i woke up at like 1:30 today

YES, IT’S REAL

depression, flare, headache, irritability, joint stiffness, nervousness, anxiety or mood swings, forgetfulness or lack of concentration,difficulty falling asleep or sleep disturbances,muscle tenderness, delayed onset muscle soreness, or muscle spasms, fatigue, feeling tired, or malaise, intense pain at night, nausea, difficulty digesting correctly, Tension or migraine headaches, Increase in urinary urgency or frequency (irritable bladder)
Reduced tolerance for exercise and muscle pain after exercise.

The above are SOME (not all) symptoms of fibromyalgia. These are all ones I deal with daily.
Fibromyalgia is often ignored by people and even the medical community as being all in ones head. I assure you, it is not.
In fact, my computer even keeps tagging fibromyalgia as not even a real word.
It is a real word. A real disease, too.
When people , family or “friends”, have said I complain too much , or I over react, or I don’t look sick, or tell me I should just exercise to lose weight, I just feel a pit opening in my stomach. How do you explain to someone that you are going through all this, along with diabetes, arthritis, a still undiagnosed back condition, and an immunity disorder and NOT sound like your complaining?
Im posting this for all the people who suffer with this same type of invisible illness, and who have been scoffed at, ignored, or misdiagnosed.
Today I have done nothing but sit on the couch since I woke up at 1:30 since I was up til 6 am . Like most night. I did walk to the end of my block, and was in such pain by the time I returned I had to pop some pain pills. Which I dont like because 1)the barely help 2) the cause constipation, and 3)They cause me to be hyper, so I cant take them at night, when the pain is the worst.
Not looking for sympathy or anything like that, just understanding.
Ive been called lazy, and whiny for most of my life, and told theres nothing wrong with you.
Sometimes that hurts more then the disease.

Nothing like drinking coffee and listening to dad’s problems about working at Dominos.

Please help ASAP!

I ended up pushing my body more than I realized and when we were done unloading our Uhaul at the apartment at 1:30 this afternoon I laid down to take a quick nap because I ached so much and woke up at 4 PM with stiff sore muscles, swollen ankles and just in a whole lot of pain.

We are supposed to return the Uhaul tomorrow at 11AM AND be out of the unit at 9PM as well but it doesn’t look like the latter is going to happen without the Uhaul. I am just too broken today to keep working and I’m already planning on getting up at 5 AM to tackle the old unit but if we can get $85 we can keep the Uhaul all day tomorrow and get this move finished once and for all.

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Update: Step 2, Day #WhateverWhoKnowsAllDaysFeelTheSame

Okay so I mean. Uworld is going better. Not killing it or anything, but consistently getting scores that I’m okay with and feeling like I know some things *gasp*. Anyways, we have identified one problem. I am a complete night owl. Like a wake up at 12 sleep at 2:30 am night owl. I peak at non human hours. All my research papers I’ve written past 1 am. All my posters. Abstracts. Everything. Anyways, Step 2 will begin at 8 am, which you will note is well before my brain becomes functional. Yeah I don’t know faulty design or something. So I’ve been trying to wean myself off the noon wake up life. For example- yesterday I woke up at 10 and felt like crap. Today I woke up 10 and feel just fine. Falling asleep before midnight has not happened, but a lot of tossing and turning has. Melatonin his being promptly taken at 10 pm so we’re gonna move that to 9 pm and go from there.

Originally posted by heartsnmagic

Ryker slept in his crib last night!

This mama didn’t even faulter and did not cave! He never came back to bed with me, even though I was exhausted. Yaaaay for a stubborn mama! 😂

but in all honesty, I could use like 3 naps now. Lol. Or like 5 cups of coffee. 😴☕️

I put him down to bed at 7pm. He woke up at 9pm. But I got him back down pretty quickly. And then I went to sleep myself around 10:30pm.

He woke up again at 11, 11:20, 11:40, 12, 12:15, 12:30, 12:50, 1:05, 3:45, 5, and then lastly woke up for the day at 6am. So I am tired.

Probably gonna nap while he naps today. We will see! Either way, day one of crib training COMPLETE. hopefully it doesn’t take him more than a week to get accustom to it!

anonymous asked:

What is your sleep schedule like, you're scaring me

i sleep when i collapse lol. but nah since i work a night shift, on days when i work i get home at around 1:30 am but dont go to sleep until like…. 8 am sometimes…. on days when i dont work (like today) the exhaustion catches up eventually and i fell asleep at 8 pm and woke up just before 2 am hahaha

today (yesterday, technically) was the first day in a week I was like, “hey, no more being sick! just sniffles and a little cough. I probably got sick in part because I was spreading myself too thin, I should be more mindful of that.”

what did I do???? woke up at 5:15 am, took a day trip, spent most of the day hiking, got back at 8:30 pm, cleaned up, then turned around, went to hang out with DIFFERENT people and got home at 1:00 am, I am noticing a pattern, and a problem,

Something is up.

This in no way means anything concrete for Team D, but I was curious about the event in Miami that Emily tweeted and deleted about, so I did some digging.

The event is today.  It started at 12 noon eastern and ends at 8 PM.

HOWEVER, Emily tweeted at 1:30-ish eastern time that she was happy to be home in NYC, acting like she just woke up and was all thrown off from jet lag.

I’m waiting to see if any pictures come out of this event, but until they do, I think our girl is screwing with us.  And why would she need to screw with us if she’s got nothing to hide?

The Beginning to a new start Part 2 (Hayes fanfic)

A/N here’s the link to part one if you haven’t read it yet: http://magconn-lifee.tumblr.com/post/83634159587/the-beginning-to-a-new-start-part-1-hayes-fanfic oh btw I’m aware that Hayes is actually 13 and in 7th grade, but in this story he’s 14 turning 15 and in 8th grade. ok thanks!! -Keara

I woke up to the sound of my alarm playing “Primadonna” by Marina and the Diamonds. I looked over at the time, 6:30… great. Today was my first day at my new school. I’ve lived in the same town all my life, so I didn’t know what being the new kid was like. I got out of bed, took a quick shower, got dressed, did my hair, and applied light makeup. (final look: http://www.polyvore.com/first_day_school/set?id=120234400) Before going downstairs to eat, I looked in my new mirror mounted on the wall. I wasn’t the prettiest girl ever, but I also wasn’t ugly. I have bright blue eyes and long, wavy brown hair that goes to about the middle of my back. I feel like I’m always underestimated because I have glasses. After looking at my outfit one more time, I finally went downstairs to eat. When I got downstairs I noticed a note on the counter, “good morning Keara, your father and I have already left for work. Feel free to make yourself some cereal before walking to school. Have a good first day you’ll be fine! love you! -Mom”. At least it was warm today in North Carolina, so the 5 minute walk to my new school would not be a problem. I poured myself a bowl of cereal, eating quickly while scrolling through twitter. Once I had finished eating, I grabbed my backpack and headed out the door. I put my headphones in, listening to “Give me Love” by Ed Sheeren. As I was walking out my door, I noticed the boy next door was also leaving. As I walked by his house, out of the corner of my eye I saw him staring at me. I looked down at my feet as I walked, humming along to the song playing. I could feel the boy getting closer to me, so I picked up my pace a little bit. “Hey wait up!” the boy said, finally walking along beside me. I took one of the earbuds out of my ear and smiled over at him. “U-Uhm where ya goin?” the boy asked looking down at his feet nervously. He had long, dark brown hair and bright blue eyes. I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone with blue eyes that bright! “Oh I’m just walking to my new school”, I said. “Oh cool what school?” he asked, finally looking up at me. “Davidson Day” I replied smiling shyly. “Oh no way that’s where I go” he said, returning the smile. Okay well maybe now I’ll have a new friend at school. The rest of the way, we just walked in silence until he finally spoke again. “Oh by the way I’m Hayes” he said. “I’m Keara” I replied. “Keara, I like it it’s pretty” he said, causing his blue eyes to sparkle. I giggled a little saying, “thanks it’s gaylic, it means saint”. “Well then that name seems to fit you perfectly” he said smiling once again. We finally arrived at the large middle school and walked through the door. “Well bye Keara it was nice meeting you, enjoy your first day at Davidson Day”, Hayes said before giving me a little wave and walking down the hall. Since it was my first day, I had to stop at the guidance office to get my schedule. As I walked down the hallway kids started giving me dirty looks. I looked down at my black vans, avoiding all the looks and glares. Once I finally reached the office, I was greeted by a young, tall blonde woman. “Hi, you must be Keara! Welcome, I’m the 8th grade guidance councilor Mrs. Ford!” she said smiling and shaking my hand. “Hi” I replied back with a genuine smile. Mrs. Ford gave me lots of information about the school and the classes, before finally giving me my schedule and assigning me a locker. She walked me down the hallway and guided me to my locker. Since I’m only 5'2" and I was assigned a top locker, I had to reach on my toes to turn the lock. Once I put my bag in my locker and grabbed my notebook, Mrs. Ford escorted me to my first class. Since I was always very intelligent, I would be taking all honors classes. My first class of the day was honors English, which I was excited for because English is my favorite subject. Once we got to the class, I was introduced to my teacher before being assigned a seat in the front of the room. As I took my seat, I noticed the other students whispering and pointing at me. I opened my notebook, jotting down notes trying to ignore the constant laughs and glares. I was in the middle of copying down something from the board, when a little piece of paper was thrown at me. I carefully and quietly unfolded the little piece of paper. It read, “welcome to Davidson Day four eyes”. Great so this is what being the new kid was like. My thoughts were interrupted by the bell ringing. I quickly copied down the homework assignment, before getting up to walk to my next class. “Ok first period wasn’t great, but maybe next period would be better” I thought to myself. I was about to approach the door to my honors math class, when all of a sudden I was shoved into a locker. My back slammed hard against the wall, causing me to fall to the ground, dropping my notebook, along with my glasses flying off my face. A group of three girls and two boys stood there watching me and laughing. I tried to reach for my glasses, when one of the boys kicked them further down the hallway. This made the kids laugh even harder. “Oops sorry four eyes” a girl with blonde hair said smirking. The group of kids walked down the hall, as I returned to my feet collecting my notebook and glasses. I was already dreading the rest of the day, and I hadn’t even gotten to second period yet.