i won't even get into this right now

i’m so anxious right now
you may think it’s stupid because i’m not even living in america, but i’m going to tell you why i feel like this
i live in poland and we chose a new president and parliament last year
the conservative party won and took the majority of seats in parliament
we all said then “well, it’s only for a few years right? they can’t do much in that time”
but it only took a year for them to make so much damage
they already pushed so many dangerous laws, and we couldn’t do anything
it took us a mass protests and thousands people on the streets to stop the law that could completely ban abortion
every day they’re targeting minorities, they have no respect for the people who are not their supporters
and the public media? it’s 21st century, it’s not posiible for it to be censored or manipulated, right? we thought so too
now we don’t watch the news anymore, it’s all propaganda and hate
just because some people thought, “ah, it won’t be so bad”
“my vote doesn’t matter”
“it’s only for a couple of years”
now, we’re terrified of what comes next
but we’re the small country, we won’t do much damage to other countries
but united states?
so tonight i’m terrified, and i really really hope, people will choose right

twenty years from now my kid will come running into the room crying and screaming and throwing things onto the floor and I’ll stand by all horrified and ask over and over “what happened” and they’ll just look at me with betrayal in their eyes, throw the complete box set of avatar the last airbender at me and whisper, “you liar…zutara wasn’t endgame. HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN, HOW COULD SHE END UP WITH AANG what about all their chemistry” and I’ll get down real slow and hug them and stroke their hair as they sob. And then I’ll say emotionally, “But they’ll always be together…” Pause as I take a deep breath and place my hand over my heart, “in HERE”

Not gonna lie with the world as it is right now I kiiiiind of need a hug and a pep talk and a jumbo-sized martini from the Duchess of Mandalore. 

So, I’m pretty weak with relief right now.

Some of you have probably seen comments alluding to one of our dogs, Barstow.  He got sick after Christmas with a stomachache and a cough, but our vet didn’t have any appointments open.  So, we took him to the emergency vet because we were getting worried, and they ended up doing a chest x-ray.  On the x-ray, they found a shadow of something near his liver.

So, we had an ultrasound done, which showed three masses near his liver.  That led to a biopsy on Monday to determine if they were cancerous, of course, which required putting our 11 year old husky under anesthesia for about an hour.

Then he had a seizure coming out of it, and we begin to freak out.  He came out of the anesthesia badly, and spent 10 or so hours walking around the house crying after being under observation at the vet’s for about 5 hours.  Never the most coordinated dog to begin with, Barstow was really woozy, tripping over everything and looking really out of it.  Granted, the last time we put an old husky under anesthesia, he came out of it just as badly, and it took him a few days to come back to himself.  So, we tried to get him to sleep instead of pace (which he finally did yesterday afternoon), and waited to see if he was doing better.

This morning, two days later, he’s singing a little and generally being much more social.  He did wake me up twice last night, but I can live with that, even if one time he really did just want to be cuddled.  He’s no longer any more of a klutz than he is on a normal day, and he’s almost back to normal.

And then I got the call back from the vet with the biopsy results.  I got the call at work and had to close the door to my office in case I started crying, but then I got the news.

There’s no cancer.  He’s going to be fine.  

Now all we have to deal with is a siberian who is annoyed because a section of his stomach is shaved and so is where they put the IV in his leg.  He’s still sleepy, but he’s Barstow again, and it doesn’t look like the seizure did any damage.  We’re still not 100% sure what caused the seizure, so we’ll have to keep an eye on him, but he’s doing pretty well.

Obligatory sleepy Barstow picture, complete with shaved belly:

watching good movies is very inspiring but also frustrating because you are literally seeing the end product

it’s the best cut of every scene that was filmed from the best draft of every scene with editing done at every stage of the process 

and at the same time you want to write and you want to write something that damn good and think maybe you can

but you’re not even halfway through the second act of the first draft and you have so much DETAIL and so many IDEAS but they’re all stuck in your head and even if you can get them out in the right way maybe they won’t be as good as what you just saw but goddammit you have to try and why the fuck did you pick this poison for yourself but you love it anyways

anonymous asked:

What time zone are you in?

Well, hello there, Nonnie!  I am CST, but I do tend to keep some pretty irregular hours around here due to kids, school, and family.

Originally posted by kylimakat28

anonymous asked:

Imagine when Credence is pretty far along in his recovery and he's found a group of people he feels comfortable with and can just be himself with and he has a few drinks and gets all giggly and affectionate and is genuinly happy and having a good time. (I'm a little drunk right now so feel free to ignore this if you want.)

omg no i love the idea of him loosening up enough to like ?? let himself be a little less in control because he just trusts a group so much. it’s a huge testament to them if that’s possible bc like ?? that is a huge sign of trust, to let yourself go around people but credence deserves a group that lets him feel bubbly and comfortably out of control :’)

I just totally appreciate

when someone reblogs one of my edits and tags it as “why not”. It Definitely doesn’t feel like a douche move to pull, like they are somehow reblogging it as a form of pity. Nope don’t get that feeling.  And of course I prefer that they choose to tag something like that instead of not tagging at all. Real sweet! Having the best morning.

i haven’t even watched the damn ep yet but i think i’ve seen enough on my dash to get an idea of the kind of bs they once again force feeded us… i think i’m gonna take sometime away from all this to cleanse my soul bc right now my bitterness levels are off the charts and it’s not good for my ulcers…

being a prof with 30 students is really, really fucking difficult because of how Mentally Ill™ I am right now, but also, is the only thing that forces me out of my Depression hole because I feel too responsible to/too terrified of failing my muffins to disappear. 

siadea  asked:

Set, I have really got to thank you for your entire body of work right now. It's very comforting to read and reread, knowing things are gonna be okay. (Even though Code Safeword is killin' me here, killin' me!) It's really helping me through some stress. I very much appreciate it.

You are very welcome. It’s so good to know that you re-read my stories and that that they help you and give you comfort. It really means a lot, hearing that. And I hope the stressful things calm down for you soon *hugs*

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Day 20 - Dancing (ha, yeah right)

I originally just wanted to draw them doing some tango.

I’m starting to get tired of unnecesarily angsty and racist post-BH FMA HCs using the ishvalans as terrorists and barbarians attacking (for not reason at all) the Elrics/Rockbells/any people that had nothing to do with the Ishval War, and then said ppl being a benevolent martyr and forgiving them anyways and becoming saint heroes for forgiving them?????????????

Like, Ishvalans didn’t even searched for revenge on Amestris people/militia right after the war except for Scar???? Why would they now???

So many things wrong that I don’t know where I should start. But first of all stop being a racist dick and treating a different culture as barbarian just because it’s different and oh dark skin. The ishvalans are not bellicose people, quite the opposite. THEY WERE ATTACKED FOR NO REASON AND THEY WERE DEFENDING THEMSELVES during the Ishval war.

And on the top of the cake, the white people being saints and forgiving and “better people”.

Great job on spreading your romanticized version of hard racism on the fandom.

i have a really strong immune system because i love to eat #dirt and be #filthy but the worst damn thing is that i get sick so infrequently that whenever it happens it feels like death!!! anyways i have the beginnings of the common cold right now and i would straight up rather go spear myself atop the clock tower than cough even one more time -_-

Priorities.

Losing weight is not my main priority right now. I’ve literally just realized this.

There have been times in my life (weeks and months at a time) when my main focus really has been forming new habits to lose weight. And it worked. I think that’s really what you have to do sometimes in order to make progress and really figure this whole thing out.

But I keep getting frustrated because I’m ONLY about TWENTY POUNDS away from my ultimate goal. It shouldn’t be that difficult for me to buckle down and get it done. I want to lose 2 pounds a week like I have in the past.

But you know what? I’ve already lost twenty pounds. In fact, I’ve done it TWICE, actually ALMOST THREE TIMES already. And that’s pretty fucking awesome and it took a lot of work.

So sure. I would like to lose around twenty more pounds and/or lean out by decreasing my body fat percentage.

But I would also like to finally land a full time job that pays well. And I want to finally get an apartment with Jake. And I want to get a puppy. And I want to get married in the next two years.

Those are my priorities right now.

I’m not going to stop running or eating well or drinking enough water, because those things make me feel good and are part of my lifestyle now. And I’m not going to use this as an excuse to go back to old habits I’ve already broken.

But I AM going to stop getting frustrated when I don’t see major changes in my body or my weight. I have other things to focus on right now.

I’m 55+ pounds down and that’s pretty fucking awesome. I’m much better off now, when it comes to my health, than I was a year ago. I’m not going to give up. But I need to recognize that I can’t expect to see steady progress when I’m not making weight loss a big priority.

It feels good to have reached this point in my journey.

JR: I love all my show characters equally!! Lexa, Clarke…
*reads smudged writing on hand* Ramen, Baloney and… Thriller?

Watch Zayn pull a Frank Ocean and post a really vulnerable and heartfelt letter before his album drops. And it’ll be all about his whole journey up to that point. It’ll thank everyone who stuck by his side and didn’t give up on him. It’ll talk about what the album means to him and how hard he’s worked on it to give us the very best of him. 

I can’t wait for the first single. I can’t wait for the track list. I can’t wait for the album art. I can’t wait for that moment when I can get in my car, put the album on, and drive all night with the windows down jamming and crying because every word is straight from Zayn’s heart. I can’t wait for that first playback because there’s nothing quite like that feeling you get when you listen to an album straight through for the first time.  

This album, everything surrounding solo Zayn, is going to be unlike anything we’ve ever seen or heard, I guarantee it. I honestly feel so blessed to be around to experience it.