i wish to see them live

the being in the room down the hall

There is a being in my life who is too shy to say hi. They live where I live, and loves to hide in the room down the hall, where the door is barely cracked open. I can see them when I pass by, when I hurry into the room next to them, they stand by the door. When I turn they are gone, but only from vision. I used to be scared of them, but I have learned that they intend no harm to me. I do wish I could speak with them, be their friend and hold them close, but I am a simple child who does not how. They have been there all my life, for as long as I remember, and I do wish they never leave.

  • me, looking at the current state of the world, crying: I wish none of this had happened...
  • Gandalf, materialising in my conscience, smiling kindly: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world, besides the will of evil.
I wish it need not happened in my time,” said Frodo.
“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

I don’t think there’s any quote more suitable for today (9 November 2016)

so you know how we all are Not Over™ isak and even, and it’s starting to become a problem??? well, imagine always listening to the skam soundtrack during your commute and also imagine that your commute involves passing by a lot of skam locations, like sagene church and the street of isaks flat and last but not least the radisson blue plaza aka the hotel from episode 8. and then imagine high for this starts playing the excat moment you can see the plaza hotel in the distance… anyways this is the story of how i ended up crying on the bus this morning and arriving at work looking like a wreck.

anonymous asked:

Top 5 interactions you wish would happen?

Oooooh well. This gonna be a good (and probably very obvious) one.

1. BOKUTO AND OIKAWA. LISTEN. L I S T E N. I live and breath Bokuoi, they are the shape of my soul, my sun and stars, the light of my life, my one true guilty pleasure, my ultimate rare pair, I’ll give up everything for them ok???? #1 is not even enough, they’re in a league of their own and honestly this top 5 should be only Bokuto and Oikawa in all the 5 places because I’ll legit pay money to see them interact I just…need this so badly, it’s my only wish. No one could ever compare to them ok I love them so much !!!!!!!!!

2. Kuroo and Oikawa. This could be the greatest power friendship that world has ever seen or a complete train wreck. I honestly have a weakness for the first, let the Tokyo-Miyagi axis rise! They would simply JUDGE EXTRA HARD everyone, have a shit ton of inside jokes, pull the lamest pranks and talk about hair products 24/7. Salty, sassy, snaky, together they are just PERFECT

3. Bokuto and Kenma. Oh, I have a huge soft spot for this one. I’m genuinely curious of what they think of each other, if they enjoy each other company, if they ever talk to each other. I feel like they could get along really well, even surprisingly so. Bokuto is surely loud, but I think that Kenma would find his built quite comforting, almost a safe place to hide. Also whenever Kuroo and Kenma fight, I’m sure that Bokuto ALWAYS takes Kenma’s side. Idk I’m so weak for Bokuto being all protective with him and Kenma letting himself be protected by him <3 

4. The captain squad. OF COURSE. We all read national hod dad alliance (if you haven’t please do, it’s a fandom classic) and seeing Bokuto, Oikawa, Kuroo, Daichi and Ushijima interacting all together would be the ultimate blessing. @Furudate….please….I’m begging you. But, in the meantime…COLLEGE AU, COLLEGE AU, COLLEGE AU!!!!!! 

Originally posted by angrytobio

5. The next gen captain squad. Have you ever read fresh or something? Well, DO. Ennoshita, Yahaba, Akaashi, Shirabu, Terushima, Futakichi…all together are an explosive match. In the fic they organize a little day of tournament together and, honestly??? YES PLEASE ???? This is the most competitive and sassiest generation of captains ever, I’m sure their interactions would be LIT AF (also I low key ship some of them but that’s another story)

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A mountain I wish to climb one day. This view was made possible by a friend of mine and her old love, her boyfriend is a pilot living out of Healy AK and seeing them in love was inspiring. He chased her to Alaska and became a pilot for a Denali flight company. Long story short. I essentially soared on the wings of their love 🤘🏻


Choi Twins Harry Potter crossover!

I had lots of ideas and sketches that I wish I’d finish, but I’m still glad I completed these two!

I got a feeling that Saeyoung and Saeran would live in a cupboard like Harry and one of their best memories would be a day they recieved a letter from Hogwarts.
And I totally see them becoming partners and starting up some mischievous buisness just like Weasley twins *_*
I thought of 707 being total Ravenclaw and Saeran going to Slytherin

Whishing for you to have lots of magical moments this year!

and some music inspiration as usual 
our last night – blank space

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  • Frodo: I wish the Ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.
  • Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world, Frodo, besides the will of evil.
A Thousand Tomorrows

Originally posted by claracivry

In answer to this anonymous request: can you pls write something for Credence based on “can i hold your hand?” & “i love you today, and i’ll love you tomorrow and everyday after that.”? feel free to make it extra fluffy if you wish!! thank you

A/N: Arghhh, I’ve gotten so behind on answering requests and I’ve been very busy with other things as well. But I promise, I’m slowly working through each of them!

Again, do let me know if there’s anything you’d like to see me write!

title: A Thousand Tomorrows

warnings: fluff, slight mentions of abuse, fluff, fluff, fluff, fluffffff


     Sometimes, Credence thinks he’s living in a daydream.

     That certainly seems to be the case, especially when he wakes up each morning to the tantalizing smell of pastries, freshly baked and bought from Mr. Kowalski’s store. Tina makes it a habit to drop them off each day, but rarely has time to enjoy them before rushing off to work.

     Or maybe it’s Newt’s fantastic, marvelous case of equally fascinating creatures that makes him think so. He’s found that he particularly likes to look at the bowtruckles. They’re tiny and adorable, and he’s beginning to form an attachment to one of them.

     Perhaps it’s the way Ms. Goldstein, the golden haired one who smiles sadly whenever she sees him, always comes by to make him a dinner so large he can never finish it. He wonders why she always winces when his thoughts meander towards Mary Lou and the sting of the belt across his palm.

     Or maybe, Credence decides, it’s the fact that you’re there with him.

     You, with your sincere smiles. You, with your sleepy good mornings. You, with the way you’ll cry for him when he wakes, trembling from nightmares, reciting all the poisonous lies Mary Lou branded into him, palms proffered, braced for a beating.

     He wonders what makes you so magical.

     It’s in the way you talk, Credence realizes, staring in what he believes is an inconspicuous manner. (It’s not.) Perhaps the magic is laced in the curve of your lips, in the twinkle of your eyes when you chatter on, just the right amount of excited. He feels a sort of strange, alien fluttering in his stomach, and he falters, unsure of whether he likes it or not.

     It’s in the way you laugh, Credence amends, watching as you pause to snicker at a joke Newt’s just made, attempting to suppress your laughter. You’re mostly failing, and he finds that his own mouth is copying yours, grinning. He hastily corrects himself. The magic, he says firmly, is in the way you beam, infectious and giddy. There’s that funny feeling again, Credence notes. He thinks he likes it.

     It’s definitely in the way you love, Credence revises. His gaze follows you as you cradle one of Newt’s Occamies, laughing that familiar, bell-like laugh, before you set it down in its nest. There’s an undeniable magical quality to the way you whisper ‘I love you’, to the hushed, secretive nature of your voice, as though the words are far too big to be contained should anyone else hear it.

     The night is cold, but Credence is not, because you’re there with him. He watches, fascinated, as you laugh into the chilly air, breath puffing out in little gasps, and wonders what it would be like to kiss the breath from your lips. But those are dangerous waters, and his eyes flicker down to your hands instead, exposed to the winter air.

     “Can I hold your hand?”

     There’s a beat of surprised silence from you, and you turn toward him, eyes wide and shining. He begins to stutter, to backtrack, because oh why did I have to ruin it, he scolds himself. But you’ll have none of that, and he finds your fingers lacing with his, already starting to warm up.

     You smile at him, the widest he’s ever seen. And there’s that feeling again, where it’s like the world has dropped beneath him, leaving only you and him, alone in the sky, hands entwined.

     “Don’t leave me,” he breathes out, rushed and quiet and everything terrified. He shouldn’t be scared, he really shouldn’t; Newt and Tina and everyone else didn’t spend all this time making sure he knew he was loved for nothing.

     But he is, and when you don’t answer, he stares down, shame burning his cheeks, and suddenly, he doesn’t feel like he’s floating anymore. The world has dropped from under his feet, but it’s no longer a pleasant sensation, and he tugs his hand from yours.

     You grasp his arm.

     You can feel his muscles, thin and starved, tighten beneath your touch. Credence stills, refusing to make eye contact, so you slide in front of him instead, forcing him to look at you.    

     “Credence,” you begin, “Listen to me.” You reach up to cup his cheeks, and you sense more than hear the slight hitch in his breath. “I will never leave you. I love you, Credence. I love you today, and I’ll love you tomorrow and everyday after that. And in the infinity after death, I’ll continue to love you.”

     Your thumb snags on a stray tear, but you’re not quite sure who it belongs to. Credence is happy, and he’s never thought it possible to feel so much. It’s overwhelming, and yet, he likes it. He definitely likes it.

    Everything about you, Credence decides firmly, is magic.

“I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo. "So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

Okay so happy 6th birthday to this beautiful piece of art. It was the album after the split we didn’t know if Brendon and Spencer were gonna create another album or just end it right there but they did and this was the outcome. Thank you to for the memories ;) and for the energetic live shows (personally I never attended any of it but I wish I could’ve) I think this was one of the most beautiful eras of Panic! At the Disco. I loved their bow ties and stage presence. Thank you to this beautiful album for introducing Dallon James Weekes to us (that beautiful man and Brallon) and some of my favourite songs of all time. I just hope I get to see them someday. This was a beautiful album and was a beautiful era so put another x on the calendar ;) for another year.

~Vices and Virtues
March 18 2011


Tony. I’m glad you’re back at the compound. I don’t like the idea of you rattling around in a mansion by yourself. We all need family. The Avengers are yours, maybe more so than mine. I’ve been on my own since I was 18. I never really fit in anywhere. Even in the army. My fate’s in… people, I guess. Individuals. And, I am happy to say for the most part, they haven’t let me down. Which is why I can’t let them down either. Lives can be replaced, but, maybe they shouldn’t. I know I hurt you, Tony. I guessed I thought by not telling you about your parents, I was sparing you. But… I can see now that I was really sparing myself. And I’m sorry. Hopefully one day you can understand. I wished we’d agree on the Accords, I really do. I know you’re doing what you believe in. And that’s all any of us can do. That’s all any of us should. So, no matter what. I promise you, if you need us, if you need me, I’ll be there.

highkey wish more people acknowledged the trauma Allura went through and the fact that she’s probably plagued with nightmares because she was basically forced to kill her father and had to see him die again and she lives with this knowledge every day while trying her best to encourage the paladins and help them grow and smile for them and laugh while she cries herself to sleep every night but she knows she has to stay strong because protecting the universe is SO important to her an— just, Acknowledge Allura and her struggles. Please

anonymous asked:

yknow i dont do shipping in general but i think its hilarious that the lapidot ship went from shipping two minor characters that had never interacted with each other to those characters living together, wishing on a star and supporting each other emotionally like who saw that coming

YEAH and tbh im really glad bc this ship helps me cope with abusive trauma 

i love just seeing them supporting each other that means so much

anonymous asked:

Hi, so I'm dreading the EMA separation. ( if it even happens) But Eren and Armins relationship is strong, so what could be so bad that they'd part ways? They're best friends. Same with Eren and Mikasa. (I ship them) I just can't see what could drive them apart. All they have in their world is each other.

…Or is it?

Isayama insisted twice about that separation thing. In an old Q&A (which was the main argument why Armin needed to live when chapter 82 was out) and in ANSWERS about the “three of them going in separate directions”. Take that sentence as you wish, but it implies the three of them aren’t going to be together like before.

First of all I’d love to examine the last pages of SnK volume 21 here.

Keep in mind this double page is published after what I’d like to refer as the darkest volume of the series, where the serumbowl occurred, Erwin and Bertolt lost their lives, and the basement revealed that the SC’s current goal was basically pointless, on top of having a more advanced nation wrapping their necks around their ropes. Meaning when the reader finished the volume on a more light-hearted page, it would basically be an ideal world where the situation becomes more casual and lighthearted (school factions instead of war and military).

On this page, the characters would be sorted by affinities, most of then in accordance with canon relationships as we know: Ymir growing fond of Historia when she initially wanted to use her as a safety chip and vice-versa, Bertolt clinging around Reiner and being his aide, same parallel as in canon (which could be further evidenced by future flashbacks), Hitch and Marlowe bickering like their MP-selves (both of them were pretty much mundane in comparison to the SC life), Sasha and Connie being the baka duo which is pretty self-explanatory, Annie walks alone she walks alone. Her shadow haunts the boulevard beside her

You’ll notice EMA doesn’t hang around in this page: Eren is standing aside, looking down the pavement, because Isayama described him as the typical normie who wants to stand out from anybody instead of just going under the flow. Mikasa is standing behind a tree with her nerd friends. I’ll need someone with a better Japanese than me, because her description says “Jean who was trying to establish a connection” at the beginning, which refers to Jean’s crush on Mikasa at the beginning of the series. I have no idea whether it implies jeankasa in the end à la Grease or if it’s just her acting casual about Jean’s flirting, but there’s no mention of Eren in it. Affinity-wise, she’d rather hang with the nerds and weirdos. Meanwhile, Armin hangs with Jean and Marco. Armin’s and Jean’s description is exactly the same in the guidebook: Armin hangs with his laptop and loves anime, Jean thinks he’s popular under his bad boy look… Marco’s description is new in that he’s Armin’s nerd buddy. The Armin/Jean/Marco trio had some basis in their canon counterparts where Jean got along fairly well with both boys in the course of 3 years and Armin and Marco fixed their 3DMG together, indicating some friendship over common interests. So what can we deduce from this?

By affinities alone, EMA doesn’t even need to be together. Because of their personalities, something will eventually break.

Yet EMA is seen together in canon as this inseparable trio who will always support themselves no matter what… Since we got that huge infodump in August, I started to have my doubts about this “unbreakable cohesion”.

Let’s say the march begun in chapter 85, after Armin woke up:

When Eren had to tell everything to Armin, he didn’t mention the part where he and Mikasa heavily insisted in bringing him back to life. If their friendship could trump everything, they would admit it was under their request. The reason why they didn’t is because they knew it was a very bad decision to nail on, further explained by Hange and Levi, even Armin himself:

Erwin should have been chosen - Ch. 85

Everybody thought Erwin would be the right decision, even Eren and Mikasa to a certain extent, which directly contradicts their arguments from chapter 84 arguing Armin could lead to victory, or he could save humanity. They didn’t even protest against him being dragged down, because they just wanted to bring him back without any further consequences, not because they evaluated him to be more suitable than Erwin.

That lack of honesty with Armin was a first start, but what about the other times?

It was revealed Eren was quite the selfish type who felt “empty” due to his lack of meaning of life. He tries to compensate by letting his anger out towards the titans, but it’s revealed he doesn’t care about Armin’s dream, or the ocean itself.

Armin’s dream and Eren - Ch.72, 14, 84

The first panel shows Eren lacking Armin’s excitement for further discoveries. Armin eventually noticed Eren’s expression of disbelief and expressed disappointment, showing the latter doesn’t share the same dream than him. The other panels were him forgetting about his dream. To me, that definitely nails the ocean as a pretext rather than a sincere dream.

Furthermore, Isayama described Eren as having a sort of Armin-complex, here:

Isayama: Inside Eren’s mind, there is something like an emotional complex. For instance, in contrast to Armin who dreams passionately about the natural world outside the wall or unknown legends, Eren holds nothing but indignation. So that attitude develops into a complex - and there is also an inner part of him wondering “Am I empty-headed?” - but then he learns that human beings can turn into Titans. As his existing beliefs are gradually getting destroyed, he makes “How about just conserving myself?” a new standard, and he makes decisions and acts based upon it. -@suniuz

Which explains why he doesn’t remember the ocean, but this:

“You looked like you were seeing an amazing dream. But… I didn’t have anything” - Ch.73

That scene in particular made him remember how worthless he felt compared to Armin, who was already illuminated by his grandfather’s book. I felt like he was filled with self-loathing whenever he thought about Armin’s life being in line because he gave himself a sense in his life at 8 years old. Armin’s motivated by world exploration and his sense of curiosity. Eren’s been meanwhile considered a slave of the story.

But what about Armin and Eren? Why does he keep hanging around him?

First of all, Eren was the first friend Armin ever made, on top of him defending him against the bullies. Since he wasn’t physically fit and was the weirdo of the area, he was eventually an easy target, not only a physical one, but also a mental one. He suffers from low-self esteem and doesn’t want to be seen as powerless, a coward or a burden. When Eren (and Mikasa) entrusted his faith on the tactic side, he felt like a burst of confidence flowing inside him. 

“I had just… convinced myself… convinced myself that I was powerless… that I was a burden… But these two… didn’t think of me that way… What other evidence do I need? These two are putting their lives in my hands… They… trust me more than… anyone else in the world…” - Ch.11

And that happened only because Eren trusted him before anybody else… Until recently.

For starters, there’s the explanation from chapter 85 I provided above that neither Eren or Mikasa defended Armin when they were agreeing Erwin was a better decision. That’s where it doesn’t exactly work anymore because Armin still heavily relies on Eren and Mikasa for moral support, to the point he needs to hang around them, to convince himself they still care about him as a person. That’s why he was standing nearby their cells in chapter 87, despite being burdened with two deaths in the previous volume.

Him convincing himself Eren still care about going to the ocean is even felt in chapter 82, where he decided to entrust his dreams to his best friend in a final assault against Bertolt. That time, thinking about the outside world filled him with courage.

Armin getting determined - Ch.81

The courage boiling inside him was filled with the many wonders awaiting him beyond the walls. Now that the truth’s been revealed, I wonder how much of that curiosity’s been shattered? Armin lost one of his main motivators. He only have Eren and Mikasa left, a.k.a. people who don’t even fully trust him.

So where does Mikasa go in all of this?

Before ANSWERS I actually didn’t think about a possible separation between her, Eren and Armin, from what it looked, her bond with them was pretty sturdy.

Isayama: Mikasa’s growth probably involves separation from Eren. By separation, I mean she might be able to return to that ordinary girl that she used to be in childhood…… I read some interesting thoughts from readers on the internet. People would say male mangaka have a tendency to reject the notion of “fate.“ On the contrary, female mangaka draw works that approve “fate.” You meet your Mr./Ms. Right, you say “This is fate!”, and you accept that the trajectory of your life is already predestined. People who interfere with that and seem to affect your serene life are portrayed as villains. Of course, I am not speaking of all mangaka, but with my mentality as a male mangaka, I think it is pitiful if Mikasa’s life is only about staying together with Eren. However to Mikasa, it is a wonderful thing to be with Eren forever. Combining what I’ve said, if I were to draw the separation of Eren and Mikasa, I feel like my portrayal likely won’t be satisfactory for readers, because Mikasa would have to endure the strain of being stuck between Eren and Armin. Even though she can sympathize with Armin, who considers things from a “globalism” perspective, it’s possible that she can’t just let the more self-focused Eren go.


It was the first time the early fandom wank about whether Eren was good fro Mikasa or not resurfaced. So many memories…

Her degree of separation apparently involves a return to roots? That one where the sweet, innocent Mikasa settles in instead? Considering her experience, I doubt she could set up like this when she clearly experienced the worst of the world. So it’s more a setting where she renounces to her place in the military and sets up to some place safe where nobody would harm her. That’s a lifetsyle completely incompatible with Eren’s life: Mikasa was fine working in the fields, but Eren constantly needs to make his justice and he’ll stay in the warzone till the very end. If Mikasa can bargain with the Eastern Country with the mark of her clan, perhaps they’re going to let her in. There’s still the very first pages from the manga

To You, 2,000 Years From Now - Ch.1

That girl for me is clearly Mikasa: the early short hair, the scarf… Only the clothing looks different. Almost casual in fact. To me this panel is saying “I’m parting ways with you but we’ll see each other someday”. That’s pretty contradictory to what Mikasa fixed herself: to be at Eren’s side. Isayama thinks this is pathetic but it’s nearly essential for Mikasa to stay with him for the rest of her days. And by pathetic I mean this is the only goal she fixated herself in life: when her parents were brutally murdered in front of her eyes, her whole world crumbled. When Eren came and killed her kidnappers, she was brought back and followed his way of living, similar to a cub imitating her parents. Aside from Eren, her whole life seems pretty empty. As she ackerattached in pretty terrible circumstances, this is understandable.

The only way for her to “let go” of Eren is her realizing he doesn’t need her anymore. Either because he holds the coordinate and will figure out a way to activate it and wage war, making Mikasa’s Ackerpowers truly obsolete, either because Eren will make his own path without Armin and Mikasa. We’ll see how the future chapters will play out, but it’s clear to me he’ll send those wall titans on Marley. I have no idea if he’s gonna spare the Eldian minority residing there, considering they just offered one of their members as food.

About Isayama betraying the readers, I’m fully prepared for it to happen. After all, he deprived Levi from Erwin. That certainly won’t prevent him from doing the same with Mikasa. He also detailed in a separation scenario she would side with Eren, no matter what, even if it means going against Armin. Eren and Armin having an argument would truly wreck Armin’s closest relationships.

@momtaku voiced her opinion about Mikasa a while ago pretty consistently about her ackerbond with Eren. Honestly the more I’m reviewing Mikasa’s character, the most empty it feels. Aside from the second remnants of her family, nothing motivates much. Yet in that Highschool AU, we have her studying the occult, probably believing in paranormal entities and writing creepypasta… Her gloomy hobby matches her canon “creepy” personality but in this AU she seems more… fleshed than her canon counterpart at the same time? Is that a Mikasa who never had trauma in her youth and didn’t develop an ackerbond prematurely and looks shy, cute and probably harmless?  

I think the main breaker is Eren’s personality here.

Eren is described as being “a slave to the story”, always wanting to make himself look important: the highschool AU describes him as that grumpy normie on teenage hormones who doesn’t have any particular way to stand out. In canon, this is described as him being all talk about idealistic speeches without even thinking about them.

Eren defying Jean - Ch.3

That’s how he was able to convince Connie, Mina, Thomas and Samuel to join the Survey Corps. His inspirational words also struck Mikasa, Armin, Historia to some extent. Thanks to his abilities as a titan shifter, Erwin placed high hopes on him as well, along with most of the SC… and we all see how he payed him back. 

This is oddly reminiscent of somebody else, isn’t it?

Grisha encouraging the masses - Ch. 86

We all know how it turned out. Not only Grisha played himself, he also got the first restorationist he met calling him out.

Grice calling Grisha out - Ch.87

I’m expecting the same thing to happen with Eren and his comrades. It all depends about the next line of operations.

Phew, I didn’t expect that post to get that long but here we are. Hopefully I could explain why it doesn't bode well for EMA.

Addendum: The implications behind Eren and Mikasa’s pressure to bring Armin back are far worse considering everything I’ve said previously. If they let Armin die, they would’ve been impacted by bereavement sure, but not as heavily as they feared. Mikasa was actually ready to move on when Hange convicted her to let go and if Eren inherited Grisha’s mindset, the same can be assumed from him (he started a new life and let go of his old brothers, his first wive included). Having Erwin alive could’ve improved the road to a bittersweet ending at the cost of his sanity however. The only situation left unchanged would’ve been Reiner’s and there’s still something unfair, even if the serum would’ve been given to Erwin.