ill always feel you in my blood
this is for @fangirl4everyours
philip shea au based off this quote today was the first day i woke up and didnt think of you
The first thought on Philip’s mind when he wakes up every day is his mother. Sometimes he remembers the way her hands felt in his, sometimes he remembers the way she laughed, sometimes he remembers the stories she whispered to him when he was little.
He never remembers that she’s dead. Not at first. No, his mind lets him rest comfortably in the memories of the only person who stuck with him his whole life for a few minutes before slamming the door in his face and reminding him of what he’s lost, of what he’s never going to get back.
But today, for the first time since she died, she isn’t his first thought. Rather, it’s about Helen, and how she danced like an idiot in the car on the way home from the diner last night with him and Gabe. Gabe looked back at Philip in an I can’t believe I married such a dork way, and Philip just smiled.