and 30% of my transactions on our card but I can't help it if people won't. Like I don't want to feel this way. I've been here years but no one ever focused on my results but now I'm on till all the time and it matters. How do you guys deal with these things? My job depends on my results.

How the Munakata/Sakakura Friendship Works
  • Sakakura: Hey bro, how's your day goin'?
  • Munakata: It's been difficult, old friend. Chairman Tengan has delegated many new responsibilities to me that I'm struggling to complete in a timely fashion.
  • Sakakura: That old bastard. Want me to punch 'im?
  • Munakata: That won't be necessary. His time will come. I could use your help filing some of the paperwork when I'm finished, though. I need to try and get out of here on time. Chisa feels that she isn't seeing much of me lately, and I'd like-
  • Sakakura: Needy chick. Want me to punch 'er?
  • Munakata: -to leave... wait, what?
  • Sakakura: Yukizome. Should I punch 'er for you?
  • Munakata: ...No, Juzo. NO, you should not punch my girlfriend.
  • Sakakura: Ten-four on that, buddy.
  • Munakata: She's your friend, too, you know.
  • Sakakura: Damn right. A real good one, too.
  • Munakata: ...all right, then. At any rate, I apologize for complaining. I'm grateful to be entrusted with my responsibilities. I'm just under a lot of stress, and it's making me tense.
  • Sakakura: You've gotta lighten up, man. Lose some of this stress.
  • Munakata: How do you propose that I do that?
  • Sakakura: ...
  • Munakata: ...
  • Sakakura: ...
  • Munakata: ...what are you-
  • Sakakura: Do ya want me-
  • Munakata: NO-
  • Sakakura: -to punch it for ya?
  • Munakata: YOU CAN'T PUNCH STRESS, JUZO. YOU CAN'T. IT'S UNPUNCHABLE.
  • Sakakura: Then what the hell am I supposed to do about it?

anonymous asked:

I know your blog is about body positivity and that it's more important than how other people look at you or even how you look at yourself but... you still look really good anyway and how do you do it...? No matter how much I say to myself that I like my body but I can't shop for clothes without feeling bad? I really like cute things I see on here or pinterest but even if I find something that does actually fit well and is affordable I still won't buy it? I don't understand why I'm like this?

hi sweet pea i just want u to know that i absolutely do relate to this and a lot of times i have to really force myself to get dolled up as a form of self care. like some days i really do feel bad like youre describing too!! try not to beat yourself up for experiencing a very human symptom of toxic beauty standards.  

aside from that, what i do to make myself feel like i look good is to go through the actions even if my mind isn’t in the right place.

for example, if i happen to be shopping (not often bc of money but whatevs), i just grab a bunch of stuff, put it all on, and focus on whether the article 1) fits my aesthetic 2) is comfy 3) will either add variety or serve as a staple piece in my wardrobe 4) seems worth the price. i try not to think about whether i personally think it makes me look cute if that makes sense? when its almost objective and im just going  through a checklist like that i find its easier to manage and less likely to backfire and winds up boosting my confidence more in the long run!! 

another example: there are periods of time when i cant really leave the house for lots of reasons, and that lends to hanging out w/ no makeup, real frumpy pajamas, unkept hair, as well as less personal hygiene. while i think its also important to unplug from thinking about personal beauty all the time and it can be very freeing and uplifting to just exist like that, after a long period of time it does really starts to warp my perception of my attractiveness. so again, even if im not going anywhere and no ones going to see me, even if im not feeling cute, i go through the motions. one of the easiest and most effective gesture to feel a bit better is to just wear my cuter pajamas or lounge clothes instead of my more dingy pajamas. or a cute pair of socks. sometimes i will also just do one or more of these things: skincare routine, bubble bath, hair treatment, nail painting, quick makeup, good smelling products, hair styling, shaving, plucking eyebrows, face mask, etc!

this wound up being really long but i hope you get my point! im wishing you well on your journey <3  

anonymous asked:

Request: Gabe/Jack - "Faerie Tithe"

R76 + Faerie Tithe

   Gabriel had been seven when he had first understood the meaning of the festival they held every year on the summer solstice, the first time he realised that the teenager who was dressed in the best their village could make and surrounded by the fruits of the harvest and hunting for that year, didn’t want to be there. He had sneaked away from his parents and sibling, wanting to get a better look at the person who was practically being worshipped, partly envious…because he wanted to dress like, to stay in the big cabin at the centre of the village and eat to his heart’s content, rather than fighting for every scrap of food. Which was why he found himself at the edge of the pallet where the ‘chosen’ was sat, crouched behind the offerings and peering up at them, only to frown in confusion when he realised that the girl was sobbing quietly.

   He must’ve made some sound, or moved something because her head shot up and for a moment their gazes met. Blue on Brown…and he didn’t know what to think of the terror in her eyes, or the brief flicker of hope as she reached for him.

“Help me…”

    He didn’t know what to do and so he shook his head, glimpsing the way her face crumpled before he turned and bolted without looking back. He hid for the rest of the day, not participating in any of the games or following the procession which would lead the girl into the forest and leave her by the sacred stones that lay beyond. Even as his age he knew that something was wrong, and all he could think was that he should have done something or said something…if it had been his sister he would’ve, because he could never bear her tears and that thought kept him awake all night.

   The next day he went searching for the girl to apologise, but he couldn’t find her. Nor the next or the next day…and when he asked about her, he was met by worried looks and told to forget about her. He didn’t. And in the end his parents had pulled him aside and explained.

It was tradition.

One life. One teenager was chosen every year, their life offered as a sacrifice to the Faerie that ruled over the forest. One life in return for the safety of the village and their prosperity.

  Gabriel refused to accept that. He had heard the legends of the Faerie and knew that no one had seen the being in years, there wasn’t even any proof that they would be punished if they abandoned the tradition. And surely it wasn’t fair for one person to be chosen? His questions fell on deaf ears… it was tradition, it had to happen. Don’t you care what happens to them? That they don’t want it? He asked, refusing to back down. It doesn’t matter. It’s for the good of the village. Empty words. Empty promises. And yet in their defence the chosen teenager always disappeared, never to be seen again, although there was never any evidence of violence or struggle which the older tales had always whispered.

They were just gone.

*

   It was that thought which was playing through Gabriel’s head as he bought his bound hands up to his mouth, this time tasting copper as he began to gnaw at the ropes. Gone. He would be gone, or dead by this time tomorrow if he didn’t escape, and yet after hours of work he had barely got anyway and a quick glance up at the window showed the sky outside was getting brighter and brighter. He was running out of time…

   His selection hadn’t come as a surprise. When he had refused to stop asking questions, to stop trying to end the tradition he had been banned from the ‘celebrations’, locked up at home to make sure that he didn’t interfere. He had been chosen so that they could silence him and protect their precious tradition… even his own parents had stood there and said it was for the best, even if they had done it with tears in their eyes. He wanted to hate them…but those tears stayed with him, merging with the cries of his siblings as he was led away because like him they knew the truth, they just weren’t as vocal about it and right now, as he spat out a mouthful of blood and fibre he was glad. Glad that they wouldn’t be chosen…

*

   He had failed. Dawn had come and with it the village healer. He wasn’t trusted to be a good tribute, and despite his best efforts there was no way for him to stop her dosing him with a foul-tasting concoction that left him numb and not really there.

   The day passed in a blur. More medicine being forced down his throat whenever feeling began to trickle back in, and trapped within the confines of his mind the anger rose and swell as he watched the village celebrating what was going to be his death. Through it all he was haunted by the girl he had seen years ago, remembering her fear and how he had turned away…and feeling echoes of it as he watched kids coming to stare at him before disappearing, only they wouldn’t be haunted by his voice or words because both were trapped by the medicine.

    Sunset brought movement, his anger giving way to terror as the pallet was lifted and borne away through the forest. He could see the light of their torches and hear their voice and yet they felt like they were coming from miles away. He didn’t want this to be how things ended. He had dreamt of a life beyond this village and now it was slipping through his fingers, sacrificed for people who had never thought of life beyond the forest, who were happy to bow to tradition.

He hated them.

   He could move his eyes, and he refused to look at his parents when they stopped to say their farewells before he was left within the stone circle, relieved that they had at least left his siblings behind. Their words washed over him as he turned his gaze skywards, the stars already coming out in force and as he felt the pallet move again all he could think was that at least he would die on a beautiful night.

*

   The stars he discovered, lost their appeal after a while. Feeling was slowly creeping back into his body and if he focused he could move a hand or foot and he knew that sooner or later he would be free, and something akin to hope began to burn in his heart. The hours were passing and there was no sign of the Faerie, no sign that this nonsense was real and he could feel his heart beginning to race when he finally managed to move his leg…he wasn’t going to die. He was going to be free. He already knew that he wouldn’t go back, that he was going to leave and find the life he wanted and it struck him as he shifted restlessly, that maybe that was what had happened…. that the others had reached the same conclusion and fled, leaving the Elders and the village to their delusions.

“If only it was….”

     It took him a moment to realise that the voice was real and not in his own thoughts, fear flooding him even as he rolled his head towards the sound and suddenly it felt like he couldn’t breathe. He had a fleeting impression of an old man, silvery hair framing a wizened face and deep blue eyes but then the image wavered and he found himself staring at a teenager about his age, his face framed by light gold and the deep blue eyes had turned the colour of the dawn sky and seemed to see right through him. He blinked again, half expecting the image to shift again, but the teen remained.

“Who…?” It was hard to speak, the medicine still holding it in his grip and the other boy frowned before moving closer and Gabriel felt his breath catch again. It was like watching someone dance, the boy crossing the distance in a few graceful steps before sinking to his knees beside him, eyes darkening as he scanned Gabriel’s body before focusing on his face once more.

“This is new…” He didn’t sound happy about it and Gabriel scowled…it sounded like he knew about what happened each year and he cursed the fact that he could move away when the boy reached out, brushing cool fingers over his face and down his neck, a strange warmth following his touch and Gabriel gasped when suddenly he found himself able to move again. At once he was up and scrambling away, eyes wide as he glanced down at himself before focusing on the boy.

“What did you do…?”

“I removed whatever they had given you,” the boy seemed unfazed by his response, sinking back on his ankles, eyes never leaving Gabriel. “Why would they give you something like that? They’ve never done that before.””

“You know what they’ve been doing?” Why didn’t you help?

“I know,” the boy looks sad, a deep sorrow that has Gabriel suddenly wanting to do or say something to ease it. “A tithe for the Faerie of the Forest…willingly sacrificing their own and for what?” He glanced down at his hands and this time Gabriel saw the glow that spread across his fingers. “A gift that would be willingly given anyway…”

“You…” Gabriel trailed off, shaking his head…because this wasn’t possible. It was supposed to be a myth. A legend. Yet…he glanced up, tearing his gaze from the glow and again the boy’s image seemed to waver, old and young merging for a moment before settling once more. “What did you do to them?”

“Nothing!” The blond protested looking horrified. “I freed those I could…took them to places they would be safe, gave them what blessing I could…” After years spent trying to learn the truth, and learning how to watch people Gabriel was confident that the boy was telling the truth and he took heart from the thought that there were others who had escaped this fate, before his eyes narrowed.

“Those you could?”

“There were times when I was too late,” the boy admitted, raw pain clouding his expression and his image wavered again and he glanced down. “Those ones were gone…taken by the forest, or by your own people.”

   By my own people? Gabriel frowned, before a sickening feeling spread through him as he glanced around the stone circle. They wouldn’t…

  They would. He knew they would. Hell, he was here because he hadn’t been willing to accept their traditions, and deep down he knew that if they found him here come dawn they would make sure he didn’t get a chance to keep questioning them. He felt sick…wondering just how many people had lost their lives to this tradition, how many people had been killed in this clearing. Part of him was tempted to ask but when he looked up he couldn’t get the words out, because the other boy was clearly hurting, the pain in the blue eyes when their gazes met a moment later he felt compelled to offer comfort.

“You weren’t too late this time…” It wasn’t much, he didn’t know who or what the boy was or what was going to happen to him now. Yet apparently it was everything, because the stunned smile that crept across the other’s face was beautiful and Gabriel couldn’t look away, realising in that instance that there may have been more to his village legends than any of them could have realised, his heart hammering in his chest when the other boy whispered.

“Thank you…”

Lana Del Rey (SIGNOS DE AGUA)

CÁNCER: Summertime Sadness

Kiss me hard before you go, Summertime sadness. I just wanted you to know, That baby you're the best. I got my red dress on tonight, Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight. Got my hair up real big beauty queen style High heels off, I'm feeling alive. Oh, my God, I feel it in the air telephone wire's above, All sizzling like a snare. Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere, Nothing scares me anymore

ESCORPIO: Body Electric

“Elvis is my daddy, Marilyn's my mother, Jesus is my bestest friend. We don't need nobody cause we got each other, Or at least I pretend. We get down every Friday night dancing and grinding in the pale moonlight. Grand Ole Opry, we are feeling alright, Mary prays the rosary for my broken mind. My clothes still smell like you, And all the photographs say you're still young. I pretend I'm not hurt, And go about the world like I'm having fun”

PISCIS: Dark Paradise

“All my friends tell me I should move on, I'm lying in the ocean, singing your song. Ahhh, that's how you sang it loving you forever, can't be wrong
Even though you're not here, won't move on 'Ahhh', that's how we played it... And there's no remedy for memory of faces like a melody, it won't leave my head. Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine, But I wish I was dead... Everytime I close my eyes It's like a dark paradise. No one compares to you I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side. Everytime I close my eyes It's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side...
‘‘

Duraznito-.

Evita Lyric Meme
  • "Oh, what a show!"
  • "That's how to go when they're ringing your curtain down."
  • "We've made the front page of all the world's papers today."
  • "What kind of goddess has lived among us?"
  • "To you we cry, exiled sons of Eve."
  • "You let your people down. You were supposed to have been immortal."
  • "Show business kept us alive."
  • "Don't cry for me for I am ordinary, unimportant, and undeserving of such attention."
  • "So share my glory, so share my coffin."
  • "To think that a man as famous as you could love a poor little nothing like me."
  • "Would I have done what I did if I hadn't thought we would stay together?"
  • "You'll never be remembered for your voice."
  • "The city can be paradise for those who have the cash."
  • "Do all your one night stands give you this trouble?"
  • "Bad is good for me."
  • "All you've done to me, was that a young girls fantasy?"
  • "Beware your ambition."
  • "On this night of a thousand stars, let me take you to Heavens door."
  • "In the glow of those twinkling lights, we shall love through eternity."
  • "I never dreamed that a kiss could be as sweet as this."
  • "I wanna say I'm just a little stuck on you."
  • "If I ever go too far, it's because of the things you are."
  • "Put me down for a lifetime of success."
  • "It's sad when a love affair dies, but we have pretended enough."
  • "Our passion was just too intense to survive."
  • "We all know a career depends on knowing the right fella."
  • "One who has no rules is not precise."
  • "One always picks the easy fight."
  • "One always claims mistakes were planned."
  • "I stand here as a servant of the people."
  • "You've shown by your presence, your deeds, and applause what the people can do."
  • "When you act, the things you do affect us all."
  • "When you act, you take us away from the squalor of the real world."
  • "Maybe you're my reward for my efforts here tonight."
  • "Please understand, I'd be good for you."
  • "Would you be good for me too?"
  • "You enthrall me."
  • "The day you knew would arrive is here. You'll survive."
  • "You'll get by, you always have before."
  • "I don't expect my love affairs to last to long."
  • "At the watering holes of the well-to-do, I detect a resistance."
  • "Her only good parts are between her thighs."
  • "Let him save them as he saved me."
  • "We would be foolish not to quit while we're ahead."
  • "It won't be easy. You'll think it strange when I try to explain how I feel."
  • "I still need your love after all that I've done."
  • "Don't cry for me. The truth is I never left you."
  • "A cross between a fantasy of the bedroom and a saint."
  • "Did you believe in your wildest moments all this would be yours?"
  • "Don't look down. It's a long, long way to fall."
  • "I don't really think I need the reasons why I won't succeed."
  • "I'm not a second-rate queen getting kicks with a crown."
  • "Did you hear that? They called me a whore! They actually called me a whore!"
  • "Only an actress would pretend affairs of state are her latest play."
  • "The actress hasn't learned the lines you'd like to hear."
  • "Do you now represent anyone's cause but your own?"
  • "When the money keeps rolling in, you don't ask how."
  • "Will you look upon me as your own?"
  • "How can you claim you're our savior when those who oppose you are stepped on, or cut up, or simply disappear?"
  • "Tell me before you get onto your high horse just what you expect me to do!"
  • "Better to win by admitting my sin than to lose with a halo."
  • "Go, if you're able, to somewhere unstable and stay there."
  • "What is the good of the strongest heart in a body that's falling apart?"
  • "Where do we go from here? This isn't where we intended to be."
  • "What do we do for our dream to survive?"
  • "How do we keep all our passions alive as we used to do?"
  • "Deep in my heart I'm concealing things that I'm longing to sing."
  • "You must love me."
  • "Why are you at my side? How can I be any use to you now?"
  • "Give me a chance and I'll let you see nothing has changed."
  • "I see every bad sign in the book."
  • "The people belong to no one! They are fickle, can be manipulated!"
  • "So I don't exist? So I count for nothing?"
  • "Your eyes, your smile, do not have the sparkle of their fantastic past."
  • "Have you ever seen me defeated?"
  • "I'm trying to point out that you are dying!"
  • "I've decided I should decline all the honors and the titles you've pressed me to take."
  • "I could have any prize that I desired."
fibro!tsuna and coping of pain
  • tsuna: i have.. fibro,,
  • tsuna: basically Pain
  • therapist: i'm very sorry to hear that.
  • therapist: let's try meditation. it will help you block out the sensation of pain.
  • tsuna: will it let me blacklist my entire body
  • ...
  • hand: *blocked*
  • foot: *blocked*
  • 3 sq in piece of skin on right thigh: *blocked*
  • tsuna: you're all blocked
  • tsuna: none of you are free from sin.
  • tsuna: or pain.
  • reborn: too bad real life doesn't work that way
  • tsuna: you're blocked too.
  • ...
  • tsuna: *leg starts spasming*
  • tsuna: excuse me teacher my leg is dying i need to take a walk
  • teacher: ..shouldn't you usually rest if your leg is, um. dying?
  • tsuna, already packing up: look buddy i don't know what kind of Normal World you live in but in My world when My limbs start dying i Take A Walk
  • tsuna: bye
  • gokudera: *leaves with him. makes 'i'm watching you' gesture at teacher.*
  • yamamoto: *haha water triiiibe*
  • teacher:
  • teacher: they're not coming back are they
  • teacher: it's barely noon,,
  • ...
  • tsuna: let's play a game!
  • tsuna: it's called 'guess my pain levels'
  • tsuna: pick any number from 1-100
  • gokudera: juudaime that's kind of a, uh.. dark game to play
  • tsuna: nonsense, it distracts me from eternal death
  • yamamoto: i love guessing games!
  • yamamoto: 87
  • tsuna:
  • tsuna:
  • tsuna:
  • tsuna: GODDAMMIT YAMAMOTO
  • gokudera: you sonnuva- I DIDN'T GET A TURN I WAS GONNA GUESS THAT
  • yamamoto: haha! luckyyyyy
  • yamamoto: what do those numbers stand for anyway?
  • tsuna: how many specific points of my body are currently vying for my attention by telling me they're each undergoing the slowest most painful form of necrosis ever known to mankind
  • gokudera: oxidation?
  • tsuna: oxi-wha--
  • tsuna: i hate you all
  • ...
  • tsuna: okay but tell me
  • tsuna: how exactly does that possession thing work
  • mukuro: why are you.. asking...
  • lancia: don't remember much of it. i think it makes you black out the entire time.
  • tsuna: sounds convenient
  • tusna: i have Chronic Pain And Fatigue though.
  • lancia: ..he won't feel it? probably.
  • tsuna: alright. here's the thing.
  • tsuna: my attendance is horrible
  • tsuna: mukuro i need you to go to school for me for a few days
  • tsuna: also please adhere to this very strict sleep schedule or i s2g if you overwork my body i will find a way to transfer all the accumulated pain onto your body
  • mukuro: do i get a choice in this?
  • tsuna: are you throwing away your Get Out Of Jail Free For A Few Days card?
  • mukuro: you drive a hard bargain, vongola
  • lancia: i can't believe it
  • lancia: you've given him conflicting emotions
  • lancia: truly you are a miracle worker, sawada tsunayoshi
  • tsuna: the only miracle i wanna work is on me
  • ...
  • mukuro, in tsuna's body: kufufufu...
  • tsuna, in their mind: Stop Laughing
  • mukuro: what
  • mukuro: you're supposed to be asleep!
  • mukuro: my possession should be suppressing your conscious mind!
  • tsuna: if i can wake up from feeling like i've taken a hammer to the better part of my sternum, i can wake up from you being a creepy dick in my body
  • tsuna: Cease And Desist
  • ...
  • mukuro, in tsuna's body: yamamoto-kun, how does my hair look?
  • yamamoto: *squints for a heckuva long time*
  • yamamoto: ..looks the same to me, haha. did you do something new to it?
  • mukuro: just a small addition.. is it not noticeable? i thought it was quite clever.
  • yamamoto: ???
  • mukuro: *tries to indicate the pineapple tuft hidden among tsuna's already tufty hair*
  • yamamoto: i don't see anything??
  • mukuro:
  • mukuro: what a waste of effort.
  • ...
  • mukuro, in his own mind: get out
  • tsuna, in mukuro's body: no
  • tsuna: it's cold and wet and i am restful
  • tsuna: i have slept so much. not a single headache.
  • tsuna: kinda hard to breathe but i'm not too surprised by that
  • mukuro: the week is over and so is our deal
  • mukuro: i pranced around in your body, freaked some people out, made gokudera question his sanity
  • mukuro: your bully may have a crush on my laugh
  • tsuna: ?? which one
  • mukuro: the loud one with the sword
  • tsuna: that's a little disturbing. i'll try not to laugh like you then.
  • mukuro: ...so
  • tsuna: *whining* five more minuuutteesss
  • ...
  • tsuna: aaannnnddd now we're back to pain. pain, pain, pain. 24/7 pain. i didn't miss you. i mean, i kinda did. it's really numb without you. felt weird.
  • tsuna: kinda like i wasn't really there
  • reborn:
  • tsuna: well, it was good while it lasted
  • reborn: maybe warn me next time before i shoot mukuro dead and you with him
  • tsuna: wow that's a little drastic just because i let a known criminal who tried to kill me walk around in my body for a week.
  • reborn: your self-preservation instincts can be really ludicrously terrible sometimes you know
  • tsuna: look me in the eyes and tell me you've never wanted to be free of your own body before
  • reborn:
  • reborn: shut up and go back to sleep