I genuinely only like seeing the boys in public performances. Not preinterviews. Not post interview. Not pictures of them arriving somewhere. Not the promo before of after each event.
The only thing that has brought me joy from each member of One Direction going solo has been their public performances.
They are a band that made us all feel emotionally attached to the boys beyond their performances. Beyond public anything.
Part of me is so happy that they finally have the privacy and private lives they deserve.
Part of me wishes that they got to be both. Themselves and private.
I love One Direction so much. And I don’t know how to love them properly. I want to support who they’re supposed to be publicly so I don’t take anything from them. But when 90% of what’s being presented is the opposite of who I’ve grown to know all these boys to be… it hurts and it’s confusing. And I don’t want My One Direction back. I just want one direction to be able to be back and themselves in whichever way they want to share with us.
I just want them happy. And i don’t know how to reconsile all for the lies and sacrafices they’ve made and accepting that they’re happy when they might not be.
Above every joy one direction has ever given me. I want my four boys to be happy.