i won't be on much for a while

Listen I am so here for platonic “I love you"s. I don’t care if you think "I love you” is some sacred phrase to only utter to one person in your life, i don’t care if you think it makes me look overbearing. I say “I love you” to my friends every time I say goodbye because I want them to know 100% without a doubt that I care for them and love them and am there for them so so much.

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         I got a   f e v e r   for violent behaviour

A Rainy Night

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Something terrible is going to happen.
  - Okay, what is it?

anonymous asked:

i disagree with the argument that sansa “bullied” arya or made her feel less. 1. arya was confident in herself in a way poor sansa wasn’t. 2. they’re /siblings/ and siblings fight in a way that can’t be immediately taken as bullying unless escalated a lot. sansa loves arya and would never bullied her !!!!!!!

I’m sort of unsure how to proceed since you’re on anon. My gut reaction when I read this was “oh boy” and then I remembered that the books and the show portray the Stark Sister’s relationships very differently from one another.  So if you’re a show-only type, I’d say that a lot of the way that I talk about their relationship and think about their relationship misses the mark–and will continue to miss the mark–for you.  My preferred canon is the book canon, my default canon when discussing things will always be the book canon and that’s never going to change.

Sansa is harsh to Arya in season 1, but expresses hope and excitement and love very frequently when confronted with the fact that her sister is alive.  Arya is confident and beloved in Winterfell, a devious darling who is warmly received when she bests Bran at archery, and whose brother appreciates her throwing food at Sansa (Sansa, meanwhile, was humiliated by this, but that humiliation isn’t given weight).  After the Trident, Arya is depicted as enraged–and practices stabbing Joffrey while Sansa berates her.  Both girls repeatedly call the other stupid, and tells the other to shut up.  And then they split and you get Arya saying “I have to find my sister” and Sansa’s joy at “Arya’s alive?” when Littlefinger tells her so, and her delight in hearing Brienne’s story of the show-only encounter with Arya.

This is not how the books portray their relationship at all.  

And if you’re a show-only person, I encourage you to either skip the rest of this post because it doesn’t pertain to you and your engagement with the series–unless you’re curious about why I–and others–are insistent that Sansa was an active participant in the emotional abuse and bullying of her little sister.

arya was confident in herself in a way poor sansa wasn’t.

In the books this is just not true.  Sansa is confident in many things: confident that the world is going to be good to and for her, confident in her status, confident in her intelligence, confident in her birth, confident in her looks.  Many of these facts are shaken when she is in the custody/under the abuse of the Lannisters and Petyr Baelish, but when she and Arya are children in Winterfell, Sansa is the darling.  Arya, meanwhile, feels like an outcast in her own home, never able to live up to the standards of beauty and grace that her sister meets so easily.  Arya is routinely made to feel inferior–specifically to Sansa: she is called horseface by Sansa and Jeyne Poole (to the point where Arya conceives of herself as ugly even though she very much is not), she is constantly negatively compared to Sansa by Septa Mordane and at times her own mother.  Her confidence comes externally: she is confident in what is right (defending Mycah from Joffrey) but frequently feels horrible.  Sansa exacerbates this after Mycah’s death, and makes Arya feel to blame for Mycah’s and Lady’s deaths though neither is Arya’s fault, and rather than wanting to stab Joffrey, she feels excluded by her sister and she wants to cry and run away.  Sansa meanwhile is expecting to be queen, and rather than viewing her sister as an equal views her as someone who will be fundamentally inferior by virtue of not being queen.

they’re /siblings/ and siblings fight in a way that can’t be immediately taken as bullying unless escalated a lot. sansa loves arya and would never bullied her

Quite apart from this being wildly reductive of the ways in which siblings–beyond Arya and Sansa–can engage with one another, it’s also not true.  Sansa emotionally abused Arya fullstopThe effects of Sansa’s bullying on Arya are profound.  She is the main source of pain in Arya’s thoughts about her own inadequacy, the root symbol of the pressure Arya felt as a child to efface what made her her so that she could be more like Sansa

I maintain this: it is not Sansa who gets to decide whether or not Arya was bullied by Sansa–it is Arya.  From Sansa’s perspective, she didn’t bully Arya even a little; meanwhile, as noted above, from Arya’s perspective she absolutely did.  An important part of the way that Sansa engages with life–beyond Arya–is to lie to herself and to live in denial.  This is something that can–and likely will–come to a head in the coming books.  But as it pertains to Arya, she frequently thinks about Arya in a way that doesn’t acknowledge Arya’s personhood.  Arya is a symbol in Sansa’s head, and a giant question mark because Sansa, reliant as she is on narratives, doesn’t know what became of the sister who disappeared before their father’s death.  She is conflicted and contradictory about how she thinks about Arya; meanwhile Arya is pretty straightforward about the pain that Sansa caused her, though her memories of her sister soften after the Red Wedding when she assumes–to spare herself pain–that her sister is dead like the rest of her family.  These two perspectives contradict one another.  Both girls have been through a lot, and to say that their futures are defined by their pasts does neither credit.  However to pretend that they don’t–as Martin himself has said–“have deep issues to work out,” is denying what is written in the text.

When I am bored, I think of you.
But also while I’m doing my homework, hanging out with my friends, having lunch, driving home, listening to music, reading a book…
I always think about you. And when I think about you, I ask myself how much time I’ve already spent with thinking about you though you have never thought about me.
And you know what? I won’t stop thinking about you.

anonymous asked:

In almost every version of Sailor Moon Beryl is at best just reduced down to this pitiable woman who let her jealousy consume her, BUT GODDAMN I WANT SO MUCH MORE FROM HER?! GIVE ME A CANON THAT ACKNOWLEDGES BERYL'S CONCERNS ABOUT THE MOON KINGDOM AS LEGITIMATE! GIVE ME POWERFUL, POLITICAL BAD-ASS BERYL THAT REALLY LOVES HER PLANET AND IS SHOWN RALLYING SUPPORT FOR HER CAUSE AND IS JUST REALLY LOVED BY HER PEOPLE FOR ACTUALLY CARING! GIVE ME SHADY-ASS QUEEN SERENITY!!!!

@gay-la-v is this you

REGARDLESS

This, my gentle followers, is an anon after my own heart.

Give me a Beryl that’s afraid of the sci-fi magitech kingdom on the moon, and with good reason. Give me a Beryl that won’t stand for Queen Serenity meddling with a sovereign state under the guise of ~protecting the people of Earth~. Give me a Beryl that won’t accept the rule of a man too moonstruck to actually rule his kingdom. Give me a Beryl that rises to the status of a folk hero, a resistance leader, a leader who actually looks like she knows what she’s doing, to the level where the Shitennou deem serving their planet alongside Beryl more important than protecting a Prince too busy staring at the night sky to look to his own people. Give me a Beryl aware that whatever she has cannot hope to match the Silver Crystal, so she pacts with Metallia to have a fighting chance, a chance for her planet to be free. Give me a Beryl that’s not a pawn of Metallia, nor its paladin–give me a Beryl that, if successful, would attempt to kill Metallia after having used its youma for conquering the Moon.

No? Fucking fine, I’ll write her myself.

The Aquarium

Author: imveryloser

Description: Jimin is worried about being judged for being in little space in public. Daddy always knows just how to help.

Pairing: Yoonmin

Word Count: 4593

Status: Complete

Ao3

hiatus + blog change?

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, i’ve been very inactive lately and i deeply apologize for that. lately i just kinda felt obligated to run this blog instead of doing it because i want to. so i’m just gonna take a while to stop writing and stuff. now about the blog change, my interests aren’t fully focused on marvel anymore, i still like it, and i won’t stop making original content or anything like that, i just have been taking a liking to other shows and films. (the hundred, elementary, asoue, riverdale, supergirl). so i was thinking of becoming a multifandom blog, so i’m not limited to the things i enjoy. i hope y’all are okay with this.

tags r under the cut aight:

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  • me: (standing around talking to a coworker while holding our Megalodon tooth prop)
  • coworker: Hey, fun fact, did you know that one's not real?
  • me: (pulls out my own Megalodon tooth from my pocket)
  • me: Hey, fun fact, did you know this one is?
  • coworker: Do you just carry around a fossil in your pocket?
  • me: No.
  • me: (reaches into other pocket)
  • me: (pulls out Chesapecten fossil)
  • me: (holds it up)
  • me: I carry two.
  • coworker: I hate you.

LOOK HOW BORED CAITI LOOKS

A GROWN MAN IS BEING SPANKED BY ANOTHER GROWN MAN WHILE YET ANOTHER GROWN MAN HOLDS A MICROPHONE TO HIS ASS AND SHE ISN’T PAYING ATTENTION AT ALL

WHAT HAS STREAM MOM *SEEN*?

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some doodles of some new (and old!) character’s i’ve been brainstorming a story for lately!

the idea is actually an old idea i had but with new characters. It wasn’t until recently that I realized I could totally sneak Cay in there! I’m so glad to finally give him a new home so I can draw him more. The lady in the red hat is actually his sister–she’s married to the other lady, and they have a service similar to something like pest control. Only less pesticides and more “let’s go in and wrangle these giant lizards” etc kinda deal. The birb pulls their wagon.

i said i would do this when i felt better, so here :)

i’m feeling a lot better than i did earlier, what all of you guys said really helped and i can’t thank you enough, so just.. thank you all so much 

usually the bad feelings and thoughts come in waves so i know that eventually i’m gonna feel bad again but it helps to know i have people who care about me so hopefully next time it won’t be as bad 

I’m not the kind of person who’s really very good at forming her own opinions on things. It takes me a while to kind of ponder and crystallize how I feel about most topics, and pretty much everything winds up having elements where it looks different from different angles, so I never have like, A Solid Feeling I Always Feel About This Thing.

(I used to worry about it a lot, when I was a kid. There are still some songs/bands/albums I listen to and remember my deep anxiety: how could I tell if this was Good? Other people seemed to always know– that music’s shit and we’ll laugh at you, this music’s Great but only right now, that music there is Classic and no matter what will always be Good. How do you know which is which.)

Anyway. So, I don’t really have An Opinion Of My Own about Rogue One.

What I do have, after reading many reviews, is an interesting observation to make:

Every person of color I’ve read a review from loved it. I don’t know that my sample is representative, but for so many people, it fulfilled such a deep-seated need inside them that, several reviewers independently said, they hadn’t realized they still had, to see someone who looked like them in this context. And that’s incredibly touching, to me. I know I cried to see a lady pilot among the 70s-moustached dudes! My only tears of the movie. So I get that, I do, and I’m so excited for it.

The critical reviews I’ve read have mostly not been from people of color. And they’ve made excellent points– how terrible is it, for one, that the only way the powers that be could see their way to putting so many men of color into a Star Wars film was to kill them all in the end? The hope, and eventual success, of the Rebellion is literally built on the ashes and bones of women and people of color, who were expressly not included in the glorious success at the end of the original trilogy.

(And also: where are the women of color. Where are the women, period. What the fuck, racists and misogynists were already going to protest your movie; you could have done whatever you wanted at this point, so why was this all you wanted??)

I feel like the critical points are good to make. And I feel like that’s maybe who should be making them. Sure, there are valid points to be argued about structural or thematic weaknesses, sure there are still complaints to be made. But. 

If you got to have representation for the first time in this movie, you should feel free to enjoy it uncritically. 

ALL BLOGS SET AND READY

Hello guys!
I’m back!

Yesterday I’ve accidentally deactivated ALL MY BLOGS while trying to delete unused sideblog - IT IS A DISASTER, I lost pretty much everything: posts, followers, likes. I managed to find most of my art that I wanted back on this blog and the artblog tho, which is nice, and I’m following the same people I’ve been following before.

So! IF YOU WERE FOLLOWING SCHOLLA OR ARTSCHOLLA or my nsfw blog - PLEASE FOLLOW IT ONCE AGAIN. The urls are the same. Please also spread this message since I have like 11 followers now.

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for nsfw blog you need to ask off anon

HELP!!!

i just realized i hit my next thousand and i want to say thanks qq 💜✨

it’s now ski week so i’m gonna spend it writing :) i plan to work on:
- Change Your Mind
- BadBoy!Taehyung
- Ballet!AU Jimin
- Fantasy!AU collab