i wish to understand

Nevra: *doesnt get attention for fifteen seconds*
Nevra: *drapes himself over the lounge* it is fine. i am Okay. i suppose it is simply my destiny to die alone. Abandoned. Without a soul in the world to care for me. *delicately wipes a glistening tear from his eye* i’m not bothered. i Understand why you all Hate Me and wish me dead. after all, maybe it is all for the best…
Nevra: *stares forlornly into the middle distance, allowing his limbs to go slack as he lies back and waits to wither away, ignored forever*

kyomi-art  asked:

My sister is 10, and she is hating herself because she wishes she was a boy. How can I help her understand that its okay to feel how she's feeling?

A child’s home should be their sanctuary. They should be able to express, experiment, mess up, do well, explore and ask questions. One way to let your little sibling know that they are safe, is try to let them explore around you. Maybe offer to explore with them? Play dress up, ask them how they feel. Tell them how you feel. Let them know that there are things about you that you don’t really like, and the ways you can change them or learn to love them. Let them know that you want to be there for them. There is nothing like some play time to do some exploring and ask those questions about how they feel when in play. You may find that some things make them feel better, and other worse. Kids love to talk and tell their feelings about things, they just need that permission to do so. Adults do too, so let those talks be permission for you to open up as well. Be an example.

Twists and Turns; Elation             {{ NOT FOR REBLOGGING         PERSONAL POST / POEM }}

                            Twists and Turns; Elation 

         Written by and owned by Amethyst Rose.

La la la la twists and turns

Within a maze of my own creation

Da dum da dum it never learns.

Floating higher and higher, elation.

Elation station

Lost, but not afraid

Alone, by myself in isolation

Worry will fade.

Wandering eternally in a web of my own design

Da la da dum, time is ticking and flowing away

The path I walk is never a straight line

Always twisting and turning, all night and day.

Twisting and turning, never learning

A glutton to my own soul’s anatomy

Forever searching

Looking and yearning, craving the center, a captive of my own calamity.

Free yet still bound

By forces unseen surrounding me and encasing

La la la la, Da dum da dum, follow the sound.

Warmth washing over me, embracing.

Skipping its pacing, forever racing.

Won’t slow down, can’t slow down, no rest.

Forever and ever and ever chasing.

What a grand quest.

Twists and Turns, Twists and Turns, Twists and Turns

La la la la, la la la la, la, la, la la 

Da la da dum,  Da la da dum,  Da la da dum

Follow the Sound, Follow The Sound, Follow The Sound

La la la la twists and turns

Within a maze of my own creation

Da dum da dum it never learns.

Floating higher and higher, elation.


Elation Station


Elation Station


{{ This is a little poem I came up with on the fly, I’m hoping to turn it into a song. Only I know the true meaning to it. I wonder if you all can guess what it means owo? }}


anonymous asked:

I have a codependent relationship with my husband, he takes care of me. There's nothing wrong with that. My husband dies if not because he has to, but because he wants too. Personally, I'm the type of person that can never be alone. Mental health issues are no joke.. I get where you're coming from to the fullest.

Thank you. It’s nice to know someone understands. I wish you two the best of luck and many happy years in the future. 💕

gracethecactus  asked:

I'm really very sorry, because I'm not completely sure of this situation, but I hope that you will do better in the future! From my understanding, this is really fucking sucking, and I wish that you'll be happy soon. I know my words won't mean all that much, and that I'm just a random follower, but I'm most definitely here for you however cliche that is. I just really hope that you'll be okay as soon as possible, because I don't believe you deserve it from what I've read. Much love to you!

Thank you very much, this means a lot, really, especially in all this situation, none of my followers are random, i love each and every one of you ;) thank you again

anonymous asked:

!!!maybe its issues with doubles and youre p open abt all ur kins :0c

yeah thats understandable, i just wish they’d’a messaged me or smth?? its a bit upsetting to just see im blocket by someone ive never spoken to like..am i jus unlikeable

lover-of-the-navy  asked:

I'm so glad I found your tumblr...I've had suicidal thoughts since my breakup and I can relate to your post so much.

I’m sorry about your break up and suicidal thoughts. But I’m glad you enjoy my blog. Sometimes knowing that someone else understands is helpful. I wish you the best.

I got an anonymous request to make a tutorial on how I pick what colours I’m going to be using, so here’s the end result of said tutorial. It is rendering right now and I should have it uploaded in 7 hours (because that’s when I’ll  be out of class)… assuming the video renders and exports properly. :U 

update: Still can’t get this video to export properly sooo…. hhh patience. I’ll get it up, I will. I might have to separate the video into smaller clips.


just some quick ADHD facts

- Despite being the most commonly studied and diagnosed psychiatric disorder in children and adolescents, the cause is unknown in the majority of cases

- It is classified as neurodevelopmental psychiatric disorder

- The World Health Organization estimated that it affected about 39 million people as of 2013

- Symptoms of hyperactivity tend to go away with age and turn into “inner restlessness” in teens and adults with ADHD

- ADHD is divided into three subtypes: predominantly inattentive, predominantly hyperactive-impulsive, and combined type

- the disorder is often inherited from one’s parents with genetics determining about 75% of cases

- Current models of ADHD suggest that it is associated with functional impairments in some of the brain’s neurotransmitter systems, particularly those involving dopamine and norepinephrine

- The dopamine pathways and norepinephrine pathways which project to the prefrontal cortex and striatum are directly responsible for modulating executive function (cognitive control of behavior), motivation, reward perception, and motor function; these pathways are known to play a central role in the pathophysiology of ADHD

- ADHD psychostimulants possess treatment efficacy because they increase neurotransmitter activity in these systems

- Symptoms of ADHD such as low mood and poor self-image, mood swings, and irritability can be confused with dysthymia, cyclothymia or bipolar disorder as well as with borderline personality disorder

- The management of ADHD typically involves counseling or medications either alone or in combination. While treatment may improve long-term outcomes, it does not get rid of negative outcomes entirely. Medications used include stimulants, atomoxetine, alpha-2 adrenergic receptor agonists, and sometimes antidepressants

- In children ADHD occurs with other disorders about ⅔ of the time. Some commonly associated conditions include: Learning disabilities, Tourette syndrome, Oppositional defiant disorder (ODD) and conduct disorder (CD), Mood disorders (especially bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder), Anxiety disorders, Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), Substance use disorders (this is most commonly seen with alcohol or cannabis), Restless legs syndrome and sleep disorders (problems with sleep initiation are common among individuals with ADHD but often they will be deep sleepers and have significant difficulty getting up in the morning)

- It is estimated that between 2–5% of adults have ADHD. Most adults remain untreated

-  Adults with ADHD may start relationships impulsively, display sensation-seeking behavior, and be short-tempered. Addictive behavior such as substance abuse and gambling are common

- Those affected are likely to develop coping mechanisms as they mature, thus compensating for their previous symptoms


I guess you forgot about me faster than I could ever imagine. You’re out there living life, while I’m here dying inside.
—  i hope you’re happy for I am not

Favorite character meme: five episodes •  1.11 God Has Spoken

I’m meeting with the surgeon next week. They say they can get the whole procedure on the books soon after. And I got to get Boden involved. And the painkillers… I’m gonna go cold turkey. But if I feel like I’m gonna slip on a banana peel, the union has an employee assistance program for substance abuse. Dawson looked into it. I am so damn proud of you, Kelly.

I miss you when...

I miss you when something really good happens,
because you are the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you are the one who understands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake
at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those are some of the best times of my life.